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No Striving Needed

By striving to become something the Conditioned Mind makes you believe is needed, you miss the entire point that you already are all that you are and if that isn’t enough there’s nothing that will make it so…

By understanding what the practice of quieting the monkey mind does, you stop striving to become and you’re guided by the Creative Intelligence of the Universe; this puts you in total harmony with life. You’ll realize you are complete just as you are and nothing added can make you more complete. This is priceless because when this is experienced you’ll understand the difference between being and doing, and you will stop doing to become because you’ll see you already are all that you can be. By striving to become, whatever you become doesn’t enhance what you already are.

At the base of this understanding is love, nothing more can be added that would make you become something other than that. Even if you found the cure for cancer, it wouldn’t be enough unless it was derived from love, and it wouldn’t be the cure that would make you enough, it would be it arising from love. Love is enough, only the Conditioned Mind needs something else, not really, but it’s the ego that makes life into a belief something other then love is needed. A belief isn’t real, it’s a story made up by an egoic mind. There are no facts in a belief; love is real, beliefs aren’t.

Most waste their entire life striving to become what you already are simply because it’s not realized. That’s why when you stop striving to become something different then who you are, you stop looking to become something different then who you are. You can’t become that which you already are, so all that’s needed is to realize what has always been there. You are who you are, who you have always been, and who you will always be. This is not a belief or a story, this is a fact. You cannot be anything, but who you are, if you want to believe you are your story, than that is who you will make yourself out to become, but it’s not who you are, it’s only your made up story. Why do you think when this is understood there is peace, because you stop striving to become and just be. This is when love is enough because you realize love is simply who you are.

Listening to the Wind

We live in a world torn between wanting to listen to the wind and wanting to attach to the surface sounds of the world. By being aware of the first part, we acquire the energy necessary to prevent the second.

The selfish and destructive conditioned mind behavior that was in control for most of my life seems to be in a place of neutrality. I would never say the conditioning is gone for good because just by labeling it so would give it the needed energy to return. It’s very important to see what’s in place as being the point where we connect with the world, but not making it into a story. We live in a world torn between wanting to listen to the wind and wanting to attach to the surface sounds of the world, but sometimes just by being sensitive enough to the first part, we acquire the energy necessary to prevent the second. In stillness all truth arises.

Here’s a story: There once was a king who went for long walks, he would walk the same route everyday for miles. One day he stepped on a nail and his foot become infected. When the infection cleared up, he ordered his servants to carpet the route he walked with leather. Overwhelmed with this order, one of the servants suggested he wrap his feet in leather instead of the entire route; hence shoes were invented. The point of this is to show how one only needs to focus on being mindful of themselves, not focusing on saving or trying to change the world, the more mindful one is of their own behaviors and actions, the more things around them will change.

One will never prevent the sounds of the world or have the entire world carpeted in love, but you can listen to your own heart and not be a part of the surface noise by keeping your own house in order instead of being overwhelmed trying to change everything else. When we are mindful of our own conditioning and we take care of the place where we connect with the world, we offer the world our true self, not by trying to change it or by ignoring the surface sounds, but by simply listening to the wind.

Constant Motion

Life is constant motion, it never stops. If this motion is noticed it will allow much more understanding of life than if one is blindly controlled by habitual mind patterns that have a tendency to make things appear stagnant.

If the constant motion of life isn’t understood, that’s when the habitual conditioned mind patterns take over; it’s just the process in place. You can be in a state where you are happy and out of nowhere arises something that triggers one of your habitual stagnated mind patterns. Depending on what these patterns are based in determines if you are still happy after it’s attached to. This is how it works, we’re pulled around by patterns and the constant motion goes unnoticed so it’s controlling energy attaches to whatever pattern is associated with the moment. This is where everything arises from, feelings, emotions, sensations, judgements, hatred, and whatnot, hence the puppet on a string syndrome is king if the constant motion of life isn’t noticed. Think about this, you can’t have any feeling or emotional swing without attachment to motion, most people don’t really have any inkling of this and because of this very few truly understand life. I don’t say this in jest, I’m no different although I probably notice the constant motion a little more.

Here’s something to do to possibly understand the constant motion a little better. Make a commitment to sit for a certain time, say thirty seconds, keep it real. In those thirty second just watch what arises, watch the constant motion, a thought arising and just notice it. Just sitting, looking, acknowledging, noticing, letting it arise and pass; all of this is just the constant motion of each particular moment. This should help in getting a better grasp on the constant motion. The committed sitting time is up to the individual or don’t sit at all and remain a slave to the constant motion as it arises and habitually controls your life. It’s the constant motion that makes life what it is and if this goes unnoticed so will most of your life.

Impermanence of Existence

To understand life one must understand death. When conditions are right to support life we exist, when those conditions aren’t supported existence in this form ends. Understanding this impermanence is freedom…

You will understand what true freedom is when you understand the impermanence of life. At any moment life can change from conditions that allow it to be, to conditions that don’t support it. The real question is do you truly understand this? Conditions that don’t support life will change for many today, if you understand this can occur at any time, it will allow you to let go of all the nonsense you think you need for your life to be. The only place of true freedom is in understanding this.

Do anything you want, but understand no matter how much you hold onto it, one day just like that and without your permission, conditions will not be favorable to support your current existence and life as it is known will end. It’s not a bad or good thing, it’s just the way it is. One day conditions were right and your current form began, and if you are reading this conditions have been favorable up to this point to allow you to remain in your current form of existence, but it will not last this way forever. When you know your current form of existence to be temporary, how can you not be grateful and know that now is the only moment that ever is. Death is not truly death, it’s merely the existence of changing conditions.

Things exist until conditions change and then their existence changes. When a beautiful flower grows and you cut it to put it a vase, you don’t think of killing the flower, but you have changed the conditions for the flower to continue its existence in its current form. The moment it’s cut, its existence has been altered. The key is to enjoy the beauty of the flower in its current form. That’s how it is with our life, conditions will change one day that will not allow us to continue to live in our current form, but you can enjoy all the beauty that your current form has to offer, if you just understand that one day it will change.

What's in Front of You

You may not be able to change the way that things are right now, but you can live in a way that you simply do what’s in front of you and live life as it’s given…

To love life as it is one must learn to love what’s in front of you. What’s in front of you is what’s happening right now. It’s the only place where life can be lived; it’s the only place that life can be loved. If you don’t love what’s in front of you, how can you love the life you are living? Life can never better then it is right now simply because right now is what’s in front of you; only the Conditioned Mind makes you think this isn’t so. You can wish for things to be different then what’s occurring, but it’s your life that’s being wished away, so just be with what’s in front of you and live and love the life that’s given.

Our paths are laid before us to do the best we can with the tools that we have. There needs to be an anchor so our path is clear cut. It’s very easy to veer off the path if you aren’t vigilant. There are many diversions that will try and knock you off it. It’s like your life is an obstacle course and they’re in place to divert you from what’s in front of you, from the present which is the Here and Now. There is only the present of what’s in front of you, but there are many mind made obstacles. One of the main obstacles is wanting things different. The mind tells you if things were different life would be better, this is the great lie.

Things are only as they can be, and it’s only the present that makes you free. You may not be able to change the way that things are right now, but you can live in a way that you do what’s in front of you so love can show you how. So just do what’s in front of you and live the life you are given and simply love because you’re liven.

Attracting Energy

Seeking strictly arises from a false self, in quiet love arises. The thoughts attracted to you are from your own energy; self-seeking is the energy of selfishness and love is the energy of the universe…

I was discussing with someone what it means when a person is released from the bondage of self-seeking. After sitting with this in quietness, I came to the realization in quietness there is no self-seeking. It wasn’t that I had to do anything to not self-seek, it was the exact opposite, I simply sat. When the mind really starts to settle, you will notice how much time is spent going round and round consumed by thoughts that are constantly self-seeking in one form or another. Whatever the self-seeking entails it is for the sole purpose to satisfy a false self. Even if it’s to better ones life it’s still in the form of self-seeking.

To me this is what needs to be done if self-seeking is to stop blocking the love that is in our heart. The thoughts we attract are derived from the way we have been conditioned. We can only have the thoughts that we are conditioned to have. What is in our Conditioned Mind is what produces the energy of the thoughts that are attracted to us, and since thoughts are energy, our attracted thoughts become our manifested behavior. When our energy is in the form of quietness, we are in alignment with the universe and our behavior manifest as love. There is no manifestation of self-seeking behavior from the universe because the universe is love. When Jesus spoke to the father, he was in touch with the energy of Universal Love. This energy is our true nature, it’s Universal Energy that’s the creator of all that is. There is nothing separate from this, but it won’t be recognized that we’re in alignment with it if the base of our existence is to self-seek. This is the evil of the world, all problems arise from here. It’s not that love isn’t there, love always exist, but it’s through our self-seeking that we’re not aligned with love and thus this is what makes you self-seek.

Quietness will always align one with love because it aligns you with the universe, or as Jesus said “with the father.” When you’re conditioned to listen to the self-seeking mind the only thoughts that can be produced are self-seeking ones; this is a major issue in our society. Understanding what it means to be present as the key to this alignment is to understand the Divine Principle of the Universe, which is love. If love is in your heart those are the thoughts you will attract, same as if self-seeking is the base of your conditioning, those will be the thoughts that you attract. This is one of the reasons honesty is so valuable because as you go, you are. You may fool some, but you can not fool yourself. You can lie to yourself though so be honest with yourself, investigate both self-seeking and love. See the thoughts that are attracted to you and which ones are more beneficial to you and to those around you. When you understand the Divine Principle of Universal Love you will not want to self-seek because you’ll understand the self-seeking thoughts that are attracted to you will not be of love.

Accepting What Is

Things happen in life that are sometimes downright nasty, but this doesn’t mean you have to allow them to control you to the point where your mind becomes agitated and you lose your anchor of peace.

When and if your mind settles, you will have more awareness of when it becomes agitated and you just may be able to do what’s necessary to transform that energy so the agitations quiet. This benefit is in the awareness of energy because it’s directly related to transforming the agitated energy to the energy of quietness. How the agitation is created is by attaching to “I” which gives it energy. There is no such thing as an agitated mind unless you feed it. If you want something and you don’t get it, but you feel you need it to be complete, in that moment you will create an agitation. The energy of wanting the moment different is what directs the agitated energy. Take the same situation and just accept that you didn’t get what you wanted and there isn’t any energy feeding an agitation; it’s totally up to you if the agitation exist or not.

Life is life. It will always be as it is. You never have to be agitated, but it will take practice not to be. Every now and again life will be just as you want it, but if that’s the only time you’re at peace, being at peace more often than not will be very difficult, and it’s because life will not remain the way that you want it for long. The most consistent part of life is its inconsistency; just like my golf game. So the key to not having a mind agitation is to accept what is and not to want it any different. Very difficult because there will be many things in life that aren’t pleasant and you will wish they were different. All the wishing in the world will not change what is so it’s just wasted energy creating an agitation. An agitated mind cannot arise when there’s acceptance of what is. Even if you’re not totally pleased with what is it can be accepted so the peace that passes all understanding can be the energy that’s guiding your life, but understand this will only occur when you accept what is as opposed to the way you wish it was.

Judge Another...Condemn Yourself

Your judgements are the very thing that are judged in yourself. No one is perfect enough to judge another, but many only see the speck in someone else’s eye and not the log in their own. Judge another…condemn yourself…

A benefit of the mind settling through self investigation, discipline, and concentration is you will understand the conditioning of others and have a deep compassion for them because you will understand the suffering your own Conditioned Mind caused. Understanding this is at the core of our very existence; it’s the benefit of non judgement. It’s the base of an existence that has to be if there is to truly be a peace with ourselves and with the entire human family. When this is understood you cannot honestly judge someone because you know they are just as you before there was awareness of your conditioning.

Everyone is an imperfect being simply doing what they have been conditioned to do. We all do the best we can with the conditioning that has been bestowed upon us. Not too many asked to be the way that they are; it’s just the way the mind is developed. Some conditioning is down right evil, but it’s still conditioning just the same. Whether a person is conditioned to be a drug addict, a murderer, a CEO of a company or whatever, everyone is just doing what they’ve been conditioned to do. There is no one who hasn’t done something they knew wasn’t morally right, but it was done anyway, that’s all just part of the Conditioned Mind.

When you understand your own conditioning, you’ll be able to separate people from their conditioning and love them because you know it’s the conditioning and not the person that does what they do. Our evil if there is one, is the Conditioned Mind, our goodness comes from the non judgement of this. When you can do this, you’ll be well on your way to a deeper understanding of life and you’ll understand how not to judge and when you’re without judgement, you’re free to love unconditionally. It is then that you will understand the Conditioned Mind and only see the log in your eye…

Present Moment Distractions

The incessant mind chatter is the norm for most. Nothing that’s done is done outside the present moment so the thing to become aware of is if what you’re doing right now is beneficial to you or not…

Past and future distractions are fairly easy to understand, but what about present moment distractions. The Conditioned Mind is diabolical in it’s relentless quest to remain in control. Present moment distractions are basically anything that’s reached for to quiet a mind agitation that arises from a self created delusional lack. There are the glaring reached for distractions, drugs, alcohol, gambling, sex, and what not, but how about the subtle ones. They occur when, we talk behind people’s back, dieting, excessively working out, letting outside circumstances and other people dictate how you feel. There are angry phone calls with customer service reps when you’re not getting your way, when we’re not getting our way in general, thinking life has to be a certain way, no one is driving to our liking, or how about when we make a vow or pledge to try and change some behavior that we feel isn’t right. The problem with the vow or pledge is, although they are probably made in sincerity, it’s very hard to follow through with them because of the unawareness of the way the mind uses them as a distraction. This list goes on and on, and as always your own investigation will reveal what your present moment distractions are.

Just watch how the mind makes mountains out of molehills. It can only wreck havoc even if you’re in the present moment. Being present and not creating a story about what arises in the present will probably be the most difficult thing you will ever do. The incessant mind chatter is the norm for most, only because there’s no awareness that it’s even happening. Nothing that’s done is done outside the present moment so the thing to become aware of is if what you’re doing right now is beneficial to you or not. This awareness is crucial if there is to be any awakening whatsoever. You were born in the present moment and you will die in the present moment and all the distractions in between occur in the present moment. The key is to understand the present moment is always what’s here it just doesn’t have to be a detraction.

The Future is Always Now

An outside view uses distractions based on the senses that attach to the material world. An inside view has no such attachment and is based in the eternal, in love; there are no distractions with an inside view…

Regardless of what the mind uses as a distraction, the one thing they all have in common are they’re designed to take you from the present because a belief is formed that somewhere else is a better place. Lets look how the mind uses future mind patterns as distractions and although their nature is the same as past distractions, they are different in how the mind uses them.

Have you ever thought I can’t wait until I retire, or if my boss was different, if only I could change jobs, my spouse, my circumstances, if only, if only, if only. This is the distraction of the if only mind; a mind conditioned to constantly look to the future. This distraction tells you things need to be different and when they are then you’ll be happy, this distraction only occurs because you don’t know how to be content with yourself in the here and now. It’s truly mind boggling how it seems our entire struggle with life is to find peace and we look in all the places except in the only place that it exist, the present. When you are content with the way things are in the present, no distractions occur and there is no need to look outside the present because you have what you were looking for; when you stop looking, you stop being distracted.

Please take the time to investigate this so you can understand the nature of your distractions. There would never be a need for the mind to be distracted if you were content with the present. This doesn’t mean you don’t do things that makes life more beneficial, but your sense of well-being shouldn’t be based on anything from the outside. An outside base uses distractions from the material world. An inside base uses things that are eternal, of love, of Universal Energy, and it’s the inside view that doesn’t need to look to the future because there’s contentment with life right now.

Disssolving Conditioning

You will receive many benefits if your mind settles down in quietness. This settling though will not just happen, it will take a degree of discipline and concentration for the conditioned patterns to dissolve…

Lately I’ve been writing about conditioned thinking, mind created distractions, and becoming aware of the different tools the Conditioned Mind has developed. Let’s just say by some miracle your conditioned thinking and distractions dissolve, what are the benefits to not being controlled by them? The first thing, there would be less discontentment in your life as the habitual patterns that cause this will begin to lessen. This automatically allows life to become more peaceful, but this is only the beginning. There are many more benefits that are sure to manifest if you honestly investigate your life. If this is done you will discover a large amount of truth about yourself that wasn’t previously known with the possibility of continually enhancing your life.

You’ll understand you’re on the road to a way of life you never thought possible. You’ll stop being controlled by your past, but not by ignoring it; you’ll use it for reflection purposes only and to help others. This new freedom will be everlasting because it will be from within and not from an “I” based mind pattern telling you to look for your answers outside yourself. You’ll be in unity with all beings by knowing we’re all part of the same Creative Intelligence regardless of the label. You’ll understand the conditioning of others and have a deep compassion for them because you’ll understand the suffering the Conditioned Mind causes. The self-centeredness that caused so much harm to you and to others will be replaced by Universal Love and you’ll want this to be the default setting of your mind because you’ll know it’s the only way you will ever be free. Instead of striving to become, you will be guided by the Creative Intelligence of the Universe and you will be in harmony with all of life. You’ll realize you are complete just as you are and nothing added can make you more complete. You’ll come to know how you limit yourself through your own conditioning and you’ll learn how not to be controlled by those limitations. You’ll see when the mind becomes agitated due to some self created lack, and how it’s your “I” doing this creating and you’ll be able to do what’s necessary to transform this energy from lack to love.

These are just some of the benefits you will reap if you are serious about changing your view of life and you honestly want to go beyond the limitations of the view created by the Conditioned Mind. Mind you the alternative is to ignore the truth of what I write about and continue living life the way you have been conditioned and not change. The choice to have a different view has to be made every day as how you live is directly related to this choice, and regardless if there’s awareness of this or not this is entirely up to you…

Beneficial Unfolding

Life unfolds differently for everyone and although there are many opinions on what is the most beneficial way to live, when you come from a place where the opinion is quieted that’s when the most beneficial way to live unfolds…

Because the unfolding of life is so different for everyone, it makes it very difficult for there to be agreement on what provides the most benefits. Having the experience of living strictly from the mind and now simply not doing so has made all the difference for me as far as seeing what’s beneficial and what isn’t. This difference most people don’t understand and the Conditioned Mind remains in control of their life and blocks the unfolding of truly enjoying a beneficial view of life. I find it much more beneficial to simply not associate with people who strictly live from their Conditioned Mind. I was the king of unloving conditioning (non beneficial) for far too many years and I won’t go there anymore.

You will never experience truth from studying someone else’s experience unless it resonates with you, the problem with this is what’s studied mostly stays stuck in your head. Many just throw stuff out there as beliefs and what not which may provide some benefit, but what I point to (for free) is the next step in the evolution process that is truly beneficial because it comes from within yourself. If you are using anything to awaken that doesn’t point inward the benefits will be very limited.

No method or way has been revealed to me, simply sitting to develop discipline so the Conditioned Mind settles is all I know. Without this conditioning in place awareness aware of awareness is allowed so you can see just how non beneficial your conditioning is. This doesn’t mean you transcend your humanness, what happened to me is a peace unfolded that allowed me to be more human and in the process live in a way that’s most beneficial to me and anyone who my experience resonates with…

Agitated Distractions

A distracted mind is an agitated mind. Your mind becomes agitated and distracts you by making you think there is something needed for completeness, but the fact is you are complete as you are, you just don’t know it…

There are so many ways for the mind to become agitated and there is only one way for it to settle. Here are some agitations that the past mind patterns use as distractions. Food has such a strong association with pleasure that it is virtually impossible to stop this agitation. Every time you reach for a certain food or beverage it’s because past pleasures are already established so what the mind uses to become agitated is this association to pleasure. You don’t reach for something that is unpleasant. It’s the association with pleasure that causes the agitation.

These past engrained agitations go on and on. You will need to investigate what causes your agitations if you want to break free of them. You will use whatever you’ve been conditioned to use. Gambling, sex, money, shopping, success, a spiritual journey, our children, chores, our house, TV, the lottery, sports, our cause, alcohol, drugs, fantasy, work, etc, the list is endless. When you start to understand how these agitations take you from your own innate goodness, you can then begin lessening the control they have over you. It will take much awareness, but it’s the only way to break their hold; sitting allows the needed awareness.

It’s imperative to look at the relationship between pleasure and the past and how this association is at the core of the mind agitations that take you from being present. If it’s in the past, learn to leave it there. There isn’t any benefit to bringing the past into the present. It’s only when the mind becomes agitated that it will look for some past pleasure distraction. When you understand your completeness and that it’s only this lack of understanding that causes any agitation, you can start lessening their grip so you can be free in the present. Or not and live an agitated life that keeps you distracted from your completeness. You are complete just as you are, but it will take a mind that’s not agitated to be aware of this…

Mindful of Being

It’s in the mindfulness of being not doing that one truly lives. The irony of this is when you’re mindful of being you can do just about anything that you want, but when there’s just doing, it’s very difficult to be…

One of the most difficult things in life is to keep your head in sync with where your feet are. The wandering mind wants to be every place except where you are and it will continue it’s wandering ways until something happens to change it. One of the tools of the Conditioned Mind is to stay so busy that the wandering mind keeps a person distracted, but this makes life very difficult. If you always have to be busy there’s not much time left for mindfulness of being; it’s in being not doing that we truly live. The irony of this is when you’re mindful of being you can do whatever you want, but when you’re unconsciously doing it’s difficult to be.

I had a conversation with a friend and we were discussing keeping your head where your feet are; the difficulty in doing this lies in the way the mind is conditioned. What I said to him was very simple, when you’re eating an apple just be with the eating; savor each bite. Enjoy the pleasure it brings you and the simplicity of just eating an apple; this is being mindful of the moment you’re in. There is no other moment that exist so you might as well be mindful of it. If you’re not, it’s your life that’s passing you by. It goes by anyway, but the more mindful you are of each moment, the more present you will be for your life…

Past Distractions

To be free is to understand how your distractions are created as a result of your own Conditioned Mind and that these created distractions are the very thing that blocks you from your peace of mind…

While alive if the expansion of a deeper understanding of life is to continue, the distractions that don’t allow this understanding must be identified. One such distraction is carrying the past around, but not the past of just years gone by, how about the recent past of a week, a day, an hour, or five seconds ago. Have you ever said to yourself on a Friday that you’re glad this week is over because it was the worse week ever. Now that it’s Friday you can’t wait to go to the bar and just unwind by having a few drinks. How many times throughout your life has this scenario been played out in your head? I ask you this, when it is Friday and the work week is complete, what does any previous day of the week have to do with right now? If you weren’t conditioned to carry the past around you would be free to live in the present.

You are the only one that creates the distraction that doesn’t allow you to live in the present. The past only burdens you if you choose to carry it. A previous day has nothing to do with what is occurring in the present. Seeing this is a key in continuing the deeper expansion of your life. All this nonsense in your head about the past has no reality to it. It’s not to ignore that the week was difficult, but the more a story is held onto about how difficult it was, the more of a burden it is, and then when you need something to use to unwind, that just further distracts you from the present. This distraction causes so many problems because it blocks out the ability to be with the reality of the present and the present reality is this; the past isn’t real, it existed once, but it doesn’t t exist now. Not even one minute ago has to be carried into the present unless you allow it to be so. Find out one distraction that you use in your life that blocks you from being present and learn to be free of it. After all that is the only thing your distractions distract you from, your present where freedom simple is…

Labeling Life

Life doesn’t come with labels, one applies what is thought to be the appropriate label to what occurs. Without the applied label life would still occur as it is, just not as it’s being labeled.

An understanding of your own mind is the only way you will ever get a true inkling of life. It’s the only way to truly see the beauty of a sunset or to feel a crisp fall breeze. What do you see when a flock of geese fly by in a vee formation or when you see a shooting star? If you strictly have an outer view of what’s there and apply a label, you will miss what’s truly there. It can be labeled, but that’s not what you truly see. Does the sunset describe itself or do does the breeze know its blowing? How about the geese, are they aware of their vee formation, and does the star know it’s moving?

Life always happens whether it’s labeled or not. The place beyond the labeling is where it truly occurs. It’s not stillness, quietness, or any other label that you want to call it, it’s just what’s there; nothing more, nothing less. Our Conditioned Mind has been programmed to label everything, but it’s beyond the labeling mind that life happens. Quietness and stillness are needed, but they aren’t a place to get to or label, they just are.

Without one single label, everything would still be. It doesn’t need a label to be. If you died right now, life as YOU know it would be over, but life itself wouldn’t miss a beat. To life dying is just a part of life, it’s just the way it is; dying is as natural as birth, so it would just continue as if you never existed. Life doesn’t label you, you label life. Understand yourself so you can understand life, but as stated earlier not in the form of a label, but by allowing life to do what it does and seeing what is truly going on beyond the labeling process of a Conditioned Mind. To be or not to be, life just doesn’t care either way.

Cornerstone of Love

You do not have to hope to do the right thing when the cornerstone base of your life is of love, it occurs naturally and without effort because love is simply what’s already in place…

Here is an example of how life plays out depending on what your cornerstone base is. If you are on the phone with a customer service rep (we all know how this is a true test of patience) and you’re not getting the results that you want, whatever you have as a cornerstone base will determine how you will handle not getting your desired results. This was and can still be extremely difficult for me, but I have come to understand what makes it difficult. It’s when my cornerstone base is self-serving, especially when it involves something I am paying money for. When I don’t get what I am paying for, if I am not aware of what my cornerstone base is, my mind can erupt like an active volcano. When it’s of love I’m able to see all the nonsense generated by a Conditioned Mind that feels it’s been slighted because things aren’t going its way and it’s not in control. It’s not because I know the difference between right and wrong that I do what’s right, there is no decision to do what’s right, it occurs naturally and without effort when your cornerstone base of life is of love.

If you are aware of this and truly get it, how can you want to do things that make your cornerstone base anything but love? Now mind you just because you are aware of this doesn’t mean your cornerstone will be based in love, it probably will not be until there is some semblance of quietness in your life. This is what allows love to be your cornerstone base more often than not. The more quietness there is, the more awareness you will have when you aren’t quiet. The more you notice when you aren’t quiet, the more you will simply return to quietness because in your inner essence of quietness is the cornerstone of a life based in love…

Pointing Energy

Pointing at another separates because selfish energy is reinforced which is strictly a by product of the Conditioned Mind. Remember when you point a finger at someone there are three pointing back at you.

The moment you point a finger at another’s seemingly faults you are lost. It doesn’t matter if you’re unaware of the pointing which you are just for the mere fact that you are pointing, or if you justify your pointing, you’re lost in your Conditioned Mind energy when there’s pointing. This energy is detrimental to yourself and others because there simply isn’t any benefit in this energy, it also keeps you entrapped to the pointing which means you are under the spell of your Conditioned Mind. When you’re lost in the pointing at another all kinds of nonsense occurs, but if you could understand that the pointing is simply a control mechanism of the Conditioned Mind this can lead to freedom, but only if it’s seen.

Very few see how diabolical the Conditioned Mind is and so they remain a puppet to it. The word “they” is used because I’ve experienced a shift in awareness that allows this to be seen; this shift makes someone aware of awareness being aware. In this awareness is freedom, but it’s not something manufactured, it simply is. Pointing energy doesn’t allow this because the I Self is reinforced which is strictly a by product of the selfish Conditioned Mind energy. Remember when you point a finger at someone there are three pointing back at you. Social media makes people a lot more nastier because they aren’t actually facing anyone, but the pointing energy is still in place. Remember pointing never hurts the person you are pointing at, it only hurts the one who is pointing because it keeps you wrapped around your own little finger…

Outer View Problems

Whenever it seems there’s a problem outside of you, the problem has nothing to do with what you think as nothing outside of you can truly cause you a problem because everything arises from within you…

The difference between sleep walking in the unconscious world (outer view) or being awake (inner view) is the outer view creates delusional stories that keep you trapped in the stories. The inner view provides a slight opening that keeps on expanding and is freeing because there’s no need for a story. For 49 years everything to me was seen from the outer view and it made up every problem I ever had; this is because the nature of the outer view is to make up problems. It wasn’t until 11 years ago when I began looking inward that I saw there was never a real problem regardless of what was happening; there were just made up stories.

Because of the way we are conditioned most people remain stuck in an outer view which doesn’t allow you to see that nothing outside of you can truly cause you a problem because everything arises from within you. The way I write causes people problems, Donald Trump causes people problems, weather, different races, the boss, the job the spouse, family, causes people problems, this list is endless for those conditioned with an outer view, but none of these are truly a problem. Your story about anything is just that your story and it only has significance to you because of your conditioning. Others may latch onto it, but that’s only because of their own outer view conditioning. If you are fortunate enough to have this truth revealed to you, you’ll be in select company. This doesn’t make you special, but what it does do is it allows you to not get caught up in the nonsense of the outer view (yours and someone else’s). And in the process you will simply remain at peace because that’s what the inner view provides…

Open to See

Just because you do something or have a view of something that’s been in place for a long time that doesn’t mean it’s the most beneficial way for you nor does it make it the correct view…

Yesterday someone was questioning my article which I have no problem with, but the whole base of the their questioning was because they were 70 years old they thought it meant how they see things is the way that it is. You can be 100 years old and not have the correct view of life; by correct I mean a view that provides the most benefits. Longevity doesn’t equate to what you see as being right and someone else being wrong, all it means is you still have a chance to see things differently. The funny thing is it’s not about being right or wrong, I simply share my experience, but some just don’t see and have to question it; it’s all part of the Conditioned Mind that keeps one entrapped to what is unconsciously familiar and doesn’t allow the openness of letting something new in.

Last year I was attending a seminar for work and someone said they had been performing a task a certain way for twenty five years. The instructor said well you have been doing it wrong for twenty five years. I never state that my view is right or the only way, but I do share my experience which makes what I share factual. Few back up their disagreements with me with facts, mostly it’s just Conditioned Mind nonsense. I am open and will listen to anyone who shares their experience, but few do, most want to just tell me what I’ve written is wrong. Understand this; I’m your story of me…not my story of me…without you there wouldn’t be anyone creating your story, so what I write only means something to you, and if you think because you have a certain view that’s been in place for a longtime and that makes it the correct one, I challenge you to look within and see the justified lies your own mind creates; lies that have been in place for a very long time…

Consequenced Results

When the energy of your life is self-serving, you will suffer consequences with self-serving results, and although you can’t be anything but what you are, love’s energy produces consequences with loving results.

Each of us has our own journey to discover the things in within ourselves that will give our existence some meaning. We all use different things for this and none are right or wrong, but some are more beneficial than others. Obviously when something is done that brings harm to another person, there will be harsher consequences to pay then if your actions are based in love, even if you don’t get caught. I am not one to say there is a God that’s always watching, I don’t truly know that, but I do know I cannot hide from myself, and that’s the only person I have to answer to. I can lie to you, I can even lie to me, but that doesn’t mean there won’t be consequences.

Understanding ourselves is our life journey. When we do things that are of a self-serving nature, we along with others pay a price for this, even if we don’t see the consequences for these self-serving actions, they’re there. So many diseases have been linked to these self-serving actions, they just aren’t called that. Diabetes, cancer, depression, stress, anxiety, to name a few are all linked to our self-serving behavior. This is not a belief, this is a fact. When one is of love, suffering is at a minimum. Consequences are a part of life, whether they are self serving or loving is determined by what you are practicing. If what you are practicing is based in self-serving energy than what is produced will have self-serving consequences. When that is the energy that life is lived by it will be very difficult to feel well. Practice love-serving behaviors and your consequences will be a result of love, and when this is the energy that controls your life don’t be surprised when you feel well more often than not.

Distractions in Place

You cannot see any other way except how you see. This doesn’t mean you have to remain this way, but if you’re unaware of the noise in your head, there will be very little room for anything else.

As situations occur daily, the reactions will be determined by the way you’re conditioned. There’s nothing wrong in the reactions themselves, we can only live our life with the tools that are developed. You can take a situation with ten people involved in it and you will probably see ten different ways of reacting to the situation. The more unaware you are of your inner spiritual nature, the less love there will be at the core of your reactions. This is just the way it is. It can’t be any other way. Your reactions can’t be based in love if you’re not aware of the love that’s in your heart. The love is always there, but since there’s not awareness of it, it’s impossible for it to manifest.

Our reactions become what they are because our Conditioned Mind creates distractions to the love that’s in our heart. The more we are distracted by things, the less we are in touch with our heart. To be loveless it seems is to be heartless, but not really, it’s just to be heartless is to be distracted; love is always there. This is why the practice of quietness has so much value, because it lessens the distractions, and with less distractions we become more aware of a life that’s based in love. It’s a love that is and will always be there, but with so many distractions in place it’s very difficult to be aware of this. These distractions are formed from thought so thought is at the core of all distractions. Don’t give the thought energy and it will not create a distraction. All the distractions are is noise, that’s why learning to quiet the mind is invaluable. The distractions will never cease on their own, discipline is needed to allow them to dissipate. Noise is what’s there, so the distractions have to be there. When it’s learned to quiet the mind, the distractions will quiet and the love in your heart will naturally manifest.

Trapped in Thought

When there’s a need to reach for something because of a mind agitation all this means is one is in bondage to their thoughts. Until this is seen, one will remain trapped in the thought of the next thing reached for.

You will never find the peace that a mind agitation blocks out if you’re in bondage to the thought of finding peace. Peace is something that’s already within everyone, but because of the way the mind becomes agitated, you get trapped in your thought that peace is something outside of you. Unfortunately this is bondage and it makes the very thing you are seeking impossible to grasp. A mind agitation is the reason one is constantly reaching for something from the outside and until this is seen, one will remain in bondage to the thought that peace is in the next thing reached for. Reaching for alcohol, gambling, drugs, sex, social status, programs, therapy, self help books and on and on is all the proof one needs to see the bondage. I can’t stress this enough as this holding onto your thoughts has to be seen if one is to experience true peace in their life.

It’s impossible for a thought to take you to peace, what does have to happen if there is to be peace is there has to be an understanding of why you’re not at peace; no peace is only because of one’s inability to just be. When the need to reach for something arises, the bondage to your thoughts begin. This bondage is a vicious cycle that’s very difficult to break. Peace isn’t something attained or achieved because it’s in doing less that peace arises. To many people get lost in trying to find peace and since it’s something that’s already within you, the thought about finding it needs to be discarded so it can arise. This is not easy to see, but it’s why I write. Understand though, I don’t write to help anyone find peace, that comes from within each individual. Why I write is so the bondage to your thoughts can be seen for what it is; the cause of why there isn’t peace.

Questioning Obstacles

Answers are only sought when there are obstacles in the way that create questions. If life was lived as it occurred and you didn’t want it in some other way, questions wouldn’t arise.

An obstacle to our own innate goodness is anything that gets in the way to allow it. Instead of looking within we developed the obstacle of looking out there and this is why there is never true satisfaction. If you continue to seek answers outside yourself, you will continue to have obstacles. You’ll never find answers in the obstacles out there so you’ll always be seeking them, but if you begin to look within, answers will be revealed that previously weren’t seen. This is because there’s an entire planet of obstacles that are used to try to find your answers and none of them provide what’s necessary for answers to arise.

Life is simple, but it’s very complex because of all the obstacles; it’s a process and a process is on going. Today’s answer may not be tomorrow’s answer, but as long as you are looking inward yesterday’s obstacle will not be carried over into today. After all that is how life becomes a burden, all of the obscured events that take place aren’t dealt with as they arise so they pile up and you carry them upon your shoulders as a burden. You do this not life and it’s all because of the obstacles to your own innate goodness.

When the obstacle ladened view is changed by looking inward, all kinds of wonderful revelations occur. Life stops being a struggle because although you still don’t have all your answers, its okay because none are needed. This is the answer you have been looking for all along. Leave the obstacles of life to life. Understand your life is the way it is and wanting it in some other way is just a conditioned obstacle. When you live life as it arises, you still may not have all your answers, but it doesn’t matter because you no longer have any obstacles creating questions.

Conditioned Nonsense

You will never see the nonsense generated by the Conditioned Mind until truth is revealed and truth will never be revealed until you realize that it’s the Conditioned Mind that generates all the nonsense.

To be aware of the nonsense created by the Conditioned Mind is to be aware of life itself. It’s the subtleness of our conditioning that blocks out our connection with life. If you are fortunate enough to notice this, you will be astonished by how much nonsense is generated by your own mind. It isn’t sometimes that this nonsense is generated, it’s 99.9% of the time. The other .1% you are sleeping, but even dreams are nonsense lol. This is a problem because it blocks out our ability to live happily, joyous, and free. Once you understand this you will never want to leave because you will see when you leave nonsense follows; this nonsense becomes your created world. Most people live in a world full of nonsense, pretty tough to truthfully look at this, but if you can’t see this truth, you will not be free; this is not my law, it’s a law of life.

There are so many universal truths that we are exposed to and one of them is “Know the truth and it will set you free” it’s imperative to notice all the nonsense that goes on in your head before you will be able to do something about it. Most people won’t go there and that is part of the nonsense; nonsense blocks out truth. It’s only when you notice this that you can be set free. There is no freedom in the nonsense of a Conditioned Mind, there is only nonsense.

This nonsense is generated in the form of our thoughts and because this is unknown it manifest in some form of behavior; if the base of a thought is nonsense, the resulted behavior also has to be of nonsense. Your life can only be of the energy generated, if it’s nonsense than that’s what your life will be. This is not right or wrong, its just what’s there, but it does determine what your life will be like and the energy transmitted to others.

Cultivate nonsense and that is what others will see, but most of them will think it’s the norm because of their own nonsense conditioning. Learn to quiet the mind and see the nonsense for what it truly is and be set free. Living a life based in the nonsense of a Conditioned Mind doesn’t have to be, but neither does living life happily, joyous and free, that will be determined by the conditioned nonsense in place.

Awareness Aware of Itself

No one consciously puts their Conditioned Mind Patterns in place so why take on the burden for them. They can be changed, but that will only occur when there’s awareness aware of itself…

To understand your own mind, is to understand life. It’s so difficult to do because of all the things that are in place to prevent this understanding. This is basically the point of all my post. If all these distractions weren’t in place, to live in the present moment of love would be easy. It would be what’s in place, so it would be the base of our entire life. Every decision made would be of love; if love was in place. Unfortunately for far too many it’s not. It isn’t that we aren’t trying, but to change what is in place is so difficult because of the lack of discipline created by the Conditioned Mind which has been in place for such a long time. Our habitual thinking is deeply embedded in our subconscious. For this to become different by simply falling away it will take an awareness aware of itself.

Understanding this will be the key if changing what’s in place is to occur. This change though is not to be confused with substitution. It’s not about replacing negative with positive, or anything else for that matter. What’s needed is to develop the necessary discipline to see how we became conditioned to begin with. It’s the discipline itself that leads to awareness aware of itself. When discipline is established, slowly what’s in place will fall away. When what’s in place falls away through disciplining the squirrel cage mind, quietness takes over and thus so does a different more loving view of life as awareness simply becomes aware of itself…

Different Silence

The silence of a graveyard is not the same as the silence of a sunrise. To understand this difference is to understand love and to understand love is to understand life…

To understand love it’s imperative to understand how it arises from silence, but it doesn’t arise from the silence of a graveyard, love arise from the silence of a sunrise. The silence of a sunrise is so different than the silence of a graveyard, both are silence, but they’re different because of the place they arise from. This has to be understood if one is to understand love.

When existence began love was present, it had to be because there wasn’t anything else. It is like the Buddha, the Dalai Lama or Jesus, they are the essence of love because it’s present in them. The difference with them unlike most people is they never lost sight of this. There was nothing that had a strong enough pull on them to take away their silence. Their love arose from silence and is a love of all humanity. Most people on the other hand lose sight of their true essence and are led astray by the silence of the graveyard instead of a sunrise.

The silence of the graveyard is not pure silence, it’s a silence arising from attachment. What I mean by this is there is so much attachment to life and death that the energy associated with it becomes stagnated. It will manifest as silence, but it’s so different than the silence of a star filled sky, a growing flower, or a sunrise. It’s very difficult to understand this difference without the silence of love. Life is a process to get back to the silence of love. It’s a place we should have never left, but we were led astray. The Dalai Lama loves because that is what’s in his heart. Jesus loves because that is what’s in his heart, same with Buddha, their love never left their hearts because they never left the silence; that is the only difference in their love and anyone else. Love is love and who is used as an instrument doesn’t really matter as only love itself means anything because in the silence of a sunrise is the love of life…

Be Still...Be Present...Be Free

Without stillness the Conditioned Mind controls you by using the past and future to dictate how one reacts in the present. This is the base of all conditioning…Be Still…Be Present…Be Free…

Don’t under estimate the power of a Conditioned Mind, it’s as devastating as a nuclear weapon. Oh yeah, it was someone’s mind that created that weapon, that’s how diabolical a Conditioned Mind can be. When our human family began way back when, I’m inclined to think weapons were first created for hunting. As time went on and “I” started to exert itself more and more, that’s when our hunting weapons were probably used against each other.

It began with a stone or a stick then as our Conditioned Mind was further controlled by “I” the weapons became more sophisticated and effective for killing. We developed clubs, swords, bows and arrows, crossbows, then as gunpowder was discovered, it opened the Conditioned Mind to a whole new world of destruction. Guns, catapults, cannons, TNT, hand grenades, and the list goes on and on until we are so entrapped in our conditioning that we now have weapons that can wipeout entire civilizations; behind all this insanity is the Conditioned Mind. The freighting thing about this is some of the most conditioned people in our society are in control of these weapons.

Its a scary world because of the way the Conditioned Mind is allowed to control our decision making process. It makes us think we know what’s best for ourselves and others. The more aware a person becomes of their conditioning, the less control it has over you. Another blessing or possible curse (just kidding) is the awareness of other people’s conditioning. It’s really unbelievable to see how the Conditioned Mind controls the way others conduct themselves. This isn’t a judgment, it’s merely a factual observation. The true benefit to this awareness is by understanding your own Conditioned Mind, it allows you not to get drawn into the conditioning of others. To me I just keep doing whatever is in front of me and continue to not attachment to the way of the world, which unfortunately is based in unconsciousness. Understanding the Conditioned Mind is priceless, being controlled by it is the epitome of suffering. Be Still…Be Present…Be Free…

Eliminating Unnecessary Desire

You think everyone would know the difference between what’s right and wrong, but because of “I” engrained conditioned mind patterns, one doesn’t always do what’s right in the sense of what’s beneficial.

Every time a need to reach for something outside yourself arises, it’s produced because an agitation from your own mind makes you think the need is necessary. It isn’t a true need though, but you don’t know this because this conditioned behavior pattern has been in place for a very long time. Air, water, shelter, rest, food that satisfies hunger, love, are true needs, mostly everything else are just wants and desire, our created delusion is that this agitation produces a true need.

Understanding this is key if one is to learn how to break the chains of these unnecessary agitations that arise as wants and desires. I say unnecessary because it’s only the selfish ones that are unnecessary and cause problems. If the desire is truly from the heart and it’s to love all beings and to practice being an instrument of this love in all our affairs, I can’t really see that as being unnecessary or a problem. That is unless it’s derived from some lack inside you that needs to do this for fulfillment. It’s up to each individual to investigate this for themselves.

Learn to eliminate unnecessary desires and you will never reach outside for anything; without need there is no reaching. What you will then be left with is a life full of love, a life of quietness where the Universe can use your own innate goodness as an instrument for peace. This is not some make believe concept or idea, this is as real as life itself, but the only reason this isn’t realized is because of our selfish Conditioned Mind making us believe we need things that aren’t truly necessary.

"I" Assumes

There’s a struggle that occurs in most lives between one’s outer and inner view. Which view is used in making decisions determines if one’s actions and reactions will be based to self serve or to love.

If there are just unconscious actions and reactions in our daily decision making process, there will be many decisions made without knowing if they’re truly beneficial. Without the discipline that provides some stillness, life becomes one of assuming because we think we are the decider of our decisions. One trait of the Conditioned Mind is there’s no need to question because it assumes it has all the answers. This is a created block that lessens one’s ability to live from intuitive stillness.

When life is lived assuming it creates a struggle between our inner urging from the Universe, which is to love and our outer urging from “I” which is to self serve; this struggle is a battle between the two. When the “I” is in control we assume that the things of the world are in place to fulfill our outer desires, but intuitively if one’s mind is settled we know this not to be true because of being connected to one’s inner urging from the Universe.

Our outer urgings are a product of our environment and other influences. The Conditioned Mind of “I” is what makes one assume; the fallacy of this is a life lived that everything is as it appears. This “I” is our block to love. This is what causes our struggle, but if it was seen and the mind stopped long enough to see our inner essence of love, we would stop struggling with “I” and our assuming would never cause us to be in a battle with ourselves again.

Eyes of Stillness

A Conditioned Mind can only make pre-determined decisions. Only through the eyes of stillness can decisions truly be made as a true decision can only come from the stillness of the heart.

The eyes of stillness can also be called the eyes of love, when these are the eyes that life is viewed through, what you see is so different than what an unconscious pair of eyes sees; by unconscious I mean eyes that blindly conform to what the conditioned world offers. As life is experienced more and more through the eyes of stillness, the observations are centered more in love and there are less responses to decisions based on your conditioning. This leads to an unconventional way of living life because you are not affected by the decisions based in the world. Through viewing life in this way, it is so different than what people have become accustomed to.

With the eyes of stillness no individual decides what happens to you, the Universe decides. Whatever happens is a result of fully cooperating with Universal Love as love is the most powerful force in the Universe. With stillness eyes as your view, no one can decide your fate. Stillness eyes are not of this world, but the decisions made by most people are. No one and I truly mean no one controls another person, how can they as most people don’t even control themselves. They think they do, but this is the great delusion.

Most decisions people make are based on how the Conditioned Mind controls them. You may think you’re making decisions, but you’re only doing what you’ve been conditioned to do. This is the way you have to be, there really isn’t a choice; this is all part of the conditioning. Look at the nonsense that goes on between your ears. It’s truly mind boggling how the mind is controlling ever decision made as if you were a puppet on a string. If you don’t think this is so try and sit still for a half hour in silence. If you can’t do it, don’t be discouraged, not many can, but if you can’t control your own mind when you are consciously trying to do it, what makes you think you are in control when you’re not trying. Why do you think it’s so hard to do, it’s because the unconscious mind blindly conforms to the conditioning of the world and most people are simply blind.

Heart of Gratitude

Our given life is a gift. If you’re not happy with it, it’s not life’s fault. Understand your given life is what’s here right now, it’s up to you to make it a masterpiece of gratitude…

Being grateful for your given life regardless of the circumstances is being grateful for simply life itself. Gratitude is not some made up fallacy in your head because life is a certain way. Life will always be life, when it’s understood that life itself is the gift a grateful heart naturally arises. As long as you think you need life to be a certain way in order to be grateful when it isn’t that way, there’s no way gratitude will arise in your heart. Even if things were exactly how you wanted them, it would still be difficult to be grateful.

Gratitude can never be measured by conditions or circumstances for it to be of the heart. When we make up a story of gratitude because we have this or that, it isn’t true gratitude because it’s based on things. Things are impermanent, gratitude is not, unless it’s based on things. People say it all the time, I am grateful for my life because of this or that, but to understand gratitude is to understand things are not needed to have a grateful heart.

Our life can only be measured by what is in our heart and gratitude is a manifestation of that. True gratitude is not something that can be made up. When you are truly grateful, there is nothing but love in your heart. Life is our gift, and one day it will not be so. Any moment can be your last, so what is it that will be in your heart when the time comes to draw your last breath? Will it be true gratitude for your given life that comes from the heart or will it be a made up story from the head for the things in life that you have, but one day will simply not be…

Truly Living

To be with what is actually occurring is to be present for each moment. If this isn’t where you live from then you are living your life in a place that doesn’t exist…

When the mind really starts to settle you will notice how much time is spent either thinking about the past and using it to try and form the present, or how much time is spent in the future, thinking about the things you are going to do instead of what you are actually doing. Very seldom does one think about what they’re actually doing and that is our greatest dilemma. All the anticipation of what we are going to do mostly has to do with shaping our day in the way we think it will best suit us, and although this is very subtle, this type of thinking centers all around our I, the me, me, me, mind.

The mind has been conditioned to wander. It’s like the mind sees the task at hand to be so menial, it needs to move on to the next thing. This is done constantly until one becomes aware of it. When and if you do start to become aware of this, you will notice how much time is spent thinking about yourself. That in and of itself isn’t the main issue, the main issue is that most of the things thought about don’t really have the capability of enhancing your life. You may think they do, but that is the created delusion the mind uses. Even if it’s something that supposedly will better your life, it doesn’t really change anything. You may make up a story in your head that it does, but that’s only a story. If you become aware that most of the things that you do don’t really mean that much, you will stop creating a story and when you do, you will be left with peace.

This peace is contingent on being present for what’s actually occurring; every place else is just the delusion of a Conditioned Mind. Practicing being present is the most important thing a person will ever do because it’s the only place of true existence. To be present is to be truly alive, anywhere else offers existence, but it doesn’t provide truly living. Nothing is needed to be present unless you make up the story so be with what is actually happening and you will be with your true existence, and probably for the first time in your life you will truly be alive…

Prayer of Now

To attach to “I” is to struggle with life, to be the love of I Am is to be free of the struggle. Because of our conditioning this struggle will only cease when we learn the prayer of Now and be the love of I Am.

To me prayer is not something that is used to get me out of jams or used when I want a situation to be a certain way. What I have come to understand as prayer is something that can be used to stop the incessant mind from trying to arrange every situation the way I think it should be and to put me in the reality of what is happening Now.

In order to do this and allow prayer to be a vital tool in life, Now needs to become the foundation for the way one lives. In other words life is to be a living prayer; a constant state of prayer is a constant state of knowing who you truly are, and to know that the “lie of I” only has the power that it’s given. Not only is it vital to understand this because of the energy of the Universal I Am, but also it is Universal Love which I Am allows that aligns one with life.

To practice being in a constant state of prayer isn’t related to anything that happens in life. It is to be in a constant state of having the heart remain open Now no matter what happens. In this state of Now one can than be with what is actually happening instead of constantly being controlled by a mind that wants everything to be to it’s liking. When this occurs one’s I Am is in alignment with Universal Energy, the heart remains open and one is simply the love of I Am. In this state life is lived the way it was intended, as a light and prayer to all beings.

Appropiately Loving

The judging you do of yourself and others is just part of your Conditioned Thinking. You don’t think anything that isn’t a part of it, it all comes from within simply because it’s what’s there…

Unless you are so fortunate that you live in a bubble of love, there will be conditioning in your life that is not conducive to love. This conditioning is what produces non loving actions, but this is not to be labeled as inappropriate behavior, it is inappropriate conditioning, it’s just what’s there. If you are fortunate enough to realize this, it is then that you can begin the necessary practice of discipline so you’ll have enough concentration to remain focused on love being the default setting of your life, but to not realize this is not inappropriate because you’re just doing what you have been conditioned to do; it’s simply what’s there. If it wasn’t there you wouldn’t be doing it.

Don’t be to harsh on yourself or others because the truth of the matter is this, you, me, and everyone else only acts in the manner that we’ve be conditioned to do so. Whether it’s labeled inappropriate or not is all part of the conditioning because it doesn’t change the way that you act. Labeling something inappropriate is what people use to either make themselves think they are better than others or it’s used to beat yourself up. There is no such thing as inappropriate behavior unless that is how you want to label it. There is Conditioned Thinking that makes one act in a conditioned manner by producing the appropriate behavior conducive to that conditioning. So you see in essence all behavior is appropriate because it is all contingent on the way one is conditioned. When you understand this, you will be well on your way to truly loving yourself and when you love yourself, you will understand all behavior is appropriate. It is then that you will be able to understand how to love others, unconditionally and appropriately.

Love Arising

It is everyone’s obligation to pass love onto every person who they interact with, not in the form of a belief or concept, but in the form of an open heart; a heart without judgement.

When the heart is opened and there is no attachment to beliefs and concepts, that is when the love that is in your heart comes pouring out into the world. The absence of love, is the absence of unity, and how will you know when this absence is in place is by trying to force your beliefs and concepts on others. When you love, you love in spite of someone else’s beliefs and concepts. Live life based in love and you become that love; minus the story of some belief or concept which is only made up by your Conditioned Mind. When you love, most people around you will sense that energy; it’s the nature of love.

Love is contagious. When something isn’t of love you will know it by the conflict it causes; inward and outward. Love doesn’t cause conflict, it causes peace, compassion, understanding, kindness, patience, harmony, and so on. You will know something isn’t of love by the lack of these mentioned qualities. When you allow others the right to be themselves, you allow the love of your heart to be the center of your being and that will be the seeds that you’ll pass onto others. The more a judgement is held onto, the less effect the seeds of love will have. Love is what cultivates the seeds, and when they are the seeds of love without judgement, they will grow in abundance. Not because of any concept or belief, but because of the love that arises from your own heart.

A Moments Perfection

When you want the arisen moment different, you want its perfection to be changed, but even if it is changed most times it’s not enough. If you’re not careful, you can spend your entire life trying to change what’s already perfect.

It is said that no can have the perfect life, but no one really knows what the perfect life entails. It may be considered perfect if it was exactly the way you wanted it, and if that was the case then the saying is true, but no one can will ever have the perfect life because it will seldom be exactly as it is wanted. Even if it was, that wouldn’t mean it was perfect, it would just mean it’s the way that you want it. To me the perfect life is what arises in the moment you are in. It can’t be anything but that, because it’s simply what’s there.

This is where our struggles are derived from, thinking if life was different it would be perfect, but how can something that is already perfect be improved upon; perfection cannot be improved. When a perfect game is pitched in baseball, nothing can make it more perfect. If a basketball player makes ten foul shots that he tries, he is perfect. Now you can say the pitcher could have thrown less pitches or the basketball player could have made every basket without hitting the rim, but it would not have changed the perfection of what occurred.

Life is similar, we look for all kinds of ways to improve on its perfection, but regardless of what is done it doesn’t change the perfection of the way it is. No outer circumstance can change the perfection of what is. This is the main reason people are in the constant mind state of seeking perfection and use so many different things to try and attain it, but understand perfection is never reached only because it isn’t realized perfection is already here…

Silence

The mind will only settle when there is silence. You cannot do anything to be silent, it arises from itself. When the intellectual mind stops seeking, the internal urging settles in its own silence….

When one awakens, there’s an understanding of silence and how it relates to life. When this occurs there’s freedom because silence arises naturally. We seek because of the internal urging for silence which is what an awakening reveals. This cannot be known intellectually, intelligence is actually noise, silence can only be known through silence. The lack of silence makes life very mundane. It makes one less aware of the internal urging that silence provides. Without this awareness you cannot truly understand what the benefits of silence are. Silence is always there, it’s just not understood. Nothing is needed to experience silence, but the only way there can be silence is to be still. Methods may be useful in learning to be silent, but the only reason this is so is because the mind hasn’t been developed for silence , it’s been developed to generate noise.

It’s a human dilemma the need to make life about something, but if something is needed, make it about silence. This is the only thing that truly makes sense to me, it’s the only place where I don’t need to think and there’s peace. Not to think is to be in a state of no mind and in this state is true peace. How can it not be peaceful in this state, there’s nothing to cause one to suffer; there’s no generated noise in the head. Be silent and nothing more will ever be needed because in silence everything arises, unless you want to live by the generated noise in your head. Silence is the ultimate truth, but even saying this is noise. Silence of no mind is the silence of all that is and when one stops seeking it or trying to define it, it is then that one will be silent.

Value of Awareness

Many have a belief that God is love, but if this is truly investigated one may become aware that God needs the story of love to exist, but love doesn’t need the story of God to exist.

Awareness is of value because it helps one overcome their selfish nature. This is what I discovered was blocking the love of my heart from being the operating energy of my life. I don’t know how it is for anyone else, but I do know this is what was revealed to me. Why it was this way I don’t really know, but I do know most of my life I was unaware that I was selfishly living trying to grasp pleasure at all cost to satisfy a self that didn’t exist in the way it was perceived. The only awareness there was in my life was how to get more things to provide pleasure so this unaware self could be satisfied. It wasn’t that a self didn’t exist, there just wasn’t any awareness whatsoever that existence wasn’t what I was conditioned to believe it was. It’s one of the reasons I don’t attach to beliefs today because I see them only as a story of unawareness. Many people often state God is love, but if this is truly investigated one just may become aware that God needs the story of love to exist, but love doesn’t need the story of God to exist. Check it for yourself and become aware of this truth.

Being aware of what’s actually happening minimizes the stories that are needed to make life have to be a certain way. Awareness stops the story of the way you think life should be and allows the freedom of the way it is, which becomes the awareness of the way it should be. After all wanting this exact moment different than what it is is where all discontent arises from. When one is simply aware of what arises as it arises, there isn’t a need for a story and without a story one’s unaware selfish nature doesn’t come into play as the awareness of the love of your own heart naturally becomes the operating energy of your life.

A Moments Unfolding

One’s entire life hinges on a single attached thought; the next moments unfolding is from here. Learning to skillfully see this so the attachment is at a minimum determines how the next moment unfolds…

The thoughts that you attach to make up your belief system. This is done because it’s thought the beliefs are beneficial, if this wasn’t so the thoughts wouldn’t be attached to. If these attached beliefs aren’t seen as erroneous they will remain in place. The more one thinks their created belief system is the right one, the harder it is to see beyond it. Seeing each moment unfold through thought is delusional because there’s no solid foundation to a thought and everyone has different ones, that’s why everyone see things differently.

There’s only one truth (I don’t know what it is, but I do know what it isn’t) and until this is seen in each moments unfolding life will remain delusional. To get to a point where it’s not delusional, one has to get beyond the attached thoughts that hold your belief system (conditioning) in place, regardless of what it is. Each moment unfolds as one single thought and then a person’s conditioning determines what happens next and how the next moment will play out. Attaching to it or not is the difference in how the next moment unfolds and if there’s going to be unity or separation with it. The truth is one is never separated from life, but it feels this way when there’s attachment to a thought that makes you think you are. One’s entire life hinges on a single attached thought; the next moments unfolding is from here. Learning to skillfully see this so the attachment is at a minimum determines how the next moment unfolds…

A Conditioned Self

A mind that’s conditioned is a mind that has preconceived ideas which are based on a sense of self, and because it’s conditioned as so there’s no space between one’s thoughts to see what’s truly going on.

As long as the mind is conditioned and actively seeking, it can’t be at peace; at the core of this is one’s sense of self. The sense of self may be the hardest concept to let go of because it’s intertwined with just about every thought one has. It has also been in place since our existence began, but it’s not the sense of self that’s controlling, it’s the conditioned attachment to it. To me a sense of self will always exist, but the attachment to it has lessened significantly in the last eleven years. This has opened doors that were closed for the first forty nine years of my life.

What many people don’t realize about where my writings arise from is there’s an understanding of how my mind works because I’ve sat and investigated why I reacted like I did and why I did the things I did. Very few truly investigate their mind and this is what leads to the conditioning in place being in control. Knowing this doesn’t make me better than anyone, but by having an understanding of the lies that I lived by for so many years it does allow me to not attach to them. I would say therein lies the difference between one being attached to the sense of self and one being free of it. This also creates the difference between being limited by a self who is conditioned to constantly try to fulfill itself or not attaching to it and allowing doors to open that may have previously been closed.

High Vibration Energy

A higher vibrational energy has to be understood before the bondage of self which is a lower energy is truly let go of. You can then reach your true potential to be an instrument of love instead of an instrument of a selfish lower energy.

The are two energies to just about everything in life and although only one is in place at any given time, in order to go beyond the lower energy the higher energy (love) has to be known it’s available. This is the only way one will be able to go beyond the limited view of the “I” self energy. If your human existence is viewed only from the human side which is a lower vibration, the spiritual won’t come into play and life will seem very mundane. When one starts looking at life from love which doesn’t require human attachment, another view opens to the true beauty of what life has to offer. This beauty manifest in different ways for people, but what it has in common is it comes from the space of a higher energy. We exist in the form of energy and one is selfish, the all about me energy. This is a lower vibrational energy that doesn’t allow one to reach their true potential. The other energy is the energy of stillness which manifest as love, this is of a higher vibrational nature which allows the beauty of life to manifest and thus our true potential is maximized.

Learning to understand these two energies will assist in truly letting go of the blocks that keep the lower selfish energy in place. The higher vibrational energy is always there to tap into, but if there isn’t awareness of it, there won’t be alignment to it so it won’t manifest. This isn’t to deny our human side because it’s the form we are in, but attaching to it and making it an end to a means is where the expansion of one’s consciousness ceases. The tighter the grip of the human side(lower energy) the less the higher vibrational energy will be operational. This is a Universal Law that has to be understood so the bondage of self energy is truly let go of. When this occurs a higher energy allows you to reach your true potential so you can be an instrument of love instead of an instrument to satisfy the lower energy of me, myself, and I.

Reflection of Love

If you’re looking at a mirror that tells lies get rid of it so the only mirror you have is one that reflects love. See the light and you will be the light, see love and you will be love; what you see is seen by all.

There’s an inner beauty that’s always there, but because of our Conditioned Mind it isn’t what is seen as our reflection. We add all kinds of nonsense to this reflection and our beauty is blocked out by the lies of our Conditioned Mind. An expansion of love is the expansion of our own inner beauty so when we see our own inner beauty as a reflection of love, it expands and reflects our love to the world. The world will see what we see in our reflection. If one sees a person of love in the mirror and is truly focused on love of creation, that is what the world will see. If what is seen is someone full of greed, hate, false pride, self pity, and delusion, unfortunately that is what the world will see.

What you think of you is what others will think of you. It has to be this way, the world can only see what you see. You become who you think you are and who you think you are is the reflection of what is seen; remember the world will only see what you see as it is reflected in the mirror. If you’re looking at a mirror that tells lies, make it a point to get rid of it so the only mirror you have is one that reflects love. This is one’s true reflection and it’s not only be seen by one, it’s seen by the world. See the light and you will be the light, see love and you will be love because it is what you will see that will be seen by all.

Spiritual Nonsense

Sit often and watch your thoughts come and go, eventually there will be more and more space between them. It’s in this space that one sees all the spiritual nonsense holding you in bondage.

With the emergence of the Internet, there’s so much information available on spirituality that it really needs to be investigated before one considers using it to assist in their development. Here is the definition of nonsense : 1 spoken or written words that have no meaning or make no sense 2. foolish or unacceptable . To see if the information you are using to develop discipline is authentic and truly beneficial, there can’t be anything associated with it that forms attachment. Methods, programs, guru’s, life coaches, teachers, or any other form of nonsense that is used to keep you attached just keeps you entrapped to the very thing you are trying to break free of. Just as there’s a lot of “fake news” out there today, there’s also a lot of fake information on spirituality. Bondage is not something that’s truly understood by many people and so most of the information out there is nonsense and keeps you in bondage in some way. Those telling you to buy their book, pay for retreats run by paid speakers, or follow (instant bondage) a program, are clever to a fault, with the fault being keeping you in bondage.

The only thing one needs to do is look within so a millisecond of space is created between your thoughts. Once this occurs and there’s awareness of it, slowly there will be more and more space. It takes nothing but awareness to create this space. The nonsense out there that someone’s program, book, method or whatever has your answer will keep you in bondage to what you are trying to break free from. I know people defend their so called guru or people they follow adamantly, but it’s only because there’s no awareness of the bondage they’re in. Sit often and just watch the thoughts come and go, eventually there will be more and more space between them. It’s in this space that one will see all the spiritual nonsense holding you in bondage.

Set Emotional Energy

Nothing from the outside truly controls you regardless of what it is; either real or made up. It’s the set emotions attaching to what happens that cause certain responses and behaviors to arise.

Staying present with the flow of what arises in our daily life has immense value in waking up from the sleep of unconsciousness. What happens if one’s awareness isn’t expanded upon is the arisen emotional energy becomes set and it controls you; it becomes the master and you the slave. The set emotional energy is what causes one to react to life in the way that they do. Nothing from the outside truly controls you regardless of what it is; either real or made up. It’s the set emotions attaching to what happens that causes one to behave in a certain manner. When one awakens, the attachment to emotions lessens as does their control.

This is how it is with all our emotions, fear becomes crippling when it becomes set and it takes you over. It’s doesn’t mean things won’t scare you, but it’s doesn’t have to be given the energy that turns it into fear. This applies to any emotion you become attached to, it sets the associated emotion and there’s no telling what behavior will arise. I guarantee you, it’s not going to be a behavior that has love flowing as its base. Emotions will arise, it’s the way the brain seems to be wired, but our energy doesn’t have to set them and give them more energy than they’re worth. We can cry our tears, or be fearful of the future. We can dislike that things aren’t going the way we think they should be, but the bottom line is this, it’s only when the emotions get set that they have the energy to stop the flow of truly living life and not only cause your suffering, but also the suffering of others.

Learning Through Love

It’s the love of one’s own heart that allows for the chances to learn life lessons. Judgements don’t provide this, all they do is disconnect one from the love of their own heart.

Follow your heart no matter what others say. People judge, it’s what they do, but never give in to their judgements. Even if someone thinks they know you because of similar situational experiences, it means little because everyone has their own interpretations of the way things are. Following your heart doesn’t mean you will always do what is best, but it does mean what you do will be of love and really that’s what truly matters.

It’s the love of my own heart that judges me and provides life lessons to be learned, not the judgments of people. As long as the heart is followed, the lessons learned will allow for the removal of one’s blocks to love. By staying true to our heart no matter what, we stay true to ourselves and life’s base remains of love.

Everyone makes mistakes, but boy are we quick to point out the mistakes we think others make. We’ll justify our judgments and say we’re only trying to help, even if it’s not asked for, but when we judge anyone it’s our own misgiving because the love of our own heart is blocked. No one alive today is known to have ever walked on water, so no one is truly worthy to judge another. To thine own self is all one has to be true to because the love of one’s heart will keep expanding as the universe, not people sees fit. This will allow for the chances to learn the necessary life lessons so the love of one’s own heart remains unblocked.

A Gift From Life

In the stillness of the present moment simply do what’s in front of you and your unique talents will be of assistance in the precise moment you’re in because it’s what life has gifted you with…

When a purpose is needed to fulfill one’s life, it’s what I call object consciousness, meaning some form of an object is always needed for life to have meaning. Without awareness of the Conditioned Mind there’s a need that never goes away so a created purpose has to constantly be created and worked at to keep it in place. Let’s say the created purpose is to help people who are labeled as addicts. What if there were no more to help, now what? Another purpose would need to be created, but I ask you this, where does it end? I will tell you, it doesn’t because this occurs every time something is reached for that’s used to attain a sense of self worth. One’s created purpose can be to eat ice cream, it fulfills a need at that exact moment. Does it not?

To be simply be mindful of each moment is our true purpose no matter what it is that’s happening in your life. Whether it’s brushing your teeth, on line at the supermarket, at work, dying, or whatever it is that’s happening, the point is to be mindful of the present moment and it will be that moment that gives you purpose. This isn’t a made up purpose though, it’s a purpose simply given to you by life because it’s what’s there. I’m not saying don’t help people or not do something that you have a passion for, but understand the difference if it’s your purpose to make yourself feel good or if it’s what life has gifted you with. The results are as different as night and day, so in the stillness of the present moment do what’s in front of you and your unique talents will be of assistance in the precise moment that you’re in because it will be what life has gifted you with…

Space of Emptiness

So much of existence is wasted on trying to fill a space that doesn’t need filling. The nature of all space is emptiness and it will always be there; it’s in this space of emptiness that one experiences fulfillment.

Many spend thousands on trying to fill a space that doesn’t truly needed filling. At the time it seems like the right thing to do and in a way it is because when you’re thinking about it it seems right, but the thing to understand is wherever you go there you are and also the Conditioned Mind makes the fantasy better than the reality. This is not to say don’t do things that will fill this space, but the stark reality is this space is already filled if your mind lives in the space of peace. I’m talking from experience here because for forty nine years my life was exactly how I thought I wanted it to be and yet I had to always reach for something to fill a space that wasn’t understood. This space when lived from your conditioning needs to be filled (reaching for something), but I didn’t understand the part of wherever I went, there I was.

My own mind was an enemy not an ally and I had no idea this was occurring. Basically I always needed to fill a space that didn’t truly exist; regardless of what it was filled with it was always there. Here’s the real irony in this, I was trying to fill the space of emptiness that is still there today, but what I have come to understand is it doesn’t need filling. Regardless of what’s used to fill it, it never gets filled, it can’t because it doesn’t need filling. Today I understand this space is not an enemy nor does it need filling. There are times when it’s filled, but it’s not because I’m trying to fill it, it’s simply because the space of emptiness fills me.

Not Adding

Truly letting go isn’t a doing nor does it take effort, it’s something that happens naturally by not adding. The more one tries to let go by adding something, the less letting go there is…

One day a man who spent years reading spiritual books, going to self help and 12 step programs, spending thousands attending seminars by all the so called experts, retreats, meditating for hours on end, doing chakra and kundalini meditation, reiki healing, yoga, therapy, and so on decided he had enough. I’m sure many will identify with the constant barrage of adding the flavor of the month to learn the secret to peace. This man tried everything and yet except for being more knowledgeable, he was no freer than the day he started looking into this. Part of the issue was he was stuck in trying methods everyone else said was needed to become enlightened; most people’s methods don’t even work for themselves, if they did a method wouldn’t be pushed. This man who was at wits end sat with this and what arose in him was this; he were going to walk up the highest mountain he could find and either become enlightened or die. The one thing that was very clear was he was tired of struggling; so the journey up the mountain began.

On his way up the mountain there was a man coming down the mountain carry two large bundles on his shoulders, the path was narrow and he noticed this man was wearing monk like clothing. He had heard in stories when one is ready to awaken the right teacher will appear. As their eyes met, the man felt compelled to tell the man coming down the mountain where he was going. He asked him if he knew how to become enlightened? The man said nothing as he put the two bundles he was carrying down. Instantly the lesson was seen; the man was showing him how to let go. He than asked, is that it, just let go? The man smiled and nodded, again he asked, so that’s it, just let go, what happens next? Without saying a word, the man picked up the two bundles he was carrying, put the them back on his shoulders and continued down the mountain…

Nothing Last Forever

Because nothing last forever the satisfaction associated with whatever is reached for is fleeting. This is the exact reason why one constantly remains in an agitated state of needing to reach for something.

Not being satisfied is so subtle and how you will know you’re not satisfied is by having to reach for the next thing. The misunderstanding of nothing last forever including life itself is what makes one constantly reach for satisfaction. If you knew the reaching wasn’t going to quench the thirst of satisfaction, it most likely wouldn’t be done. One reaches for whatever the conditioning in place says is necessary, and even though it temporarily satisfies the thirst, it doesn’t last and hence the reaching continues. When nothing last forever begins to be understood, one becomes aware of the nonsense of their reaching. This doesn’t mean the reaching will just end, but an understanding of the true nature associated with reaching begins. If there wasn’t the anticipated satisfaction associated with food, dessert, drugs, alcohol, gambling, yoga, meditation, ad infinitum, reaching wouldn’t be done. Everyone who reaches for something assumes there’s going to be some sort of satisfaction derived from it or it wouldn’t be done.

Existence is pretty stable as far as life being life, but the events that occur within life are not. There is constant change in everything, but the mind is mostly blind to this because it wants stability. It defaults to making you believe the next fix is all you need, but I guarantee you the next fix only leads to the one after that and so on. It never ends because there’s nothing that last forever which allows it to end. And because nothing last forever, the satisfaction associated with whatever’s reached for doesn’t last and this is the exact reason why one is subtly unsatisfied and has a constant need to reach.

Craving of "I"

The craving of “I” is what traps one to the bondage of the desire of “I” mindset and as long as this mindset is in place, there will be struggles in life because these selfish cravings will always need to be fulfilled.

Craving arises, there’s no getting around this, but it’s not the craving itself that causes issue, being controlled by it unconsciously is what makes craving an issue. To follow through on all our cravings isn’t really useful, but this isn’t to say there’s anything wrong with cravings, it’s really deciphering which ones are useful and which ones actually cause harm to you and others. The craving for sex is something that’s basically in our DNA, but to be controlled by the craving for sex to the point where it becomes the focal point of your existence, is where issues arises. Just take sex and substitute it with something else and see how the craving holds you in captivity. As long as one craves unconsciously, they have to be followed. This bondage to cravings is the foundation of the Conditioned Mind.

Looking back I can see how the attachment to cravings is what allowed them to control me and why they were at the core of every issue I had in my life. I still have cravings today, but for the most part they’re there to fulfill a higher calling than “I”. The desire of “I” is the root of suffering and this is because it entraps one to the bondage of self; existence doesn’t produce much harmony in a desire of “I” mindset. Knowing any of this doesn’t make life “I” free, but it does lead one in a direction that is much more conducive to love which in turns makes craving more about what’s better for humanity as a whole instead of fulfilling the craving of an “I” mindset.

Direction of Energy

The direction of energy that one embraces determines a direct link to what energy is put out, and love will be put out when it is simply learned to keep your head where your feet are…

Eleven years ago the direction of my life was much different than it is today. Prior to eleven years ago for reasons unbeknownst to me, my direction was very self-centered and didn’t provide much benefit for me or anyone else. Although I certainly embraced this direction just because I didn’t know any better, it caused me and those around me much suffering. This is what an unconscious self-centered direction does, there’s really no way around this. This seems to be the direction of the masses and when followed blindly as it certainly seems to be, much suffering ensues. The more self-centered a person is the more suffering there is when it comes to anything associated with them. This is the basic energy of unconsciousness, and although many fluctuate in this energy pattern just because of the natural inclination to love, some fluctuate very little because of deeply engrained self-centeredness conditioned mind patterns. This was me.

Fast forward to today and the energy in place is much different and as a result of this different direction my life reactions are different. No longer is there the consumption of me, but not because it’s about you, there’s just much more quietness in place and that is the direction that has afforded me much benefit. Because of this directional energy shift there is an obligation to simply share it so others may see its value. I know nothing really when it comes to the Universe, but I do know how it was for me and how it is today. This shift is not a credit to anything I’ve done so I simply point how a different direction from being self-centered to keeping my head when my feet are has changed my view of life…

Two Versions of Life

When one’s thoughts are used as the primary means to live by, this is a very limited version of life, but when the mind settles, a second version is provided with limitless content.

When thoughts are used primarily as a means to live by, this leaves only one way to view life and because thoughts are so restricted and limiting, it’s makes for much suffering. We think by thinking, studying, and reading books we’ll become all knowing and be able to master life, but the only thing this provides is arrogance, smugness and a state of unconsciousness. When one constantly has a need to read someone else’s book, one is limited to only learn what the content of that book is. What if what’s written in the book isn’t totally correct or only has partial facts about a subject, that will be what one learns. People get a college degree because the content of books are memorized, and the thoughts taken from these books are used to create experts by the worlds standards. This method produces a very limited view of life, with the limit being whatever one’s thoughts are from the content of the books that are read.

Humans have wars against each other, we fight with each other and most of this happens because of the nonsense of our thinking. Everyone thinks they’re right which arises from what is heard or what a books says, and all this does is fill one’s head with noise. This noise is the only version of life that one will ever see unless the mind becomes quiet enough to allow a second (thoughtless) version to be seen.

What happens when the mind settles is it allows for two versions of life to be seen, one version is the made up stories of one’s conditioned thoughts, and the other is the version of just doing whatever it is that’s in front of you because it’s what’s there. Both versions are from the same mind, but only one will be used when the mind settles. When this settling occurs and the version is seen of a second view, the limitations provided by the world view of thought will fall away. It will be at this point that you will go beyond the limited view of your thoughts and see the limitless view of just doing what’s in front of you, without the need to think about it.

Bondage of Reaching

Reaching itself is the issue, not the thing being reached for. Not everything reached for is truly beneficial. It will take a very settled mind to see the subtle bondage in the things one thinks are beneficial.

Doing what’s beneficial for your well being needs to be investigated to see if what you’re doing is truly a benefit and not just a story of what you think is beneficial. Many people play the lottery to become rich so to become rich becomes your beneficial energy…so you think. Sex is often viewed as beneficial, as is the spiritual path. Drugs, alcohol, gambling, and their programs are seen as beneficial, but as the results of these energies may be different, the bondage they keep you in is the same. Working out and healthy eating habits are very beneficial, but many attach a story to them and negate their benefits. I know many people are vegans and I have no opinion either way, but no where have I ever read that Jesus or the Buddha seen this as a benefit to their practice. All I’m saying is what I’ve found to be truly beneficial needs no story nor attachment to attain a certain result.

People see ayahuasca as a benefit, but this is reaching for something similar to reaching for drugs and alcohol to achieve a result. I can only share my experience and I’ve found reaching for anything in whatever form is not a benefit because the reaching itself is the issue, not the thing being reached for. To me, in the space of just being with what arises in the present moment is the only thing I’ve experienced to be truly beneficial. Not everything you think that’s healthy and supportive are truly a benefit to enhance your life. It will take a very settled mind to see the subtle bondage in the things that are reached for. My experience has been if you are reaching for something regardless of what it is, it’s not beneficial and this is because the reaching itself is the issue and that’s what keeps you in bondage.

Viewing Life Differently

A different more beneficial view of life will only occur if the current view is seen as not being beneficial. Even with a different view life won’t change all the much on the outside, but inwardly everything will change.

If there is to be change in one’s life, it has to be seen that a different view is needed to allow one’s behavior to be more beneficial than what’s in place now. Understand it’s not changing the things that occur that’s needed, it’s only the view of what’s occurring that requires it to be different; that’s when change occurs. This isn’t about substituting positive for negative, or labeling right for wrong, if this is done it just becomes another story from the same old view. This is change from the intellect and it doesn’t provide a different view. A different view occurs when one remains in a state of stillness regardless of what happens, seeing things from here allows change to take place. Of course this is easier said than done and if it doesn’t happen, true change will never occur, only surface change will because whatever view is in place won’t allow change to take place.

The mind always wants to make the current view into a story and attach to it. A different view is what happened to me, I now live each moment from that view which is much more beneficial than living life from the view of a conditioned story. Having a different view has changed me inwardly which in turn means everything has changed or at least the way that it’s viewed has.

Selfish Desired Stories

The Conditioned Mind is a story teller and all its stories eventually end. However most of these are unconsciously created to fit into the main story of fulfilling some selfish desire and that story never ends…

The stories the mind conjures up need to be investigated so one can tell if they’re real or not and by real I mean beneficial to one’s life. So many people make up a story to satisfy a selfish desire without looking if those stories are producing results that are beneficial. Many stories benefit only oneself and it doesn’t go much further than that. Even if you’re running around saving the world, who says the world needs saving and also is the helping others done more so to satisfy some selfish desire? It’s very difficult to get in touch with real stories that arise from the space of stillness as opposed to the ones that are made up to satisfy some selfish desire.

Most of the stories we create are strictly to satisfy selfish desires. Very few people are truly selfless, not because they don’t want to be, but by not understanding the dynamics of the Conditioned Mind there’s no way one can be. Every life is a story, it’s just part of existence, but there are ways to see if your stories are beneficial. One way would be to not create a story, this way one wouldn’t be needed. Another is to understand energy is not created or destroyed, it’s only transformed. Although this form that’s being occupied one day will not function any longer in its current state, its energy goes on, and if you want to see if this story is beneficial, sit and be still and you will see no story is real so one’s selfish desires will never be satisfied…

Developing Love

As we go through the process of life, we develop in the way that the conditioning in place allows. If our conditioning and hence our development was based in love things would be much different.

Some things we learn come naturally, but everything takes some kind of practice. If you’re learning how to catch a baseball, at first it’s probably awkward with no knowledge as to the best way to do it, but the more you do it the more natural it becomes. This is the same thing if what you’re learning is based in love. Part of the problem (delusion) is when what’s developed isn’t based in love because unfortunately that tends to become natural; this is why it’s so hard to change. I knew what was right (loving) and what was wrong (selfish) growing up. Doing what was loving was not how I developed so being selfish came natural to me and there wasn’t anybody who could tell me different because that’s all I knew.

To say the least, this selfish development caused much suffering because with this conditioning in place, there wasn’t any room for much else to be seen. This is the delusion most people are unknowingly living by and it’s a direct result of why humanity is the way it is. If we all grew up with our development based in loved, humanity would be much different, it’s really that simple. I know this because eleven years ago I began developing a different base (one of love) and every so slowly my behavior became loving. It doesn’t mean it’s always this way, but just as it is with learning to catch a baseball it takes practice, and in my case it’s done so the loving behavior becomes as natural as the earlier development of being selfish was.

Naturally Beneficial

Many believe they choose what they do, but the reality is there really isn’t a choice in what you do because one can only do what the conditioned view in place dictates, at least until this is seen…

I know people don’t like to hear this, but there really aren’t choices in life. It may seem as though there are, but the conditioning in place dictates what one’s actions will be. From murder to loving kindness and all the other actions in between, the conditioning controls the actions at least until this is seen. It’s as if one is a puppet on a string with the Conditioned Mind being the master puppeteer. For forty nine years I was controlled by my Conditioned Mind without any awareness whatsoever there was a more beneficial way to view life. Today with awareness of this my actions are naturally much more beneficial. Although it seems I now have choices, the shift that occurred in me which resulted in a different view made my actions beneficial, but it’s still not a choice. A different view allowed me to see the lies of my actions so I now naturally do things that are much more beneficial.

For years alcohol was one of the conditioned tools I used as a coping mechanism, and although I thought this was beneficial and a choice, there was no choice here. Today it’s not this way because alcohol is no longer seen as being beneficial. If I had a view that saw using alcohol as a benefit, I would use it. One can only do what they’re conditioned to do and the only way this will be different is if the view becomes different. This is the different view of truly doing what’s beneficial in your life. Many believe they have choices, but this belief creates an inner conflict. The reality is, there is no choice because one will only behave as the conditioned view dictates and good, bad, or indifferent it’s simply done because that’s what’s in place…

Everything Changes

Regardless of what happens in life it will not stay the same, but it’s not because things change that causes the mind to become agitated, the agitation arises because the change isn’t wanted.

Everything changes, it’s the nature of the way things are and although intellectually this is known by most people, it’s not brought into daily living. This becomes a major dilemma in a person’s life because things are taken to be more permanent than they actually are and with this outlook when something changes, the mind becomes agitated and suffering ensues. This doesn’t occur because of the change, it occurs because the change isn’t wanted nor accepted.

Wanting things to remain the same is probably the greatest delusion used by the Conditioned Mind and the irony of this is, it’s impossible for life to remain the same so what the Conditioned Mind wants will never be. The nature of life is change so to be at peace with life one must be at peace with change. If you’re not, your mind will be in a constant state of agitation, and if that’s all that’s known, so be it.

There are so many scenarios that entrap a person to the delusional state of wanting things to remain the same. It requires a very settled mind to see the agitations arise when something changes that’s not wanted. This doesn’t mean change has to be embraced or liked, it really just has to be seen for what it is and accepted, but understand even if the thing that changes isn’t accepted, it doesn’t really mean all that much in the grand scheme of things because in life nothing stays the same.

Labels and Roles

Labels and roles are all part of one’s conditioning, with the stage being set for life to be played out. Although one is always on the stage, in silence the labels and roles aren’t needed.

Most of the things that one reaches for throughout life are used just roles as if one is on stage, and life is as if it is a role being played out with one taking on whatever that assigned label may be at the time. Each person studies their lines and plays out the role in whatever way their conditioning has been developed for it to be label and played out. There are many many labels used in playing out the conditioned role.

These labels are the things one reaches for to make their part in the play more interesting. Who would go see a play where everyone was sitting around in silence? So it would seem there is needed drama for life to be more interesting, but this is the fallacy the Conditioned Mind creates.

Only in silence can life be lived to the fullest label and role free. Without the roles and labels, one is present on the stage of life, but not controlled by the rehearsed conditioning. It’s this conditioning that makes one need a role along with many many labels, but in silence, with the stage set in the present moment, one doesn’t have to take on a role or use any of the labels in the puppet show of a conditioned life.

False Comfort of Faith

Life will always be as it is regardless of what one’s story of faith is. Mostly faith is used to provide false comfort which isn’t really needed if one would just live life as it reveals itself.

Faith is but a word, there are many interpretation of it, here is one; a strong belief in something (a story). The way I used faith in the past was I thought it meant things should be the way that I wanted them to be. It’s not a big surprise that this kind of faith caused me many problems. I only had faith in the material world which meant I had to use things in order to feel comfort, which meant I had to rely on outside things to get what I thought I needed to provide a false comfort.

It’s not this way today, but not because there is a belief or faith in something. Today the lie of faith has been exposed and truth of what is here right now is where my faith lies. Truth of what is doesn’t need a story of faith that everything is going to be okay, it means it’s going to be the way that it is and that is simply that. There’s no longer the need for a story of something from the outside to take care of my life; life is simply lived as it happens. Through the practice of being present, there’s a knowing that life will work out in life’s way, not mine. This is a faith that truly works because there’s no attached story. I have stopped using faith as a story of getting something or believing someone is going to take care of my life. Life is life, it takes care of itself. I am just one part of it and regardless of what happens, it simply is life as it is not as I think it should be. This is the acceptance of being with the reality of what is. One doesn’t need faith to live life because it will always be how it is regardless of what the Conditioned Mind wants to use to make you think life should be different. Life is always about what’s here right now and to say you have faith in something out there only changes what is to the false comfort of what isn’t.

A Limited Conditioned View

If you only see through the view of the conditioning in place, a new view will not be allowed, this prevents the mind from expanding beyond its own created conditioned limits.

It will take much investigation to see beyond one’s conditioned view because the conditioning itself is what keeps your view narrow and limited. If this isn’t understood it won’t be seen and if it’s not seen, there’s no way to go beyond your own created limits. Faith, hope, and forgiveness are always topics that stir up the mind and cause controversy because their concepts have been so deeply embedded into the subconscious. One becomes conditioned by these concepts and until your own mind is understood, going beyond not only these conditioned concepts, but any concept for that matter will be virtually impossible.

There is so much being held onto without really looking into if it’s truly beneficial to your life. If you have a thought, a concept, or belief is held onto, I guarantee you it’s not beneficial. You may say how can I say that, I don’t know you, but I don’t have to know you directly because I know me, and as long as I know me, I know you. I may not know what specific conditioning has you in its grip, but it doesn’t matter because the nature of all conditioning is the same and that’s what needs to be understood. Life is never anything but what happens in front of you and although things may not always be the way that they’re wanted, until the limited conditioned view is seen and let go of, a new unlimited view will not be allowed.

Led by Love

There’s no suffering in the space of love because there’s no attachment so being aware of your “I” attachment and not holding onto it allows love to be the force that leads your life.

The struggle one has with life is strictly mind based and it’s because there’s no structure to the mind. Being led by the mind is equivalent to building a house on sand and we all know what happens when the first storm comes. Often mind based information is held onto which keeps you entrapped to the mind. I know how deeply engrained the conditioning is and I know sometimes I may come on strong, but it’s only because what is seen simply can’t be ignore it.

There are basically two forces that lead the direction of the mind. One is suffering, the other is love (non suffering) and these forces manifest in many way. The core of suffering is attachment to “I” (selfishness). This force leads as greed, envy, anger, pride, desire, doubt, restlessness, regret and so on. You can see how these will cause suffering, so if this is the direction that leads your mind, you will suffer. The other force is love, which leads as kindness, generosity, compassion, empathy, understanding, stillness, and so on. I’m sure you can see how these don’t cause suffering. Make no mistake though, one will still encounter the possibility of suffering even with being led by love because of how engrained the conditioning is, but if attachment to “I” isn’t in place the suffering force won’t be in place. To me the key is being aware of one’s “I” attachment and not holding onto it. Without it the force that leads the direction of your life will be from love and there’s no suffering in this space because love simply has no attachment.

Associated Attachment

Pleasing thoughts, not so pleasing thoughts, the attached association to either one allows the start button of emotions to be pushed which will last until the associated label is let go of.

We all like our pleasing thoughts and we like to associate them with who we are, but what of those thoughts that aren’t so pleasing, we don’t like them and we definitely don’t want them associated with who we are, but to me they’re no different than the pleasing thoughts. All thoughts are energy in its purest form, how that energy transforms is the result of the association to them. They affect our life differently; it depends on how deep the association is. If you want to associate yourself with the pleasing thoughts, you have to associate yourself with the not so pleasing ones also. What would happen if neither were associated with, where would that leave you? Sit with that for a while.

In the place of non attachment there are no associated labels as pleasing, right, wrong, good, bad, like, dislike, anger, calm, happy, sad, etc, etc, etc, there is only the eternal peace of non judgment of each precious moment as it occurs. Association to labels are what controls the way one gets pulled around by their emotions. Thoughts will always be there, but without associating a label they just don’t have the energy to control. It’s strictly the attached association that gives a thought the energy that makes life an emotional ride; no one but you is responsible for starting this ride. If you don’t want to be on an emotional ride for the rest of your life, you will need to understand you are not associated with your pleasing thoughts, nor are you associated with the not so pleasing thoughts, if you get this you just may learn how not to push the start button that starts your emotional ride.

Usefully Aware

Be with what arises, no pulling or pushing, just awareness of what’s happening. It is in the space of awareness that you’ll be usefully aware and this is because this space is the only place that truly exists.

When a practice that allows awareness is in place the present moment is experienced. Being aware of what’s actually happening as opposed to being pulled around by it or pushing it away is what will dictate how useful one’s life is. Life is magical in its essence, but there’s nothing magical in becoming aware of this. All roads that lead to a useful life begin and end in the present moment and awareness is the key.

Take a step and be aware of it, now take another and be aware, this is an anchor to the present. One can only be aware of an idea that you’re thinking about something in the past or future, but you can never actually be there. Every step or breath can only be taken as it is happening. The more one becomes aware of this, the more anchored one becomes in actually being in the present moment as opposed to grasping for straws in the story of what’s going on between your ears. Be aware of reading this and then be aware of what arises, just be with it no pulling or pushing, just awareness of what’s happening. It is in the space of awareness that you’ll be usefully aware and this is because this space is the only place that truly exists.

Wanting Things Different

The Conditioned Mind is unstable because there’s nothing solid for it to base itself in. There’s very little peace in a life that’s based in the mind because its energy constantly wants things different.

The me the key to experiencing some peace in your life lies in not wanting things different. An arisen agitation is directly linked to wanting things different and this is true regardless of what it is. It may not be seen exactly as wanting something different, but when a label is applied to something, this is wanting it different. If someone says or writes something or if a circumstance arises and you apply a don’t like label to it, you just created an agitation within yourself. What was said, written, or what happened didn’t do it, the applied label did. It’s the same when you apply like to something, this is because you are allowing something from the outside to control your mind state. The mind is very unstable because it has no solid base to it so there’s never peace in a life that’s based in the mind because its energy constantly wants things different.

A mind that wants things different is very erratic, its energy is all over the place. It’s the reason there’s very little peace in the world. Always wanting things different keeps the individual from being of peace, which then emanates as the energy that’s put out. Multiple this by billions of agitated people who want things different and you have the world as it is. The key to peace lies in not wanting things different, this is the only way there will ever be peace in one’s life and in the world. The instant something is wanted different an agitation arises as the energy in place is being controlled by a mind that doesn’t understand the key to peace, and this is true regardless of what’s going on.

A Reflected Shift

What occurs when one awakens is there’s a shift that opens the heart, this allows the truth that has always been there to be revealed so where there was once blindness one now sees.

People think there’s a change when something new is revealed, but the essence of what’s truly happening is there’s a discovery (a shift) to see what has always been there. It’s not really a change that occurs, it’s a shift from delusional thinking to an understanding of the true nature of life; starting with your own mind. You cannot shift if you don’t know yourself and you cannot know yourself if you don’t understand the Conditioned Mind. The reason why it’s so difficult to shift is because the mind will not settle down. It tells you everything is okay, that you do enough to get by in life, and as long as it’s pleasurable it will tell not to look within because you are okay as you are.

Truly looking at yourself is not pleasurable, especially when it’s first started, that’s why many are hesitant to do it. It’s much easier and pleasurable to have an out there view and do what is familiar, but there are only benefits when honest self reflection is done. A step into the unfamiliar will need to be taken so you can get to know yourself.

The mind defaults naturally to what’s familiar because it’s what’s out there, but honest self reflection allows for truth to be revealed, this is the way one shifts and truth becomes what is familiar. When truth is what’s revealed, what happens is the veil of ignorance is removed and where you were once blind you now see, but it’s not a change it’s a shift, and it allows truth to be revealed as you finally see what has always been there.

Beneficial Possibilities

The more awareness one has of the arising moment, the more beneficial life seems to be. This doesn’t mean everything will go the way that it’s wanted, but what happens is the beneficial possibilities aren’t limited.

Life occurs whether there’s awareness of what’s happening or not. What awareness allows is the possibility of a different reaction to what arises and thus the chance of a more beneficial response and outcome. It’s pretty much a given that what arises arises, there’s not much that can be done in that regard, but how it affects you has many possibilities. Years ago there weren’t many possibilities to my reactions, they were all based in a very limiting non beneficial perspective; it was just the way I was conditioned. I wouldn’t have allowed anyone to do half of the things I did to myself, but yet because I didn’t know any better, the self sabotage reactions were what was normal to me. Without the awareness of the conditioning that’s in place, it wouldn’t be possible to respond in any other way but the way I was conditioned.

Although today life is simply life and what arises arises, with unawareness not being as prevalent as it once was, it has opened up so many more beneficial possibilities in my life, and what’s truly beautiful about this is the self sabotage behavior is becoming less and less; on its own. Being aware of the way one reacts to what happens is where beneficial possibilities arise from. When one is stuck in one view, you are limited to only that view and the benefits of reaching your full potential are iffy at best. The more one is aware of what happens in an arisen moment, the more beneficial life seems to be, but as stated before, it doesn’t mean everything will go the way you think it should, you just won’t limit your possibilities.

Tools of Peace

Tools that provide peace will be needed if there is to be peace in your life. The Conditioned Mind will constantly try to make problems, but with the proper tools in place they won’t take hold.

When the squirrel cage mind has you in its grip, it will continue its assault on your place of peace if you don’t have a tool in place that will assist in returning you to your place of peace. If there’s s no tool to return to your place of peace, the assault will continue as long as this conditioning is in place. There will be moments it seems as though there’s peace, but only because one doesn’t truly understand the magnitude of the assault the Conditioned Mind has over their life, peace will be very fleeting at best.

Two basic tools that can be used to allow for a return to peace are some kind of mantra that stops the squirrel cage mind in its tracks and developing discipline that will allow the mind to settle. For me the key is to understand why I’m not at peace and find out the cause of the mind agitation that took me from peace. It could be a number of things depending on ones conditioning, but the fact that one isn’t at peace is the main concern.

Asking why is so important because it allows for the possibility to get answers. If why isn’t asked and one does something to distract from the agitation it will subside, but without the understanding of why it occurred it will return again and again until one puts a stop to it. Develop the necessary tools that allows for the stopping to occur and experience life like never before because these tools cut the leash of the Conditioned Mind that has been basically in control since your existence began.

High Vibration Creativity

When there’s not the constant need or pull for self satisfying pleasures, the mind settles and the Universe works with whatever talents are within you for its betterment…

Let go of the stubbornness that causes you to suffer; it arises as greed, hate, and delusion and it’s because of the low vibration of stubbornness that one suffers. Holding onto sense pleasures is of a lower vibration. The core of holding onto stubbornness is the belief that the more one satisfies their sense pleasures, the happier they will be. Satisfying these pleasures are not an issue until this low vibration takes hold, it is then that problems arise. Remove the mask of stubbornness and what you will be left goes beyond anything you can imagine.

The bondage of wanting pleasure is not only sought by just about everyone, it has been in place for eons. Forget about going beyond it, it’s no small feat just becoming aware of this, but when there is awareness of the low vibration of pleasure seeking, the results are miraculous. There’s no telling what one may experience when pleasure seeking takes a back seat. Your creative energy will go in a direction not previously known because the pleasure seeking that’s been blocking a higher vibration falls away.

When there’s not the constant pull for pleasure, the mind settles and the Universe works with whatever talent is in you for its betterment. There may be a musician, a painter, a gardener or botanist, or even a writer inside you, who knows a book may even come out of it. I guarantee you this, whatever it is that’s comes from your creative energy, it will be from a higher vibration based in love because that’s just the way the Universe rolls. At least that’s been my experience.

Not Liking Label

Life is as difficult as a not liking label makes it and until one learns to be with what happens without applying a like or dislike label to it, what happens will continue its puppet on string control.

If you don’t particularly like something that’s happening in your life, not liking it comes from you and this is regardless of what it is. You may say there are exceptions to this, but feeding what’s happening with a not liking label, keeps you entrapped to what you have been conditioned not to like. Read this carefully, a not liking label keeps you entrapped to the energy of what you label as don’t like. I’m not saying to go around and ignore the things that occur, but understand the label that’s applied to what happens comes from within you. Many people state their opinions on what I write and that’s okay, but what’s not understood is I only write what’s within me and one can only respond with what’s in them. Neither are right or wrong, to me though it’s important to recognize the truth beneath whatever it is that arises. Regardless of how someone responds to me or what happens in life, to see what arises from within is all that matters.

Liking what’s occurring is the same energy as not liking what’s occurring. It seems different because of how the mind always wants what’s liked as opposed to what’s not liked, but it’s the same labeled energy, it’s just given a different title. Years ago a so called friend ended our relationship because he didn’t understand his not liking energy about me writing a book which really had nothing to do with me. This is how it is with all of life. Even though things will affect you to a degree, giving it a not liking label magnifies the intensity of its energy and how much it affects you. Life is as difficult as the not liking label makes it and until one learns to be with what happens without applying a conditioned label, what happens will continue its control as if you were a puppet on a string, with the stings being whatever label is applied.

Bottled Up Energy

When there’s a need to reach for something because of a mind agitation, one is trapped in bottled up energy, and until this is seen, one will remain trapped to the energy of the next thing reached for.

You will never find the peace you’re seeking if you’re trapped in the bottled up energy of finding peace. Peace is something that’s already within everyone, but because of the way our minds are conditioned, we get trapped in the bottled up energy that peace is something outside of us. Unfortunately this makes the very thing we are seeking impossible to grasp. This bottled up energy is the reason one is constantly reaching for something from the outside and until this is seen, one will remain trapped to the energy that peace is in the next thing reached for. Alcohol, tobacco, gambling, drugs, sex, social status, tats, programs, therapy, self help books and on and on, this energy is proof that one is trapped. I can’t stress this enough as this bottled up energy has to be seen if one is to experience true peace in their life.

It’s impossible for your thinking to help you find peace. To experience peace there has to be an understanding of why you’re not at peace; that there isn’t peace is only because of the bottled up energy in place. When the need to reach for something arises, the bottled up energy engulfs you. This energy creates a vicious cycle that’s very difficult to break free from. Peace isn’t something attained or achieved so it’s in doing less that peace arises. To many people get lost in the energy of trying to find peace, but since it’s something that’s already within you, the energy about finding peace needs to be transformed so you can see. This is not easy to see, but it’s why I write. Understand though, I don’t write to help anyone find peace, I write so the bottled up energy can be seen for what it is; the cause of why there isn’t peace.

Doing Nothing

Doing nothing is difficult because of how the mind has been conditioned to reach for something when it becomes agitated. Until you can just be with life as it is, there will always be something that you will have to do.

Doing nothing is the hardest thing I’ve experienced in my awakening. The Buddha was accused of being lazy by some, but those who did the accusing didn’t understand how hard it is to do nothing or they wouldn’t have said that. For many years as long as I was busy the mind seemed to not cause me too many problems, except for the occasional flare up. It wasn’t until there wasn’t much to do that I learned just how much my mind controlled me, but not before it caused me to go to the depths of despair. It is here that I rose up by looking inward at what was really going on. Although this occurred eleven years ago, over the last three months much more on this has been revealed to me as I set out to get my diabetes under control. This revealed the mindless reaching that was still in place to satisfy selfish mind agitations of having to reach for something to satisfy me. I’m learning more and more have devious the Conditioned Mind truly is and until there’s the ability to do absolutely nothing this will not be revealed.

I’ve lost over 20lbs just by stopping the mindless reaching of food (mostly carbs) and adding cardio to my workout. I went from 212lbs to 190lbs and am now off diabetes medication. The nature of what was revealed to me is how much selfishness was still in place. What most people miss about having to always be doing something is it arises from selfish energy. Most people just blame others to justify what they do so they don’t have to look at this. Devious is the Conditioned Mind as it will cause its own destruction by attaching to energy based in greed, hate, and delusion and this will be unknown to the one occupying their human form until the mind settles. Unless this is thoroughly investigated it simply will not be seen as the distractions of having to do something will remain in place. Doing nothing will be just about impossible as will truly understanding my writings, the Buddha, or anyone else who points inward, and until you can just be with life as it is, there will always be something that you will have to do.

Thought Made Issues

It’s the Conditioned Mind that takes everything that happens and makes it an issue. You can break free of this hold that the mind has over you when it’s seen you aren’t the mind because you are not your thoughts.

It’s impossible to have an issue with anything in your life that isn’t created by your own mind. This doesn’t mean everything that happens will be the way that it’s wanted, it just means that regardless of what happens it’s your mind that makes it an issue and it comes from within yourself. Lots of things happen throughout the day and each time depending on the way one is conditioned, there’s a choice to make it an issue or not. Everyone has the ability to either make something an issue or not, but to not make up issues takes a certain amount of discipline. What discipline does is it slows down the thought process that runs continuously. This slowing down is the beginning of truth being revealed; without it the necessary quietness that allows this will not happen.

If all you do is think then all there will be are thoughts. This will not allow you to watch the nonsense of the Conditioned Mind unfold, and if this nonsense isn’t seen your mind will never slow down and there won’t be any space created between your thoughts. Life will be thought based (unconsciousness) and the result of this will make it seem as though there’s always some kind of issue. When life slows down, one can see how it’s the Conditioned Mind that takes everything that happens and puts it in a category of being an issue or not, this is when one can break free of the hold the mind has over you and you’ll be able to see that you are not the mind because you are not your thoughts. When this is realized the next step in the evolution process which is learning to just be has begun.

Conditioned Mind Activity

Beyond the conditioned mind activity there’s nothing but silence. This is difficult to see because life isn’t about anything that you think it is. In fact it’s everything you think it isn’t, but it’s not seen because of trying to figure it out…

Thoughts go round and round and where they stop nobody knows. This is a perfect example of the conditioned mind activity that’s in place for most people. One thought after another, no space, no quietness, just the noise of the world manifesting as thought. If you could just sit back in a silence where the noise arises, there’s a chance to truly see what Jesus and Buddha spoke of. You can travel all around the world and make up any story that you want, but it’s only a story conjured up to provide pleasure and store it as a pleasurable memory. Beyond this no story is needed, no pleasure is needed, in fact nothing is needed because this is where true life exist.

Think about it, your entire life is a story until one day you no longer exist and your story ends. Every story is taken with you as if they never occurred. You thought they were needed so you could make sense of your life, but really every story means absolutely nothing because they are all created by the conditioned mind activity of the senses. Buddha talked about this delusion, Jesus spoke of not being of this world. What do you think they were talking about? If you remain entrapped to the conditioned mind activity, you will remain in your suffering. Even those who think they understand this don’t because it’s not something to understand. Beyond the conditioned mind activity where there’s silence, there’s the possibility of truly seeing what life is about. Why there’s difficulty in seeing this is because life isn’t about anything that you think it is. In fact it’s about everything you think it isn’t, but this isn’t seen because of trying to figure it out with a mind that’s conditioned…

Adult Pacifiers

Not wanting the arisen moment different goes a long way in providing a person with a foundation that results in the maturity of not needing to reach for a disguised pacifier in whatever form it takes on.

Seeking self satisfaction is a sign of immaturity; it’s the I want it now mind. Seeking self satisfaction is directly linked to one’s level of maturity and if you don’t think this is so, what’s the difference in what is reached for now as opposed to the pacifier or bottle that was used as an infant? Only the object has changed, the same reaching is in effect. Stop and see the baby in place who doesn’t like what’s being written here. So your feelings may be hurt, or you may say "who does this guy think he is" but I say who cares, if this article allows you to see the truth needed to stop reaching and grow up that’s all that matters. A telltale sign that immaturity is in place is by how you have to reach for things. Try not reaching, see how long that last. The reaching takes on many many forms and unless the mind is very settled, immaturity and reaching which go hand and hand, will probably remain for the rest of your life.

Acting in a mature manner will only occur when seeking self satisfaction ceases. Judging is immature, jealousy also is. Greed, hate, and wanting life different (delusion) is immature. Relying on anything outside yourself is immature; it’s no different than reaching for a pacifier to provide comfort. Matter of fact anything that’s reached for that’s not essential to live life is a sign of immaturity because it all falls under the same category as a pacifier. You will mature when nothing in life needs to be different and this is even if some of the things you do aren’t totally mature; accept yourself warts and all. Not wanting the arisen moment different goes a long way in providing a foundation that results in the maturity of not needing to reach for a disguised pacifier in whatever form it takes on. Investigate this for yourself, or not, but understand the pacifier used as an infant has only changed its form…

Beyond the Familiar

Although the familiar may be firmly in place and it may be true that you don’t know what you don’t know, but if beyond the familiar isn’t investigated, you will be stuck in the familiar of what you don’t know.

When a caterpillar turns into a butterfly it’s because it is growing. If the caterpillar doesn’t break out of the familiar surroundings of its cocoon, growth will not occur. It’s the same with us, just substitute the caterpillar with our ideas about things. Life is a natural process of learning and growing, but the base of one’s growth is dependent on the what the new is that’s replacing the familiar. For years I drove an old car in constant need of repair just to keep it up and running, and isn’t this how many live their life, constantly making adjustments and repairs just to keep it running; not many truly live. It wasn’t until I purchased a new car that it was realized just how broken down the old car was. This goes with the saying “you don’t know what you don’t know.” This is also what happened to me when I finally let go of the familiar mind patterns I had in place. I started to realize just how out of sorts my familiar thinking was, I began to break out of my cocoon.

Although learning is a natural process of life, learning to grow spiritually is not automatic. It does seem to take some effort even if it’s only the willingness to head in that direction. There are many intellects in the world who don’t have a clue as to what it means to live spiritually in the space of growth; they never break out of their cocoon, they stay stuck in the familiar. The mind loves the familiar and will always try to convince you it’s better to stay in that space then to go to the space of the unfamiliar. It may be true that you don’t know what you don’t know, but if this isn’t investigated what you don’t know will be the only thing that is known. And because nothing new is being allowed in, you will remain in your cocoon and new growth will not occur.

A Trusting Heart

There’s the limited you with all the made up concepts and beliefs or there’s the bigger picture, the one where there’s guidance and freedom because there’s trust in the Universe with all your heart.

When the mind is settled one’s guidance comes from the Universe instead of the reliance on one’s own limited concepts and beliefs. There’s a deep trust that arises from the stillness when the mind is settled. It’s in stillness that all life arises from so when one’s mind settles in this stillness, the eternal trust of the Universe is there to still the mind agitations which are the cause of all distrust. When the mind is still it allows for one to live from a heart of love instead of the carnal mind. This connects one with the goodness of life, one’s own internal goodness, and the goodness of all beings. This connection is already there, the only reason this isn’t known is because of the mind agitations that block trust from the stillness of our heart from being known.

When there isn’t trust all kinds of nonsense follows. When it’s learned to discipline the untrusting mind and our agitations slowly subside, what we are naturally left with is a deep trust provided by the Universe. This trust is what’s there beyond the noise of a Conditioned Mind, beyond one’s made up concepts and beliefs. When the mind settles and one is in the space of stillness, there’s trust because in the stillness it’s understood who you truly are. Trust in the Universe with all your heart and allow the mind to settle so you’re not relying on its made up concepts and beliefs to live life. Within this trust life can be lived as intended, as the trusting beautiful being of love that you truly are.

Distracted By Your Distractions

There’s so much delusion in our society because most people have distractions that distract them from their distractions and this keeps the distracted energy of the squirrel cage mind in place.

There’s seeing and there’s the one who sees. With the one who sees there’s attachment to self, in the seeing alone is where there’s liberation. Even if one says there’s no one who sees, it comes from the self. I don’t profess to understand what life is all about, mostly because it doesn’t matter, but I do have a reasonable understanding of why and what happens to me. It’s mostly because the distractions that distract one from their distractions aren’t prevalent in my life, this allows openness. My manifestation is no different than anyone else’s, the mind distractions in place are, this is the difference in being the one who sees, or just seeing. The one who sees always has the attachment of seer associated with it and this is the reason why one suffers. There’s no attachment just seeing and because nothing is needed to see there’s no association to the one who sees (self) so there’s no suffering; there can’t be because there’s no one there to suffer.

I know it may seem like this is a play on words, but it isn’t. If there’s awareness of the differences between who sees and just seeing, an understanding that can’t really be explained will arise. It happens on its own, it can’t be forced or attained from a book, although if one is ready “Bam” it happens. I mentioned not being distracted, to me that’s how one becomes ready to just seeing. I don’t make anything happen to me directly, but without the daily distractions of the world, it opens one to free flowing energy. This is where insight and wisdom come from. Intelligence isn’t wisdom, anyone can read a book and memorize what someone else’s ideas are. Wisdom arises from ones own stillness and when one has distractions in place, it leaves little room for anything but the energy of the distractions. There’s so much delusion in our society because most people have distractions that distract them from their distractions and this keeps the distracted energy of the squirrel cage mind in place.

Pleasure Reaching

The thought of reaching for God is no different than the thought of reaching for Heroin, and although these produce different outer results, the attachment to pleasure results in the same bondage…

The attachment to a thought about what’s occurring determines the energy you will live by and this is because attachment is tied into your emotions; which is what gives your emotions life. It’s never truly about what’s occurring, it’s always the attachment to what’s occurring that determines what one will do next. Using the example of food shows how prevalent this is. Food is needed to live, but how about dessert, see how the attachment to dessert makes the emotion of joy and delight arise. Nothing inherently has any substance to it so if we didn’t have attachment to pleasure, our eating habits would be very different. This would be because the thought of pleasure wouldn’t arise and the attachment to dessert being needed wouldn’t occur. Without attached pleasure we would eat when we were hungry, not to say that we don’t now, but I know in my case, food and especially dessert is mostly used for the sake of satisfying a pleasure. I don’t eat food that I don’t like and I definitely only eat dessert to satisfy an attached pleasure. The attachments we have determines how strong their grip is.

Look at some of the most glaring labeled addictions in our society and see why many don’t break free from their hold. The pleasure attachments to something destructive being reached for as a coping mechanism are obvious, but what’s not understood is the less glaring one’s have the same bondage as the one’s that wreck havoc and even kill. One uses programs to break free from the attachment to something, only to substitute it for another attachment in the form of a program; although the outer results are different the same bondage to attachment remains in place. Until this is understood, the attachment to whatever the Conditioned Mind deems pleasurable will keep you in bondage to whatever it is that’s being reached for…

Imaginary Answers

Because of the way a person becomes conditioned, life is seen as if there are answers that fit into certain spots, and because of this we are constantly adding imaginary answers where we think they will make life better…

The issue with having to constantly arrange life as if there were certain answers that make it better is it’s all imaginary, and even if there’s some semblance of contentment with these answers, almost immediately the mind looks for another answer. Life is continuous, it’s broken up into segments (imaginary answers) by a mind that’s in a constant state of agitation. If this wasn’t true, one would see life as complete and wouldn’t constantly need to arrange it to their liking. It isn’t because of anything right or wrong that makes one see things in this way, it’s because the mind has been trained to do instead of be so it can only do what it’s trained to do; it needs answers and imaginary ones will fit just fine.

The Conditioned Mind sees imaginary answers in just about everything. Sweets, drugs, alcohol, gambling, success, porn, the shortest line in the supermarket, God, religion, programs, diets, degrees, to do list, and so on, all this imagining is strictly done to put another made up answer in place; this makes one think life will be perfect with this answer. Let’s say everyday you get a new answer, that would mean I made up roughly 22,000 imaginary answers, 365 x 60, all for the sole purpose to constantly have life the way I think it should be (imaginary). After all nobody purposely gets in the longest line at the supermarket, even if you did nothing would really change except for maybe not having to constantly arrange life to make it complete with imaginary answers.

Thought Addiction

Notice how many of your thoughts are repeated and you just may be able to settle in a place where your thoughts aren’t in control. You may also realize the repeated thoughts don’t really provide much of a benefit.

As long as you’re alive you will have thoughts, actually thoughts occur even if you aren’t alive they’re just not yours. So your thoughts aren’t really about what happens as much as how much one attaches to the thought of what happens. This is where one’s conditioning steps in and determines the relation to what thoughts come next. Thoughts can be based in love, or they can based in hate, but for most they teeter between the two. Very few go to the extreme of either one of these thoughts, so the results for most are just constantly switching between the two. When thoughts do hit an extreme level, the results are contingent on how much one is conditioned to constantly have the same thoughts; these thoughts manifest as the emotions that take you for a ride. If you have love as the main influence in your life, obviously you will have thoughts of love more than a person who had hate as their influence. This all arises from the individual so if you truly notice the base of your thoughts, you may be able to alter your attachments. Besides relying on divine intervention which will probably not occur, it will take practice to allow the mind to settle so the base of one’s thoughts are noticed.

The true addictions in our society is to our thoughts and when “I” is the main subject, it makes existence very irrational. Now multiply that by billions of people and hence you have the world we live in; billions of people having constant thoughts about “I” strictly for their own satisfaction. There’s no one to blame for this, it just arises from the thoughts within each of us. It’s our constant thought stream that causes extreme emotional twist and everything else in between. Sit with the intention of developing the ability to notice how much your thoughts are stuck on “I” and you just may be able to settle in a place where the mind quiets and allows you to realize life really isn’t about you, “I” just thinks it is.

Monkey Mind Distractions

The present moment is naturally free flowing when there’s no resistance trying to make it different than what it is. Circular energy of the monkey mind stops the flow because it’s based in trying to manipulate what is.

Being mindful of what’s actually happening at the precise moment it arises minimizes the circular energy of the monkey mind that is used as distraction to make life the way you think it should be. Mindfulness stops this circular energy by allowing the freedom of the way it is, this then becomes the beautiful accepted view of the way it should be. After all wanting the present moment different is where all the monkey mind distractions arise from. When one is simply mindful of what arises as it arises, there isn’t a need for a story so one’s selfish nature doesn’t come into play. As this occurs the love of one’s heart naturally becomes the default operating energy of their life.

Our selfishness become a created prison because it doesn’t allow for the natural flow of life’s energy; we become embedded in the circular energy of the monkey mind. It’s the Conditioned Mind that cuts off the energy flow as it becomes the energy of a lower vibration. Why this circular energy causes issue is because it bombards the present moment with an unnatural energy flow which doesn’t allow continuity. The present moment is naturally free flowing because there’s no resistance of needing anything different than what’s there. Circular energy stops the flow because it’s based in trying to manipulate what’s there’s so what’s there is resisted to the point where the natural flow of present moment energy is cut off. The only thing needed for liberation is the awareness of being aware, there’s no monkey mind circular energy here, there’s just the present moment energy of what actually arises.

No True Void

There is never a void that isn’t created so there is never a true need to rely on anything from the outside of yourself. Until this is seen one continues to create their own void and thus their own suffering…

Every time someone goes to a program designed for a specific issue because they believe they are this or that, it creates a void. Same when a person goes to see a therapist, or they reach for another self help book, or if any other type of outside help is sought, this is because of the applied label of having a certain problem. When this is done all one is doing is reinforcing the attachment to that label and hence they’re keeping themselves attached to a labeled void that exist only because they themselves have applied it. Read this very carefully because why this label is being applied will be the difference in breaking free from your suffering or remaining entrapped to it. Some of the things mentioned do have value if they're used at certain times in one’s life, but if they’re being held onto as an end to a means, they lose their value as the needing morphs into attachment and hence suffering.

Not many will see exactly what I’m talking about here, but I’m writing it because it’s what I experienced after many years of trying to fill a self created void with things from the outside. I have found the very things that I was using to fill this void is what kept me in bondage; regardless of what was being used. Why I created this void is what I needed to find out because it didn’t truly exist and since it didn’t truly exist, why was it there? To me if something from the outside is needed to live life, something isn’t right. If I can’t just be with myself without the reliance on something outside of me, I have to ask myself why this is so. There is never a void that isn’t created so there is never a true need to rely on anything from the outside of oneself and until this is seen, one will continue to create their own void and thus their own suffering…

Deep-Seated Habit Patterns

As long as the deep-seated habit patterns are in control, they will be the energy of your life. This energy arises from deeply rooted conditioning and doesn’t allow you to see what’s truly going on.

Often how things appear to you aren’t how they actually are. If you want to see what’s truly going on, getting beyond the deep-seated habit patterns will have to happen. If two people are looking at the same thing there are usually two different opinions of what is seen, but there’s also what’s beyond the deep-seated formed opinions and that is truth. There’s two sides to every disagreement and than there’s the truth. To stop being led around by your habits, you will need to stop labeling what arises. Stopping the labeling process allows the deep-seated habit patterns to slow to a point where space opens up. It’s imperative for this space to open if the habit patterns that have been formed over the years are to lessen.

Our habits are so misunderstood and this will be known because of the way you react to what arises. I look at my own reactions to see this and in the process I can see it in others; this isn’t a judgement, it’s factual. Understand your own deep-seated habit patterns and you will understand those of others; this is because we are all of the same energy. Creation is simply creation and if you’re fortunate enough to see this, your energy begins to transform in a direction that allows liberation. If this isn’t seen, the deep-seated habit patterns remain as the controlling energy of your life. This energy arises from within and takes on many forms, but the bottom line is the deep-seated habit patterns in place simply don’t allow you to see what’s truly going on.

Empty Space

Thousands of hours of time and money are spent on trying to fill a space that doesn’t need filling. The nature of the space is emptiness and it will always be there. It’s not your enemy; in realizing its emptiness one is filled.

Thousands of dollars are spent to go on vacation and at the time it seems to be a great idea, and in a way it is because when you’re there everything seems perfect, but the first thing to understand is wherever you go there you are which could be scary. The second thing is because of the Conditioned Mind, not only is the fantasy better than the reality, but before you know you are back home. This is not to say don’t go on vacation, but the stark reality is you can always be on vacation if your mind finds your place of peace. I’m talking from experience here because for forty nine years my life was exactly how I wanted it and yet I had to always reach for something to fill a space I didn’t understand. This space equates to always needing to be on vacation (reaching for something), but I didn’t understand the part of wherever I went there I was.

My own mind seemed to be an enemy not an ally and I had no idea this was occurring. Basically to my Conditioned Mind, I always needed to be planning a vacation because life was never good enough in the moment I was in; regardless of how it was there was always a void. Here’s the real irony in this, I was trying to fill a space of emptiness that is still there today, but what I have come to understand is it doesn’t need filling; in its emptiness is my fulfillment. The issue with most people is they’re trying to fill this space that doesn’t need filling because the nature of it is emptiness. That’s what a space is, empty so regardless of what’s used to fill it, it never gets filled, it can’t because it doesn’t need filling. Today I understand this space is not my enemy nor does it need filling and although there are times when I do go on vacation, it’s not because I’m trying to escape. Everyday I’m alive is perfect as it is and it’s the space of emptiness that provides this.

A Fathers Energy

The Father that Jesus turned to provided support so he wouldn’t succumb to the world; this energy is available today in the same capacity. Not as a belief, but as real support to simply anchor you in the present moment so life doesn’t become a created burden.

As I look back at my life when my father was alive, he was considered the rock of our family. It was heart breaking that he died at such a young age; he was 62; to put it in perspective I’m going to be 60 in August. Our family has grown so much since then and life has gone on without him, but although he is not here physically, the energy of love that he gave our family is just as present today as it was back then. True love never dissipates, it sustains itself and deepens, the nature of its energy doesn’t allow it to wane.

Today one of my roles on this stage called life is that of a father, and as my children are now 24 and 22, I gather I am looked upon as a rock, or maybe a pebble lol, but I am there to support them in my role regardless. I look at my role the way the stories describe that Jesus looked to his father, not in the physical sense, but in the sense of energy; simply for support. As the father was there for Jesus, the father is also there for me in the same capacity, as I am there for my children. Turning to the father simply puts one in the only place that exist, the present moment; this is why turning to the father works, it anchors you in the present, which is the only place where one can truly love.

Understanding Yourself

Intelligence doesn’t make you wise. Wisdom is something that occurs naturally as one learns to understand their own mind. With this understanding, wisdom arises and goes beyond the intelligence of thought.

One day it was revealed to me that my own mind was at the core of all my issues and this was never going to be different if there wasn’t an understanding of this. I had to understand why I had to always be doing something before I could be still and before stillness was experienced in my life I had to understand why there wasn’t any. Stillness isn’t something that can be attained nor can one acquire it, all that’s needed is to be aware of why you’re not still. Once this occurs than a starting point can be established and the minds natural expansion begins, but for that to occur this needs to be understood.

Until you truly understand yourself, not much will ever be different in your life. This won’t be because you don’t want it to be, it will be because in order for things to be different, it has to be understood why they are as they are. Waking up is not something that one makes happen, it’s something that occurs, and how you will know that it has occurred is by the awareness you have that your mind was based to self serve and now it’s based in stillness. Very simple to see this once it occurs, very difficult to see it if it doesn’t. The key to one’s continued expansion is to know the true nature of your own mind.

Experiencing I Am

So much of our life is spent trying to be what we already are, and the only reason this is done is because the need to be something else is so strong that it blocks one from experiencing I Am.

I talk to many people, but I don’t have anyone else’s answers, I do know how to write an article that poses questions so one can look within to find their own answers. That’s all one can do is point others to look within. My entire life was spent adding to be something other than what I was. I’m not really sure what that was, but I spent an awful lot of time adding things. I was always altering my current state, doing things that solidified this need to alter. It took me many years to find out I Am already what I always wanted to be. It was a shift that allowed me to stop trying to be something else. No more chasing or searching and all because I Am was realized; this is the place of true freedom, at least for me. So much time was unconsciously spent chasing what I already am, but it wasn’t seen because the need to be something else was blocking it from being noticed.

The perfect example of this is a dog chasing its tail. The dog chasing its tail doesn’t realize its own tail is being chased. I wonder what would happen if he caught it, lol? I’m sure it would hurt, but would it hurt as much as constantly chasing something you are never going to catch? Always on the move, but not really getting anywhere. If the dog did catch it’s own tail, it would probably hurt, but at least it would realize what it was doing and it would probably stop doing it. In a way this is what happens when one awakens, you stop trying to be something else so chasing your own tail stops. With most people there’s some pain associated with this stopping, but this is what makes one realize it’s their own tail that’s being chased. When this realization occurs the chasing stops, what then arises is I Am and it’s in the I Am that it’s realized you already are all that you can and will ever be.

Doing is Our Undoing

Do whatever you think you need to do, but understand any doing is actually an undoing because it keeps the mind in a state of agitation, and as long as one needs to do, the created undoing remains in place…

It would be more beneficial if you learned to do less in your life because any doing is actually an undoing; it’s only when the mind settles that this undoing subsided. This is how it is with a mind that needs to do, doing is an agitation and the more that needs to be done, the cloudier the mind becomes; it’s very difficult to see clearly when one is caught in doing. A doing can be identified as any activity that you think is needed to make you complete; you see when the mind is settled there’s simply nothing to do. When the mind becomes agitated it has to do, and it becomes clouded as all kinds of stories are created about what’s needed to make you complete. Reading another book may be done, another 12 step meeting, another person to help, losing another pound, more money, and on an on. So many things are used when the mind becomes agitated and the truth is none of them are truly needed because you are as complete as you will ever be right now. In the clarity of a settled mind is our completeness.

Agitated stories are created and they keep the mind clouded because of the conditioning in place. Clarity will never last as long as one thinks there is something needed to do that will make you complete. Doing keeps the mind from settling so the more one needs to do the less clear things are. Do whatever you think you need to do, but understand there will never be clarity until there’s no need to do anything. Be the light, be the instrument to spread love, be whatever you want, but this doing is actually an undoing because it keeps the mind in a state of agitation. And as long as the mind is agitated and clouded by doing, your created undoing will remain in place and you will always have to do simply because you won’t know how not to.

Mind Captivity

Being dependent on anything but life’s essentials creates a bondage that one becomes captive to…this captivity is of the mind and blocks love’s guided energy…so you may be alive…but you never truly live…

A substance or object can seem like it holds you in captivity, but it’s your own mind that puts you in the place of needing to reach for something. Without the mind telling you something is needed, dependency on anything would be non existent. The subtleness of this captivity is mind boggling. Take an alarm clock as an example, as soon as the alarm rings if the snooze button is hit, instantly you are captive because the mind wants the moment to be in different. This is the way being captive works and if there isn’t awareness of this, it’s off to the races of being controlled by a Conditioned Mind that’s dependent on wanting things the way that it wants them.

This dependency and captivity takes on many forms: drugs, alcohol, and gambling usage, talking about others, eating habits, pouting or sulking, social status, being miserly (cheap), trying to control situations and people, judging, lust, greed, envy, self righteousness, false pride, and the list goes on, but what all these have in common is they’re the external solutions used by the Conditioned Mind to fix an internal problem of lack. Until something is done to allow the mind to settle, this lack will probably be there until the last day of your life in this form. If this happens life will never truly be experienced in the way that it could be. Some dependencies may not seem as devastating as others, but whatever is used it doesn’t allow love to be your guided energy. Life can’t be experienced from the captivity of your own mind and because of this, life will never be truly lived. Only love’s guided energy allows you to truly live and it’s only a binding dependency that holds you in captivity to your own mind and blocks this from occurring.

Universal Heart

In stillness all of life arises, and all of life is from the heart, but it’s not the energy of one heart, it’s the energy of the Universal heart, so find your inner stillness and you’ll find your Universal heart.

What does it mean to live from the heart? My take on this is living from the heart is a real place, and not only is it real it’s also the only place that a person will ever find true inner contentment. To experience this contentment the mind will have to settle to the point where you can see the differences between living from the heart and living from the mind. Both exist, it’s just that most people are conditioned to live from the mind; our thoughts make up our entire world. They form our belief systems and because they are strictly from the mind, thoughts become the base of our existence. I was discussing stillness the other day with someone and his response was, “I have to think, who am I without thinking.” This is humanity’s dilemma, we have been programmed to believe that we have to think and we are our thoughts; these thoughts control most people. This type of living is from the mind and unfortunately the heart gets locked out when existence is strictly from the mind.

When you can see through this mind chatter, you will start to experience what it means to live from your heart, but this isn’t a thought, it is purely a place of stillness. The experience of living from the heart can’t really be explained, it can only be experienced. It’s like trying to define love, any word used doesn’t really do it justice. It gets watered down trying to use words to describe it. Find your place of stillness and you will find your heart. It’s there, but you have to be completely willing to look inward if you are to experience it; a little stillness will not cut it. Only complete stillness will allow for the heart to overcome the mind. Develop discipline and maybe one day your heart will open to a world that goes beyond anything the mind can conjure up. In stillness all of life arises, and all of life is from the heart, but it’s not the energy of one heart, it’s the energy of the Universe. We are just a manifestation of the Universal Heart and it will only be in stillness that we will understand this from our own heart and experience living our life from here.

Uniqueness of the Moment

The uniqueness of each moment is a phenomenon unto itself. It just doesn’t seem this way because one doesn’t truly experience the moment, they just experience the noise between their ears.

Just be aware of what arise from the silence and how it just as quickly returns to the silence. Don’t label it as anything, just watch it arise and dissipate. Don’t attach to it, just watch, whatever arises now it’s there and then it sinks into the incoming moment. The same thing with a sensation, watch it arise, be with it and watch how it returns from whence it came. Imagine you are on the beach, just sitting watching the waves arising from the silence, breaking on the shore and then it’s gone, over and over. Occasionally a seagull will appear or people will pass by. The lifeguards blowing their whistles sitting at their stations, watching what arises and returns to the silence. A helicopter comes into view and disappears. These occurrences are stored in our subconscious and are given labels, breaking wave, seagull, people , helicopter, lifeguard and so on, but they all arise from the silence of the uniqueness known as the moment. Everything arises from here.

These are what becomes our memories; the moment when something arises will never happen again. Because we label everything it seems as though history repeats itself, but it doesn’t really, it only seems that way because of the attachment and label given to something; once a moment passes it’s gone forever. Why our behaviors are repeated over and over is because of attachment, but the uniqueness of the moment is a phenomenon unto itself. It just doesn’t seem this way because one doesn’t truly experience the moment, they just experience the noise of what’s going on between their ears.

Truth Sets You Free

Truth is never made up…it’s not something that can be held onto…it’s only known when it’s realized there’s nothing to know…as a matter of fact it’s in the not knowing that truth sets you free…

When truth arises it’s clear and here’s why: When I began to look into a different way to live my life, at the core of this looking was an urge. I didn’t know much about anything, but I did know something had to change. I did understand one thing, that my own mind was the cause as to why I was suffering so I set out to find out why this was and if it was possible to stop doing this. As this process of self inquiry proceeded, my view was slowly becoming different and as this happened my life became less and less about me. It didn’t become about anyone else, it just wasn’t all about fulfilling my wants and desires anymore; when this happens qualities associated with love naturally arise. This doesn’t mean everything goes the way that it’s wanted, it’s does mean it doesn’t matter how it goes because if it’s not all about me then there’s no story of wanting and needing things a certain way and without a story there’s no suffering.

Truth is difficult because it’s interpreted differently by everyone, but I have found truth in the space of what is; not what is itself, but in the space of what is. What is is given many labels depending on what’s occurring at the time. It can be horrible, beautiful, or neutral, the label doesn’t change what’s actually occurring. Being in the space of what’s occurring now changes it and that’s because without a label there’s only space. In this space there’s no story and without a story truth is revealed. It’s not a made up truth, it’s the truth of just being with what’s here right now and not needing to add a label or story to it. In this space is where one finds truth, but it has nothing to do with you or anyone else and this is when you will clearly see that truth sets you free…

Check It

Check what is said or what’s written before attaching onto the story “I” thinks it needs. Do it with everything heard or read and in this space of checking you will find not only freedom, but also truth…

So much is perceived as being true, it’s just because it has been in place and reinforced for so long, but that alone doesn’t make it true. It matters little who says what, it has to be checked if truth is to be revealed. There was a response by someone yesterday who said true to something written, I asked if it was checked before it was decided that it was true. I’m not even sure what he said true to, but it still needs to be checked if truth is to be revealed. See how the attachment to “I” is at the core of all beliefs which are just created stories that keep you in bondage; it will take much quietness to see this. All I’m saying is check what’s been written or said before holding onto it, even this.

The Conditioned Mind is so subtle so at times someone will write something that is seen differently, to me there is an obligation to at least share what’s been revealed to me. It doesn’t usually go over so well, but I know not to take it personal because of the fact “I” doesn’t like it when it’s told to look at itself. This is because it just may be discovered “I” isn’t needed, but the conditioning in place disguised as “I” will have to defend itself. I responded to something about forgiveness, to me the word forgiveness itself creates bondage. Everyone has a right to see things as they are conditioned, I just know in the present moment there’s just what’s there; nothing more. Anything added is a story and a story whether its given a title of forgiveness, grief, love, hate, or whatever, is an attachment to “I” that keeps one in bondage. This is my view and it has freed me from creating stories, but not many see this because not many check to see beyond “I”.

Life Merges into Itself

Life is continuous until the day that it’s not. It’s broken up into fragments because of the attachment to self. Without this attachment, life simply unfolds as it merges into itself.

The real issue one has with what happens in life is not with what actually happens, issues arise because of how there’s attachment to a self to that breaks life up into fragments. As long as one exist in their current form every moment of every day is simply life merging into itself. It becomes fragmented once it’s labeled by an attached self. This transformation of life from one continuous occurrence to fragments happens because of a self that labels it separately. If the self didn’t label life it would still occur, it just wouldn’t be separated into fragments. It would be one continuous occurrence without a self attaching to it and giving it the transforming energy it needs to become fragmented.

The self doesn’t cause issues, the attachment to it does. Life occurs regardless of the self, but what attachment does is it makes life personal. Life is neutral until it’s attached to, then it becomes dualistic. This will have to be investigated to see it. Until you know your self and how it’s at the root of separating life into fragments, there will never be freedom because there will always be attachment. Life occurs even when an individual’s existence is no more, it’s actually not partial to an individual existence, it’s only the attachment to self that makes it seem like it is. Everything that happens is viewed as separate because of attachment, but without this attachment life simply merges into itself as it becomes continuous and is simply allowed to unfold.

Life is continuous until the day that it’s not. It’s broken up into fragments because of the attachment to self. Without this attachment, life simply unfolds as it merges into itself.

The real issue one has with what happens in life is not with what actually happens, issues arise because of how there’s attachment to a self to that breaks life up into fragments. As long as one exist in their current form every moment of every day is simply life merging into itself. It becomes fragmented once it’s labeled by an attached self. This transformation of life from one continuous occurrence to fragments happens because of a self that labels it separately. If the self didn’t label life it would still occur, it just wouldn’t be separated into fragments. It would be one continuous occurrence without a self attaching to it and giving it the transforming energy it needs to become fragmented.

The self doesn’t cause issues, the attachment to it does. Life occurs regardless of the self, but what attachment does is it makes life personal. Life is neutral until it’s attached to, then it becomes dualistic. This will have to be investigated to see it. Until you know your self and how it’s at the root of separating life into fragments, there will never be freedom because there will always be attachment. Life occurs even when an individual’s existence is no more, it’s actually not partial to an individual existence, it’s only the attachment to self that makes it seem like it is. Everything that happens is viewed as separate because of attachment, but without this attachment life simply merges into itself as it becomes continuous and is simply allowed to unfold.

Wanting Energy

When your not looking to derive pleasure from an arisen want, the want loses its distracting grip, and without being controlled by want you’re able to be with what’s actually in front of you.

There’s nothing inherently wrong with wanting in the sense where it’s good or bad, but because of wantings nature, the mind gets pulled into whatever want arises and you lose touch with what’s in front of you. Wanting can be draining because of the energy it needs. It’s one of the reasons why after certain wanting runs its course, there’s some guilt and remorse that follows. Giving into wanting takes a lot of energy, it’s an energy that can’t sustain itself, it needs constant reinforcement because the self that wants is never fulfilled. Love on the other hand is just the opposite, it needs nothing to sustain itself. It’s neither draining nor does it need reinforcement because it arises from stillness, as everything does. Think about it, everything arises from the energy of stillness and eventually that’s where it returns.

Fulfilling a want is very satisfying or it wouldn’t be so enticing, but because of the nature of want being fulfilled doesn’t last and more energy needs to be spent when more wanting arises. These wants usually occur one right after the other, some are glaring and some are subtle, so it’s difficult to really notice all the wants. The glaring ones seem to have more of an affect on life than the subtle ones, but make no mistake, wanting energy is all the same and it’s only there so “I” can be satisfied. I have found by not attaching to results it really helps in not being overcome by wants, as is the case with my writings. I write and that’s the end of it, it’s what’s in front of me so it’s what I do. When I’m not looking to derive pleasure from an arisen want, the want loses its control and without being controlled by it, I’m able to actually simply do what’s in front of me.

Space of Presence

If the noise in the head controls your life, it won’t stop because you have a belief in some power outside of you. Beliefs hinder the mind’s settling because they create a distraction to the space of presence…

If the noise in your head is controlling your life, it doesn’t really matter what’s going on as it’s going to be difficult to be in a place of peace. It’s such a noisy world and what makes it like this is most people are looking for an answer out there when the answer is within. What this head noise actually is and how it’s created is by not being aware you already have your answers; with a mind that’s conditioned to want answers you constantly have to look for them, hence the noise. This is how the agitation of a Conditioned Mind is formed and how it blocks awareness to the space of presence. If you knew you had the answers, the need to look for them would be non existent and so would the noise.

When you understand this, the noise will lessen and the space of presence will be experienced. If this isn’t understood, the noise will never stop; this is why it’s so important to understand this now. Why wait to be at peace later when you can be at peace right now. It’s not like the noise is needed to live life, it’s only there because you’re unconscious of it. Everyone has the ability to consciously do things that allow the removal of the noise in the head. It’s just not going to happen believing in something outside of you, but isn’t it beautiful that your peace is in your own hands and it’s totally up to you how much peace is brought into your life. A belief in some unforeseen power won’t make this happen, it’s up to you to do what’s necessary to stop the noise. As you practice the nose subsides and what’s left is the space of presence. If you’re waiting for anything else it’ll be for a very long time, actually it will probably not happen in this lifetime.

The Bottom Line

If you are to get to the bottom line of who you truly are, you will have to study the Conditioned Mind and becoming willing to sit so the process of peeling away your layers of conditioning begins.

Nothing will ever change as long as you continue to blame others and look outside yourself for answers. If you can’t get beyond all the conditioning that’s in place, getting to the bottom line of existence which requires nothing but being in its space will be just about impossible; this is only because the Conditioned Mind doesn’t allow it. Using the well known onion analogy: every onion has a base, but unless the onion is peeled it’s base will never be exposed. It will always be there as its a natural part of every onion, but without actually peeling the onion the base will remain hidden. The natural process of an onion is to cover its base, this is also the way human nature has evolved and because of this very few people ever get to the bottom line of existence.

Underneath all the conditioning is the bottom line of existence, there’s no blame and there’s no looking for answers anywhere but within this space. When one’s conditioning is peeled away one layer at a time, our base gets more exposed and one’s true nature takes hold, but if there isn’t awareness of this, nothing will change because it can’t. It’s like a force field is around the base and without awareness it seems as though it’s impenetrable, but take heed because it’s not impenetrable, it’s just going to take the studying of the Conditioned Mind and the willingness to begin the process of peeling away the layers of conditioning so you can get to the bottom line of who you truly are.

Object Perspective

If you can develop some awareness of inner stillness, the object perspective will have less control as your mind agitations also quiet. Without these agitations the need to reach for an object never arises…

If you’re always seeing life strictly from the objects the eyes see, those objects will be judged accordingly and what’s truly going on to form those judgments will not be noticed. Although with object minded attachments life still goes on, it’s very limiting to the degree of being purely superficial; this is said because it’s how I lived for forty nine years and it caused my life to be a constant struggle. The constant struggle was self created and controlled by the object perspective, although this wasn’t understood at the time. An object perspective is one where there is constant reaching and the reaching is caused by arisen mind agitations which aren’t seen. This is why someone will reach for anything without giving it much thought regardless if it’s beneficial or not. It’s in that moment regardless if it’s a benefit or not that the Conditioned Mind will dictate it is beneficial, but this is a big fat lie.

The object perspective will only be noticed when the busy mind stops its incessant busyness. One will have to be able to be present for the busyness to subside; you will not see the essence of the forest if the mind is busy being focused on the trees. This object perspective is strictly mind based. The reason it’s not conducive to one’s well being and it’s unstable is because there are so many objects to see, one right after another. This is why the big fat lie is in the forefront of most lives and stillness takes a back seat. If you can develop some awareness of inner stillness, less and less the object perspective will be in control because the mind agitations will subside. It will be at this point that the need to reach for an object will be no more and it will probably be the first time in your life that this has happened.

The Spark of Anger

No emotion arises on its own. Many things provide the spark for an emotion, but it’s always “I” energy that is at the core. No matter what happens an emotion can’t arise independent of ”I”.

No emotion arises on its own. There has to be a spark (attachment to “I”) for the emotion to arise. Many things provide the spark for this emotional attachment to take hold, but it’s always “I” energy that is at the core of any emotion. Take a look at the emotion of anger, it doesn’t exist on its own. No matter what happens, anger will never arise independent of ”I”. You cannot be angry without the attachment of “I” so in this case “I” provides the spark for anger to rear its ugly head. The thing about this is conditions have to be a certain way that allows anger, without the conditions being a certain way, anger would never arise; it couldn’t.

Using the example of a forest fire, it too needs conditions to be a certain way for it to ignite; it needs air, heat, and fuel. A forest fire just can’t happen without one of these elements. It needs a spark first of all plus it needs the other two elements in order for the spark to ignite. The same spark wouldn’t even be an issue if it just rained so a forest fire is contingent on conditions being a certain way in order for there to be a fire. This is no difference with emotions, in this case anger. Something happens and the spark of anger is ignited by “I”. If there wasn’t an attachment to “I” prior to something happening, the spark would fizzle out. It would be as if it was raining in the forest; you never hear of forest fires in the rain forest and that’s because conditions simply don’t allow it. Anger is being used here, but this is the way it is with any emotion. Without certain conditions being met there may be a spark, but if “I” isn’t the energy in play, the emotion simply will never arise.

Emotional Attachment

Emotional attachment is contingent on how much one is conditioned to think about themselves and it’s this constant thinking of “I” that doesn’t really provide much of a benefit.

The true addiction of our society is to our thinking and when you are the main subject of that thinking, it makes one’s existence selfishly irrational. Now multiply that by billions of people and hence you have the insane world that we live in; billions of people constantly thinking about themselves strictly for personal gain and self satisfaction. There’s no one to blame for this even though it arises from within each individual, it’s more so a result of the way humanity has evolved. From the mass murderer, to people pleasers, and those simply stuck on themselves, it’s the thinking mind that causes extreme emotional attachments and everything else in between. Sit often with the discernment of developing the ability to notice how much you think about yourself and you just may be able to settle in a place where your emotional attachments aren’t in control.

When emotional attachment hits an extreme level, the results are detrimental to one’s stability. This attachment is contingent on how much one is conditioned to think about themselves and it’s this constant thinking of “I” that manifest as emotional attachment. If you had love as the main influence in your life growing up, obviously you would love more than a person who had hate as their influence. Everything arises from inside of the individual so if you truly noticed the base of your actions, you may be able to alter those actions, maybe. Besides hoping and relying on divine intervention which will probably not occur, it will take awareness to allow the mind to settle so this attachment is noticed. You may even come to realize that life really isn’t about you, you just think it is.

Focused on Love

When your focus is aligned with love, there’s a deep seeded love for all beings, not because it’s wanted, but because this is simply the way love rolls when one’s focus is aligned with love.

Having clear and precise focus on love is worth more than all the books combined on what it means to be spiritual, and why this is so is because your clarified focus is yours and the content of any book is someone else’s. Someone else’s idea of you will never be you no matter if their way is copied exactly. This is why many remain in the struggle because they’re focused on trying to be someone else’s idea of who they should be. You can use books, methods, programs and whatnot as a tool, but the focus of why you do what you do will need to be reflected upon to see if your focused results are aligned with love. Not your story of love, but the love that arises not from effort, but from the focus of your inner alignment. This is where effort is useless if it’s not focused on being aligned with love; only being focused on love will suffice.

There are as many spiritual books out there as there are people, but everyone who reads a book and practices doesn’t necessarily wake up. Why do you think this is so? It’s because the focus isn’t of the necessary energy that allows the alignment to a loving heart. Love focus needs to be seen if there is to be harmony with all beings. This doesn’t mean a person won’t harm or unpleasant things won’t happen to you, but it’s less likely you will put yourself in those type of situations with being focused on a loving heart. In the space of stillness one learns to focus on love and in the process are aligned with love. When this occurs one will love all beings, not because you want to, but because this is the way love rolls when your focus is aligned with love.

It's Just Life

If you can truly get beyond the story of needing a purpose to life and just be in the stillness of the moment, your purpose to life and to humanity will be beyond anything you could make up as being needed.

There’s nothing one can truly do to gain more self-worth because that would mean things would need to be different in order for you to be complete, and this just isn’t so. If you aren’t complete as you are, you have to ask yourself why that is. Putting out completeness energy is all life and humanity needs. If something else is needed, your purpose to humanity basically becomes non existent, your energy becomes that of taking. I know we all see things as the conditioning in place dictates, but the nonsense of taking energy puts one in the position to be controlled like a puppet on a string. Even when it’s thought to be completeness energy, it takes a very settled mind to see if this is truly so.

This is not to say don’t help others or do loving things, the key is to not attach to it, that’s what I’m talking about. The world is as it is and I’m not really sure if it’s suppose to be this way or not, but I do know in the space of stillness one life (mine) has transformed. If I died tomorrow the world will go on. There won’t be a legacy left behind as this or that, I just do what the Universe revealed to me and that is that. In this space is completeness energy where there is peace which is impossible to explain. If you can truly get beyond the story of a needing a purpose to life and just be in the stillness of the moment, your purpose to life and to humanity will be beyond anything you could make up as being needed.

Simply Learn to Sit

What you think an awakening is actually blocks you from it…when thoughts are strung together they form a story…and a story is simply that…and just because you think it…that doesn’t mean it’s the truth…

All the searching you do for answers by reading another book just adds to the confusion that’s already in place…if there wasn’t confusion the need for another book wouldn’t arise…but the minds answer to this confusion is to read another book…pure insanity…simply learn to sit…nothing else is needed…you can’t solve mind problems with the same mind that creates them…any book that’s read is just someone else’s take about something…when the mind settles truth is revealed…it doesn’t come from a book…simply learn to sit…I haven’t read a so called spiritual book in over eight years…not because I know it all…but because my answers arise from stillness…my experience has been knowledge will only take you so far…if you stay in the mind you will remain in bondage to it…the shift that occurs when one awakens is the heart opens…this has nothing to do with one’s belief in something…what you think an awakening is isn’t it…it can’t be because what you think is only a story…simply learn to sit…don’t label it…what arises has nothing to do with what you think…your label is your story…simply learn to sit…and you just may be surprised that what arises has nothing to do with someone else’s book…but this will only be seen when you simply learn to sit…

Heart Space

When a person says I want this or that, initially it’s a view from the mind. For it to become a view of the heart, I and want have to be let go of so all you are left with is space.

There are basically two ways to view this existence. One is from the mind, which is the view of ideas, concepts, beliefs, and stories, and the other is from the heart which needs none of the things listed from the mind, especially the stories. When the minds view is in control it produces stress, fear, tension, greed, anxiety and a slew of other things that don’t necessarily add anything to life. When the heart is the controlling view, there’s a tendency to create space and as one learns to sit quietly and the mind settles, space becomes the normal state. There are many agitated mind states that keeps one entrapped. These agitations will only subside when something is in place that allows them to. Living from the mind is learned and because it’s so much more influenced by the world, unconsciously it becomes the default view.

Living from the heart will have to be learned if this is to change. Any suffering that occurs is directly linked to one’s thought about it, so if you don’t have the thought of suffering than you won’t suffer. Simple, but this will only occur through understanding and learning what it will take to change the agitated mind view. Mind and heart reactions are much different and because the mind has been conditioned to fulfill I wants and desires, I becomes the core of the mind made suffering. When one says I want something, initially it’s from the mind, but for it to become of the heart two things have to happen, I and want have to be removed so all you are left with is space. Until that happens the mind view will continue its control of the way your life is lived.

Mindfully Aware of Awareness

Life will always be life and it will always be as it is, but you don’t have to be stuck in a mind state where you’re not mindfully aware of what’s actually happening; awareness aware of awareness…

To be mindful is to be aware in the present moment (Now) to what is happening while it is happening. Anything that happens in life doesn’t have any specific effect, its effect is linked to a person’s conditioning, this is why one reacts to what happens as they do. This conditioning is in place for everyone, it just manifest in different ways. The quality of how mindful one is of what’s happening while it’s happening determines the awareness of it. Before something occurs there’s always the space of stillness that it arises from so if you’re already in a distracted state of unawareness, when the next thing arises it’s immediately labeled by your conditioning. How can it not be? If one is in a mindful state of awareness or quietness and the same thing takes place, the label won’t be applied; the key here is to pay attention to things conducive to your well being. This is not always easy to see because of the conditioning in place. Many are unaware of Now so things aren’t done that are conducive to your well being, but they’re done anyway because that’s what’s in place. Until there’s awareness of this, the same conditioned behavior will be repeated over and over.

You are always in the present moment (Now) whether you are mindfully aware of it or not. When you’re not, what arises grabs hold of you. It’s one of the reasons the Buddha said “Nothing can harm you as much as your own unguarded thoughts” because the unguarded thoughts control you as if you were a puppet on a string. Going beyond this is more of a mindset than effort, it’s simply being awareness aware of awareness. Stillness of each moment is where everything arises from so if you’re in harmony with this what arises will have less effect on you. Life will always be life and it will always be as it is, but you don’t have to be stuck in a mind state where you’re not mindfully aware of what’s actually happening; awareness aware of awareness…

Core Energy of Love

There’s always a core energy where life is basically lived from and this determines if the energy emitted to humanity is truly from love or from the self serving way one thinks things should be.

For years the core energy of my life was based to self serve, this didn’t leave much room for anyone else to be served, so to say the least my life was always filled with drama and chaos. This is what core energy based to self serve produces, it has to because that’s the nature of self serving energy. No one is truly at fault for this core energy, it’s basically in place because it’s the way humanity has evolved; this self serving energy is the cause of every conflict that has ever occurred.

Ever so slowly cores of love are being established and this is what’s making humanity different; it’s the only way things will become different. Core energy based in love is one of quietness, it’s not made up where one has to constantly defend that their way is the way. True love needs no defending because it’s in unity with all of life regardless of what someone else’s core energy is based in. If for some reason you’re in conflict with someone your core is not of love, it can’t be because that’s just not how love rolls; it never ever has conflict because it’s energy doesn’t allow it.

Conflicts with others are a gauge to see if your core energy is truly based in love or if it’s self serving. If there’s conflict, regardless of the other person, your energy is not based in love. You may tell yourself it is, but how can it be if there’s conflict? A conflict arises whenever something isn’t in line with the way you think it should be, but who are you to think you know how things should be. Mind your own business, take care of your core, and make sure you allow everything and everyone to be as they are because it’s then and only then that the core energy of your life will be of love and humanity will be different because of it.

Shallowness of Thought

Look beyond the shallowness of your thoughts and how they’re adhered to. It will be beyond this adherence that one’s true self emerges, if not you will remain confined to your own shallowness.

The Conditioned Mind encourages shallowness and adherence to your thoughts results in your own shallowness because it’s what’s guiding you. Is there truly a way to get beyond this shallowness, or is this just reserved for a select few? There are many who are living proof that a person can go beyond the shallowness of Conditioned Mind thoughts. One just needs to take a step back from the entanglement that’s in place. All of these entanglements are based in selfishness, with most centered on greed, hate, and delusion. This shallowness has become what the value of existence is measured by, but shallowness of a thought is valueless.

Look at the entertainment industry (sports, music, Hollywood, etc.) and how it’s adhered to, it can be called the distraction industry because that’s what it really does. It distracts you from noticing what is truly going on in your life; these distractions are adhered to daily. Because of the conditioning in place this shallowness is allowed even though it’s in everybody’s power to stop it; this shallowness has a foot hold on our throat. Please use whatever energy that can be utilized to get this message out to as many people as possible. I don’t mean preach it, or post it, I mean use your energy to go beyond the shallowness of your thoughts so you can live a message of love and be an example for others. You can only change your own shallowness, but by that changing just think of all the people that you come in contact with daily each and everyday and how many can be touched, that is if you can get beyond the conditioned shallowness that’s running the world.

Majestic Energy

Humanity’s energy is from the thought realm which attaches you to the world. As long as one is controlled by their thoughts, majestic energy can’t be primary regardless of the beliefs or concepts being held onto.

The more thoughts are held onto, the less majestic energy there will be as primary in one’s life. This is why humanity is in its current state and until this is realized individually and as a whole, things will not only remain as they are, they will get worse. I know this was the way I was until I learned why I acted the way that I did. I never understood resentment, greed, hate, jealousy or the outright deluded view of life I had. I couldn’t see the majesty that was in my heart because of all the conditioning that was in place. This blocked me from the majesty of life and as long as my thoughts were held onto this was never going to be seen.

The block to life’s majesty is also the block to one’s own majesty. Majestic energy doesn’t arise from certain beliefs and concepts, it arises from silence. It’s a shame that this isn’t understood because humanity would be so much different, we would be falling over each other in the majesty of love instead of harming each other in the name of religion or whatever else is believed to be right. There’s so much resentment and hate carried around that arises from within; it’s one’s own energy. This energy causes much harm to others, but it causes the most damage to the one who it arises from; this is mostly missed and not understood. This energy is from the thought realm which attaches to the world, and as long as one is controlled by their thoughts, the majesty of love can’t be the primary energy of life regardless of what belief or concept is being held onto.

Conditioned Momentum

The energy of the past has so much momentum because of how long it’s been in place. The Conditioned Mind uses that past momentum to process life and until this is realized the present moment will be out of reach.

Whatever your age, if you aren’t living in the present moment you are attaching to all your past experiences and this momentum keeps you living in the past. In my case there’s almost sixty years of conditioned momentum to draw on. It’s no wonder the mind has a difficult time settling; there’s just so much information for it to process and more is added every moment of every day. There’s also future energy and although this energy is different than the past, it is still attached to and drawn from the past, but the momentum goes in the direction of the future; case in point is both past and future are reaching mechanisms. Most of why something is reached for is to alter the way one wants to feel now. With all of your conditioned momentum in place, this is why when a person stops using one thing, another thing is substituted for it.

People only gain weight when they stop smoking cigarettes because their conditioned momentum carries them to reach for food as a substitute. When the mind settles and more time is spent in the present moment, the momentum lessens as does the reaching for food, hence there’s no substitution and less weight gain. The older a person is the more momentum their conditioning has. Its been proven someone who starts a sitting practice at an early age has much more stability in their life than someone who doesn’t; this is simply because there’s less conditioned momentum. Don’t make this anymore complicated than it needs to be. Live in the present moment where life only exist, or be a slave to the past and future momentum where the only thing that exist is the Conditioned Mind controlling you as if you were a puppet on string.

Unconscious Blaming

Blaming others for your discontent is the epitome of unconsciousness…Blaming yourself for your discontent is a little better, at least you are looking inward…Blame no one and there is no one to be discontented…

Pointing at others and blaming them for your arisen discontent is the epitome of unconsciousness. Even though this isn’t the fault of the pointer, it still remains the lowest form of existence because there’s not one iota of love in pointing at and blaming others for your discontentment. Hate can only arise from within you if it’s already there, this has nothing to do with who or what triggers it. It doesn’t matter what another person does, as long as there’s blaming there’s unconsciousness.

Blaming yourself for your discontent is being semi conscious, at least you are looking inward to a degree and not pointing out there at others as much. There’s still much unconsciousness here because blame is blame no matter who is being blamed. For forty nine years I was the way I was (selfish) without the slightest inkling there was another way to view life. Ten years ago I learned there was no other way for me to behave because I was unconsciously conditioned to do what I did; there wasn’t a choice. Hence although one is accountable for what they do, there’s not much responsibility if you are only doing what you have been conditioned to do.

Here’s what happens when a person wakes up. Blame no one and there is no one to be unconscious. Love becomes your base and there’s no one to blame because there’s no separation, there’s only unity. This unity is with life itself and with this comes the understanding that life is simply as it is and it never needs to be different. This is because needing it different would be blaming life itself for things not being as you think they should be, and that’s all we do when we blame is want whatever has occurred to be different…

Beyond Words

Without applying labels and stories to what happens to you, there’s existence beyond words. This is where you will be free from attachment to self and without attachment you can truly be you.

If everything that’s done is based on a self doing it you will need to keep doing to remain what you think is whole. This attachment to self is the main thing that keeps you entrapped to your own suffering. Sit with this next part and see exactly where is this self that’s so adamantly defended. What if you lost your hand would you still exist? How about both hands, now take everything away expect for the mind. Let’s just say that remains intact so there would still be existence. Even if you lost your mind there would still be existence, you just wouldn’t be aware of it. So what part of the story of this self is you? The limbs, or the story of the loss of them, the mind, or the story of the loss of it; I guess there wouldn’t be a story if there wasn’t a mind.

There’s nothing real where the self is that’s conjured up in the mind. This isn’t to say there isn’t a self, but what part of the made up story is really this self that is attached to? What part of it makes you complete or incomplete? In my case is it my role as a husband, father, son, brother and so on? Or is it my job title or my writings? All of these things exist, but they’re only a story. Without applying labels and stories to what happens to you there’s existence beyond words. This is where you will be free from attachment to the story of self and without attachment you can truly be you.

Conditioned Problems

The Conditioned Mind loves to create problems, until this is seen it will continue to do so even though everything in life is temporary, especially the Conditioned Mind problems that are created…

Problems are created by a Conditioned Mind that doesn’t accept what’s occurring in the present moment. It wants the present moment different and it actually makes you think if it was different all would be well; this is the fallacy of the Conditioned Mind. All is well right now, but because of the Conditioned Mind it’s not seen so a problem is created just so you have something to do. I’ve always had a tendency to make everything that occurs a problem, and although I don’t attach to this as I once did, many times the problem view is my first reaction.

Yesterday I was washing clothes and I put them in the dryer. When they were almost finished drying, I opened the dryer to pull out a shirt, there were blue spots on it and also on some of the other clothes. I pulled them all out and found a pen in the dryer. There was also blue ink all over the dryer. The first response was my usual this is a problem reaction, the clothes are ruined. I took a step back and took a deep breath. I grabbed a shirt and cleaned a spot, the ink came out. I then cleaned the inside of dryer. I rewashed all the clothes and an hour and a half later it was as if nothing had happened. I don’t concern myself too much with my reactions anymore, the attachment to what occurs is what I watch now. The clothes can be substituted with anything. The Conditioned Mind loves to create problems, until this is seen it will continue to do so even though nothing is truly a problem because everything passes, that is to a mind that sees just how conditioned it is.


Shining Your Light

You may not be able to do anything about the state of how things are right now, but you can live in a way that lets your light shine through by just being with what’s here now and doing what’s in front of you…

To be a light, one must simply be with what’s here now. The task at hand is what is happening right now, which is the only place that life can truly be lived. It’s also the only place that your light can shine through. If you aren’t with what’s here now, your light won’t be noticed. Life can never be better than it is right now, because right now is simply what’s here. Only the Conditioned Mind makes you think this isn’t so. Life is always lived in the here and now and that’s always what’s in front of you. You can wish for things to be different, but it’s your life that is being wished away. Learn to be with what’s simply in front of you, and your light will naturally shine through.

Our path is laid before us to do the best we can with the tools we have, but there needs to be a clear path that lets our light shine through; it’s very easy to veer off the path if there isn’t vigilance. There are many diversions that will try to dim your light. It’s as if our life is an obstacle course and it’s in place to divert us from the here and now, from our present, which is where our light is. There’s only one present and one life, but there are many many obstacles. One of the main obstacles is wanting things different. The mind tells you, if what’s here now was different than life would be better, but this is a lie. Things are the best they can be right now because of being present; this is where your light can shine. If you can’t change the way things are right now, you can at least live in a way that lets your light shine through. Just be with what’s here now simply because it’s the task at hand and be with whatever it is that life gives you that lets your light shine through…

Opinionated Desires

Life is not a made up perfection where it has to be the way one thinks it should be. Whatever arises has to be accepted exactly as it is with seeing its perfection regardless of how much it’s desired to be different.

Being human means desires will arise. Unless this is accepted exactly as it is without needing life to be a certain way so you can get a better seat in heaven or move up on the angelic chain of command, life will seem to always have some kind of struggle associated with it. One of the common traits I notice when I talk to people about the Conditioned Mind is not truly accepting the moment exactly as it is, with a self imposed label of imperfect being applied . There are so many conditioned desires engrained in each of us and if they’re not accepted as they arise, one will live a struggled existence, needing those desires to be fulfilled.

Accept each moments desires and just watch as they arise. This isn’t a right or wrong thing, it’s just part of being human and it has to be accepted if there’s to be peace in one’s life. There’s opinionated energy all around and it will cause much suffering as there will be desires to be played out fulfilling them. This desiring usually manifest as individual energy, but at times it’s both individual and collective energy, and if results of something aren’t accepted as they are, it’s because one’s opinionated desires are in control and wants different results. Anything that happens has to be accepted as it is if there is to be any semblance of contentment. This is made more difficult because as things occur and because one is human, an opinionated label is applied to what arises as being unpleasant. This makes one desire whatever arises to be different and as long as one’s energy doesn’t accept this as part of their humanness, peace and contentment will never be had.

Delusional Stories

Understanding delusion is one of the attributes of waking up, but it’s not the delusions of the world that entrap you, it’s the delusions that run your life that hold you in bondage…

A delusion is a story that runs your life. They manifest as one attaches to their thoughts. The first thought that arises about something is inconsequential, it’s the attachment to the second thought that forms the delusion. To understand delusion there must be awareness of their attachments and the way your mind works; without this the puppet on string patterns remain in place. Certain practices turns one inward to see this so if what you are doing doesn’t turn you inward, you will remain entrapped to your delusions of the Conditioned Mind. This is why nothing from the outside truly changes a person because anything from the outside is part of the delusion. A broken mind can’t fix itself and as long as it’s reaching for something on the outside, it remains trying to fix itself and thus it remains broken. Until this truth is seen, things will stay as they are because nothing is being done to change it.

We can only know what’s being done on the surface if there’s awareness of it. What this means is one has to develop mindfulness of what they are doing as they are doing it so there’s awareness of what’s being done. If you know what you’re doing as you’re doing it, it leaves little room for delusion to arise. Mindfulness is probably the single most discipline to develop as it anchors you in the moment as what is being done occurs. Delusions only occur when one lives in the story of a past or future. These mind made constructs keeps the delusion alive. The present moment can be seen without making it a story even though it passes as quickly as it arises, but the past and future can never truly be seen without a story. This is because most people lack the discipline to be present which is what causes one to live a delusional state of existence…

Only "I" Reaches

Reaching for an object happens because “I” makes this so. Only turning away from the clinging to “I” will result in true freedom and this is because it’s the turning away that provides the letting go.

When one is caught reaching for an object of desire and it takes hold of all your attention, the only way to break free of this is to have awareness you’re caught. The object doesn’t matter in the sense that it can be anything from a thing, a place, people or even yourself, but what does matter is seeing what’s making you reach for it. There are so many different objects reached for that one will have to decipher for themselves what holds them. The reaching is different only because of what’s used, but the turning away is the same as long as there isn’t substitutions. Many people stop smoking only to use food and eventually go back to smoking. This is just one example, substitution is rampant in our society and it keeps one locked into reaching and remaining on the merry go round of desire.

Turning away from whatever it is that grips you is where you will experience true freedom. Why this is difficult for most people to truly see is because “I” isn’t seen as the core of the reaching; this is why substitution is so prevalent. If the reaching results in using drugs or alcohol, when a program is substituted to stop using them, unless one turns away from “I” the drugs and alcohol will most likely be used again. Why this is so is because the program is being reached for also and although one stops using drugs and alcohol, the program is only used as substituting one object for another and doesn’t provide true freedom. Only turning away form “I” will result in freedom and that’s because without “I” there’s no reaching. This is why the object doesn’t matter, because it’s only “I” that makes one reach and it’s only in turning away from “I” that one will be free.

Making Up Truth

The value of using the body as an anchor for present moment living is it doesn’t make anything up, only the mind does so when the body is used to be present, truth arises; this is beautiful in its simplicity…

Your made up truth isn’t necessarily true, it’s true in the sense that it’s your version of truth, but the content of your made up interpretations of truth are not truth. This is because you are the creator of your truth and it’s believed wholeheartedly, but it’s only your interpretation. This is what directs your energy and how your life is lived. The thing to also investigate is how much you make up. There’s the parents truth, the childhood one, the teen and young adult truth. There’s the boy meets girl truth, the get married truth. The work truth, family truth, and on and on. There are so many truths and only one you, so which truth is true? If you say all of them you should be able to sense why it’s so difficult to see the true version of what’s true instead of one that’s made up. There’s the truth in there somewhere, but it probably hasn’t been discovered yet. When the real truth is discovered all the made up ones fall away.

So how would a person know what truth is? My experience has been truth is known when there isn’t a need to create it. Truth always arises, it’s never created, it’s basically what’s in the present moment. This is the value of using the body as an anchor for present moment living. The body doesn’t make anything up, only the mind does, so when the body is used to be present, truth arises; this is beautiful in its simplicity. Grasp this and making up truth will cease to exist because the need to create it won’t arise and without a made up version of truth there’s no interpretation of what is actually true…

Outside the Box

What is considered the box by society entraps most people to the idea of what others think the box is and unless this can be seen to go beyond it, there will just be blind acceptance of someone else’s idea of the box.

Stepping outside of what is considered the box as far as thinking goes is a must if one is to go beyond the trap of the considered box. You may ask why would a person want to go beyond what’s considered the box, here’s why: the so called box is based in form and to be attached to form causes suffering. It’s as simple as that, with the normal attachment to the senses (the box of form), life will still occur, it just won’t be experienced as fully as it can be. There will still be experiences, how can there not be with one being alive, but they will be dictated by form and there’ll be much boxed nonsense associated with them. Societies box entraps one to what others think is considered normal and unless one can see this to go beyond it, there will be blind acceptance of someone else’s idea as your own. It’s an easy trap to get caught in because the bait is so enticing.

This plays right into the reward system that is considered part of societies box. Not too many people do anything that doesn’t have the reward of pleasure associated with it. This can be applied to just about anybody and anything. When was the last time you purposely did something that you knew was going to be unpleasant or without some kind of reward attached to it? This is pivotal in understanding the process of the Conditioned Mind. Until you can just be with whatever arises, without judging it or associating it with pleasure, the box of what society considers normal will be what dictates the life you’re living, and unfortunately it will probably be someone else’s idea of what is considered the box.

No More Questions

The Conditioned Mind makes you believe answers are needed to exist, but answers aren’t truly needed; the questioning will only be eliminated when there’s the simple acceptance of what’s happening right now.

Although the mind always wants answers, sometimes the answers gotten aren’t the ones wanted, and sometimes one doesn’t even get an answer, but the problem doesn’t lie in the lack of answers, it lies in the mind becoming agitated and creating unnecessary questions. When things occur and one’s conditioning creates questions, it’s because makes one thinks they need answers. at his makes it very difficult for what’s occurring right now to be accepted. This is the cause for most of one’s discontentment, and if what’s occurring right now isn’t accepted, it makes for a very agitated mind. The real kicker to this is it’s your own mind creating this nonsense.

Life isn’t something to be figured out, actually the more you think you have it figured out, the less it’s known what’s going on. It’s the Conditioned Mind that wants to put life in a box, but the moment this is done existence becomes limited. This occurs because a limit is put on a mind that doesn’t truly have a limit. Understand this self created limit is because of one’s conditioning not the mind itself. The mind is limitless, it’s a product of the Universe, which is also limitless. Our mind can be understood to a certain degree, but the limitless of it cannot so instead of making up answers, be in the moment of what’s actually occurring right now and allow this to be your answer. When this is done there won’t be a need for questions because wanting answers will be eliminated.

A Directed Dilemma

The Conditioned Mind is a human dilemma because it leads most in the direction of greed, hate, and delusion. If you can see this in yourself you will not have to look any further because you’ll understand you are already free…

You can only change your own conditioning, and that will only happen if you’re fortunate enough to be aware of this. What happens when it’s realized how every thought is that of the Conditioned Mind is you stop trying to change how the world is and instead you understand how to accept the world as it is because you know you can only change yourself. This will not change the Conditioned Mind of those immersed in greed, hate, and delusion, but it will change you. It is only the workings of a Conditioned Mind that needs things different, even if it knows things can’t be changed.

Who knows if the world will change before humanity destroys it, but it’s only through the Conditioned Mind that this is happening anyway. Maybe it’s suppose to be this way, maybe not, but a person can only change themselves and that will only happen when there’s enough awareness to realize how conditioned you really are. Look at the smugness of your own conditioning before you point the finger at someone else. After all when you point one finger at another there are three pointing back at you, so simply take the log out of your own eye before you point out the speck in someone else’s eye. The way we are conditioned as a species is our dilemma, this is a stark fact and until this changes nothing will change. But fret not because if you come to realize this you will understand “It’s Monday Only in Your Mind: You Are Not Your Thoughts” and when you do you will see just how conditioned you really are. It will be then that you will have the possibility of awakening and seeing the light, not a conditioned light, but a light provided by simply looking within.

Distracted Thoughts

There’s not much a person can do about the first thought that pops up, but with practice discipline can be developed to watch the distracted thoughts as they arise and are attached to…

There are as many different views of life as there are people in the world and no one view is inherently right or wrong. We each have a unique way of perceiving and interpreting life and the base of what is perceived and interpreted is where our differences come from. This is where we create our delusional separation from each other and this is when conflicts arise, but the conflict isn’t with others, it’s with our own thoughts. If we all viewed life from the same base of love, it would be the base of our existence and there would never a conflict with anyone including ourselves. Our true essence is Universally based in love, but then comes each individual’s perception and interpretation. This is where the break down occurs because the mind isn’t disciplined to watch our distracted thoughts. Our thinking is totally distracted trying to satisfy pleasures and desires that are created by an undisciplined mind. Our distracted thoughts are the greatest block to loving ourselves and all beings.

Distracted thoughts are why we become are our own worst enemy. If all we had were thoughts based in love, conflicts with ourselves would be non existent and if we had no conflict with ourselves we wouldn’t have any conflict with others. No one can harm you as much as your own distracted thoughts, but when the mind quiets and settles there’s awareness of this. Once a person becomes aware of their distracted thoughts, they can stop being their own worst enemy. They can then begin to think of loving themselves the way the Universe intended, and in the process have thoughts that are based in loving all beings…

Understanding the Lies

Lies created by the Conditioned Mind can’t be fixed with the same conditioning. It’s not that truth has to be known to change this, but the conditioning will have to be understood if the lies are to cease being created…

It’s very difficult to know truth because of the Conditioned Mind creating so many different definitions of it. Instead of trying to prove what truth is, begin to notice where the lies come from. A lie is something that has no real facts to it. Perceptions aren’t factual, they’re made up by the conditioning of the perceiver to suit some belief. People ask me if I believe in God, my answer is, I have come to see how beliefs are only a made up story, attached to something that you hope will make life the way you think it should be. These stories don’t enhance life, they actually take away from it. For me I stick to what I know is factual and how it relates to my experience. I don’t see the benefit in making up a story (attaching to a belief) about something to suit a conditioned mind made up lie.

The biggest lie in place is that the things of the world will satisfy you, this lie is reinforced everyday. It’s an untruth which is at the core of our entire misaligned society. It creates all our issues as a society. Religious sects all claim to have the truth, no facts, just their truth. Politicians try to fix problems based in the same conditioned lies that creates them. The entire entertainment and sports industry are based in lies that create the false impression of the haves and have nots, which creates separation in our society not unity. There’s also the lie of social and career status. There’s no truth in any of these, there’s only perception. Lie after lie after lie, and what happens to a society when lies are its base is it becomes a society of liars. Not because we want to, and not because we can’t know the truth, but simple because we don’t understand the conditioning in place that creates the lies.

Surface Conditioning

As long as there’s conditioning in place, this will dictate the energy of your life. This energy arises and results in as what’s on the surface, but it doesn’t allow you to see what’s truly going on.

How things appear on the surface isn’t how they actually are. If one truly wants to see what’s going on, going beyond what is seen on the surface will have to happen. If two people are looking at same thing there are usually two different opinions of what is seen, and than there’s what’s going on beyond the surface; this is truth. There’s three sides to every story, my side, your side and the truth. To stop seeing what’s on the surface one only needs to stop creating the story of what is seen. Stopping the story process allows the mind to slow to a point where space opens up. It’s imperative for this to happen if the conditioning that’s been formed over the years is to lessen its grip.

The Conditioned Mind is so misunderstood. I look to my own reactions to know this and in the process I can see it in others. This isn’t a story, it’s a fact. Know your own conditioning and you will know the conditioning of others. This is because we are all of the same energy. Creation is simply creation and needs no story. When the conditioning is seen for what it is, its energy begins to transform to allow liberation. As long as there’s conditioning in place, this will dictate the energy of your life. This energy arises and results in as what’s on the surface. It doesn’t allow you to see what’s truly going on, and until you do what’s on the surface will be the only thing seen.

Life...Not About Me

Me energy can’t get out of its own way. For the next step in the evolution process to occur, me energy has to be let go. A true transformation can only occur by me energy being absent in one’s daily existence.

The more the energy of me is in control, the more life seems to be a struggle. This doesn’t mean one should go around making life about others because in my experience that’s still the energy of me. Not easy to see this, but as long as one has to do something, me energy is in place. Not attaching to me energy may be the most difficult part of the awakening process at least it is for me…lol. This is mostly because of how me constantly gets reinforced. Most people develop a mindset that has me as the center of the Universe, this is not easy to break free of because me energy begins as an infant and just gets deeper into the subconscious as one gets older. This is one of the true blocks to awakening and it’s why so few do.

Me energy can’t get out of its own way. This is why most people remain as they are and don’t change. I don’t mean superficial change like not doing something any longer, I mean a deep inner change that happens because the Universe does it. No one can change themselves, but you can put yourself in alignment to change. This happens constantly change, but it’s mostly done as a detriment to ones own well being because it comes from me energy. Thinking you know what life is about, but still using worldly satisfaction to me means something is still being missed. For the next step in the evolution process to occur, me energy has to be let go. A true transformation can only occur by me energy being absent in one’s daily existence. This doesn’t mean you won’t exist, it just means me energy isn’t attached to and it is then that life can be about something other than me…

Creating Space Allows Grace

Grace is the difference between being happy, joyous, and free or being stuck in a mundane existence, and if space isn’t created to allow grace to arise, mundane life will be…

If you want to truly experience all that life has to offer you will have to create some space to allow grace to manifest in your life. This creating space is like putting an addition on your house. Let’s say you have a family of four and you only have a two bedroom home. You can live there the way that it is, cramped and confined, or you can put an addition on it and create more space which will make the living so much more comfortable and so much more beneficial for everyone involved. Not putting on an addition (not creating space) is how it is with the noise in our ahead. The noise controls and limits and it keeps one cramped and confined as it goes round and round, that is until there’s space created that allows grace to enter your life.

The noise in the head will not allow you the grace that’s needed to truly live your life and it will not allow the space that allows grace to be your focused energy. Grace is not something that you can make happen, it’s not something you can study, it’s something that occurs when the space is created so it can arise. The space of grace is what happens when you stop trying to manipulate life to make it how you think it should be. You were born by grace all without one iota of assistance from you. Grace is the difference between being happy, joyous, and free or being stuck in a mundane existence, and if space isn’t created to allow grace to arise, mundane life will be…

Finding Your Anchor

Look down at your feet, regardless of where they’re planted this is your anchor. If it isn’t it’s because the need to reach for something else is blocking you from being anchored in the present moment…

When all of a sudden you’r not at peace, it’s because something has taken you from it. Remembering to look down at my feet reminds me if I’m not at peace it’s because I’m no longer anchored in the moment. For years I was constantly searching for this anchor and expect for brief moments it eluded me for most of my life. This was because my anchor was always contingent on something that was outside of myself and whatever its form, it was always an anchor based in what I thought I needed to provide myself comfort. There’s no need to list what these anchors were because there are so many, they’re all the things one reaches for. These anchors come in many forms and unless one truly takes a step back to see this the reaching will always be there, but finding your true anchor will never happen.

The lies of the Conditioned Mind will dictate what you will use as an anchor and until this conditioning is identified, one’s anchor will continue to be sought and never be found. The only way this will change is by going inward to discover why there’s a need to reach for something, once this is revealed, therein lies your anchor. Your anchor isn’t from the thought realm though, it comes from the stillness within that tells you it doesn’t matter where you are or what’s happening, all you have to do is look down at your feet. If you need any other anchor it’s because the need to reach is still in place and it’s blocking you from finding the anchor to the present moment.

Selfish Awareness

Awareness is key in breaking free from the hold of the attachments of the Conditioned Mind, and the only reason the hold is even so is because of the selfish nature that’s at the core of these attachments.

The mind would never become agitated if one didn’t attach to the present moment needing to be different and what is needed different is decided by your own mind looking for something that’s going to provide you with pleasure. This is where awareness to what one is attached to helps, without this awareness the agitation is never seen, and one simply succumbs to it because they have to. There’s no choice in this without awareness and even then the attachment is so powerful it most likely will not be let go of. Awareness of what one is attached to is key in breaking free from the hold of the Conditioned Mind, and the only reason the hold is so is because of the selfish nature of what’s at the core of these attachments. It’s the reason why one needs something different and reaches for money, greed, porn, gambling, drugs, alcohol, programs, and even God to name just a few of the things that are attached to.

When using the body for present moment awareness the attachments aren’t as powerful and although they will still be there because you’re human, they won’t have as much control over you as they do now. You can say the mind agitations aren’t in control of you, but just by saying that they are; this is because if the mind wasn’t agitated, there wouldn’t be any response. This is how you can tell if the mind is agitated, it will respond to things without giving it much thought. When the mind isn’t agitated, there will be space between what arises and the response to it. The space is the result of developing discipline and fully being in the present moment. Without this discipline one will remain a slave to their mind agitations and be selfishly attached to things that don’t allow the space to be free.

Just Watch

Just watch as each situation arises in your life and you’ll be the recipient of a peace that passes all understanding. Or not and stay a prisoner to the judging and labeling process of the Conditioned Mind…

There are two ways to live life, one is from the perception that we are directly involved in everything that happens. This requires that we make constant judgements as each situation occurs; we instantaneously label things as they happen. This is what makes life personal. This is the way most people have been conditioned, so this is the only way one can be lived. The other way that life can be lived, but this must be learned, is to just watch what happens. This is much different because you don’t get pulled into what happens. You’re a participant because you’re alive, but you learn not to judge and label what happens. If you are in traffic, you watch the label arise, but that’s all you do. You acknowledge the fact that there’s traffic and that’s it. You don’t have to take it any further because it doesn’t add anything to the situation. In this case you’re in traffic, but by just watching being in traffic instead of making it about you, there’s a freedom that’s not there when the situation is judged and labeled instead of just being watched.

Just think of the many scenario’s that this can be directly applied to and see how differently each situation affects you when it’s watched instead of being judged and labeled. It’s amazing how much more peace there is in your life when it’s simply watched. Don’t take my word for this, see the difference for yourself as you learn to watch what happens in life instead of being pulled into it. The situations that occur don’t change, just the way it affects you does. Become the watcher and be the recipient of peace, or not and remain a prisoner to the judging and labeling process that keeps you in bondage to the judging and labeling process of the Conditioned Mind.

Mind Agitated Lies

Truth will make a person look inward and as they do all sorts of things will arise, and because of this inward view the mind becomes agitated and a lie is created to avoid the truth…

Most people unconsciously live a life consumed by a lie more so than one of truth. They believe they’re living by truth, but upon further investigation this fallacy is uncovered. On the outside one is totally consumed by the lie which keeps a person locked into it, but this is only because of one’s own conditioning that locks you in. Truth will make a person look inward and as they do all sorts of things will arise, and because of this the mind becomes agitated and a lie is created to avoid the truth. Becoming aware of the lies so truth can be revealed is essential in the process of understanding yourself. Sit with the assumption that you will sit in stillness and watch how little stillness there is or just sit and be with whatever is there, that’s the truth of stillness. When the mind doesn’t have to push anything away or pull anything in, it is still.

Only agitated energy causes the mind to create a lie, but being with the agitation allows the mind settled. This doesn’t mean you don’t make changes, but when changes aren’t necessary the mind is settled. This is why I don’t share about positive versus negative, because if it’s negative and you have to pull positive in, it’s the same agitation as if you are positive and you push negative away. An agitated mind is a mind that needs things to be a certain way whether it’s positive or negative. This is the agitated lie, but the truth is nothing needs to be different than what it is and the mind will only settle when there isn’t the agitated lie of needing to push something away or pull something in…

Aware of Your Own Presence

All roads that lead to a peaceful life begin and end in the present moment and developing a mindfulness practice will assist in the awakening of being aware of your own presence…

When one lives in a state of mindfulness, this allows the present moment to be experienced, this is the space of your own presence. Being mindful of what’s actually happening as opposed to being pulled around by it is what determines the amount of peace there will be in your life; this peace arises by being aware of the space of your own presence. Life is magical in its essence, but there’s nothing magical about being in the space of presence. All roads that lead to a peaceful life begin and end in the present moment and a mindfulness practice will assist in being aware of your own presence…

Watch a thought and be mindful of it, now watch another, this is a tool as is the breath to be used to keep you in the space of your own presence. One can not be mindful of being in someone’s else’s space or the space of the past or future. You can be mindful that you’re thinking about someone’s space or the past or future, but you can never actually be there. Every watched thought or breath can only be observed in the space that it’s happening. The more one becomes mindful of this, the more focused one becomes of the body being in the present moment (your own space) as opposed to grasping for the story of some other space. Be mindful of this article as it pertains to your own presence and what arises. Just be with it by being mindful. It’s in the space of mindfulness that you will find the peace of your own presence and this is because the only thing that’s there is the presence of your own space…

Thought Awareness

Thoughts will arise, but they don’t have to control you. If there isn’t awareness of this, your thoughts will blindly be attached to which will lead to them being blindly in control…

If there isn’t awareness of your own thoughts, there won’t be anyway of knowing if they’re truly beneficial to you. Without this awareness hold on because you’ll be taken on a roller coaster ride. Not that life does anything directly to anyone, but thoughts arise and they determine what kind of ride you will be on. Awareness of your unchecked thoughts is essential if one is to not be controlled by them. Thoughts are a natural part of life, they will arise, to me there’s no way of controlling the thoughts that arise, but I have found that awareness of them allows for a split second hesitation that can be used to determine whether or not the thought is beneficial; remember attachment to any thought causes suffering, not the thought itself…

I often say the Conditioned Mind is diabolical and unless there’s some awareness of how controlling your thoughts actually are, they will and this has to happen, control you as if you were a dog on a leash. So subtle is this that even if you are doing things that are labeled as loving, if these thoughts aren’t watched they will eventually control you; remember bondage is bondage regardless of what label is applied to the thought. This is why the Conditioned Mind is diabolical because of its subtleness in using whatever it can to remain in control. Thoughts will arise, but they don’t have to control you. If there isn’t awareness of this, your thoughts will blindly be attached to which will unfortunately lead to them being blindly in control…

It's Never Personal

There are many different ways that people handle what arises in life, the key to not being controlled by what arises is to understand life isn’t personal and it doesn’t do anything to you…

As life happens, the way it’s handled depends on how one relates themselves to it. One way and the most common is to make what happens so personal that it’s attached to as if life does it to you. This is very limiting and it creates much suffering because it’s made as if there’s some master plan as to why things happen; this is when the would’ve, should’ve, could’ve mind takes over. That there’s a you who thinks things happen to is at the core of the conditioned way of thinking, but nothing truly happens to you, things do happen, but nothing directly happens to you unless it’s taken personal. I’m not saying ignore what happens, but without making what happens personal, things that happen are allowed to be as they are without creating suffering. This is not the way most people handle life. The conditioned thought is there has to be an emotional tie to what happens, but what’s not understood is this tie causes suffering. This isn’t seen because of making life personal which only exist in the mind.

No one has to suffer through life, but if the herd mentality is blindly followed, there will be suffering. The last few weeks have allowed me to go deeper within to see how my own suffering is created by holding onto a self that’s been programmed to take life personal. If you don’t think this is true, pin point where this self is that is so adamant about taking what happens personal. I will just say this, because of the attachment to self, although what happens happens, it will always seem as it happens to you, but nothing is ever truly personal, not because it’s being ignore, but because there’s no attachment to a self to take it personal.

Creating a Tainted Reality

Truth always arises before a label is applied, but once a label is applied it becomes an interpretation, and because truth can’t be labeled as anything other than truth, it becomes tainted.

Life is always as it is regardless of the story that’s made up, but this story is what creates your reality. This reality is not about what happens in the present moment because that will always be as it is, it’s about how what happens in the present is interpreted and thus becomes tainted; this is the reality that’s created. There’s a lot of chaos in our world because of the tainted reality people create. This has nothing to do with what actually arises, it’s because of the evolution of the human mind; this is what causes all the chaos. It all comes down to the stories that are made up. Life will always be as it is, it’s impossible to be any other way, but because everyone sees things as their conditioning dictates, the arisen moment takes on many different interpretations. These interpretations are what creates a person’s reality, and because most people are closed minded, what is seen is perceived as truth.

Truth always arises before a label is applied, but once a label is applied it becomes an interpretation and the truth of the arisen moment becomes tainted. It has to because truth can’t be labeled as anything other than truth, so the moment it’s labeled as this or that “Bam” it’s tainted. Because of the way the human mind has evolved and has the need to be right, it makes it very difficult to see what’s really going on in life; this is why reality has to be created. Our evolved minds make it difficult to see that someone else may have more of an understanding of something than we have, so we unconsciously remain in the bondage to our tainted reality. Until one can stop applying a label to what arises in the moment, creating a reality will have to be done, and this will occur regardless of how tainted that reality may be.

Ending the Inner War

It’s the thinking mind that makes one’s own mind a battlefield. It’s the heart that throws out the white flag to surrender, but not to be defeated, it’s done to end the war so the suffering stops.

Make no mistake, there’s a war being fought within humanity, but understand it’s not a war against each other, or good and evil, and it has nothing to do with demonic forces versus godly forces, it’s a war between love and selfishness and the battlefield is between one’s own ears. It’s the battlefield of your own mind and until this is seen at the deepest level of the heart, the war will continue and the battlefield of where it’s being fought, one’s own mind will remain. Most everyone thinks there’s a war going on with something from the outside, such as a war on drugs, or politics, religions, race, or whatever else is used to disguise where the battlefield is, but make no mistake, it’s always in the same place; your own mind.

The weapons of this war are plentiful, but their root is all the same and it’s based in selfishness. Only when this is understood will the battlefield be identified along with the possibility of the war ending. This war is between love and selfishness and it has been going on since humans evolved to the point of being able to think. It’s the thinking mind that makes one’s own mind a battlefield. It’s the heart that throws out the white flag to surrender, but not to be defeated, it’s done to end the war so the suffering stops. Until this is realized, the war between love and selfishness will continue because one will remain in bondage to the battlefield of their own mind…

Looking at Yourself

The only obstacle there is to being free is truly looking at yourself and until you do look at you, true freedom is something that will always be out there in the next thing reached for.

Consider life as water and emotions as a flood, if you’re on low ground you will be overcome by the flood waters (emotions), but if you’re on high ground the same flood water will come, but the way it affects you will have a much different outcome. This is what happens when a person looks at themselves, you’re naturally on higher ground which builds up a defense against your emotional flood water. Without looking at yourself there will be no defense against the flood water because you will be stuck on low ground and on low ground when the flood water arises, some form of destruction will be the result and the severity of the flood (emotional attachment) determines the destruction.

The flood water only affects what’s on low ground, and our lower nature manifest as emotional attachments. The destructiveness of this attachment is determined by what is reached for, drugs, alcohol, gambling, sex, food, and so on. Although not everything reached for is destructive, some just have much more destructive potential than others. If you don’t look at yourself there won’t be awareness of the nature of what’s reached for. To me, the key is looking yourself because it puts you on higher ground so when the flood waters come it has less affect on you. This is the value of looking at and understanding yourself, it allows you to not be flooded emotionally by circumstances that occur. Although the flood waters will arise, because you are on higher ground you aren’t affected like the person who’s stuck on lower ground and is reaching for a life preserver, in whatever form that may be.

Caught in Thought

Peace isn’t something achieved or attained so it’s in doing less that peace arises. Too many people get caught in the thought of trying to find peace when it’s something that’s already within you…

You will never find the peace that you’re seeking if you’re caught in the thought of finding peace. Peace is something that’s already within everyone, but because of the way we’re conditioned, we get caught in the thought that peace is something out there. Unfortunately getting caught in this thought makes the very thing you are seeking impossible to grasp. This getting caught in thought is the reason you’re in constant need for something from the outside. Until this is seen, one will remain caught in the though that peace is in the next thing attained. Alcohol, gambling, drugs, sex, social status, programs, therapy, and on and on, this needing is proof that you are caught. I can’t stress this enough as going beyond being caught in your thoughts will have to be seen if one is to ever experience true peace.

It’s impossible for the thought of peace to provide peace, but what does have to happen if one is to experience peace is, there has to be an understanding of why there’s a need for peace. Again, that there isn’t peace is only because of being caught in the thought of not being at peace. When the thought of fulfilling a need arises, being caught begins. This is a vicious cycle that’s very difficult to break free from. Peace isn’t something attained so it’s in doing less that peace arises. Too many people get caught in the thought of trying to find peace when it’s something that’s already within you; the thought of finding peace needs to be let go if you are to see this. This is not easy, but it’s why I share. Understand though, I only share to point inward so being caught by your thoughts can be seen for what it is; the only reason why there isn’t peace…

Ego Creates Itself
There's no harmony when the egos energy is running the show and simply put without harmony we have everyone going in different directions trying to attain a certain selfish status... Nothing really means all that much in the grand scheme of life when it comes to achieving a certain status in our society, not that there's anything wrong with this, but it doesn't equate to anything except to the egos energy. This energy is what actually makes the ego what it is; it creates itself. When ego energy is embraced, it creates an I am special aura or a look at me persona, but the truth of the matter is, when it's time to leave this world, nothing is taken with you. I've learned one very important lesson in my life and that is my life has nothing to do with me, I say this in the sense of what any life is all about. Life itself doesn't really care what occurs, it’s the ego that makes it important by the story it creates of "I". It attaches to “I” and adds all kinds of things that creates a look at me persona. A celebrity status goes to most people's head, but it doesn’t really mean anything. Just loving and keeping things in their proper perspective is what gets it done for me, with the "it" being a level of quietness that doesn't need an ego story to be. Anything added to life doesn't really enhance it in any way. Being with life as it is and not needing it to be of a certain status is so much more beneficial as an energy than putting out ego energy. So much of the ego energy is reinforced by the things of”I” and it's why the world is the way it is. The ego can't exist without a certain energy that feeds it and without awareness of this, just by the design of idolizing, the egos energy is constantly reinforced. I'm right and you are wrong energy is also the kind of energy that's in place and it makes for many ego charged situations. There's no harmony when the egos energy is running the show and simply put without harmony we have everyone going in different directions trying to attain a certain selfish status...
Concept of Me
Nothing is the whole of anything unless it’s labeled as so, and who does this labeling, but the idea of a me which only exist because of forming a delusional concept. The concept of a me is what keeps one wandering helplessly for possibly countless lifetimes; simply put, the concept of a me does this. The concept of me is not who you are, nor is it the mind, nor I, nor does it truly have anything to do with you, it's just a concept that keeps you in bondage to "there's a me" story. It's always the story itself that keeps you bondage and although it may seem as though what's being used to create the story keeps you in bondage, it’s not. It can't be because there's nothing real to a story and this is because it's of the mind and there's nothing real that comes from the mind; it's only as real as yesterday's dream. If it's about something that happened, that means you are bringing the past into the present and this creates a delusional mindset. If you're bringing the future into the present, again you're creating a delusional mindset by not being with what's actually happening, and it’s always a conceptual me that does this. This is what happens when the concept of a me is the driving energy behind how one lives. If everything done is derived from a conceptual me than life will be delusional because me is delusional; me is an idea, a concept, it's made up. It's not that there isn't existence, but unless you can truly see where this me is, it will cause problems if it's attached to you. What I mean by this is if you take the concept away of what you think me is, what's left? You have been labeled (named) for identification purposes and all the other labels just fall in line, son, daughter, brother, sister, and so on. Without an applied label where is this me? You have a body, but you are not the body. Nothing is the whole of anything unless it’s labeled as so, and who does this labeling, but the idea of a me that only exist because of a delusional concept.
Stirred Up Mind

Discipline to see that the mind is always stirred up has to be established if one is to ever experience peace. Mind agitations will arise, how to quiet them is what has to be developed.

Until one establishes discipline that allows the mind to slow down, what’s used to keep it stirred up determines what one’s state of being will be. There are many things used to keep the mind stirred up and it’s one’s conditioning that determines this. Whether the stirred up mind manifest as sex, drugs, alcohol, food, false pride, trying to control life and others, talking about others in a slanderous way, or whatever is being used to keep the mind stirred up, it will not stop until the agitation is satisfied. Even then it doesn’t remain satisfied for long so it basically will always be stirred up and agitated until discipline is learned. Simple, but very difficult.

When these mind agitations arise, if the necessary discipline has been developed, the mind will slow and one’s instinctual reactions will be based in love. If not one’s reactions will probably be of a self serving variety and manifest in some form that’s probably not conducive to one’s well being. It’s best to develop discipline that allows the mind to slow down so one isn’t controlled by its agitations. If discipline isn’t developed, the arisen agitation will constantly keep the mind stirred up as the agitation has to be satisfied; something will be reached for. Most of us are conditioned to have a stirred up mind and are controlled by our agitations, that’s why its so important to develop discipline, to me it’s the only thing that slows the mind. Learn to have a mind that quiets somewhat because the choice is to have one that is always stirred up and agitated. As long as the mind is stirred up it will control you as if you were a puppet on a string, this is one’s choice, but without discipline there really isn’t one.

Less is More

Regardless if this is agreed with or not, there’s no way around adding to your life as being from selfish energy and until this is seen, the need to add to it will continue even though less is more…

You will either spend your time adding things to your life that you think will enhance your state of well being or you will understand that less is more and adding anything isn’t necessary because it won’t satisfy the craving of adding. The selfishness I wrote about the last two days will not be understood by the need to add mind, it will only be understood when the mind settles. Most people will spending 99.9% of their lives adding to it only to find out at the end that the adding never enhanced it one bit. You see, this is because nothing is missing so no matter what you add it means nothing. When it’s understood less is more therein lies your peace.

Understanding how YOUR mind works, not the mind the experts and all their books talk about, but YOUR mind which probably has never been studied, is a must if the habitual patterns of needing to add are ever going to be broken. I know people don’t like this, but unfortunately at the core of this need to add mind is selfish energy. People want everything that’s written to be nicey nice, but the Conditioned Mind is diabolical and nicey nice won’t allow you to go beyond your conditioning. What I write doesn’t haven’t to be agreed with, but it would behoove you to sit and investigate it before discounting it. I am not a know it all in any sense. What I do know at least somewhat is my own mind, and because I tried adding to my life for forty nine years without ever being satisfied for more than 10 seconds, it has opened a view of less is more that few see. There’s no way around adding to your life as being from selfish energy and until this is seen, the need to add to it will continue even though less is more…


Selfish Cravings Part 2

Live in alignment with Universal Love because the more this is done, the more you can be an instrument to spread that love; not in a way that you think, but in a way the Universe wants it to be…

If what you do is done just to satisfy you, don’t be surprise if you have inner struggles; this occurs because selfish energy is never satisfied. What happens when the energy one is living by is based in selfishness is plain and simple, it blocks out loving energy. If you don’t think this is so take your head out of the sand and look around. Me, me me, energy is all around and it will never end as long as you are the base of your focus. Reaching for anything, from tobacco products, sex, alcohol, drugs, self help books, programs, tattoos, and whatnot can be measured by how others benefit from what you are doing. If there’s any attachment to it for your own benefit it becomes a liability to humanity. You may think this will make life mundane, but I say it doesn’t, there is less attachment in my life than ever before and it’s the fullest it’s ever been. Anything I do is done to put my energy in alignment with the Universe. When I come from a place of selfishness which I do at time because I to have been conditioned to do so, there’s nothing beneficial that comes from it.

I’ve learned this the hard way by being controlled by the constant need to reach to nearly the point of my own destruction. Selfish energy is so destructive, but its subtleness makes it that only a very settled mind will see this. All reaching is based in selfishness, this has nothing to do with doing what’s necessary to survive, it goes beyond that. The gauge is if what you are doing puts you in harmony with life or if it put you in harmony with fulfilling selfish cravings. Until the selfish cravings are seen for what they are, doing them will be justified as that’s what the Conditioned Mind does, it locks you into you. Even people who want a better world do it because of some selfish desire to be satisfied. Live healthy, not because it looks good or feels good, do it because the more there’s alignment with Universal Love, the more you can be an instrument to spread that love; not in a way that you think, but in a way the Universe wants it to be…

Selfish Cravings Part 1

Reaching for something such as a cigarette, donut, candy, getting a tattoo or whatever else is being reached for benefits no one…it’s only done to satisfy a selfish craving…

Reaching energy is selfish and its base of fulfillment is “I”. Reaching is only done to satisfy yourself and it’s the energy of why the world is as it is. Here are some examples of how the reaching energy reinforces “I” which is based in pure selfishness. No matter how you try to justify the following behaviors, they’re based in selfishness and will keep you in the bondage to “I”. The first example is using tobacco products. When this is done there’s absolutely no benefit in this action except to fulfill the lie that the action is a benefit to you, it’s not even a true benefit to you, but your Conditioned Mind tells you it is. Next, how about reaching for a cookie or other sweets? It’s done strictly to satisfy the selfish craving of “I”. There’s no true benefit to this reaching except to satisfy a Conditioned Mind lie that the thing being reached for is needed. There’s nothing inherently right or wrong with these things, it’s the reaching to satisfy the selfish craving that is the issue, and this is because it blocks one from their own loving energy and hence the love that one emits to others.

This selfish energy is very subtle that most won’t ever see this, but let’s go a little deeper and see the selfish energy of let’s say getting a tattoo. Again it’s an action that has no benefit whatsoever except to fulfill a selfish craving and it’s why people get multiple tattoos. Even if you think a tattoo has sentimental value, its a lie because that means you are still reaching outside yourself for fulfillment. Someone asked me, what about writing an article everyday, isn’t that done to satisfy a selfish craving? My answer was this, the gauge if something is selfish or not is how it benefits someone else. Reaching for a cigarette, donut, candy, getting a tattoo or whatever else is being reached for benefits no one, it’s only done to satisfy a selfish craving. This is a true measurement to gauge where your energy is focused. So I say “reach for the stars” just know if no one else truly benefits from it, it’s probably selfish.

Love Revealed

A person doesn’t wake up because something from the outside shakes them…it occurs because the love in their heart is revealed…everyone has this love because everyone has a heart…

When a person has a shift, they wake up from the state of being asleep and unaware of what truth is. When this occurs the understanding of what has happened isn’t truly realized. In my own case I knew something happened because my view of life became different, but I didn’t know what it meant. I did know for the first time in my life I was at peace. I likened this peace as though I was broken (which I was spiritually), but my heart opened to love I wasn’t aware of. I didn’t wake up because something from the outside shook me, I woke up because the love in my heart that I already possessed was revealed. I didn’t know the value of this at first, as a matter of fact I didn’t even know I had love in my possession. Even when some do become slightly aware of this, it very easily could be mistaken, and for me it was for many years. As I look back throughout my life, I had an inkling that love existed, but it was always dismissed, and because of this I kept looking for what I already possessed.

Nothing is given to us from the outside that the inside doesn’t already have in its possession, but because of the conditioning in place, there’s no awareness of this. Obviously we’re not talking about material possessions, I’m strictly talking about the heart of love that we all possess. This is worth more than anything in the world and it’s also the thing that’s most readily available to everyone, it’s just that the conditioning in place keeps one looking for love out there when all along it has always been in your heart…

A Welcomed Emptiness

The Conditioned Mind creates a lie that when there’s space it needs filling. The heart understands this space as emptiness and until it’s realized it doesn’t need filling, the lie will remain in place.

For many years I had this misunderstood emptiness (space) in me that was created from the lie that I lacked love and that’s why I constantly reached for stuff to fill it; this is no longer the case because this is now understood. This emptiness isn’t emptiness at all, its simply space which is the essence of life. It’s where life happens when one is busy making other plans. By not understanding this I spent most of my life trying to fill an empty space with whatever I could get my hands on. This filling is endless as to what can be used so each individual has to investigate for themselves what that is. It’s ironic because now most of my life is life is spent in the space that for so long I considered an unwelcomed emptiness. Understanding this and not needing to fill the space is the truth that has been revealed to me.

To fill this unwelcomed emptiness is the reason why anyone reaches for anything and it’s because they want the space to be different, hence the filling. If this space was understood for what it truly is, humanity would be much different because contentment would be the way of the world. The needing to fill this space is a lie the Conditioned Mind invents and it keeps one constantly needing the present moment different. This keeps one reaching as the needing to fill the emptiness remains in place. This will need to be understood if the reaching is to ever end. When it is, the space transforms to a welcomed emptiness because the present moment doesn’t have to be different, and when the present moment doesn’t have to be different, life reveals its true essence of space, which doesn’t need to be filled with anything because it’s not empty.

Dynamic Energy

When one isn’t controlled by things from the outside, therein lies your peace, but there isn’t peace because life is the way that it’s wanted, there’s peace because your dynamic energy is focused on life as it is.

Dynamic energy controls your life and makes it what it is, but it doesn’t make it what it is because of what you do, it makes it what it is by where your energy is focused. If your focus doesn’t put you in harmony with life, then there won’t be any and hence your life will be the way that it is because it’s the way you are unconsciously making it. It’s actually a beautiful thing when one becomes aware of this because it puts your responses to life in your hands; to me that’s all a person could ask for. When one isn’t controlled by things from the outside, therein lies your peace, but there isn’t peace because life is the way that it’s wanted, there’s peace because your dynamic energy is focused on life as it is.

What happens with a mind that has dynamic energy that’s not based in love is it gets kidnapped by its own conditioning and then you are held hostage by your own mind. I know this sounds crazy, but this is exactly what’s happens with a mind that becomes conditioned, and it’s all because of the dynamic energy based to self serve. When the dynamic energy in place focuses on a me, me, me mind, crazy becomes the norm or so it seems, but it’s only because of the dynamic energy making it so. When the dynamic energy changes, the craziness subsides. So when you sit and see what the base of your energy is, you just may be able to change it by refocusing. It will take some time though because of the conditioning in place, but the alternative is to remain the way you are; being controlled by dynamic energy that holds you hostage to it.

Clinging to Being Human

Not only is to err human, it’s also inevitable. It’s the clinging to our humanness that causes attaching to wanting things different which in turn causes one to cling to their own suffering…

If you really want to know what humanities basic error is that keeps most clinging to their own suffering, it’s attaching to being human. It’s not that we aren’t human or that we’ll be able to transcend our humanness, it’s more so to find a way to embrace it, but not to cling to it; clinging to humanness in some way always causes suffering. It doesn’t have to be attached to, but it will take developing discipline for the mind to see this. It’s seems to be human to want things different and it’s always attaching to the story of being human that causes suffering. This is true regardless of what’s wanted different.

It’s always the human self that wants something different and it’s this charade of clinging to being human that pulls one into suffering. Last week I ordered a shirt on line and when it was delivered I tried it on and it didn’t fit. By my initial reaction you would have thought I was going to have to go shirtless; this was simply because I didn’t accept the fact the shirt didn’t fit. This is what clinging to being human does and when I saw how childish this wanting things different was it fell away and I was able to get an exchange for the shirt. You can substitute the shirt with anything and you’ll get the same childish results of suffering. This is all because not only is it human to err, but it’s also the clinging to our humanness that one attaches to wanting things different which in turn causes one to cling to their own suffering…

No Inherent Label
Nothing that arises inherently has a label, that comes from how the individual perceives the arisen moment and attaches a conditioned label of this or that to what arises... Being in the space of what arises and not attaching a conditioned label to it determines if one truly lives life or if it’s lived in the conditioned realm of a created story of how you think the arisen moment should be. Nothing is inherently good or bad, but when it’s labeled as so it changes the entire dynamics of how the present moment is dealt with. And regardless if it’s labeled good or bad, it creates the same dynamic change of suffering because the labeling makes the moment need to be a certain way. Bad: push it away...Good: pull it in...either way the same discontent is created. Although there may not be awareness of this, the discontent is there nonetheless. Recently I was on vacation in Florida and it was funny just watching the mind constantly trying to create labels to make the arisen moment into a story. When the sun was out the label was good, when it went in or if a thunder shower passed through, bad. There’s a small gym in the hotel that I went to: nobody in there, good, four people in there, bad. First day on vacation, good, last day, bad. These are but a few, the main thing is to just notice this and not attach, but don’t make not attaching into a story of good or bad. When you can really start to recognize this, the labeling process that gets so engrained in the subconscious because of the Conditioned Mind can start to be let go of; this letting go is as simple as just watching what arises and not attaching a label of good or bad.
Nothing To Do
Needing to do something doesn't enhance life because the doing keeps the mind agitated. It may give the appearance of enhancement, but there's no real benefit to one's energy while trying to do. The energy of always doing doesn't allow one to be present for what's actually happening and it keeps the mind in a constant state of agitation. When I write about this type of energy it's often misunderstood that I'm saying don't do anything, but that's not what I'm saying. Do whatever it is you think you need to do, just understand the intention and energy behind it so your doing isn't a hinderance to truly experiencing life fully. I watch this very carefully because attaching to this doing energy keeps one a prisoner to it. A created purpose doesn't enhance life and although it may seem that it does or that people are being helped, which they very well may be, there's no true benefit to the one who's energy is of a created purpose; this is my direct experience. I know some people are helped by the sharing of my experiences, but it's not my purpose. What I do is more of a by product of where I have been led. It doesn't mean I can't put things out there that may help people, I just don't have to make it into a burden by it being my purpose. Not needing to do anything other than what arises allows for the freedom of not creating a story of doing. To me the most important thing in my life is to be in the moment that's happening and not add anything to it. If it's to share, I share. If it's to sit in the body than that's what's done. In this place of not needing to do I've experienced true freedom because it's the only place where a purpose isn't needed nor is the need to do.
Self Created Void
There is never a void that isn't created so there is never a true need to rely on anything from the outside of yourself. Until this is understood, one will keep creating a void. Every time someone goes to a program designed for a specific reason, goes to see a therapist, reaches for another self help book, or any other type of outside help, its because of applying a label of having a certain issue which is seen as a problem. When this label is applied, all one is doing is reinforcing the attachment to that label and hence they're keeping themselves in the void of whatever label that’s applied, but it exist only because they themselves have created it. Read this very carefully because why this label is being applied will be the difference in breaking free from creating a void or remaining entrapped to it. It's not that some of the things mentioned don't have value at certain times in one's life, but if they're being held onto as an end to a means, they lose their value as they morph into a void. Not many will see exactly what I'm talking about here, but I'm writing it because it's what I experienced after many many years of trying to fix an internal void with things from the outside. This void was self created and I have found the very things I was using to fill this void are the very things that were keeping the void in place; this is regardless of what was being used. Why I created this void is what I needed to find out because it didn't truly exist and since it didn't truly exist, why was it there? To me if there’s a constant need to reach outside oneself because of a void, something isn't right. If I can't just be with myself without the reliance on something outside of me, I have to ask myself why this is so. There is never a void that isn't created so there is never a true need to rely on anything from the outside and until this is seen, one will keep creating a void.
Conditioned Substitutions

At the core of the Conditioned Mind is “I” and when “I” is let go of, all the tools that the Conditioned Mind uses fall away along with the substitutions of one thing for another.

Why it’s so important not to put the Conditioned Mind cart before the horse per se is because this doesn’t allow the core conditioning to be seen and substitution becomes the conditioned behavior. The Conditioned Mind has to be understood if this constant barrage of reaching and substituting is to end or at least subside. If the focus is on alleviating one of the tools the Conditioned Mind uses to keep you entrapped to it, you may stop using that tool, but another will simply be put in its place.

The subtleties of the Conditioned Mind are second to none when it comes to keeping the circular bondage energy in place. Many tools are used to keep this energy in place, but they all stem from the core conditioning of “I”. Substituting one thing for another is done when there’s no awareness of this as the Conditioned Mind will simply use one tool instead of another. An example of this would be how it uses atheism (a belief in the non existence of God) the same way it uses faith (a belief in God). As long as a story is being created that keeps the bondage in place, that’s all that matters to it.

Many people think if you can break free of one tool of the Conditioned Mind it means freedom, but my experience has been only breaking free of the core conditioning of “I” provides freedom. The base of all the bondage (tools) of the Conditioned Mind is based in “I” so regardless of what you think you are letting go of, the only thing to truly let go of is “I”. Yesterday someone responded to one of my post that language is at the core of the Conditioned Mind, and I get that’s what is seen, but its not at the core, it’s only a tool. At the core is “I” and when “I” is let go of, all the tools that the Conditioned Mind uses fall away along with the substituting one thing for another.

It's Not Your Fault

The Conditioned Mind is devious and causes much suffering. The more it’s allowed to penetrate the inner psyche the more it will make you think the way you are is your fault, but “It’s not your fault”

All the conditioning in place that makes you do what you do “It’s not your fault”. Every time you use one of the defense mechanisms you have developed over the years that offer you a way to protect yourself “It’s not your fault”. You may think in ways that aren’t truly beneficial to you “It’s not your fault”. You may get angry without understanding why and put yourself down for it, but understand “It’s not your fault”.

The Conditioned Mind is a devious foe, one that causes much suffering. The more it’s allowed to penetrate the inner psyche the more it will make you think the way you are is your fault, but “It’s not your fault” how can it be, you don’t make you thoughts happen. You didn’t choose your name, parents, the school you go to, religion, aunts, uncles, teachers, your upbringing, or any of the other attachments that make you think the way that you do. Your life regardless of the manifested behavior and how it is, is not the fault of anyone and definitely “It’s not your fault”.

I know some will say this makes no one responsible for their actions, and to a large degree this is correct, but how can someone be responsible for something they had nothing to do with “It’s not your fault”. The “It’s not your fault” tool is not something that’s reinforced by society because finger pointing is one of societies main tools, it’s always looking to lay blame; this isn’t societies fault, it’s just the conditioning in place. Until one can see the conditioning for what it is, the belief that you have control over what you do and it’s your fault that you are the way you are will remain firmly in place, but please be easy on yourself and put away the hammer because I’m telling you “It’s not your fault”.

The Difficulty of Doing Nothing

Without awareness of the mind becoming agitated in the absence of something to do, the Conditioned Mind will create story after story just so it has something to do.

The most difficult thing I have ever done in my life is to learn how to do nothing in spite of the conditioning in place telling me to do. To not give in to the mind agitations that tell me to do this, do that, reach for this or reach for that, is so difficult because of the lack of discipline to just be and also the lack of understanding of why not to do is so difficult. Even with discipline and this understanding, it’s difficult because of all the outer influences and inner conditioning. To not do is not something many master, I’m not talking about sitting in meditation or taking a nap, I mean being wide awake without having to do something. For forty nine years this wasn’t noticeable to me because I was never still long enough to be aware of any agitation. I like so many was a doer; a slave to my Conditioned Mind.

For some this doing doesn’t seem like much of an issue because the doings aren’t noticeably destructive, but make no mistake a doing is a doing and one is a slave to doing regardless how productive or subtle it may seem. Without awareness of the mind becoming agitated in the absence of something to do, the Conditioned Mind creates story after story just so it has something to do. The stories base will be whatever conditioning you have in place. You can only do what the conditioning in place dictates and without this agitation being noticed, the conditioning is usually based in doing something for selfish reasons. Even if one wants to save the world, who says the world needs saving. Not doing allows for one to truly be an instrument, not by doing by simply being, but this will only occur if you notice you don’t have to do.

Attach Less Suffer Less

The need to search for a so called spiritual path is there because one wants to feel better and suffer less, but why there’s a search to begin with is because of the attachment to feel better.

Not feeling well mentally is a Conditioned Mind creation and the suffering this causes is a direct result of attaching to the label “not feeling well”. Attach less and you will suffer less. This not attaching takes nothing to occur, it’s simply a matter of not adding the things that cause suffering, with the main thing being not adding attachment. Suffering has nothing to do with what happens, learning to not attach to the things that cause suffering has everything to do if one is to suffer or not. Although the results of what happens affect you at times because of attachment, most times what happens doesn’t happen to you it happens to someone else; even though it doesn’t really happen to anyone, it just happens. This isn’t said to ignore what happens, it’s said because it becomes a tool to use to see how its the attachment and not the actual event that causes suffering.

Many unpleasant circumstances arise and even some horrific things occur, but on the opposite side some beautiful things also happen. The key here is to take them all the same so the unbalanced attached emotions don’t arise and allow the arisen circumstances to control you. From birth to death and all the things in between, emotions will arise and there will be attachment to them, the only difference in them will be how much attachment there is. Attach less and you will suffer less or not and allow the arisen circumstances to control you as if you were an emotional puppet on a string…

Turning to Each Other

No one is an island regardless of how spiritual they are and this is because the more spiritual one is the more it’s understood there’s only one energy and we are one.

Someone posted an article yesterday about sunflowers which I found interesting. Although I knew sunflowers turned towards the sun to absorb its energy, I didn’t know they pointed to each other when it was cloudy out to absorb each other’s energy. This got me reflecting on my own process of awakening and how I too point to the light (silence) to absorb its energy, and how I also point to others to absorb their energy. To me no one is an island regardless of how spiritual they are and this is because the more spiritual one is the more it’s understood there’s only one energy and we rely on each other whether it’s sunny out or cloudy. With this understanding firmly in place it allows one to draw on another’s energy. This is the Law of Attraction, your love and the energy drawn on produces results of that energy.

This energy of the sunflower is of love, but there’s a lot of energy that isn’t of love. These energies aren’t different, they only seem different because their frequency is different. I say the sunflower energy is of love because of the results, flowers are beautiful and useful so how can their energy not be of love. I’ve learned that just because I emanate energy of love it doesn’t mean everyone will love me back. This has nothing to do with me as everyone has their own conditioning in place and will act accordingly. Although everyone has the ability to love, not everyone is on the frequency of love so I turn to those who are on the same frequency as me and I’ve found that although I frequently turn to the light, it’s turning to the love of others that allows me to love.

Aware of Adding

Add anything you’d like to life, but understand the only reason adding is added is because there isn’t contentment with life as it is and you think you have to add to it for it to be complete.

Becoming aware of what you’re adding to your life arises from the inner desire of wanting. When this is seen it becomes a valuable tool in the arsenal of one’s spiritual expansion. This helps the squirrel cage mind settle down so you see what your conditioning is telling you you need to add to your life. It’s could be the driver in front of you who you need to add because you think they should be driving different. Or it may be a piece of cake that you think you need to add because it will fulfill you. How about participating in something so you can add a certificate to the made up identity of who you think you are? This subtle adding can be identified as anything that’s used to change the way you feel about the moment that’s occurring right now. When there’s traffic, what’s constantly added is the space where there isn’t traffic, weaving in and out, always adding the fast lane and whatnot.

This is how adding grabs you without even realizing it. Add a diet because you’ve already added you’re fat. Add going to a program because you’ve added you think it’s needed. Add looking at the clock at work to see how much time you have left before it’s either lunch time or time to go. Add anything you’d like, but understand the only reason adding is added is because you are not content with life as it is and you think you have to add something for you to be complete. It doesn’t matter what is added because it all works the same; you’re trying to add something because you think will complete you. Religion is probably at the top of the adding list, then self image, social status, job, family, career and so on, I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with any of these things, but the moment you have to add something because the sense of incompleteness arises it becomes bondage. Adding something designed for self help is a perfect example as this is done to alleviate incompleteness, if this wasn’t so adding wouldn’t be. To add or not to add that is the question, but the question won’t be added if it’s seen you are already complete as you are.

The Love of Jesus

If you want the world to change learn how to change yourself, but understand it’s not going to happen by believing in something, it will happen when your own heart opens to connect with Universal Love.

Humanity has been unconscious for thousands of years, look at the Bible which portrays what was going on in that region at that time. To me the story of Jesus is he was on earth to bring a message of love. No doubt he was Spirit led, but to those of that region who were lost to not only the Roman rule, but also to the doctrine of the Old Testament, they didn’t care. Jesus pointed directly to the father, but said only through him (his love) could one see the love of the father in their own heart and thus be able to love their neighbor. Love is magical in its ability to transform, but it’s not magical for a select few to experience. Jesus’s teachings are second to none when it comes to a direct path from the freedom of the bondage of self, but it won’t just happen because you believe in something. The message from Jesus wasn’t about Jesus, it was about finding the love in your own heart through his teachings so you could connect with Universal Love. You can call that God if it makes you feel better, but to me it’s simply love and doesn’t need a label.

Mostly everyone was lost when Jesus was among us, and regardless if you believe in the story of Jesus or not, his teachings are his message. Humanity is no different today than it was 2,000 years ago, all that has happened is there are different beliefs being held onto, but everyone still thinks theirs are right. The Pharisees were scared Jesus was going to make their profits less, they were of the world and that’s why they did what they did. What Jesus taught wasn’t of the world so they just wanted to get rid of him. I don’t hold onto beliefs so I don’t get into the story of what happened to Jesus as being true or not, all I know is the teachings left behind have to ability to transform and it doesn’t take a belief to have this occur. Love is what we as a species are missing. We are lost and have missed the mark. If you want the world to change learn how to change yourself, but understand it’s not going to happen by believing in something, it will happen when your own heart opens to connect with Universal Love.

Adding Not Needed

From infancy we are told we need to add things to our life to enhance it. Until this is seen adding to it will always be, but understand regardless of what you add it won’t enhance life one bit.

I was talking to a friend yesterday and it just hit me that my entire life I’ve been adding things to try and fill an inner void, but today because the need to add feeling isn’t there, there is peace. This not adding is the difference between being at peace or not. This insight also helped me understand why I find it challenging to talk to certain people at times, it’s because most people have the conditioned mindset of adding and what has been revealed to me is in the space of not needing to add there is peace. This will not be seen by many people.

As I look back I was always adding the next whatever. It’s really funny how life is, I spent the first forty nine years of my life trying to add something to it because I was led to believe this was the way to enhance it. Ten years ago I found out this adding is what kept the need to add in place. I see now that it was actually in letting go that I found peace. From the time we are infants we’re told we need to add things if we want to feel good about ourselves. Adding starts out when we’re very young, we add education, add sports, add a degree, add another degree, add a new car, money, a career, social activities, our parents religion as it becomes ours, a family, and on and on, add, add, add, but no matter what’s added the adding never ends; for most people this adding will go on until their life ends. Here’s the thing, adding anything to life doesn’t truly enhance it one bit. When the need to add ceases, that’s when life is enhanced. Investigate this for yourself, there are many who have added much in their life, but the need to add is still there. Until this is seen adding will always be, just understand regardless of what you add it won’t enhance life one bit.

Conditioned Mind Tricks

Until there’s awareness of the Conditioned Mind tricks there will be very little peace, but when there is awareness and the tricks are exposed, they lose their hold and one is naturally at peace.

If you have to be doing something this is because of the subtleness of how the Conditioned Mind is in control without you even realizing it. Until this is realized so you can apply the brakes and stop doing, the tricks of your conditioning will remain in place. These tricks of the Conditioned Mind will not be seen by a mind that’s attached to itself. I woke up this morning and my postings for the day were done because I did it at night so my mind began to look for something to do. This is the value of awareness because instead of blindly following the tricks of having to do, I was able to simply say shhhhhh which immediately stopped the need to do. You can’t put a price tag on this awareness as life is so much different then when the tricks of the Conditioned Mind are in play.

Do this, do that, look over there, if only, I should’ve, I wish, I want, I need, why did I do that, these are just some of the tricks of the Conditioned Mind and they literally wreck havoc on life. Without awareness of this, havoc is the controlling energy of life and unfortunately this is the energy of most lives. What makes this so damaging is because most people are oblivious that the tricks exist so it’s one trick after another. When there’s awareness of the tricks one can say stop, this immediately transforms one’s energy from needing to do something to peace. Peace is the natural process of awareness because when one is aware of their Conditioned Mind tricks, the tricks lose their hold as the need to do falls away and one is naturally at peace.

Holding onto Labels

Hold onto any label that your Conditioned Mind makes you think is needed, but if the results of these labels aren’t beneficial in all areas of life, maybe the labels that are being held onto need to be let go of…

What label are you holding onto? I know for me 8/8/58 was the day of my first label. From that day forward a label was being applied establishing who I was, and with this established label being held onto as an end to a means, I wound up in an alcohol and drug rehab, twice. This applied label wasn’t producing results that were much of benefit to my life. Then one day it was revealed that this label was false, it was the cause of all my problems, and it was all just a made up story. Once this story was exposed and let go of, the false label fell away…

A second label naturally arises which is much different than the first. When the first label was exposed for what it truly was, what I was left with was my true self; the self who didn’t need a label attached to it for existence to be. This is where true inner peace was revealed. This second label needs no title or attachment to it. It’s not who I am, it’s just a direction to allow life to be as at is; unless one enjoys the label more than peace, then the label becomes one’s life…

There are vast differences in these two labels, the first one is manufactured by thought, the second isn’t manufactured by anything, it’s a product of life. These labels produce much different results and as long as the direction one is heading allows for there to be alignment with life instead of trying to manufacture it, life will naturally be lived in the label-less state of being happy, joyous, and free…

No Purpose Necessary

A purpose for life is only needed by the Conditioned Mind. In the space of stillness everything just arises, and it’s in this space that it becomes clear the purpose of life is to simply live.

When I began this stage of my life ten years ago, it was with one thing in mind and that was to find some way to be at peace. It has pretty much remained this way, but it seems to be naturally going to a deeper direction of doing what’s best for humanity. Our stories become our prisons and I carefully watch how the mind, at least mine, wants to make life into some sort of purpose. These created purposes are plentiful, but they’re all just stories and when the mind settles this will be noticed. This is what’s happening to me now, I care more for humanity than I do myself, but not in the way where it’s my purpose to save humanity; compassion is just what’s there.

What I mean by it’s just what’s there is this, I don’t think about what I do, it has simply become a part of me. It’s just like the first forty nine years of my life, they were lived to satisfy my self without much thought of anything else, this was done because that’s what was there. One will do what they do because of what’s in place and until this is realized, not needing a purpose will never be understood because a created one will always be needed; that’s just the way the Conditioned Mind operates. When the mind quiets no labels need be applied to life; only the Conditioned Mind needs to apply labels and create a purpose. In the space of stillness everything just is and it becomes clear that the purpose of life is to just live with whatever’s there, without the need of a purpose.

Making Life a Burden

If life has to be a certain way for it to be okay, it’s as if a heavy weight is being carried around as needing life a certain way creates the burden of having to constantly troubleshoot it.

Nobody knows what this life has in store for them between the time they are born and when it ends. Today you can be going along with what’s considered the perfect life and in an instant that can change, and it will for someone. Someone is experiencing a turn of events right now as I’m writing this that’s turning their life upside down. Moments ago it may have been just the way that it was wanted, but now all that has changed. The point of this writing is to hopefully allow you to take a moment to reflect on life needing to be a certain way for it to be considered okay and how when it changes discontentment arises.

So much time is wasted trying to maintain a certain existence. When the moment comes when life changes, will you be ready for it or the change will be resisted and hence will you allow the change to create a burden? Life is life and without a moments notice it can change and even end, and this is occurring right now for someone. The question to ask yourself is what are you holding onto that you think is so important? If life ended right now, like it or not everything you are holding onto will be let go of. It all goes away, none of it matters, from concerns for children, parents, the state of the world, your favorite team, jobs, and so on. Why is it being held onto? Letting go can happen now and liberation will follow or not and you will remain attached to the heavy weight of needing life to be a certain way, creating the burden of having to constantly troubleshoot it.

What's Mostly Missed

Everyone has the potential to look within to discover their own inner magnificence, but what’s needed to have this magnificence revealed is to learn to live with what’s occurring right now.

What’s mostly missed about the Conditioned Mind is the understanding how all reaching is the same regardless of what is being reached for. It’s all bondage and make no mistake your bondage is your prison. There are so many things reached for from ayahuasca, Heroin, sugar, love, God, programs and many others things, and it’s this reaching that needs to be understood if one is to break free from its enticing grip. Nobody just randomly reaches for something, it arises from within because there’s a lack that needs to be fulfilled. This is where the misunderstanding occurs and it’s because one thinks reaching for ayahuasca is different than reaching for Heroin. Granted the results may seem different, but since the true nature of the reaching isn’t identified you remain the same even though a story is created you are different. It easier to justify when you are reaching to help others than reaching for Heroin, but it’s still reaching to fulfill an inner lack.

I know this is difficult to grasp and many will say this guys crazy, how can reaching for God be the same as reaching for drugs or alcohol. Or how can reaching for ayahuasca be the same as reaching for Heroin, but it is as it all arises from the inability to truly be present for what’s happening right now. If there’s lack, this will be reinforced by one’s reaching and if this isn’t seen, you’ll remain in your bondage. Understanding this is difficult, but it’s why I don’t push to develop a program, or why I won’t become a life coach or anything else because it’s all reinforces reaching. I will help anyone look within to find their own inner magnificence; the only thing needed to do this is to learn to live with what’s occurring right now. To me right now is all anything should point to, but because why there’s reaching isn’t understood, one remains a prisoner to it and keeps reaching for the next whatever they think is needed to be fulfilled.

Escaping From Yourself

To accept yourself as you are is such a relief because the only real misery is wanting you to be in some other way. When it’s realized one has only been trying to escape from themselves, there is peace.

When one awakens the secrets of the Universe aren’t revealed, although in a way they are, what really happens is you stop needing to escape from yourself. To me the main attribute of waking up from the sleep of unconsciousness isn’t figuring out what life is all about, it’s not being concerned with what life is all about. The escaping, searching, reaching, and need to do ceases as it’s realized what you have been escaping from is yourself. It’s a great relief to accept yourself exactly as you are because the only real misery is wanting you to be in some other way. When this is seen the need to escape subsides as does the need to be right, and the need for things to be different, especially yourself. This doesn’t mean you don’t move forward to change, but it’s done so in a way that it doesn’t cause the very suffering that one is trying to avoid. When you stop escaping from yourself, you stop reaching, this occurs naturally. I had to escape from myself for forty nine years and it nearly killed me.

This was my awakening; to see that I was always escaping from myself. It was revealed that I could stop this and I was going to be okay. This is a beautiful space to be in, it’s the space where the peace that passes all understanding arises. It’s not a magical place for a select few, it’s a place where everyone’s heart dwells, one just has to stop trying to escape to experience it. The possibilities when one stops escaping are endless, there are no blocks here so creativity arises. No one knows what exactly may arise, but I can tell you this, when you stop escaping, reaching for things stops and life is lived in the peaceful state of accepting yourself as you are and nothing more is needed.

Beneficial Guidance

Our answers are always within, one just need to make sure the tools being used to provide them are guiding you in a direction that is the most beneficial to your life.

Ten years ago there was definite guidance in the direction my life was going when I begin the study of my own mind. There weren’t any goals to make my life about something in particular, all I was looking for is the peace that eluded me for most of my life. This is still the direction of my guidance today, but understand just because one is on a so called spiritual path, it doesn’t mean what you’re doing is truly beneficial to you. I did things for years I thought was right and it turned out to be not so beneficial; these things actually keep me in bondage. I won’t go into details, but what I do today is beneficial and how I know this is because I’m at peace and don’t have a desire for anything else. I have passion in my heart for things, but not an aching because I need this moment to be different. Not looking for anything is how you will know if what you’re doing is truly a benefit to you.

You may want to be the most spiritual person in your circle, you may be reading all the so called right books, quoting all the right people, and putting all your energy into your practice, but the question is can you stop it all and still be at peace? If not what you’re doing is being used as a distraction. I was distracted for forty nine years, try another book, a program, therapy, another pill, working out, meditation, or whatever, but when the tasks is complete and you’re living your daily life, if you’re not at peace, what you’re doing isn’t beneficial. All things are pointers, but where there is misdirection in guidance is in thinking the pointers are the answers. The answers are within, one just needs to make sure the tools being used to provide them are guiding you in a direction that is the most beneficial to your life.

Defining Moments

There are defining moments in life that expose the lies that lead to truth, but this truth doesn’t define who one is, it defines who one isn’t, and once who one isn’t is revealed, what’s left is who one is.

When one comes upon a defining moment in their life, depending on where they’re at in their state of consciousness, it will either be used as a defining moment to awaken or it will be missed and the moment will delve one deeper into their unconsciousness. When there is awareness of this defining moment, it puts one in alignment with their true essence of love. This is a moment that can change the direction of one’s entire existence. One can have many defining moments, a few of them, or just one. I had one in 2007 that altered the way I viewed existence.

I now have this moment to use as a reference point to describe the defining moment that transformed my life. It’s not like I don’t habitually return to some of my old conditioned behaviors, but no longer do they define me because I see the behavior was only done because it’s what I was conditioned to do; it no longer defines who I am. One can make up many stories as to who they are, by only when a defining moment exposes the lies can truth be known. What this truth has defined for me is not so much who I am, but more so who I am not, and because the truth of who I am not is known I now know who I am, and it really doesn’t need to be defined.

Thoughts Dont Liberate

When one is always concerned about getting to a place of peace, life just passes you by. A thought isn’t needed to see this, but it will take a mind that’s settled not to attach to your thoughts.

At the core of every belief is the thought of self that’s appoints authority to “I”. This self appointed authority manifest from an inner structure that is created so one can live in the most pleasurable of ways. We believe in everything we have in place because we ourselves have unconsciously chose that our thoughts make life better. There’s no other reason to attach to a thought except for the sole purpose it will provide pleasure in some way. Look into this very carefully to see how thoughts manifest in your life. God, money, material possessions, love, programs, spirituality, social status, enlightenment, and so on, are all formed to provide pleasure based on a thought. If this isn’t questioned your thoughts will continue their control even though it will not truly provide the results that it’s being attached to for; it can’t because an attached thought is bondage and bondage is suffering even if it isn’t seen.

Thoughts are basically used to create stories of beliefs, but I haven’t found one iota of usefulness making up a story of believing in something. I live in the space of what is and since there isn’t a story needed in this space, the thought of a belief isn’t necessary. This is true liberation; the thoughtless space of existence. It doesn’t take any thought, effort, or story to be liberated. The reason why so many don’t become liberated is a thought of the belief of liberation is attached to. The thought about liberation doesn’t provide liberation. It doesn’t take a thought formed belief to see this, but it does take a mind that’s settled not to attach to your thoughts about the belief of liberation.

No "I" Know Peace

Emotions arising when something happens to a loved one is natural. If one could just be with the arisen emotion without attaching to “I “ you would remain open and an emotional story wouldn’t come into play.

One of the main problems as to why so many people are seekers of peace and why it remains elusive is because peace is mostly sought as the conceptual thought of “I” and the thought of peace will never bring about that which “I” desires. Only the thought that “I” isn’t at peace makes one not at peace. You can ask, well if I think I’m at peace then will I be? I say no because it’s as if you are trying to talk yourself into it. It’s like whistling in the dark to keep away the boogeyman; it becomes more of a distraction than a real tool of peace. To go deeper, notice the thought “I” at the center of who desires peace. Creating problems is the nature of “I”. This is because “I” pushes away the truth of what is and looks for what isn’t. “I” is constantly looking for what isn’t in the form of wanting the present moment different. It uses all kinds of “I” concepts that one blindly adheres to.

Here’s an example of “I” attaching to a loved one dying. The emotions that arise are real, but now take grief and watch how it arises strictly from “I” not wanting the person who died to be dead. I will miss them is an “I” story, this creates tightness. Emotions arising because a loved one dies is natural, but if one could just be with the arisen emotions instead of attaching to them, you would remain open and an “I” story wouldn’t come into play; without an “I” story is to be without suffering or grief. Anyone who says grief is a natural process has never truly investigated “I” at a deeper level, they’re probably only repeating what someone else said. Don’t take my word for this, investigate “I” for yourself and stop being a prisoner to the emotions that “I” makes up which only keeps you from truly being at peace as peace remains only as a conceptual thought.

In the Grip

Make no mistake just because what has a hold of you isn’t seen, it doesn’t mean you aren’t in the grip. What it does mean is the grip has total control and you probably don’t even notice it…

Everyone is in the grip of something, it’s how tight the grips hold is that determines the degree of bondage and hence suffering. Many different consequences are a result of the grips hold, but make no mistake any grip results in being in prison to it. It can be a grip as subtle as must having your morning cup of coffee or a more damaging grip to drugs, alcohol, gambling, tobacco products, and anger, to name a few. The things used as the grip varies for everyone; as it is seen so it shall be. There are those grips that are common for everyone such as food, shelter, companionship, basic survival and whatnot. There’s the grip which is wide spread, but not attached to by everyone, this grip manifest as politics, porn, substance abuse, alcohol, sports, pleasure seeking, wealth, and many others. Then there’s the grip at the individual level, our pet peeves. The squeak in the car, annoyances of a person acting a certain way, traffic, and a number of other things.

What the grip makes a person reach for is generated by different energy, although wanting things different is the common link. Some grips seek sense pleasure, others simply want what’s happening right now to stop. Some grips have pushing energy like if you go to the doctor and get a diagnosis you don’t like. Others have pulling energy like seeing something attractive that you want, whether right now or making plans to attain it at a later date. The grip uses many disguises so if one doesn’t investigate this for themselves what is gripping you will go unnoticed. But make no mistake just because what has a hold of you isn’t seen, it doesn’t mean you aren’t in the grip. What it does mean is the grip has total control and you probably don’t even notice it…

A Biased View

There’s not much life in something that has no flow, and this is exactly what happens when one has a biased view, the free flowing energy is cut off and unfortunately causes suffering.

A biased view is what causes a person to get locked into only seeing things from that one side. It matters little what the bias is, as it’s the rigidness of being biased that doesn’t allow one’s energy to be free flowing. This is what happens when a story is created and it becomes the biased view of what life is about in any particular moment. The bias becomes very deeply engrained as one becomes more and more emotionally tied into whatever it is that’s being focused on. It’s very difficult to not attach to something that’s made up by the mind, but has a story of it being dear to our hearts, such as our children, spouse, parents, relatives, friends and so on. You can have compassion, passion, and genuine love for something without attaching to it and being biased.

To me this biased view is the normal view of most people and it’s why many suffer unnecessarily. I’ve noticed this occurring in so many lives and I can see the suffering it causes. Unfortunately those in the midst of this biased view can’t see it, nor can they pull themselves out of it until the bias is seen as the cause of their suffering. The biased view doesn’t allow the openness needed to be free from attachment and since attachment is the root of suffering, suffering is inevitable. The tighter the grip of something, the more one becomes biased and the less free flowing energy there is in one’s life. There’s not much life in something that has no flow and this is exactly what happens when one’s free flowing energy is cut off as the biased view controls life and inevitably causes suffering.

Hear What Life is Saying

There’s no way one will ever fully understand life intellectually so to fill in the gaps answers are made up, but it’s in the space of what arises that one hears what life is saying so answers aren’t needed.

Listening to what arises allows for harmony with life so what’s not of the mind can be heard; thoughts block this from occurring. What arises is always there, but it’s not always heard because of the noise between one’s ears. We are mostly programmed to live visually without taking much time to truly listen to what life is saying and thus we don’t truly hear. Living visually becomes the default view of many. Visual living is why one gets pulled around by outer circumstances and it’s because hearing what arises underneath the visual hasn’t been developed. There’s no way one can fully understand life intellectually so answers are made up, but in the space of what arises one hears what life is saying so answers aren’t needed. Listen to what arises and hear what life is saying. Develop your listening skills through sitting; just being with the sounds of what arises. Add nothing, take nothing away, just sit, listen, be with what arises.

Listening to what arises is so different than being drawn in by the visual view. This is because through the visual view a label of like or dislike is instantly applied and attachment follows to the point where it gains control. As this occurs the silence of what is actually occurring is missed. This is the beginning of how our stories are created and it’s because the space of what arises will be filled with something; it will either be a story or silence. Learning to hear what occurs as it arises is a skill few develop. Until it becomes the primary way life is viewed, the visual will continue to keep one in bondage to the senses as the outer circumstances remain in control and don’t allow for what life is saying to be heard.

Liberation Through Love

In the space between our thoughts our innate love hovers, waiting. When one awakens from being stuck in the thought realm to see this, the door to liberation opens.

You will never be free if you do not love. Love is the doorway to liberation. To see this a shift has to occur which allows you to get out of the way of all the preoccupied distractions that goes on between your ears. These distraction are what blocks out love from manifesting in one’s life. There are many doors to love, but there is only one that leads to liberation. If you don’t love, liberation will not be experienced and this is because the doorway most step through is based in selfishness. You may tell yourself you are free, but If you’re all caught up in your own thoughts, what’s truly going on will be missed; what’s missed is the true essence of your own innate love within.

To use love as a doorway to liberation the preoccupations with our thoughts will have to settle enough to allow this to be seen. Thinking, thinking, thinking, is just the way our conditioning holds us in captivity and keeps us preoccupied with ourselves. Basically we have to lose interest in ourselves and focus on the deeper process of love being a doorway to liberation. I’m not into positive thinking or affirmations, to me they’re just distraction; one cannot see what’s truly going on if you’re always trying to be the little engine who could. In the space between our thoughts is where our innate love is, waiting. When one awakens from being stuck in the thought realm to see this, the door to liberation opens.

Arising Creativity

Creative energy comes from the stillness within yourself. When there’s stillness you can truly get in touch with your own creativity and not need the worlds approval for what arises.

Whenever a person touches on their creative energy an exuberance occurs that can only come from this creative touch. When the creativity arises from this space it doesn’t matter whether you get paid for it or not. A songwriter enjoys writing whether the song is a number one hit on the charts or if it just remains in their personal collection. I don’t write to get money or anything else, I just enjoy writing, I create with words. The most important thing about creativity is to allow it to arise from the stillness of the heart. I don’t try to be anything that I’m not. It’s important for me to stay within the boundaries of what I know and write from there.

Regardless of your talent, whether you’re a musician, writer, artist, singer, actor, good at your day to day job, a parent, or whatever, let your creative energy engulf you. It’s what I do, it’s how I see what I see. Don’t fall prey to what the world offers, find what your own heart offers. Become the instrument the Universe plays its beautiful music through, whatever that music manifest as; mine manifest as writings. Understand though this doesn’t complete you, you are complete as you are. Realizing this will help you to just watch your inner creativity arise without attaching to it. I know this from experience and only the creative tip of the iceberg has been exposed to me. When my mind settled writing arose, all I did was look inward. It amazes me to this day that not only was I used to write a book, but I’m also used to write a daily article that touched lives and to me this is creativity at its finest.

Treadmill Path

As long as there is seeking there will always be seeking and one will remain on the treadmill path exerting all kinds of energy, but not really getting anywhere.

What keeps a person stuck on the treadmill path of seeking is trying to manufacture peace, love, kindness, mindfulness, spirituality, and so on, instead of aligning oneself through discipline with the present moment which allows these attributes to arise naturally. This is what keeps the treadmill energy in place. The energy of this seeking is circular (like a dog chasing its tail) so it’s never going to produce anything that’s going to get you off the treadmill. You may bounce to a seemingly different path because it’s given a different label, but as long as one thinks they have to do something to manufacture a certain desired result, running in place will continue regardless of what it’s called and so you will remain on the treadmill path.

This seeking of desired results makes a person use an an array of things, from sweets, drugs, alcohol, gambling, tv, success, sex, programs, another book, retreat, a path, meditation, and many other things. What these all have in common is they keep you engrained to the treadmill path of seeking which is attached to by the Conditioned Mind. A true transformation of the spirit cannot be manufactured. Repeat: A true transformation of the spirit cannot be manufactured. This is because seeking energy is the exact energy that blocks the alignment which allows energy to transform. Only when you get off the treadmill path can a transformation or shift occur. As long as there is seeking there will always be seeking and you will remain on the treadmill path exerting all kinds of energy, but not really getting anywhere.

Turmoil in Place

Although it seems what occurs in life is the cause of one’s arising turmoil, but this is not the case. The turmoil that arises is already in place, if it wasn’t there’s no way it would arise.

You can only react to life with what you have in place. Something like anger arises because it has been learned, this also goes for fear, greed, hate, and so on. I constantly reacted unconsciously for many years without any understanding whatsoever and it kept me locked into my inner turmoil, clueless that the only reason it was occurring was because it was in place. Simply put, when something occurred that I didn’t like, my inner turmoil arose without my permission or knowledge and I reacted in the way that I did. What arose was whatever my conditioning deemed appropriate. The only reason this happened is because it was already there laying in wait: like a lion waiting to pounce on its unsuspecting prey.

Understanding this is where there is power in knowledge. If why one’s inner turmoil arises isn’t understood, there will be very little true periods where this turmoil reactions are not in control. Through awareness of what’s arising, one has something tangible to use to get beyond it. Why most people remain as they are and repeat the same reactions over and over is because of the total unawareness of why it happens. To me this knowledge has immense value because when it’s seen one can truly decipher whether what’s in place is beneficial or not. It’s then that a course of action can be developed to change whatever’s in place that’s causing the non beneficial turmoil to arise.

Illusion of Self

Our beliefs manifest in many different ways, mostly as thought formed ideas, and concepts, but at the core of any of them is an attachment to the form of self that doesn’t truly exist.

The origination of all beliefs arise from the attachment to a self that doesn’t exist in the way the Conditioned Mind makes it appear. Without this belief and attachment to self no other belief would be given energy to arise nor would one be needed. Many times throughout the day especially when I just wake up, the self gets attached to which creates the belief this or that is needed to be in some other way, this stems strictly from the belief there is a self. What I have learned to do which immediately drops the attachment is to say “form is emptiness, emptiness is form”this provides a release point which instantly transforms the attaching energy to non attaching energy. Attaching energy will run its course unless something is in place to stop it. This is because what’s of the mind remains of the mind, that is until it doesn’t.

For me saying “form is emptiness, emptiness is form” takes the mind based attaching energy and neutralizes it. That’s what happens when this particular saying is used, but the saying isn’t magic, it’s the truth of the statement that has transforming quality’s. It also works when the breath is used, chanting, tapping, guided meditation, or whatever else is used to put one in the present moment. The minds energy controls in a circular motion. This is why there’s the constant barrage of repetitive thoughts and why it’s so difficult to break free from the Conditioned Mind grip. Truth transforms, so when the illusion of self is truly seen, there’s a settling of the mind. This allows one to simply be in the only place where truth exist; the present moment. And although form does exist in the present moment, it’s empty because it’s doesn’t exist in the way the Conditioned Mind makes it appear.

Storied Beliefs

Every belief that’s created is a story used to provide relief in some way, but if it was that easy one could just go around making up story after story whenever life didn’t go the way it was thought it should be.

There are very few hard facts to a belief, but this doesn’t stop a person from thinking the story of a belief is needed to provide relief. The only reason storied beliefs are made up to begin with is because of the way our minds have been conditioned. They’re used to keep the mind in a state of agitation by making one think things need to be different for there to be relief. It’s what the ego uses to keep one believing in a self that doesn’t exist. This is why most conflicts begin because of an ego that forms storied beliefs. Whatever the storied belief is in, whether it’s in a God that’s going to provide relief, a program, a different job or spouse, the next lottery win, or whatever storied belief is used that would provide relief, it all stems from one’s own conditioned thought that things need to be different in order for you to make sense of something that’s occurring.

To believe or not to believe, that is the question? It really has nothing to do with the belief, it has everything to do with creating a story and thinking if things were different there would be peace. This is what needs to be discovered if the falseness of a storied belief is to be revealed. If attaching to a storied belief is found to provide relief, by all means do it, but for me there is relief without a storied beliefs, especially because beliefs only exist in the mind. If they’re seen to be real and have some facts to back them up, believe them, attach to them, use them, but in truth don’t be surprised if when they are needed to fall back on, they don’t provide the relief that was believed they were going to provide.

Observing the Observer

When there’s attachment and you become the observer, the one who just observes disappears, that is until “I” is let go of, it is then that one can simply observe without labeling the observer.

Observing what arises is basically all that one can do. There’s nothing more that can be done because any doing takes away from being able to observe. Either one will see what arises or they won’t. If it’s not seen it will become a mind agitation which will be attached to and then the reaching for something to quiet the agitation will commence. This attaching to what arises is what causes one to suffer in the form of thoughts, emotions, feelings, ideas, and so on. If there isn’t attachment to what arise, observing is what happens, but you don’t become the observer because then it becomes a doing ; observing is just something that occurs. Just see and don’t add to it. You hear a dog bark, you just hear, there doesn’t have to be attaching to hearing the dog bark. The Conditioned Mind is very subtle, it will always try to attach something. Without a settled the mind agitations will rule.

Read my article and attach to the label that the mind agitation projects. Like it or don’t like it, see some value or don’t, the thing is those labels are the result of a mind agitation that makes you have to judge whatever it is that arises in the moment. If you can’t just observe it without adding to it, it’s because you have attached to the arisen agitation. This all comes from within the one that life happens to, but nothing really happens to you, it just happens. When driving a car or whatever else it is that arises, just observe, add nothing. When one becomes the observer, there’s attachment to “I”. When there’s just observing what arises, there’s no “I” involved so there’s no attachment. When you become the observer the one who just observes disappears, that is until “I” is let go of, it is then that one can simply observe without labeling the observer.

The Next Step

If one is to break free from the Conditioned Mind, the next step in the evolutionary process has to be taken. This is the letting go of all dependencies that are used for one to feel complete.

Letting go is the key in taking the next step in the evolution of yourself and humanity. Those who came before us and left directions served their purpose, but now a new millennium is here where the process has to keep expanding for humanity to keep on evolving. As I can only share my own experience with this, the reason for my suffering prior to ten years ago, even though I was shown a solid way was because I was dependent on the way and not it’s message. As long as this dependency on a way is in place, the cause of suffering will be in place and the evolutionary process will not expand.

If there’s dependency on the idea of God, Religion, any program, success, books, Guru’s, and anything else that’s being labeled and used as the way, this will not allow the expansion in the next step of the evolution process, yours and humanity’s. I’m not concerned if this is seen or agreed with, but this is a truth that is missed by 99.99999% of humanity. I take up the challenge, prove to me this isn’t true. You can argue with this from your Conditioned Mind as it will say who does this guy think he is, but I just state a fact, this will have to be investigated to see if it’s true. All dependencies are a made up story, there’s nothing factual to them, and that’s because a dependency is simply a made up belief, concept, or idea, that something from the outside is needed for completeness. What is stated here is factual and it’s only in the facts of non attachment that truth will be revealed. This is the next step in the evolutionary process, the question is are you willing to let go of your dependencies so the next step can be taken?

The Treasure is Within

People have left us maps to help find the treasure within, but if the map points to someone or something out there as the treasure, it’s probably not a true treasure map.

Throughout life one will use a variety of maps to chart a so called course to live by, and although these maps provide many different routes, they don’t lead to the treasure that is being sought. There are many maps to use and I have used a variety of them, but unbeknownst to me at the time none of them were the treasure map I thought they were. Many people left maps behind to use, but only a few are true treasure maps, and how you will know you are using a true treasure map is by it pointing you inward. No longer looking for the treasure is the treasure.

Ten years ago I stumbled upon some maps that led to this treasure within. To me Buddha’s map doesn’t point to the Buddha it points for one to look within. Same thing with Jesus, his map points us to look within to find our own love, our treasure. Jesus and the Buddha are the maps, but they’re not the treasure, the treasure is within oneself. There are many other maps that point to one’s inward treasure, this must be understood if the treasure is to be revealed.

Not many find their treasure because they think the maps are the treasure, but when it says X marks the spot, the X is not the one who left the map, it is you. Religion, 12 Step programs, retreats, seminars, and whatnot, are nothing but maps. What has evolved over time is the map has been mistaken for the treasure and because it’s not it doesn’t provide one with the wealth of looking within to discover the real treasure. This leads to people following many different maps, but very few discovering the treasure. Use whatever map you think is needed to reveal your treasure, just understand if it points to someone or something out there as the treasure, it’s probably not a true treasure map.

The Hole of Loneliness

When the mind settles the need to reach for something lessens. In the process the hole of loneliness disappears and it’s simply because an “I” story of a hole isn’t being created…

The hole of loneliness seems to get wider as one ages, but it doesn’t really, what happens is there are just less distractions so “I” takes more of a hold. The natural process of life seems to be to stay busy trying to figure things out and regardless of what exactly the figuring out manifest as, it certainly creates a lot of distractions. There are periods in between the busyness where a person has some idle time and probably feels the hole of loneliness, but it doesn’t usually last very long because the busyness of trying to figure out life returns. This busyness last most of one’s life, but there does come a time that the natural process of being busy lessens. At this stage many people experience a loneliness that hasn’t been noticed before so it will either be addressed by looking inward or one will get busy again trying to figure out how to fill the hole.

Eventually the busyness will end for whatever reason, but unfortunately for most people without the busyness the hole of loneliness rears its ugly head. Many elderly people struggle to fill this hole, but it’s so difficult because there just isn’t a lot going on. Kids are grown, retirement, house paid off, more time behind you than what’s left, and the list goes on. I was this way for many years, using distraction after distraction. There were very brief periods of not needing to reach, but these periods were far a few in between. That is until ten years ago when I hit an emotional bottom. I began sitting and simply looking inward which allowed me to see the distractions of my “I” needing to attach to a story. As I sat the mind settled and thus the “I” needing to reach for something lessened. In the process the hole of loneliness disappeared and it was simply because an “I” story of a hole was not being created…


Open Minded Energy

Open minded energy allows for objectivity and truth to be seen, and it can remain free flowing and beneficial as long as there isn’t attachment which closes the mind and only allows you to see things one way.

Thinking your way is the only way things should be viewed is the harmful energy of a closed mind. Why this is harmful is because it doesn’t allow for the free flowing energy of an open mind which can view things objectively instead of through the limiting factor of only one view. When the mind is closed nothing loving can come out of it because a closed mind has no flow to it. It’s as if you have already made up your mind how things are and this doesn’t allow for anything but that one very limited view. A closed mind is from the same energy as a car stuck in the mud. The tires spin, but the car remains stuck. As a matter of fact this energy actually creates a deeper rut that becomes almost impossible to break free of. As the tires spin the rut just gets deeper and deeper. There’s energy being applied here, but it’s not an energy of beneficial value.

Even if your view is of truth it matters little because the moment you think it’s the view all should have, it cuts off the free flowing energy of openness. The energy of a closed mind is judgmental so there’s no benefit to it because it doesn’t allow for love. To be open to allow everyone their space to see things as they do is the energy of freedom. To be closed limits and this causes one to be in bondage to that one limited usually a selfish based view. It’s never about being right, it’s more so learning to not allow labeling and judgements of what arises in the present moment. It’s doesn’t mean you can’t point others to the possibility of seeing things different, but it can never be at the expense of pushing anything away or pulling anything in. With open minded energy one can see truth, and it can remain free flowing and beneficial as long as there isn’t attachment which closes the mind and only allows you to see things one way.

Innocence of a Child

Until “become like little children” is truly understood, the adult conditioning will remain in control as bias, prejudice, hate, and greed. This is the real tragedy of when a child’s life is taken because their innocence is also taken.

When a child loses their life regardless of how it occurs, it’s a tragedy because their innocence is also lost. Very few if any adults live from the energy found in the innocence of a child. There are plenty of adults who are living from the energy of a baby (I want what I want when I want it) but there’s no innocence there, there’s just ignorance. In the Bible there’s a saying “become like little children” I see this as a pointer to a time before the conditioning of the world took over and one’s innocence was lost. Although there is certain DNA in place when existence begins, no one is born with a conditioned mind. We all begin our manifested life free of any bias, prejudice, hate, greed, and so on. These things only arise because of one’s own susceptibility to be conditioned and the conditioning passed on from the adults in our life. This conditioning slowly squeezes out the innocence we begin life with, the more influenced one is by conditioned adults while growing up, the less innocence there will be.

To lose a child is to lose the energy of their innocence, this is the true tragedy of all the school shootings. Make no mistake about this, it’s a tragedy whenever a child’s life is taken because there’s less of their pure, innocent, and free energy in the world. This allows for the adult conditioning to become more engrained which tightens the hold of the selfish baby energy of I want what I want when I want it. A child is simply beautiful in their innocence and it’s this innocence that’s going to change things. Until the saying “become like little children” is truly understood at the heart level, the adult conditioning will remain in control along with its bias, prejudice, hate, greed, and so on, and this is the real tragedy of when a child’s life is taken because all their innocence is also taken.

Eyes of Perception

You can only think what you think and react as you react because the conditioning in place is in control, and no matter how much you think you choose what you do, there is no choice…

Life is always as it is. We create our reality of life through the conditioned eyes of perception. You think what you think, you react as you react because the conditioning in place tells you to do so, there is no choice here. Until you get a clear picture of this conditioning, the eyes of perception will simply do what they’re designed to do and that’s control you. Perception shapes your life and unfortunately it takes you away from what’s really happening. The reality that most people see is a delusional one because it’s base on conditioned attachments. If these attachments (which are in place as perception) weren’t there, the view of life would be through eyes that see a clear truth. What creates this perception is all the influenced conditioning that begins as an infant. An infant has two fears, falling and loud noises, everything else is conditioning which leads to creating delusional perceptions.

Everything is conditioning until one becomes aware of this. The pacifier perception is one of the more deeply engrained conditions. The only thing that changes as a person ages is the pacifier changes it’s shape, but the same function of reaching for a pacifier last throughout one’s life, that is unless one becomes aware of this. Perception can’t change if the conditioning that makes the eyes see as they do doesn’t change, but for most the change will just be using another pacifier; that is until there’s a deep awareness of this. Most people just change perceptions, but true change occurs when the eyes of perception are no longer in control and the clear eyes without attachment take over.

Obligated to Love

Love is what will change the world so cultivate love until it’s at the core of how your life is viewed. When this is done you can become the change this world so desperately needs.

Not allowing outside circumstances to pull me in is one of if not the most important lesson I’ve learned in the last ten years. Prior to ten years ago most things that happened controlled me, some more than others, but the controlling aspect in some way always seemed to be there. Becoming aware of how much control the outside circumstances have over you is somewhat of a miracle as most people will never be aware of this; life will be blindly lived as to what is truly going on.

Its so easy to feel connected to life when things are going the way that you want, but how connected you feel when things aren’t going your way is a true indication of how connected you really are. Our connection to life should never be different regardless of what the circumstances are, but because of our Conditioned Mind the tendency is to think we’re more connected when things are going the way that we want. Our connection shouldn’t be contingent on life’s circumstances because this will make life an emotional roller coaster. To be controlled by the circumstances of life is to controlled by our conditioning as if we were puppets on a string. It’s only this way because it’s what is unconsciously put into place. If we were conditioned differently our reactions to circumstances would be different, not better, just different. If this is to change love has to be our core. If love isn’t our core, our reactions to circumstances will be hard pressed to be of love. There is a certain responsibility with this because love is what will change the world and if you are aware of this you have an obligation to cultivate love so it’s at the core of your life. When you do this you can become the change this world so desperately needs.

Don't Mind What Happens

Don’t mind what happens and a story won’t be generated. If you do mind, your energy will be transferred to whatever it is that’s wanted different and hence an attached story will be created.

The stories that are created you become, and it takes you on a ride base on whatever energy is used to create it. All stories are generated from something that happened in the past. There’s the story of your favorite team or the story of work. There’s the family story and the story of just wanting things different. Regardless the stories shapes your life because of attachment, not because of what happens. These attached stories are where emotions arise from, they’re where fear, discontent, and anger form and gain their power. This is what attachment does, it takes the power away from you and hands it over to the attachment. Without attachment how things affect you lessens.

Throughout the day if there’s not awareness to remain present, the story begins and your power gets transferred to attachment. It doesn’t matter what the story is, that you have transferred your power to an outside source is what matters. As spring approaches you may not be able to get rid of all the weeds on your lawn, but if you learn to not mind them, they won’t be a problem. Basically what has to be done in order not to create stories is, not mind what happens. If you want things to be different, your power will be transferred to whatever it is that’s wanted different; this attachment becomes the controlling energy of your life. Watch your stories, don’t mind what happens and even though you may have a lawn full of weeds, if there isn’t attachment it won’t matter all that much.

Conditioned Programming

If anything is ever going to change in our world, the conditioned programming will have to change. This will only happen when it’s seen this programming isn’t providing the most beneficial results.

A Conditioned Mind is programmed to do certain things and it will do just that. This occurs whether one wants it to or not. It has to occur because the mind has been conditioned to be this way. Our mind becomes programmed just like a computer operating system so unless the operating system is changed or at least upgraded to some degree, it will remain as originally programmed. It’s imperative to understand this so first the conditioning in place can be identified and second so what may not be serving you in the most beneficial way can be changed. Realizing this is the beginning stages of the possibility for the conditioning to change. This will take willingness because of how engrained the conditioning is, but this is more of an awareness thing than an actual exertion.

Once one becomes aware there’s another way to live, the process of changing begins. This is difficult at first because part of the original conditioning holds onto the familiar even if it’s not providing much benefit. It’s how the merry go round mind remains in place; even at the point of its own destruction. It has many tools and influences in place to do this, some inner, some outer, but it’s all just part of the conditioning. This is why when a person acts in a particular way and why they are more accountable than responsible for what they do. If anything is ever going to change in our world, the conditioning in place will have to change. This will only happen when it’s seen the conditioning is doing what its been designed to do, but it isn’t providing you with the most beneficial results possible.

Morning Silence

The unconscious mind creates story after story. Just being with what happens and not resisting it stops the need to create a story of having to arrange life to make it the way you think it should be.

To me starting the day in silence is of immense value because if silence isn’t embraced when the day begins, it will be very difficult for it to be embraced as the stories of the day unfold. Sit in the morning and take periodic breaks throughout the day and one day you will notice there is more silence than noise, and without noise the need for a story doesn’t exist. Silence has to be established in the morning because it’s when the noise is the loudest.

This noise that I’m referring to manifest as a story of whatever one thinks will make life the way that they think it’s needed. Every story is made up for one’s own satisfaction, regardless of how it plays out. Even if it’s to help others, if investigated deeper it’s to make one feel better. This holds true for any story. I don’t know if there’s a meaning to life, but I do know it’s not to make up a story that used to justify existence just to feel better.

This is what the unconscious mind does, it creates story after story, all to make one believe it will make you feel better, but life isn’t about feeling better by manufacturing some story. To me life isn’t really about anything in particular, but to learn how to be with the silence of what’s occurring right now. Just being with what happens and not resisting it stops the story of needing to arrange life to make it the way you think it needs to be. When this is seen one will be with the peace that passes all understanding and there won’t be a need to create a story to make it so.

Knowledge Isn't Enough

The heart only beats in the present moment which is the only place of true existence. It’s where life actually happens and it’s where one transforms without knowledge blocking it.

I often refer to the phrase I made up and enjoy using “Knowing all about the apple doesn’t make it taste better” here’s exactly what is meant by this. At the age of twenty eight 1988 to be exact, I put down alcohol for the last time and haven’t had any since. At that time I became immersed in studying the 12 Steps of AA. I learned a lot about alcoholism, and how I was selfish and self centered which was at the core of why I had to reach for something. I attained a lot of knowledge, but it seemed I was missing something; I was still reaching, just not for alcohol. I had much knowledge of the AA program and its 12 Steps, but I have since discovered knowledge alone isn’t enough for one to experience a transformation of the spirit.

This relying on knowledge alone is how people become dependent on programs, fall into the therapist trap, keep reaching for another book, seminar, retreat, or whatever. This is where you learn about yourself, but it doesn’t really enhance life to the point where there is freedom from the bondage of self. What happens is knowledge alone which is of the mind, keeps one stuck in their head. Knowledge isn’t a bad thing, but it can keep you entrapped in the head and you will never experience an expansion of the heart from there. The heart which only beats in the present moment is the only place of true existence. It’s where life actually happens and it’s where one’s spirit can transform without the knowledge of trying to make it happen. It’s in the stillness of life that truth is revealed and it doesn’t take knowledge to make it so.

The Discontent of Wanting

Wanting life different causes a discontent that’s not there when one is with life as it is. The is the reason there’s an addiction epidemic going on and it’s not going to stop until one can be with life as it is.

If you can’t be at peace with life as it is, you will be in the discontent of wanting life to be as it isn’t. To truly understand this makes all the difference in the world for how one lives their life. There’s a contentment that just is when one is with life as it is. This doesn’t mean anything as far as what happens, but it does mean something to how you process and react to what happens. The constant struggle with life is because of constantly wanting it different than what it is. This isn’t rocket science, existence seems to throw many obstacles our way, some obstacles are worse than others, the key is learning how not to be pulled in by them, or push them away. Wanting life to be different is what causes a discontent that’s not there when one is simply with life as it arises. This goes for anything that’s arises, whether it’s health related, a job, people, circumstances and events, or anything else that goes on, if it’s wanted to be different than what it is, discontentment will be the resulted energy.

One of the main reasons why someone has a need to reach for something (addiction) is to alter their state of being which is discontented, but understand the discontented mind can’t make itself content. This is because you are trying to stop the discontent with the mind that’s locked into the same energy that’s causing the discontent. You become just like a dog chasing its tail. The dog wants life different and it chasing its tail is it reaching for this; this is addiction. The addiction epidemic going on in the world is caused by wanting life different and it’s not going to stop until one can be with life as it is, not as it isn’t.

"I' Temptation

Temptation arises because “I” wants to satisfy some pleasure it’s making you think is needed, and “I” will win out every time until there’s awareness to stay out of harms way.

It’s so important to not put yourself in harms way when it comes to temptation, but it’s done because the way most minds are conditioned there’s a lack of awareness and discipline to make a stand against temptations energy for a long period of time. I see this in myself, but very slowly the conditioning that attaches to “I” is losing its grip. There’s so much of our make up associated with temptation that one should sit with this to see how much control it really has over you. This is mainly so because of the temporary pleasure that’s gotten from giving in to the temptation. Food, alcohol, drugs, sex (alone or with someone) gambling and so on, many things are used to satisfy the sense pleasures and if there isn’t awareness of this, it will be difficult not to get pulled around by temptation.

Temptation controlled my entire life because of never having the awareness or discipline to not get pulled around by “I” that always put me in harms way. Of course satisfying “I” is at the root of this and whenever a temptation is given into, initially it feels good, but it only last until the mind that told you to give in to the temptation poses the question, why did you do that. It has taken a few years to finally stop giving in to the temptation of pleasure and it’s only because there’s the awareness of “I”. Grab that cookie and see how long the satisfaction last, by the way sugar is more addictive than cocaine. The point of this isn’t to say the pleasures of life can’t be enjoyed, just watch who is attaching to them. See if you’re putting yourself in harms way which reinforces “I”. If this is seen you just may be able to not attach to “I” and lessen the control it has over you so you can truly live life happy, joyous, and free. Free from what? The alluring temptation of the control of “I”.

Attachment is Suffering

The attachment to something is what causes suffering not the thing itself. If there wasn’t the need to attach, there wouldn’t be suffering because one would be content with life as it is.

Regardless if you come from Park Ave or from park bench it doesn’t mean the suffering of the Conditioned Mind is lessened or greater. It really just means the circumstances of your life are different. Ten years ago, with life exactly the way that I wanted it, I was at an emotional bottom, at the depths of despair. I could have been a millionaire or had no money whatsoever and it wouldn’t have mattered. Society measures success on how much money one has, so the rich should be the happiest people in the world, but as we all know this is not the case. Matter of fact they may be some of the most miserable because what determines our suffering is our attachments. I have the life that I have, but having less would be okay.

Circumstances only matter to a mind that is conditioned. An attachment to being rich is no different than an attachment to being poor. Attachment is attachment, but what is attached to doesn’t cause suffering, the suffering comes from the need to attach itself. Cigarettes don’t cause cancer, “I” smoking them does. Sugar isn’t a problem, “I” consuming it does. You get the point. You can make all the excuses you want, but that’s all they are, excuses to justify what is done.

Social status doesn’t truly separate people into the haves and have nots, the Conditioned Mind does. Life is equal for all regardless of their social status, but because of attachment things are put into categories by the mind. We attach to our causes and create a reason for our existence. It has been my experience that peace only takes into account how still our mind becomes so we can be guided by Universal Love to do whatever it is that’s in front of us. Whatever it is that we attach to will take us away from this peace, and it doesn’t matter whether you come from Park Ave or park bench.

Using the Body

Regardless of what it is if it’s of the mind it creates bondage. The only way this is broken is by using the body as an anchor as the body is simply always in the present moment.

The importance of developing a sitting practice is in how this develops discipline which allows the mind to settle enough so one is in the present more often than not. The breath is used for this because it anchors you in the body which is always in the present. You never take a past or future breath, you can only take a breath in the present, this is why the breath is used. It’s the same reason chants are used, when Om is used, you don’t Om in the past or the future, you Om right now, when this is done it anchors you in the body which is always in the Now. The mind for most is constantly in the past or future, there are times when it’s present, but this is fleeting and mostly occurs because of happenstance. The body is a great anchor to use in a sitting practice because there’s no way it can’t be present. This doesn’t prevent anything from happening, but what it does do is it allows for one’s awareness to be with what’s happening instead of having resisting energy trying to use something to push it away. This resisting energy is at the core of how addictions manifest.

Besides a sitting practice, I often use the tool of simply looking down at my feet and since wherever my feet are there I am, it also anchors me in the present. This is also why one uses a mindfulness practice, such as walking meditation because as you are mindful of each step, you’re anchored in the body which as stated before, is always in the present moment. Life is magical in relation to the things that occur for one’s energy to be transformed to form, but there’s nothing magical in being present for what’s actually happening, as long as one is aware that it’s not happening to you, it’s just what’s happening, you just happen to be present to observe it.

Mind Truth Isn't Truth

What truth is will never be figured out with the mind, but what it isn’t can be examined, so you may never know what truth is, but you will know what it isn’t and when this is known all that’s left is truth.

The mind has no foundation, it is here, there, and everywhere. It’s why people struggle to find truth with the mind, there’s nothing there. It’s like trying to hold onto air. The true foundation of life is the body because the body exist in the only place that is real, the present moment. It’s so difficult to convey truth through the mind, not that I know what it is, but I do know what it isn’t. That’s the difference in me today as opposed to the way I was ten years ago. People try to figure out what truth is through the mind and that’s where the struggle arises from. Truth is impossible to grasp, what truth isn’t is a lot easier to examine.

Yesterday was one of those days, there was a lot of mind push back on my article. What’s funny is all I am is the writer, I don’t provide the content, that arises on its own from stillness. Again most people struggle with truth because they try to figure it out with the mind. You will never know what truth is from the mind, but you can examine what it isn’t and thus the mind will stop trying to figure it out what it is. Regardless of what I write it can only be disagreed with from within yourself. A disagreement with my writings is a mind agitation that comes from within you. There’s nothing to ever truly disagree with unless the Conditioned Mind tells you it wants something to be different; this agitation is what truth isn’t. Understand this and you just may see the truth, but you won’t know what truth is, you will know what it isn’t and when this is known all you will be left with is truth.

Forming Opinions

Form any opinion you’d like, but it will never be a benefit to you. As a matter of fact it will be a created burden that not only blocks you from the love that’s in your heart, but also from the heart of all humanity.

I don’t write to tell anyone how to live their life. How someone chooses to live has nothing to do with me. If what I write resonates with you, so be it, if not move on. What I write is from my experience, as I was opinionated for many many years. Whether it is agreed with is not really a concern of mine. What is seen is what is written and if you don’t see what I see, you won’t understand what I write. There is nothing right or wrong with this, it’s just the way it is.

We are all an extension of Universal Consciousness. There is no difference in the way we exist except to the Conditioned Mind. We are all from the same energy. It’s when we lose our focus of this that we become individuals and form our opinions. Our unity comes from understanding this. When we form our opinions, our ideas, beliefs, and concepts, we form an individuality which causes us to miss the mark (definition of sin) of Universal Love. I often speak of truth and this is the truth that I speak of. It’s not my truth, but the truth of existence; Universal Love. There is no interpretation needed here, love is love. If you wish to form an interpretation or opinion of love that’s up to you, but when the mind settles, Universal Love becomes life’s base and there are no opinions or interpretations needed here. Learn to live life as it is from the base of Universal Love. Form any opinion you’d like, but it will not truly be a benefit to you because most likely it will be self serving in some way. As a matter of fact it will be a created burden that not only blocks you from the love that’s in your heart, but also from the heart of all humanity; just my opinion…

Conditioned Ignorance

The way one acts has to come from somewhere, it doesn’t just randomly happen. Why this isn’t seen by most people is because of all the propaganda that points you to look for your answers out there.

Here is a hypothetical situation, but this occurs a lot and is very real. A child is abused growing up, in this case pick your so called poison, physically, sexually, verbally, or in some other way. I say poison because this is what the abuse does to a mind that begins its existence pure, innocent, and free; the poison is to become conditioned and pass this on to others. This conditioning is not limited to abuse, it takes on many forms; we simply become products of our environments without realizing it. This is not the fault of anyone, but it is a fact; you cannot get oranges from apple seeds. This conditioning is hardly ever questioned if it’s truly beneficial in your life. All of us fall prey to this and most live under the spell of this conditioning for their entire life.

Granted much of this is simply because of ignorance, there are some people who do wake up to this, but most remain in this ignorance. Look at your own behavior, did you ever ask yourself why you behave in the way that you do? This question is hardly asked as most never get to this point. The way one acts has to come from somewhere, it doesn’t just randomly happen. Why this isn’t seen by most people is because of all the propaganda that points to your answers being out there somewhere. So how can one really be held responsible for how they act with this ignorance in place? They can’t, but the ignorance wants to hold everyone responsible even though most including those ignorantly pointing know not what they do…

Perception Isnt Truth

Because everyone has different conditioning, we have the world as it is with just as many versions of truth as there are people, but without quietness none of those versions are true.

Part of the struggle that many have with truth is it’s seen through mind perceptions and since the mind has nothing solid as a base, it makes it different for everyone. But a perception of something doesn’t mean how it is being perceived is truth. What it means to see truth is to experience a quietness that needs no label. Truth doesn’t need to be defined for it to be so, as a matter of fact the more one gets entangled in the words of what truth is, the further away from it they become. This really needs to be investigated if it’s to be seen, but understand it’s not truth that will be seen, it’s the quietness that reveals what truth isn’t that will be seen. Part of what blocks most people from truly understanding life is they’re trying to understand life. I know as much about life today as I did the day I was born, but what I do know is there’s nothing to know that will enhance life one bit because it’s not designed that way. Knowing all about an apple doesn’t make it taste better.

Another book, retreat, meetings, meditation/yoga session, or anything else for that matter won’t reveal truth to you because it’s only in quietness that it’s revealed. This is the main struggle in society today because far too many think their perception is truth. Granted it is their truth, but only as a mind construct. Because everyone has different conditioning, we have the world as it is with just as many versions of truth as there are people, but without quietness none of those versions are true.

Humanly Hooked

The understanding of the flesh won’t stop the world’s hooks from grabbing you, but it just may at times stop you from taking the bait which allows the control of the flesh to dissipate somewhat.

There are many hooks that are based in the flesh and they’re constantly being thrown out to grab you; and they will grab you as long as you are in this human form. How deep one gets hooked depends on their conditioning. Even with knowing what I know about the Conditioned Mind there is still the lure of the flesh that catches me at times. Fortunately the hammer was put away a long time ago that was used to beat myself up over doing something that my own mind told me to do; this is just being written as the awareness aware of awareness. If you think you’re going to get to a state of being where the flesh is totally transcended that’s the wishful thinking of the flesh and it becomes your bondage. If you do get there wherever there is, please share it with me, but I won’t hold my breath.

Human form should be embraced as it is, not as it’s wanted. This is not an excuse to just go around succumbing to selfish energy whenever a desire arises, but to awaken to the awareness that this is even happening is a miracle in itself. It seems sex and food are two things that have deeply engrained conditioning associated with them and it’s why there are so many diets out there and both diets and porn are billion dollar industries. Diets and sex sell because it hits most humans at the flesh level. Food and sex are not to be loathed because few will have the ability not to be controlled by them. To me one can only be aware of the selfish energy associated with these as they are reached for to fulfill some inner lack. This inner lack is the at the core of the flesh and it needs constant fulfillment in some way. The understanding of this won’t stop the hooks as the world is based in the flesh, but at times it may stop you from taking the bait which allows the control of the flesh to dissipate somewhat…Maybe…

Delusional Form Attachment

The addiction in our society is to form. Without being led around by form one can truly be joyous and free, but only if it’s seen that the association and attachment to form is a delusion.

The cause of all suffering is attachment to our human form and how we associate everything that happens with it. It’s not that one needs to transcend this form to be joyous, and free, but there has to be a letting go of how we associate with what occurs in life with our form. This attachment and association to form is at the core of all suffering and the thing about it is it’s a delusion. Investigate all the things that are associated with the human form from the moment you wake up to the time that you go to sleep. Everything that occurs in between is form associated and our thoughts reinforce this attachment and association constantly. Obviously our form does exist, the problem is it doesn’t exist in the way we associate everything to it. One day everyone who is alive today will let go of all their associated attachments with form, the key in living a joyous and free life is to learn to do it now.

Nothing really happens to you and the delusion is you think it does, this doesn’t mean things don’t happen, they just don’t happen to you. All I’m saying is if there’s less association with a form that things happen to, when something does happen there will be less attachment to it, and with less attachment, one experiences a more joyous and free existence. This joy and freedom occurs naturally as form associations and attachments aren’t pulled in. To see this one only needs to be aware of who is doing the pulling and why does it occur. The addiction in our society is to form so without being led around by form associations and attachments, one can truly be joyous and free, but only if it’s seen that the association and attachment to form is a delusion.

Delusional Opinions

The greatest injustice to oneself is holding onto opinions that are taken as truth prior to investigating if they are truly so. It’s written “the truth will set you free” not opinions will set you free.

Here is a dictionary definition of the word opinion: a view or judgment formed about something not necessarily based on fact or knowledge. This really sums up what an opinion is and its true value or lack of it. An opinion really has no value because it isn’t based on anything but a fleeting thought and thoughts don’t have any substance and without substance where would an opinion get its value?

The Conditioned Mind will tell you there is value in opinions, but this is delusional. If it isn’t based on something factual how can it truly have value? When there aren’t facts, there isn’t substance, and without substance, there is nothing true to base an opinion on. This just doesn’t go for opinions, it also includes ideas, ideals, beliefs, and concepts. What are these based on? They are based on the delusion of a Conditioned Mind. Before this is discounted, it should be investigated. If you just want to make up an opinion and it makes you feel better, go with your puppet on a string conditioning, but understand this has nothing to do with truth, it’s all from the Conditioned delusion within; a delusion that’s been in place for a very long time. If a person lives their life based on opinions that’s their choice, just understand the burden of a delusional opinion weighs heavily on you and blocks you from the love that’s in your heart.

Awakened Tools

The Conditioned Mind will always fight the new, the only reason this is done is because something different is being presented and the Conditioned Mind doesn’t like different.

What being awake provides is a set of tools that are different than ones which are used prior to awakening. I can only share what my experience was and prior to the shift that happened to me, the tools that were developed and used were selfish in nature. These tools were strictly in place to provide comfort at all cost; the difference today is the tools in place are different. This doesn’t prevent anything from happening nor does it mean much of anything as far as life goes, but the different set of tools has allowed so much more peace in my life and why this is important is because this is when one can truly be used in a way that’s beneficial to all beings.

Why there has always been so much discord in our world is because the Conditioned Mind loves to remain in the familiar, this is one of its tools. In the time of the Buddha, he was not received with opened arms when he became enlightened; he was presenting something new. Same thing with Jesus, the Old Testament Bible was all there was in his time, there was no New Testament. Jesus taught a new way to live and he was crucified for it. The Conditioned Mind will fight the new, it will mock it, argue with it, ridicule it and on and on without investigation, the only reason this is done is because something different is being presented and the Conditioned Mind doesn’t like different. Like I said, this doesn’t real mean much of anything except to a mind that is locked into using familiar conditioned tools. Change your tools, change your life.

Beyond Duality

Duality causes inner and Universal division as it creates a you, a me, and them. Whenever this is the way life is viewed there will be separation regardless if there’s a higher or lower self.

An awakening to me is a shift from being caught up in an I Self world, to seeing what’s really going on beyond all the distractions of duality. The phrase higher self is often used to explain what being awake is, but attachment to self causes duality anyway its looked at. One must go beyond any thought of self to truly awaken because any thought of self whether higher or lower is a distraction that keeps one locked into the I Self distractions. These two selfs create duality; oneness (no thought of a self) is the only true state of being. I’m old enough to have seen the old cartoons where an angel and devil would pop up on someone’s shoulders when they were about to make a decision, to me regardless of which self won out it was still a decision made by self. A belief of a higher self as opposed to a lower one makes for a nice story, but it just creates more inner division within.

This form that has manifested for humans to experience life only does what it does because of the conditioning in place. If there is less of this conditioning to be fortunate enough to not be controlled by the I Self count your blessings, because most people (form) will die consumed by an I Self. It makes no difference whether it’s labeled higher or lower as self is self and until self is truly let go of, duality and not oneness will be the controlling energy of life. This duality causes inner and Universal division as it creates a you, a me, and them. Whenever this is the way life is viewed there will be separation regardless if there’s a higher or lower self.

Blindfold Beliefs

All blind faith means is that you are living life as if you are blindfolded. If you don’t investigate your beliefs, you will blindly be controlled by them as if you were a puppet on a string.

When something is done that causes harm 99.999% of the time it is done so through ignorance. There aren’t many people who consciously do things that cause harm to themselves or others. I know for me, I did things that caused harm without any knowledge whatsoever that I was doing this. If you asked me what I was doing I would have said, I’m just doing my thing, but the sad truth is to this day I have no idea what my thing was. This is exactly what happens when a person blindly goes through life without investigating if they are getting the maximum benefit out of their actions. For me this was the case for many years. It’s different today because of investigating how I was and what needed to change. It was the conditioning in place that kept me blind to my own conditioning and there wasn’t much of a benefit to this for anyone.

God wasn’t really the topic of yesterday’s article, it more so pointed to the fallacy of a belief prior to investigating if it truly is a benefit. A belief is a story, what title it is given depends on your conditioning. You will follow whatever it is that you have been conditioned to follow. Blind faith is living blindly and as in the song “Amazing Grace” it states “I once was lost, but now I’m found, was blind, but now I see” My writings are pointers for a person to look if what I’m writing about is true, but if you just answer from a belief you’re anchored to, inquiry and investigation won’t be possibly, hence the value of my writings will not be seen. I’m not saying this because I’m a know it all, but I have been through something traumatic that revealed a totally different way to see things. This wasn’t magical, it transpired because of investigating what I read and what I went through and it was through this investigating that the blindfold was removed and I found a truly beneficial way to live that’s based in truth.

The Fallacy of Faith

Life will always be as it is regardless of the created story of faith. Faith is strictly used by the Conditioned Mind to provide the fallacy of comfort, but it’s really not needed if one just lives life as it is.

The lack of being able to live life as it was caused my entire struggle with life. Faith is but a word, there are many interpretations of it, but in truth they are all just a created story. The way I used faith was I thought it meant things should be as I wanted. It’s not a big surprise that this kind of faith caused many problems. I only had faith in the material world and I had to use things in order to feel good, which meant I only had myself to rely on to get what I thought I needed for satisfaction.

At the time this was the conditioning that was in place. Also I firmly held on to a faith of a God that if it didn’t grant me my wishes where was the need for it. If I didn’t get what I desired I didn’t need faith, I could be disappointed without it. This was the conditioning in place so I took care of things myself. I figured I might as well, after all this God story wasn’t doing anything for me; what I really wanted was a magician.

It’s not this way today, but not because there is a belief in something. Today the fallacy of having faith has been exposed and the truth of right now is where my trust lies. This truth doesn’t need a story of faith that everything is as it should be because there’s something in charge, it means it’s as it is and that’s it. There’s no longer the need for a story in my life, because life is lived as it occurs. Through the practice of being with life as it is, there’s a knowing that life will work out simply as it does. To me this is a faith that truly works because it’s used as a means of letting go of “I”. I’ve stopped using faith as the story of believing something is going to take care me. Life is life, it takes care of itself, I’m just a part of it. Whatever happens is life just being life, it needs no story of faith. This is the acceptance of being with the reality of life as it is. I don’t need faith to live life as it is because life will always be as it is regardless of what story or fallacy the Conditioned Mind wants to use to make one think it should be different. For me, life is always as it is right now and to think there’s a need to have faith in something outside myself only changes life as it is to the fallacy of life as it isn’t.

Thought Bondage

When there’s a need to reach for something because the mind becomes agitated, one is in bondage to that thought. Until this is seen, one will remain in bondage to the thought that peace is in the next thing reached for.

You will never find the peace you are seeking as long as you are in bondage to the thought of finding peace. Peace is something that’s already within everyone, but because of the way our Conditioned Mind controls, we get stuck in the thought that peace is something outside of us. Unfortunately this bondage makes the very peace one is seeking impossible to manifest. This bondage is the reason one is constantly reaching for something from the outside and until this is seen, one will remain in bondage to the thought that peace is in the next thing reached for. Reaching for alcohol, gambling, drugs, sex, social status, programs, therapy, self help books and on and on is all the proof needed that one is in bondage. This can’t be stressed enough as this bondage to your thoughts has to be seen if one is to experience true peace in their life.

It’s impossible for the thought of peace to provide peace. What does have to happen if one is to experience peace is there has to be an understanding of why you’re not at peace; that there isn’t peace is only because of one’s inability to just be. When the need to reach for something arises, the bondage to this thought begins. This bondage is a vicious cycle that’s very difficult to break free from. Peace isn’t something attained or achieved so it’s in doing less that peace arises. To many people get lost in the thought of trying to find peace. Since peace is already within you, the thought about finding it needs to be discarded so the bondage of this thought can fall away. This is not easy to see, but it’s why I write. Understand though, I don’t write to help anyone find peace, I write so the bondage to the thought of trying to find peace can be seen for what it is; the cause of why one isn’t at peace.

Tug of War

The tools of pushing or pulling are developed to cope with life, this is why life is seemingly full of problems, but whatever arises doesn’t cause the problems, it’s the pushing or pulling that does.

Nothing needs to be dismissed for one to be free, but freedom cannot be found by pushing away or pulling in what’s occurring. Pushing away or pulling in is linked to thinking we’re getting rid of something, but truly getting rid of something will only happen when it’s dealt with as it it, if it’s not it will never go away. When it’s dealt with it won’t have to be pushed or pulled so it will naturally fall away. This is how one has to approach each moment if freedom is to be had. The way we develop tools to cope with things is why there’s problems, but whatever it is that arises doesn’t truly cause the problem. Granted it may be something that really hurts and has no benefit whatsoever, like the death of a loved one, but if it’s not dealt with in a way that it’s not dismissed or a made up story is attached, the energy of the situation controls your reactions and it will get stored until it’s time to rise up again. This is why the same thoughts are repeated over and over, they have to because of the trace energy in place.

The awareness this is happening can allow you to be with what arises and not want it different. After all the only reason a person pushes or pulls something is because it’s not wanted, this pushing or pulling is the same energy as grasping it’s just being used differently. Pushing or pulling is attachment to either wanting or not wanting and grasping is strictly attachment to wanting, slightly different with a pushing action, but the same attachment. This is very subtle to see and it will only be noticed when one is with the moment as it arises and doesn’t want it to be different. So regardless if it’s labeled good, bad, like, dislike, or whatever, it’s all the same attachment, and the only thing the applied label does is it determines if one reaches for something by pushing it away or pulling it in.

Silently Awake

When words are used to try and convince others that a certain way to live is right, it opens the door to conflict. A true testament of any awakening is demonstrated in silence because silence is what one awakens to.

Social media is a useful tools that can be used to connect with people and assist each other where years ago one was basically on their own, as far as interaction was concerned. Books were always available, but books limit ones expansion to what’s written because one can only learn what content is presented in a book. It’s very difficult for the expansion of the mind through knowledge alone. It’s why I find social media so comical at times because some of the content of the things written are as limiting as the content of a book. People throw phrases around like the words really mean something, they only do to a Conditioned Mind. You see if the mind wasn’t conditioned, the need for defining phrases wouldn’t be needed. When there’s an awareness that there’s no explaining necessary to try and convince anyone of a correct way, it’s then that real freedom from the bondage of self can be realized. Everyone’s way is correct to a degree because it’s what’s provided to them; no two people are provided with the same exact view.

The point of this post is to show words aren’t truly needed to define enlightenment, Nirvana, God, love, or whatever else one wants to use to define their insightfulness, which by the way is mostly made up by the Conditioned Mind. When true freedom is discovered, it manifest as silence; words aren’t needed. The less one uses words to try and convince others that there’s a certain way to live, the more the way is demonstrated to others; being an example of love needs no convincing. Everyone discovers what the Universe provides for them, nothing more nothing less, and as soon as this is realized, it’s then that one will be truly free because there will be no words needed to explain or convince others that there’s a certain way to live. This will be seen by those who understand answers cannot be defined with words because answers can only arise when there is silence.

Life's Intentions

Life has its own intentions and when the mind is quiet one will be in alignment with them. This isn’t to satisfy our made up mind intentions, but strictly for ones that are solely for the betterment of the Universe.

You do what you do because your Conditioned Mind tells you what to do. You wake up in the morning and the day begins. You do whatever it is that you do and about sixteen hours later it’s time to call it a day and go to sleep just so you can do it again tomorrow. We say tomorrow, but the reality of life is it’s one continuous journey, there aren’t really any breaks in it. Time, days, years, decades, centuries, are all man made concepts that are used to the extent of establishing some structure in life, but they are attached to way to much; they’re actually designed to control you.

I’m not saying nothing matters, but does anyone living really know what the intentions of life is? Life’s intention is relatively unknown, sure we can make something up and as a species we’re actually very good at this. We can have intentions about helping others, or loving others, raising a family, being kind, working on this or that, or whatever it is that we use to justify our existence, but the bottom line is one day just like that and without permission, BANG our existence ends. Only when it’s realized to be mindful of the present moment is life’s true intention fulfilled because in that moment there’s no time, days, years, decades, centuries, or whatever else the Conditioned Mind uses to block the Universe from using one for its intent. The only thing needed for this to occur is to be still and once there’s stillness one is used for the betterment of the Universe, not for a created intention to fulfill the Conditioned Mind.

The Suffering of "I"

Because the Conditioned Mind isn’t understood enough it’s very difficult to notice the insights that reveal the cause of suffering, hence without these insights one remains entrapped to “l” wanting things different.

Anytime the present moment is wanted different, instantly this causes the one wanting it different to suffer. Why this suffering happens isn’t because of what’s occurring, it happens because of the attachment to a delusional “I” only the idea of “I” could ever want anything different and thus suffer. This is so subtle that it’s missed by most people, even those who claim to be deeply spiritual. Why this is missed is because the Conditioned Mind isn’t understood at the level that allows for this insight to be seen. Many have a practice that’s mind based and so much of what’s in place is from the intellect. True peace can never be fully experienced from the intellect alone, it can assist in getting the mind to settle enough to allow insights to arise without having to make something up, but the mind will have to be minus any story to allow this.

Wanting the slightest thing that arises in the moment different causes suffering. From a simple hang nail, to losing a loved one, or even wanting a loved one, and on and on. Although some things will be attached to more than others, the base of the delusional “I” is the common denominator of all suffering. It has nothing to do with what one thinks is causing the suffering, only attachment causes it and “I” is at the core. Very difficult to see because this “I” will tell you you’re not suffering. It will tell you that the writer of this article doesn’t know what he’s talking about, but if what I wrote wasn’t true, it would just roll off and your “I” wouldn’t give it a second thought. For me I’ve learned the delusional “I” is the cause of suffering and the only way one will ever be free from it is to let go of “I”.

Present Moment Tie In

There’s one very important piece that most people miss when it comes to living life in the most beneficial way possible and that’s living in the present moment, not in a conceptual way, but in a way that ties it all in.

Because nothing truly happens outside the realm of Now if the tools one is using to live life don’t tie it all into the present moment, the delusion of everything being somewhere out there will be the base of existence. There has to be a tool in place to tie it in to the Now until this becomes second nature. Life is mostly lived as if it’s somewhere out there because that’s the conditioning in place and until there’s something to establish a tie to the present, nothing changes as the delusion of somewhere out there continues its dominance and living life in a truly beneficial way only occurs by accident.

The breath is one tool that can be used as a tie, there’s also sitting, chants, tapping, guided mediations, and array of other things. The important thing here to realize is that these things aren’t magical, what they do is tie you into the Now and because Now is the only place that truly exist, you are in harmony with life as it is. This simple yet profound truth is missed by most people because of the nonsense (no sense) of the Conditioned Mind and hence your struggle to find this harmony remains. It’s not that harmony isn’t possible, it’s just not experienced because the present moment tie isn’t being utilized.

Comparing You with Yourself

There’s only one comparison that matters in life, it’s comparing you with yourself and only to the extent of how much freer you are today as opposed to what held you in bondage yesterday.

Each day there are endless opportunities to learn not so much how to be free, but what prevents you from being free. My awakening process has not been one of learning the great secrets of the Universe, it has been a direct comparison of how much bondage there was in my life as opposed to how much there is now. Any spin can be put on this, but to me the bottom line is the less one is controlled by their conditioning, the less bondage there is, and the less bondage there is, the more one comes from a place that tends to be a true benefit to themselves and humanity.

There was conditioning in place to be very selfish for most of my life, I don’t hold this against me, as a matter of fact it doesn’t even matter. What does matter is I’m not like this today, and the only reason this is so is because it was revealed how much suffering being selfish causes; not much else really concerns me. I compare myself to the way I was for forty nine years as opposed to today and what changed was a simple but profound shift that allowed me to not be controlled by the noise of the Conditioned Mind any longer. I use this comparing me to myself as a reflection tool and that’s it. It’s been a true measurement for me, but only to the extent that provides a clear cut picture of how I was and the blessing that’s been bestowed upon me to not be that way anymore.

The Weight of the World

One of the reasons it’s so difficult to break free from the Conditioned Mind is because most days start out by picking up where one left off the day before. This is what it feels like to carry around the weight of the world.

The world can weigh you down because it’s as if you bend down when the day starts and literally pick up all the conditioning that has been amassed up to the age that you are. For me I carried around forty nine years of amassed conditioning until I began to say no to bending down and picking it up. This amassing was done only because I knew no other way, so every morning this taking the world upon my shoulders had to be done; like I said it was as if I was bending down and picking up whatever conditioning was there. This equates to the weight of world because that’s how heavy the conditioning is. When you begin to see how the heaviness of what you are carrying around is only there because you’ve picked it up, you can begin to not do this and watch life become much lighter.

There’s such a lightness to life when the conditioning isn’t carried around and even if it does arise, it still doesn’t have to be carried. Carry around amassed conditioning or simply not picking it up is as different as night a day. It’s the difference between being weighed down by attachment or having free flowing energy in control. Nobody can force you to bend down and pick something up, it’s simply done so because of your own conditioning in place, but when there’s an understanding of this even though the mind may say bend over and pick this up, you can just say no and remain free from carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders.

Confused Conditioning

The thing about the Conditioned Mind is it makes you unconsciously do things that aren’t beneficial to you or anyone else. This is the epitome of unconsciousness.

One incident that sticks out for me is when I was living with a women while working at my fathers restaurant. The restaurant would close around 10pm. On this night I vividly remember telling my lady friend I would be home right after work and I had every intention of doing just that. What I didn’t know is the conditioning in place had other plans. After work I stopped at the liquor store across the street to pick up a six pack of beer to bring home. The liquor store owner was a friend and he asked me if I wanted to do a line of cocaine, of course I said yes and this ignited the craving of more. As soon as the coke was taken, the thought of going home vanished as if it never existed. Needless to say I finally went home around 6am after going to a party and having sex with another women. Of course there was much guilt and remorse and because of this as soon as I got up I started drinking and smoking marijuana. This was the merry go round of my Conditioned Mind.

Unfortunately this wasn’t an isolated incident. My intentions never matched my actions. I did things of this nature over and over without any understanding as to why. My heart and head were never in sync and the suffering this caused was immense. Because I didn’t understand the conditioning that was the driving force behind this behavior, the guilt and remorse could only be sequestered by drinking more alcohol and doing more drugs. What happened at twenty eight when I stopped using alcohol and drugs is anger took over amongst other things. Today it’s much different because of the awareness that was revealed to me ten years ago about the Conditioned Mind, and although this doesn’t keep conditioned thoughts from arising, it does allow me to not attach to these thoughts and thus the Conditioned Mind doesn’t cause nearly as much suffering as it once did. This understanding is at the core of the liberation that was afforded me and it was done simply by understanding my own mind.

"Grasping at Straws"

One of the obstacles that’s used to keep you in a state of unconsciousness is grasping, and it’s your own mind that keeps this bondage of “grasping at straws” in place.

“Grasping at straws” this idiom refers to a drowning person grabbing any floating object, even a straw, to save themselves, and if there’s one iota of self honesty, this will be seen for the mind bondage that it is. To me this is a perfect example of how to explain one of the obstacles the Conditioned Mind uses to keep a person in a state of unconsciousness. The is the reason reaching for the next fix is the tool that most humans have in place. I know it’s what I had in place for many years and it’s why there wasn’t any stability in my life. Life will be what life is, but if the foundation is one that is “grasping at straws” the ride will be one of chaos, confusion, and mayhem, at best. Everything that happens will be taken as it’s happening to you and when life is made personal look out, all kinds of nonsense arises.

This nonsense was my life for many years simply because “grasping at straws” was at the core of my existence. It’s the grasping itself that will need to be looked at if it’s to ever stop or at least lessen. I grasped for so many things that I would consider the list endless. From drugs and alcohol, to women, gambling, success, God, programs (self help & 12 Step) and so many other things, always thinking the next so called straw was going to save me, but to my dismay it never did. This grasping was something that was deeply rooted within my subconscious, and it was at the core of all my problems; always needing to do, never able to Be. The grasping changed when I stopped reaching for alcohol and drugs in 1987, but nothing internal changes until the conditioning to grasp subsides. Along with this grasping comes a life of bondage, attachment, and much nonsense as this grasping is the root of one’s own created suffering.

Perfectly Unconscious

Waking up doesn’t make you perfect, what it does is it gives you awareness of the “I” imperfections in place, and when one is aware of the harm “I” causes, letting go of its imperfections naturally occurs.

It’s pretty crazy the way life is. It’s something that can’t really be figured out. As in the Grateful Dead song “What a long strange trip its been” is a good description of my life, but I wouldn’t change anything about it, even with all the unconscious suffering that went on for years. The best thing about my life is all the love that I’m surrounded by, to me in the end if anything really matters it will be this. At age twenty eight I stopped using alcohol and drugs as a coping mechanism, four years later I got married which is over twenty five years ago. Although that in and of itself is amazing, at the age of thirty two my father saw a son who caused him years of worrying, finally begin to grow up. I was not a burden to him or to my mother any longer. Mom recently died, my dad died some months after my wedding; him seeing me get married is something I cherish to this day.

The part the gets me the most about being unconscious is the people it affects without any knowledge that it’s happening. From the friends I had growing up, to parents, siblings, aunts, uncles, strangers, and just about anyone else who there was contact with, being unconscious caused much harm. It’s why today I simply don’t want to hurt anyone, but I still do because of the conditioning in place, however the intervals in between are much further apart than ever before. The unloving energy of “I” is at the core of being unconscious, it actually is what makes one unconscious, and just because you may want to be loving, it doesn’t mean you will be, especially if there’s much unloving conditioning in place. Waking up doesn’t make you perfect, what it does do is it gives you the awareness of your “I” imperfections in place and when one is aware of the harm “I” can cause, letting go of “I” imperfections naturally occurs, one perfect imperfection at a time.

Love Energy

How energy transforms is as there’s less thoughts of “I” love naturally arises and as this occurs what’s left is the newness of each moment instead of the familiar view of “I” that only produces suffering.

When I was twenty five years old my oldest brother passed away from an aorta hemorrhage brought on by cocaine abuse. This was the catalyst that forced my parents to make me look at my own addicted behavior. Not that I did this willing because one of the mechanisms of the Conditioned Mind is to keep you entrapped to the familiar even if it’s causing your own destruction. I know it’s why my behavior was self destructive because the mind loves to default to what’s familiar. Living life without my coping mechanisms was scary, I wasn’t about to give them up quietly. It took me two years to finally say to myself enough. At the time I thought this was the end of my suffering, but it turned out to be only the beginning. Although alcohol and drugs were no longer being used as coping mechanisms, with the attachment to “I” firmly in place, other things were reached for instead. I was very focused on getting my life together and that’s what become the next fix.

There’s nothing inherently wrong with doing things to improve the quality of life, but I found that even with life exactly how I thought it should be, the Conditioned Mind is never satisfied; it’s default setting of “I” always wants and this makes the next fix conditioning just about impossible to break. This becomes a very familiar habitual behavior pattern and it makes life difficult because it locks in the energy of “I” as an anchor that one lives by. To view life through this “I” energy kept me constantly locked into thoughts about fulfilling selfish desires. For me these manifested as gambling, lust, greed, anger, envy, jealousy false pride, and much more, and although these produced different outward behavior, the core “I” created a common suffering. When I began to see this and needing the next fix energy began to subside, the suffering associated with this familiar mindset also lessened; this is how energy transforms. As there’s less thoughts of “I” love naturally arises and the only thing left is the newness of each moment instead of the view that only produces suffering.

Love: Absent of "I"

When a person seemingly has an inability to love, it’s because for whatever reason an attachment to “I” is in place. When “I” is let go of, love naturally arises.

Growing up I wasn’t very athletic nor was my ability to learn conducive to a classroom or group setting. There wasn’t much awareness of this at the time so my growing up was a constant struggle. I was looked at as a problem kid in school because of this lack of understanding by teachers. I became the class clown who was always looking for attention. I had parents who loved me and also friends who loved me, my problem was I didn’t know how to love me, hence the reason why I used things outside myself as escape mechanisms. What I was escaping from was being with myself, but as the saying goes, you can run, but you can’t hide.

I used alcohol at first and was a black out drinker from early on in my life, but I would also use drugs to the same level. There was so much confusion and it kept me on the merry go round of constantly needing to alter the way that I felt. I was only a child, but most adults in my life were just as clueless as me, only one teacher saw through the facade I had in place.

This inability to love was there because of the attachment to I, but it took me forty nine years to learn this. My dad bought a restaurant and bar when I was seventeen and it enabled me for ten years. From the age of seventeen to twenty six I was high on some kind of substance; there was no way I could ever face the day without ingesting something. I wasn’t a bad kid, I just didn’t know how to love. The friends I had growing up were pushed away because I only had time to fulfill my needs. I began stealing from the restaurant to satisfy my cravings, you see there was only room for me in my life and I would justify anything I did. I would go to any extreme to fulfill these cravings regardless of who got hurt. The sad fact of this is many people are like this today, some to this extreme and some milder, but until this is acknowledged as the way one is, change simply is not possible.

Never Satisfied

Unconsciousness doesn’t excuse one from the way that they act as one is always accountable for their actions, but who can cast the first stone and hold one responsible for acting the only way possible.

A dear friend of mine suggested that I share more stories about how I was before my so called awakening. My hope is that this sharing is found to be useful. One of the stories that stands out for me, explaining just how self destructive I was, is my prom. I got so drunk that I recall very little of what happened that night. The problem with self destructive behavior is it’s selfish with little regard for others; I never even thought about how my behavior affected my date as it was also her prom. Forget what I did to myself, those around me suffered just as much or maybe even more than me because of this selfishness. We truly hurt the one’s who love us the most when we alone are the center of our Universe (attachment to I).

Years ago I attended a friends weddings where some of us at the table took a hit of acid, I took two (I had to). Needless to say we all got thrown out of the wedding. I’m not writing any of this to condone what happened, I’m just trying to show I’m no different than anyone else. We all have our stories, but it’s how we use them to possibly helps other that’s important, but only important to a degree.

Behavior of this manner doesn’t allow you to form relationships with others and I can’t even begin to touch upon the people especially women that were affected by this conditioning. I always had a certain charisma when it came to women, but since I was selfish they were only seen as notches on my belt. There were a lot of notches because no matter who I was with, there was never satisfaction. This is only to show I was caught in the grip of always reaching for the next fix and this was without any awareness whatsoever that this is how it had to be.

Self Destructive Behavior

When it’s realized how often the same behavior patterns are repeated over and over even to the point of one’s own destruction, it is then that those patterns have the possibility of being changed.

I didn’t always have the view of life that I have today, for forty nine years it was much different mostly because there wasn’t much trial and error growing up, it was mostly error; error in the sense of my behavior being self destructive. As far back as I can remember this self destructive behavior was in place, and as I got more access to destructive things such as alcohol, drugs, and gambling to name a few, my self destructive behavior became more frequent; and unfortunately more destructive. It began as far back as kindergarten when for whatever reason I remember cutting the girls hair who sat in front of me. I have no idea why this was done, but this was the beginning of mind patterns of doing things without any thought whatsoever as to what the consequences would be.

I seemed to always have more brashness than brains, which is a major part of destructive behavior. I always did more than what everyone around me did. If they bet $20 on a horse, I bet $100. If they drank a half pint of rum, I drank a pint. This pattern which caused me a lot of problems, went on for many years, but it wasn’t done because I was trying to out do anybody, it was just the “always needing more” attitude that was in place. It’s not always easy to see where my writings come from because my past isn’t discussed much, but as destructive as my behavior was, I am alive today to share it with others. The list is endless of the self destructive things I did; bet and lose twelve basketballs in a row and my answer to that was to bet another game. When I stopped using the obvious self destructive tools at the age of twenty eight, the only thing that really changed was the self destructive tools became much more subtle. This changed totally for me at the age of forty nine. My writings will be focused on content like this for a few days so those who read my articles can get a better understanding of what inspires me to write as I do.

Past to Present Labels

When the Conditioned Mind is in control, you will have to make up story after story because all you can do is reach into the baggage you are carrying around that’s filled with labels from the past.

Every thought that arises is given a label from some past experience that’s being held onto. Think of the labels that are put on things including people, they’re all derived from some past experience brought into the present. It’s like carrying around different bags for each thought that arises and these bags are filled with memories, descriptions, judgements and what not. Parents, family in general, co workers (all associations for that matter), food, entertainment, music, alcohol, God, religion and on and on, everything that arises in the present moment has already been labeled by something from the past. So how objective are we really when it comes to being open minded? How much truth can be known if there are already labels in place? This is why sitting is so valuable, it allows space before a label is applied.

Right now wherever you are think of someone you know that isn’t with you. Do you not already have a label for them? Where does it come from? It comes from one of your bags from the past. It’s something that’s being carried around so the label of what is being thought of is already there, but it’s only there because of carrying around the past. Something not known isn’t labeled because there’s no past attached to it. To not carry around baggage from the past is to be in a place of open mindedness, a place of non judgement. This is a place where the stories of the Conditioned Mind aren’t needed. If there isn’t some form of discipline being used to allow the mind to settle, you can just resign yourself to the fact that your mind is in control and you will have to make up story after story because all you can do is reach into the bags you are carrying around that are filled with labels from the past.

Accumulative Energy

If we didn’t carry the burdens of past moments into the present, our accumulative energy would never form burdens and we would be free to live life as it actually occurred.

Most of the so called problems that occur in life are due to making things cumulative. I always carried past moments into the present and never understood this until I was at work one day. I work twelve hour shifts and we were working a lot of overtime, this particular week I was on my fifth day in a row. I was talking to one of my shift mates when he asked me if I was tired because of this being my fifth day of work in a row. As I began to answer him, the thought that popped into my head was “What does the previous four days of work have to do with today.” As I thought about this, I saw how so much of the burdens that I carried around for most of my life were strictly formed from not understanding how not to make the events of my life cumulative. It’s a skill that eluded me and made life more burdensome than was necessary.

Imagine a life without the cumulative affect; it can become a reality with practice. Life would be like water running off a ducks back. Things would never accumulate and become an issue. These accumulations are the very thing that makes life feel like it’s a burden. If it was learned to truly live in the moment and not carry the burdens of past into the present, our cumulative burdens would never materialize and we would be free to be with what arises. Life can be happy, joyous, and free without difficulties if there was the understanding that it is one continuous journey and the past moments have nothing to do with the present. Don’t carry around and accumulate the events of the past and you won’t be weighed down by your self-created burdens; this is when life will be truly lived.

A Place of Love

Our human form is used to experience life so we should never deny our humanness, but non attachment to it is the key if one is to truly experience living from a place of love.

When life begins there aren’t any blocks developed to our place of love. Slowly though as we age we develop these block by attaching an identity to our human form. Our human form is how we experience life so we should never deny our humanness, but non attachment to it is key to truly experiencing our place of love. The more thought that’s applied to our humanness, the less in touch we are with this place. What exactly are these blocks? It would be easy to say “that’s just the way I am” but no one is just the way they are, we are all influenced and conditioned to become the way we are. It’s nice to say things like our true essence is to love, but with all the tragic behavior that goes on day in and day out, it’s really difficult to see our true essence as anything but insanity.

Many people go around forcing their will on others and it’s done so in the name of love, but our place of love never forces anything, it doesn’t need to. The conditioning to the identity of self goes very deep and why this is so is because it’s the foundation of most human forms. It’s why people reach outside themselves for fulfillment; all to satisfy self. This is the only block one will encounter to their place of love and until there’s awareness of this, one will never truly understand love. I’m not saying people don’t love, but there’s a lot of selfish attachment to the way most people love and until the mind settles, the Conditioned Mind will remain in control and living from a place of love will be difficult at best. So sit and be still and you just may see how it’s only in this moment that a place of love can truly be.

Touching Hearts
One of life’s greatest gifts is when we touch another heart because this energy not only touches one heart it touches many hearts, and it’s this transforming energy that makes a real difference. What does it matter if you gain the whole world but in the process you lose yourself. What happens if this occurs is by losing yourself you lose your connection to others and without this connection, one’s connection to life is lost; you could be a billionaire, but you would still be lost. A person cannot truly live without a connection to others, they can only exist. There’s a touching of every heart when one is connected, this is the energy of unconditional love; to give freely with no attached expectations. One of the greatest gifts bestowed upon a person is touching another heart and making a difference in a person’s life; no material possession can compare to this. This doesn’t mean you will automatically be touched back, but if someone is truly touched by you to the core of their heart, their transformation has begun, there will be transforming energy emitted and one will never be as they previously were. Touching another’s heart and making a difference in their life is a gift bestowed upon a person because it opens one to the energy of a fulfillment that only comes from the connection to another heart. This energy is not a doing of the human will trying to attain something, it’s a love that’s not truly understood, but it’s so freely given that it has to be shared. Love’s energy transforms hearts so when you give love and someone is touched, it makes their life different and their transforming energy of love is returned to you. This is why and how it becomes one of life’s greatest gift because it not only touches one heart, it touches many hearts and this transforming energy truly makes a difference.
Mindfully Present
A peaceful life begins and ends right now. You can be mindful that you're thinking about the past or future, but you will never actually be there and as long you’re thinking about it, peace will be eluded.
When mindfulness of the present is in place, it allows what’s actually happening to be experienced. Being mindful of Now as opposed to being pulled in by it or pushing it away and applying a label to what's happening is what will dictate the amount of peace there is in your life. Life is mystical in its essence, but there's nothing mystical about becoming aware of this. A peaceful life begins and ends in the present moment and being mindfully present provides what’s necessary to allow this.
Take a step, be mindful of it, now take another, be mindful, this is an anchor as is the breath to the present. One can not be mindfully present of something in the past or future. You can be mindful that you're thinking about something in the past or future, but you can never actually be there. Every step you take or breath can only be taken as it is happening. The more there is mindfulness of this, the more anchored one becomes of the body being in the present moment as opposed to grasping for straws in the story of what's going on between your ears. Be mindfully present as you read this and watch what arises, just be with it, no pulling or pushing it, just be mindfully present of your reaction. It’s in this space of mindfulness that you will find peace and this is because this space is the only place that truly exist.


I Emotions
I Emotions: Emotions arise when there's attachment to I not to something that occurs, and as long as I is in control, the roller coaster of emotions will continue to take you for a ride... No emotion arises by itself, there has to be the reaction of I to something that occurs. There are many different emotions that do arise, but at the core root of them all is I and this has to be realized to best get a handle on them when they do arise. Emotions arise when there's an attachment to I, not to something that occurs. Nothing inherently makes an emotion arise, there has to be a personal attachment to something. Emotions only arise as I assigns meaning to something. There isn't much emotion when you hear of a stranger dying, but attach the word Mother, Father, sister, brother, and so on to it and just watch the emotional onslaught and this is because I is who attaches. Emotions simply do not exist until one attaches I to what occurs, this is what gives the emotion energy. Example: anger is only a word until one attaches "I don’t like what was done" to it, then look out because depending on how deeply I is attached determines the level of anger. Same thing with happiness, something happens and now I attaches pleasure (like) to it and therein lies the emotion of happiness. Here are just some emotions that can arise, fear, anger, sadness, joy, disgust, trust, happiness, to name a few, watch for yourself when these arise and see where their root is from. With awareness of this you should be able to get a better grip on just how the Conditioned Mind keeps you under its control by weighing you down to the deeply embedded attachment of I as an anchor.
The Slightest Push

The initial awakening can be compared to a stone on top of a mountain. The slightest push gets it rolling, and it will just keep on building momentum until something (conditioning) gets in the way to stop it.

Once a stone that’s sitting at the top of a mountain is given the slightest push, it naturally begins rolling in the only direction it can go and its momentum builds without one ounce of effort. It does take some effort in the beginning to get it going, but not much more than the slightest push. It’s this way when one wakes up from the sleep of unconsciousness. There’s not much that needs to be done for one’s awakening to expand, as a matter of fact most people don’t fully awaken because of trying to hard. If you are awake the slightest push has already occurred so all effort is now futile. So many books, programs, videos, and whatnot and although they make one more knowledgeable, none of it makes one anymore awake than the first push. “Knowing all about the apple doesn’t make it taste better”

This is one of the reasons I emphasis using the body as an anchor in the awakening process because this doesn’t take effort, it only takes being with what is here, which is the present moment. All kinds of stories can be made up about what needs to be done, but it doesn’t expand the push one bit. Either you are awake in the quietness of the present moment or you are unconscious in the noise of somewhere else. The slightest push reveals this truth, and as with the stone, nothing else is needed than the slightest push to get it rolling, and it will just keep on building momentum until something (your conditioning) gets in the way to stop it.

Reliable Tools

Looking within to see if the tools you have in place are reliable allows you to love yourself unconditionally and thus love all beings. The key here is love because that’s what a truly reliable tool produces.

For years I used tools that I considered reliable to my well being, but after forty nine years of using them I found myself at such a low point and I wasn’t sure if I was going to pull out of it. There was much confusion and despair at this time and the insanity is my own mind developed these supposedly reliable tools that brought me to this place. I know not many get to this place of total despair so it’s difficult to understand how low I was, but I was fortunate beyond words and I will tell you why. When I was twenty eight years old there were ten of us still hanging in a bar in Newark, all of us were using alcohol as a reliable tool to cope with life, or do we thought. Out of those ten individuals, eight are no longer alive. What’s tragic about this is the tools that each of us considered reliable to live life is what was causing of our own demise. Think about how insane this is and how often this is repeated today; insanity to say the least.

When I look back at what I thought were reliable tools to live by, I see nothing but insanity. I alone although not intentional, caused all my own suffering by having these tools in place. Now you may not think this applies to you, but every negative thought one ever has comes from within themselves. It may have been put there by some outer influence, but it was attached to by you as reliable which gave it energy to arise. Negative and positive are not my thing, my experiences have been more in line with quietness as a reliable tool to live by, but as stated earlier it wasn’t always this way. To me the question to ask yourself if you can muster up the courage to do so is, are you willing to face yourself to see if the tools you have in place are truly reliable to allow you to love yourself unconditionally and thus love all beings. The key here is love because that’s what a truly reliable tool produces.

Mind Agitation in Place

It does seem like what occurs in life causes the arising mind agitations, but this just isn’t so. The agitations that arise are already in place, if they weren’t there’s no way they could ever arise.

You will only react to life’s arising mind agitations with what conditioning you have in place. Something like anger arises because it has been put there, this also goes for fear, greed, hate, and so on. For me there was constant reacting for years which kept me locked into my mind agitations without any awareness that the only reason they were arising was because they were put in place. To simplify this, when something occurred that I didn’t like regardless if it was what someone said or did or if it was something that happened, a mind agitation arose and there was an automatic reaction. This occurred without my permission or knowledge as to why this was so. What arose was whatever my conditioning cultivated as appropriate. The only reason this happened is because the reaction was already there laying in wait: like a tiger waiting to pounce on its unsuspecting prey.

Understanding these mind agitations is where there is power in knowledge. If why an agitation arises isn’t understood, there will be very little true periods where the agitation isn’t in control. Through awareness of what’s arising (thoughts), one has something tangible to use to go beyond the mind agitations. Why most people remain as they are and repeat the same reactions over and over is because of being uninformed as to why this happens. To me this knowledge has immense value because when it’s seen one can truly decipher whether what’s in place is beneficial or not. It is then that a course of action can be developed to change whatever’s in place that’s causing the non beneficial agitation to be in control.

No Real Void

When you reach for something to fill a void, it’s used as a protection technique so you don’t have to look inward. The greatest lie you will ever tell yourself is you need something to be complete…

Constantly reaching for things on the outside keeps one in the grip of the need to fill a void, but it’s the reaching itself that actually keeps the void in place regardless of how often it’s filled. The reason why anyone reaches for anything is to try and fill a void, but the reaching itself is what keeps the reaching in place, thus the void always remains; this is the dog chasing its tail syndrome. Only by looking inward does the void begin to filled, but what really happens is it simply collapses because the outside hold weakens. Years of conditioning makes the void almost impossible to fill and it’s unfortunate because many never get beyond it; I did say almost impossible because the slightest turning inward is all that’s needed. Once reaching ceases because its lies are revealed, looking inward becomes the technique of choice. This has a snow ball rolling down a hill effect as looking inward naturally picks up momentum.

Reaching to fill a void is used as a protection technique so one doesn’t have to go inward. The greatest lie that you will tell yourself and constantly reinforce it is you need something to be complete, but there’s nothing further from the truth. Everyone begins existence complete, it’s just that not many really know this, hence the need to reach. Whether it’s known or not most people have a sense of lack in their lives so the reaching seems natural, but it’s not. We’re not meant to have a void and it’s only so because of the conditioning we develop. Once the slightest inkling of this occurs, everything changes because the inward view reveals truth, and although we live a lie for most of our lives, when truth is revealed the void vanishes as needing to fill it falls away.

The Fear Illusion

The illusion that the past or future is a better place then what’s occurring right now creates fear of the present. This fear manifest as needing to reach for something because of the illusion of incompleteness.

This is my understanding of how a person becomes conditioned to create fear throughout their life without permission. It’s because we use the past and future which is done so because of the created fear of the present moment; this fear is created by the Conditioned Mind (our ego). When we understand we are complete just as we are and nothing added will ever make us more complete, we stop being controlled by fear and using the past and future as a means for our fulfillment. The illusion created is we need something for our completeness, whether it’s an object, a created purpose, or whatever else our Conditioned Mind conjures up, and we’re led to believe by s fear based mind that it will be found in the past or future. When one is present, there’s nothing needed so the fear ends because there’s the realization you are complete; in stillness is our completeness because in stillness we are present. The illusion that the past or future is a better place then now creates our fear and in the process our incompleteness.

One’s created fear is dependent on the way Conditioned Mind Patterns rule our life. The more controlled a person is by these Mind Patterns, the more fear is generated and the more there will be a need to reach for something that isn’t conducive to one’s spiritual well being (love). Learn to change the conditioning so there isn’t any fear created and you will always be filled with love, which is the essence of stillness. The fear doesn’t have to be there, but that’s dependent on how much one practices living by principles that allow you to be filled and guided by love instead of constantly living in and being guided by the fear of the past and future.

Aligning With Life

If one acts in ways that doesn’t allow there to be cooperation with life, for it to change it’s imperative to know why this is so. Knowing your own mind and doing things that align you with life is what allows this to change.

Observe how the unconscious mind justifies everything it does. A mind that has never developed discipline to be still creates most of its own problems just so it has something to do. The undisciplined mind says to do something and turns around and questions why it was done. It should be treated like it’s a separate entity and as if it’s an enemy because upon further review it will be seen in a way it is, but it’s not the mind that’s an enemy, it’s the conditioning of I, that is the true enemy.

This I isn’t the true nature of the mind, it’s only conditioned to be this way and it’s we ourselves consciously or unconsciously who put the I based habitual mind patterns in place. Getting to know your own mind is a way to stop doing what we ourselves put in place. This knowing is not about the great secrets of the Universe becoming known, it’s more so about getting an understanding of what are the things done that don’t allow cooperation with life. When this becomes known, why one responds to things as they do will be revealed as the mind settles. After all if one doesn’t do the things in their life that allows cooperation with it, it should at least be known it doesn’t have to be this way.

Trying to Fix Yourself

A mind that doesn’t love can’t fix itself with self help methods. Only through the quietness of the heart can one be set free from the bondage of self that holds the mind in captivity to trying to fix itself.

A do it your self help mentality to a better life is like having an atlas of maps for a different trip then what is being planned. The atlas in hand has its purpose, but its usefulness is limited as it will never get you to your destination. Its not that there isn’t value in the atlas, but it becomes useless if you’re not traveling to where the maps in the atlas are pointing to. Do not many of the self help methods produce these same useless results? We are constantly trying to arrange life, thinking we can fix ourselves by trying to fill an inner void with all kinds of things (maps) from the outside, and regardless of the fix, the void never gets filled. This is not some theory I made up, it’s factual and this is what happened to me. Just look around and see how the world is full of people doing this same exact thing (reaching) and if you’re honest with yourself you’re probably doing it too.

Think of this, the mind that creates the need for self help is the same mind that’s going to be used to fix it. Is this plausible? If this mind didn’t create problems to begin with, the need for self help wouldn’t be required. It’s like changing a flat tire and putting the same flat tire back on and expecting it to be repaired. Something that’s broke cannot be used to repair itself. It would take a miracle for this to happen, if one wants to rely on miracles, so be it.

The mind that tells you to do something is the same mind that questions why it was done and this is the mind that self help relies on. It’s no wonder we humans are in the state that we’re in. Humans have created the way the world is and the same humans are trying to fix it and get this, with the same mind that made the world the way it is. A mind that is broken cannot fix itself, if it could it wouldn’t have a need to be repaired to begin with. Just sayin.

Learning to Love

Love is measured by the way a person behaves and by the way a person treats other people. It’s impossible to act selfishly or in a self serving manner if the base of your life is to love.

It’s often said that love is the true nature of life, but that doesn’t mean it will be the base of every life. Look at some people like, Adolf Hitler, Charles Manson, and Ted Bundy to name a few, ask their victims family if love was their true nature. Even myself prior to waking up, but not to that degree. I was very selfish, and most of my decisions made were to satisfy myself. It’s not this way today because I learned the valuable lesson of what it means to love thy neighbor as thy self and I truly don’t want to hurt anyone today, including myself. Love emanates as behavior and it can be measured by the way people treat each other. It’s impossible to act selfishly or self serving if the base of one’s life is to love.

I’ll use a story about my daughter to illustrate how I began to love. About nine years ago I was taking her on an overnight stay to a friends at the Jersey Shore. Thirty miles into the trip she told me she forgot here bedding. When the anger arose as it always had when things didn’t go my way, the one thing that stuck out more than anything was I didn’t want to hurt my daughter; I also knew if I hurt her I would be hurting me. So because of this awareness there wasn’t the normal yelling, we just turned around and headed back home to get her bedding. When I didn’t react in anger, I knew my view of life was different and I knew the difference was I was learning how to love. When you can truly be with life as it is and accept yourself blemishes and all, you will know you are truly on a road not only less travelled, but one that leads to loving thy neighbor as thy self.

Blind Reactions

No reaction occurs randomly. If the conditioning in place that allows the reaction to arise isn’t understood, one will blindly react to situations as if they were a puppet on a string.

Understanding the conditioning in place is what allows one to understand what’s truly going on in their life. It’s very difficult to know what is real and what isn’t, but it’s not all that difficult to understand the conditioning that make you react to life as you do. Most people are led around blindly without understanding their reactions and this is the reason it’s nearly impossible to break free from the Conditioned Mind; we get stuck in the same energy patterns. If something has you in its grip, if you don’t understand the conditioning in place that causes this, you will not have the resolve or awareness to break free from it. The unawareness of this conditioning makes one pursue things that are not beneficial to your own well being, and as stated before this is strictly because the conditioning in place will not allow it.

No one reacts randomly. Reactions manifest in the way that they do because it’s what’s in place, you can only get apples from an apple tree. Certain Universal Laws are in affect throughout life and regardless if the reactions associated with them are wanted or not, they will arise depending on the deep seeded conditioning that’s in control. If the conditioning in place makes one see things from any place other than love this will cause problems. This is exactly why the world is as it is because the conditioning in place makes people act as they do. Until the conditioning changes that makes it this way, one will continue to react as they do even though the reactions may not truly be beneficial.

Self Investigation

Self investigation takes more courage than most people will ever exhibit. This is because the conditioning in place doesn’t allow it and until life isn’t all about you anymore, your conditioning prevails.

More and more I’m amazed at the things that people hold onto with the emphasis totally on satisfying self. There is little or no consideration for anyone else and it’s strictly from a me, me, me, mind. I know it’s because they know not what they do, but the suffering this causes and how it anchors the conditioning in place can be truly discouraging. Notice I said can be discouraging because if one is truly awake, there’s the understanding that the way things are is the way things are and wanting them different also anchors the conditioning in place. I’m writing about this because the conditioning in place is heartbreaking, when you have answers and they are ignored by most, it’s like having a cure for cancer, but nobody will listen. Without going into specifics, the conditioned unconsciousness runs so deep that people will justify doing all kinds of self destructive behavior without blinking an eye; drugs, alcohol, gambling, porn, rioting, protesting, total defiance for any authority, murder, rape, assault, and robbery and this is only the tip of the Conditioned Mind iceberg. Here is my understanding of why this is, it’s much easier because of the way one is conditioned to justify self destructive behavior than to look inward. True self investigation takes more courage than most people will ever exhibit, not because they can’t, but because the conditioning in place doesn’t allow it.

I offer to talk to people all the time to possibly assist in the waking up process because the conditioning in place keeps one as a dog chasing its own tail as all kinds of excuses are made not to connect. I get it, but it doesn’t make it any easier to watch people suffering when there’s a way out. The insanity of this is people would rather remain in their suffering then to go beyond it, which is truly heartbreaking. I don’t say this because I’m a know it all, but I have been released somewhat from the grip of the Conditioned Mind and was provided answers that are shared strictly from experience. And how I know that I’ve truly broken free from the Conditioned Mind is because life just isn’t all about me anymore.

Pleasure Perception

Until one can be with things as they are without seeking an escape that’s thought to provide pleasure, a made up perception will continue its control and unfortunately so will the suffering it causes.

Even though certain thoughts arise that are perceived as truth, it doesn’t mean they have anything to do with truth. They may be perceived as what is thought to be truth, but if you look into it deeper it’s probably just a made up story providing you with the way you think things are needed for pleasure. Don’t we use the story of helping others in this way, it’s really used to kind of pat ourselves on the back because we make up the story that helping others is good, and we get pleasure out of anything we label as good. We use God in the same way, it’s strictly used to provide pleasure, nothing more; like there’s really something out there that really cares about what a person does. All these made up stories block one from really seeing the underlying true nature of what is. Truth as it is with love needs no story, and if a story is being used to formulate a perception of what truth is thought to be, I guarantee you it’s not truth, it’s only your perception.

Truth is not something to know. It can’t be defined correctly with words because it’s only seen when the mind is settled. When you judge someone regardless of what they do, you are applying a perception of truth of how you think they should be acting. This is the same with life situations, and these perceptions are only there to provide yourself with the pleasure of the way you think things should be. Life and the people in it are always as it is and until one can just be with things in that capacity instead of always wanting them in a way that provides pleasure, truth will never be experienced. Hence your made up perception of truth will continue its control and unfortunately so will the suffering it causes.

Truth Uncovered

When truth is uncovered, no longer is the mind blindly listened to because it’s understood you shouldn’t believe everything your mind tells you because most of the time it just isn’t true.

Don’t believe everything your mind tells you because it will tell you things that just aren’t true. It will tell you the past is real yet the past doesn’t truly exist. It will tell you to fear, yet the only thing you have to fear is fear itself. It will tell you to hold onto the belief that there’s a self that’s a solid entity, but the form that’s being occupied needs no such attachment to exist as it’s constantly changing. It will also tell you I think therefore I am, but thinking has nothing to do with I am. It will make up beliefs that everything desired on the outside is needed, but if none of those desires come to pass, life simply goes on. Even if the desires do get fulfilled, the satisfaction is fleeting at best. This thing called mind (ego) can never be grabbed, it’s like the bogeyman under the bed, it exist until one looks under the bed. There’s also not a need to get rid of it because it doesn’t truly exist, except in the mind.

There’s the image in the mirror who was given a label for identification purposes, we think we are that label. If the label is different we think we are someone else, but that’s only to the mind because the form remains the same. There will be many lies held onto that just aren’t true, but unfortunately the more those lies are attached to, the truer they seem. To truly be free, the lies will have to be uncovered, this doesn’t mean you find out you don’t exist, you just find out you just don’t exist in the way your ego tells you. When this truth is uncovered, no longer does one listen to the mind because it’s understood, you shouldn’t believe everything it tells you because it just isn’t so.

The Thought to Reach

When the need to reach for something arises it’s because the mind is in bondage to the reaching thought. Until this is seen, one will remain in bondage to the thought that fulfillment is in the next thing reached for.

You will never find the fulfillment you’re seeking if you’re in bondage to the thought of being fulfilled. Fulfillment is something that’s already within everyone, but because of the way our minds are conditioned, we get bound up in our thoughts that fulfillment is something outside of us. Unfortunately this bondage makes the very fulfillment we are seeking impossible to grasp. This bondage is the reason one is constantly reaching for something from the outside and until this is seen one remains bound to the thought that fulfillment is in the next thing reached for. Alcohol, gambling, drugs, sex, social status, programs, therapy, self help books and on and on, this reaching is proof that one is in bondage, is it not? I can’t stress this enough as this bondage to your thoughts has to be seen if one is to experience true fulfillment in their life.

It’s impossible to think your way to fulfillment, but what does have to happen if fulfillment is to be experienced is there has to be an understanding of why you’re not fulfilled; that one isn’t fulfilled is only because of the inability to just be. When the need to reach for something arises, the bondage to the reaching thought begins. This bondage is a vicious cycle that’s very difficult to break free from. Fulfillment isn’t something attained or achieved so it’s in doing less that one is fulfilled. To many people get lost in trying to find fulfillment, but since it’s something that’s already within, the binding thought about finding fulfillment needs to be discarded so you can see. This is not easy to grasp, but it’s why I write. Understand though, I don’t write to help anyone find fulfillment, I simply write so the bondage of our thoughts can be seen for what it is; the reason why there isn’t fulfillment.

Forgiveness Story

If you truly loved yourself wounds that need healing would never be produced and because you can only do what you are conditioned to do, there wouldn’t be a need for a forgiveness story.

This article is on the topic of forgiveness. To me the biggest misconception of this word is people think its needed and that’s where the problem lies. If you understood your own mind, you would understand this. I ask you, is forgiveness real or is it just a story created by your Conditioned Mind to hold you in captivity to the wounds of the past? Wounds that are held onto which are only there because they’re created by the lack of self love, and because of this lack these wounds aren’t allowed to heal. It all stems from not allowing yourself to truly love who you are. You think the past should be different, if you didn’t there wouldn’t be the need to forgive. We all can only do what we are conditioned to do, if this truth was seen where would there be a need for forgiveness? And if it isn’t true then why do you do what you don’t want to do and don’t do what’s in your heart? So do what you do and if you don’t like what you do, learn to stop doing it so you can do something different.

If you understand the Conditioned Mind and you are aware of the control it has over you, you will see there is no need for forgiveness because you and others behave in the way your own mind tells you to behave. So where is the need to forgive if you are just doing what you have been conditioned to do? Understand this, it’s your own mind that tells you what to do, and the same mind makes up the story that what it told you to do now needs to forgive. Who behaves and who forgives? It is one in the same. So my question is, is the need for forgiveness real or is it just a story? If you truly loved yourself your wounds would have never been produced so there wouldn’t be a need for healing and because now you understand that you just did what you were conditioned to do there isn’t a need to forgive.

Limiting Results

No perspective is wrong, but if you only have one way of seeing things it does limit your view of life and in the process it doesn’t allow you to have any other result except from that perspective.

Changing views is what makes life different, it doesn’t make what happens in life different, it only makes the way something is seen different. If you’re locked into a certain view, this only allows one way of seeing things. To me the more one’s view is based in the intellect the harder it will be for there to be a shift in perspective to see things another way. Not that there’s anything inherently wrong with the intellect, it just doesn’t allow for much space. When one sees things from a view of only one way, it limits their entire life to that one view. Most times this view isn’t even one’s own, it’s formed from someone else; their opinion, teaching, book, video, belief, idea, or philosophy.

To be fixated on one way of seeing things keeps you entrapped to the results of that way; think about how limiting that is. No possibility of other views, always going down the same path, never allowing anything new, this is so limiting, and unfortunately with only seeing things one way how limiting this is will not be seen. Sitting and developing discipline allows a one sided view to fall away and it also assist in the possibility of altering the current view; this is very important is one is to even have an inkling there’s another way to see things. It’s not that your way is wrong, it’s just that having only one way to see things limits your view of what occurs in life and in the process it doesn’t allow any other results except those from the one view; very limiting indeed.

Shelter From the Storm

Existence is based in the energy of love, but this energy is not a preventer of tragedies. It’s simply a place to dwell to get shelter from the so called life storms, and they will come, but one doesn’t have to be overcome by them.

Our world is one of tragedy and pain just as it’s of joy and fulfillment. An omnipresence is what’s common regardless of what happens, but we cannot escape the tragedies of life. Our beliefs or our faith do not make us immune to them. We were never promised that life would be without tragedies, but there’s an omnipresence that’s there no matter what we face. Someone once wrote that “Peace does not come with the absence of troubles, but with the conscious realization of adequate resources.” The omnipresence is the supplier of all the resources we need to get through life’s tragedies. Jesus said, “In this world you have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.” He went to the Father often, the omnipresence of his place to dwell.

All our victories belong to the power of love. Many came to bring us this message. Something abides beyond the tragedies and it’s the omnipresence of love. This is the place to dwell for without it we are left to deal with the tragedies with our own created devices. One’s entire existence is based on love, and it’s this awareness that makes us realize we are always on Holy Ground. To understand this there has to be an understanding that there’s a power greater than ourselves, an omnipresence that provides us with the resources we need. Without this understanding it will be difficult to get through life’s tragedies so one can find shelter and walk in the light of our Divine nature.

Nobody Watching Honesty

Nobody watching honesty means what you do when nobody is looking is the same as what you do when someone is watching. If this isn’t the level of your honesty, it’s because there’s a lack of self awareness.

One way to alleviate suffering is to develop honesty with yourself. Here’s a definition of honesty “the quality of being truthful” to me this is strictly about being true to yourself because when I’m true to me, there’s no way I can’t be true to you. I’ve learned a lot about self honesty in the last ten years and it’s something that eluded me for most of my life. Honesty isn’t about what is shown to the world, it’s about what is done when no one is watching. The world is easily fooled because of the conditioning in place; what does it matter if one gains the whole world, but loses themselves.

Honesty is a huge hurdle in breaking the chains of the Conditioned Mind, without it truth cannot be revealed. If I don’t know what blocks me from being honest with myself, the blocks will remain. Without establishing what I call “nobody watching honesty” one remains stuck in their old habits because there’s no room for anything new. Certain things trigger certain thoughts and if those thoughts are attached to it’s usually because self honesty has been compromised. Although there’s no right or wrong in this, this does make someone act in ways as if nobody’s watching which they wouldn’t necessarily do if someone was watching.

To thine own self be true because it’s only yourself that keeps you in bondage. This self honestly is tied in with loving yourself; when you’re honest with yourself, you’re truly loving yourself because you’re making room for the mind to expand. This allows for the honesty to do what you do when no one is watching just as you would in front of others. Difficult yes, but only because nobody watching honesty isn’t what’s in place.

A Quiet Mind Sees

Truth is seen when the mind becomes quiet. The thought of truth which is noise, is a created distraction that blocks you from seeing beyond the story that’s conjured up in your head.

If you want to know what truth is, a quiet mind will have to be at the base of where life is lived from. Anything else is just a distraction that keep one’s mind from settling and thus it keeps one from truth. There is never a story attached to truth. How can there be, when the story is but a distraction? Life isn’t truly about anything in particular, the Conditioned Mind will make it about something and with a quiet mind this will be seen. It’s probably the only way it will be seen because it’s the only way one’s created distractions will not block truth from arising. So what you see is what you see and if you think it’s truth it probably isn’t. This is because only when the mind is quiet beyond the thought of truth will one see the truth that sets you free.

If you follow the way of the world, it will be your master. There will be very little truth in your life because the distractions of the world will not allow your heart to open to the love of the Universe. There’s no way around this, until there’s some semblance of quietness in one’s life there will be very little truth. It’s pretty simple, conform to the worlds way and you will be enslaved to it, or learn to be quiet and you will see.

Making Room

As far as the mind is concerned, if the old isn’t cleared out there won’t be room for anything new to replace it, but it won’t happened until it’s seen there’s a need to replace the old.

From the time one begins their life in this form, the mind is constantly processing and storing information. The incessant mind never stops this storing process and constantly draws on its familiarity, but this leaves very little room for anything new to become known. One’s instilled foundation needs something close to a miracle to dislodge it, but when the mind does settle, it creates room and the world as it is known ceases to exist.

Think of it this way, when a room is to be redesigned in a house, the first thing that needs to be done is to clear it out so the new furniture can fit in where it’s wanted. If one has to work around the old furniture it would make placing the new furniture much more difficult, it wouldn’t fit properly and it probably wouldn’t match either. Matching the new with the old takes a skill that most people don’t naturally possess. This usually has to be taught., this is where the process of sitting helps to clear out the mind (the room). If this isn’t done, the mind, as it is with the room, will remain cluttered with the old. Although the new may be put in, it will not add any enhancement to the design of the room. After all, this is what we are doing, trying to enhance life. No one changes anything just to change it, it’s changed because a philosophy or a belief isn’t working any more, so clear out the old and make room for a redesigning that will allow in the new.

Unity

There's energy that separates and there"s energy that unites. If someone is adhering to the separating energy it is wise to not get pulled in and adhere to their problem.

Our delusions are not only of our own making, but how can we prevent being drawn into someone else's delusional world? Many people are in need of the awareness of how they live in their own created little world without any regard for others. Their unawareness affects everyone. Maybe they favor a select few, but this unawareness still affects everyone. Lets use an example of high school coaches; so many of these coaches make the sport about them and the children become a part of their delusional world. If they like you its ok because your child plays and if as a parent your child is playing your ok with this. But what if they don't like you, it affects everybody who in some way has any association with this kind of behavior, not just the person who isn't liked.

You may not think this is so but most teams that win have a cohesiveness to them that starts at the top. It is difficult to have unity as a team if it is not being applied by the top. Its the trickle down principle. This principle is for all of life, whether its at the high school level, the corporate level, or the professional level, this is even the principle in our homes, if there isn't unity, there isn't the cohesiveness that's necessary to be in harmony with life.

With this trickle down affect, the energy needed to produce unity becomes the individual energy of separation. There are many talented people in the world who adhere to this separating energy. It makes them think their talent makes them better and different than others. For us to get along as a society this unity principle will need to be understood by people who are in a position that involves being a leader of a group. If there is dissension among the ranks, it will trickle down to all of society. We are one energy, whether we believe this or not. A team will run like a well oiled machine when the people at the top understand why it is always better to do whats best for the unity of the entire group, instead of satisfying ones egos be making it a separate group of individuals. If this isn't done it is imperative that we don't get pull into this separating energy so we remain part of the solution to bring unity to all of life, instead of adhering to the energy of an individual that creates problems, by causing separation among the ranks.


Expansion of Love

Love is the true energy of life. It won’t be denied as its expansion is inevitable because it’s what we are made of. As our heart is unblocked and opens to love, love becomes the energy of existence.

Hate is far reaching and it doesn’t stop instantly when it’s energy source is taken away, but it does dissipate over time. Love is different, love keeps expanding even without its energy source. A perfect example of this is the love of Jesus; it is stronger today than the day it was written he was on earth. The energy of the love that was in his heart is what lives on, expands and generates more love. This is the nature of love, to expand. Hate doesn’t do this, not that it doesn’t grow, but when it’s source energy is taken away, the energy generated doesn’t expand, it wanes. People will hold on to its trace energy, but it becomes a pocket of hate that is isolated, as opposed to love which expands because it’s Universal.

Although Jesus’s made the ultimate sacrifice in spreading love, there are many others who have the same love in their hearts and are spreading it. Some of his followers got killed for spreading the love that was in their hearts and some dedicate their entire life to spreading love. The Buddha, Martin Luther King Jr. Mother Teresa, Gandhi, to name a few, but there are so many people unnamed people like you and me who spread the seeds of love as much as the heart is capable. Love is the energy of the Universe, it will not be denied.

All we can do, is what our heart is capable of. We all possess a fully capable heart of love, but because of our Conditioned Mind we fall short of reaching our full capacity. With practice our hearts will keep expanding and we’ll be the spreaders of love like those that came before us. We may be one unit on this planet, but it isn’t our love that we are spreading, it’s the love that came before us, which is the love of all creation. We are expanding on that love and no matter how much hate there was that came before us or is here now, it will never keep the energy of the love that’s in our hearts from expanding to our entire planet.

Surface Noise

When you think you have life all figured out, you are more disconnected than ever. One connects with life when the voice in the head stops and there is oneness with your own inner stillness.

I remember a time last summer as the sun was going down, I was on the beach looking out into the ocean. As I watched seagull after seagull dive into the ocean to grab another fish, it got me to wondering how there is a whole world beneath the surface of the ocean that really isn’t given much thought, that is until there is something that happens to get our attention. The seagull instinctively knows of this world because it doesn’t have all the noise going on in it’s head.

This reminded me of my own body and how I don’t really give much thought as to what is going on inside of me, that is until something happens to bring attention to it. Many of us are so conditioned to listen to the voice in our head that it is nearly impossible to get in touch with what is truly going on in our life. It’s the surface noise that blocks out our connection to our inner stillness, it will be beneath the surface of this noise that you will be exposed to a whole new world.

Inward Truth

If you’re not looking inward when questions arise, answers aren’t going to be revealed. You’ll just bounce around making up answers which only distract you from looking inward and revealing truth.

Truth is beautiful and when we look for our answers inward, the beauty of truth is revealed. This occurs naturally, we only need to inquiry within to discover this; this is the only way truth will be revealed. It has always been there, but unfortunately we have been conditioned to look in the wrong places or not look for it at all. Our outward conditioning justifies so much of our behavior and blocks truth from being known, that is until one looks within.

Lie to yourself, justify whatever it is you want to justify, but the sad truth of our society is most people’s existence isn’t based in truth. If you’re not looking inward for your answers, you are living a lie. Truth will only be discovered when it’s sought from within. Why most don’t look inward is because the Conditioned Mind tells you it’s not necessary, that you are doing okay with the way things are. Besides it’s much easier to point the finger at someone else, but the truth is people aren’t doing okay with the way things are and this is because most think their answers are outside of themselves.

Our politicians look outside, the judicial system looks outside, religion looks outside, the economist look outside, drug and alcohol counselors, psychologists, psychiatrist, and on and all look outside. There are no answers outside, there are only distractions to keep you from looking inward and getting real answers, and those answers when looked for inward are based in truth. Most people live the lie that their answers are outside and to look inward is unnecessary, know this truth and it will set you free, but only if you are looking inward.

A Limited View

When you say you feel a certain way, it’s strictly your own judgement of that moment that produces the label. The moment doesn’t make judgements, it only provides the setting for it to be labeled.

Through our senses we label each moment and those labels are constant. Everything is judged, even labeling a coffee cup on the counter is a judgment. Not a harmful one, but a judgment just the same. When it’s learned to not judge and apply a conditioned label, you will then become aware of the distractions that keep you from going beyond surface living. With this new awareness, your mind finally settles enough to notice the deeper view. This is the initial awareness, but it will require much more practice to go deeper still. The deeper one goes, the more the material world will be let go of because it will not be needed. And the more the material world is let go of, the more one will understand the deeper view and the freer one will be.

The senses are directly linked to the bondage of self as is one’s surface view. If you really want to understand life from the spiritual realm, you will have to get very quiet and become aware of how subtle the bondage to the delusional self really is. This bondage is the only reason life is viewed the way it is by so many people as the quietness that allows it to be viewed differently isn’t practiced. This isn’t something that’s right or wrong, it’s just limiting. Without the discipline to understand the difference between surface living and the deeper view, there will be no difference and the surface view will be the only view that one will have. Again this isn’t right or wrong, but it is limiting and what is limited is the way one views life.

Putting Spirituality First

The main dilemma in our society is people are putting their humanness first and are being controlled by their thoughts. When spirituality is put first there’s a connection to the universal heart of love.

Living strictly from the human (thought) realm is the main reason why there is constant seeking and why one is disconnected from the sun light of the spirit. With putting being human first, one is living through thought so there has to be a disconnect from the spirit. Thought separates, love (the heart) unites. Our humanness is a direct disconnect from the spiritual when it’s put first because of its base (the senses). The Spirit doesn’t ever need, therefore when the spirit is put first the senses (desire) isn’t in control.

When being a spiritual entity is put first, a connection to all of life occurs, not through thought, but through the universal heart of love. The main dilemma in our society is people are putting their humanness first and are being controlled by their thoughts. Just follow the news and see this for yourself. It’s nothing more than human desires being put first and running amok.

Here is a tool called the 12 Steps to Freedom which are from my book It’s Monday Only in Your Mind: Your Are Not Your Thoughts. They offer the possibility for one to become aware of the sunlight of the spirit within so life may be lived from the heart as a spiritual being who is having a human experience. They are offered for free on my website www.mondayinyourmind.com Use this tool and develop this awareness or not, that’s the choice, but the results of that choice will be to either remain in the control of the Conditioned Mind or to break free of its tantalizing devious grip.

Changing 2017 Conditioning

Vows, pledges, and resolutions aren’t needed when it’s realized what you are giving up (changing) is being done because its causing a bondage that doesn’t allow you to be in harmony with life, yourself, and all beings.

Although vows, pledges, and resolutions are made in all sincerity, it’s very difficult to sustain them as a permanent change of a behavior pattern because of the way our conditioning controls our life. Many of the things we try to change are the very things we’ve used as coping mechanism throughout our life; they’ve been in place for many many years. Breaking their hold will take much more then simply saying “I will give up __________. ” Things of this nature are deeply engrained in the subconscious mind and will take much discipline to undo the conditioning that is there. This is the reason many New Year resolutions fall by the wayside in a short time.

Announcements aren’t needed to make changes in your life. If you want to change something learn why the thing is there in first place and what you need to do to break the cycle of that particular Conditioned Mind Pattern. The practice of quietness allows for the triggers of these mind patterns to be recognized and thus their hold tends to lose its grip. This takes willingness, time, and perseverance if breaking this bondage is to occur, but the alternative is for the behavior patterns to remain deeply engrained in the subconscious mind. Going forward if something needs to be changed because it’s not allowing harmony with life, yourself, and all beings, make it a point that this change is going to happen by doing the necessary practice that will allow it. Not because of some vow or resolution, but because you realize what you are changing is being done simply because its causing a bondage that doesn’t allow you to be in harmony with life, yourself, and all beings… Happy New Year

Identified Agitations

When the mind becomes agitated, if the agitation is to be quieted, the cause of it needs to be identified. An agitated mind can’t do this, so one needs to get off the merry go round if there’s to be quiet.

When it’s understood all the problems one thinks they have are created by your own mind, it will also be known that these so called problems cannot be solved with the same mind that’s creating them. Simply put, a mind that creates a problem cannot be used to fix the problem that it has created. An example would be a person who uses alcohol as an escape mechanism. At first it seems as though it provides the sought after release, but as time goes by it affects life in a way that it no longer provides the escape, it actually becomes the reason why an escape mechanisms is reached for, but the person still uses the alcohol as the solution to escape the harm the alcohol is causing; insanity. The alcohol can be substituted with anything. What’s used doesn’t really matter, how you get stuck on the merry go round of reaching is the point of this article. It’s the Conditioned Mind that keeps a person on the merry go round of using the same mind to create and solve problems. I did this for years and today it’s not this way. It’s not that I have a different mind, but there’s a difference in the way it processes information, so in a sense it is different.

The main difference is now there’s quietness instead of a constant agitation. What quietness allows is being in the present moment and living and accepting what happens as opposed to wanting it to be in some other way. This is the way it has to be if there’s going to be peace in one’s life. Things may actually be the way one wants them at times, but it will never stay that way, so the key is to find peace when things aren’t the way that you think best suits you; doing this without reaching for something to comfort yourself is essential. Understanding that your own mind is creating this nonsense is the first step in establishing a true place of peace. When the origin of the mind agitations are known, they can be eliminated, but it will take practice. It’s vital to know your own mind if there’s ever to be freedom from it tantalizing grip. After all it’s not the great secrets of the Universe that are going to bring one peace, peace will occur with the understanding of why you think in ways that doesn’t allow peace.

Evolution

When the human brain gets a glimpse of itself as awareness aware of awareness, a tiny temporary window opens where one gets a fleeting glimpse of its own wonder and majesty.

Over the course of time our human conditioning has evolved to the point where we objectify and have perceptual input. That is why humans see the manifested universe as if it had things in it that are separate and are labeled as objects. In the center of this is our core “I” which is interpreted by the brain as self. In truth there is no such thing as a personal identity. Identity is method that is used to keep track of people. A personal identity exists only as an assumption, a concept and idea; simple a thought which is labeled. Experiencing the world as a labeled place and seeing it as if there were separate things in it is where one creates their own bondage.

When the human brain gets a glimpse of awareness aware of awareness, a tiny temporary window opens where one gets a fleeting glimpse of its own wonder and majesty. In a few of these objectifying brains there occurs a shift in perspective that allows one to see through the bondage of self which its own brain creates. This allows one to remain in what amounts to the space of seeing the shared dream of separation and knowing that its just that, a dream and all other things are also being dreamt. When this happens the attachment to an imagined personality and an ever present fear of impending doom loses its hold. The brain simple hovers in the joy and awe of awareness being aware of being aware. To me this is all that nirvana, being at one with the Spirit, or enlightenment really is. This all what the great mystics Jesus, Buddha, Ramana, and Nisargadatta, to name a few, saw and experienced. Their brains had simply become rewired to see that in the manifested universe of objects which included themselves, everything is an illusion and there is never separation.

Only the Best

Life can only be what it’s made out to be, making it a master piece will only occur when the best possible resources available which are within, are found and are utilized.

You wouldn’t settle on the second best doctor if you had a life threatening ailment, you would do the necessary research and find the best doctor available. Why is it that we look for our answers out there somewhere as our first choice when the best answers are within ourselves? We’re the best source for finding answers to what ails us, so once we have a proper diagnosis, the necessary actions can be taken to help heal the ailment. We have to use the best resources available for our answers, which are always within. Quietness is needed to understand this. Without it the mind makes one think the best available resources are out there somewhere.

This understanding will not occur on its own, it’ll take a willingness to allow this awareness. Without awareness it’s almost like picking a doctor through the old method of using the yellow pages in a phone book: remember them. Would you really take a chance like that? What is more important than your own life and having control over it? You can leave it up to chance, hope for the best and leave it at that or you can use the best resources available to do what’s necessary to cooperate with life so you’re in harmony with it. Life can only be what it’s made out to be, making it a master piece will only occur when the best possible resources available which are within, are found and are utilized. Either you do this or you settle for second best and let happenstance determine your reactions. It’s your life, using the best resources available allow it to be lived to the fullest.

Self Created Restrictions

Restrictions to an abundant life are self created by a mind that’s conditioned to self serve. One’s own mind creates these limits by keeping you attached to the lie the self serving mind is needed for abundance.

The restricted mind is conditioned to be that way and since it can’t get beyond its own created noise, truth is hidden from your view. This blocks out the ability to see the abundance life provides so instead of being in the presence of what is, one’s defaulted mind set tends to see the view of what isn’t. Learn to be with what is actually occurring and the default setting of the mind becomes one of abundance because the blocks to seeing what isn’t cease to exist. When this occurs the self serving mind isn’t in control and you are free to live without any restriction; the restriction being your own mind.

It’s only a Conditioned Mind that restricts. To restrict is to put a limit on something or to control something, this is what a Conditioned Mind does. Even though it seems like we choose to do what we do, when something is done that’s self serving, it’s restricted because no one, not even the one doing exactly what’s being done benefits because not only is one out of alignment with the Universe, one is out of alignment with themselves. When we go beyond this conditioning, we go beyond our own self created restrictions and we naturally see the abundance of life. To be without restriction is to be aligned with the Universe and to be aligned with the Universe is to be aligned with ourselves without the restriction of needing anything to be different than what it is.

Knowing Yourself

Until we become responsible for our own behavior and stop pointing the finger at others, our inner urging to reach will never fully go away and we will always have a need for the next fix.

If you don’t truly get to know yourself, you will constantly repeat behavior that doesn’t allow for cooperation with life. This is the core message of my book “It’s Monday Only in Your Mind: You Are Not Your Thoughts” http://www.mondayinyourmind.com My book is not a cure all, but it is a valuable tool if you have an inner urging to change things in your life. This isn’t a promotion for my book, it’s a promotion for a tool that can help a person be relieved from the bondage of self. That’s what our inner urging is, the urging of love to be relieved of our self absorption, and until this is understood, not a made up God or anything else will be able to help remove the blocks to this deep urging of love. This is not the fault of anything in particular, it’s just the way ours minds have evolved as we have become conditioned to behave in a manner that doesn’t allow for us to be in harmony with life.

Do what you may, hold onto your beliefs in whatever capacity you think you need to believe in, but understand you do what you do because of the way you have been conditioned, that’s it. It’s nobody’s fault and until we become responsible for our own behavior and stop pointing the finger at others, our inner urging to reach will most likely never fully go away and we will always need the next fix; our freedom will be fleeting at best. Stay in the control of your conditioning and stay in the prison of the bondage of self, and it’s unfortunate because while this is happening not even the made up story of God will be able to help you.

No Path Liberation

Trying to figure out what path is needed to become free from the bondage of self, keeps one locked in the bondage of self. The path of no path leads to liberation because there’s no self looking for it.

Ponder this, did you ever read or hear anything about Jesus or Buddha reading a book or following someone else to find their answers? Maybe they did at some point, but there comes a time when what’s read or what’s known has to be put into practice. One has to be careful though, just because there’s a so called practice in place, it doesn’t mean it will lead to a state of freedom from self. There has to be a practice that leads one in that direction for this to even have the possibility of occurring. There are many paths, but only one leads to the top of the mountain.

Keep practicing and when you come to a so called dead end, it’s a path that can now be eliminated from your practice. It isn’t a true dead end, it does have some value; one will be able to eliminate it because it’ll be known it doesn’t lead to the top of the mountain. It took the Buddha some years to become enlightened, but it only occurred because of the practice he had in place. It isn’t easy, it will take much inner resolve to stay the course. Even when it seems like a dead end it doesn’t mean it is, it’s just part of the process. One day there will only be one path, it’s the path of no path. This will not occur by sitting a little, reading a few books, following others, or running around trying to find the path. One gets out of life exactly what’s put into it and if that entails having a practice in place that simply puts one on top of the mountain, only then will one be free.

The Greatest Gift

The greatest gift you will ever receive is the gift of today, and even though the Conditioned Mind wants to make it about something else, it’s simply the greatest gift because one day it will not be so.

If you are alive it’s simply because you’ve been given the gift of life. There’s nothing that was done for this gift, it wasn’t earned, it was freely given. Nothing is done to sustain it, but much is done to hamper its natural progression. An open heart aligns with this understanding and puts one in harmony with life. The things of the world will one day pass, but it’s the openness of one’s heart that last for all eternity.

Enjoy the splendor of this day, not because it’s Christmas, but because you are alive today to simply experience it. The true gift of Christmas or whatever holiday is celebrated is being alive, for one day this will not be so. Obviously if this is being read that day isn’t today so enjoy whatever this day has to offer in all its splendor, not because of the material possessions, but simply because you are alive. If being alive isn’t enough what do think is needed to make it so? Since today is the day that you’re given, make it the masterpiece you so deserve, and more importantly keep your inner light lit on this day and everyday hereafter to be a light to the world. Remember the greatest gift you will ever receive is the gift of life, and it’s simply because one day it will not be so. Enjoy your gift, Merry Christmas.

The Space of Unity

In the space without thought is a unity with ourselves, life and all of creation. The more space there is, the more love infiltrates not only our life, but the lives of all beings.

In each moment one will either be creating a story about what’s going on or there will be space without thought. These places of existence are vastly different on an individual and collective level. If we constantly create stories, our mind will never settle and our true essence of love will not be allowed to infiltrate our life and the lives of others. Love isn’t the default setting of most people’s lives because of the unawareness of one’s own conditioning. There’s nothing right or wrong in this, it’s just what’s in place. It will take a very settled mind to become aware of the quietness which affords one the opportunity to wake up and see one’s conditioning.

When there is space without thought it’s so different because it involves no conditioning at all. It’s our place of unity with ourselves and others, this is what’s needed if our individual and collective consciousness is to change. When there’s unity with ourselves we will cease fighting anything or anybody. We will not regret anything in our past, present, or future. We will help others through the compassion of our awakened heart; self seeking will become non existent. When we are in unity with ourselves we are in unity with everything. In our unity struggles will be no more because they only arise from not being in unity. It’s the stories that cause struggles so when there is space it’s impossible to struggle. Space is where one becomes aware that our struggles are created by a Conditioned Mind that has been in control for far to long, so when there’s space without thought, what’s discovered is unity with ourselves, life, and all creation.

One Source Energy

Separation from yourself occurs when your energy source is made into a story. It becomes my story versus your story and there’s no connection when one comes from a place that causes separation.

The are so many labels for our energy source, but it’s not important what it’s called, what matters is connecting with it. Any words diminish it and put it in a so called 9box. This energy source is what led me from my self destructive behavior and it continues to lead me even when “I” takes hold in some self serving way. We’re our own obstacle because we can only connect with our energy source in the present moment and very few live there. The more when can be present and observe the stillness of the moment, the more chance there is to connect with our energy source. It doesn’t take a belief in something to allow this to happen, it takes an awakened heart to see that a belief actually blocks the connection to our energy source.

I’ve found it more beneficial not to limit myself with labeling this, it seems to allow the flow of energy to go in a more consistent direction, and although whatever the direction is I’m okay with it, connected to the energy source is mostly from love which is more of a benefit to humanity as a whole. There are many stories attached to about this energy which is what blocks one from connecting to it. There’s only one source of energy and the proof is everything is created from the same energy. There’s nothing to debate here because it’s the truth. The debate starts when our energy source is made into a story because it becomes my story versus your story and there’s no connection when one comes from a place that causes separation.

The World's Pull

The things that pull you into the world are endless, but understand the pull comes from your own mind and even though the worldly things provide the enticing, you alone attach to them.

If you’re practicing to live a life based in love, but you don’t know your own mind, it’s like going to the gym, but not making any effort. Granted it’s better than doing nothing, but if you can’t decipher between love and hate, what’s beneficial and what isn’t, or notice how you attach to things, what good is it, the whole point of the practice is missed. Because of the pull of the outside world, it’s very difficult to look inward. There are so many things in place that prevent looking inward from happening, and if it doesn’t happen, you remain in bondage to the worlds trappings. That’s all they are, when there’s even the slightest of openings to allow this to be seen, one’s expansion begins.

The pull of the world is very enticing, if it wasn’t the percentage of conscious and unconscious beings would be reversed, but it’s not this way because the pull is in control. Why the pull is in control is because there’s a delusional belief that it’s needed. We alone are the creators of this and if one doesn’t become familiar with their own mind, the worlds pull will continue its control; there’s really no way around this. The pull of the world is so enticing and this is what keeps one in the prison of the Conditioned Mind. There are many ways to be enticed by the world, but there is only one way to be free. Read all your books, become a know it all, meditate until you reach the state you think will bring you nirvana, but understand if you don’t know your own mind, it’s like going to the gym, but not making much of an effort to utilize the equipment.


Lip Service Love

Either you love all or you love none, there’s no such thing as putting conditions on love and only loving some. Unfortunately love is given a lot of lip service in our society, but not much heart service.

Why most people have to hit a bottom before there is significant change in their life is because of the way our selfish nature has evolved. This seems to be a common denominator amongst us which doesn’t allow the heart to open to see the true nature of love. There isn’t a story of what one thinks love is, true love arises from the depths of our heart and is unconditional. Most people don’t really know what love is because it’s always centered around some attachment to a conditioned story; true love needs no story. I know many who speak of love for their own children, but what about all those children who die everyday and aren’t given a second thought, that’s even if they’re given a first thought.

Unconditional love has no me, my, or I attached to it, as a matter of fact it has nothing attached to it and until the conditional story stops, suffering continues as the default setting of one’s mind. Unfortunately love is given a lot of lip service in our society, but not much heart service. You can’t pick and choose who to love, either you love all or you love none. There’s no such thing as only loving some; matter of fact it’s impossible to truly love only some. A true transformation of the spirit occurs when there’s no where else to turn, the danger in this is many transform not in this world. I don’t profess to understand how the Universe works, but I do know what happened to me and that’s what I share. Although I had to hit rock bottom to wake up, it’s my passion to assist others in the waking process who are tired of suffering and want to wake up to the love of their own heart.

An Aching Heart

Those who are truly awake have their head taken out of the sand and feel the deep suffering of the world, though not in the way of attachment, but arising from the deep root of compassion.

Tonight my heart aches. Don’t think for a moment that when one wakes from the sleep of unconsciousness life is all roses. I have never felt more compassion and love in my heart for others than I have for the last ten years, but there is so much suffering in place that it actually makes my heart ache. I know we all get caught up in our social media world and we like to talk about love, god, kindness and all the stuff that sounds good, but the reality is there is so much suffering occurring right now caused by people. I watched a movie yesterday based on a true story about human trafficking and I actually teared up. What humans do to other human is truly mind boggling. I’m not really sure where this is going, but this movie had an impact on me. Those who are truly awake will feel the deep suffering of the world, not in the way of attachment, but arising from the root of compassion.

Drugs, porn, human trafficking, murder, rape, war, abuse, politics, and so many other things are the reality of the world we live in, at least in the sense that these delusions are attached to. I’m only writing this because it’s what arose in my heart and it aches. To me these things can’t be ignored because of the suffering they cause. More and more the awareness of the deeply engrained selfishness of humanity is becoming apparent to me and this literally makes my heart ache. This does not take me from my peace, but what it does is it allows me to let go of the pettiness that’s so easy to get caught up in. There is much suffering in our world going on right now, when one awakens their head is taken out of the sand and they truly see what’s going on. This awareness allows for the peace that passes all understanding, but what needs to be understood is that humanity is destroying itself and although when this is seen one may be awake, seeing this makes the heart ache.

Perfection of What Is

The noise between your ears is what makes you think the next so called fix will make life perfect, so what searching is about is trying to have things as perfect as you think they need to be instead of accepting the perfection of what is.

It’s very easy to get stuck in the habit of constantly needing to arrange life to be a certain way. One is only stuck when they are controlled by the noise that’s between your ears. As the road to happy destiny is trudged our conditioning slowly changes, but contentment should never be based on things needing to be changed. I’ve come to an understanding that life is perfect when it’s accepted as it is. I am perfect in my imperfections as is life. Until this was understood, my searching for perfection remained in place. That’s what the search is really all about anyway, trying to have things as perfect as we think they need to be instead of accepting the perfection of what is. It’s the noise between your ears that makes you think the next so called fix will make life perfect.

For me my searching ended when I understood my conditioning is not me. I don’t try to be anything or achieve a certain state, I am what I am, this is my place of peace and the great thing about this is, it isn’t dependent on anything. Read your books, sit in meditation, go to the gym, do yoga and what not, but none of these things will stop the searching, that is until it’s realized what’s here right now is what one is searching for. I’m not labeling any of these things as good or bad, but if there’s searching labels will be applied. It doesn’t have to be this way, but it will take a mind that is very settled to be aware of this. Just how does the mind settle; by sitting and developing the discipline to allow the acceptance of things as they are. When this occurs, the searching stops because one realizes they already have what they’ve always been searching for.

Liberation From Self

Energy determines how you live. If that energy is constantly focused towards self, one will be selfish. If you possess the whole world, but aren’t liberated from self, you’ll remain stuck in a self created bondage.

Being liberated from the bondage of self requires turning one’s energy away from self serving thoughts. When the mind gets stuck in these thoughts, for there to be liberation, the mind needs to become unstuck. What makes it get stuck is energy that’s mostly focused on satisfying self in some way. Focusing on the sensation of mind, body, and mental formations helps to alleviate the bondage of self. This is a direct path to how one becomes liberated from suffering. You can only be free when the focus is on what allows freedom, but it’s tricky because to master your self takes constant vigilance. It will be your directed focus that determines the extent of the liberation and that will be the determining factor in how your life is lived.

Liberation from suffering is not pain free, it’s learning to be with the pain that arises. You cannot hide from what’s happening, you can only focus on something that anchors you in the Now. To no longer have your focus on satisfying self is where the path of liberation leads to and how this is done is by simply not focusing on self and focusing on what will liberate you. The self is there and it has been given a name, it has so many other different labels attached to it, but it creates bondage because of the mere fact of the attachment it has to self. Liberation occurs when there’s an understanding of the lies of self, not in creating concepts or beliefs. Where your energy is focused determines how you live. If that energy is constantly focused towards self, you will be selfish. If you possess the whole world, but aren’t liberated from self, you’ll remain stuck in your self created bondage.

Misunderstanding Emotions

Attaching to the thought about a situation is what allows emotions to take over. When this is understood nothing will pull you in so you’ll always be in control of how you’re affected by situations that arise.

Emotions are something that are mostly misunderstood by people. Very few truly see where emotions arise from and how they cause more problems than they’re worth. Recently my mom passed away and it was emotional for many people, I was not one of them. Being emotional doesn’t mean someone loves someone more than one who isn’t emotional, nor does it suggest emotional people have more passion about something. To me all emotions do is get a person unconsciously attached to a situation. This is usually out of their control and emotions also takes away any objectiveness to that situation. I’m not saying squash emotions if they arise, what I’m saying is investigate how much they’re really needed. What do they bring to the so called table?

This is my experience of how emotions arise and why they cause problems. Whatever occurs in life is looked at as a situation and if the thought of it is attached to, this gives the thought of the situation energy and hence an emotion will arise. This doesn’t change what has occurred, but it does add a certain energy to the situation at hand and depending on how attached to the thought of the situation one is determines how emotionally controlled one will be. I’m not telling anyone not to be emotional, if they arise they arise, all I’m saying is contrary to popular belief, I find absolutely no benefit at all to getting pulled around by a situation and becoming emotional. I’m always with what arises, but attaching to the thought about a situation is what allows emotions to take over. When this is understood nothing will pull you in so you will always be in control of how you are affected by situations that arise.

Inner Disturbances

The inner disturbances that keep you from your peace have nothing to do with life. They are a creation of your own mind and that’s what creates the disturbances which make you believe you are not at peace.

There are practical ways to minimize the inner disturbances that cause one to sabotage their own existence, but it has to be understood that the mind creating the disturbances cannot quiet them. You will have to find out why your own mind is telling you the disturbances are needed to cope with life; a life that is controlled by the conditioning to create these disturbances. Your own mind creates every disturbance you have by choosing to attach to thoughts that allow the disturbances to arise, this unconscious conditioning is why one gets disturbed. The Conditioned Mind develops this as you do things that are destructive to your own well being. Why this disturbed mind set is developed I’m not sure, but I do know it can be described only as insane because one’s own mind does this.

I know now it was my own mind that created disturbances which arose from within myself. Because of the shift that occurred some years ago, there is now awareness that disturbances don’t have to be created anymore. I sit for the sole purpose to develop discipline which allows the mind to settle. If there isn’t discipline, the conditioning won’t be understood nor why disturbances arise won’t be understood so one will be led around like a puppet on a string. Life does nothing to you, it’s your own mind that does it all. Why one lives in a disturbed place as opposed to a place of peace will never change until the conditioning that makes it so is changed. All I ever wanted was to be at peace, but I wasn’t aware it was my own mind that created disturbances which made me believe there wasn’t any.

Two Ways to Live

There are two ways a person can live, the mind set in place determines what one brings to humanity. Serve yourself and serve one or be of service to love and all humanity will be served.

There are two ways a person will live, one is to live life through a self serving mind which benefits only one person, yourself. The other is to live life through a loving kindness mind. This way is so much more beneficial because it involves many more people and its affects are lasting and wide spread. The self serving mind only satisfies self. This is pretty cut and dry on how this mind works. There isn’t much unity or love in living this way. Most people aren’t under the spell of a self serving all the time, there’s usually fluctuation between the two ways, but they can’t be in place at the same time. At any given time, the mind will either be one or the other, but the more the mind is conditioned to self serve, the more time one will spend thinking about and doing things only for themselves.

Let’s now look at the loving kindness mind and how this mindset encompasses all of humanity. It touches the entire Universe because that’s its source. This mindset isn’t self created or sustained by doing, it’s a direct result of being aligned with Universal Love. The loving kindness mind is the Universe, when this is the way there’s unity and love. It has to be this way because love only comes from love. It sustains itself, serves many, and is a benefit to all. What’s in place determines what one brings to humanity, so serve yourself and serve one or be of service to love and all humanity will be served.

Subtle Conditioning

When one’s distractions are seen as distractions, it is then that their true nature is revealed. Liberation will follow when the next distraction arises and one can simply turn away from its enticing lure.

The subtlness of the Conditioned Mind leave most unaware of what’s really going on in their life. Some of things that are given importance have no relevance at all, and things that are pushed aside keep the Conditioned Mind energy in place. It’s very difficult to not get pulled into the unconscious distractions of the world. They are presented in many forms and your individual conditioning is what determines what you will be attracted to. There is so much unconsciousness and unawareness of the distractions in place that it’s blindly accepted to be the normal energy of existence, but if one is fortunate enough to actually see this their entire existence changes. The main thing that has to be seen is how the distraction take you away from the present moment. Nothing happens outside of your head and feet connection, but the Conditioned Mind creates distractions that make you believe it does. The distraction are so subtle and unless the mind is very still they will control your life.

What these distractions make you believe is they are needed. It’s not seen how they hold you prisoner to your own conditioning. Look at this for yourself, from allowing traffic to control you, to the weather, politics, sex, eating, and whatever else is used, the distractions are simply in place to take you from the present moment which takes you from your true essence. Every distraction is a story and every story embeds the conditioning deeper in the subconscious. When the distractions are seen as distractions, it’s then that their true nature is revealed and when it is, one can see that they’re in place strictly to use whatever is available to keep the Conditioned Mind energy in control. Liberation will follow when the next distraction arises and one can simply turn away from its enticing lure.

Self Created Misery

All that happens in life affects a person because of the way one’s own mind allows it. The insanity of the Conditioned Mind is its self destructive distractions are all from within which means one creates their own misery.

When all is said and done regardless of what it’s called, I have found a way to minimize the distractions in my life that cause my own misery. It’s a misery that’s created by my own mind which tells me the misery is needed to cope with life; a life that was controlled by this distracted mind set. My own mind created all the misery that went on by giving into distractions I thought were needed, but all they did was cause me to act selfishly. I developed a mind that told me to do things that were destructive to my own well being. From relationships, to drugs, alcohol, gambling, and a slew of other things, nothing was ever chosen that was beneficial to my well being, I always seemed to cause more harm to myself than good. How this distracted mind set developed I’m not sure, but I do know this, it can be described as insanity to say the least.

Nine years ago an inner urging occurred that exposed the lie of these distractions. There’s no name for what happened, there isn’t a need to label it. All that’s needed to know is my behavior which was once totally self destructive is no longer this way. For years it was my own mind that allowed these created distractions, but because of the shift that occurred, there is now an awareness that these distractions don’t have to be created anymore. Regardless of what label is put on it the bottom line is this, when one is distracted by something it’s their own mind that creates it and this means one is not at peace. When there’s awareness of this, the mind isn’t allowed to attach to the distractions so there is peace, so to not attach to the distractions is key. All I ever wanted in my life was peace, but I didn’t know it was my own created distractions that was the cause of why there wasn’t any.

Expansion of Consciousness

The expansion of consciousness only happens in the now and it will only occur when one isn’t being distracted and using things that keeps them from the awareness of what’s occurring right now.

The reason why it’s so difficult for the expansion of consciousness is because of all the distractions that one has been conditioned to use; this conditioning is reinforced daily. Most distractions are used mainly for the fulfillment of pleasure, but others are also used for a variety of reasons. What they all have in common is they’re used as a distraction to keep one from the awareness of inner consciousness. These distraction range from, food, social media, music, sex, the spiritual path, and many other things. There’s nothing inherently wrong with any of these, but when they’re used as a distraction from what’s occurring right now, they become a hinderance to one’s expansion of consciousness. I know it’s easy to get caught up in these distractions, but regardless of what the distractions manifest as, their core and why they arise are all the same. It’s strictly because “I” causes the mind to be agitated and the expansion of consciousness is not possible.

These distractions become a hinderance to one’s expansion because it keeps you locked in the distractions grip and if you’re not aware of this, you’re living in the delusion of the past and future; it’s a delusion because it’s not what’s occurring right now. I lived this way for forty nine years and it’s no wonder there wasn’t much expansion of consciousness in my life. I was constantly distracted looking for whatever it was I using to try and satisfy the distraction. Peace can only be had now and it will only occur when one isn’t distracted and blocking their expansion. Reach for and use anything you want, just understand there will always be another distraction because that’s just the way the conditioned mind works, and as long as the distractions are in place, the expansion of consciousness won’t be.

Something Different

Not many people will see something different is needed in their life unless they see a reason for it. Without an understanding of the Conditioned Mind it will be nearly impossible for this to be seen.

There has to be an understanding of what is truly going on so you can at least see that something different is needed. Without this understanding, it will be difficult to do the things that will allow something different to occur in your life, and it will only happen if that’s what you’re looking for. Not many people see the need for something to be different in their life unless there’s a reason for it and for me the reason was because the tools I had in place weren’t allowing me to see past my own self-centeredness: this is about inner change only. I reached a point in my life and not a favorable one, where I wasn’t doing the things that were producing results conducive to love. Tools are developed over a course of one’s life and they may have worked for most of your life, but if for some reason life becomes more and more of a struggle and you want the struggle to cease, something different will be needed.

Even though I didn’t realize it growing up, the tools I developed were leading me to my own destruction. A person has to see this to stop it from occurring and allow something different. The tool of reaching is what was causing this destruction and it was because the tool of awareness (noticing the mind agitations) was never developed. Here is the only reason a person reaches for anything, the mind becomes agitated and the attachment to the tool to reach is used. To have this be different, a new direction is needed so something different can be developed; I’ve found the tool of sitting to be helpful in the endeavor. Today I understand the Conditioned Mind enough that I do things that allows for the mind agitations to be noticed. By noticing this I can use something that’s been developed which doesn’t attach to them and lo and behold with no need to reach, there in lies one’s peace. Now to me that’s definitely something different.

Commitment to Love

Each day upon arising we make a decision, even if there’s no awareness of this one will either start the day in cooperation with the Divine Purpose or our own purpose; along with this decision are its consequences.

The lack of love in our lives is what causes our problems. Quieting our mind allows us to understand how this lack overtook us in the first place. When this is seen, discovering what caused our lack which in turn kept us from cooperating with life becomes the core principle of life. We decide to adhere to this so the blocks to our innate love can be removed.

This decision will be one that we will need to affirm over and over every day so we can come to understand what closes our heart and takes us out of harmony with life. The most important part of our decision is aligning our will with the Divine Purpose of the Universe which is to love. Change does not occur by itself so developing a steady regular practice is how it will happen.

Our decision entails a practice to develop an awareness of what will bring quietness into our life by learning to live in the present moment. This is the place, being present to what’s here, where the quietness begins and where life as-you-know-it ends. For most the only place the mind lives is in the past or the future as most minds have been conditioned to think the past or future is better than the present. This is what creates the noise in the head and the closing of our heart. Our whole practice is learning to be committed to being present so our innate love is allowed to arise which puts one in cooperation with life more often than not.

Harmony With Life

When there’s the understanding that cooperation with Universal Energy allows one to be in harmony with life, it is then that one will experience liberation from the bondage of self.

There is so much wasted energy trying to arrange life to be a certain way that it keeps our Creative Intelligence from fully emerging. Wrong effort will never produce beneficial results. Truly understanding how our self-centered behavior was the cause of all our problems gives us something tangible and real to work with. The Conditioned Mind Patterns which manifest in the form of behavior are something we can see, something that was developed over time, but they can be changed.

When this behavior is observed and understood it’s at this point that it becomes known that this is the block to our cooperation with Universal Energy or God if you’d like. With this knowledge we know in our hearts that we are finally on the path to freedom and happiness. No longer is there ignorance of how our lives had been controlled. Through recognizing our self-centeredness and taking responsibility for it, we learn new aspects of our mind. We learn how our behavior alone can take us out of harmony with life. We no longer look up above (outside ourselves) for our answers. We start to look within because we know this is where they are.

When there’s cooperation with one’s own Creative Intelligence, there’s cooperation with Universal Love. This love is what allows our harmony with life and when there’s harmony with life there’s harmony with all beings. Imagine if this harmony was aspired by the entire human race, I’m not sure what the results would be, but I can only guess that the world would be much different.

A Conditioned Illusion

The illusion that the past or future is a better place then what’s occurring right now creates our lack and in the process our incompleteness. A created purpose is a created illusion.

This is my understanding of how a person becomes conditioned throughout life, all without permission. We use the past and future to fulfill a created lack in the present moment. This lack is created by the Conditioned Mind (our ego). When we understand we are complete just as we are and nothing added will ever make us more complete, we stop using the past and future as a means for our fulfillment. The illusion created is that we need something for our completeness, whether it’s an object, a created purpose or whatever else our Conditioned Mind conjures up. So we search the past or future for it, but when one is present, there’s nothing needed so the search ends because there’s the realization one is complete; in stillness is our completeness because in stillness we are present. The illusion that the past or future is a better place then now creates our lack and in the process our incompleteness. A created purpose is a created illusion.

A person’s created lack is dependent on the way Conditioned Mind Patterns rule their life. The more controlled one is by these Mind Patterns, the more one lacks and the more this lack will be filled with behavior (the need to reach for something) that isn’t conducive to one’s spiritual well being (love). Learn to change the conditioning so there isn’t any lack created and you will always be filled with love, which is the essence of stillness. The lack doesn’t have to be there, but that’s dependent on how one practices living by principles that allow you to be filled and guided by love instead of trying to constantly fill a lack.

Your Own Tools

We are all unique in our own way and until it’s realized your answers are yours and yours alone, you will continue in the discontented search mode grasping for someone else’s answers.

When someone’s way is studied, all you do is learn what tools that person was given to get to where they are and even though you may think they have your answers they don’t, they can’t because we are all different and no two people have the exact same experience. Granted some seem to really get it, whatever it is, but I can guarantee you, the only reason it was gotten was because of the self investigation of their own mind. Why most people remain in the discontented search mode is because they are looking for a magic answer out there somewhere. This discontented search mode uses many things, from religion, politics, the spiritual path, careers, programs, significant other, children, drugs, ayahuasca, and whatever else the conditioning in place tells you is needed. It’s designed to keep you in its discontented search mode reaching for the next thing instead of looking at yourself. Looking inward was the turn around for me because the tools needed for this to occur were revealed when I stopped looking to someone or something else for answers. Many people share great pointers, but everyone has to find the ones that allow you to look at yourself.

The Conditioned Mind is so much more cunning than is known because it’s designed to keep you from awaking up. I was in discontented search mode for forty nine years until the day came when I realized no book, program, person, religion, philosophy, or anything else had my answers. That was the turning point when I began investigating my own mind. It doesn’t concern me one bit what anyone thinks of me because I don’t profess to have your answers, but I do have mine and how that came about is what I share. I point that’s it and what is pointed at is to stop looking for someone else to have your answers. We are all unique in our own way. Until it’s realized your answers are already within, and they are yours and yours alone, you will continue in the discontented search mode grasping for someone else’s answers even though all anyone can do is share the tools uniquely given to them.

Projected Ups and Downs

The label of up and down isn’t applied by life, it can only be applied by you. Life is simply the stillness which everything arises from and it never labels itself, only the projection of what you see can do that.

The so called ups and downs of life have nothing to do with life. There are no inherent ups or downs with what happens daily, the ups and downs are all a projection of your own mind. If you go to the doctor and you are told you have a year to live, taking it as a down is strictly from you, it’s a projection of your mind. It’s the same if let’s say you write a book and it becomes a number one best seller, if you think that’s an up It’s also a projection of your mind. You see life is never personal, it doesn’t particularly care if you win the lottery or lose your job. It has no say in what one considers an up or down. You can make up a story that life cares, but that is from you not life. The ups and downs of life don’t really happen, that is until the label is applied.

There’s so much nonsense that goes on between one’s ears and it’s all a projection of your own conditioning. It may seem as though it comes from something outside of you, but no label is ever applied by life, it can only be applied by you. So say your prayers, attach to the way you think things should be, but understand this, life is simply the stillness where everything arises from and it’s never up or down because it can’t be. You will label what happens anyway your conditioning tells you to and until this is seen life will continue to have its ups and downs, but only because that’s what you and you alone project.

The Best Tools Available

Everyone uses the tools they think are the best ones or they wouldn’t develop them, but that doesn’t mean they are the best tools available. If a tool is truly the best, it will never ever cause suffering to oneself or others.

One can only use the tools that have been developed to react to life situation. Whatever ones that have been developed to cope with life whether it be alcohol, drugs, anger, programs, therapy, medication, suicide, cutting, fantasizing, success, wealth, poverty, race, greed, envy, false pride, religion, tv, politics, sex, food, and so on, they are only used because they’re thought to be the best ones. If the developed tools stop working, new ones will need to be developed that work better. If no new ones are developed, the old ones will be used again and again. There is no way around this.

You will know when you are using the best available tools because they will never cause you or anyone else to suffer. What’s meant by a best tool is reflected in the actions that manifest. If there is conflict within that causes conflict with others, something isn’t right. The best tools will never cause conflict because that would equate to suffering. The gauge to see if the tools being used are truly the best available is in how much attachment one has. Attachment is the cause of all suffering so it’s a true gauge that can be used. Self investigation is also a tool, matter of fact every reaction one has is the result of a developed tool.

The best tool will never ever cause suffering to oneself or others, this is a fact. It can’t because it’s based in the quietness of love. Tools that are based in attachment to satisfy oneself cause suffering and this occurs regardless if one thinks they are using the best tools. Love doesn’t attach or ever cause suffering, nor do one’s developed tools as long as they are the best ones available.

Everyone uses the tools they think are the best ones or they wouldn’t develop them, but that doesn’t mean they are the best tools available. If a tool is truly the best, it will never ever cause suffering to oneself or others.

One can only use the tools that have been developed to react to life situation. Whatever ones that have been developed to cope with life whether it be alcohol, drugs, anger, programs, therapy, medication, suicide, cutting, fantasizing, success, wealth, poverty, race, greed, envy, false pride, religion, tv, politics, sex, food, and so on, they are only used because they’re thought to be the best ones. If the developed tools stop working, new ones will need to be developed that work better. If no new ones are developed, the old ones will be used again and again. There is no way around this.

You will know when you are using the best available tools because they will never cause you or anyone else to suffer. What’s meant by a best tool is reflected in the actions that manifest. If there is conflict within that causes conflict with others, something isn’t right. The best tools will never cause conflict because that would equate to suffering. The gauge to see if the tools being used are truly the best available is in how much attachment one has. Attachment is the cause of all suffering so it’s a true gauge that can be used. Self investigation is also a tool, matter of fact every reaction one has is the result of a developed tool.

The best tool will never ever cause suffering to oneself or others, this is a fact. It can’t because it’s based in the quietness of love. Tools that are based in attachment to satisfy oneself cause suffering and this occurs regardless if one thinks they are using the best tools. Love doesn’t attach or ever cause suffering, nor do one’s developed tools as long as they are the best ones available.

Awareness

Awareness aware of awareness…..that’s it

Limited Choices

Going through life without an understanding of how the mind works makes this existence much more difficult because it limits the options. Limiting the options, limits the choices.

We discover the cause of all suffering when we are truly able to see our thinking for what it is and understand how it creates feelings and emotions that aren’t real. They feel real because of what our association is to them, but their reality is relative to our thinking and the association to our identity. When this is discovered and we disassociate with this kind of thinking, we become more aligned with the Creative Intelligence of the Universe which to me is love; love is what gives us so many more options in life.

When we stop believing in the nonsense of the self created world of thought, we learn how to allow love to be our guide. This is when we will be able to see our thoughts for what they truly are, disassociate them from who we are, and separate the ones that cause suffering and aren’t beneficial to anyone; this is when our suffering ceases to exist. This is not some belief, it is something factual, and I know this because it’s my direct experience. A thought cannot cause anything unless it’s given the energy needed to do so and this is what determines if the thought is held onto or not. The more it’s held onto, the more control it has over you. In the awareness of this is one’s freedom. It’s one’s own ignorance of this that creates one’s own suffering, and the suffering is caused by going through life without an understanding of how the mind works because it limits one’s options and with limited options one has limited choices.

Self Consumed

We seek because the Universe calls us, we see because the veil of ignorance is removed and our energy is directed by the director of that in which we seek.

We are a product of the Universe. We are not a product of ourselves. We did not call for our creation, nor do we call for the time when it will end. Our existence is a product of the Universe and the energy transformed to awaken is from the Universe. This is why we can’t really do anything to transform ourselves. We can only do the necessary practice to allow our heart to open so the Universe can fill us, but even this is not of our doing, the practice itself is from the urging of the Universe.

When there’s an urge to practice it’s because the Universe is calling. The reason some practice and some don’t is because the noise in the head is so loud, the still small voice within isn’t heard. Even though our urging seems as though it’s from an outside source, we are connected to all of life so the still small voice can only be heard from the stillness within. Through our Conditioned Mind we are marred in our self consumption, but understand this too is an urging from the Universe, it’s just not one that produces love. Energy always is, it’s just a matter of listening to the urging and following where it directs you. We seek because the Universe calls us, we see because the veil of ignorance is removed and our energy is directed by the director of that in which we seek.

Spirituality is not magical for a selected few who think they’re special, it’s available to anyone who makes it a practice to listen to the urging from within. The Universe calls, but are you listening? If you think you are listening, are you hearing the true message or are you making up your own message to fulfill a self consumed urging? It takes much quietness to hear the Universe’s urging, but the alternative is to follow our own urging. Now that’s scary because most of those urgings arise because one is self consumed.

Blocks to Freedom

Why many don’t truly break free from their addictions is because the things being used are usually addressed as what needs to be changed. When what causes the reaching is changed, the addictions fall away.

Our true essence underneath all this false identification is always there, it’s just not known because it’s blocked out. It can be likened to our arteries becoming clogged and blocking the blood to our heart, which keeps our heart from operating properly. This is what happens to us when we block our true nature from arising, we don’t operate in properly. Both blockages are detrimental to our physical and spiritual well being. They both lead to death unless the blockage is undone. In the physical form when the arteries become clogged the heart will eventually stop. In the spiritual form our blockage leads to the death of our spirit. Both cases are equally as deadly and it isn’t always known that its occurring until it is to late.

Many things contribute to our blockage and if this isn’t understood, the blockage will remain. The blockage cannot get undone on its own, hence a broken mind can’t fix itself, when it’s realized the blockage is there, steps can be taken to alleviate it. When you change what causes the blockage, the blockage falls always. You don’t change the actual blockage, you change what causes it. Why most people don’t change is because they are trying to change the blockage instead of what causes it. This is the exact reason why many don’t truly break free from addictions, the things being used are usually addressed as what needs to be changed. Understanding why there’s a needs to reach for anything is the only way the true freedom from the bondage of addiction will ever truly be experienced.

Celebrate Life

We are here simply because of the Universe. Life is the Universe’s celebration in the manifestation of our human form and love is our true nature. To awaken to this is to awaken to the celebration of life…

We need not wait for the holidays to celebrate life. Everyday is a holiday because being alive is a celebration of life manifested from the love of the Universe and we are the gift; the present of the Universe to the world. If you don’t think this is so it isn’t because of life, it’s because of the way you are viewing it. You’re probably saying if the Universe is love what about all the unpleasant things that occur in life, or the unloving nature of some of the things experienced. None of this is produced by the Universe, they’re a direct result of the conditioned behavior of humans. The Universe doesn’t directly produce anything. Everything naturally arises as a manifestation of its love because it’s only capable of love. Humans on the other hand are another story. We have the capacity to cause so much destruction, but no matter what we do it will never be our true nature. That will always be based in love, it’s just the way we’ve been conditioned that makes this unknown.

Our celebration is an everyday occurrence and although one day our celebration will not be manifested in this form, our true nature as love will always be. This is the way it is because this is the way the Universe is and since we are a present of the Universe, our nature is always love. When a gift is given to someone in the spirit of love, no matter what happens after the gift is given, it will never take away that it was given in love. No matter how hardened one becomes by their conditioning, love will always be their true nature. Know this truth and you will make everyday a holiday and life will be the celebration that the Universe intended it to be.

Limits of Thinking

Human behavior hasn’t changed much over time, it may have actually gotten more conditioned. Thinking is just the way the Conditioned Mind keeps one in its prison to the delusional self.

To truly live one must learn to be true to thyself and this will require an entirely different way to view life. For the current view to become different so you’re in harmony with life, our heart must open to a view that touches the unlimited resources of the Universe. This means you will have to let go of the small minded limited self who thinks and thinks and thinks and holds onto thinking as the foundation of life. If you must think, think about this, where do all the issues you have with life formulate from and does your thinking about them constantly really solve anything? If it does than go ahead and think, but don’t waste you time thinking about things that have no solution.

Thinking is just the way the Conditioned Mind keeps one in its prison to the delusional self. You justify what you’re thinking about, but it doesn’t solve anything, you just become more engrained to your subconscious false “I”. You make what you think about soooo important, but it’s really only important to your small self because you’re not in tune with the unlimited resources of the Universe. Human behavior hasn’t changed much over time, it may have actually gotten more conditioned. Because of the small minded limited view that’s developed, you think what you think about is so important, but its only important to the small minded limited self. Wake up, nothing you think about is so important except to the Conditioned Mind. This is the delusion created and until one breaks free of this hold, you will be walking around not living in a loving manner. Basically by not living life in a loving manner, you are not truly living and you will remain blind to just how limited you truly are.

Taken By Surprise

When things happen to you that take you by surprise, will you be ready for it or will you revert to the self that’s based in the world and go in the opposite direction of your spiritual nature.

It seems that things always happen to other people. When the news is watched, it’s about other people. When there are stories at work, it’s about someone else. Others seem to be the ones that get sick, or have tragedies occur in their life. It’s even other people who are the ones that die, but what happens when it’s your turn? We’ll not the die part, but the other things, sickness, others death, loss of jobs, or things like house fires, or floods, these are but a few of the things that can definitely knock one off their spiritual direction. There are many hours spent practicing, sitting, reading, discussing beliefs, and philosophy, but what happens when push comes to shove and there isn’t time but to react to what occurs because it has taken you by surprise? Many times it seems the so called spiritual direction is thrown aside and the deeper inner psyche takes over. I know for me when I get caught by surprise, my reactions tend to revert back to the deeply rooted psyche of a self that has been in place for many many years. This self only deems things beneficial that are of world, and as far as spiritual direction is concerned, it doesn’t see it as much of a benefit.

It has been my observation that this self is what most people revert to in times of stress. I have found by being with life as it occurs, although one may not react in the way that has been practiced or is desired, what’s in the current psyche has to be accepted for what it is. This is because things don’t always happen to the other person, and this awareness that things happen to everyone is a reality that unless accepted with no if, ands, or buts, it will keep one assuming that things only happen to someone else. So the question is, when things do happen to you as they most certainly will, and you are taken by surprise, will you be ready for it or will you revert to the self of the world and go in the opposite direction of your spiritual nature.

The Same Space

Nothing is inherently who you are, but inherently you are all things. If you can truly sit and just be in the space of what is, you will see everything is of the same space.

I know the Law of Attraction states conceive it and you will achieve it, but what my experience has been is visualize it and it is done. When I sit and visualize something I am there. Whether it’s playing a musically instrument, singing, being rich, emanating peace, being love, or anything else, to me this is so because nothing is inherently who you are, but inherently you are all things. Read this slowly and allow it to sink in: Nothing is inherently who you are, but inherently you are all things. This requires the non attachment to any mental formation of what’s actually occurring or what’s being visualized. Because everything is inherently impermanent the only way visualization is blocked is by attachment to the emotional aspect of something. I could visualize a conceived reality or be with the given moment as it is and they are truly one in the same; that is as long as there isn’t attachment.

Because everything passes, yesterday’s dream is no different than yesterday’s memory of what went on and because of this it also includes whatever is visualized. The key here is in not needing the present moment any different than what it is. Don’t attach to it and just allow the energy to flow. Attachment is a story, the past is a story even though it may have happened, it’s not happening now so if there isn’t attachment to it, it becomes no different than a dream, a memory, or a visualization. You may or may not achieve what is conceived regardless of how much you conceive it, but if you can truly sit and just be in the space of what is visualized, you will see everything is of the same space.


Music of the Heart

We all hear what we hear. Some are fortunate to hear the music of love, but some only hear the same old song of the Conditioned Mind that blocks one from hearing the beautiful music of the heart.

Life plays its sounds in many different ways which produces very different music to each individual, and although all of those sounds arise from silence, the music that’s heard is dependent on one’s conditioning. What do you hear? For many years the sounds I heard caused responses that were very destructive and because of this, the beautiful music of life was missed more often than not. More and more this is seen today and it’s because more and more the lies that caused the beautiful music to be missed are being exposed. To me even though life is very visual, it’s interpreted through what is heard. One sees with the eyes and it’s interpreted through what the Conditioned Mind says which means it will not be heard as love. When something is seen without applying a label, it’s interpreted through the silence of the heart and it’s truly heard for what it is; one’s reactions are loving when from the heart. I’m learning more and more to hear what life is really saying instead of applying a labeling from the conditioning. One sees with the eyes, but labels from what’s heard.

When I see someone responding to life in a certain way, it can now be heard where it’s truly coming from; the heart or the head. When it’s from the head there is now compassion instead of labeling because as was the case with me, the Conditioned Mind is in control. This isn’t a judgement, it’s a fact. Life’s beautiful music can only arise from silence and when a label is applied, the silence is gone and so is the ability to hear what life truly has to offer. We all hear what we hear. Some are fortunate to hear the music of love and some only hear the same old song of the Conditioned Mind that blocks one from hearing the beautiful music of the heart.

Providing Light

A lighthouse is likened to a person who is awake. The design of both is to simply shine a light that provides those who may be lost with a direction to safety; that light just may be the only one a person sees.

A lighthouse is a perfect example of what it means to an instrument without needing to add a bunch of nonsense to it. All a lighthouse does is shine a light so a ship can get a safe direction when its needed. It shines its light in clear weather the same as when there’s a storm, but its usefulness has much more value in a storm. It’s foundation is solid so a storm doesn’t have much of an affect on it. It has but one purpose and that’s to shine a light to those who need it. It’s not concerned with those who aren’t in need of its light; matter of fact it doesn’t even notice. It just goes about its business shining its light. It doesn’t run around shining its light all over the place, nor would that increase its effectiveness in any way. A lighthouse is strategically placed where its effectiveness is maximized.

I look at my awakening as simply being like a lighthouse. What was revealed to me is what was revealed, I don’t try to make it into something else. I write articles to shine a light, who sees it sees it and who doesn’t isn’t really a concern. All I do is provide direction, I don’t have a way or method to be followed, I just provide a direction of a light. The usefulness of my experiences have more of an affect for those who are in the midst of a storm. My base is solid because there’s now an understanding of what I’m to do and that’s to simply be a light. I don’t have to run around and shine my light, matter of fact it is best to stand pat and just allow the beacon to shine so those who need to see it do. I am just the instrument for the Universe to strategically use me where it sees fit, the only thing I have to do is make sure the light is lit; that light just may be the only one a person sees.

Natural Gratitude

Gratitude occurs naturally as does love when there’s an understanding of what’s needed to live from the heart. Although love is natural it’s not automatic, so cultivating love is when life results in gratitude.

Gratitude naturally arises from a loving heart. It isn’t produced by attaching to anything from the materiel realm. If gratitude was from the material realm it would coincide with one’s possessions and that would make a person of wealth more grateful than one who didn’t have much? The true measure of a wealthy life has nothing to do with possessions, true wealth arises from a loving heart, that’s what measures wealth. You can only be grateful when you are content with life as it is, not with the way you wish it was or how it’s wanted or expected.

Whenever you want, it means you think life needs to be in some other way, this creates suffering. Gratitude doesn’t mean everything will be as wanted, but life must be accepted as it is if one is to be at peace and invoke a grateful heart; investigate this for yourself. Gratitude will not shield you from issues, it will allow you to not make them into problems. Be grateful for your given life and you will find your loving heart, and when life is lived from a loving heart there will be harmony with yourself and with all beings. When this occurs you can’t help but to have an attitude that’s full of gratitude for life as it is, not because of what you possess, but because of the natural love that arises from your heart.


Love You Are Given

As much as you think you love, a true measurement of love is in the love you are given. This is because no matter how much you love, you can never give as much love as you are given.

When others open their hearts to whatever gifts you have, it allows you to be a servant of love, and it is the servant that is truly blessed. If no one was there to allow one to serve and share their gifts, no hearts would be opened. The other day I crossed paths with an angel, not literally, but I was allowed to give someone some possessions that were no longer needed. By being allowed to give just for the sake of giving, a blessing was bestowed upon me. My heart welled up with love as I was allowed to be used in this way. This was not giving with an ulterior motive to gain something and that’s why my heart welled up. To bring joy to others is a gift given to the giver, not because one is giving, but because one is allowed to be the giver. There is no greater gift than to be an instrument of love, and although the receiver of what is given may benefit from it, it is in being allowed to give that one is truly blessed.

I write and I am the one blessed ten fold by those who my writings resonate with. I’m given so much love that no matter how much I give, it will never compare to the love I am given. I can only serve with what gifts have been bestowed upon me and since it really has nothing to do with me, it’s truly a gift. When one is given a gift of this nature, there’s no way it can be kept to yourself. Although not everyone will love you back no matter how much you love, it’s the one’s who do that make it all worth while. Not for any other reason than it’s in the love you are given that you learn what love truly is and never ever take that for granted.


A Heart View

Seeing through eyes that have a default view from the head (intellect) presents many more questions than answers, but a heart view (love) needs no such answers because there aren’t any questions.

Although everything is seen through the eyes, it’s the filter that one sees through that makes their life what it is. There are basically two filters, the head (intellect) and the heart (love). Most people fluctuate between the two with the intellect being the default filter. The shift that occurs when one wakes from the sleep of unconsciousness is the heart becomes the filter in which life is viewed. The intellect will still be prevalent as it’s not something to loathe, but it just won’t be the default filter any longer. Life is much different when it’s viewed from the heart. Many of the beliefs, concepts, biases, prejudices, and the outright lies that are in place simply fall away when the heart takes over. This isn’t to say the view that comes from the head is gone forever, as it has been put in place by one’s own conditioning, but it will slowly lose its power over you.

I’m sharing this from my experience. This may not be agreed with by everyone who reads this, but my experience is mine and to me that’s the only thing that has real value, and that’s only if the experience is from the heart. Seeing through eyes that have a default view from the head presents many more questions than answers, but a heart view needs no such answers because there aren’t any questions. This is what happened to me and although I can only know what has been revealed to me, I share it because there is a peace within me that passes all understanding, and it’s always present, that is as long as I live from the heart and don’t let the intellect (my head) get in the way.


The Labeling Process

The labeling process in place is all part of attachment and until there’s awareness of this, suffering remains. The degree of suffering is contingent on how attached one is to their labels.

All labeling processes have been instilled without any consciousness on an individual’s part. Think about all that you do, how much of it is done consciously? You may think you decided to be a certain way or formed certain beliefs, but upon further review you will see it all arises from the conditioning in place; this is how the labeling process emerges. This is done everyday all day long and all this does is create emotional swings that are caused by the applied labels. A label that’s liked is pulled in, a label that’s not liked is pushed away, each of these creates the same suffering, even if you don’t see it. What’s missed with this is you alone allow the things labeled to control you. The thing itself has no power, the label does. From Donald Trump, to catching a red traffic light, or not liking your job, and all the labels in between, they are given power by the one labeling.

What determines the degree of suffering is contingent on how attached one is to the label. Again: What determines the degree of suffering is contingent on how attached one is to the label. You may think you are as you are and it’s because that’s just the way you are, but if that was true no one would ever change. I’ve changed because of the awareness of how I was labeling things and how the process was stopped. You can’t suffer without labeling the moment a suffering one. The most misunderstood part of the labeling process is it has nothing to do with what’s being labeled, that all comes from within. Whether something is liked or disliked it comes from you and you alone. Agree with this or not, just understand it’s your labeling process that’s making that decision, not the article.

The Difference to Love

If there isn’t awareness that one’s own thoughts create the reality in which you live by, those thoughts will continue to create a reality that’s only real to you.

Thinking doesn’t control me anymore. I’m not saying its like this all the time, but for the most part this is the way it is. I have thoughts, they just don’t control me as they once did. I’m not saying it’s this way for anyone else, but it is this way for me. No longer am I tied to beliefs or concepts. No longer do my thoughts pull me into the self serving side of life. The present moment has become the norm and for me. It was from the depths of despair that stopped creating thoughts of suffering and gave me the willingness to sit.

I sit, I follow the breath, I sit, I fall asleep, but I am willing and to me that’s the key. I’m not concerned with results, my part is to sit. At the time of this realization, I knew it wasn’t because of some belief or a sense of purpose, it was from being right where I was. No attachment, just being in the given moment, nothing more; that’s what was realized. There’s no more inner struggle. No more needing things to be different, no created story needing to make this up. There’s just each moment being lived as it is which is simply non attachment to beliefs, concepts, a purpose, the past or future or anything else.

My own mind stopped creating its own misery. It’s not of my doing that this occurred, but it is from an inner urging that needed life to be different and learning how to allow the difference to occur; this difference is love. There was a time where I didn’t know how to love, but today although I am still learning, there isn’t a time when I don’t love. Love is not a belief in something or a doing, it’s just love which for me makes all the difference in the world.

A Never Ending Story

Selfishness produces a void which is why the things used to fill it are reached for again and again. We all have an addict in us as the consequences of the things used result in the same bondage.

There’s only one person who you have to be true to and that is yourself. You may do some things that nobody sees you doing, but you’re not fooling anyone because you know what you’re doing. You don’t get away with anything that you do in life. You may be ignorant why certain things are done, but that doesn’t lessen the consequences. There are consequences for every action, but it’s not because there’s a God watching you. You yourself are the cause of your consequences and they will be determined by the base of what your actions are; either love or selfishness.

The actions to fulfill inner desires are pursued forever because their results sustain the void that creates the desire. Alcohol, cigarettes, porn, gambling, drugs, food, sex, sports, our children, to name of few, are all used to fulfill some selfish inner desire and therefore will need to be used over and over. This is because all things are empty in nature. This is also why the things used don’t matter because whatever and whenever something is used to fulfill a selfish desire, it sustains a void that’s already in place. The void remains because the nature of anything reached for from a selfish void is empty and reaching behavior is based in emptiness. It’s the cause of so much suffering to ourselves and others.

We label certain people as addicts, but aren’t we all using certain things for fulfillment. Completeness is in the present moment, so anytime something is reached for to fulfill an inner desire out of the present moment it’s created by an inner lack; a selfish desire uses whatever it can, to fulfill this lack. A person’s conditioning decides what the thing used is, but regardless of what it is the selfish nature is no different. It’s just that some things are not as devastating in their consequences as others. Some results of the consequences are instantaneous and some take time to develop, but the effects of the energy of the reaching is always the same; selfishness breeds selfishness. So do what it is that you want to do, but understand you cannot hide from yourself. Although your Conditioned Mind will make you believe that you can, you cannot truly lie to yourself because wherever you go there you are. You may use justification as to why you are doing something, but there will always be consequences for you actions. Whether those actions are from love or are selfish in nature is the determining factor as to whether you will live a life that is always reaching for the next satisfaction or if you are complete just the way you are.

Just Be

Just Be – Add nothing

Sending out an SOS
Every time the mind becomes distracted and reaches for something it thinks it needs, it equates to a sinking ship sending out an SOS; the reaching is one’s call for help. Unfortunately most times the reason for the need to send out an SOS goes unnoticed until the ship is already in trouble; many lives are like this. What’s really unfortunate about this is usually what’s causing the downward decent has been in the works for a while. The sinking of the Titanic and the loss of many lives was a disaster in the making. From labeling the ship unsinkable, to those who believed it, it produced a false sense of security just as what happens when a person reaches for something, the thing reached for never provides what’s expected. Many on the Titanic were alive as the ship sunk, but the ice cold water did them in; even those with the false hope of reaching for a life preserver perished. This false hope leads many down the unconscious path of reaching for something that in truth will not produce the necessary results. The false hope of waiting for another ship didn’t help anyone either. The only people saved were those who were able to get into a lifeboat. One gets in their lifeboat when they look within. I’m writing this so maybe one person will see what they’re possibly reaching for in the hopes of being saved. The actual reaching is what causes you to perish even though you think there is hope. I know not many look at themselves in this way because of their existing conditioning, but there are so many SOS’s being sent out and life preservers being grab for without the realization of the surrounding perils. The lifeboat of the inward view is the only thing I have found that truly saves, and it’s simply because it makes one aware of the surrounding perils; in this case one’s own conditioning. Instead of jumping from the so called frying pan into the fire, going inward allows you to simply turn down the heat or at least see that nothing out there will save you from the perils of yourself. If you can see this, you just may be able to prevent the ship from sinking before it ever begins and so an SOS will never be needed, nor will your reaching.
Life Simply Is

The mind loves to make a problem out of something that can’t be changed. The reality of any situation is if it can’t be changed there’s not much one can do so it’s not really a problem.

Many things are labeled a problem, but that’s only because it’s just something that the mind decides it doesn’t want to be happening. There will be many things that this happens for, the list is constant and endless. Sometimes it’s a situation that just happens because of the surrounding circumstances and sometimes it’s because of what a person does. To me the latter is more difficult because the effects of it are a direct result of someone imposing their will on something that involves others. When it’s a situation that’s effected on its own it’s easier to move on, but when it’s an individual just doing as they please without any regard of the effect it has on others, it seems to gnaw at me a little longer before I come to terms with it. Just because what is always is, that doesn’t mean there’s not some resistance to it. I know freedom lies in not resisting what is, but being awake doesn’t mean you’re a robot.

How much resistance one encounters is determined by the conditioning one has to resist what arises. What arises from the inner arises, at that point there’s not much to be done that can change it, but it has been my experience that gaining some understanding of the Conditioned Mind allows the resistance to certain things to slowly dissipate. The reason why this is important is because resistance is just another way of saying the mind is agitated and until the agitation subsides, there won’t be any peace. A very simple fact that one will have to get in touch with if there’s to be freedom from the bondage of “I”. Many things will happen today as many people will do things that “piss you off” but it’s in not holding onto any of it for too long that allows you to not make what is into a problem.


The Beauty of Life

The beauty of life can only be seen if that’s the view one has of the world. The world can only be seen through your own eyes and how quiet the mind is determines if one’s view is a thing of beauty.

So much of life is missed because of the noise in the head. Take the time to smell the roses before the roses are gone. If you keep saying tomorrow, my heart goes out to you because literally tomorrow never comes. Regardless of what goes on between your ears, it’s always today. You may dream of tomorrow, but the dream can only happen today. You can hope or wish for tomorrow to be different than today, but at some point it will become today. It’s always today and that is where the mind needs to be if one wants to be with the beauty that the Universe has to offer.

Take a step back before you miss one more moment of your life. There are many distractions, that’s why if the mind isn’t quiet you miss the beauty of life which is always right before your very eyes. It is up to each individual alone to see the beauty that life has to offer, but if one is to busy to slow down to smell the so called roses, life will be over before you know it. You can accomplish many things in life, but that doesn’t necessarily equate to seeing how beautiful life is. It may allow you to see the beauty of your own egoic self, but it’s the Universe that gives one a sense of awe, it doesn’t come from anything that is done. This will only be seen by a mind that is ready for it and quiet enough to see the beauty that is right before your eyes, that is if the time is taken to see it.

Being Prepared

Without preparation, the constant pull of attachment will be the norm and so will an agitated mind. Sitting to develop discipline assist so when one’s conditioning is triggered, it’s not as easily given into.

Although life doesn’t personally test you, at times it seems like it does. From death, sickness, situations, people and just the daily so called grind, it can seem as though it’s one challenge after another. What makes something a challenge is a lack of proper preparation. For forty nine years I had tools in place that made everything that happened a challenge and I mistakenly thought it was life doing it. Life just happens, it’s never personal and it doesn’t purposely create challenges. I know it’s looked at in this way by many so we “can grow” but I’ve learned to go beyond this conditioning to see the only reason anything was ever a challenge to me was because of the label that was attached to what happened. Life still occurs just as it always will as one is in the human form, the difference is in the preparation of how to handle it. When my mother died recently I had a sense of how I was going to react because of the preparation that has been going on for the last ten years, but the preparation wasn’t for my mother dying, it was simply learning what are the things that pull me from my place of peace.

I allowed death, sickness, situations, and especially people, to pull me from this peace constantly. People seemed to be one of the most difficult to stop this pulling, but by sitting I saw that people were no different than anything else, they were just given more focus. The key to this is in the preparation of learning how not to attach to anything that happens by making it personal, whatever it may be. Without this preparation, the constant pull of attachment will be the norm and so will an agitated mind. To me I sit to develop discipline so when my conditioning is triggered, it’s not as easily given into as it once was. Breaking these Conditioned Mind Patterns won’t happen without a willingness to go in the opposite direction of selfishness, and this will take preparation so when the mind is triggered to act in a selfish way, there will be an enough awareness to not be pulled from your place of peace.

Childlike Innocence

Our inner child is innocent, loving, and caring. The more the self serving mind is in control, the more one is claimed by worldly desires and possessions and the less one is aware of their childlike innocence.

Everyday is a time to reflect on one’s childlike innocence. We’re all born of this innocence, but remaining aware of it determines how alive the inner child remains as a part of our life. The more the self serving mind is in control, the more one is claimed by worldly desires and possessions and the less childlike innocence is seen. There are many traps along the way that takes away a part of one’s childlike innocence and locks it away; very few traps take it all at once. The self serving mind is developed, and one day if this unconsciousness is continuously followed, the childlike innocence will only be there beneath the surface; unseen. The unconscious mind will take on the role of trying to constantly arrange life to be a certain way, this is the baby in us, not the inner child.

Make no mistake between these two, the baby in us is self serving, wanting, and selfish. Our inner child is innocent, loving, and caring. Depending on one’s up bringing and influences is what determines how aware one is of their childlike innocence. To understand this is to know yourself and when you know yourself you can develop a practice to reverse the process that blocks out one’s childlike innocence. The more this practice is done, the more one’s inner child is present so the innocence shines forth as when life began. If the innocence is lost, it can only be found from within. God or the Universe whichever one prefers, can provide the spark to start this process, but it will be from one’s own inner child urging that the process will continue on. It’s up to each individual to see the innocence of your inner child and live by it, or not and remain entrapped to a life that is self serving, wanting, and selfish. Either way life goes on, but in two drastically different directions.

Be Easy on Yourself

Mostly we would never allow someone to treat us the way we treat ourselves and whether this is seen as conditioning or not, it doesn’t change the fact that we are usually our own worst enemy.

Be easy on yourself. It’s probably one of if not the most important thing you can do for yourself. I know for me I was always my worse critic. I constantly second guessed myself and put myself down. There was always wishing things were different or getting caught up in the would’ve, could’ve, should’ve mind. I would never let someone treat me the way I treated myself and for the longest time I was unaware this was being done. There was also unawareness that it was my own mind that was doing this. When I started understanding this I began to be kinder and gentler to myself. When it’s understood the mind that tells you to do something is the same mind that questions why it was done, liberation begins, at least that’s what happened to me.

No longer am I my own worst enemy. No longer is there wishing anything was different. I’m far from perfect in the sense of always coming from a place of love and this is the case for anyone, so why all this holding onto past actions of ourselves or others, regardless of where what is done arises from. One can only do what the conditioning in place dictates so there’s no reason to ever blame or be hard on anyone including ourselves. If you truly want to be liberated, you’ll have to be easy on not only yourself, but also all of humanity because it’s simply no one’s fault in the way that they act; it’s just the conditioning in place that tells a person what to do. So the moral of this story is to always be easy on yourself regardless of what you do and you’ll naturally be easy on others, thus you will truly be free.

What a Gift!

Because of the way we as a species have evolved, very few people are actually present for what happens in life, but when you are you can truly be with life without getting tied up emotionally. What a gift!

On Friday morning a very special chapter in my life came to a close, my mother passed away after a two year illness; she was 85. I waited to write about this because I wanted to see what would arise. I will always love my mother and although her physical form could no longer support life, she will live on in her five children and nine grand children. As with any human, my mom was not perfect, but she was always there for her family. I had my issues growing up, but never once did she turn her back on me. When I found out from my sister that my mother had died, I just remained present. I called my wife and children and then called my work to tell them I wasn’t coming in. As I often write about emotions and feelings and them not being essential to live life, I was curious to see what was going to arise in me. Not much did arise as I naturally remained in the present moment and just did what was in front of me, which was being there for my family. There were a few tears from me, but they were mostly because of the emotional attachment that others exhibited.

I’m not here to say what’s the best way to deal with a situation like this as everyone is different, but for me I saw that emotional suffering wasn’t a requirement; there was much crying, just not by me. A person can write anything they want, but to me the value of writing is when someone shares a first hand account of their experiences. There was no reason to be emotionally attached to this situation, actually the situation was fully embraced with all the love in my heart, I just wasn’t attached to it from the mind. Like I said, I’m not writing this to tell anyone how to deal with a situation like this, but as I was watching some of the crying and emotional attachment going on, I was grateful to be in the present moment with life just as it was without needing it to be in some other way. What a gift!

A Logical Life

A logical mind sees that things are as they are mostly because of the lack of discipline that a quiet mind provides. Logic allows the mind to settle into a state that’s pure, innocent, and free.

Life really isn’t a mystery it’s logical, so logically looking at it, it seems as though it’s a struggle because to satisfy one’s conditioning to self serve, the mind has to constantly look for ways to get this done. It justifies what’s needed for this and lo and behold we have our conditioned life. A very simple logical approach as to why one does what they do.

The Conditioned Mind blocks the logical approach of as too simplistic so it can hold onto its story. The truth is, living inwardly is the most logical way, but it will only occur if one is quiet enough to see it. If this isn’t seen the mind will use a conditioned story of why living inwardly isn’t for you and your approach to life will not be logical. This prevents one from returning to the logical pure, innocent, and free state and unfortunately because of this, life remains based in making decisions from a self serving mind and it will remain a struggle regardless of what illogical outward changes are made.

Let’s use logic as to why we stay the same even if things are done to make so called improvements in our life. The biggest hurdle, but the most logical is to find out what makes you lose the pure, innocent and free state in the first place. When we look back, the logic here is to see the development of the self serving mind as the culprit. So we logically have to go back to the pure, innocent and free state if our conditioning is to get reversed. For this to happen the mind has to be redeveloped. We try external things to get this done, but through trial and error and with very little success we come to the conclusion that we logically have to go inward because looking outward hasn’t worked. So we apply logic, go inward and learn through sitting how to return to our pure, innocent, and free state; if we don’t do this, it will not get done. This is pure logic here, no mysterious path or journey, no God, or spiritual practice, just plain simple logic of going back to a time of a pure, innocent, and free state.

Repeated Mind Patterns

The repeated Conditioned Mind Patterns can be devastating if they’re not understood. These patterns show up in many ways, but when the mind settles most patterns fall away and life truly begins.

The reason why it’s so difficult for someone to change is because the mind constantly defaults to familiar conditioned patterns, even if it means its own destruction. The conditioned patterns must be identified if one’s behavior is to change. If these patterns aren’t identified, the behavior will be repeated over and over until either death or when a necessary practice is cultivated to initiate their identification. If there isn’t identification of anything needing changing then how can one expect anything to change. If the conditioned patterns are identified and changed, then the patterned behavior becomes non existent. You don’t change the behavior because it’s a by product of the conditioned patterns. When there’s quietness instead of conditioning, there won’t be any repeated behavior patterns associated with the conditioning.

No act is isolated from itself, whether based in love, kindness, and compassion, or greed, hate, and delusion, it affects the whole. But the real issue is getting to know that it’s only the familiar patterns of the Conditioned Mind that makes one repeat their behavior. Change comes when this is realized and then different behavior patterns will begin to take hold of one’s life.

Your own mind will fight you on this, it makes you think the unknown isn’t good, but it’s only a story because everything that is known today was once at some point unknown. So learn to quiet the squirrel cage mind so the familiar patterns aren’t the automatic way to respond to life and you will be amazed with the way life changes, and this is because when you start to see things differently and act in ways that are conducive to love, the familiar self serving ways stop being repeated. It’s truly that simple, but because the mind likes to constantly revert to the familiar patterns in place, it’s not easy to break the habitual repetitive hold they have on you.

Alignment With Now

When one is in alignment with Now, there’s alignment with life. When you’re pulled out of this alignment, it’s at this point that the door is opened to allow all kinds of nonsense from the Conditioned Mind.

Spirituality isn’t magical, it’s one’s true essence. If one is alive, one is spiritual and regardless if there’s awareness of this it doesn’t take away from the fact that one is spiritual in nature. Let’s take a practical approach to spirituality so the blocks to awareness can be lessened. Look at one of the most common realities of life, to me that would be everything that happens does so Now. This is such a common reality of life, but is it so hard to live there. We hear it all the time “live in the now, all we have is now, be present” yet it is so hard to remain in the Now.

What I found to be the one thing that makes living in the Now so difficult is the inability to keep the mind aligned with the moment that’s occurring right now. So many things pull you out of alignment and this opens the door to whatever conditioning one is prone to. This conditioning is different for everyone, but the nature of the misalignment is the same. If this misalignment didn’t occur, the opening to be controlled by the Conditioned Mind wouldn’t occur. The misalignment is so subtle and this is what makes it so difficult to be aware of it. It’s only because of the way one’s mind has been developed to begin with that the misalignment occurs. The mind will not align on its own, it needs guidance. It’s in the alignment of a settled mind where one becomes aware of their spiritual nature because when one remains in the Now. If there’s the development of awareness of what takes a person out of this alignment, it will be discovered what takes one out of alignment with life. When this is discovered the default setting of the mind will be that of one’s true nature of the spirit because it’ll be the only thing that one is aligned with.
 

Stuck in Suffering

If you think you are your thoughts, you will always have to be working on something because that’s what your thoughts will tell you, that is until you realize you are not your thoughts…

I’m not a doctor and I don’t profess to know how the brain works, but I do know this, for years I suffered from self inflicted depression until I learned it was my own mind that was creating it. I’m simply writing about my experience here. Every fall and spring I would be overcome by a mindset of gloom and doom and the only way I knew to get out of it was to use distractions. You don’t really get out of it by using distractions, all that happens is the focus shifts, but because the Conditioned Mind Patterns that are causing it isn’t understood, it always return; I was always stuck in the working on myself syndrome that plagues so many. All this created were distractions that kept me from finding out what was truly going on. I no longer get entrapped by this because I’ve discovered what was causing this. This is very important to understand if you want to break the conditioning of depression. This may not be what the so called experts say about depression, but I’m giving a first hand account of my experience and what was revealed to me. If you want to keep “working on it” that’s up to you, but just understand you will and I repeat, you will stay anchored in the Conditioned Mind Patterns that are causing the depression.

Me writing this was in response to someone posting something about depression. I reached out to them and their was response, I’m working on it. All I said was OK and moved on, but a lot arose inside me because of my depression which I worked on for forty nine years, that is until the day I realized there was nothing to work on because my depression was only a thought and thoughts only become real when they are attached to. The thought of being depressed may arise as many thoughts do, but when they’re not attached to, whatever the thought is never manifests. If you think you are your thoughts you will always have to be working on something because that’s what your thoughts will tell you, but when you understand thoughts needn’t be given any energy, there’s no attachment and hence there’s no self created suffering, in this case depression. Think about it, but not too much because you are not your thoughts.

Self Created Suffering

Attachment is the root of all suffering. It disguises itself as depression and many other things. If it’s not understood it’s all self created, the attachment just gets more deeply engrained.

Very few understand what freedom from self truly means. There’s no working on yourself, nor is there any program the self needs that’ll make it free. Freedom from self is right here right now, and it’s because the true self exist in this space and all that’s required is to be in this space for one to be free, nothing else; few truly see this. I understand we are all at different junctures in our life and there’s not much I can do when I reach out and someone says “I’m working on that” but it doesn’t make it easier knowing the conditioned bondage in that answer. I worked on that for forty nine years and what that was consisted of trying to make my life pain free. Always working on something, reaching for the next quick fix. These quick fixes are disguised as the so called good things, but they are no different than the destructive things that are being used. Actually they’re all destructive because they all keep you in bondage to self. I know the conditioning in place doesn’t allow the mind to be open to see what someone else may see, even if it leads to freedom. For me the most difficult part of waking up from the sleep of being in the grip to the bondage of self is having so much love for others, but not really being able to do much to help alleviate their suffering.

Bondage of self is attachment which is the root of suffering. It disguises itself as depression, anxiety, greed, anger, fear, and so many other things, and if it’s not understood it’s all self created, the attachment just gets more deeply engrained. It’s one of the reasons it’s so hard to see because one gets stuck in the very thing that causes the suffering; the I’m working on it mind. Here’s why working on it doesn’t work, first off the core delusion is there is a you who is working on it, and second there’s a you who needs changing. You cannot change yourself, you can only learn why you are as you are. If this knowing is based in truth, you will automatically have a different view of self. When this view takes hold, all the self created suffering falls away because there’s no self who’s attaching to it.

Tools of Love

Keep using self serving tools and nothing will ever be different, or use the tools that are available which allow one’s own innate love to manifest and see what happens.

Without knowing what the blocks are to loving yourself, one can never truly love. This isn’t something I made up, but understanding the Conditioned Mind (ego) is powerful because it wants to keep you in captivity and it will until it’s understood how to use the tools that are available to get quiet enough to break its hold.

True life manifest as the energy of stillness that one generates, yet most live the opposite way. There are many tools out there to allow this, but most go unused. One cannot generate love if it’s not in place. The noise created is our ego mind not wanting to live in the present moment. Love will never be generated by creating a concept or belief of it. It will never be generated by living in the past or future. It can only be generated in the Now, and only if the tools that are available are used correctly. It’s not magical, it takes much practice to truly understand oneself and what blocks one from their own innate love.

Each individual has the right to love themselves, but very few do because of the Conditioned Mind. Here’s the kicker, if you don’t think this applies to you, that’s all part of noise the Conditioned Mind is generating. Once one attaches to their thoughts they’re under the control of your Conditioned Mind. Live a life that generates noise and noise is what your life will consist of. Use the tools that allow for the understanding of what generates noise, practice using them as if your life depends on them because it does and you will know the peace that passes all understanding. It’s not a peace generated by thinking up concepts and beliefs, it’s a peace generated by stillness which will only occur when the tools that allow this are utilized. Keep using self serving tools and nothing will ever be different, or use the tools that are available that allow one’s own innate love to manifest and see what happens.

Carry Only a Message

When one awakens from the sleep of unconsciousness and carries a message to others, whoever the message is carried to has to be let go of. If they are not, one becomes a part of the unconsciousness.

No one truly knows what goes through another person’s mind. Truth can be established as one awakens to it and that truth can even be a Universal one, but it won’t mean anything to one who is blind to it. Energy is wasted on trying to convince others of what truth is. Those who see it, connect with it and those who don’t simply don’t. You can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make him drink, is probably one of the most accurate statements ever made. For me, this needs to be understood to not get caught up in a crusade of going around and trying to save the world. A world that regardless of what is going on just may not need saving.

I know some people who are stuck in their addiction, they’re imprisoned by it and for whatever reason are blocked from seeing this. Regardless of this being a truth that there’s a need to get off the merry go round of addiction, they don’t see it, so they remain imprisoned. It doesn’t mean one shouldn’t try to assist them, but their life is not anyone’s responsibility but their own and I’m not so sure about that. It truly seems many are called, but few are chosen and why this occurs is beyond my human comprehension. One can only carry a message, one cannot carry the mess even if it’s known the truth will clean it up. It’s heart breaking to watch people create their own suffering through the way their mind has been conditioned, and this self created suffering is not limited to labeled addictions. Unless one sees this, blindness will remain and this means that even if one is led to water, it doesn’t mean they’re going to drink.

Two Versions of Self

There’s no denying the self exist, but there are two versions of it. One is the self that thinks it constantly needs, and the other is beyond the thought of needing because it’s beyond the thought of self.

When you ask the question of who is the image in the mirror, do it in the context of who is the one who feels. Naturally the surface answer would be I feel, but who is this I (self) that feels and how about the one that exist beyond the surface of any feeling. This is the self outside the realm of one’s thoughts. Seeing this is all dependent on how settled the mind becomes and it’ll determine if one is aware that beyond the thought of self there is no one there, at least not in the context that self is thought of.

So who is it that feels? Sure the self feels, but it’s just not in the context where one attaches to any of their feelings. The thought of self and the self that exist beyond thought occupy the same form, they just exist totally separate from each other. They are as different as night and day as are the results of how one lives their life. One exist in the realm of attachment (thought). This is the self who most people think they are. The other self needs no label, there is existence, there just isn’t attachment to it. Find the self which brings the most benefit to life, beyond thought and the self without attachment will be revealed. This is the true essence of who you are, that is unless of course your thought of self is who you think you truly are.

Choosing Peace

When one wakes up from the sleep of the Conditioned Mind to notice just how much control it has over you, it is then that the chains that hold you in captivity are slowly removed one link at a time.

It may seem like there are many things that can take you from your peace, but in truth there’s only one. It manifest in many different ways, but it only occurs because of the conditioning in place. This simple fact is what’s mostly missed and it’s missed because it’s not seen. The other day I experienced this first hand as I was driving to work. I noticed a rattle every time I went over a bump in my car. At first this was really annoying me to the point where I pulled over to see what was causing the rattle, I couldn’t find anything. I continued driving and would get annoyed with each rattle. Then it hit me, I was allowing the rattle to take me from my peace. Before this epiphany my conditioning was in control, but once I become aware of this, I had the choice to not be taken from my peace. I didn’t have to replace the rattle with anything, I just had to stay in the present moment.

To me it’s these subtle annoyances that ruin my peace and they’re only in place because it’s the way I’m conditioned. Once the conditioning is seen, this produces the choice to not allow the annoyance controlling energy. It doesn’t stop the rattle, but it does stop attaching to the rattle; this is key in remaining at peace. This is the point missed by most. There are many rattles in life, from the way I write, to Donald Trump, a boss or job, the traffic, and so on, and not one of them has anything to do with taking you from your peace, only the conditioning in place allows that. Hold on to your rattles, and you will if it’s not seen that you don’t have to, but don’t blame the rattle for not being at peace, because that comes strictly from within you and since it comes from within you, only you can choose to not be rattled, one link at a time.

Created Mental Fabrications

The mental fabrications that are created to form an identity of self are actually the very thing that blocks out one from being in the space of their true self.

We hold on to our degrees, roles, wealth, social status, and an array of many other labeled things, and we think this self is who we are. These mental fabrications are nothing more than a story and none of them are truly who one is. Whatever you do in life only matters to the extent in how it allows you to love. An individual’s so called success means little except to the created mental fabrication that labels it’s so. Ok, so you’re a doctor, lawyer, school teacher, psychologist, life coach, athlete, author, spiritual guru, or whatever label you think you need to apply to make you into something, except what is create is only a mental fabrication of you. You are the stillness beneath any label that’s applied regardless of the story that you tell yourself.

If this is seen, space is created that’s allows one to be aware of this and remain in this stillness. There’s so much attachment to the mental fabrications as a label that this space is entered very seldom; matter of fact it’s non existence in most lives. Created mental fabrications are incessant mind noise. This is the never ending attachment to form; an identity to self that begins at birth as soon as one is given a name. There’s nothing inherently wrong with forming this identification until there’s no more space to be your true self, beneath all this nonsense. We spend most of our life unconsciously forming this identification and wrestling with our true self. There’s mostly unawareness of this, that is until there is. Once there is awareness of this space, one will spend as much time as possible here because not to results in creating mental fabrications and being someone who you are not.

Conflict With Oneself

All conflicts are within, they arise from one’s inner questions. Without the practice of discipline, the inner answers won’t be provided so one will have to look externally and blame others.

Nothing causes discontentment unless it’s allowed to. If something can be changed by all means change it, but if it’s being changed because of an inner conflict, it needs to be looked at why there is the conflict to begin with because even if the thing is changed, you will just move on to the next thing that will cause you to become agitated and then in conflict once again.

All conflicts are ego based because they come from the Conditioned Mind. You don’t think this is true? Are you in conflict with what is written here, they are just words. It doesn’t matter if they are agreed with or not, but if they cause conflict that comes from within you, not from the writer or what is written. But oh, how we love to blame others for our own self created conflicts. The only reason this is so is because of the lack of understanding of one’s own mind.

Everything that I have come to understand over the last ten years has arisen from within myself. It has been through the practice of discipline that real answers have arisen directly from my own inner questions. I can’t have anyone else’s answers because the one who questions is the one who has the answers. I do not have your answers because I do not have your questions. So everyone has their own questions to answers. Truth is the same for all beings, but how we come to it’s understanding is from the questions within ourselves. When one sits in stillness, revealed are answers to our questions, this is when conflicts with oneself and with the world will be no more.

I Attachment

Everyone has been conditioned at some level even if this is adamantly denied. The thing to understand is the more one denies their conditioning, the more the conditioning is in control.

If you think the Conditioned Mind is nonsense that’s your right, but that denial is part of the conditioning. Whatever keeps you attached to I is conditioning. If the conditioning wasn’t there the attachment to I wound be there. This is something that’s real regardless if it’s realized or not. That it’s being pointed out by someone is why it’s denied by some, but that doesn’t mean its not true. One can only see what has been provided, but the Conditioned Mind shouldn’t be discounted just because its not seen, however discounting it is also part of the conditioning . I will not reveal the subtleness of its own self unless there is quietness between one’s ears. Discount this, disagree with it, adamantly say it isn’t so, or who is this guy that thinks he knows me, but understand this too is all part of the conditioning. Stop all the dialog going on in the head and the conditioning will possibly be seen, or not and keep the bondage to I intact.

I is all that stands in the way to a life that is truly happy, joyous, and free. If you don’t think so, who is it that doesn’t think so? Argue with this if you want, but who is arguing? There’s no argument from me here because there’s no I trying to prove this is right. All I’m saying is before this is discounted it should be investigated. I’m just stating what I see. If this can be read and not attached to, then one is free. If not, the bondage to I is in control. It’s not complicated, but it’s very difficult to not allow I to control your thoughts. Thoughts have no power until there is attachment to them, but there can’t be attachment to them unless there is an I. In the space between your thoughts is the non attachment to I, it’s the space where there’s peace, but it’s not because I doesn’t exist there, I will always exist, but it’s just that in this space I isn’t being attached to by the Conditioned Mind.

Peace: A Showcase to Love

The beautiful thing about love is it transforms on its own, it doesn’t take doing. Probably the most misunderstood thing about love is the more that’s done to try and love, the less one truly loves.

We all know the kind of peace the world offers, but that’s not the kind of peace that’s needed for the betterment of humanity. Most get caught in the trap of thinking we would have peace if we had enough of supply and less demand, if we had our health, or the right kind of companionship, and that may be true to some extent, but having those things doesn’t guarantee that we won’t have an agitated mind about something else. As long as we look to people and situations for our peace, we shall fail to find either lasting satisfaction or peace. Universal Peace is a gentle spirit that wells up from the love deep within us. It has no relationship to the state of our situations in any way, although ultimately peace is what settles all our situations.

Material living puts its foundation in the form of possessions. Spiritual living makes use of that which is of the world; it enjoys the form, but its reliance is solely on that which is the substance of that form, or that which has created the form “Love”. Form may seem to be an end to a means, but the only time form ends is when there’s attachment to death. Life and death co exist, as the day form begins it goes in the direction of being one day closer to death. But it’s the existence in between that matters and only in the sense of how we love. The beautiful thing about love is it transforms on its own, it doesn’t take doing, this is probably the most misunderstood thing about love. Love just is and when this is understood one will be transformed.

Thought Filters

It’s not like one can control their thoughts from arising, but we can develop filters so at least they’re not in control. Whatever is the base of these filters is what will be emitted out.

I often talk about developing tools to live by, but what exactly does this mean. It’s easy to see how material tools work and the results they produce. A hammer when used properly will result in a nail being embedded in wood or possibly something else. A tool of eating healthy will produce health with fairly rapid results. Drive a car from point a to point b and lo and behold your destination is reached. Results from using materiel tools are pretty much a given. There’s very little mystery in how they work and the results they’ll produce, but how about the tools where the results aren’t seen right away, the ones that are used to look inward and need to be developed?

What these tools equate to are the filters in which one’s life is viewed. When a water filter, which is a tool, is used in line with a tap water faucet, its function is to remove the impurities of the water. It’s not a tool to make the water taste or look better, although these are the results produced The filter is strictly used to remove the impurities in the water. This is also what tools that assist a person in looking inward provide. A means to remove our conditioned impurities so our heart can open to our innate nature of love.

An air filter, an oil filter, a parental filter on the tv, these are all designed to catch impurities that can do damage, this is also the way the filter of our mind works. Which filter is chosen determines what’s not only received by the individual, but also by the world. The impure thoughts if not filtered properly create damage to ourselves and others, but when a filter is used that catches these, then we are left with results that produce love. This will occur only because the filter that we have in place catches all the impurities that get in the way of keeping this from happening.

Delusional Feelings and Emotions

Stuff happens there’s no denying this, how it affects you is directly related to the feelings and emotions that are attached to. Why this is a problem is because it makes something factual that’s just not real.

Feelings and emotions seem to be a natural part of life, but it’s been my experience that they are not, they’re just conditioned concepts handed down by people who say they’re needed. There are no facts to either of them, there’s attachment that’s for sure and that’s the only reason they exist beyond their initial arising. I’m not saying they won’t arise, especially in situations where loved ones are involved or if something is done that you apply the label of personal to it, but this still doesn’t make either one of them factual, they are still just a story. I was controlled by my emotions and feelings for a very long time and it probably wouldn’t have changed had I stayed the same, but something change me that exposed many of the lies that I took as gospel. I was conditioned to fall into the trap of what others thought life was about and basically this made me a slave to their conditioning as well as my own.

When one awakens to the fact that emotions and feelings are overrated, although as stated they will arise, their control lessens to a large degree because seeing there are no facts associated with them helps one not attach to them. For me the quieter my mind became, the more the conditioned lies were exposed and as they were exposed, this is what allowed me to see the nonsense of my conditioning and to stop attaching to it. Stuff happens there’s no denying this, how it affects you is directly related to the feelings and emotions that are attached to. Why this is a problems is because this makes something factual that’s just not real.

Truth is Love

The thought of what one thinks truth is isn’t truth. Once one truly awakens to come from a place of love, the only thing left to learn is how to remain in this place.

There’s always a lot of discussion when it comes to the topic of truth. Many hold onto the idea that everyone’s perception is different so everyone has their own truth, but what was revealed to me is there is only one truth, and it isn’t mine, lol. If you are taking a test and you have a question that requires a true or false answer, if the answer to the question is false, but you see it as being true and answer it as so, that doesn’t make your answer correct. You can argue about it, state your opinion on why you answered true, but just because you think it’s true doesn’t mean it is. To know truth requires a quiet mind, the more one holds on to the thought of what truth is, the less actual truth there is.

What has been revealed to me is seeing truth in the context as love, nothing else. What arose when my mind settled was there aren’t different versions of truth, there are different perceptions of it, but that doesn’t make it true. Yes we all see things differently, and we all like to hold onto what we have been conditioned to think truth is, but if we all came from a place of love, we would be falling over each other for a better humanity, not trying to conjure up a made up version of what we think truth is. Once one truly awakens to come from a place of love, the only thing left to learn is how to remain in this place. This place needs no explanation, nor defending, it wells up from deep within and although not everyone will agree with what is written here because of the conditioning in place, if you do you will know this is truth because you will not only be coming from a place of love, you will be set free.

Selfishness Only Harms

To those who can remain silent goes the spoils of the Universe. To those who have to disagree out loud because of holding on to I am right energy, goes the spoils of selfishness.

The base of most conditioning is selfishness, and although there are degrees in how much hold the conditioning has over a person, it causes suffering nonetheless. Not everyone has conditioning to murder, steal, abuse, rape, mug, and so on, but it’s all basically the same energy so even though some behavior is less harmful, this selfish behavior causes harm all the same, just not to the same degree as someone who is totally in the grip of their conditioning. The tighter the hold, the greater the suffering; to oneself and others. This is what’s at the core of I am right energy. Any disagreement is just a conditioned story, it’s not that everyone will be in agreement with everything that happens, but the tighter one holds on to their way being the right one, the more disharmony this causes; this disharmony is with oneself.

One can only see what is seen and that’s ok, but to disagree out loud with someone brings the conditioned energy to a much deeper level than reading or talking about something and not agreeing and just moving on. If there is an evil in the world it would use the disguise of selfishness because that is an energy that can only cause suffering. This is all about the Conditioned Mind not people. Because of the way the Universe is designed we are all connected, but because of I am right energy, it doesn’t allow it to be seen in this way by everyone, this is a direct result of the conditioning in place. To those who can remain silent goes the spoils of the Universe. To those who have to disagree out loud because of holding on to I am right energy, goes the spoils of selfishness.

Attachment to Form

When there’s attachment to form it opens up a doorway that leads to suffering. This doesn’t mean all that life has to offer can’t be enjoyed, it’s just that nothing last so why attach to it.

Many things are used because of the attachment to form, some harmful in nature and some healthy, but if there’s attachment to either, suffering will ensue because it’s simply the nature of attachment. To me I exist to experience all of life and to learn just how to do that is what my life is basically about. For many years I did not live, I existed. Just because you are alive that doesn’t equate to living. Sure if you’re reading this you are alive and you know this because when you look in the mirror you can see a form, but if the form in the mirror is attached to, life becomes so limiting because everything from there on in is given a label. Attachment to form slams the door shut to the unlimited essence of who one truly is; we are not the thoughts we have of ourselves and others are not the thoughts we have of them. There’s so much made up nonsense between our ears and it can all be linked to the attachment to form.

We think in terms that we are our body and mind without investigating if it’s true. We definitely have a body because that can be seen, but the mind, where is the mind? At least the body is form, the mind has no such substance, it isn’t anything at all. But how we allow it to control us is life’s biggest misunderstanding. The mind is what tells you everything, it creates happiness, sadness, anger, joy and so on, why this is a problem is because it’s all based on the attachment to form which can only cause suffering. Even when your mind tells you your life is perfect the same mind just moments later will tell you something needs to be different. If there wasn’t attachment to form this wouldn’t be an issue, but since form is what we manifest as, we attach to it and attachment is the root of all suffering. One day just like that your form will end, it’s inevitable, and the you are attached to it, the more suffering it will cause. The key is to not attach now because non attaching will occur one day without your permission so you might as well let go now and truly live your while you are alive.

Deep Stillness

The depth of our stillness is what determines the depth of our love. Without depth there is just what’s on the surface and this flip flops so easily because of the dependency on things.

The deeper stillness is as our foundation, the more love will be emanated in our life, and obviously the more love we have the more can be given. Also the deeper the stillness, the less our conditioning is in control. Go to the depth not known and go to a place of purity, but this will take a tremendous amount of understanding of why we aren’t in this way already. The transformation that occurs with this understanding from our head to our heart will determine the depth of our love. It’s essential to get to the heart, but without stillness we remain stuck in the head.

I’ve seen this played out first hand in my life and when love comes from the head it benefits no one. It’s the heart of love that’s pure, the head is usually filled with some mind made concept of love; there are many conditions put on this type of love. This is the cause of the flip flopping between the head and heart. The lack of stillness creates a flip flop foundation so our emotions are very easily swayed by things, and the things that sway us are allowed to occur because our emotions are that of an immature child. Why else are we swayed when things don’t go our way? Does not a child act in the same manner? Do not we as adults, act in the same manner of stamping our feet when we don’t get our way?

The purity of a child is different than the immature emotions of a child, so learn to go deeper than what the surface supplies you with and you will see a level of maturity not previously known. When this does become known, your life will be much more stable because you won’t be so easily swayed by the nonsense the world provides as a foundation. And with a solid and mature foundation based in stillness which is beyond what happens on the surface, flip flopping ceases and from the love of the heart is how life is lived.

Inner Discontent

The search for peace will never result in peace because the search itself is what keeps one from experiencing peace. Only when the mind settles will the discontent subside and just like that therein lies one’s peace.

Many people are on a spiritual quest to find an answer and for me this was in the form the question why was I so discontented with life. I say was because the discontent is no longer there. For far to many years I didn’t truly understand this discontent and so it was always there as was the searching to quiet it. This searching manifested in many different ways and none were beneficial in living my life in a loving manner. This is because of the way I was conditioned, to self seek (quiet the discontent) which kept the it in place. What a ride this produced, hence there wasn’t much peace in my life. This lasted for forty nine years and then one day through a tiny crack in my ego there arose the possibility of a different view of life, which was revealed to me and gave me some real answers as to the true nature of my inner discontent.

Ten years ago what began as a crack has been expanding ever since. For the most part the discontent for peace is no longer there because it has been replaced with a simple quietness, but when the mind becomes agitated, the discontent does return because of the Conditioned Mind Patterns in place; I’ve learned to see it from the I perspective and not attach to them. Only attachment to I keeps the discontent in place so one has to search instead of there being peace. The search for peace will never result in peace because the search itself is what keeps one from experiencing peace. In this moment right now is where peace resides so there’s no need to search for what already is. It’s only when the mind settles and I is let go of that the inner discontent subsides and lo and behold it is then that one will be at peace.

Temporary Fix

When impermanence is understood the craving for fulfillment is replaced with a satisfaction that whatever happens next doesn’t really matter because one day what happens next will prove just how impermanent everything is.

Death is a part of life as much as life itself is and regardless of any belief, one day this body will cease to support life in the form that it occupies today. We can make up a place spiritually that we are going to go to when we die, but the body is going to become void of life and it will either be cremated, decay in a box six feet below ground or in a vault above ground. If this one truth can be understood than nothing else would truly matter because the impermanence of all things would be known, and once the truth of impermanence is known, life takes on an entirely different dynamic and a mundane view no longer exists.

There’s nothing needed for fulfillment when this dynamic takes hold because one realizes life is already fulfilled. How can it not be with the understanding that all you need you already have because all that you have has no lasting substance to it. If everything is impermanent including life itself nothing will bring fulfillment to life except the understanding that life’s already fulfilled. Everything reached for in life is used as a temporary fix strictly to fulfill some inner craving, this is the reason why one is never truly satisfied. If there wasn’t a craving to be fulfilled, there wouldn’t be a need for a temporary fix. To me this is why impermanence has so much value because when it’s understood, the craving for fulfillment is replaced with a satisfaction that whatever happens next doesn’t matter much because one day whenever that day may be, what’s next will prove just how impermanent life really is.

What's Liked Bondage

There’s no denying the Conditioned Mind is like a pleasure seeking machine, but giving in constantly to doing what’s liked keeps the conditioning in control and thus one in bondage to it.

There was a FB discussion yesterday with a woman who says she occasionally uses drug because she likes the way they make her feel. Sure it feels good, why else do it? It’s not for me to label this as anything, all I know is for me giving in to the barrage of what’s liked thoughts keeps the I Self conditioning in place which keeps one in the bondage and prison to I. It’s one thing to get caught in a flare up of selfish behavior, it’s another thing to consciously even though it’s done unconsciously, keep the self satisfying conditioning in place. The human mind can justify anything and this is a daily occurrence for most, but until this is seen the bondage to I will remain.

There’s nothing inherently wrong with doing something that’s liked, but there are differences and what they are is most are selfish to fill some inner lack, but some arise from a deep place of stillness for the betterment of others. Reaching out for anything to fulfill a self satisfying need is purely selfish and it’s at the core of most things reached for; no matter how good it makes you feel. Someone once told me they enjoyed smoking cigarettes and they probably do, but except for satisfying a selfish desire, what benefit is there to smoking? It’s strictly done to satisfy self. Millions do this all the time with an array of things, alcohol, gambling, food, drugs, sex, helping others and so on, but until it’s seen that if one needs to use something to alter the way that they feel which is always derived from selfishness, the conditioned bondage to self remains in place. Check this for yourself or not, but it’s a truth that won’t be seen as long as the Conditioned Mind is in control and this is because it will justify the selfish reaching in some way.

Life: A Silent Phenomenon

One has to be just as ok with perfect disease as with perfect health for there to be silence. Only when silent will it be seen that everything will work itself out and it’s because there’s no needing anything different.

Just be silent and all will work itself out. To me there’s a silent phenomenon about life that’s hard to put into words, it has to do with how everything will pass regardless of what happens, but the silence is always there. It’s been this way and will continue this way forever. Even if for some reason there was no more Earth, the Universe wouldn’t miss a beat, existence in whatever form would still be. This is what makes life so strange, it just does its thing regardless of what humanity does; humanity is just one part. All the noise, greed, hate, and delusion only mean something to a noisy mind, it means nothing to the Universe. There was a study done on what would happen if humanity became extinct and the result was life on earth would simply go on, just not for man. This silent phenomenon of life is what most of us are searching for, but the reason it’s not revealed is because there’s not enough silent space to experience it.

To live in this silence is where everything works out, not because it’s the way you want it to be, but because it’s the way it is. The value of being silent isn’t given enough attention by the individual or the collective in today’s society. Life is mostly looked at as a doing (noise) and this is constantly reinforced. Most people don’t have the tools to be silent so it’s fleeting at best. When of the mind the mind causes suffering. If silent on can not suffer because there’s no mind agitations causing it. One has to be just as ok with perfect disease as with perfect health for there to be silence. Only when silent will it be seen that everything will work itself out and that’s because there’s no wanting anything different.

Loving Energy Heals

The only way loving energy can be emitted out into the world is by allowing the silence of the Universe to play the instrument without one putting their conditioned selfish spin on it.

Selfish energy harms, loving energy heals. It really is as simple as this statement, but recognizing the difference of the two is what’s tricky. You would think the differences would be obvious, and they may be if you’re truly awake, but that’s not the case because of the unawareness of most of just what a Conditioned Mind is. I know one can only see what is within, but very few have the willingness to look within to truly see what truth is; a story of truth is not truth. I love when someone says “we all have our own perception of truth” but what’s not understood is that’s the problem because there’s only one truth and this makes everyone have some kind of selfish agenda, even if it’s not seen in this way; the Conditioned Mind is diabolical. That’s where those who truly see differ as there’s no agenda attached to what is done. Very few people actually see how much selfish energy is in place and how much harm is really caused. It has been my experience that all arises from stillness and it doesn’t need my spin put on it.

A true instrument will simple do what’s in front of you. That’s the only time an instrument can be truly played; in the Now. If you want to be a true instrument, the Universe will have to do the playing. Even those attempting to put loving energy out into the world don’t see how that’s just a story. Very few truly see this. How one will know they’re stuck in this space is since everything arises from silence if one attaches a label associated with noise to the silence, they, not the Universe becomes the player of the instrument and this makes the instrument out of tune. The only way loving energy can be emitted out into the world is by allowing the silence of the Universe to play the instrument without one putting their conditioned selfish spin on it. It will be then that loving energy heals and selfish energy simply falls away.

Conceptual Living

Life isn’t a competition to be more spiritual than someone else, it’s simply to find that place within which doesn’t require a story or concept to be at peace and to remain there as much as possible.

If life is lived between the distinction of it being good or bad, whichever one is chosen they are really one in the same. Granted the outer behavior will be different, but the inner energy will be the same because both good and bad are a made up concept of the way one thinks life should be. Of course the Conditioned Mind loves the good and wants to push away what it considers as bad. Concepts lead to problems because they’re made up. It’s the reason I write as I do and why my writings are based in finding a true place within that doesn’t require a story or concept for there to be peace in your life. If you’re not at peace right now, ask yourself why. What do you think it would take to be at peace? More knowledge of spirituality, more money, better health, better job, better spouse, and the list goes on. The truth is nothing on the outside will make the inside better because why you think the inside needs to be better is an inside job which will only get better when it’s realized it’s already as good as it’s going to get.

Life isn’t a competition of who knows more about spirituality or who has more stuff, to me the only thing that matters is if I’m in my place within that doesn’t required a made up concept and story. Nothing else and I truly mean this, nothing else matters. To me life isn’t about anything, nor does it have to be. When the need arises to make it about something, instantly one is pulled from their place within and with it goes their peace. I know the Universe has done for me what I could never have done for myself, but it’s not a competition to be more spiritual than anyone else, it’s simply to find that place within which doesn’t require a story or concept to be peace and to remain there as much as possible.

Form or Freedom

Unconsciousness is ignorance and although there’s no bliss in being ignorant, there is a certain innocence in not knowing what you don’t know. Until what you don’t know becomes known you just won’t know.

Everything arises from the stillness of life, but it’s at that exact time that there will either be attachment to form or there will be freedom from it. This is the dilemma of life or at least it is for the one who see this. If it’s not seen you will just go on your merry way attached to form because there won’t be the awareness to not attach to it. You would think this would be a dilemma if it wasn’t seen, but since you don’t know what you don’t know, there’s no dilemma, at least to the one who doesn’t know. Unconsciousness is ignorance and although there’s no bliss in being ignorant, there is a certain innocence in not knowing what you don’t know. I suffered for years not knowing what I didn’t know, but now the suffering is so much less because of the awareness of what causes suffering.

Even though there’s so much more awareness of suffering, not only mine, but the suffering of others, I prefer this way as opposed to living in ignorance because it is in this exact moment that I am free. If you know the cause of something, it can be changed. If you just know there’s something causing you to suffer, but are not sure what it is, the suffering will most likely continue in one form or another. Know your own mind and don’t concern yourself with anything else. Break the chains to the attachment to form and you will know freedom. Or not and remain in bondage to the very thing that causes you to suffer. Everything arises from stillness, it’s at that time that there will either be attachment to form or there will be freedom from it.

False Self Addiction

If it wasn’t for the attachment to a false self that creates bondage, addiction would be non existent because the craving of a self needing life to be in some other way would never occur.

Each day most of our waking hours are spent trying to arrange the day to our liking, the only problem with this is most of our day is wasted trying to arrange the day to our liking. This occurs because we have been conditioned to believe there is a self that needs things to be different. This conditioning keeps the mind addicted to this self which creates a constant state of agitation, and when the mind is agitated it will use whatever tools it has developed. Not so much to quiet the agitation, but more so to distract from it. The distractions in this case manifest as Conditioned Mind Patterns that are constantly trying to arrange life by using whatever it deems necessary to satisfy this false self.

If it wasn’t for the need to satisfy a false self, these cravings to want life to be in some other way which are caused by one’s own mind, wouldn’t exist. This agitation is the cause of the constant rearranging of life and it’s because of the false self needing life to be a certain way, but something would exist without the addiction to a this false self and that would be peace. The peace of just being because the addiction to the false self wouldn’t exist. If you don’t think this is true, it’s probably because of the addiction to the false self that’s not allowing your mind to settle so you can be aware of the peace that passes all understanding and go beyond the cravings brought on by the false self wanting things to be in some other way. Until this changes, nothing changes.

Present Moment Distractions

To be present in the moment is to be with what’s occurring at this exact time. A distraction will arise when the mind becomes agitated because discipline was never developed to be in the moment.

Some say there isn’t a choice to be made as to whether there’s discipline that allows for peace, but I have found this not to be so. Yesterday I was at the doctors office, I was filling out paperwork, the place was packed with over twenty five people who were there before me. It was moving very slow as I was there for over an hour. As I was waiting I was just watching all the distractions my mind was creating to divert from the moment, “This is ridiculous, I’ll come back another day, let me check my phone, let’s see what’s happening on FB, call someone, blaming the Doctors office for being incompetent, it certainly seems the longer one waits, the more the Conditioned Mind nonsense commences, but this nonsense only takes hold if one is unaware of it.

This is where the developed practice of discipline comes into play with the possibility of putting it into place instead of giving in to the mind agitations and being annoyed. Discipline has to be developed to keep one is the present moment, that is unless one is totally unaware of the present moment. This goes for everything, whether it’s traffic or the line in a store that causes the mind to become agitated, it only grabs you if there isn’t awareness of it, so instead of being in the nonsense, I can still be at peace even though the mind wants things otherwise.

Now granted this agitation initially arises on its own, but this is where the awareness of it comes in. Once it arises only with the necessary awareness will one be able to truly be with the agitated moment, which can then be replace with the discipline that has been developed. I was watching most of the people being distracted so they didn’t have to be in the moment. Since in each moment we can only have one thought at a time, the level of discipline developed determines if your thoughts grab you, and that’s what determines if you are free or if you are a puppet on a string.

Mask of Addiction

Remove the mask of addiction the Conditioned Mind uses and see yourself as the beautiful creation that you truly are. We’re all from the same Universe that accepts us just as we are.

After a time when someone isn’t physically addicted to something, the thing that makes one return to the reaching is the Conditioned Mind. There’s nothing physical that makes this occur. It’s called a relapse when this return occurs, but it’s not really a relapse, it occurs because the conditioning that makes a person need to reach for something in the first place is still in place. One may not even want to reach for the thing, but there isn’t much of a choice. A person can only do what they’re conditioned to do so when the conditioning changes to not have the need to reach outside yourself for fulfillment, one’s addiction will be no more.

If this is contingent on anything but the freedom from the bondage of a self that needs to reach, something else will be used as a substitute. Quietness needs to be developed to take away all substitutions, if not the reaching will continue; this is the mask of addiction. A mask is all that’s really ever developed because it shifts the dependency from one thing onto something else. Freedom can only be had when one is free of all masks. To be truly free there has to be freedom of all dependencies and you must be able to be with yourself (without a mask) just as you are, without the need to reach for anything to make you feel different. Remove the mask of the Conditioned Mind and see yourself as you truly are; a beautiful creation of the Universe that loves you just the way you are. The question is do you or do you wear a mask?

Truth is Love

In quietness all truth is revealed, not because it comes from a book or a conjured up conditioned thought, it’s revealed because it comes from love. Know the truth and be set free.

There is no other purpose to our existence, but to be an expression of love. It’s not to be anything else; love is who we are. One can make up a story of love to be some belief conjured up by the Conditioned Mind, but this isn’t loves energy, it’s yours. We are love and the base of our existence can’t be changed. It’s like an apple seed, it will always produce apples, and no matter what you do with the apple after it grows and ripens, its nature is always that of an apple. Whether its mixed with other fruit, crushed to make apple sauce, blended into a shake, used to make a pie, or just eaten, its nature doesn’t change, so it is with us regardless of what story we make up. It’s only the way the mind has been developed that makes us do anything that doesn’t have love as its base.

When the mind becomes quiet and the noise subsides, there’s a peace that comes over you that passes all understanding. In this peace there’s the realization that life is a manifestation of love and any thought that isn’t in alignment with this is only there because of the Conditioned Mind. One is always of love, one cannot not be, but the awareness of this is mostly blocked. Learn to remove the blocks and be in alignment with love so can be the instrument to plant seeds of love wherever you go. Be very still so you can be sure they’re the seeds of love that are being planted and not self serving seeds. An interpretation of love is not loves interpretation of love. In quietness all truth is revealed, but not because it comes from a book or a conjured up Conditioned Mind thought, it’s revealed because it comes from love and that’s the truth.

Perfect Imperfections

Accepting the imperfections of yourself is just as important as accepting yourself when you’re acting in a loving manner. The key is to remain with loving energy regardless of what happens.

Loving and accepting yourself as is and not using a sledge hammer to beat yourself up when there are reactions to situations that aren’t based in love, is probably one of the most difficult lessons I’ve learned in the last ten years. I’ve never claimed to be anything but human and I seem to prove it everyday, but it’s of paramount importance that I remember this because my human conditioning has deeply engrained triggers that are less than favorable. This isn’t to just discount unloving behavior by saying it is what it is, but waking up and coming from a place of love to me has been a slow process. In some ares the change has been profound and in other areas not so much. It pains me when I act in the selfish manner that was always in place prior to ten years ago, but now there are mostly momentary flare ups of selfish behavior instead of being the norm. It’s so important to recognize this because if you don’t, the selfish conditioned energy remains and gains a stronger foothold to repeat its engrained patterns.

Unloving behavior hurts, but it doesn’t only hurt you it hurts others as well. This is when it gets touchy because if you don’t accept what has been done, the past energy is than in control of the present along with selfish energy. Accepting the imperfections of yourself is just as important as accepting yourself when you’re acting in a loving manner. The key here is to remain with loving energy regardless of what happens, not easy, but the alternative is to be with energy that’s not conducive to love and this doesn’t benefit anyone. People may be hurt by you because of the engrained Conditioned Mind Patterns in place, but how long it affects them is part of their conditioning. If things are to ever change, love has to be the energy in place regardless of how unloving one may act as the imperfections have to be accepted as if they were perfect.

Only One Truth

Truth is not something that’s created to make life fit nicely into a mind made story of the way one thinks life should be. Truth is already in place and it doesn’t need a story to make it so.

Although awakening is a process of becoming aware of what blocks the heart from love, to me it only opens and expands each day by developing a daily mindfulness and sitting practice. Because of this, no longer does the world revolve around my “I” it more so revolves around the “I” of others. Each day I bring a vision of how I can be a benefit to others by writing and posting a daily article, this has been done everyday for the past three plus years. There is awareness into my day to day existence and although there are some mishaps because the conditioned mind is relentless, the process is a continuation into the expansion of truth; with this expansion of truth comes the expansion of love into my day to day life and the life of others.

This expansion doesn’t take thought, it takes a settled mind. The subtitle of my book: You Are Not Your Thoughts was chosen for this reason. All created stories of truth are only our attached thoughts. When this was understood “I” was understood and it was the beginning of the end of the life of lies that I lived. This brought me to the realm of the unknown (truth), and this realm is not something that can brought about by thought. Thought will only block truth. Stillness is where the realm of the Spirit and our true nature manifest, it is where one connects to all of life and feels the warmth and truth of the Sunlight of the Spirit. It is our home, our place of peace that’s passes all understanding, it is the truth of one’s existence. This needs no story to be, one only needs to stop thinking to allow truth to arise.

Taking on God's Role

The Universe does its thing without any help whatsoever from humans. Until this is seen, one will judge and the role of God will be taken on. It’s in one’s judgements that they are judged.

Every time a judgement is made that something is right or wrong or it needs to be a certain way, it’s as though the role of God is taken on. I use the word God here in the sense of energy, not as an almighty power. Our finite minds like to think we know what’s best not only for ourselves, but also for others. We really don’t though because there is so much that goes on that’s unknown. Of course the story that you know can be made up and this is when the role of God is taken on. Not judging is difficult because of the harm humans do to each other, but when a judgement is made it blocks love from being present in one’s life. There are many tragic events that occur throughout life, some natural, some from human behavior, the thing to do if there’s to be constant loving energy is to not look for a reason as to why things happen. There really isn’t any rhyme or reason as to why most things happen, but to the Conditioned Mind this isn’t acceptable so it needs answers; mostly they are made up.

You think you know what’s going on, you breathe, bleed, heal, and many other things that just occur and it has nothing to do with any doing on your part. There have been many wars and tragic events throughout history and although the exact reason as to why they occur isn’t known, playing God and making up some story just blocks the love in your heart. When you judge something in the Universe as being out of place, you take on the role of God and you emit the exact energy you are against. The Universe does its thing without any help whatsoever from humans. Until this is seen, one will judge and the role of God will be taken on. It’s in one’s judgements that they are judged.

Simply Love

If you truly love there will be much compassion and that’s the energy that may someday change the world, but wanting it different just reinforces the judging energy that’s controlling the world.

Heart breaking and yet if one attaches to what happened in Las Vegas, the energy of the individual who did this remains in place and basically the unconsciousness wins. Unfortunately the world is mostly unconscious and many more things like what happened in Las Vegas are going to occur; just look at the violence of how history repeats itself. The unconscious energy causes so much destruction because that’s it’s nature. To me it’s inevitable that these things happen because of the unconsciousness that’s in place. It pains me to see this because it doesn’t accomplish anything, it just causes suffering. This is real to the extent that it’s happening, but we’re living in delusional times where any true sense of reality is simply missed because of all the nonsense that’s in plaice. From the entertainment industry, to our schools, the food industry, and so on, the tools in place are keeping the unconscious energy as the primary energy that we live by. To come from a place of purity is not the norm. It will only be a matter of time before a nuclear weapon is launch somewhere. This doesn’t mean you don’t love and do everything you can to spread it, but the unconscious energy is winning the battle and even though love does make progress, the unconsciousness of individuals causes so much harm that it’s hard to see.

This is why I do what I do, but there are even tools in place to prevent the message of love from being spread. Social media, FB especially controls what’s put out, as I have recently been blocked from posting in groups, I only post in groups that ask me to, but to no avail. The news media as the entire entertainment industry is also controlled and ruled by unconscious energy, as is world wide politics. There’s much to overcome if loving energy is to ever become humanities primary energy. The key is to not attach any emotional behavior to the unconscious acts that are done. If you truly love there will be much compassion and that’s the energy that may someday change the world, but for now one has to be ok with the way things are because wanting it different just reinforces the judging energy that’s controlling the world.

Judging Energy

Understanding conditioned behavior for what it is doesn’t condone unloving behavior nor does it exalt loving behavior, it just allows one to see that a person can only act as the conditioning in place allows.

It’s pivotal to one’s peace of mind to not judge the conditioned behavior of not only individuals, but also of oneself. If one is to ever be at peace there can’t be judgement of how someone behaves. This instantly causes separation because it puts up a barrier between the one who’s judged and the one who is doing the judging. Judging emanates an energy that makes a me and a you, without this judging energy one is in unity with themselves and with others. I know this isn’t easy to accept, but people can only do what their conditioning tells them to do and although the consequences of one’s behavior will be drastically different, judging anyone causes separation from oneself and thus from all humanity; non judgmental unites, judging separates.

Seeing the conditioning for what it is doesn’t condone unloving behavior nor does it exalt loving behavior, it just allows one the understanding that everyone does what they’re conditioned to do. In this understanding there is a peace that passes all understanding and it’s because there’s no judging energy to cause separation. There can’t be because in this space of not judging and just seeing the conditioning for what it is, it’s not being assigned to anyone in particular, it’s just being seen as the conditioning in place and regardless if there’s loving or unloving behavior, it’s just conditioning, nothing more, nothing less.

Thought Created Suffering

You cannot suffer without the thought of suffering. Again: You cannot suffer without the thought of suffering. See the truth in this simple yet profound statement.

You do become your thoughts to the degree of the energy they are given even though you are not your thoughts. Why it’s so difficult to see the real issue with one’s own thoughts is because the suffering is very subtle and is probably not even considered as suffering. Here are a few example of just how subtle the suffering is. Just casually being at the supermarket and looking for the shortest line is a form of suffering. Changing lanes while driving because it’s deemed the person in front of you isn’t driving to your liking is suffering. Wanting someone else instead of the person in a certain political office causes suffering. These along with any other thought of thinking something should be different creates suffering. If the thought wasn’t there, the suffering wouldn’t be there. You can make the spiritual life about anything you want, God, charkas, loving energy, unity, Universal Love, and so on, but the bottom line is a thought about anything doesn’t make it true, it just makes it your story.

This is why I wrote “You cannot suffer without the thought of suffering” there is no suffering without the thought to make it happen. This doesn’t mean things don’t happen that you would prefer didn’t, but the thing itself cannot cause suffering unless a thought is attached to it that reinforces the suffering. Very subtle is this attachment, but so prevalent is the suffering this causes. This shouldn’t be taken lightly, it’s the fundamental principle of all suffering and unless it’s understood, the subtleness will continue to keep you blind to its subtleness and the suffering that is truly going on.

Presence of Stillness

The degree of stillness which will be experienced can be measured by the extent to which one relinquishes their dependency on the external world of form and places trust and confidence in stillness.

At first, you may not understand why practicing ceaselessly to develop stillness has anything to do with your being happy, successful, or healthy. You may not even be able to see what connection stillness has with the mundane affairs of life. You will only discover this through your own experience because regardless of any information one may offer to you as to what their discoveries have been, or the thousands of lives that have had so called spiritual experiences, you will not be convinced until you yourself have had the actual experience. Every person who has known dissatisfaction, incompleteness, and frustration will someday learn that there is only one missing link in his entire chain of harmonious living and that is the presence of stillness; consciously, daily, and hourly.

The secret of harmonious living is the development of stillness which is spiritual consciousness. In that consciousness, fear and anxiety disappear, and life becomes meaningful with fulfillment at its core. The degree of stillness or if you like spiritual consciousness which will be experienced can be measured by the extent to which one relinquishes their dependency on the external world of form and places trust and confidence in stillness. It stillness we can overcome every obstacle and it is in the presence of stillness that these obstacles simply fall away.

Separating Energy

When something is wanted other than how it is, it brings on a chain reaction of circumstances that causes a separation with the present moment and thus with others.

Separating energy always makes things worse. This is difficult at times to see because even when one loves there can be separation, but what has to be understood is it’s not the energy of love because love can’t separate; a response that isn’t from love is where the separation occurs. Even if every action you did was from pure love it doesn’t mean everyone will respond to you in the same manner. As the story goes all Jesus did was teach how to love and we know what the leaders of the that time did to him. Even though he said “They know not what they do” and there was no separation in his heart, his fate was seal because of the hateful energy of those around him.

I do not profess to know the great secrets of the Universe, but I do know in the space of stillness the energy of love transformed me. This doesn’t guarantee anything nor does it mean I walk around in la la land. As a matter of fact, I do a mindfulness practice, I chant, I sit in quiet and yet I still want to smack some people; for me it’s just the way it is. Do whatever it is you think you need to do, just understand if it doesn’t unite than it separates. The key is to see if it’s you producing the separation or if the separation comes from others and if it does remember “They know not what they do”

Power to Control

We’re all human and because of this we have many traits in common, but there’s one difference between those who are awake and those who remain asleep and that’s the awareness of just how conditioned one is.

To say there’s plenty of issues in our world is an understatement, but it will not change going in our current direction because there are so few that truly understand what it will take to allow this to happen. The fact of the matter is one can only change what’s within themselves, the world will never change because of my writings or volunteering to help others. It will make my story better and more enjoyable to me so I can feel good about myself, but that’s about it. When the individual conditioning that has been in place for eons changes, that’s when humanity will change. This conditioning is strictly about power. It’s always about the power to control, nothing more, but this isn’t about countries, it’s about people.

Everyone comes from where they come, from Donald Trump to Hillary Clinton, to Kim Jong Un and it’s their conditioning that makes them do what they do. I mention this because they have much influence in what happens in the world, but there are many more players than those three. From those leaders who are at the top, as individuals I don’t see much love for others, I see a lot of wanting to control others (power). The power for control is at the base of the Conditioned Mind. Until there’s awareness that one can only change themselves if the world is to change, the desire for power and control will remain the direction that we go in individually and thus collectively. So not much is going change because everyone wants to change the world which keeps the conditioning that has been in place for eons at the controls of the individual and thus the collective.

Unloving Energy

Humanity is stuck in trying to fix our problems with the same energy that creates them. Violence trying to end violence with violence or anger trying to stop anger with anger just doesn’t work.

I know it seems as though I took a stand against what was being protested at the NFL games, but it’s not so. I just won’t support certain energy. I see things in a way that not many do, this doesn’t really mean anything, but I see what I see. The conditioning of humanity has been in place for so long that we are blind to the dog chasing its tail energy that we adopt. It seems humanity has been on a downward spiral since the beginning of time, always acting violently and unloving towards one another. Everyone thinks their way is the right way, we are stuck in this hideous cycle. There is so much unloving energy in place that I don’t know if it will ever change. I’m not saying don’t try, but what happens is the same unloving behavior that’s in place is trying to change itself.

It’s not only people that have become accustomed to unloving energy, the entire structure of our society has evolved in this unloving way. I don’t know what the answer is, but we mostly try to fix our problems with the same energy that creates them. Violence trying to end violence with violence. Anger trying to stop anger with anger. This is the dog chasing its tail energy that’s in place and it’s the reason not much changes and history repeats itself. There are surface changes that do occur, but with the structure of greed, hate, and delusion firmly in place, these changes just help the collective conditioning solidify itself by remaining in a delusional state. Until one can be with energy that supports stillness alone, humanity will remain stuck chasing its own tail.

World Wide Unconscious Energy

Unconscious energy affects everyone. It matters little where or why it arises, that is does is the only concern and until this is seen for what it is, it will remain unconsciously in control.

There’s been a lot going on in the USA the last few day, but the venue of the unconsciousness is not as important as the unconsciousness itself. There’s unconscious energy in place all over the world, what’s happening in the USA is just in addition to it. You may ask what exactly is unconscious energy? My definition would be anything that is attached to that has to do with wanting the present moment different; this includes wanting people and situations different. Any thought given energy that’s outside the now is conditioned because it isn’t based in where life actually happens. Only now has validity because it’s the only place that truly exist. Everything else is just a thought of the way one thinks now should be and this is where all unconsciousness arises from; this also includes people and situations.

All unconsciousness arises from some form of attachment and the subtleness of this isn’t really seen nor understood. One of the most subtle yet least seen attachments is when one thinks their opinion is actually the way something is and it’s defended as being truth. Everyone sees things as it arises within themselves and until the attachment to this is let go of, an opinion will be formed because of the associated unconscious energy. Nothing from outside yourself really means anything because everything arises from within you. Unconscious energy can only manifest from one who is unconscious and until the conditioned unconsciousness is seen for what it is, its energy will remain in control and not much will change because the unconscious energy won’t allow it to.

Protesting Energy

The only reason protesting energy is in place is because one thinks (a story) the present moment isn’t good enough so it needs to be changed to the way the Conditioned Mind makes you think it needs to be.

The greatest challenge one will face in life is being able to create the space to just be; adding nothing, taking nothing away. If there can be awareness of space for one millisecond, liberation begins. There’s no proving oneself or needing anything different in the space, the Conditioned Mind will protest this and at first this will be very powerful, but as time goes on this space becomes unshakeable as one’s inner protests lessen and the conditioned protesting energy dissipates. This protesting energy is in place because there’s simply no space to see anything else. It comes in many shapes and forms and it’s the norm of what the Conditioned Mind offers, but it’s very misleading in what it offers. It promises liberation, but it doesn’t make good on it. It may give you all the stuff that it says is needed for liberation, but even if one attains everything that they want, if you remain in the throes of the Conditioned Mind, you have attained nothing, especially liberation.

Space is needed between one’s thoughts if the Conditioned Mind is to loosen its grip. The more space there is, the more liberated one will be. It’s simple math, the more one spends time in the space between your thoughts, the more love there will be in one’s life. Many lives are lived with protesting energy without even realizing it’s occurring. Anytime the space is substituted with some thought, true love of the heart is being protested and the Conditioned Mind takes over to make up a story of how one thinks life should be. After all the only reason something is protested is because one thinks (a story) the present moment isn’t good enough so it needs to be changed to the way one thinks it should be; the I want, what I want, when I want it mind. In the space between our thoughts nothing needs to be added because nothing needs to be different, so in this space there’s the understanding right now is enough and it doesn’t need protesting energy to be different.

Finger Pointing

Unconsciousness is only supported by unconsciousness and because of the subtleness of unconscious energy this results in pointing fingers at others without the ability to truly look at yourself.

The Conditioned Mind supports unconscious energy and whatever spin one puts on it, this energy only allows you to point the finger at others. I knew when I posted the article yesterday afternoon on my timeline it was going to activate many triggers which would lead to name calling and finger pointing. All I did was post that I did not support the dividing energy of what NFL players where doing before each game; I chose to not watch the games. I was called a fraud amongst other things which doesn’t really bother me because the source of the name calling and finger pointing is from the unconscious energy that is destroying our society and planet. There’s very little understanding of what the Conditioned Mind is so there are many fingers that point at others along with other associated unconscious behavior. This energy has been in place for eons, it’s why humanity is in the dire straits that it is. This has nothing to do with what is happening, but it does have everything to do with the unconscious energy that one emits and lives by.

I see what is seen and it matters little if it’s agreed with or not. I write that’s it, I never wrote to be anything. If I’m a fraud to you so be it. If what I wrote yesterday or if my previous articles don’t resonate with you, move on. Go and latch onto someone who fits in with your conditioned behavior. I never claimed to be anything, I just write what arises in me. I don’t need to point fingers at people because I see the conditioning for what it, but I will call it as it arises in me. There’s so much energy that’s not only dividing our country, but it’s dividing our entire world, and although you may not agree with what I write, I will always write what arises in me, only because I have to as it is what is seen.

Love From the Heart

You can live from your head, but you can only love from your heart. You don’t love in the past or future, you love in the present because the energy of the heart is from what’s happening now.

If you sit around waiting for the other shoe to drop it will happen because by expecting it, you are giving it the energy it needs to occur. Your projections eventually become your reality. Projections always come from our head, never from our heart. When we love it’s from the heart and that’s the energy we will emit, not the projecting energy of waiting for the other shoe to drop. That doesn’t mean everyone will love us back, although everyone’s heart is of love the Conditioned Mind blocks this from being known. It’s known in the head, but to truly emit love’s energy to others it has to be from the heart; the thought of love isn’t love. Going from the head to the heart is a difficult twelve inch transition and it’s the road less travelled. When the idea of love gets stuck in the head, there’s so much thinking involved and it becomes something other than love. I’m not sure what it becomes, but I do know when I love it strictly comes from my heart.

Projections always come from our head, this creates problems because the mind needs something to do if its not trained to be still. The mind that tries to solve problems is the same mind that creates them. If you make it a problem that the other shoe will drop, it will. You’re not separate from your mind, but sometimes it seems that you are. When you do something and say “why did I do that” the mind that told you to do it is the same mind that is making you question yourself. Nothing ever happens in your mind without your permission so when it’s learned to live from the heart, the head will no longer be in control projecting and waiting for the other shoe to drop. You will then be free to live your life as intended; from the love that is in your heart, instead of the mind made nonsense of what goes on between your ears.

Being With What Is

If you’re always trying to arrange things to your liking, it really shouldn’t be a surprise when most of the time things aren’t to your liking. One is truly free when it’s learned to be with what is, not what’s liked.

When listening to the radio and a song starts playing that is disliked, the reaction is to change the station to try and find a song that’s more suitable to one’s liking. This is the subtleness of the Conditioned Mind. It isn’t that you have to put up with things in life that aren’t like, by all means change the station, but understanding exactly why the station is being changed will assist in deciding if it really needs to be changed or not. Not much really changes whether the song is left on or not.

The radio station can be substituted with anything because it’s all arises from the same place; the Conditioned Mind. This time it’s a song, next time it’s a person or situation, but one doesn’t have to be a martyr and remain in their discontentment, once this is recognized, by that alone the attachment to self relinquishes the control it’s be given. This is vital if one is to be free of the subtle attachments created by the Conditioned Mind. The creator of all suffering is linked to some kind of attachment; a clinging to a certain belief that life would be more suitable if it were a certain way. When it’s understood life doesn’t have to be a certain way except in the way that it is that’s when one will be free, and it’s in this freedom that you can do whatever it is you like because it is known that your freedom isn’t dependent on it.

I Focused Stories

A story always needs a subject to focus on to be created. We supply the subject of all our stories when our focus is on the base of I. Without I, our innate divinity sustains itself naturally without the need for a story.

The subtitle of my book “You Are Not Your Thoughts” could have been You Are Not Your Stories. How attached one is to their stories is related to how disconnected one is to their divinity within. Every made up story is related to I and the more I controls, the less one is in alignment with their divinity. Just think about how the stories occur, when there’s traffic, who’s in the traffic? When there’s an individual who passes by and there’s an attraction, who is attracted to them? How about dessert, when it’s time for dessert, who is craving the desire to be satisfied? When anything is wanted, who is the individual who is wanting? All these questions have one answer in common, they’re all derived from I and it’s I who is the creator of all the stories. I want this or I want that, I don’t like this, I want this different, I want, I want, I want, all this wanting is just a story that keeps one from experiencing their own divinity.

Without I wanting is to be without a story and without the story there will be enough quietness to hear the divine urging within that is one’s true innate calling. The difference between one’s thoughts and one’s divinity is thoughts create a story that needs I to believe I am my thoughts and then the Conditioned Mind creates a story from these thoughts, but the story isn’t you as your thoughts aren’t you. It all begins with the attachment to I which makes you think your thoughts are who you are. Don’t attach I to your thoughts and it will be impossible to create an I story.

The divine always occurs in the present moment, why this isn’t known by more people is because of the attachment to I created stories. The divine is not a story, it’s divine. It doesn’t need a story, it always is. It’s the human development of I that doesn’t make this known. Anyone who has any inkling of truth in their life has at least minimized the attachment to I. It’s the only way for one to get quiet enough to realize “You Are Not Your Thoughts” and in the process there’s also the realization you are not your I subjected created stories either.

An Established Anchor

An anchor needs to be established so there’s a place one can return to when the merry go round mind is leading the charge. This is a place where it’s safe and secure away from the insanity of one’s own mind.

I was discussing meditation with a friend and we agreed that so many people have difficulty with it. Recently there was a study done where the subjects had a choice to pick electric shock therapy or sit in a empty room for fifteen minutes. Obviously everyone picked sitting in a room. After all how hard can that be? After the experiment, they asked the subjects if they had the choice again which would they pick, they all said the electric shock therapy. I find this astonishing, but I also understand the misconception of meditation and why this is so. It’s because so many people don’t truly investigate what mediation actually is and what it does. I can tell you this, it’s not magic, but I would like to share my thoughts on meditation which I refer to as simply sitting.

The first thing to do is establish an anchor. Everyone who is alive has some kind a place that is called home where the day starts and most times it ends. Even a homeless person has some kind of anchor to start the day regardless if it’s under a bridge or in a cardboard box. This anchor is the base which will be used to return to when the mind wanders. As one always returns home, so will the established anchor be used in this way.

In the beginning the mind will wander a lot because of the lack of developed discipline, it has to wander because there is nothing in place to keep it from doing so. The main reason meditation is difficult is because people think it’s something to do. One will never ever quiet the mind, it’s something that occurs on its own. This is probably the biggest misconception, that it’s something that can be done. Well the bad news is it can’t, but the good news is discipline can be established to allow the mind to settle. It will just take take time and perseverance to allow this. One sits, the mind wanders, one returns to whatever the established anchor is, the breath is such an anchor. As this is done over and over, the mind wanders less and less.

The benefit of this is when the mind begins to settle, there’s an awareness that at least for me allowed the reaching outside myself for my answers to stop. Once the reaching stopped, I started looking inward and life started to become different. This difference is in my view of life and how it has changed in a most beautiful way. But like I said, its not magic and the most important part of establishing any form of discipline is one will get out of it exactly what’s put into it.

Unity of the Heart

The Conditioned Mind which is based in noise, constantly tries to create a world that makes you think you need to be happy. This created noise blocks one from seeing their own innate goodness.

Creation occurs without permission so when it’s understood that we are a manifestation of Universal Energy and not much else really matters, the mind settles enough to see creation not as a mind made concept, but as its true intention to simply love. The only thing that keeps one in a state of unawareness to this love is their own mind. Stillness breeds truth, truth breeds freedom, freedom breeds clarity and clarity breeds stillness.

One day we are in this form and one day just like that we are not. How one is spending their time in this current form is their life. If it’s to serve self there will never be quietness and it will be very difficult to see truth and experience peace. If it’s to love creation from the heart and soul, there will be a quietness that will allow an inner peace to be discovered and one will be in unity with all beings. There may not be unity in return, but that’s someone else’s conditioning. Your own unity with creation is what’s important and how this unity will be known is by how settled the mind is. Unity comes from the heart not the mind, so our unity with each other is from love and there is only separation from this in the delusional world of thought.

Agitated Distractions

A distraction causes a person to reach for something because the mind is in a state of agitation. Distractions block the ability to live a life aligned with the love that’s in your heart.

Distractions are what the ego uses in the form of conditioning for its fuel; it needs energy to survive. It uses the past and future energies because in the present moment there’s only the energy of what is. What each and every distraction does is remove the ability to remain in the present moment so there can be an alignment with one’s true essence of what is. The objects used are what needs to be identified so one doesn’t give in to their magnetic pull because without the awareness that these distractions exist, their pull is to enticing not to give in to it; even with awareness it’s still very difficult not to give in. The mind will need to be very quiet to become aware of this and not give in to these subtle distractions. The nature of all distractions are the same, but they themselves manifest differently. It’s their nature to take you from the present moment so when you’re not present that’s how it will be known you’re being distracted.

A distraction is not the same as an agitation, they’re similar, but an agitation is what causes the need for a distraction to arise. If the mind was quiet without agitation there wouldn’t be a distraction. To be without distractions one must learn to be with their agitations so it quiets; without an agitation our distractions wouldn’t be. When distractions are non existent, the only thing that remains is quietness or if it’s preferred, peace. So the understanding of this is where one will experience peace, but don’t expect the ego to cooperate because to be without distractions is to be free of the egos control. It has been my experience that the ego doesn’t go away, but it does quiet down as long as it’s not given the energy to create agitated distractions.

External Influences

A person can only see what they’ve been influenced by and what influences you is limited by the books you read and whatever else is attached to from external sources.

The issue some have with my writings is because they aren’t from something they’ve read or some other external source that influenced their conditioned view. The understanding of life through a book or what others teach is very limiting because one becomes influenced only from that external source. You can only truly see what’s in the heart when that view is in place; influences are from the external. This is just the way it is. It’s from the silence of the heart that life’s real lessons are learned. The Universe is the best teacher, but there has to be stillness in place that allows one to hear it’s silence.

For whatever reason I’ve been given insights to the workings of how the Conditioned Mind is the cause of all suffering, not because of some outside influence, but because I have developed stillness that allowed my mind to settle enough so the influenced distractions of the external aren’t being attached to. This allows the silence of the Universe to be my teacher. It matters little if what I see is seen by others. Jesus and the Buddha among many others saw things others did not, that didn’t deter them. I write to share with others what has been bestowed upon me, whether it is seen by others is not a concern. One changes inwardly when the Universe does the changing. I would suggest if anyone truly wants to learn why they think and do what they do is to find their inner. place of stillness. This is invaluable if one wants to break free from the external influences of the Conditioned Mind to hear the teachings of silence offered by the Universe.

Ignoring Life

There is a choice in every moment that occurs which solely puts your life in your hands. If you don’t have awareness of this, you will be controlled unconsciously by what occurs without a choice.

Being in touch with what occurs in each moment of your life is living life as it unfolds without excluding any part of it. It’s easy to ignore what’s not wanted, but to include everything even though it may not be wanted is truly living. If something wants to be excluded find out what it is and why it’s not wanted. Obviously on the surface it would look as though it’s just not liked, but if it’s occurring, what good does it do ignoring it: ignoring then becomes a defense mechanism that keeps you from truly enjoying life. If you only enjoy life when what’s happening is going your way, there will be much suffering because of the way life changes. If you go on a vacation to a tropical island and it’s raining, therein lies your suffering; if it’s sunny everything is deemed great. This is but one example, I’m sure you can find your own that fits your current life.

In the situation described, why it causes suffering is because what’s occurring is being ignored, maybe not consciously, but it’s not wanted so it causes a mind agitation. The thing about this is the rain is totally out of your control, there’s nothing you can do to change it, meaning you can’t change the weather. Well you could do a Sun Dance, but I doubt that will work, so you will either be with life as it is or you will continue to ignore it by wanting it different. These are the choices that occur in every moment and it solely puts your life in your hands. It has nothing to do with anyone else or life circumstances, but if you don’t have awareness of this, you will continue to ignore life as unwanted situations arise. That is until one day when there will be nothing to ignore because life in this form will be no more.

Quality of the Mind

Life is mostly viewed through the intellect and as long as the tools developed by the intellect don’t fail, this view will most likely remain as it is with very little quality of the mind.

One may or may not become aware of how life is mostly viewed through the intellect, but if it does become known, it will be dependent on what tools are in place to cope with life. Some years ago I looked for another way because the tools I used for forty nine years no longer produced satisfying results. I was in a great deal of mind created pain and unfortunately I was only able to use the tools I had developed even though they failed. When one is at this so called crossroad there are many different available ways to go, but which way one heads is dictated by the conditioning in place. Some go inward, some remain entrapped to a downward spiral, some, although on the outside all appears to be well remain in bondage to “I” and some unfortunately die. One can only see what is seen, but that doesn’t mean what is seen is the most beneficial view.

It’s the quality of one’s mind that determines what is seen and the quality is related to the amount of stillness there is in one’s life. Noise takes away from the quality of the mind because it produces nothing but conditioned nonsense; that’s what noise is, conditioned nonsense. Story after story, concept after concept, belief after belief, there’s no stillness in any of these so there’s no quality. There’s plenty of quantity, but it’s all noise. Become mindful of this and watch how life becomes different, or not and remain with your stories, but understand this will limit the quality of your mind and thus it will limit the quality of your life.

Direct Experience

When the questioning stops it’s not because one has all the answers, it’s because answers are no longer necessary and what anyone else has to say only has value as it relates to your direct experience.

There is no substitution for the understanding of something from direct experience. You can read all the books, quote all the great mystics, sit for hours, go on retreat, belong to programs, and so on, but if you don’t have a direct experience where none of these things are needed, you will remain in the bondage of relying on what others say instead of a deep understanding of what it takes to be free. I notice a common theme in those who disagree with what I write and it usually comes from the way a third party sees things. I don’t agree or disagree with anyone because no one can see anything but what is revealed to them. What others say can resonate with you, but if it’s not directly experienced, it’s as if you are grasping for straws. I have been told numerous times that I’m wrong in a certain view, and I laugh because experience is neither right or wrong, it’s experience.

I don’t care who you quote, unless what you see comes from within, it’s superficial. People can only point and if there is to be freedom from the bondage of self, there will have to come a time when what you see is strictly your own. I know nothing about what resonates with someone else, but I do know what frees me and what holds me in captivity; this has nothing to do with what anyone else says. I read many books when I began this questioning of myself and they assisted in directing me inward, but the questioning has since ceased, not because I have all the answers, but because answers are no longer necessary. This is my direct experience and as far as I’m concern what anyone else has to say only has value as it relates to their and my direct experience.

Created Difficulty

Once one wants the moment to be different, the label difficult is instantly applied, and when this difficultly becomes too heavy just put it down and understand nothing truly needs to be different.

We can live the life we wish we had, we can live the life we think we should have, or we can live the life that we have. These are the three ways that we live everyday throughout our life. When the alarm rings and it’s time to get up for work, if we hit the snooze for more sleep and wish that we didn’t have to get up yet, we are wishing for life to be different. When we are envious of someone else and think that their life is better than ours, or if we think our life shouldn’t be the way it is, we our living a life that we think would be better if it was different.

When we are in a mind state of being with life exactly how it is, nothing has to be different, what this leads to is inner contentment. When we are content with what is, we are free because nothing is holding us back. Living this way, we live a life that isn’t based on conditions for contentment, this is true freedom. Not being content with the way things are creates the difficulty of wanting things different. And it’s a created difficulty because if you didn’t have the thoughts that you wanted things different and just accepted what is, the label difficulty would never be applied.

Our thoughts create our life, along with our labeled difficulties. If you want to believe those thoughts are who you are than those results fall on your shoulders, but it doesn’t have to be this way. Learn that no thought is you and no difficulty needs to be created. In stillness neither exist because neither are present. So if contentment is to be the consistent operating mode of the way your life is lived, than stillness must become the mind state more often then not. Use meditation to bring in stillness, use stillness to bring in peace. It’s the formula for a contented life, and with a contented life there will never be a need for one single moment to be different. Now wouldn’t that be different, but it will only be difficult when you tell yourself it is.

No Purpose Needed

To have a purpose to help others would mean someone has to be suffering in order to fulfill that purpose, this created purpose creates bondage and wherever there is bondage there is suffering.

The noise of the Conditioned Mind arises in many different ways and one of these ways is to create a purpose to get a sense of well being. Let’s use an example I often refer to but is not well received. Years back I was drinking heavily as I was searching for I’m not even sure what I attended a 12 Step program. They have 12 Traditions in place to run the organization and one of them states: “Each group has but one primary purpose — to carry its message to the alcoholic who still suffers” so in order for the group to exist which is made up of individuals, someone has to be suffering; this then becomes the individuals purpose. To me in this created purpose is one’s created bondage, and wherever there is bondage there is suffering. This suffering is very subtle, but it’s not limited to creating a purpose. Whatever is needed to induce a sense of well being instead of having it well up naturally, to that extent will one suffer.

I’m not saying don’t assist people where it can possibly help alleviate suffering for them, but if there’s attachment to making it a purpose, it will cause your own suffering. This is because you will always need someone who is suffering to maintain your sense of well being, that is just crazy. Why this sense of well being isn’t real is because it’s being manufactured. The Conditioned Mind will tell you what I’m saying is BS, but I will tell you from my experience I don’t need anyone’s suffering to create a purpose for my sense of well being. As a matter of fact any purpose is strictly something created, so why fall prey to its inherent suffering. In stillness no purpose is needed for one’s sense of well being because it arises naturally, so a purpose doesn’t have to be manufactured, especially one that needs someone to be suffering so you can make up a story to appease yourself.

Supported Results

Life is a process and the results that manifest in it are directly linked to the support that is given to the process. The seeds used for support are the seeds that you live by.

What you use as support in life is what determines the results of it. Support of greed, hate, and delusion will produce those results as will support that results in kindness, compassion, and love. This is the way the Universe works and although the results aren’t always seen by others or right away, eventually the individual will experience the results of what is used for support. One cannot support hate without hate being returned, as one cannot support love without love being returned. Life is a process and the results that manifest in one’s life are a direct result of the support that is given to their process. It really can’t be any other way, the seeds that you support are the seeds that grow, there’s no way around this.

For many years my support base was self serving and my results were strictly from this base, it’s no surprise when looking back at my life, all I see is chaos and confusion. How could it not be? Today it’s much different because my support isn’t linked to self serve. I’m not a believer of anything in particular but my experience, and this has resulted in stillness which the Universe uses to decide what my results will be. There’s so much more peace with this support. I already had life exactly how I thought it needed to be and I was miserable. So for me the support that results in peace is what’s of value and minus the story of needing peace or anything else, my support results in all I was ever looking for.

Repetitive Thinking

Many of the same thoughts arise and wanting the moment different is the common energy of this repetitive thinking. When you’re with things just as they are, there’s little room for repetitive thinking to be in control.

Over and over the same thoughts seem to go in circles throughout the day, some engaged in because of certain situations and some for no apparent reason at all. What happens while one is caught in this repetitive thinking pattern is it takes away from what is actually going on. This repetitive thinking will only be let go of if there’s awareness it’s happening and even then it will take discipline to stop it. How many times on Sunday do you think about having to go to work on Monday (It’s Monday Only in Your Mind). Or if you see something your attracted to, how many times do you go to what is causing the repetitive thoughts of whatever you’re attracted to. This repetitive thinking can be associated with all different kinds of energy, it’s not limited to any one in particular, but pleasure is a big part of the core energy of repetitive thinking as it’s very enticing to get caught up in things that have the applied label of like attached to it. Even if it seems like a person has repetitive negative thoughts there’s a perverse pleasure still associated to them.

Repetitive thinking become detrimental to one’s well being because of how it takes you away from the present moment and into a created fantasy. A practice of learning to use the body or breath does assist in becoming aware of the repetitive nonsense that many get entrapped to. By all means if your repetitive thinking truly benefits you go for it, but for me I’ve found that it just tends to wrap me up in the bondage of self. Wanting things different is probably the one repetitive thought that causes the most problems and although this may arise disguised as different thoughts, wanting the moment different is the common energy that causes the repetitiveness. When one can be with things as they are there’s little room for repetitive thinking to be in control.

A Conditioned Self

It may seem like one chooses what they do, but what is done is mostly controlled by the conditioned self. When this conditioned self is in control, there’s no choice because what is done is already chosen.

If you ever truly want to be free from your conditioned self, it has to be understood. Maybe not totally, but enough to understand it’s not or never was you. It’s mostly through ignorance that this conditioned self is given power so let’s look at some of the behavior of this conditioned self. We pout when things don’t go our way, we judge everyone including ourselves, when our mind becomes agitated we reach for a conditioned pacifier, we use and hold onto outer things to fill inner desires. We want, we want, we want.

This is so important to understand because it allows you to see there’s another way you can be; seeing this is the catalyst that urges one to look for something else. The something else turns out to be the bigger picture, so the more one is focused on that the less the voice of the conditioned self is heard, and the less that voice is heard, the less control it has and the more the bigger picture of creation is viewed.

The bigger picture is never about an individual. There’s very little control over anything in life and that’s okay because needing control locks one into the idea of a conditioned world. So if you ever want to be truly free, the conditioned self will have to take a backseat to the bigger picture, which has the possibility of infinite creativity that one’s conditioned self could never imagine. So don’t limit the unlimited by being controlled by a conditioned self that has nothing to do with life except in a conditioned world.

Two Frequencies

Life consist of a lower and higher frequency and the one that’s most prevalent in your life is dependent on how much I is in control. The more I controls, the more the lower frequency dominates.

There are two frequencies that one can live by, a lower one or a higher one. I know this now, but it wasn’t something I was always aware of. Nine years ago this changed because I become tired of being controlled by my lower frequency, which to me is to be controlled by the sense of I. This control keeps one in captivity to Conditioned Mind Patterns that lead one around as if they were a puppet on a string. The only way one’s higher frequency will be present is when these strings are cut. It’s very unfortunate because this isn’t understood nor is the fact of who the master puppeteer is, and this puppeteer controls just about every human being to some degree. The puppeteer is I and until this is realized the strings will never be cut and I will continue its onslaught of control.

To me this is why it matters little what you do if it’s controlled by I. It’s just the way it is, but this isn’t isolated to only the individual, if you look around and the mind gets settled enough, you will see this is the way of the world. It’s run by the frequency of I, the people in their assigned roles are just puppets and until more people wake up, the lower frequency will continue its dominance. At the lower frequency the core behavior is greed, hate, and delusion, and at the higher frequency it is love, kindness, and compassion; both of these can be added to accordingly. You can see the differences in the two frequencies and how one’s life would manifest outward depending on which frequency was lived by. This is a very practical way of looking at this so it should be easy to see which frequency is dominating your life. If it isn’t your higher frequency only you can change it by cutting the strings of the lower frequency of I, that is if it’s realized I is in control.

Controlled by Temptation

Temptations arise and seem like they are a part of being human, but giving into them is not human, it’s conditioning and as long as the conditioning is in place, acting upon an arisen temptation will be common place.

Each time one gives into a temptation, what causes giving into it not only gets reinforced, but it also gets engrained deeper in the subconscious. This is part of the reason it’s so hard to wake up from the sleep of unconsciousness. Without awareness of the temptation there’s no way not to give in. The temptation itself arises because of its trace energy that’s in place, to me one isn’t responsible for it arising, and if there isn’t awareness that it’s there, there’s really no responsibility for the reaction to the temptation. There are so many examples for this, one would be a person who cheats on their spouse. The temptation to satisfy a certain desire arises and because there’s no awareness of it, the reaction to the temptation has be acted upon. If there was an understanding of this, it wouldn’t prevent the temptation from arising, but it could prevent the reaction (acting upon) to the temptation.

This is but one example, how about the temptation to take drugs or reach for something else to alter your mind state. The desire to alter one’s current mind state simply arises and once it does because there’s no awareness of it, one will reach for and act upon the temptation with whatever they have developed to fulfill it. It could be cutting, alcohol, drugs, gambling, or a slew of other things, but regardless of what’s used the response to the temptation is in place because of the unawareness of it. Temptations will arise as it seems it’s just part of being human, but giving into it is not human, it’s conditioning, and as long as the conditioning is in place to act upon an arisen temptation, it will become that much more common place as it becomes unconsciously what is considered the norm.

Peace Isn't Accidental

Peace isn’t something that just happens accidentally to a person. Even if it isn’t realized, peace is the result of being aligned with the energy that allows for it to be.

Those who are at peace with themselves are at peace with the world, but this isn’t because everything is as wanted nor is it accidental, no it’s because whether it’s realized or not, one is aligning themselves to the energy that provides peace. You cannot be at peace if you’re using tools that don’t provide peaceful results from being experienced. If the mind is agitated and it’s not understood that it is, peace will be difficult because the tools needed to provide it won’t be used; it won’t even be known that they’re needed. Forty nine years of using tools that didn’t provide peace caused me and those around me many years of suffering. It wasn’t because of a lack of looking for peace, but because I didn’t understand about using tools that provided the peace I was seeking, there were no results of peace. Although today the mind still gets agitated, at least I understand what’s happening so there’s a lot less suffering because the agitations just don’t remain in place for long periods of time. There’s also a lot less time spent in reinforcing the mind agitations that arise because of the understanding.

Prior to the understanding of my own mind, my mind was in a constant state of agitation, but it’s not the peace that results in the mind settling that I understand, what I understand is why there wasn’t peace. That there’s awareness of an arising agitation is all that has to be noticed for the mind agitation to loosen its hold and as one becomes more aware of this, the hold becomes less. Don’t delve to deeply into trying to understand this because it then becomes just another agitation. Just see it for what it is, don’t try to change it nor want it different, just notice the awareness aware of awareness, that’s it. This will result in peace and not because it’s happening accidentally, but because of being aligned with energy that allows the mind to settle enough for one to be at peace.