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Deep Stillness

The depth of our stillness is what determines the depth of our love. Without depth there is just what’s on the surface and this flip flops so easily because of the dependency on things.

The deeper stillness is as our foundation, the more love will be emanated in our life, and obviously the more love we have the more can be given. Also the deeper the stillness, the less our conditioning is in control. Go to the depth not known and go to a place of purity, but this will take a tremendous amount of understanding of why we aren’t in this way already. The transformation that occurs with this understanding from our head to our heart will determine the depth of our love. It’s essential to get to the heart, but without stillness we remain stuck in the head.

I’ve seen this played out first hand in my life and when love comes from the head it benefits no one. It’s the heart of love that’s pure, the head is usually filled with some mind made concept of love; there are many conditions put on this type of love. This is the cause of the flip flopping between the head and heart. The lack of stillness creates a flip flop foundation so our emotions are very easily swayed by things, and the things that sway us are allowed to occur because our emotions are that of an immature child. Why else are we swayed when things don’t go our way? Does not a child act in the same manner? Do not we as adults, act in the same manner of stamping our feet when we don’t get our way?

The purity of a child is different than the immature emotions of a child, so learn to go deeper than what the surface supplies you with and you will see a level of maturity not previously known. When this does become known, your life will be much more stable because you won’t be so easily swayed by the nonsense the world provides as a foundation. And with a solid and mature foundation based in stillness which is beyond what happens on the surface, flip flopping ceases and from the love of the heart is how life is lived.

Inner Discontent

The search for peace will never result in peace because the search itself is what keeps one from experiencing peace. Only when the mind settles will the discontent subside and just like that therein lies one’s peace.

Many people are on a spiritual quest to find an answer and for me this was in the form the question why was I so discontented with life. I say was because the discontent is no longer there. For far to many years I didn’t truly understand this discontent and so it was always there as was the searching to quiet it. This searching manifested in many different ways and none were beneficial in living my life in a loving manner. This is because of the way I was conditioned, to self seek (quiet the discontent) which kept the it in place. What a ride this produced, hence there wasn’t much peace in my life. This lasted for forty nine years and then one day through a tiny crack in my ego there arose the possibility of a different view of life, which was revealed to me and gave me some real answers as to the true nature of my inner discontent.

Ten years ago what began as a crack has been expanding ever since. For the most part the discontent for peace is no longer there because it has been replaced with a simple quietness, but when the mind becomes agitated, the discontent does return because of the Conditioned Mind Patterns in place; I’ve learned to see it from the I perspective and not attach to them. Only attachment to I keeps the discontent in place so one has to search instead of there being peace. The search for peace will never result in peace because the search itself is what keeps one from experiencing peace. In this moment right now is where peace resides so there’s no need to search for what already is. It’s only when the mind settles and I is let go of that the inner discontent subsides and lo and behold it is then that one will be at peace.

Temporary Fix

When impermanence is understood the craving for fulfillment is replaced with a satisfaction that whatever happens next doesn’t really matter because one day what happens next will prove just how impermanent everything is.

Death is a part of life as much as life itself is and regardless of any belief, one day this body will cease to support life in the form that it occupies today. We can make up a place spiritually that we are going to go to when we die, but the body is going to become void of life and it will either be cremated, decay in a box six feet below ground or in a vault above ground. If this one truth can be understood than nothing else would truly matter because the impermanence of all things would be known, and once the truth of impermanence is known, life takes on an entirely different dynamic and a mundane view no longer exists.

There’s nothing needed for fulfillment when this dynamic takes hold because one realizes life is already fulfilled. How can it not be with the understanding that all you need you already have because all that you have has no lasting substance to it. If everything is impermanent including life itself nothing will bring fulfillment to life except the understanding that life’s already fulfilled. Everything reached for in life is used as a temporary fix strictly to fulfill some inner craving, this is the reason why one is never truly satisfied. If there wasn’t a craving to be fulfilled, there wouldn’t be a need for a temporary fix. To me this is why impermanence has so much value because when it’s understood, the craving for fulfillment is replaced with a satisfaction that whatever happens next doesn’t matter much because one day whenever that day may be, what’s next will prove just how impermanent life really is.

What's Liked Bondage

There’s no denying the Conditioned Mind is like a pleasure seeking machine, but giving in constantly to doing what’s liked keeps the conditioning in control and thus one in bondage to it.

There was a FB discussion yesterday with a woman who says she occasionally uses drug because she likes the way they make her feel. Sure it feels good, why else do it? It’s not for me to label this as anything, all I know is for me giving in to the barrage of what’s liked thoughts keeps the I Self conditioning in place which keeps one in the bondage and prison to I. It’s one thing to get caught in a flare up of selfish behavior, it’s another thing to consciously even though it’s done unconsciously, keep the self satisfying conditioning in place. The human mind can justify anything and this is a daily occurrence for most, but until this is seen the bondage to I will remain.

There’s nothing inherently wrong with doing something that’s liked, but there are differences and what they are is most are selfish to fill some inner lack, but some arise from a deep place of stillness for the betterment of others. Reaching out for anything to fulfill a self satisfying need is purely selfish and it’s at the core of most things reached for; no matter how good it makes you feel. Someone once told me they enjoyed smoking cigarettes and they probably do, but except for satisfying a selfish desire, what benefit is there to smoking? It’s strictly done to satisfy self. Millions do this all the time with an array of things, alcohol, gambling, food, drugs, sex, helping others and so on, but until it’s seen that if one needs to use something to alter the way that they feel which is always derived from selfishness, the conditioned bondage to self remains in place. Check this for yourself or not, but it’s a truth that won’t be seen as long as the Conditioned Mind is in control and this is because it will justify the selfish reaching in some way.

Life: A Silent Phenomenon

One has to be just as ok with perfect disease as with perfect health for there to be silence. Only when silent will it be seen that everything will work itself out and it’s because there’s no needing anything different.

Just be silent and all will work itself out. To me there’s a silent phenomenon about life that’s hard to put into words, it has to do with how everything will pass regardless of what happens, but the silence is always there. It’s been this way and will continue this way forever. Even if for some reason there was no more Earth, the Universe wouldn’t miss a beat, existence in whatever form would still be. This is what makes life so strange, it just does its thing regardless of what humanity does; humanity is just one part. All the noise, greed, hate, and delusion only mean something to a noisy mind, it means nothing to the Universe. There was a study done on what would happen if humanity became extinct and the result was life on earth would simply go on, just not for man. This silent phenomenon of life is what most of us are searching for, but the reason it’s not revealed is because there’s not enough silent space to experience it.

To live in this silence is where everything works out, not because it’s the way you want it to be, but because it’s the way it is. The value of being silent isn’t given enough attention by the individual or the collective in today’s society. Life is mostly looked at as a doing (noise) and this is constantly reinforced. Most people don’t have the tools to be silent so it’s fleeting at best. When of the mind the mind causes suffering. If silent on can not suffer because there’s no mind agitations causing it. One has to be just as ok with perfect disease as with perfect health for there to be silence. Only when silent will it be seen that everything will work itself out and that’s because there’s no wanting anything different.

Loving Energy Heals

The only way loving energy can be emitted out into the world is by allowing the silence of the Universe to play the instrument without one putting their conditioned selfish spin on it.

Selfish energy harms, loving energy heals. It really is as simple as this statement, but recognizing the difference of the two is what’s tricky. You would think the differences would be obvious, and they may be if you’re truly awake, but that’s not the case because of the unawareness of most of just what a Conditioned Mind is. I know one can only see what is within, but very few have the willingness to look within to truly see what truth is; a story of truth is not truth. I love when someone says “we all have our own perception of truth” but what’s not understood is that’s the problem because there’s only one truth and this makes everyone have some kind of selfish agenda, even if it’s not seen in this way; the Conditioned Mind is diabolical. That’s where those who truly see differ as there’s no agenda attached to what is done. Very few people actually see how much selfish energy is in place and how much harm is really caused. It has been my experience that all arises from stillness and it doesn’t need my spin put on it.

A true instrument will simple do what’s in front of you. That’s the only time an instrument can be truly played; in the Now. If you want to be a true instrument, the Universe will have to do the playing. Even those attempting to put loving energy out into the world don’t see how that’s just a story. Very few truly see this. How one will know they’re stuck in this space is since everything arises from silence if one attaches a label associated with noise to the silence, they, not the Universe becomes the player of the instrument and this makes the instrument out of tune. The only way loving energy can be emitted out into the world is by allowing the silence of the Universe to play the instrument without one putting their conditioned selfish spin on it. It will be then that loving energy heals and selfish energy simply falls away.

Conceptual Living

Life isn’t a competition to be more spiritual than someone else, it’s simply to find that place within which doesn’t require a story or concept to be at peace and to remain there as much as possible.

If life is lived between the distinction of it being good or bad, whichever one is chosen they are really one in the same. Granted the outer behavior will be different, but the inner energy will be the same because both good and bad are a made up concept of the way one thinks life should be. Of course the Conditioned Mind loves the good and wants to push away what it considers as bad. Concepts lead to problems because they’re made up. It’s the reason I write as I do and why my writings are based in finding a true place within that doesn’t require a story or concept for there to be peace in your life. If you’re not at peace right now, ask yourself why. What do you think it would take to be at peace? More knowledge of spirituality, more money, better health, better job, better spouse, and the list goes on. The truth is nothing on the outside will make the inside better because why you think the inside needs to be better is an inside job which will only get better when it’s realized it’s already as good as it’s going to get.

Life isn’t a competition of who knows more about spirituality or who has more stuff, to me the only thing that matters is if I’m in my place within that doesn’t required a made up concept and story. Nothing else and I truly mean this, nothing else matters. To me life isn’t about anything, nor does it have to be. When the need arises to make it about something, instantly one is pulled from their place within and with it goes their peace. I know the Universe has done for me what I could never have done for myself, but it’s not a competition to be more spiritual than anyone else, it’s simply to find that place within which doesn’t require a story or concept to be peace and to remain there as much as possible.

Form or Freedom

Unconsciousness is ignorance and although there’s no bliss in being ignorant, there is a certain innocence in not knowing what you don’t know. Until what you don’t know becomes known you just won’t know.

Everything arises from the stillness of life, but it’s at that exact time that there will either be attachment to form or there will be freedom from it. This is the dilemma of life or at least it is for the one who see this. If it’s not seen you will just go on your merry way attached to form because there won’t be the awareness to not attach to it. You would think this would be a dilemma if it wasn’t seen, but since you don’t know what you don’t know, there’s no dilemma, at least to the one who doesn’t know. Unconsciousness is ignorance and although there’s no bliss in being ignorant, there is a certain innocence in not knowing what you don’t know. I suffered for years not knowing what I didn’t know, but now the suffering is so much less because of the awareness of what causes suffering.

Even though there’s so much more awareness of suffering, not only mine, but the suffering of others, I prefer this way as opposed to living in ignorance because it is in this exact moment that I am free. If you know the cause of something, it can be changed. If you just know there’s something causing you to suffer, but are not sure what it is, the suffering will most likely continue in one form or another. Know your own mind and don’t concern yourself with anything else. Break the chains to the attachment to form and you will know freedom. Or not and remain in bondage to the very thing that causes you to suffer. Everything arises from stillness, it’s at that time that there will either be attachment to form or there will be freedom from it.

False Self Addiction

If it wasn’t for the attachment to a false self that creates bondage, addiction would be non existent because the craving of a self needing life to be in some other way would never occur.

Each day most of our waking hours are spent trying to arrange the day to our liking, the only problem with this is most of our day is wasted trying to arrange the day to our liking. This occurs because we have been conditioned to believe there is a self that needs things to be different. This conditioning keeps the mind addicted to this self which creates a constant state of agitation, and when the mind is agitated it will use whatever tools it has developed. Not so much to quiet the agitation, but more so to distract from it. The distractions in this case manifest as Conditioned Mind Patterns that are constantly trying to arrange life by using whatever it deems necessary to satisfy this false self.

If it wasn’t for the need to satisfy a false self, these cravings to want life to be in some other way which are caused by one’s own mind, wouldn’t exist. This agitation is the cause of the constant rearranging of life and it’s because of the false self needing life to be a certain way, but something would exist without the addiction to a this false self and that would be peace. The peace of just being because the addiction to the false self wouldn’t exist. If you don’t think this is true, it’s probably because of the addiction to the false self that’s not allowing your mind to settle so you can be aware of the peace that passes all understanding and go beyond the cravings brought on by the false self wanting things to be in some other way. Until this changes, nothing changes.

Present Moment Distractions

To be present in the moment is to be with what’s occurring at this exact time. A distraction will arise when the mind becomes agitated because discipline was never developed to be in the moment.

Some say there isn’t a choice to be made as to whether there’s discipline that allows for peace, but I have found this not to be so. Yesterday I was at the doctors office, I was filling out paperwork, the place was packed with over twenty five people who were there before me. It was moving very slow as I was there for over an hour. As I was waiting I was just watching all the distractions my mind was creating to divert from the moment, “This is ridiculous, I’ll come back another day, let me check my phone, let’s see what’s happening on FB, call someone, blaming the Doctors office for being incompetent, it certainly seems the longer one waits, the more the Conditioned Mind nonsense commences, but this nonsense only takes hold if one is unaware of it.

This is where the developed practice of discipline comes into play with the possibility of putting it into place instead of giving in to the mind agitations and being annoyed. Discipline has to be developed to keep one is the present moment, that is unless one is totally unaware of the present moment. This goes for everything, whether it’s traffic or the line in a store that causes the mind to become agitated, it only grabs you if there isn’t awareness of it, so instead of being in the nonsense, I can still be at peace even though the mind wants things otherwise.

Now granted this agitation initially arises on its own, but this is where the awareness of it comes in. Once it arises only with the necessary awareness will one be able to truly be with the agitated moment, which can then be replace with the discipline that has been developed. I was watching most of the people being distracted so they didn’t have to be in the moment. Since in each moment we can only have one thought at a time, the level of discipline developed determines if your thoughts grab you, and that’s what determines if you are free or if you are a puppet on a string.

Mask of Addiction

Remove the mask of addiction the Conditioned Mind uses and see yourself as the beautiful creation that you truly are. We’re all from the same Universe that accepts us just as we are.

After a time when someone isn’t physically addicted to something, the thing that makes one return to the reaching is the Conditioned Mind. There’s nothing physical that makes this occur. It’s called a relapse when this return occurs, but it’s not really a relapse, it occurs because the conditioning that makes a person need to reach for something in the first place is still in place. One may not even want to reach for the thing, but there isn’t much of a choice. A person can only do what they’re conditioned to do so when the conditioning changes to not have the need to reach outside yourself for fulfillment, one’s addiction will be no more.

If this is contingent on anything but the freedom from the bondage of a self that needs to reach, something else will be used as a substitute. Quietness needs to be developed to take away all substitutions, if not the reaching will continue; this is the mask of addiction. A mask is all that’s really ever developed because it shifts the dependency from one thing onto something else. Freedom can only be had when one is free of all masks. To be truly free there has to be freedom of all dependencies and you must be able to be with yourself (without a mask) just as you are, without the need to reach for anything to make you feel different. Remove the mask of the Conditioned Mind and see yourself as you truly are; a beautiful creation of the Universe that loves you just the way you are. The question is do you or do you wear a mask?

Truth is Love

In quietness all truth is revealed, not because it comes from a book or a conjured up conditioned thought, it’s revealed because it comes from love. Know the truth and be set free.

There is no other purpose to our existence, but to be an expression of love. It’s not to be anything else; love is who we are. One can make up a story of love to be some belief conjured up by the Conditioned Mind, but this isn’t loves energy, it’s yours. We are love and the base of our existence can’t be changed. It’s like an apple seed, it will always produce apples, and no matter what you do with the apple after it grows and ripens, its nature is always that of an apple. Whether its mixed with other fruit, crushed to make apple sauce, blended into a shake, used to make a pie, or just eaten, its nature doesn’t change, so it is with us regardless of what story we make up. It’s only the way the mind has been developed that makes us do anything that doesn’t have love as its base.

When the mind becomes quiet and the noise subsides, there’s a peace that comes over you that passes all understanding. In this peace there’s the realization that life is a manifestation of love and any thought that isn’t in alignment with this is only there because of the Conditioned Mind. One is always of love, one cannot not be, but the awareness of this is mostly blocked. Learn to remove the blocks and be in alignment with love so can be the instrument to plant seeds of love wherever you go. Be very still so you can be sure they’re the seeds of love that are being planted and not self serving seeds. An interpretation of love is not loves interpretation of love. In quietness all truth is revealed, but not because it comes from a book or a conjured up Conditioned Mind thought, it’s revealed because it comes from love and that’s the truth.

Perfect Imperfections

Accepting the imperfections of yourself is just as important as accepting yourself when you’re acting in a loving manner. The key is to remain with loving energy regardless of what happens.

Loving and accepting yourself as is and not using a sledge hammer to beat yourself up when there are reactions to situations that aren’t based in love, is probably one of the most difficult lessons I’ve learned in the last ten years. I’ve never claimed to be anything but human and I seem to prove it everyday, but it’s of paramount importance that I remember this because my human conditioning has deeply engrained triggers that are less than favorable. This isn’t to just discount unloving behavior by saying it is what it is, but waking up and coming from a place of love to me has been a slow process. In some ares the change has been profound and in other areas not so much. It pains me when I act in the selfish manner that was always in place prior to ten years ago, but now there are mostly momentary flare ups of selfish behavior instead of being the norm. It’s so important to recognize this because if you don’t, the selfish conditioned energy remains and gains a stronger foothold to repeat its engrained patterns.

Unloving behavior hurts, but it doesn’t only hurt you it hurts others as well. This is when it gets touchy because if you don’t accept what has been done, the past energy is than in control of the present along with selfish energy. Accepting the imperfections of yourself is just as important as accepting yourself when you’re acting in a loving manner. The key here is to remain with loving energy regardless of what happens, not easy, but the alternative is to be with energy that’s not conducive to love and this doesn’t benefit anyone. People may be hurt by you because of the engrained Conditioned Mind Patterns in place, but how long it affects them is part of their conditioning. If things are to ever change, love has to be the energy in place regardless of how unloving one may act as the imperfections have to be accepted as if they were perfect.

Only One Truth

Truth is not something that’s created to make life fit nicely into a mind made story of the way one thinks life should be. Truth is already in place and it doesn’t need a story to make it so.

Although awakening is a process of becoming aware of what blocks the heart from love, to me it only opens and expands each day by developing a daily mindfulness and sitting practice. Because of this, no longer does the world revolve around my “I” it more so revolves around the “I” of others. Each day I bring a vision of how I can be a benefit to others by writing and posting a daily article, this has been done everyday for the past three plus years. There is awareness into my day to day existence and although there are some mishaps because the conditioned mind is relentless, the process is a continuation into the expansion of truth; with this expansion of truth comes the expansion of love into my day to day life and the life of others.

This expansion doesn’t take thought, it takes a settled mind. The subtitle of my book: You Are Not Your Thoughts was chosen for this reason. All created stories of truth are only our attached thoughts. When this was understood “I” was understood and it was the beginning of the end of the life of lies that I lived. This brought me to the realm of the unknown (truth), and this realm is not something that can brought about by thought. Thought will only block truth. Stillness is where the realm of the Spirit and our true nature manifest, it is where one connects to all of life and feels the warmth and truth of the Sunlight of the Spirit. It is our home, our place of peace that’s passes all understanding, it is the truth of one’s existence. This needs no story to be, one only needs to stop thinking to allow truth to arise.

Taking on God's Role

The Universe does its thing without any help whatsoever from humans. Until this is seen, one will judge and the role of God will be taken on. It’s in one’s judgements that they are judged.

Every time a judgement is made that something is right or wrong or it needs to be a certain way, it’s as though the role of God is taken on. I use the word God here in the sense of energy, not as an almighty power. Our finite minds like to think we know what’s best not only for ourselves, but also for others. We really don’t though because there is so much that goes on that’s unknown. Of course the story that you know can be made up and this is when the role of God is taken on. Not judging is difficult because of the harm humans do to each other, but when a judgement is made it blocks love from being present in one’s life. There are many tragic events that occur throughout life, some natural, some from human behavior, the thing to do if there’s to be constant loving energy is to not look for a reason as to why things happen. There really isn’t any rhyme or reason as to why most things happen, but to the Conditioned Mind this isn’t acceptable so it needs answers; mostly they are made up.

You think you know what’s going on, you breathe, bleed, heal, and many other things that just occur and it has nothing to do with any doing on your part. There have been many wars and tragic events throughout history and although the exact reason as to why they occur isn’t known, playing God and making up some story just blocks the love in your heart. When you judge something in the Universe as being out of place, you take on the role of God and you emit the exact energy you are against. The Universe does its thing without any help whatsoever from humans. Until this is seen, one will judge and the role of God will be taken on. It’s in one’s judgements that they are judged.

Simply Love

If you truly love there will be much compassion and that’s the energy that may someday change the world, but wanting it different just reinforces the judging energy that’s controlling the world.

Heart breaking and yet if one attaches to what happened in Las Vegas, the energy of the individual who did this remains in place and basically the unconsciousness wins. Unfortunately the world is mostly unconscious and many more things like what happened in Las Vegas are going to occur; just look at the violence of how history repeats itself. The unconscious energy causes so much destruction because that’s it’s nature. To me it’s inevitable that these things happen because of the unconsciousness that’s in place. It pains me to see this because it doesn’t accomplish anything, it just causes suffering. This is real to the extent that it’s happening, but we’re living in delusional times where any true sense of reality is simply missed because of all the nonsense that’s in plaice. From the entertainment industry, to our schools, the food industry, and so on, the tools in place are keeping the unconscious energy as the primary energy that we live by. To come from a place of purity is not the norm. It will only be a matter of time before a nuclear weapon is launch somewhere. This doesn’t mean you don’t love and do everything you can to spread it, but the unconscious energy is winning the battle and even though love does make progress, the unconsciousness of individuals causes so much harm that it’s hard to see.

This is why I do what I do, but there are even tools in place to prevent the message of love from being spread. Social media, FB especially controls what’s put out, as I have recently been blocked from posting in groups, I only post in groups that ask me to, but to no avail. The news media as the entire entertainment industry is also controlled and ruled by unconscious energy, as is world wide politics. There’s much to overcome if loving energy is to ever become humanities primary energy. The key is to not attach any emotional behavior to the unconscious acts that are done. If you truly love there will be much compassion and that’s the energy that may someday change the world, but for now one has to be ok with the way things are because wanting it different just reinforces the judging energy that’s controlling the world.

Judging Energy

Understanding conditioned behavior for what it is doesn’t condone unloving behavior nor does it exalt loving behavior, it just allows one to see that a person can only act as the conditioning in place allows.

It’s pivotal to one’s peace of mind to not judge the conditioned behavior of not only individuals, but also of oneself. If one is to ever be at peace there can’t be judgement of how someone behaves. This instantly causes separation because it puts up a barrier between the one who’s judged and the one who is doing the judging. Judging emanates an energy that makes a me and a you, without this judging energy one is in unity with themselves and with others. I know this isn’t easy to accept, but people can only do what their conditioning tells them to do and although the consequences of one’s behavior will be drastically different, judging anyone causes separation from oneself and thus from all humanity; non judgmental unites, judging separates.

Seeing the conditioning for what it is doesn’t condone unloving behavior nor does it exalt loving behavior, it just allows one the understanding that everyone does what they’re conditioned to do. In this understanding there is a peace that passes all understanding and it’s because there’s no judging energy to cause separation. There can’t be because in this space of not judging and just seeing the conditioning for what it is, it’s not being assigned to anyone in particular, it’s just being seen as the conditioning in place and regardless if there’s loving or unloving behavior, it’s just conditioning, nothing more, nothing less.

Thought Created Suffering

You cannot suffer without the thought of suffering. Again: You cannot suffer without the thought of suffering. See the truth in this simple yet profound statement.

You do become your thoughts to the degree of the energy they are given even though you are not your thoughts. Why it’s so difficult to see the real issue with one’s own thoughts is because the suffering is very subtle and is probably not even considered as suffering. Here are a few example of just how subtle the suffering is. Just casually being at the supermarket and looking for the shortest line is a form of suffering. Changing lanes while driving because it’s deemed the person in front of you isn’t driving to your liking is suffering. Wanting someone else instead of the person in a certain political office causes suffering. These along with any other thought of thinking something should be different creates suffering. If the thought wasn’t there, the suffering wouldn’t be there. You can make the spiritual life about anything you want, God, charkas, loving energy, unity, Universal Love, and so on, but the bottom line is a thought about anything doesn’t make it true, it just makes it your story.

This is why I wrote “You cannot suffer without the thought of suffering” there is no suffering without the thought to make it happen. This doesn’t mean things don’t happen that you would prefer didn’t, but the thing itself cannot cause suffering unless a thought is attached to it that reinforces the suffering. Very subtle is this attachment, but so prevalent is the suffering this causes. This shouldn’t be taken lightly, it’s the fundamental principle of all suffering and unless it’s understood, the subtleness will continue to keep you blind to its subtleness and the suffering that is truly going on.

Presence of Stillness

The degree of stillness which will be experienced can be measured by the extent to which one relinquishes their dependency on the external world of form and places trust and confidence in stillness.

At first, you may not understand why practicing ceaselessly to develop stillness has anything to do with your being happy, successful, or healthy. You may not even be able to see what connection stillness has with the mundane affairs of life. You will only discover this through your own experience because regardless of any information one may offer to you as to what their discoveries have been, or the thousands of lives that have had so called spiritual experiences, you will not be convinced until you yourself have had the actual experience. Every person who has known dissatisfaction, incompleteness, and frustration will someday learn that there is only one missing link in his entire chain of harmonious living and that is the presence of stillness; consciously, daily, and hourly.

The secret of harmonious living is the development of stillness which is spiritual consciousness. In that consciousness, fear and anxiety disappear, and life becomes meaningful with fulfillment at its core. The degree of stillness or if you like spiritual consciousness which will be experienced can be measured by the extent to which one relinquishes their dependency on the external world of form and places trust and confidence in stillness. It stillness we can overcome every obstacle and it is in the presence of stillness that these obstacles simply fall away.

Separating Energy

When something is wanted other than how it is, it brings on a chain reaction of circumstances that causes a separation with the present moment and thus with others.

Separating energy always makes things worse. This is difficult at times to see because even when one loves there can be separation, but what has to be understood is it’s not the energy of love because love can’t separate; a response that isn’t from love is where the separation occurs. Even if every action you did was from pure love it doesn’t mean everyone will respond to you in the same manner. As the story goes all Jesus did was teach how to love and we know what the leaders of the that time did to him. Even though he said “They know not what they do” and there was no separation in his heart, his fate was seal because of the hateful energy of those around him.

I do not profess to know the great secrets of the Universe, but I do know in the space of stillness the energy of love transformed me. This doesn’t guarantee anything nor does it mean I walk around in la la land. As a matter of fact, I do a mindfulness practice, I chant, I sit in quiet and yet I still want to smack some people; for me it’s just the way it is. Do whatever it is you think you need to do, just understand if it doesn’t unite than it separates. The key is to see if it’s you producing the separation or if the separation comes from others and if it does remember “They know not what they do”

Power to Control

We’re all human and because of this we have many traits in common, but there’s one difference between those who are awake and those who remain asleep and that’s the awareness of just how conditioned one is.

To say there’s plenty of issues in our world is an understatement, but it will not change going in our current direction because there are so few that truly understand what it will take to allow this to happen. The fact of the matter is one can only change what’s within themselves, the world will never change because of my writings or volunteering to help others. It will make my story better and more enjoyable to me so I can feel good about myself, but that’s about it. When the individual conditioning that has been in place for eons changes, that’s when humanity will change. This conditioning is strictly about power. It’s always about the power to control, nothing more, but this isn’t about countries, it’s about people.

Everyone comes from where they come, from Donald Trump to Hillary Clinton, to Kim Jong Un and it’s their conditioning that makes them do what they do. I mention this because they have much influence in what happens in the world, but there are many more players than those three. From those leaders who are at the top, as individuals I don’t see much love for others, I see a lot of wanting to control others (power). The power for control is at the base of the Conditioned Mind. Until there’s awareness that one can only change themselves if the world is to change, the desire for power and control will remain the direction that we go in individually and thus collectively. So not much is going change because everyone wants to change the world which keeps the conditioning that has been in place for eons at the controls of the individual and thus the collective.

Unloving Energy

Humanity is stuck in trying to fix our problems with the same energy that creates them. Violence trying to end violence with violence or anger trying to stop anger with anger just doesn’t work.

I know it seems as though I took a stand against what was being protested at the NFL games, but it’s not so. I just won’t support certain energy. I see things in a way that not many do, this doesn’t really mean anything, but I see what I see. The conditioning of humanity has been in place for so long that we are blind to the dog chasing its tail energy that we adopt. It seems humanity has been on a downward spiral since the beginning of time, always acting violently and unloving towards one another. Everyone thinks their way is the right way, we are stuck in this hideous cycle. There is so much unloving energy in place that I don’t know if it will ever change. I’m not saying don’t try, but what happens is the same unloving behavior that’s in place is trying to change itself.

It’s not only people that have become accustomed to unloving energy, the entire structure of our society has evolved in this unloving way. I don’t know what the answer is, but we mostly try to fix our problems with the same energy that creates them. Violence trying to end violence with violence. Anger trying to stop anger with anger. This is the dog chasing its tail energy that’s in place and it’s the reason not much changes and history repeats itself. There are surface changes that do occur, but with the structure of greed, hate, and delusion firmly in place, these changes just help the collective conditioning solidify itself by remaining in a delusional state. Until one can be with energy that supports stillness alone, humanity will remain stuck chasing its own tail.

World Wide Unconscious Energy

Unconscious energy affects everyone. It matters little where or why it arises, that is does is the only concern and until this is seen for what it is, it will remain unconsciously in control.

There’s been a lot going on in the USA the last few day, but the venue of the unconsciousness is not as important as the unconsciousness itself. There’s unconscious energy in place all over the world, what’s happening in the USA is just in addition to it. You may ask what exactly is unconscious energy? My definition would be anything that is attached to that has to do with wanting the present moment different; this includes wanting people and situations different. Any thought given energy that’s outside the now is conditioned because it isn’t based in where life actually happens. Only now has validity because it’s the only place that truly exist. Everything else is just a thought of the way one thinks now should be and this is where all unconsciousness arises from; this also includes people and situations.

All unconsciousness arises from some form of attachment and the subtleness of this isn’t really seen nor understood. One of the most subtle yet least seen attachments is when one thinks their opinion is actually the way something is and it’s defended as being truth. Everyone sees things as it arises within themselves and until the attachment to this is let go of, an opinion will be formed because of the associated unconscious energy. Nothing from outside yourself really means anything because everything arises from within you. Unconscious energy can only manifest from one who is unconscious and until the conditioned unconsciousness is seen for what it is, its energy will remain in control and not much will change because the unconscious energy won’t allow it to.

Protesting Energy

The only reason protesting energy is in place is because one thinks (a story) the present moment isn’t good enough so it needs to be changed to the way the Conditioned Mind makes you think it needs to be.

The greatest challenge one will face in life is being able to create the space to just be; adding nothing, taking nothing away. If there can be awareness of space for one millisecond, liberation begins. There’s no proving oneself or needing anything different in the space, the Conditioned Mind will protest this and at first this will be very powerful, but as time goes on this space becomes unshakeable as one’s inner protests lessen and the conditioned protesting energy dissipates. This protesting energy is in place because there’s simply no space to see anything else. It comes in many shapes and forms and it’s the norm of what the Conditioned Mind offers, but it’s very misleading in what it offers. It promises liberation, but it doesn’t make good on it. It may give you all the stuff that it says is needed for liberation, but even if one attains everything that they want, if you remain in the throes of the Conditioned Mind, you have attained nothing, especially liberation.

Space is needed between one’s thoughts if the Conditioned Mind is to loosen its grip. The more space there is, the more liberated one will be. It’s simple math, the more one spends time in the space between your thoughts, the more love there will be in one’s life. Many lives are lived with protesting energy without even realizing it’s occurring. Anytime the space is substituted with some thought, true love of the heart is being protested and the Conditioned Mind takes over to make up a story of how one thinks life should be. After all the only reason something is protested is because one thinks (a story) the present moment isn’t good enough so it needs to be changed to the way one thinks it should be; the I want, what I want, when I want it mind. In the space between our thoughts nothing needs to be added because nothing needs to be different, so in this space there’s the understanding right now is enough and it doesn’t need protesting energy to be different.

Finger Pointing

Unconsciousness is only supported by unconsciousness and because of the subtleness of unconscious energy this results in pointing fingers at others without the ability to truly look at yourself.

The Conditioned Mind supports unconscious energy and whatever spin one puts on it, this energy only allows you to point the finger at others. I knew when I posted the article yesterday afternoon on my timeline it was going to activate many triggers which would lead to name calling and finger pointing. All I did was post that I did not support the dividing energy of what NFL players where doing before each game; I chose to not watch the games. I was called a fraud amongst other things which doesn’t really bother me because the source of the name calling and finger pointing is from the unconscious energy that is destroying our society and planet. There’s very little understanding of what the Conditioned Mind is so there are many fingers that point at others along with other associated unconscious behavior. This energy has been in place for eons, it’s why humanity is in the dire straits that it is. This has nothing to do with what is happening, but it does have everything to do with the unconscious energy that one emits and lives by.

I see what is seen and it matters little if it’s agreed with or not. I write that’s it, I never wrote to be anything. If I’m a fraud to you so be it. If what I wrote yesterday or if my previous articles don’t resonate with you, move on. Go and latch onto someone who fits in with your conditioned behavior. I never claimed to be anything, I just write what arises in me. I don’t need to point fingers at people because I see the conditioning for what it, but I will call it as it arises in me. There’s so much energy that’s not only dividing our country, but it’s dividing our entire world, and although you may not agree with what I write, I will always write what arises in me, only because I have to as it is what is seen.

Love From the Heart

You can live from your head, but you can only love from your heart. You don’t love in the past or future, you love in the present because the energy of the heart is from what’s happening now.

If you sit around waiting for the other shoe to drop it will happen because by expecting it, you are giving it the energy it needs to occur. Your projections eventually become your reality. Projections always come from our head, never from our heart. When we love it’s from the heart and that’s the energy we will emit, not the projecting energy of waiting for the other shoe to drop. That doesn’t mean everyone will love us back, although everyone’s heart is of love the Conditioned Mind blocks this from being known. It’s known in the head, but to truly emit love’s energy to others it has to be from the heart; the thought of love isn’t love. Going from the head to the heart is a difficult twelve inch transition and it’s the road less travelled. When the idea of love gets stuck in the head, there’s so much thinking involved and it becomes something other than love. I’m not sure what it becomes, but I do know when I love it strictly comes from my heart.

Projections always come from our head, this creates problems because the mind needs something to do if its not trained to be still. The mind that tries to solve problems is the same mind that creates them. If you make it a problem that the other shoe will drop, it will. You’re not separate from your mind, but sometimes it seems that you are. When you do something and say “why did I do that” the mind that told you to do it is the same mind that is making you question yourself. Nothing ever happens in your mind without your permission so when it’s learned to live from the heart, the head will no longer be in control projecting and waiting for the other shoe to drop. You will then be free to live your life as intended; from the love that is in your heart, instead of the mind made nonsense of what goes on between your ears.

Being With What Is

If you’re always trying to arrange things to your liking, it really shouldn’t be a surprise when most of the time things aren’t to your liking. One is truly free when it’s learned to be with what is, not what’s liked.

When listening to the radio and a song starts playing that is disliked, the reaction is to change the station to try and find a song that’s more suitable to one’s liking. This is the subtleness of the Conditioned Mind. It isn’t that you have to put up with things in life that aren’t like, by all means change the station, but understanding exactly why the station is being changed will assist in deciding if it really needs to be changed or not. Not much really changes whether the song is left on or not.

The radio station can be substituted with anything because it’s all arises from the same place; the Conditioned Mind. This time it’s a song, next time it’s a person or situation, but one doesn’t have to be a martyr and remain in their discontentment, once this is recognized, by that alone the attachment to self relinquishes the control it’s be given. This is vital if one is to be free of the subtle attachments created by the Conditioned Mind. The creator of all suffering is linked to some kind of attachment; a clinging to a certain belief that life would be more suitable if it were a certain way. When it’s understood life doesn’t have to be a certain way except in the way that it is that’s when one will be free, and it’s in this freedom that you can do whatever it is you like because it is known that your freedom isn’t dependent on it.

I Focused Stories

A story always needs a subject to focus on to be created. We supply the subject of all our stories when our focus is on the base of I. Without I, our innate divinity sustains itself naturally without the need for a story.

The subtitle of my book “You Are Not Your Thoughts” could have been You Are Not Your Stories. How attached one is to their stories is related to how disconnected one is to their divinity within. Every made up story is related to I and the more I controls, the less one is in alignment with their divinity. Just think about how the stories occur, when there’s traffic, who’s in the traffic? When there’s an individual who passes by and there’s an attraction, who is attracted to them? How about dessert, when it’s time for dessert, who is craving the desire to be satisfied? When anything is wanted, who is the individual who is wanting? All these questions have one answer in common, they’re all derived from I and it’s I who is the creator of all the stories. I want this or I want that, I don’t like this, I want this different, I want, I want, I want, all this wanting is just a story that keeps one from experiencing their own divinity.

Without I wanting is to be without a story and without the story there will be enough quietness to hear the divine urging within that is one’s true innate calling. The difference between one’s thoughts and one’s divinity is thoughts create a story that needs I to believe I am my thoughts and then the Conditioned Mind creates a story from these thoughts, but the story isn’t you as your thoughts aren’t you. It all begins with the attachment to I which makes you think your thoughts are who you are. Don’t attach I to your thoughts and it will be impossible to create an I story.

The divine always occurs in the present moment, why this isn’t known by more people is because of the attachment to I created stories. The divine is not a story, it’s divine. It doesn’t need a story, it always is. It’s the human development of I that doesn’t make this known. Anyone who has any inkling of truth in their life has at least minimized the attachment to I. It’s the only way for one to get quiet enough to realize “You Are Not Your Thoughts” and in the process there’s also the realization you are not your I subjected created stories either.

An Established Anchor

An anchor needs to be established so there’s a place one can return to when the merry go round mind is leading the charge. This is a place where it’s safe and secure away from the insanity of one’s own mind.

I was discussing meditation with a friend and we agreed that so many people have difficulty with it. Recently there was a study done where the subjects had a choice to pick electric shock therapy or sit in a empty room for fifteen minutes. Obviously everyone picked sitting in a room. After all how hard can that be? After the experiment, they asked the subjects if they had the choice again which would they pick, they all said the electric shock therapy. I find this astonishing, but I also understand the misconception of meditation and why this is so. It’s because so many people don’t truly investigate what mediation actually is and what it does. I can tell you this, it’s not magic, but I would like to share my thoughts on meditation which I refer to as simply sitting.

The first thing to do is establish an anchor. Everyone who is alive has some kind a place that is called home where the day starts and most times it ends. Even a homeless person has some kind of anchor to start the day regardless if it’s under a bridge or in a cardboard box. This anchor is the base which will be used to return to when the mind wanders. As one always returns home, so will the established anchor be used in this way.

In the beginning the mind will wander a lot because of the lack of developed discipline, it has to wander because there is nothing in place to keep it from doing so. The main reason meditation is difficult is because people think it’s something to do. One will never ever quiet the mind, it’s something that occurs on its own. This is probably the biggest misconception, that it’s something that can be done. Well the bad news is it can’t, but the good news is discipline can be established to allow the mind to settle. It will just take take time and perseverance to allow this. One sits, the mind wanders, one returns to whatever the established anchor is, the breath is such an anchor. As this is done over and over, the mind wanders less and less.

The benefit of this is when the mind begins to settle, there’s an awareness that at least for me allowed the reaching outside myself for my answers to stop. Once the reaching stopped, I started looking inward and life started to become different. This difference is in my view of life and how it has changed in a most beautiful way. But like I said, its not magic and the most important part of establishing any form of discipline is one will get out of it exactly what’s put into it.

Unity of the Heart

The Conditioned Mind which is based in noise, constantly tries to create a world that makes you think you need to be happy. This created noise blocks one from seeing their own innate goodness.

Creation occurs without permission so when it’s understood that we are a manifestation of Universal Energy and not much else really matters, the mind settles enough to see creation not as a mind made concept, but as its true intention to simply love. The only thing that keeps one in a state of unawareness to this love is their own mind. Stillness breeds truth, truth breeds freedom, freedom breeds clarity and clarity breeds stillness.

One day we are in this form and one day just like that we are not. How one is spending their time in this current form is their life. If it’s to serve self there will never be quietness and it will be very difficult to see truth and experience peace. If it’s to love creation from the heart and soul, there will be a quietness that will allow an inner peace to be discovered and one will be in unity with all beings. There may not be unity in return, but that’s someone else’s conditioning. Your own unity with creation is what’s important and how this unity will be known is by how settled the mind is. Unity comes from the heart not the mind, so our unity with each other is from love and there is only separation from this in the delusional world of thought.

Agitated Distractions

A distraction causes a person to reach for something because the mind is in a state of agitation. Distractions block the ability to live a life aligned with the love that’s in your heart.

Distractions are what the ego uses in the form of conditioning for its fuel; it needs energy to survive. It uses the past and future energies because in the present moment there’s only the energy of what is. What each and every distraction does is remove the ability to remain in the present moment so there can be an alignment with one’s true essence of what is. The objects used are what needs to be identified so one doesn’t give in to their magnetic pull because without the awareness that these distractions exist, their pull is to enticing not to give in to it; even with awareness it’s still very difficult not to give in. The mind will need to be very quiet to become aware of this and not give in to these subtle distractions. The nature of all distractions are the same, but they themselves manifest differently. It’s their nature to take you from the present moment so when you’re not present that’s how it will be known you’re being distracted.

A distraction is not the same as an agitation, they’re similar, but an agitation is what causes the need for a distraction to arise. If the mind was quiet without agitation there wouldn’t be a distraction. To be without distractions one must learn to be with their agitations so it quiets; without an agitation our distractions wouldn’t be. When distractions are non existent, the only thing that remains is quietness or if it’s preferred, peace. So the understanding of this is where one will experience peace, but don’t expect the ego to cooperate because to be without distractions is to be free of the egos control. It has been my experience that the ego doesn’t go away, but it does quiet down as long as it’s not given the energy to create agitated distractions.

External Influences

A person can only see what they’ve been influenced by and what influences you is limited by the books you read and whatever else is attached to from external sources.

The issue some have with my writings is because they aren’t from something they’ve read or some other external source that influenced their conditioned view. The understanding of life through a book or what others teach is very limiting because one becomes influenced only from that external source. You can only truly see what’s in the heart when that view is in place; influences are from the external. This is just the way it is. It’s from the silence of the heart that life’s real lessons are learned. The Universe is the best teacher, but there has to be stillness in place that allows one to hear it’s silence.

For whatever reason I’ve been given insights to the workings of how the Conditioned Mind is the cause of all suffering, not because of some outside influence, but because I have developed stillness that allowed my mind to settle enough so the influenced distractions of the external aren’t being attached to. This allows the silence of the Universe to be my teacher. It matters little if what I see is seen by others. Jesus and the Buddha among many others saw things others did not, that didn’t deter them. I write to share with others what has been bestowed upon me, whether it is seen by others is not a concern. One changes inwardly when the Universe does the changing. I would suggest if anyone truly wants to learn why they think and do what they do is to find their inner. place of stillness. This is invaluable if one wants to break free from the external influences of the Conditioned Mind to hear the teachings of silence offered by the Universe.

Ignoring Life

There is a choice in every moment that occurs which solely puts your life in your hands. If you don’t have awareness of this, you will be controlled unconsciously by what occurs without a choice.

Being in touch with what occurs in each moment of your life is living life as it unfolds without excluding any part of it. It’s easy to ignore what’s not wanted, but to include everything even though it may not be wanted is truly living. If something wants to be excluded find out what it is and why it’s not wanted. Obviously on the surface it would look as though it’s just not liked, but if it’s occurring, what good does it do ignoring it: ignoring then becomes a defense mechanism that keeps you from truly enjoying life. If you only enjoy life when what’s happening is going your way, there will be much suffering because of the way life changes. If you go on a vacation to a tropical island and it’s raining, therein lies your suffering; if it’s sunny everything is deemed great. This is but one example, I’m sure you can find your own that fits your current life.

In the situation described, why it causes suffering is because what’s occurring is being ignored, maybe not consciously, but it’s not wanted so it causes a mind agitation. The thing about this is the rain is totally out of your control, there’s nothing you can do to change it, meaning you can’t change the weather. Well you could do a Sun Dance, but I doubt that will work, so you will either be with life as it is or you will continue to ignore it by wanting it different. These are the choices that occur in every moment and it solely puts your life in your hands. It has nothing to do with anyone else or life circumstances, but if you don’t have awareness of this, you will continue to ignore life as unwanted situations arise. That is until one day when there will be nothing to ignore because life in this form will be no more.

Quality of the Mind

Life is mostly viewed through the intellect and as long as the tools developed by the intellect don’t fail, this view will most likely remain as it is with very little quality of the mind.

One may or may not become aware of how life is mostly viewed through the intellect, but if it does become known, it will be dependent on what tools are in place to cope with life. Some years ago I looked for another way because the tools I used for forty nine years no longer produced satisfying results. I was in a great deal of mind created pain and unfortunately I was only able to use the tools I had developed even though they failed. When one is at this so called crossroad there are many different available ways to go, but which way one heads is dictated by the conditioning in place. Some go inward, some remain entrapped to a downward spiral, some, although on the outside all appears to be well remain in bondage to “I” and some unfortunately die. One can only see what is seen, but that doesn’t mean what is seen is the most beneficial view.

It’s the quality of one’s mind that determines what is seen and the quality is related to the amount of stillness there is in one’s life. Noise takes away from the quality of the mind because it produces nothing but conditioned nonsense; that’s what noise is, conditioned nonsense. Story after story, concept after concept, belief after belief, there’s no stillness in any of these so there’s no quality. There’s plenty of quantity, but it’s all noise. Become mindful of this and watch how life becomes different, or not and remain with your stories, but understand this will limit the quality of your mind and thus it will limit the quality of your life.

Direct Experience

When the questioning stops it’s not because one has all the answers, it’s because answers are no longer necessary and what anyone else has to say only has value as it relates to your direct experience.

There is no substitution for the understanding of something from direct experience. You can read all the books, quote all the great mystics, sit for hours, go on retreat, belong to programs, and so on, but if you don’t have a direct experience where none of these things are needed, you will remain in the bondage of relying on what others say instead of a deep understanding of what it takes to be free. I notice a common theme in those who disagree with what I write and it usually comes from the way a third party sees things. I don’t agree or disagree with anyone because no one can see anything but what is revealed to them. What others say can resonate with you, but if it’s not directly experienced, it’s as if you are grasping for straws. I have been told numerous times that I’m wrong in a certain view, and I laugh because experience is neither right or wrong, it’s experience.

I don’t care who you quote, unless what you see comes from within, it’s superficial. People can only point and if there is to be freedom from the bondage of self, there will have to come a time when what you see is strictly your own. I know nothing about what resonates with someone else, but I do know what frees me and what holds me in captivity; this has nothing to do with what anyone else says. I read many books when I began this questioning of myself and they assisted in directing me inward, but the questioning has since ceased, not because I have all the answers, but because answers are no longer necessary. This is my direct experience and as far as I’m concern what anyone else has to say only has value as it relates to their and my direct experience.

Created Difficulty

Once one wants the moment to be different, the label difficult is instantly applied, and when this difficultly becomes too heavy just put it down and understand nothing truly needs to be different.

We can live the life we wish we had, we can live the life we think we should have, or we can live the life that we have. These are the three ways that we live everyday throughout our life. When the alarm rings and it’s time to get up for work, if we hit the snooze for more sleep and wish that we didn’t have to get up yet, we are wishing for life to be different. When we are envious of someone else and think that their life is better than ours, or if we think our life shouldn’t be the way it is, we our living a life that we think would be better if it was different.

When we are in a mind state of being with life exactly how it is, nothing has to be different, what this leads to is inner contentment. When we are content with what is, we are free because nothing is holding us back. Living this way, we live a life that isn’t based on conditions for contentment, this is true freedom. Not being content with the way things are creates the difficulty of wanting things different. And it’s a created difficulty because if you didn’t have the thoughts that you wanted things different and just accepted what is, the label difficulty would never be applied.

Our thoughts create our life, along with our labeled difficulties. If you want to believe those thoughts are who you are than those results fall on your shoulders, but it doesn’t have to be this way. Learn that no thought is you and no difficulty needs to be created. In stillness neither exist because neither are present. So if contentment is to be the consistent operating mode of the way your life is lived, than stillness must become the mind state more often then not. Use meditation to bring in stillness, use stillness to bring in peace. It’s the formula for a contented life, and with a contented life there will never be a need for one single moment to be different. Now wouldn’t that be different, but it will only be difficult when you tell yourself it is.

No Purpose Needed

To have a purpose to help others would mean someone has to be suffering in order to fulfill that purpose, this created purpose creates bondage and wherever there is bondage there is suffering.

The noise of the Conditioned Mind arises in many different ways and one of these ways is to create a purpose to get a sense of well being. Let’s use an example I often refer to but is not well received. Years back I was drinking heavily as I was searching for I’m not even sure what I attended a 12 Step program. They have 12 Traditions in place to run the organization and one of them states: “Each group has but one primary purpose — to carry its message to the alcoholic who still suffers” so in order for the group to exist which is made up of individuals, someone has to be suffering; this then becomes the individuals purpose. To me in this created purpose is one’s created bondage, and wherever there is bondage there is suffering. This suffering is very subtle, but it’s not limited to creating a purpose. Whatever is needed to induce a sense of well being instead of having it well up naturally, to that extent will one suffer.

I’m not saying don’t assist people where it can possibly help alleviate suffering for them, but if there’s attachment to making it a purpose, it will cause your own suffering. This is because you will always need someone who is suffering to maintain your sense of well being, that is just crazy. Why this sense of well being isn’t real is because it’s being manufactured. The Conditioned Mind will tell you what I’m saying is BS, but I will tell you from my experience I don’t need anyone’s suffering to create a purpose for my sense of well being. As a matter of fact any purpose is strictly something created, so why fall prey to its inherent suffering. In stillness no purpose is needed for one’s sense of well being because it arises naturally, so a purpose doesn’t have to be manufactured, especially one that needs someone to be suffering so you can make up a story to appease yourself.

Supported Results

Life is a process and the results that manifest in it are directly linked to the support that is given to the process. The seeds used for support are the seeds that you live by.

What you use as support in life is what determines the results of it. Support of greed, hate, and delusion will produce those results as will support that results in kindness, compassion, and love. This is the way the Universe works and although the results aren’t always seen by others or right away, eventually the individual will experience the results of what is used for support. One cannot support hate without hate being returned, as one cannot support love without love being returned. Life is a process and the results that manifest in one’s life are a direct result of the support that is given to their process. It really can’t be any other way, the seeds that you support are the seeds that grow, there’s no way around this.

For many years my support base was self serving and my results were strictly from this base, it’s no surprise when looking back at my life, all I see is chaos and confusion. How could it not be? Today it’s much different because my support isn’t linked to self serve. I’m not a believer of anything in particular but my experience, and this has resulted in stillness which the Universe uses to decide what my results will be. There’s so much more peace with this support. I already had life exactly how I thought it needed to be and I was miserable. So for me the support that results in peace is what’s of value and minus the story of needing peace or anything else, my support results in all I was ever looking for.

Repetitive Thinking

Many of the same thoughts arise and wanting the moment different is the common energy of this repetitive thinking. When you’re with things just as they are, there’s little room for repetitive thinking to be in control.

Over and over the same thoughts seem to go in circles throughout the day, some engaged in because of certain situations and some for no apparent reason at all. What happens while one is caught in this repetitive thinking pattern is it takes away from what is actually going on. This repetitive thinking will only be let go of if there’s awareness it’s happening and even then it will take discipline to stop it. How many times on Sunday do you think about having to go to work on Monday (It’s Monday Only in Your Mind). Or if you see something your attracted to, how many times do you go to what is causing the repetitive thoughts of whatever you’re attracted to. This repetitive thinking can be associated with all different kinds of energy, it’s not limited to any one in particular, but pleasure is a big part of the core energy of repetitive thinking as it’s very enticing to get caught up in things that have the applied label of like attached to it. Even if it seems like a person has repetitive negative thoughts there’s a perverse pleasure still associated to them.

Repetitive thinking become detrimental to one’s well being because of how it takes you away from the present moment and into a created fantasy. A practice of learning to use the body or breath does assist in becoming aware of the repetitive nonsense that many get entrapped to. By all means if your repetitive thinking truly benefits you go for it, but for me I’ve found that it just tends to wrap me up in the bondage of self. Wanting things different is probably the one repetitive thought that causes the most problems and although this may arise disguised as different thoughts, wanting the moment different is the common energy that causes the repetitiveness. When one can be with things as they are there’s little room for repetitive thinking to be in control.

A Conditioned Self

It may seem like one chooses what they do, but what is done is mostly controlled by the conditioned self. When this conditioned self is in control, there’s no choice because what is done is already chosen.

If you ever truly want to be free from your conditioned self, it has to be understood. Maybe not totally, but enough to understand it’s not or never was you. It’s mostly through ignorance that this conditioned self is given power so let’s look at some of the behavior of this conditioned self. We pout when things don’t go our way, we judge everyone including ourselves, when our mind becomes agitated we reach for a conditioned pacifier, we use and hold onto outer things to fill inner desires. We want, we want, we want.

This is so important to understand because it allows you to see there’s another way you can be; seeing this is the catalyst that urges one to look for something else. The something else turns out to be the bigger picture, so the more one is focused on that the less the voice of the conditioned self is heard, and the less that voice is heard, the less control it has and the more the bigger picture of creation is viewed.

The bigger picture is never about an individual. There’s very little control over anything in life and that’s okay because needing control locks one into the idea of a conditioned world. So if you ever want to be truly free, the conditioned self will have to take a backseat to the bigger picture, which has the possibility of infinite creativity that one’s conditioned self could never imagine. So don’t limit the unlimited by being controlled by a conditioned self that has nothing to do with life except in a conditioned world.

Two Frequencies

Life consist of a lower and higher frequency and the one that’s most prevalent in your life is dependent on how much I is in control. The more I controls, the more the lower frequency dominates.

There are two frequencies that one can live by, a lower one or a higher one. I know this now, but it wasn’t something I was always aware of. Nine years ago this changed because I become tired of being controlled by my lower frequency, which to me is to be controlled by the sense of I. This control keeps one in captivity to Conditioned Mind Patterns that lead one around as if they were a puppet on a string. The only way one’s higher frequency will be present is when these strings are cut. It’s very unfortunate because this isn’t understood nor is the fact of who the master puppeteer is, and this puppeteer controls just about every human being to some degree. The puppeteer is I and until this is realized the strings will never be cut and I will continue its onslaught of control.

To me this is why it matters little what you do if it’s controlled by I. It’s just the way it is, but this isn’t isolated to only the individual, if you look around and the mind gets settled enough, you will see this is the way of the world. It’s run by the frequency of I, the people in their assigned roles are just puppets and until more people wake up, the lower frequency will continue its dominance. At the lower frequency the core behavior is greed, hate, and delusion, and at the higher frequency it is love, kindness, and compassion; both of these can be added to accordingly. You can see the differences in the two frequencies and how one’s life would manifest outward depending on which frequency was lived by. This is a very practical way of looking at this so it should be easy to see which frequency is dominating your life. If it isn’t your higher frequency only you can change it by cutting the strings of the lower frequency of I, that is if it’s realized I is in control.

Controlled by Temptation

Temptations arise and seem like they are a part of being human, but giving into them is not human, it’s conditioning and as long as the conditioning is in place, acting upon an arisen temptation will be common place.

Each time one gives into a temptation, what causes giving into it not only gets reinforced, but it also gets engrained deeper in the subconscious. This is part of the reason it’s so hard to wake up from the sleep of unconsciousness. Without awareness of the temptation there’s no way not to give in. The temptation itself arises because of its trace energy that’s in place, to me one isn’t responsible for it arising, and if there isn’t awareness that it’s there, there’s really no responsibility for the reaction to the temptation. There are so many examples for this, one would be a person who cheats on their spouse. The temptation to satisfy a certain desire arises and because there’s no awareness of it, the reaction to the temptation has be acted upon. If there was an understanding of this, it wouldn’t prevent the temptation from arising, but it could prevent the reaction (acting upon) to the temptation.

This is but one example, how about the temptation to take drugs or reach for something else to alter your mind state. The desire to alter one’s current mind state simply arises and once it does because there’s no awareness of it, one will reach for and act upon the temptation with whatever they have developed to fulfill it. It could be cutting, alcohol, drugs, gambling, or a slew of other things, but regardless of what’s used the response to the temptation is in place because of the unawareness of it. Temptations will arise as it seems it’s just part of being human, but giving into it is not human, it’s conditioning, and as long as the conditioning is in place to act upon an arisen temptation, it will become that much more common place as it becomes unconsciously what is considered the norm.

Peace Isn't Accidental

Peace isn’t something that just happens accidentally to a person. Even if it isn’t realized, peace is the result of being aligned with the energy that allows for it to be.

Those who are at peace with themselves are at peace with the world, but this isn’t because everything is as wanted nor is it accidental, no it’s because whether it’s realized or not, one is aligning themselves to the energy that provides peace. You cannot be at peace if you’re using tools that don’t provide peaceful results from being experienced. If the mind is agitated and it’s not understood that it is, peace will be difficult because the tools needed to provide it won’t be used; it won’t even be known that they’re needed. Forty nine years of using tools that didn’t provide peace caused me and those around me many years of suffering. It wasn’t because of a lack of looking for peace, but because I didn’t understand about using tools that provided the peace I was seeking, there were no results of peace. Although today the mind still gets agitated, at least I understand what’s happening so there’s a lot less suffering because the agitations just don’t remain in place for long periods of time. There’s also a lot less time spent in reinforcing the mind agitations that arise because of the understanding.

Prior to the understanding of my own mind, my mind was in a constant state of agitation, but it’s not the peace that results in the mind settling that I understand, what I understand is why there wasn’t peace. That there’s awareness of an arising agitation is all that has to be noticed for the mind agitation to loosen its hold and as one becomes more aware of this, the hold becomes less. Don’t delve to deeply into trying to understand this because it then becomes just another agitation. Just see it for what it is, don’t try to change it nor want it different, just notice the awareness aware of awareness, that’s it. This will result in peace and not because it’s happening accidentally, but because of being aligned with energy that allows the mind to settle enough for one to be at peace.

Roll of the Dice

Truth builds a foundation for life that is not easily swayed by the circumstances that occur. An erratic existence is what happens when a roll of the dice conditioning is relied upon to build a foundation for life.

Many people say they aren’t sure how they would react if a certain situation occurred in their life, with this lack of understanding of oneself what happens is life becomes like a roll of the dice. The only reason this occurs is because there isn’t a solid foundation of truth, so basically life is left to chance. When truth is the foundation no matter what happens, one stays the course because the foundation is solid. When things aren’t contingent on outside circumstances being a certain way, when they change (and they will change because such is the nature of life) you can remain on firm ground and not allow the circumstances to control your reactions. You may feel a certain way because of it, but it doesn’t have to affect the way you respond and allow your emotions to control you.

If you don’t know yourself which makes for an unstable foundation, you will definitely be controlled by whatever happens in life, but when you are firmly planted in truth, it will be difficult to be swayed by your own emotions. After all that is what makes for a roll of the dice foundation, emotional immaturity. Not having a solid foundation in truth is the cause of this. An example would be, if the truth of impermanence were understood and you were told you had six months to live, your reaction wouldn’t be so dramatic; our reactions are dependent on our emotional maturity. I’m not saying you will be able to say it is what it is initially, but by knowing truth you will eventually say it, and how long this takes depends on how deeply engrained truth is in you and how emotional immature one is. So when truth is known and you are free from the roll of the dice conditioning, what you are set free of is you being controlled by your own immature emotions. Learn truth of who you are and you will remain firmly planted on the ground no matter what numbers come up when the dice is rolled.

Worldly Shallowness

Look beyond the shallowness of what the world presents and how it’s adhered to. It will be beyond this adherence that one’s true self emerges. If not, one will remain confined to their own shallowness.

The world encourages shallowness and attachment to this results in one’s own shallowness because it’s what’s adhered to. Is there truly a way to go beyond this for everyone, or is this just reserved for a select few? There are many who are living proof that anyone can go beyond the shallowness of what the world projects. One just needs to take a step back from the trappings that are in place. All of these trappings are based in selfishness, with most centered on the greed of power. This has become what the value of existence is measured by. This value is really valueless.

Look at our entertainment industry, it can be called our distraction industry, because that is all it does. It distracts one from noticing what is truly going on in their own life, and the world presents these distractions daily. Why is this shallowness allowed when it is in everyone’s power to stop it? Where are we headed with this shallowness having a foot hold on our throat? Please use whatever power that can be utilized, to get this message out to as many people as possible. I don’t mean preach it, or post it, I mean use one’s power to go beyond the shallowness to live by a message of love. One can only change their own shallowness, but by that changing just think of all the people that one comes in contact with each and everyday and how many can be touched.

Indwelling Love

A created lack is why one reaches outward for something. Inward is one’s indwelling completeness based on one’s own indwelling love. Any lack is strictly created by having a view that something’s missing.

Nothing is ever missing in one’s life, it’s only the Conditioned Mind that makes one think there is. There’s never a true lack, it always comes from what one’s own mind creates. Fulfillment always comes from one’s own indwelling love, which is provided by the Universe. It’s the indwelling self of creation, it’s what one is made of. All the other nonsense that goes on is just the story that’s made up between the ears. One’s indwelling love is truth, it’s the place where peace passes all understanding. The outward nonsense that something is missing is the cause of suffering.

To go inward, is to go where there is nothing but love. To go outward is to go where there is nothing but a void that needs filling. This void (lack) is what creates suffering, because there’s nothing outward that can satisfy it, ever; only one’s indwelling love can satisfy this. One’s indwelling love is always there, that’s why there is never anything truly missing in one’s life, but with an undisciplined mind there isn’t awareness of this indwelling love so the only alternative is to look and reach for it outwardly. The need to look outward for anything would never be if there was the understanding nothing is missing. One only seeks because there is a lack and there is lack because of the unawareness of truth. When truth is known, the seeking ends because when one knows the indwelling self one is in touch with their indwelling love, and when one loves, there will be the understanding that there is no void to fill nor any lack because nothing is missing.

Noisy or Quiet Mind

It seems as though there’s a choice between a mind that’s noisy and a mind that’s quiet, but when there’s no awareness between the two, the noisy mind rules so there is no choice.

There are two kinds of minds that a person lives by. One is to live life through a mind that’s noisy. This doesn’t need much explanation because anything that’s done through this type of mind is only a benefit to self. The other is to live life through a quiet mind. This one is so much more beneficial because its effects are so much more lasting and wide spread.

The noisy mind only exist to satisfy self, this is pretty cut and dry. Whatever is used in this mindset is used to benefit only yourself. There isn’t much unity or love here. Now granted most people aren’t under the spell of a noisy mind all the time, there’s usually some quietness, both minds can’t be in place at the same time so at any given time, the mind will either be one or the other and the more the mind is noisy, the more time one will spend thinking about and doing things only for themselves.

Now look at a quiet mind and how this mindset benefits all humanity. It touches the entire Universe because that’s its source. This mindset isn’t self created or sustained by doing, it’s a direct result of being aligned with Universal Love. The quiet mind is of the Universe where there’s unity and joy. It has to be this way because love arises from quietness. A quiet mind sustains itself, serves many, and is a benefit to all. So the mind in place is what determines what one brings to humanity and it will either be the noisy mind that creates chaos or the quiet mind where all humanity will be served.

Natural Love

Living from a place of love is better for everyone involved, just understand it’s not special, it’s natural and many in the world just do it so don’t make it about what it isn’t.

It’s easy to get caught up in the so called spiritual way of life and think it’s something special, but the bottom line is there are many people who emanate loving behavior (natural love) without being conscious of it, it’s just natural to them. An example of this occurred yesterday as I was at the beach. There was a west wind which has a tendency to increase the biting fly population on the beach. As soon as I sat down they started biting me, a women came up to me and offered me a natural fly repellent. I used it and the biting fly issue was no more. When I first sat down I was determined to not focus on the flies so as not to miss the beautiful day that was being offered, and with a little outside assistance the flies did not win. The flies are just one of the things my Conditioned Mind wanted to use, there were children screaming and limited swimming, plus some other things going on, but all I had to do was remain with what was occurring in that moment and lo and behold none of those things mattered. They were still happening all around me, but there was no attachment to them.

I may have to practice this to be free, but I observed many people on the beach and throughout life who naturally live the so called spiritual life. It’s not special to live from a place of love, it’s natural, to not love is unnatural. It’s why it causes suffering because it’s doesn’t allow a natural flow with life. There’s no harmony when living in an unnatural way. To many, this unnatural way causes much suffering and becomes the driving force to living differently, but don’t make it more than what it is. Living from a place of love is better for everyone and everything associated with it, just understand it’s not special, it’s natural and many in the world just do it so don’t make it about what it isn’t.

Mind Struggle

If you say life is difficult then it is. If you’re just with life as it is without a label, then the mind struggle ceases and it’s because you’re not doing the thing that allows it to occur.

If you’re wondering why life seems to be a struggle with only fleeting moments of happiness and peace, you may want to check out what you are using to snuff out the struggle. If you’re trying to use the mind that’s creating the struggle to stop it, the struggle won’t cease because you can’t use the same mind to stop it. This is the trap most people get stuck in and very very few ever get out of it. This is one of the reasons I don’t advocate positive thinking as a way to happiness and peace, it takes as much energy to be positive as it does to be negative and although the results are different outwardly, the inner bondage is the same; if one is in bondage there’s very little space for peace or happiness. The reason a broken mind can’t fix itself is because there’s nothing there. Where is this thing labeled as mind? It can’t be seen, smelt, tasted, or felt, but yet one makes the mind the base of their entire existence. It’s no wonder there’s a constant struggle, how can there not be!

The mind is never present because it can’t exist there, it’s why there is a constant thought stream of using the past and future. If a practice of using the body isn’t developed (because it’s the only place that exist) happiness and peace will be a commodity that remains fleeting at best. If you hold onto all the lies of the past and future, the struggle with life will remain and it will be because you are holding onto the things that allow it. Your life is your hands, no one else can make you live in the present. If you say life is difficult then it is. If you’re just with life as it is without labeling it as anything, then and only then will the mind struggle cease and it will be because you’re not doing the thing that allows it to occur.

Evaluating the Moment

As long as you are alive the next moment will happen, and how that moment is evaluated determines the direction and type of energy for that moment and thus for your life.

If someone is telling a story that’s suppose to be funny, there will be an evaluation on your part and you will laugh if it’s evaluated as funny. If you go to the doctor for a check up and you get a call from the office the doctor wants to see you, that moment will be evaluated and depending on the energy it’s given determines what happens next. This goes on for every moment of everyday and although this isn’t consciously done, it is done nonetheless. Becoming aware of this evaluation process will allow you to create a sliver of space between the moment and the evaluation which can possibly alleviate jumping to conclusions so quickly. Mostly that’s what we do, we instantly evaluate the moment and just go with the conditioning that’s in place without considering what we are about to do. We very seldom have all of the facts about what’s happening, we mostly deal with each moment with a knee jerk reaction.

There’s not much space between our thoughts so there’s not much truth to our evaluations as each moment arises. Knee jerk reactions were how my life was lived all the time and it’s why there was a lack of harmony and peace in my life. This has lessened to a degree, but even when it does happen, it’s let go of a lot quicker because of the awareness it’s happening. To me life is simply about becoming more aware of the things in place that take me from my place of peace. After all when one is able to evaluate each moment for what it truly is, two things that would be at the forefront of each evaluation would be “How important is it” and “This too shall pass.”

Your Story Your Lie

To the level of understanding of how you alone create the stories you think are needed to live your life, to that extent is how your created stories become the lies you live by.

Whatever it is you reach for that’s outside yourself becomes your story, and unfortunately it also becomes the lie you live by. Life needs no such story or lie to exist, but you probably do because you have never been taught otherwise. Our lies are at the core of everything reached for and what’s reached for actually reinforces the lie. This is why dependency is dependency regardless of what it is. A program, therapy, another book, meditation, retreats, your favorite team, politics, are no different than reaching for alcohol, drugs, food or something else. They are all a form of the lie one’s Conditioned Mind uses to make you believe they’re needed to live your life, but it just isn’t true; there would be existence even if none of these things were reached for. If there isn’t some awareness of this which just may create some space, your entire life can be lived as a lie. Because of the lack of awareness of this, my life was lived as a lie for forty nine years.

Today because there’s some space between reaching for these lies, they’re not nearly as dominant as previously. They still arise because of the conditioning in place, but they have so much less control because there’s awareness of them. It’s imperative to understand how the reaching itself is the lie as what’s being used only matters in the respect to the harm it causes. It seems the less harm it causes the more the lie is accepted, but this is all just part of the lie because a lie is as lie no matter what. This isn’t as complicated as it may seem, know your lies and you will come to know truth, but understand if you don’t they will dominate your life which will than be lived as a lie you alone create.

Out With the Old

Mental bondage to our old thoughts is only real to the level of the unawareness of this and because the bondage is so subtle even when there is awareness, it’s still difficult to let the new in.

So much goes on between the ears in our daily life that truly living in the moment in almost impossible, almost. This old mental bondage can be broken free of, but only when it’s seen for what it truly is, old. You cannot break free from the mental bondage if the old patterns that cause it aren’t identified; you don’t know what you don’t know. For many years I did things unaware there was another way to view life. I was caught in my old Conditioned Mind Patterns and nothing short of a miracle was going to change this. The miracle that did happen wasn’t from some outside source who chose me, I was made ready by reaching a place where there was nowhere else to turn but inward. When this happened, the old veil of ignorance was removed along with all of its lies. You can hold onto whatever you think you need, for me it wasn’t until there was nowhere to turn but inward that space was created which allowed the new in as the old patterns fell away. Space had to be created, if not the new would have never been allowed in.

I’m the same person I always was when it comes to my human form, but energy wise all has changed. I no longer see things from the stand point of the past and future because I’ve found they are the old patterns that hold me captive. The new is constantly exposing itself in the present moment and although the Conditioned Mind loves the old, if I want to break free from the old mental patterns that tried like hell to destroy me, things have to be discovered that reveal the new. This is what discipline allows, I had none so I stayed marred in the old and it wasn’t until there was space that the new took hold.

The Hook of Self

The way one gets hooked to things all comes from the same inner attachment to self and the only way there will ever be freedom from these hooks is by simply not attaching to self.

When life is seen through the sense of self, everything that appears seems to have a hook attached to it. Whether the hook takes hold and if it does how deeply it locks you in, is dependent on how conscious you are of this. But understand the hook is not on what is being viewed, the hook is on the way the self sees what is viewed. Mostly we go through life unconscious, thinking everything is outside of us and although it is, the hook of the view that is seen as self is what causes you to become entrapped to whatever it is you see.

Simply put, the controlling energy of your life can’t be any different than where your self focus is, and your self determines what is focused on. Focus on pain and the pain will cause unnecessary suffering. Focus on lust and the ensuing action will follow. Until you can see how your own self hooks you and learn to not attach to it, you will have very little control over what holds you in captivity. Truly understanding this makes all the difference in the world as to what hooks you and the suffering that’s experienced because of it. This doesn’t mean you have to go around being perfect, just understand the hooks are there and when you get hooked it’s only because of the attachment to self. In this understanding lies your freedom because although you may get hooked, it won’t be your focus if you don’t attach to self.

Primary Emotions

A heart of love doesn’t suffer, it aches. Primary emotions are the main emotions that arise and they’re far different than when there’s attachment that allows secondary emotions to arise.

This is the biggest misunderstanding when it comes to emotions. Emotions will arise, that’s a given they are a part of being human, but what happens after the primary emotions arise determines the degree of the suffering one endures. At first the emotions are primary and this is what needs to be focused on if one is to ever experience liberation from the suffering emotions can cause. Secondary emotions arise when one attaches to the primary emotions and this is directly linked to the level of suffering that’s experienced. Emotions don’t cause suffering, attachment to them does. An example of attachment to emotions would be if someone accidentally cut you off on the highway, at first you are scared, but right after that you become angry and chase them. Another example is if you go to the doctor and they find something wrong, you can project having one foot in the box (dying) or you can wait and see what the test results are. Add your own example.

Attaching to emotions is how stories are made up, but they don’t add anything to life. They just create stories which feeds the energy that causes suffering. You can only be the energy that encompasses you and when there’s suffering it’s because of the energy that’s be projected. This is what determines the degree of one’s emotional suffering. A heart of love doesn’t suffer, it aches, losing a loved one doesn’t necessarily have to cause suffering. It will though if there’s attachment to the secondary emotion which always wants the situation different than what it is. Hence here is where suffering arises from because when there’s attachment to emotions, the energy that’s in place can only cause suffering because it’s what’s being held.

Emotions Ride

A thought is but a thought, it has no emotional tie until there’s attachment, but its not the thought that has control, it’s the attachment because without the attachment the thought would have no energy.

When something happens in life and an emotion is attached to it, the roller coaster ride begins. Up, down, round and round, loop the loop, fast, slow and when it finally runs its course, the ride stops, that is until the next emotion pushes the start button. Our thoughts aren’t in control until they are attached to and the start button is pushed. A thought is a thought is a thought, there’s no substance to it until it’s attached to, but its not really the thought that is given control, it’s the attachment because without the attachment the thought would be unable to attain energy. A thought does not start the roller coaster, you can have a thought all day long, but this doesn’t push the start button. It is strictly the attachment to the thought that starts the ride and puts the emotions in motions.

Our thoughts are like electricity and this is the energy that starts the roller coaster, it’s always there like a light that’s plugged in just waiting to be turned on. So depending on how you are conditioned, regardless of the nature of the thought, when there is attachment to the thought the on button is pushed and the roller coaster starts moving; it has been set in motion and it will now have to run its course. You pushed the start button so you will have to endure the consequences of this. Some roller coasters are larger, faster, and scarier than others, we may want to blame others for starting the ride, but no one is responsible for starting it but ourselves. If you don’t want to constantly be on a roller coaster ride for the rest of your life, you will need to understand you are not your thoughts or emotions and just maybe you will learn how to not push your roller coasters start button.

It's Only a Thought

Unless the mind settles enough to see itself, most of one’s thoughts will be a conditioned lie so you really shouldn’t believe everything you think because a thought is but a thought and it’s not necessarily true.

Nothing is a problem unless it’s made into one. Think of the context of this simple yet profound sentence. Here are some of the ways the mind becomes conditioned and if one gets quiet enough this conditioning can be seen. The car in front of me is going to slow, I have to go food shopping, I’m tired, my allergies are horrible, I’m bored, etc, etc, etc. All of these start out as a single thought, but that isn’t where the problem lies the thought just arises, something triggers the attachment to it and what happens next is where the problem arises from because we believe the thought. We actually think the car in front is going to slow, or going food shopping is something we don’t like. We believe our thoughts to be true and then we attach to them and become controlled by them. If the thought wasn’t labeled to be true, we would be able to see it simply for what it is . We would see what was really going on instead of what our conditioned mind was making up. It would be seen the car in front of us really isn’t going to slow, we are just being controlled by our undisciplined thoughts.

Learn to watch the nonsense that’s believed to be true, but there’s so much of it that it’s hard to grasp. I mentioned one time to a person about the way we poison ourselves with tobacco products and his response was, he enjoyed them. This is insanity to enjoy poisoning yourself, but that’s the lie of a Conditioned Mind. People enjoy all sorts of things that are harmful to themselves, this also includes associated behaviors that harm others, and one’s own mind justifies it all. All I am saying is watch the thoughts that you think and learn how so many are based in lies to keep you in captivity to the Conditioned Mind. By no means should you take my word for it, the next time a thought pops into your head, take a moment before you label and act on it, and really take notice if what you are thinking is true or if it’s just a lie of your Conditioned Mind.

The Learning Curve of Compassion

There’s a learning curve in life that allows one to let things go so compassion can arise. It matters little what our intentions are if what comes out of our mouth or if our actions aren’t from compassion.

This learning curve of life isn’t something to be held onto for strict adherence, it’s more so used to stay opened to the ever expanding view of compassion and not get caught up in self serving actions. Compassion and tolerance especially have to be at the forefront when others are involved. It’s not always easy to understand where others are coming from so it’s better not to judge and try to deal with each situation from a place of neutrality. This is much easier said than done, but by practicing quietness it gets easier to decipher what the most beneficial course of action is for all involved. We shouldn’t be to hard on ourselves especially because the Conditioned Mind process of awakening is slow and it has to be accepted as it is if one is to be at peace. On the other hand our conditioning is not to be ignored because we won’t learn from it and the same reactions will be repeated over and over again.

Although our journey may seem mundane at times, it’s only a self serving mind that makes it appear this way; life can never truly be mundane. Every moment of everyday is new unto itself, and when it’s lived in the present, it’ll be realized what a gift life truly is. It’ll be understood that what our learning curve affords us is not the mundane life of living in the past or future, but the ability to live in the present more and more and respond to life from a place of compassion instead of reacting from a self serving mind. The more this is done, the less mundane life will be and the more compassion one will have for themselves and hence for all beings.

Delusional Regret

The past is real to the extent that it happened, but it’s not real to the extent that it’s held onto. If regretting the past is in control of the present, the only reality is the stagnation of living in the regret of the past.

It’s very important to reflect on the past and learn from it, but if the arising energy is from regret, it will be counterintuitive to your well being. The past is the past and unless it’s allowed to remain there it will constantly be brought into the present along with its regretful energy. Any past action regardless of what it was is over as soon as it happens. If it’s held onto and relived, it transforms the free flowing energy of the present into energy that binds one to a self that doesn’t truly exist, which is also counterintuitive to one’s well being. The past is real to the extent that it happened, but it’s not real to the extent that it’s held onto. I don’t shut the door on the past, I just don’t live there because regrets energy makes the past delusional by taking one from the moment of the present.

There are choices in life only when there are options, but if regretting the past is in control of the present, there is no choice, there is only the stagnation of living in the regret of the past. The past is important to the degree that we use it to learn from, but that’s it, it causes more problems than it’s worth. All judgements come from the past which blocks the free flowing energy of the present moment. You can only do what you’re conditioned to do so there’s no reason to regret anything. Regrets are only in place because one thinks there was a choice, but once there’s awareness there wasn’t, all regrets can be let go of because it is seen you only did what you were conditioned to do and you really didn’t have a choice.

Finding the Lost City

Finding peace is like finding a lost city, there are many maps out there that just don’t lead to what you’re looking for. And if you think the map you’re using is the correct one, why are you still looking for the lost city?

Think of waking up as if you have be given a map to a lost city. Not everyone gets this map and even those who do, not all of them find the lost city. So the question to ask is even though you have the map, are you reading it correctly? I only say you have the map because you’re reading this, but are the directions clear or are you only using the directions that suit you. I’m not saying I have the only map, but I have been shown the way to the lost city. You don’t have to believe me, as a matter of fact I don’t want you to believe me, I want nothing more than for you to investigate and find the map to the lost city on your own, but I will tell you this, unless you are willing to use a proven map that allows the lost city to be found, you will be going in circles for a very long. And you will constantly be looking for another map because if you haven’t found the lost city by now, it’s because you have the wrong map. You may stumble upon the lost city by accident and if you want life to be like a game of chance that’s up to you, I have outlined the route to the lost city, but I cannot make anyone use the map given to me.

Now you can keep using the map that keeps you going in circles or you can keep looking for another map, but all I’m saying is I have been given the map, it’s not my map, I used mine and many others for years to no avail. It wasn’t until I knew I didn’t have the map that I was open enough for the real map and the Universe gave it to me. I’m not arrogant in saying this, I know there was a major shift in my view of life that had nothing to do with me. I share this constantly to possibly show others you too can find the lost city within. I share the map given to me, but I only have it because there was a willingness to receive it. It will take a willingness to forget about your own map and perseverance to keep going when the going gets tough, but the most important thing to realize is this, you may think you have the right map in your possession, but if you do why haven’t you found the lost city?

To Live or Not to Live

Now is not a magical place, but because it’s the only place that truly exist, it’s the only place where you can be liberated from your stories (yourself) and truly live your life.

Everyone is on a path to somewhere and where that somewhere ends up is all the same, but the road to our final resting place is much different for all. Shakespeare might have said “to be or not to be, that is the question, but I say “to live or not to live, that is the real question. I know the way someone views life is influenced by many things, but it’s heart breaking at times to see what is so adamantly held onto just because it has been in place for a long time. A story of a path regardless of how beautiful the story is made up to be, is still a story which comes from a thought so it’s not a path to true liberation. It may be better than a previous path you were on, but that doesn’t mean it’s the most beneficial one. In my writings the only thing I point to is the present moment and that’s because it’s the only place that truly exist. There’s no story needed here, it’s existence pure and simple.

If there is another path you are using, you may want to check how much of a story is needed to remain on it, and most importantly you may want to see if you’re using a path that truly liberates you from yourself. We will all end up in the same place at the end of our existence, but our differences will be the road travelled. It can be one where a story is used just like whistling in the dark to keep away the bogeyman, which happens to be you. Or you can truly live your life by living Now, not because Now is a magical place, but because it’s the only place that truly exist and it’s the only place where you can be liberated from stories (yourself) and truly live your life.

The Blame Game

When the blame game stops, it has nothing to do with the world or people changing, it’s because the enemy is found and it is you. Once this is seen there’s no more pointing a finger at someone because there’s no one to blame.

It’s very difficult to go beyond your own conditioning when the blame game is played. There’s only one way to break the chains of the Conditioned Mind and that’s by stopping the blame game of pointing your finger at others. No one can make you do or feel like anything, but if you give something or someone that power, they own you. There are no facts to the way that you feel, but if it’s always something or someone else’s fault as to why you think you feel a certain way, you are just giving your Conditioned Mind the energy to manifest blame, which just keeps you entrapped to your own misery. Many injustices are done, but so what, it’s the way many humans are. You can point all the fingers you want, but you just reinforce the conditioned energy by doing so.

There’s also the delusional blame game where you make up stories. This is an extremely heartbreaking place to be because the internal struggle manifest outwardly with almost everyone. There’s very little harmony with others when this blame game is played because there’s very little harmony with yourself. I blamed the world and the people in it for all my troubles and for many years this was reinforced on a daily bases, I had the inability to look at myself. It wasn’t until the blame game stopped that my life changed, not because the world or people changed, but because I had found the enemy and it was me. Once this was seen there was no one to point a finger at so there was no one to blame.

It's Not Your Fault

The mind only becomes agitated because of the conditioning in place and as long as there’s awareness of this, you don’t have to take on the burden of it being your fault which allows you to move on.

We will all do things from time to time that’s selfish in nature due to our conditioning and although this isn’t an excuse to condone when this is done, if you can realize it’s not your fault, this selfish energy won’t bind you up and you can move on. I know a lot of beautiful people who have hearts of gold and yet they fall short of anything like perfect adherence to the principle of always acting from a place of love and life is not really about that anyway. Understanding it’s not your fault when you act in a selfish manner actually lessens the control this energy has over you. It doesn’t lessen the responsibility incurred by the action, but by not holding on to a moment of selfishness and reliving it over and over, it’s power dissipates. For years I was selfish and it takes time to become unselfish, to me that this is even realized is the blessing; the behavior changes over time.

Most of my day is spent in a quiet place and although this is the place preferred, I know selfishness will arise, but it’s not my fault, it only arises because of the conditioning in place. The selfishness usually last seconds or minutes at the most, so why hold on to it as I know there will be hours spent in love. If I had the choice I would never be selfish, but that’s not realistic because of the conditioning in place. I do not condone nor ignore this, but my experience has been, by not giving the selfishness power to fester and grow, it arises less and less. The only reason the quietness is ever interrupted is because of the established conditioning and as long as there’s awareness of this, I don’t have to take on the burden of it being my fault which allows me to move on and return to a place of love.

Collective Unconsciousness

Understanding why things are as they are goes a long way in breaking free from the collective conditioning, when one gets this there’s a real chance that history won’t repeat itself.

You should not be surprised by anything a human being does because history just repeats itself over and over and what’s repeated always seems to be based in greed, hate, and delusion. The faces change, but the collective conditioning doesn’t and even though there are many more people who are awake today, the collective unconsciousness still rules as the tools that keeps the unconsciousness in place as much more plentiful. There are just too many distractions in place for humanity to break free from the collective unconscious energy as a whole and there’s too many of these tools which have been in place for eons. Each human existence begins with these tools establishing their hold almost immediately. This is the reason it usually takes something profound to happen for one’s view to shift. It’s very difficult to do what it takes to change one’s conditioning because it takes looking within and the tools of the collective are mostly geared towards looking outward. Breaking free from the collective conditioning is possible, but highly unlikely.

This isn’t written to be discouraging, but this reality has to be faced and understood if there’s to be any semblance of freedom from the collectives grip. It’s energy is powerful and so enticing that it keeps the unconsciousness looking more attractive than what conscious brings. History repeats itself because it’s what’s known and the Conditioned Mind loves to default to the familiar. No human being will ever change if this isn’t realized because the unconscious energy already established is too deeply engrained. Understanding why things are as they are goes a long way in breaking free from the collective conditioning, and when one gets this there’s a real chance at least for the individual that history won’t repeat itself.

No True Separation

Without the distractions of the conceptual mind, there’s no separation in what’s being observed so there is a natural peace that can only occur without labeling it as so.

I know we mostly think as things as separate from each other and to the conceptual mind it certainly seems that they are, but when and if the mind settles, there’s a place where not one word is needed to see this fabrication of separation conjured up by the Conditioned Mind. The Conditioned Mind is based in thought and although there’s nothing wrong with thought in and of itself, life doesn’t need thought to be. All that happens in life does so without any association to the thoughts that one’s conditioning puts in place, this is what separates everything and puts it in a category of a conditioned choice.

When something is observed through the senses and put into a certain category, it separates because it is seen as being out there. Once something is out there, unity, harmony, cohesiveness, oneness, and on and on is lost. This only happens through thought. I was at the beach yesterday observing all that was going on; there were many seagulls close by. I wasn’t making up a story of anything in particular, so by just observing without applying a particular label to anything, there wasn’t separation. It’s actually a pretty cool place to be as there’s no resistance in this place to what’s there so there is much freedom. For me I’m particularly at peace when I’m at the beach because there’s a focused mindfulness on the present moment and there aren’t many distractions. So without the distraction of the conceptual mind, there’s no separation in what’s being observed so there is a natural peace that can only occur without labeling it as so.

The Lies of Clinging

Clinging to anything is a prison, but the thing grabbed is only the sentence, the prison is the lie the Conditioned Mind creates that tells you what you cling to is needed to make life better.

The reality of our internal and external world is impermanence and because of this when there is clinging to anything, there has to be suffering. So suffering is directly related to what one clings to and how tight the hold is. This is a natural phenomenon of life and since this nature of impermanence can’t really be changed, the only way for the suffering not to occur is to learn how not to cling to things. You can still enjoy all that life has to offer, but if true liberation is to be experienced, clinging will have to fall away. I say fall away because many cling to not clinging and thus stay attached to the their suffering. Letting go isn’t really a doing, it’s why many remain entrapped to the bondage of self. If true liberation is to be experienced, there will have to be awareness of the conditioned ideas, concepts, and beliefs that are in control. Few have this willingness because of the conditioning in place to stop this clinging, hence the need to reach for something constantly rears its ugly head; because it causes suffering.

One clings because the conditioning in place is based in a lie. This lie is what one stops clinging to and that’s how truth is revealed. It’s not a truth that can be explained because the moment it is it gets clung to because it becomes an idea, concept, or belief. This is why in stillness truth is revealed. All that I know today and it’s not much, has been revealed to me. To truly stop clinging it has to be seen that all that one clings to is a lie. If this isn’t seen, the clinging continues along with its associated suffering. This moment needs no idea, concept, or belief to be, if you can see this than the clinging is naturally lessened because the Now exist free of any lie and without the lie there is simply nothing to cling to.

Love is Just Better

Learn to love, not because it’s your true essence, not because it’s for the betterment of humanity, not because of any other reason except that life is so much better when you come from a place of love.

I lived a very selfish existence for many years and although it wasn’t by choice, this didn’t alleviate the suffering it caused. There was much confusion for most of my life and I really didn’t understand why I did the things that I did. Most of my actions were self destructive in nature, with the nature always being based in selfishness. This is what happens when love is lacking in one’s life. It may not be the way one wants to be, but it will be the way one has to be because without love, there’s only room for selfishness. This manifest in the form of thoughts, then actions, and then the selfish results of those. This is where anger, fear, greed, hate, and delusion arise from. None of these are natural, they have to be learned and because their energy is selfish you can see why they cause nothing but problems in your life.

This is separating energy and although many look at it as causing separation with others, what really happens is you separate from your own innate love. This is what selfish energy does and there’s no way around when this is your energy. Seeing this and turning it around is the only way it will change, but the change isn’t to create a story to save the world, it’s simply to learn a better way to live. What turned my life around wasn’t learning the secrets of the Universe, it was simply learning how to love. Not because it’s our true essence or because it’s for the betterment of humanity, there’s really no reason except that life is so much better when you come from a place of love instead of selfishness.

More Than Enough

When what you have is more than enough, it’s because of the love of your own heart, but when you are given love from another, it opens up a beauty to life that can only be seen through the eyes of their love.

We can give endless amounts of love which is beautiful in itself, and I have found that no love is needed in return to experience this beauty, but when love is returned it actually puts you on another plane. Not a magical or mystical one, but one where there’s a sense of peace and contentment that nothing of the material plane can provide. About ten years ago I was shown love from the Universe that I still don’t fully understand, and if that was all I ever got that would be enough, but I’ve been given so much more and it’s because of the people who are a part of my social media network and the people who are physically in my life. I write because of what was revealed to me and the way it has opened my heart is not something I can take credit for. This doesn’t mean confrontation with people doesn’t happen, but I’ve learned to give it a try and rectify it. If there’s persistence in the confrontation, I will simply drop it and move on. I will always attempt to convey the message revealed to me in a loving way, but sometimes it’s just not received with love. I know it’s because not everyone is in the same place or sees things the same.

I don’t really concern myself too much with this mostly because I’m not here to convince anyone of anything. I know there just will not be a connection with everyone, but for those who there is a connection with, it is simply beautiful. Having relationships with people was never my forte, but it is now something I cherish. I have experienced so much love in my life and it’s a direct result of who is in my life. This starts with my wife, family, friends, work associates and goes all the way to the last person I talked to on FB messenger who I just met. My part is to love. Some people still annoy me as I’m not perfect, but the love I’ve been given as a result of the love the Universe has shown me has made every article, every phone call, even every confrontation worth it, and even though I don’t need anything different than what it is as what I have now is more than enough, because of all of you, I see a beauty of life that can only be seen through the eyes of your love that’s given to me.

Tangible Spirituality

Attachment to spiritual thoughts creates stories, the more tangible and practical one makes spirituality, the less there’s a need to create an airy fairy story of what isn’t instead of the tangible facts of what is.

Many see spirituality as something mystical or magical, but I have found it to be something tangible and practical. It’s not the path that I choose, it’s more so what arose when I began looking within instead of grasping for spiritual straws. Since I was a child I’ve always had to rely on a hands on approach to learning things. I was never one to just read something and grasp it, so when it was time to learn about me it was no different. I needed something tangible to use to get over the so called hump. It was in using my thoughts that gave me the opportunity to wake up. In my early days of reflection I was able to see that I was not my thoughts and the only reason they controlled me was because I alone (although unknowingly) gave them the power to do so, they said jump and I did as I was told. A thought in and of itself has no power, it has to be given it. This was a revelation to me because it meant I didn’t have to rely on an outside source. Imagine that, it meant my life was in my hands to a large degree.

Not attaching to the thoughts that arise is still the main focus of what I use today to remain anchored in the present. Everything that arises produces a thought which is a judgement and depending on what energy it’s given determines how much power it has over you. Nothing can control me unless it’s allowed and seeing my thoughts as something tangible allowed for an awareness to not have to attach to them. Any thought can be attached to which in turn creates the story’s we live by, but I have found the more tangible and practical I make spirituality, the less there’s a need to create an airy fairy story of what isn’t instead of the tangible facts of what is.

It's All Small Stuff

Everything should be considered small stuff in life because nobody gets out alive and regardless of how tight life is held onto, one day just like that it’s over along with everything that one attaches to.

When you can see that all things pass, everything is considered small stuff because it is. Even being diagnosed with a terminal illness is small stuff because it too will come to pass whether you accept it or not. I’m fifty nine years old and I can’t really pinpoint where that time has gone. It seems like only yesterday that I was in my twenty’s. Life is a phenomenon because of how everything passes. When one lives strictly from the mind, it’s difficult to experiences the beauty of life. Nobody gets out alive regardless of how tight life is held onto and one day just like that it’s over along with everything that one has attached to.

We make mountains out of molehills when there’s no awareness that all things pass. Looking at everything as though it is small stuff is invaluable as a tool because it allows you to not attach to things which makes even life itself become small. Everything is the small stuff and if it’s not seen in this way, instantly the mind comes into play and bondage follows, and where there’s bondage there’s suffering. This suffering is created because it’s not seen that everything passes including life itself so what’s the point in attaching to anything because one day and no one knows when that day will be, life will end. So regardless of how tight anything is held onto, it all becomes small stuff simply because it will all come to pass.

Spiritual Propaganda

Sit often and watch your thoughts come and go, eventually there will be more and more space between them. It’s in this space that one sees all the spiritual propaganda holding you in bondage.

With the emergence of the World Wide Web, there’s so much information available on spirituality that it really needs to be investigated before one considers using it to assist in their development. Here is the definition of Propaganda: information, especially of a biased or misleading nature, used to promote or publicize a particular cause or point of view. To see if the information you are using to develop the direction or path you are on is authentic and truly beneficial, there can’t be anything associated with it that forms attachment. Methods, programs, guru’s, life coaches, teachers, or any other form of propaganda that is used to keep you attached, just keeps you entrapped to the very thing you are trying to break free of. Just as there’s a lot of “fake news” out there today, there’s also a lot of fake information on spirituality. Bondage is not something that’s truly understood by many people and so most of the information out there is propaganda to keep you in bondage in some way. Those telling you to buy their book, pay for retreats run by paid speakers, or follow (instant bondage) a program, are clever to a fault, with the fault being keeping you in bondage.

The only thing one needs to do is look within so one millisecond of space is created between your thoughts. Once this occurs and there’s awareness of it, more and more space will slowly be created. It takes nothing but awareness to create this space. The propaganda out there that someone’s program, book, method or whatever has your answer, will keep you in bondage to the very thing you trying to break from. I know people defend their so called guru or people they follow adamantly, but it’s only because there’s no awareness of the bondage they’re in. Sit often and just watch the thoughts come and go, eventually there will be more and more space between them. It’s in this space that one will see all the spiritual propaganda holding you in bondage.

New Possibilities

No one knows what the future holds unless the past is held onto. Holding onto the familiarity of the past keeps one not only entrapped to it, but it doesn’t allow for the door to new possibilities to open.

In order to go in a different direction in your life, seeing the need for new possibilities at least has to be acknowledged that the need exist. My change of direction was in discovering the new possibility of living a peaceful existence, but I first had to discover that there wasn’t peace and why this was. Most times we don’t want new doors to open because the Conditioned Mind just loves to stay entrapped to the familiar. What’s crazy about this is it’s done even if what’s being held onto isn’t in our best interest; the insanity of the Conditioned Mind. No one knows what the future holds unless the past is held onto. Remaining in the familiarity of the past keeps you not only entrapped to it, but it doesn’t allow for any new possibilities to arise. This is why even when people win the lottery, it doesn’t change them internally because the old conditioning remains.

This non change is exactly what happened to me, I had outer change, but my old conditioning remained in place. So although it seemed like I was taking advantage of new possibilities, no new possibilities truly arose. Things happened that made it seem like there was change, but everything that happened was manufactured by me in some way. That was until ten years ago when new possibilities arose, because there was internal change. Remember no one knows what the future holds unless the past is held onto and this is because holding onto the familiarity of the past not only keeps one entrapped to it, but it doesn’t allow for any new possibilities to arise.

Emotional Ties

Attaching to the things that ties one to their emotions makes life unstable. It is beautiful to truly experience love, it’s just not so beautiful when one is tied to something emotionally and it goes away.

When there is reliance on the outer as a source for one’s sense of well being, there will be much disappointment and unhappiness in life. This is because people don’t know themselves and this lack of understanding causes much harm, especially when there are ties to your emotions. When there is attachment to emotions there will be much suffering. I don’t think the person who coined the phrase “It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all” understood that his statement entrapped one to their own suffering. When you get tied into your emotions there is a direct link to suffering. If you love and you get emotionally attached, if you’re not loved in return or when the loved one goes away, there is much suffering. I’m not saying don’t love, I’m saying don’t attach, that’s the key.

Understanding the conditioning that ties one to their emotions is the only way one will break the bondage to them. I am more loving today than ever and yet I’m less attached than ever before. It truly is a beautiful place to be because it takes the emotional swings out of the picture and without those swings, one’s life is on more stable ground. I’m not here to debate whether emotions are needed or not, I just know they can wreck havoc and make life as if it was a roller coaster. Without attaching to the things that ties one to their emotions there’s a stability that just isn’t there when there’s attachment. It is beautiful to truly experience love, it’s just not so beautiful when one is tied to something emotionally and it goes away.

Nothing is Missing

The next time the need arises for you to reach for something, ask yourself if it’s truly needed and if you can see that it’s not, you will be complete simply because nothing will be missing.

The only thing missing in your life is what you tell yourself is missing. This is what makes one have the unconscious urge to reach for something. This feeling that something is missing is so deeply engrained and because of this there’s not much awareness that it’s even there. What’s also not noticed, is that you are the one who creates the feeling that something’s missing. If you can understand this, it automatically takes away the feeling that something’s missing, as peace manifested as truth fills the space. There are many things used to try and fill this space, but only the truth that nothing is missing will truly fill it. The thing to try and understand is when the need to reach for something arises, it’s only because the mind has become agitated which has caused the feeling that something’s missing, but nothing is ever missing and how this is known is because when one has the feeling something is missing, nothing will fulfill it.

There is an underlying completeness to life that naturally occurs without the mind agitations being in control. You don’t stop them from arising, but if you just notice them and allow them to be without attaching to them, the feeling that something is missing will not arise. The sense of completeness is not a feeling, it’s a knowing. This is why completeness can never be attained by reading a book, attending a program, or using things, but this doesn’t stop the Conditioned Mind from keeping you entrapped to trying to become complete. So the next time you reach for something ask yourself if it’s truly needed and if you can see that it’s not, you will be complete because nothing will be missing.

A Different View

A different view of life will only occur if the current view is seen as not being beneficial. This doesn’t mean life will be as you think it should be, it means life will be exactly as it is without needing a story.

If there is to be change in one’s life, it has to be seen that change is needed to allow one’s behavior to be more beneficial than what’s in place now. Understand it’s not changing the things that occur that’s needed, it’s only the view of what’s occurring that requires change, and the change that occurs is just seeing things as they truly are. This isn’t about substituting positive for negative, right for wrong, or love for selfishness, if this is done it just becomes a story of change from the intellect not from the heart. True change is when one remains in a state of stillness regardless of what happens, of course this is easier said than done, but if it’s not done, true change will never occur, only surface change will.

As I’m writing this I’m in the dentist chair getting ready to have a major procedure done. The mind wants to makes this into a story, but there’s no need to attach to it. I’m in the moment as it arises and passes. The procedure will take about two hours and then it will be done. Years ago this would have consumed me, but not today. No pain medication needed, just being with what is. This view is the change that happened to me, I now live in the moment which is much more beneficial than living life as a conditioned story. Having a different view will only occur if the current view is seen as not being beneficial. This doesn’t mean life will be as you think it should be, it means life will be exactly as it is without needing a story. Oh and by the way, my mouth is sore, but this too shall pass.

Ignorance Isn't Bliss

Truly diabolical is the Conditioned Mind and what makes it so is it isn’t seen nor understood that your enemies cannot harm you as much as your own unguarded thoughts can.

If you don’t learn to understand your own mind and the way it controls you, the control will never wane and although you will be alive, you will be no different than a plant which is basically controlled in the same way. A seed in its natural environment does what it’s conditioned to do to grow into a plant, but it just happens there’s not much else to it. People think they have free will and choices, but without truly understanding how the mind becomes conditioned so it can control, there is only bondage. This will have to be thoroughly investigated if it’s to be understood and even then it will not be easy to break the hold of the deeply engrained conditioning that’s in place. I know this from my experience and at least today by understanding the conditioning in place, its control has waned to a large degree. But make no mistake knowing all about the mind and understanding how it controls you are two different things.

Many are much more knowledgeable then me when it comes to knowing about the mind, but not many understand the conditioning in the way it has been revealed to me. There was total bondage for many years and because there wasn’t an understanding of this, it kept me ignorant to the control my own mind had over me. This ignorance was not bliss, it caused suffering to many, but nobody was with me all the time except myself so it caused the most suffering to me. This is what the Conditioned Mind does, it wrecks havoc internally which in turn manifest as unloving behavior externally. Truly diabolical is the Conditioned Mind and what makes it so is that this isn’t seen nor understood. And what truly needs to be understood is that your enemies cannot do you the harm that your own unguarded thoughts can.

Settled Mind Creativity
The world's rewards are not true rewards because the world only holds you in captivity to it. Sit often to develop the discipline that allows the mind to settle and watch what happens. Prior to nine years ago I never wrote anything in my life. Today I'm a writer because that's where my creative energy took me. Regardless of your talent, musician, writer, singer, actor, good at your day to day job, a parent, or whatever, let your creative energy engulf you. It's what I do, it's how I see what I see. Don't fall prey to what the world offers, find what your own heart offers. Become the instrument the Universe plays its beautiful music through, whatever that music manifest as; mine manifest as writings. Understand though you don't need anything to complete you, you are complete as you are. Understanding this will help you to just watch your inner creativity arise. I know this from experience and only the tip of the iceberg has been seen for me. When my mind settled, writing arose. All I did was look inward. It amazes me to this day that not only was I used to write a book, but I'm also used to write a daily article that seems to touch lives. I'm often asked if there is going to be a second book, I always respond, there's no need the first one says it all. Not needing anything different is where I have found my peace and it's not something that I'm willing to give up. I really enjoy what has happened to me. I've had the honor of connecting with the hearts of many people and it has been my greatest gift; it's only because of the creativity that has arisen from having a settled mind. The world's rewards are not my rewards because the world only holds you in captivity to it. Sit often to develop the discipline that allows the mind to settle and watch what happens. I would have sold myself short if I tried to do what has been done to me and it's just not something I'm willing to now try and take control of. I prefer to remain the instrument and it's because the Universe is doing a far better job than I ever did with my life. My part is to be willing to basically stay out of the way and watch the settled mind creativity arise.
What's Let In

When the “I need more” conditioning isn’t controlling what’s let in, there’s much more peace in one’s life, but this isn’t because peace is let in, it’s because nonsense isn’t let in so that naturally allows for one to be at peace.

Much goes on in one’s day to day living and for the most part there’s no control over what happens. Even if there was, with the way the Conditioned Mind has been developed, it wouldn’t change the way things are. The first thing that has to happen for the possibility of any change to take place is one has to understand what’s being let in to shape your day to day, even moment to moment existence. Much is viewed throughout the day, but it’s mostly let in through the default setting of the conditioning in place. It’s let in, but it’s not done with any sense of awareness so it leads one to being controlled like a puppet on a string. There’s no choice in this until there is, but unfortunately until there is, one will let in things that aren’t beneficial and hence if it’s not beneficial it will cause much trouble and suffering.

Think about the things that are attached to, the list is basically endless, the problem with this is not much that’s grabbed is beneficial. We are a species that has lost its way and it’s because of what we let in. There is a nothingness to life that has to be seen so one can decipher if what they have been conditioned to let in is beneficial or not. I let a lot in for many years that I thought was beneficial, but in truth it kept in bondage to the “I need more” conditioning. I always needed more so that’s what I let in, but it was never enough. Today it’s much different because to a large degree the “I need more” conditioning isn’t controlling what’s let in, so there’s much more peace, but this isn’t because peace is let in, it’s because nonsense isn’t let in so that naturally allows for one to be at peace.

Letting Go of Self

Seeking happiness makes it elusive so it will constantly be sought, and this is because the Self that wants happiness only knows how to seek it, it doesn’t know how to be happy.

Most people look at happiness as if it’s something that can be attained, but the only way to experience happiness is by letting it go, and what it is that needs to be let go of is the Self who wants to be happy. Everyone at some level understands that happiness can’t be found in things, but usually it’s discounted and one continues to pursue happiness as something to attained. In the process happiness will continue to be elusive, thus it will continue to be sought. There may be moments of happiness in one’s life, but only when things are the way that they are wanted. This is another trap (Mind Pattern) of the Conditioned Mind and it wrecks havoc because it keeps one entrapped to thinking life needs to be a certain way and this is where happiness lies. Many pursue this and cause their own death, but this is extreme. Happiness is mostly pursued by just about everyone and even though it’s not to the extreme of death, it is at the cost of one’s own freedom.

Happiness is always dependent on something that one’s Self finds appropriate. This appropriateness arises in many forms and it’s very difficult to spot because of the conditioning in place. It arises as any judgement you may have of another or situation, this is strictly the Self thinking that it knows what’s best for everyone. Really it all comes down to wanting whatever arises different and not being able to just be with what is and simply being ok with that. Until that time comes, happiness will continue to be elusive, but it will constantly be sought because the Self that wants happiness only knows how to seek it, it doesn’t know how to be happy.

Everything Falls Away

The more one allows things to be in control, the less one truly lives. You may be alive, but until it’s seen that everything falls away, you will remain in bondage to whatever you alone give power to.

Watch how all things arise and fall away. Seeing this is very valuable in the letting go process. What is held onto becomes one’s bondage, but it can simply be let go of, that is if it’s seen it is being held on to. Each moment arises and as it does it seems as if it’s there, but where is it truly. A vacation, a job promotion, birth, death, sickness, health, marriage, divorce, golfing, having a cigar, each day, going to work, going home from work, and on an on, all things arise and fall away, only attachment to them gives them the power to control. Nothing in an of itself has any power to control, it has to be given power. Before anything is attached to (society calls it addiction) it’s just there latent, lying in wait. Nothing has power until it is given it. The drug dealers can make all the heroin they want, but if no one needed to alter the way that they felt, it wouldn’t have the draw (power) it currently has. This is the reason so much money is spent on advertising, the advertisers know just what to use to entice people into unconsciously reaching for things .

Everyone gets caught by something, it’s just that some things have the power to totally devastate life and some are very subtle, but the common factor of everything is nothing has inherent power to control. Everything would arise and fall away if it wasn’t attached to and this is because nothing can control a person without the person allowing it; the given control can only come from the person. The more control is given away the less one truly lives. You may be alive, but until it’s seen that everything falls away you will remain in bondage to whatever you alone give power to.

Just Another Story

Your completeness is right here in front of you within your grasp, but you’ll never truly be mindful of this until you realize it’s not a story that’s needed, it’s what’s already here.

Without inner silence, it’s very unlikely one will have the mindfulness needed to not create your stories. Even this writing is a story of how not to create stories, but the mindfulness of writing it helps to minimize the attachment to it and thus once it’s written it’s complete. Non attachment is always the key. A story can always be added to, but once something arises ask yourself, is this the end of the story or not? That will depend on how one relates their “I” identity to the story. The more “I” needs the story for its identity, the more “I” attaches to it and the more a story is needed. This is the merry-go-round of the Conditioned Mind. No attachment, no needed story, no needed story, no discontentment of what isn’t, so all you are left with is what is, not the story of it, but the actual reality of what is happening now.

Story after story after story. The story of how I feel, or the story of what I think, or my life’s story, there is an endless creation of stories, that is until one becomes mindful enough that the story teller and the story are seen as one in the same. Being with what is instead of a created story will be the most difficult thing one when ever do in their life, but it will also be the most fulfilling lesson you will ever learn. Just be in the silence of what is, attach nothing and nothing will be needed. Imagine that, needing nothing to be happy, joyous, and free and understanding that you’re complete just as you are. It’s right there within your grasp, it’s right in front of you, but you’ll never truly be mindful of this until you realize it’s not a story that’s needed, it’s what’s already here.

A Wordly Perception

The more one’s thinking is in line with the world, the more suffering there will be. This is because the world only allows a surface perception, but beneath the surface perception is what’s truly going on.

Our made up perceptions when not seen in the awareness of mindfulness, solidify the delusions they arise from. This delusion is formed from the surface level of our perceptions which form the concepts that we live by which makes what is originally seen misunderstood as the deeper reality of what’s actually happening is missed. We get locked into the perceptions that form our concepts of what going on, this is also why there’s so much division amongst our species and why very few see the truth of existence. Mostly everyone has a different perception of the same thing so how can there not be division and strife amongst us? The greater good is very seldom considered, what’s mostly considered is the surface perception of the world and unfortunately it’s core is usually from the base of “I”.

It doesn’t have to be this way, but one will have to drop their perceptions to see beneath the surface. The world has perceptions on the material realm, it doesn’t really address the spiritual. Our internal longing though is spiritual and although at first many pursue the quest of material gains, at some point it’s discovered the material gains don’t produce lasting fulfillment. This is when at least the initial shift happens to make one look elsewhere for fulfillment, but unfortunately with the world’s perception in control, the material realm remains in place. It isn’t until one starts to look within that there’s the chance for real change, but this looking within can’t be superficial or true change won’t occur. What will need to change is the perception that what is seen on the surface of life is not what’s going on and then and only then will there be the chance of truly seeing what life has to offer.

Without Question

To love is to live. Without love, there is the constant need to seek answers to questions about life, but when you love the seeking stops because the need to ask questions stops.

Have you ever wondered what the meaning of life is? There’s no way of really knowing this unless you make up an answer through the mind made concept of a thought. You can make up any answer you want, but know this, it isn’t a true answer, it’s made up by the Conditioned Mind because it needs something to latch on to. The Conditioned Mind doesn’t like it much when there’s no real answer to something so it will make one up. This is the essence of a Conditioned Mind, it has to have an answer, but having an answer isn’t necessary to live except to the Conditioned Mind.

The very essence of all that the Universe stands for is the very essence of what happens in each and every moment. An answer is not needed though, but if the mind isn’t settled this will not be seen. The answers to “What is the the meaning of life” is there is no answer, because an answer isn’t needed to live. A made up one is needed if you are living a delusional life, but if your mind is settled, an answered won’t be needed because the question won’t come up. With a settled mind questions aren’t needed because it’s known love is what exist and everything else is just a made up answer of the Conditioned Mind. When questions arise from the Conditioned Mind about this or that, understand the only answer needed is to be still and love. It is here that no questions arise and no answers are needed because you know, all you need is love.

Double Edge Sword

Attachment is a double edge sword, not only does the original attachment get you, but when you’re attached to outcomes where they’re labeled as not liked, attachment to the attachment gets you.

The real issue with attachment is it’s not only the first thing attached to that causes problems, it’s the attachment to the attachment that makes it a real detriment in one’s life. It will take a concentrated effort to see this, but with practice it can happen. Let’s use traffic as an example. You’re driving in traffic and it’s annoying you because you have somewhere to be. That it’s annoying you is the first attachment, now you’re trying all kinds of maneuvers to get out of the traffic, but wherever you go there’s more traffic. That’s where attachment becomes reinforced and causes more problems than what it’s truly worth. It the same thing when you do something (you pick what it is) and then you go round and round with your thoughts on why you did it, or you should’ve did this or that. This goes for just about everything, it’s done all the time. Attachment to attachment is insidious and very harmful.

Do what you do and let it go. If the conditioning wasn’t in place to do what you do, you wouldn’t do it. Accepting yourself in your entirety is key if you are to be at peace. You will do what’s in place until what’s in place changes, but nothing has to be attached to and it won’t unless you put a label on it that it needs to be different, and once you do that a label will be applied to the label and a deeply engrained pattern will be formed that will keep you attaching to your attachments. This is the double edge sword of attachment, not only does the original attachment get you, but when what you’re attached to changes to where it’s labeled as not liked, the attachment to attachment gets you. A settled mind should pick this up, but it has taken me some time to accept my conditioning exactly as it is and not attach to it. This is where one will experience awareness aware of awareness and thus peace.

Endless Trying

There’s no reason to try and get what you want unless you are unhappy with what you have. This only happens because the mind doesn’t know how to just be with what’s here right now.

Endlessly trying to get what you want is the root to your suffering because even if what you want is attained, trying to get what you want will not stop there. Trying, reaching, grasping or whatever it’s called is at the root of suffering because it doesn’t allow one to be with what is actually here. What has to happen if this endless trying to get what you want is to ever stop is the need has to subside. This need is only in place because of the Conditioned Mind making you think you need what you want. There’s no other reason to try to get what you want unless you are unhappy with what you have. This is how we fill the empty spaces in our life. They have to be filled because that mind doesn’t know how to just be with what’s here right now.

One day the endless trying will end because life in this form will end, but you will be no more complete than the day existence in this form began. Think about it, most people spend their entire life bouncing from one thing to another in search of filling the empty spaces that arise, but only because it’s not known that this need is a delusion. It’s so subtle this need to fill, that most will die thinking it’s unfilled. If life isn’t filled right now what do you think will do it? Name something, go get it and in a short time the need to fill the empty space will return. Just remember, there’s no other reason to try and get what you want unless you are unhappy with what you have.

Exposing Your Lies

Those who don’t understand their lies cannot know truth and therefore remain a slave to the lies. You needn’t have all the answers to know truth, you just need to expose your lies so you’re not enslaved by them.

Nine years ago I began developing a practice of quietness because I started understanding and exposing the lies of what it was to be a slave to the noise, and I say “was” because in truth I am a slave no more. I know the poison of the lies of greed, hate, and delusion and have developed the discipline to not to allow them to control me to a large degree. I know how living selfishly and being judgmental caused not only my suffering, but it caused suffering to those around me as well. Because this is known today I am provided with tools so I can live differently. If there wasn’t exposure of the lies, there wouldn’t be awareness of truth.

The ultimate delusion is by the one who claims to know truth, but doesn’t even understand the lies, this is the place where the majority of people live. I ask you this: Is it arrogant to know the truth by understanding and not being controlled by the lies, or is it arrogant to claim to know truth, but remain enslaved the to lies? Many state that there are different versions of truth and no one can know all truth or truth of another, but it has been through my experience that I have discovered there aren’t different versions of truth, there are only versions of the lies, but a lie is always a lie. When your lies are exposed, you will know truth, and another’s truth can also be known because another’s lies can be known, but this can only be known by knowing your own lies. Remember truth is not about having all the answers, it’s understanding all the lies. The lies the world presents are the gateway to truth because they are the gateway of seeing the lies of greed, hate, and delusion, so it is possible to know all truth, but only when one exposes all your lies.

No Real Choice

When one’s unloving conditioning changes, the things being done that are unloving will also change, but this isn’t a choice to be made, it happens naturally because of what’s in place.

Making a supposedly choice is not as clear cut as it’s seems on the surface. It would seem when something is done that a choice is made, but in my case what I did for forty nine years wasn’t the result of choices because the conditioning in place basically controlled my every action. I’m not saying this to absolve myself of being accountable for my actions, but if I was conditioned to be selfish than how was I to respond to life other than that. An acorn can only produce an oak tree, there’s no choice in this. At times I hated how I was, but by not understanding why I did the things that I did, I was a slave to my conditioning. I know there’s much talk about people having a choice (free will) but this isn’t really investigated at the level to see there’s no such thing. To say one has a choice is really used to lay blame and hold people accountable for their actions. Do you really think those who act in unloving ways choose to do so? I know I didn’t, but I didn’t know how to be different until I did and even then the conditioning in place was and is in control to a large degree.

When one wakes up to see there really isn’t a choice, the inner tug of war ceases. Again this doesn’t absolve one from being accountable for their actions, but seeing this allowed me the freedom that occurs when one puts away the sledgehammer used to beat yourself up. So many people use this sledgehammer and it’s one of the ways one remains entrapped to the bondage of their own suffering. Live your life in anyway that arises, never regret the past nor shut the door on it. Learn from it and use it to see how there really isn’t much of a choice in life because of the conditioning in place. When the conditioning in place changes so your life is based in love, a choice still won’t be made to change, but the things being done that are unloving will most definitely change.

Made Up Answers

You can spend all your time believing and making up stories about being spiritual, but it won’t get you any closer to understanding spirituality than if you believed in the Tooth Fairy, Easter Bunny, or Santa Claus.

The peace that passes all understanding cannot be understood from the intellect, hence the phrase. Because of the conditioning in place mostly everything goes through the filter of the intellect and this is where the sticking points are when it comes to truly grasping what spirituality is. No matter how intelligent one is, spirituality cannot truly be grasped from the intellect because it is seen as the idea that one has about it and no idea is factual, it’s a story. I didn’t think my way to where I’m at today, it arose simply from developing discipline which allowed my mind some space between my thoughts for there to be awareness aware of awareness. There’s nothing inherently wrong with the intellect, but not everything can be figured out as if it’s a mathematical problem. There are many things that adding a label to don’t really do it justice. A label is like the title of this article, it points, but it doesn’t give you the facts of the content in the article.

So many people try to decipher subjects intellectually such as God, forgiveness, free will, Heaven, Hell and so on, but these can’t really be understood by the intellect because there are no solid facts to them. There are many stories linked to these subjects, but they don’t really mean much when it comes to living life right now. To try and make sense out of things that don’t have facts associated with them keeps the dog chasing it’s tail syndrome in place. You can spend all the time you think is needed on your belief, ideas, concepts, and stories on what being spiritual is, but it won’t get you any closer to understanding spirituality than believing in the Tooth Fairy, Easter Bunny, or Santa Claus and that’s because the peace that passes all understanding can’t be understood by a mind that needs to make up a story for its answers.

The Conniving Mind

Truly loving yourself is natural, but most minds are developed in such way that it constantly connives to satisfy “I” as it makes you believe you need to get yours.

It’s seems I always had a conniving mind that would always default to me getting mine (all about me). It was the way my mind was developed, and it has been in place for so long that it’s almost like I began my life with it in place. The difference today than how I was nine years ago when I wasn’t aware of the conniving thoughts that would arise and control me is, I’m mindful of those thoughts. Yesterday I returned two bags of mulch I didn’t need at the garden store and the cashier gave me my money back and told me to just put them on the pile outside. As I went back to my car to get them, there was nobody watching me. The thought popped into my head that I could just drive away and no one would know. The next thought was I would know and the need to (get mine) didn’t materialize. This article isn’t about anything other than not reinforcing “I” by attaching to the conniving mind.

There was a time when without a doubt I would have driven away with those two bags of mulch and the money, but not this time. To me this is how I can tell “I” is losing its hold, this isn’t because of a direct doing on my part, I didn’t choose not to do this. When the conniving thought to get mine arose, it simply and automatically wasn’t attached to because I love myself to much to cause myself harm. “I” wanted to take the money and run, but my true self would not allow it. You see this had nothing to do with the garden store that I was returning the mulch to, I’m sure they wouldn’t have went bankrupt, it’s not even about doing the right thing, to me the only thing that mattered was not causing harm to myself by attaching to “I”. This love for self arises naturally when the mind is settled. Although our first thoughts arise from previous conditioning, what is done next is dependent on if the mind set is to get mine or if it’s to truly love yourself and not cause yourself harm by feeding the conniving mind of “I”.

The Human Condition

As energy is compounded, it’s given the label of wanting what’s occurring to be different, this sets off a merry go round of motion that keeps one entrapped to this compounded energy.

People aren’t at fault for the way they are, the human conditioning is at the root of everything that is going on, what previously went on, and what will go on in the future. Until one awakens to the love within their heart, not much will change One can only act as their conditioning dictates so don’t be so quick to judge another regardless if what is being done is agreed with or not. This doesn’t mean you have to accept the behavior of another that’s unloving, turning the other cheek doesn’t equate to feeding into someone’s unconscious behavior, but an understanding of why it’s being done doesn’t allow it to become personal. It’s written that Jesus said as he was dying on the cross “They know not what they do” and although the Pharisees made it personal, Jesus did not. To make something personal it has to come from “I” so when one lives from “I” everything has to be personal because that’s how the energy of “I” operates.

“I” is the root of suffering and it’s because making anything personal compounds the energy of whatever it is that’s happening. As this energy is compounded, it’s given the label of not liking and wanting what’s occurring to be different, this sets off a merry go round of motion that keeps one entrapped to this compounded energy. A person who lives from “I” will remain in their suffering regardless of what happens because everything will be taken personal as if it’s happening to you. People do things, but when they’re not exerting energy to compound whatever it is they’re doing, one will be able to not set in motion the merry go round that occurs when something is given the energy to make it personal. And as this is seen and not made personal, one will be able to simply say “They know not what they do”.

Aware of Your Own Presence

The value of truly knowing who you are is priceless because it allows the mind to settle instead of needing some story pretending to be this loving, spiritual, head in the clouds person.

One of the greatest gifts I’ve been given is to be aware of my own presence, what I mean by this is to be aware of who I am and not try to be something I am not. Early on after my book came out, I was promoting it and thinking of ways to gets its message to people. Just by the fact that I wrote a book, I knew I had a valuable message to share about how my view of life changed. Shortly afterwards I started writing and posting my articles on social media sites, mostly Facebook, but some other sites as well. I was contacted by a site “Inspire Me Today” to write articles for them, I thought this was a great way to get my book and it’s message some exposure. After about six articles the head of the site said people were complaining my articles were like teachings and asked if I could make them more inspirational. I did think about it for a minute, but decided I will never compromise the message that was revealed to me for anything and I will never try to be anything that I’m not, I told her I could not change my style. I did not write another article for them.

It was an important stance for me then and it’s just as important now. The value of knowing who you are is priceless because it allows the mind to settle instead of needing some story. I don’t pretend to be this loving, spiritual, head in the clouds person. If there was such a thing as a spiritual labors union, I would be the head of it; I often say I walk a blue collared spiritual path. I understand many things, but my feet are always planted in the present moment so if it’s not happening now, it doesn’t really matter all that much to me. I’ve learned early on not to live between my ears and try to be something that I’m not. What this has allowed me to do is to not have one iota of conflicting energy within myself and in the process just be at peace with who I am. Not everyone agrees with my style of writing or what I write, but at the end of the day, it is me alone who I am with and I’m grateful I’m aware of my own presence.

Reaching to be Fulfilled

Until why there’s a need to reach for something to be fulfilled is understood, one will remain a prisoner to the reaching and will always be looking for the next whatever for fulfillment.

What I see that’s missed the most in my writings is the understanding of how all reaching is the same regardless of what is being reached for. The reaching itself is all the same bondage and make no mistake your bondage is your prison. There are so many things reached for, from ayahuasca, to Heroin, a Hersey chocolate kiss, love, God, and it’s this reaching that needs to be looked at. Nobody just reaches for something, something arises from within that tells you there’s a lack that needs to be filled so let’s go and reach for something. This is where the misunderstanding occurs. Because one thinks reaching for ayahuasca is different than reaching for Heroin, and granted the results are different, the true nature of the reaching isn’t identified, so you remain the same even though the things being used are different. It easier to justify when you are reaching to help others than reaching for Heroin, but it’s still reaching so an inner lack is still in need of being fulfilled. Out of everything I write, identifying why there’s a need to reach is at its core. It’s what was revealed to me as being the core of all my problems, with being self centered as the reachings supportive energy.

I know this is difficult to grasp and many will say this guys crazy, how can reaching for God be the same as reaching for a drink of alcohol, or how can reaching for ayahuasca be the same as reaching for Heroin, but it is and it all arises from the inability to truly be present for what’s happening right now. If there’s lack, this will be reinforced by one’s need to reach and if this isn’t grasped, you’ll remain in your prison. Byron Katie just released a new book, watch all the reaching that will be going on. She wrote a book on how to be free, but she will be doing the opposite of what the book says by having many reach for her book, this only reinforces one’s bondage. Understanding this is difficult, but it’s why I don’t push to develop a program, or I won’t become a life coach, to me it’s all nonsense. I will help anyone look within to find their own inner beauty and the only thing needed to do this is to learn to live with what’s occurring now. This is all anything should point to, but because why there’s a need to reach isn’t understood, one remains a prisoner to it and keeps reaching for the next whatever.

A Clear Direction

Our answers are always within, one just needs to make sure the tools that are being used are heading you in a direction that is the most beneficial to your life.

Looking back I can see I had a definite purpose in the direction I wanted my life to go when I begin the study of my own mind. There weren’t any lofty goals to achieve anything or some great state of mind to make my life about something in particular, all I wanted was to find the peace that eluded me for most of my life. This is still my direction today, but just because one is on a so called spiritual path, it doesn’t mean what you’re doing is beneficial to you. I did things for years that I was told were right and it turned out not to be so beneficial for me; these things actually keep me in bondage. I won’t go into details, but what I do today is beneficial and how I know this is because I’m at peace and don’t have a real desire for anything else. I have passion in my heart for things, but not an aching because I need this moment to be different. I’m not looking for anything, that’s how you will know if what you’re doing is healthy for you.

You may want to be the most spiritual person in your circle, you may be reading all the books, quoting all the right people, and putting all your energy into your practice, but the question is can you stop it all and still be at peace. If not what you’re doing is only being used as a distraction. I was distracted for forty nine years, so I know what I’m talking about. Try another book, a program, therapy, another pill, working out, meditation, and whatnot, but when the tasks is complete and you are living your daily life, if you’re not at peace, what you’re doing isn’t working. All things are pointers, but where the misdirection is in thinking the pointers are the answers. The answers are always within, you just need to make sure that the tools you’re using are heading you in that direction that is the most beneficial.

Self Attached Emotions

Emotions can’t rule you if a self isn’t created. This concept of self is the operating system behind our emotions, so when this self isn’t reacting to the outside circumstances of life, there is peace.

Emotions are something that most people don’t give much thought to, the experts with their degrees will say they’re needed and many go along with this without investigating if it’s true, but I say the hell with the experts and their degrees because if I followed the nonsense that is spewed from the arrogance of their degrees, I would be dead. The turning point in learning about emotion was seeing how although they may manifest in different ways, they all arise from the core of I. What was revealed to me is that there’s a created self that gets tied into our emotions in many ways. The concept of this sense of self is the operating system behind our emotions. These emotions are tied into how we see ourselves, for instance guilt arises when we do something we consider bad or wrong. Anger arises when this self is hurt in some way. Fear arises when our self is threatened. Sadness arises when there’s disappointment. All these emotions arise because of very different circumstances, this is as far as most people get when it comes to understanding emotions.

The way I investigated emotions is not in how they were different, but what they all had in common, this was where my focus centered. What this led me to see was there’s one common source of every emotion and that source is the created self. Emotions can’t rule you if a self isn’t created. Please investigate this for yourself if it’s true or not, don’t listen to anyone and their view, develop your own. I said earlier that my emotions would have killed me because I had a tendency when reacting to things emotionally, to use things that were self destructive. It’s not this way today because I’ve learned somewhat (nobody’s perfect) not to attach to a self that gives my emotions life and when there’s not this self reacting to the outside circumstances of life, there’s much more equanimity to remain at peace and not do something that’s self destructive.

The Path of No Path

Life is always perfect in the present moment because it’s always what’s there, and no made up path will change this, but the path of no path will because nothing needs to be any different than what it is.

The path of no path is the most freeing path one can be on even though there’s no path. Can it get any more confusing, lol. Sit with this and just keep repeating what this means. The path of no path is the most freeing path one can be on even though there’s no path. There is so much freedom when one realizes whether you read another book, feed the homeless, carry a message to detox centers, write articles and post them on social media, do yoga, meditate or whatever spiritual path you may think you’re on, the path of no path is the only way that allows one to be totally free, and why this is so is because there’s so much peace in not needing things to be in any other way except in the way that they are. You can do all those things listed as there’s nothing wrong with them, but only when they are done for no reason whatsoever will there not be a need for them or anything else for that matter to be done.

Can you see the total freedom in this. No attachment to a path leaves one with the greatest and most freeing path of all, and that’s accepting life exactly as it is without creating a story about something that needs to be done. If one doesn’t have the ability to be with themselves, blemishes and all, a path will need to be developed to try and get rid of the blemishes, but such is the nature of life that since nothing stays the same, tomorrow’s blemishes will always arise, regardless if all of them were removed today. Life is always perfect in the present moment because it’s always what’s there, and no made up path will change this, but the path of no path will because nothing needs to be any different than what it is.

Clarified Intentions

When one’s intentions are aligned with Universal Love, there is love for all beings, not because it’s wanted, but because this is the way love rolls when one’s intentions are aligned with Universal Love.

Having a clear vision on your intentions is worth more than all the books combined on what it means to be spiritual, and why this is so is because your clarified intentions are yours and the content of any book is someone else’s. Someone else’s idea of you will never be you, no matter if their way is copied exactly, this is why many remain in the struggle because they’re trying to be someone else’s idea of who they should be. You can use books, methods, and whatnot as a tool, but the deep underling intentions of why you do what you do will need to be reflected upon to see if the results of your efforts are aligned with love, not a story of love, but the love that arises not from the effort, but from one’s inner alignment. This is where effort is meaningless if it’s not aligned with Universal Love. Only the right intentions will do this.

There are as many books as there are people practicing, but everyone who reads a book and practices doesn’t necessarily wake up. Why do you think this is so? It’s because the intentions aren’t of the necessary energy to allows the alignment to a loving heart. True intentions need to be seen if there is to be harmony with all beings. This doesn’t mean a person won’t harm you or animals and insects won’t bite you, but it is less likely you will put yourself in that type of situations with having the intentions of a loving heart. In the space of stillness one learns to see their true intentions and in the process have those intentions aligned with Universal Love. When this occurs one will love all beings, not because you want to, but because this is the way love rolls when one’s intentions are aligned with Universal Love.

Stuck in the Familiar

We repeat the same mistakes over and over and we constantly respond to the same triggers because we react out of the habit of what’s familiar, and this is done without even realizing it.

Why is it so difficult to awaken? There are many reason for this, but to me the one that sticks out the most is how the Conditioned Mind holds onto what’s familiar even if it’s causing extreme pain. When I was twenty five my oldest brother passed away from an addiction related incident, this forced me (not of my own accord) to look at my alcohol and drug use. His death opened my eyes to a degree, but even though my life was a mess, it didn’t mean I was willing to dive in the unfamiliar without my pacifiers to cope with life, and this was with full knowledge that alcohol and drugs were the cause of my problems. It took another two years before a decision was made that I had enough, but even though I was going into unfamiliar territory I figured it had to be better than the way I was living.

The reason it took two years was because although I was in extreme emotional pain, my conditioning led me to believe facing the unknown was to scary and the familiar was the way to go; the lies of the Conditioned Mind run deep. This is why we repeat the same mistakes over and over and it’s also why we constantly react to the same triggers, we react out of habit without even realizing it. The conditioning in place dictates what to do and it’s obeyed without question, and here’s the real irony in all of this, people actually believe they have free will and they have a choice, but the only thing one can do is submit to what’s familiar because that’s what’s in place. Once there’s awareness of this, succumbing to the familiar can be stopped and the choice to live life freely becomes a possibility along with the free will to not give in to the Conditioned Mind.

Conventional Comparisons

The main reason why one’s existence is so problematic is because of the way we compare our current self to our previous self and to the self of others. This blocks the ability to see our completeness as we are.

Comparisons have no inherent value to them in and of themselves, they are just used as a mind construct to keep itself busy. Our minds mostly live in the conventional world of comparisons and this is why one has problems. Without these conventional comparisons the suchness of life would be experienced instead of all the nonsense that comparisons create. We’ll use containers of water to show how this works. Let’s say there’s a 16oz. bottle of water on a counter, it’s just there, no label is needed for it to exist, now put a gallon of water next to the 16oz. bottle and the gallon is now labeled as bigger. Put a 5 gallon jug next to both and see the label change. Now take away both the gallon and 16oz bottle and away goes the label of the 5 gallon jug as being the biggest, it exist in exactly the same way, with or without the comparisons. The main reason why our existence is so problematic is because of the way we compare our current self to our previous self and to the self of others.

There’s one reasons why someone says they are on a path to become more spiritual, it’s because there’s a comparison to someone else’s idea of what a spiritual path is or one’s old self, this gives the comparison thought energy, but it’s just not true, inherently you exist without needing any comparisons. When the 5 gallon water jug is sitting alone, it exist as it is, there’s nothing to compare it to. This is our true nature, if this isn’t understood you will need, a program, a method, a path, a substance, or something else to reach for because you will be comparing yourself to something which blocks you from seeing how it’s only your comparisons that cause you problems. To see this is to see the suchness of your very being, your completeness as you are, which needs no comparison to be.

Cultivating Loving Energy

Cultivate love and you will naturally love, cultivate an “it’s all about me” mind and that’s the exact energy you’ll put out and live by; wherever you go goes your energy.

Even though our innate nature is to love, because of the way most individuals are conditioned, it’s not the default setting of our minds, at least this is how it was for me. I’m not saying I walked around hating, love would arise occasionally, but it wasn’t there naturally. To me it’s not a love hate thing, it’s more so a quietness, self centered thing. It’s very difficult to love when most of the thoughts I had were focused on myself, but as I said it doesn’t mean today I walk around with the thought that I have to love everybody, what does happen though is when the mind gets unstuck, love naturally arises. There are certain energies that need to be cultivated for love to naturally arise, if there’s no cultivation for this to happen, there will be very little natural love because it will be blocked by one’s conditioning.

Think of it as cutting your finger, the cut will heal naturally, but if it isn’t kept clean and and ointment isn’t put on it, it will get probably get infected, and depending on one’s body to resist infection, it can turn into something serious. This is basically how hate arises as one becomes so conditioned that the natural ability to love (heal) gets buried so far down it very seldom arises, if at all. Very few people hate all the time, most just fluctuate between quietness and selfishness, but as with the cuts ability to heal naturally, the more one does things that cultivates healing, the more the natural process of healing occurs. Cultivate love and you will naturally love, cultivate an “its all about me” mind and that’s the exact energy you will put out and live by. Understand these differences and allow love (healing) to naturally take place, or not and risk the possibility of living with an infected (conditioned) mind.

Mental Relations - Part Two

One who always needs things different is one who is always discontented and why one is always discontented is because one always needs things different; the dog chasing its tail syndrome.

I knew yesterday’s article was going to bring up some conditioning in people because it didn’t fall in line with the way societies experts sees things, but I don’t really care about that. At the core of the mental relations I wrote about yesterday is pleasure and it’s this constant pleasure seeking that keeps all the conditioned nonsense in place. Someone asked me if these mental relations in place were the cause of OCD, from my experience I would have to say yes; the Conditioned Mind is the cause of many mind based disorders. If OCD conditioning wasn’t in place there wouldn’t be a need to have things a certain way. I’m no expert in the sense of understanding how the brain works, but I understand the mind, mine in particular, and that’s the difference in how the experts see mind based disorders. The pleasure seeking of needing things a certain way is at the core of so many mind based disorders. I’m using my own experience as the base of where I get my facts from.

I use to cry out to God for help, but the bottom line was I only cried out because I wanted things different. I don’t even come close to doing this today because I’m ok with the way things are and I have found the God I was crying out to doesn’t exist in the way it was being used. The constant pleasure seeking of wanting things my way has ceased, and it’s because I don’t mind what happens today and therein lies my peace. One who always needs things different is one who is always discontented and why one is always discontented is because one always needs things different; the dog chasing its tail syndrome. The pleasure seeking will subside when the attachment to mental relations are let go of, but until that time one will always be looking for the pleasures the mental relations makes you think you need.

Mental Relations

A mental relation reaching for God is no different than a mental relation reaching for Heroin, and although these will produce much different outer results, the same inner bondage remains in place.

Mental relations to what’s occurring determines the energy you will live by and this is because the mental relations are tied into your emotions, which is what gives them life. It’s never truly about what’s occurring, it’s always the mental relation to it that determines what one will do next. Using the example of food shows how prevalent this is. Food is needed to live, but how about dessert, see how the mental relation to dessert makes the emotion of delight arise. Nothing inherently has any substance to it, if we didn’t have tastebuds our eating habits would be very different and this would be because the mental relation to pleasure wouldn’t arise and manifest in the need to be satisfied by food or dessert. Without tastebuds we would eat when we were hungry, not to say that we don’t now, but I know in my case food and especially dessert is mostly used for the fulfillment of pleasure. I don’t eat food that I don’t like and I definitely only eat dessert for pleasure. The mental relation we have to things determines how strong their grip is.

Look at some of the most glaring labeled addictions in our society and see why many don’t break free from their hold. The mental relation to anything being used as a coping mechanism runs deep, but what’s not understood is the less glaring one’s have the same mental relations as the one’s that wreck havoc and even kill. One uses programs to break free from the mental relation to something, only to substitute it for another mental relation in the form of a program, and although the outer results are different, the same bondage to a mental relation remains in place. A mental relation to God is no different than a mental relation to Heroin, again different outer results, but the same inner bondage exist. Until this is understood, the mental relation to whatever thing the Conditioned Mind uses, will keep one in bondage to whatever is being used.

Blind Insanity

Stand up for all your causes, do whatever it is you think is needed to do, just don’t attach to it and watch how your triggers dissipate along with the insane thoughts that you’re not part of all this insanity.

Many think what happens in life is the cause of their anger, but what’s not understood is the anger is already in place, it’s just being triggered by whatever’s occurring. There’s so much underlining conditioning in people that it keeps them from understanding their own mind, and if you don’t understand your own mind it will control you insanely. I know people don’t think they’re insane and take offense to being called so, but this is the exact energy that’s being projected out without an inkling it’s being done; one is blind to their own insanity. You may be abruptly responding right now to this by thinking, who do I think I am to label someone insane, I should look at myself, but I do look at myself and that’s where I first discovered just how insane all of humanity is, myself included; just watch the news. Anytime someone gets angry, they’re causing their own suffering, yet it’s done all the time, but that’s only part of it, what’s really insane is it isn’t truly known why there’s anger. Stories are made up why there is, but that doesn’t mean they’re true.

There are many justified causes for anger, but they’re all just part of the insanity, that it’s not realized is why it’s insane. The list of attachments that are blindly held onto is endless and it keeps the insanity in place. Very few will really get what this article is about, it’s easier to say the writer doesn’t know what he’s talking about then to truly look at this. The only way sanity will return and anger won’t be triggered is if it’s understood. Look around and see how attachment is the leading cause of all this insanity. Is it not? When one wakes up you can pull away from this insanity, which remains in control if waking up doesn’t occur. Stand up for all your causes, do whatever it is you think you need to do, just don’t attach to it and watch how your triggers dissipate along with the insane thoughts that you’re not part of all this insanity.

Frozen Emotions

Nothing from the outside truly controls you regardless of the injustice, either real or made up. It’s the frozen emotions attaching to what happens that cause certain behaviors to arise.

Staying with the flow of what arises in our daily life has immense value in the process of waking up from the sleep of unawareness. What happens if one’s awareness isn’t expanded upon, the arisen emotions become frozen and they control you; they become the master and you the slave. The frozen emotions is what causes one to react to life in the way that they do. Nothing from the outside truly controls you regardless of the injustice, either real or made up. It’s the frozen emotions attaching to what happens that causes one to behave in a certain manner. When one awakens, the attachment to emotions lessens and their control lessens. My mom is 84, when she dies to say I will feel no emotions is ludicrous, but I don’t have to freeze them and turn it into the suffering of grieving. Same thing if something is done that makes you mad, feel being mad, but let being mads energy to keep flowing, don’t attach to it and freeze it so anger arises, this way you remain in the flow of life.

This is how it is with all our emotions, fear becomes crippling when it becomes frozen and it takes you over. It’s doesn’t mean things won’t scare you, but it’s doesn’t have to be given the energy that turns it into fear. This applies to any emotion you become attached to, it freezes the associated emotion and there’s no telling what behavior will arise. I guarantee you, it’s not going to be a behavior that has love flowing as its base. Emotions will arise, it’s the way the brain seems to be wired, but our energy doesn’t have to give them more power than they are worth. We can cry our tears, or be fearful of the future. We can dislike that things aren’t going the way we think they should be, but the bottom line is, it’s only when the emotions get frozen that they are given the energy to stop the flow of truly living life and not cause not only our own suffering, but the suffering of all beings.

Taking the Hook

What the unawareness of an unconscious hook does is it keeps the exact energy that one is standing up against in place, and in the process it doesn’t really change a damn thing.

The hooks of life are in place to grab you and pull you deeper into an unconscious state. Not many break free once the hook is set, but if you know the hook (generated from your own mind) is there, it’s less likely that it will grab you; not being aware of the hooks is why one gets caught by it. Not many investigate where the hooks are so they are set unconsciously, and by the time it’s noticed, it’s usually to late and you become a prisoner to the hook. This has been going on since humanity began, today’s world is just as insane as thousands of years ago, there’s just more news coverage and social media to spread the insanity and make no mistake that’s what’s being done. This cause, that cause, I don’t like this or that, all the unconscious energy being put out, I have been unfriended by some because they have chosen not to look at this. The insanity in place cannot be seen by the one who is insane; strong language, but true.

Get hooked into the story of the injustices that appear to be going on, but understand this is nothing new, it has been and will continue to occur because of the energy being put out by all. This isn’t to say that the injustices aren’t there, but taking a stand against them feeds them with energy to allow them to continue. If you don’t think this is true, what has changed in the last two months or even the last two thousand years in the way humanity reacts to things? This article isn’t about the last two months because this energy has been in place for many many years. This is what the unawareness of an unconscious hook does, it keeps the exact energy that one is standing up against in place and in the process although this energy makes one think they have to stand up for what they believe, it doesn’t change a damn thing.

Entangled in Thought

When there’s a need to reach for something to provide peace, one is entangled in this thought, and until this is understood, one will remain entangled in the thought that peace is in the next thing reached for.

One will never find the peace they are seeking if they are entangled in the thoughts of finding peace. Peace is something that’s already within each one of us, but because of the way our minds are wired, we get entangled in our thoughts that it’s something to find. Unfortunately this entanglement makes the very thing we are seeking (peace) elusive. This entanglement is the reason one is constantly reaching for something from the outside and until this is understood, one will remain entangled to the thoughts that peace is in the next thing reached for. Drugs, alcohol, gambling, sex, success, programs, therapy, self help books and on and on, this reaching is proof that one is entangled. Can you see this? I can’t stress this enough as this entanglement to your thoughts has to be seen if one is to truly experience peace in their life.

No one thinks their way to peace, but what does have to happen if one is to ever find peace, there has to be an understanding of why you’re not at peace. The proof that you are not at peace is in your inability to just be. When the need to reach for something arises, the entanglement begins. This entanglement is a vicious cycle that’s very difficult to break free from. Peace isn’t something attained or achieved so it’s in doing less that peace arises. To many people get lost (entangled) in trying to find peace, but since it’s something that’s already within you, the entangled thoughts about finding it need to be discarded so you can see. I don’t make light that this is easy to see, but I do offer my assistance in any way that I can. Understand though, this isn’t offered to help you find peace, it’s offered so you may possibly uncover the reason why you’re not at peace.

Disciplined Living

Ever so slowly the Conditioned Mind relinquishes control if discipline is developed and it’s this discipline that allows one to be with life as it’s actually happening.

It’s difficult to just do what’s in front of you because the mind constantly wants to do something else and this is the dilemma most people face. It has nothing to do with nothing, but it has everything to do with everything. Through developing certain disciplines this constant looking for something else can be tamed. Ever so slowly the Conditioned Mind will relinquish its control if discipline is developed. My writings may open some eyes, but it’s the developing of discipline that allows the mind to settle which will lead to lasting insights that are used to enhance one’s life.

Most people have tools in place that have nothing to do with developing discipline or enhancing life. The tools in place actually reinforce their conditioning which keeps them entrapped in a self created prison; with the prison being a mind that’s everywhere but the only place that truly exist, and that is what’s in front of you right now. If your not with what’s in front of you, then you cannot truly live life to the fullest. Of course there’s existence because one is alive, but being alive doesn’t equate to one living life to the fullest. Only being with life as it’s happening will ensure this and only with discipline will the mind settle enough for this to occur.

Conditioned Clinging

Whatever you cling to becomes your prison, if you don’t stop clinging and create some space to make room in your heart for love, you are the one who will suffer the most.

The choice to cling is the choice to suffer, the problem with this is there really isn’t a choice because of the way one’s Conditioned Mind is in control, so one’s suffering is inevitable because of the conditioned clinging in place. If this is to change you will have to make room in your heart so the clinging is replaced by first stillness and then love. There’s no way around this, cling to whatever the flavor of the day, week, month, or year is, just understand when that clinging passes something else will have to replace it. Today it’s our president, tomorrow it’s a co worker, or something else and the next day and the next and so on, ad infinitum. This will never change until there is space created in the heart that makes room for love and if you cling to one individual and bemoan them, then you don’t truly have the space for a loving heart. This is strong language, but it’s true.

True love can only be without one iota of conditioning. This is a truth the Conditioned Mind doesn’t allow to be seen. I can say I have love for all humanity, what I don’t love is humanity’s conditioning, but I understand it and my responsibility is to not be a part of it. To cling is to suffer regardless of who or what one clings to because it becomes your prison and until this is understood you become the very thing that you show disdain towards. This is part of the law of attraction, you cannot be separate from the energy that comes from you. Think about it, how can you? I implore you to stop clinging and make room in your heart for love because if you don’t, you are the one who will suffer the most.

No Shortcut to Awakening

Hold on to all the beliefs, march, protest, whine, judge and slander in the name of righteousness, just know this energy is unloving and it makes the road to waking up that much more difficult to access.

There are no shortcuts to waking up for the sleep of unconsciousness. You cannot think your way to consciousness or happiness, but for some reason you can think your way to misery and all one needs to do is look around and see this truth. It will take what it takes for ever how long that is to wake up, and that may be many lifetimes. My experience of the shift of my view that took place, was and is a happening not a doing, it’s the transformation of energy from an “I” view to one of quietness. I may do certain things now that I understand this that puts me in alignment with this quietness energy, but the transformation remains a happening not a doing. To me this goes for Buddha, Jesus, and anyone else who has ever awakened, it’s something that’s bestowed upon a person, it’s not something that is chosen.

Many get stuck because an awakening is thought to be a doing and because of this most people remain stuck in “I” which is form. Until it’s understood “form is emptiness, emptiness is form “l” remains in control as it keeps trying to do. This is not what I think, this is what’s going on right now in my life and has been for the last nine years; prior to that I was totally unconscious for forty nine years. Hold on to all the beliefs, march if that is what you think needs to be done, judge and slander in the name of righteousness, just know this energy is unloving and makes the road to waking up that much more difficult to access. Remember the road to hell is paved with good intentions.

Is Suffering Necessary?

In the present moment suffering doesn’t exist, this isn’t because unpleasant things don’t happen, suffering doesn’t exist because there just isn’t a need to label it as so.

Is Suffering Necessary? The answer to this question has nothing to do with what happens in your life, it has to do with attaching to what happens. There will be many unpleasant things that occur in life, but they’re considered unpleasant only because that’s how they’re labeled and this is where the suffering arises from. This labeling process is at our core, but without it the creation that there’s a you who doesn’t like what’s happening would never arise. Also without the unpleasant attached label, one wouldn’t need for things to be different so there wouldn’t be a need to try and make things pleasant; after all trying to make life pleasant is how life is mostly lived. Always wanting life pleasant is why so many are in a state of discontentment, it has nothing to do with what’s going on out there, it has everything to do what’s going on inside. Nothing can cause discontentment unless it’s allowed and it’s only allowed because it’s not known how not to allow it.

The question, is suffering necessary will be answered by most without investigating it. Because of the conditioning in place most people will just go with what society and the so called experts have to say. To much is taken on the whim without looking to see the underlying truth and this is why the world is in a state of confusion. The disdain you have for something or someone is the disdain you have for yourself, without a settled mind this will not be seen so the suffering energy will continue to be the controlling energy in place. Disdain breeds disdain, always and suffering leads to suffering, always. To me suffering isn’t necessary, and in the present moment I have found it doesn’t exist, not because unpleasant things don’t happen, but because they just aren’t labeled as so.

A River's Journey

Never miss an opportunity to see the beauty around you. Learn to enjoy the ride because one day as with any journey it will end and when it’s all said and done all you want to be able to say is, what a ride!

Life can be compared to taking a trip down a river, even though there’s one river there are different parts of the journey; the beginning, the middle, and the end. At the very beginning there’s getting a feel for the river, but even before beginning the trip one should know if there has been some previous rain or not and how much to understand what the conditions will be like and also the weather and where the end is. I equate this to getting to know your own mind, the more this is understood the less surprises there will be. When the journey begins, it’s usually very calm as one just floats along with the current, kind of like just being along for the ride. As the journey continues there are obstacle in place that will need to be avoided, if they’re not it can damage or even flip the raft (self sabotage).

There will be times when there’s not much paddling because it’s calm and there will be other times when there are rapids and one needs to row and steer or possibly get sucked up by the river, life also does this as there are times when life is seen as a burden. The other thing that needs to be done is to notice the beauty all around you, it’s a very big part of journey, you don’t want to get all caught up in the rowing and destination and not see what’s around you. Never miss an opportunity to see the beauty around you. Learn to enjoy the ride because one day as with any journey it will end and when it’s all said and done, all you want to be able to say is, what a ride!

Shifting Truth

The shift that occurs in an awakening is an opening of the heart which allows the truth within to surface. When this occurs where there was once blindness one will now see.

People think they change when they learn something new, but the essence of what is truly happening is there’s a discovery of what has always been there. It’s not really a change that occurs, it’s a shift from delusional thinking with the shift being an understanding of the true nature of life; starting with your own mind. You cannot know truth if you do not know yourself, and you cannot know yourself if you do not know your own mind. This reason why it’s so difficult for the heart to open so you can live differently is because the mind will not settle down without a struggle and it will tell you to do just enough to get by in life, as long as it’s pleasurable or it will tell you not to do anything because you are okay as you are.

Self investigation is not pleasurable especially when it’s first started and that’s why many are hesitant to do it. It’s much easier and pleasurable not to investigate and do what is familiar, but there are only benefits when an honest self appraisal is done. A step into the unfamiliar will need to be taken so you can get to know the truth of who you are.

The mind defaults naturally to what’s familiar because it’s what’s on the surface, but an honest self appraisal allows for truth to be revealed and rise to the surface, this way truth becomes what is familiar. When truth is what’s on the surface, what happens is the veil of ignorance is removed and where you were once blind you can now see. It’s not a change, it’s a shift that allows truth to be revealed because you are only seeing what has always been there.

Past Energy Consequences

Life itself is only a consequence of the energy that’s attached to, so stop attaching to past energy patterns and watch life naturally become different as its energy is transformed.

Regardless of what was done in the past it only affects you if you give it energy now. It’s not happening now so the past itself has no controlling energy, what does give it control is focusing on it. Nothing should ever be denied that was done, but nothing that was done should ever be held onto. This isn’t to absolve one of the responsibility of acting in an unloving manner, but the judgement of others can’t do you the harm that you do to yourself. The consequences of your actions are the result of your own energy. I need not judge you as being unloving for you to be ruled by the consequences of being unloving.

If there is discontent in your life it’s because of discontented energy. It’s impossible to be in a state of discontentment without discontent energy. If it’s truly investigated why this energy is in place, it will be seen 99.9999% of the time it will have to do with carrying a past energy pattern into the present. Once the past energy pattern is attached to and brought into the present, it’s very difficult for it to go away, it usually has to run its course, but it doesn’t have to ever be attached to if it can be noticed beforehand; this is key if there is to be change. Life itself is only a consequence of the energy that’s attached to, so stop attaching to past energy patterns and watch life naturally become different as its energy is transformed. One will never just change their life on their own, how it changes and how its consequences become different is by not attaching to past energy patterns and just focusing on what’s in front of you right now.

No Escaping From Yourself

You can’t escape from your own energy output because it comes from within you so there’s no where for you or it to go. Love and you will be love because that’s the energy within you.

Simply put, the energy you put out is the energy you will live by. This is a Universal Law that has to occur. It’s no different than pressing down on the gas pedal in your car, the car will go faster, it has to, there’s no way around it. Disperse the energy of hate and that’s the energy you’ll embrace, whether you want to or not. It will take you over, it’s the law of how energy works. Do you think you can show hate to someone and love another? That’s not happening, it can’t, as stated before, the more you press down on the gas pedal, the faster the car will go. If you truly want a loving heart, learning to love all beings is a necessity. This simple but profound law isn’t really understood by many people, how do I know this, all one needs to do is look around. The energy you put out is your own energy and it engulfs you. Nothing I do mean nothing, from the outside causes any emotion to arise, you may think it does, but that’s only because you don’t understand your own mind and how energy works.

It’s really unfortunate because it’s not understood how any energy except love causes your own suffering. Although unloving energy may effect all of humanity to a degree, the effect it has on you is where most of the harm is. You can’t escape from your own energy output because it comes from you so there’s no where for you or it to go. This is why acting in unloving ways constantly repeats itself because you can only be the energy that you are and until there is awareness of this, it will be the focal point of your actions. Love and you will be love or not and that’s the energy you will be because it’s the energy that’s within you.

Selfishly Attracted

Awareness is key in breaking free from the grip of the attractions of the Conditioned Mind, and the only reason the grip is even so is because of the selfish nature of what’s at the core of these attraction.

The mind would never become agitated if one didn’t want the present moment to be different and what is wanted different is decided by your own mind looking for something that’s going to provide a form of pleasure in this moment. This is where awareness to what one is attracted to helps. Without this awareness the agitation is never seen, and one succumbs to it because they have to. There’s no choice in this without awareness and even then the draw is is so powerful it most likely will not be overcome. Awareness of what one is attracted to is key in breaking free from the grip of the Conditioned Mind, the only reason the grip is even so is because of the selfish nature of what’s at the core of these attraction. It’s the reason why one wants something different and reaches for money, greed, porn, gambling, drugs, alcohol, programs, and even God to name a just a few of the things used to fulfill this mind agitation.

When using the body for present moment awareness the attractions aren’t as powerful and although they will still be there because you’re alive, they won’t have as much control over you as they do now. You may say the mind agitations aren’t in control of you, but just by saying that they are and this is because if the mind wasn’t agitated, there wouldn’t be any response. This is how you can tell if the mind is agitated, it will respond to things without much giving it much thought. When the mind isn’t agitated, there will be space between what arises and the response to it. The space is the result of developing discipline and fully being in the present moment. Without this discipline one will remain a slave to their mind agitations and be selfishly attracted to things that don’t allow for the space to be free.

Limiting Conditioning

Because of the way the mind becomes conditioned, your own mind keeps your view narrow and limited. If at some point the mind doesn’t settle, the narrow and limited view remains intact and nothing new arises.

If you only see through the view of the conditioning in place, a new view will not be allowed; this doesn’t allow the mind to expand beyond its own created conditioned limits. It will take much investigation to see beyond one’s conditioned view because the conditioning itself is what keeps your view narrow and limited. If this isn’t understood it won’t be seen and if it’s not seen, there’s no way to go beyond your own created limits. Faith, hope, and forgiveness are always topics that stir up the mind and a lot of controversy because their concepts have been so deeply embedded into the subconscious. One becomes conditioned by these concepts and until your own mind is understood, going beyond not only these conditioned concepts, but any concept for that matter will be virtually impossible.

There is so much being held onto without really looking into if it’s truly beneficial to your life. If you have a thought that is held onto, I guarantee you it’s not beneficial, you may say how can I say that I don’t know you, but I don’t have to know you directly because I know me and as long as I know me, I know you. I may not know what specific conditioning has you in its grip, but it doesn’t matter because the nature of the conditioning is all the same and that’s what needs to be understood.

You can only do what’s in front of you to the best of the conditioning that’s in place, but if you want to go beyond it, take a look and see if it unites or separates. Unity puts one in harmony with everything when whatever is in front of you is accepted. Separation puts you in conflict with everything when what’s in front of you is wanted to be different, this causes the mind to be agitated. These are two vastly different views, one binds and one frees. Although it may seem obvious which one does what, it will truly have to be investigated if one is to see how exactly each of these manifest in your life. Life can never be anything but what’s in front of you and although things may not always be they way that they’re wanted, until the old view is let go of, a new view will not be allowed.

Seeds of Humanity

There is way to much thought on the individual level for unity to be a reality. Most people have an agenda and it’s usually attached to satisfying themselves in some way and until this is seen, not much will change.

Humanity can be looked at as if we are all seeds which we are when we are in the womb, but I like to look at it as if humanity is the container and we are all in the container with the same potential. Moving from this container and being planted is how life becomes different for each of us. Even if you’re planted right next to another seed the results of how you grow will probably be different. Remember a name is only given to each seed for identification purposes, we don’t go around giving names to the animals or birds we see. There’s no individual who truly exist, we are all part of the collective container (humanity). There’s no real Hillary Clinton or Donald Trump, no real you or me, no Muslims of Christians, no individual in the way that they’re seen. There’s conditioning which makes an individual seem real, but as far as humanity is concerned, we are all just seeds from the same container.

Just as with any seed, there are many factors that determine the results of how they grow, some will produce fruit (love) and some will not, but all seeds are from the same container of humanity. This needs to be realized if we are to grow as a species. We haven’t really progressed much since existence began. We may have advanced intellectually, but spiritually not so much. There is still way to much thought on the individual level for unity to be a reality. Most people have an agenda and it’s usually attached to satisfying themselves in some way, and until this is seen even though we are all from the same container, not much will change.

The Pull of the Past

The energy of the past has so much pull because of the way the Conditioned Mind uses past experiences to process life from and until this is realized the present moment will basically be out of reach.

Here’s the reason the present moment has so much value and why it’s so difficult to grasp. However old you may be, if you aren’t living in the present moment, you are pulling from all your past experiences or you are using the future where nothing truly exist. In my case as far the past is concerned, that’s fifty eight years of the past, it’s no wonder the mind has a difficult time settling, there’s just so much information for it to process and it’s added to every moment of every day. Then there’s the future and although this dynamic is different than the past, things are still used from the past to process the future, case in point is the way the mind uses its reaching mechanism. Most of why something is reached for is to change the way one wants to feel now and also how one wants to feel in the future. For me there are fifty eight years of Conditioned Mind Patterns in place to use, this is why when a person stops using one thing, another thing is substituted for it.

People only gain weight when they stop reaching for and using cigarettes because they turn their attention to reaching for and using food in response to a mind agitation. When the mind settles and more time is spent in the present moment, the reaching for whatever is being used is lessened and so are the substitutions, hence there’s less weight gain. The older a person is, the more engrained their conditioning is, its been proven those who start a sitting practice at an early age have much more stability in their life than someone who doesn’t; to me it makes sense because they don’t have all that past pulling at them. Don’t make this anymore complicated than it needs to be. Live in the present moment where life truly exist, or live in the past and future where the only thing that exist is past and future grasping, decided by a mind thats been conditioned to do so.

Shaping Your Heart

When you judge it’s unloving, it has to be as it’s the nature of judging. It matters little how it’s justified and for what reason the judging is done, all judgement separates as it arises from unloving energy.

What’s done is done and for the most part it can’t be undone, but the cause of what’s done can be changed so it’s not repeated, especially when what’s done is unloving. How this change takes place is by the shaping of one’s heart so what’s done comes from a place of love more often than not. If this shaping isn’t a constant in one’s life, a lot of what’s done will be from an unloving place of the Conditioned Mind. It may not be an intentional act that produces results that cause a glaring hurt, but a simple act of talking about someone behind their back is also unloving. Don’t judge another if you can’t cast the first stone and that’s all unloving behavior is; a judgement. Conditioned Mind judgements are formed unconsciously just because of all the energy one is exposed to, its why a shaping of the heart is needed. Although it has been my experience that the shaping of the heart is more of a not doing than it is a doing.

As I have become more aware of the self centered I that was in place for so many years of my life, this awareness has resulted in an ever so slowly transformation of energy from unloving (all about me) energy to loving energy. There’s really nothing to do to become more loving because it will then be the story of love instead of being genuine and natural. In the space of stillness where one’s thoughts aren’t in control, the shaping of the heart takes place as one’s innate goodness arises. There’s no judgement here. When you judge it’s unloving, it has to be, it’s the nature of judging. I don’t care how it’s justified and for what cause, any judgement arises from unloving energy. Judge not for you shall not be judged and if you are and your heart is shaped to love, it won’t really matter.

Here and Now Tools

We use tools we think will provide us with things that are beneficial to our life, but my experience has been if they don’t allow you to keep your head where your feet are, they’ll be tools that don’t really provide the benefits being sought.

Finding the tools that provide the most benefits in your life seems as though it can take a lifetime of searching and this is because one already possesses that which is being sought. Because this isn’t realized the search has to continue as the mind always makes up the excuse it needs closure. It doesn’t like loose ends and it has difficulty just letting things happen without making it into a story. Every story has an ending, this is why the mind uses the tool of stories, so it can always make sense of things. This is one of the reasons I Am is such a powerful tool because it’s incomplete; if one can be with I Am and not have the need to add anything to it, it would mean the mind is settling somewhat.

As long as you have a tool in place that makes you think something from the outside is needed, your inner peace will never be stable because it will always be directed by the ever changing world of what’s going on out there. No tool using out there will provide the inner peace that is searched for because of the constant change in what happens out there. Hold onto any religious figure, program, method, or anything for that matter and see how the hold is all the same. Granted the consequences will be different depending on what’s held onto, but the bondage of the hold is all the same. Only the tools that allow one to live in the Here and Now are truly beneficial, because the Here and Now is the only place that exist. You can use any tool you think will provide you with the benefits needed to live a bondage free life, but my experience has been if it doesn’t allow you to keep your head where your feet are, it will be a tool that doesn’t really provide the benefits that are being sought.

A Limited Perspective

No perspective is wrong, but if you only have one, it limits your view of life and in the process it doesn’t allow any other results except those from that one perspective.

Changing perspectives is what makes life different, but it doesn’t make what happens in life different, it only makes the view of what happens different. If you’re locked into a certain perspective, this only allows one view of the way things are and to me the more that perspective is based in the intellect, the harder it will be for there to be a shift in perspective to see things from another view. Not that there’s anything inherently wrong with the intellect, it just doesn’t allow for much openness. When one sees things from a view of only one perspective, it limits their entire life to that one view. Most times this view isn’t even one’s own, it’s formed from someone else’s opinion, teaching, book, video, or discussion.

To be fixated on one perspective keeps you entrapped to the results of only that perspective, think about how limiting that is. No possibility of other views, always going down the same path, never allowing anything new, this is so limiting, but with only seeing things through one perspective how limiting this is will not be seen. Sitting and developing discipline so the minds grip lessens can assist in possibly altering a one perspective mind set, but there has to an inkling there’s another way to see things. It’s not that your way is wrong, it’s just that having only one perspective limits your view of life and in the process it doesn’t allow any other results except those from the one perspective.

The Crutch of Hope

Hope is like wishing one’s life away as it keeps you from experiencing the present moment. It’s used as a crutch because what’s occurring right now is always what’s here, as opposed to hoping for the present moment to be different.

Many people think hope is something that’s needed, but it’s used strictly as a crutch by the Conditioned Mind and it keeps you from not understanding what it means to be in the present moment. It’s a direct cause of suffering as it makes you believe it’s something that’s needed by making you live life in the future, and just how does the Conditioned Mind do this, by telling you the present moment isn’t good enough and it needs to be different if you want to be happy. It projects a lie that things would be better if they were in some other way, and maybe on the surface they would, but inward is where one derives their perceptions that makes life what it is, so it will be a life of suffering or one of contentment. Even if what is hoped or wished for comes true, it won’t last, especially when it’s on the surface. Inward there is a slight better chance for it to have a lasting affect, but this is only if one is awake enough to see this.

Let’s say you’re diagnosed with some kind of illness, the only thing hope does is it makes you wish the diagnoses was different, but it doesn’t change the fact of what is occurring right now. The illness remains regardless of what’s hoped for. If your life isn’t hoped to be different and it’s accepted as it is, you will experience the peace of the present moment and this is regardless of what’s occurring. By the way this where all hope and wishes come true because it’s the only place that truly exists, so my hope for all beings is that this is seen, not in the future, but right now because right now doesn’t need to be hoped for because it already exist.

The Stages of Life

The difference between learning from each stage of life and living it to its highest quality or being stuck in a stage where life is the same old same old, is breaking free from the lie of “I” or remaining its prisoner.

It seems as though life happens in stages, at least this has been my experience and one will have to go through these different stages if you’re not to get stuck in the one that’s in place. Not everyone goes beyond a stage that’s in place, some remain stuck for years, even a life time. Although to a point, the stages themselves happen naturally, learning and going to the next stage does not; the quality of one’s life will be determined by what is learned in a previous and current stage. Life is something that happens on its own, but there is a certain responsibility one has in making it of the highest quality. A simple example of this would be when you were at the stage of your life when it was time to read, if you didn’t take responsibility to learn this, to say that life would be difficult today would be an understatement, so at this stage of your life, you did what was necessary to make it of a higher quality.

As I’ve grown up over the years, I’ve noticed there were many stages in my life, but not all provided the highest quality of living because of the things I did which didn’t allow it. The stages of life will come, but what’s being learned is where maturity comes from. To me the biggest lesson was learning to expose the lie of “I” because that’s what I found was the biggest hurdle in living the highest quality of life possible. It’s not that I’m now all about helping others, but what I learned was, life is just not all about me and what I think and therein lies the difference between learning from each stage, moving forward, and being able to live life to its highest quality or being stuck in a stage where life is the same old same old.

A Background Perspective

If you can develop some awareness of inner stillness, the background perspective will have less control as your mind agitations subside and without these agitations, one will never have a need to reach for anything.

If you’re always seeing life from the perspective of what objects the eyes see, those objects will be judged accordingly and what’s going on in the background to form those judgments will not be noticed. Although with an object minded perspective life still goes on, it’s very limited almost to the point of being purely superficial; I say this because it’s how I lived for forty nine years and it caused my life to be a constant struggle. The constant struggle was self created and controlled by the background perspective, although this wasn’t understood at the time. An object perspective life is one where there is constant reaching and the reaching is caused by the background mind agitations which aren’t seen. This is why someone will reach for anything without giving it much thought regardless if it’s beneficial or not. In that moment the Conditioned Mind deems it beneficial, but this is a big fat lie.

The background perspective will only be noticed when the busy mind stops its incessant busyness. One will have to be able to just be for the busyness to subside; you will not see the essence of the forest from the trees if the mind is to busy being focused on the trees. This object perspective is strictly mind based, hence the reason it’s not conducive to one’s well being is it’s unstable, as there are so many objects to see, one right after another. This is why the big fat lie is in the forefront of most lives and stillness takes a back seat. If you can develop some awareness of inner stillness, less and less the background perspective will be in control because the mind agitations will subside. It will be at this point that the need to reach for something will be no more as it’s probably the first time in your life that this has happened.

Upside Down Thinking

Accepting everything as it is seems like a very tall order, but the alternative is to not accept it and look at things from an upside down view (wanting things different) and in the process cause your own suffering.

Nothing stays the same so it’s not the changes that occur in life that throws one for a loop, it’s the upside down thinking that things will always be a certain way, this is what makes changes much more difficult to deal with. If everything could be accepted as it is, one would never be thrown for a loop because the upside down thinking that tells you things should remain as they are wouldn’t occur. Accepting everything as it is seems like a very tall order, but the alternative is to not accept it and look at things from an upside down view and in the process cause your own suffering.

For one to get beyond their upside down thinking, it has to be understood that it’s your own mind that’s causing it. Life is what’s seen through the way it’s created and its created through how it’s viewed. Why a view is considered upside down is because of how rigid the mindset is when changes occur and it isn’t accepted. This rigidness keeps the mind closed to the conditioning that sees things as upside down; if this conditioning isn’t changed nor will the upside down thinking change. It’s not that right side up thinking needs to be implemented, all that’s needed is to be aware of the upside down thinking. Awareness is key in change because it allows for acceptance and when the world can be accepted as it is, good, bad, or indifferent, then just maybe one can think in a way that’s right side up.

The Initial Nudge

An awakening can be likened to a ball on a hill, nothing else is needed than the initial nudge to get it rolling, and it will just keep on building momentum until something gets in the way to stop it.

Once a ball is placed at the top of a hill and it’s nudged ever so slightly, it naturally begins rolling in the only direction it can go and its momentum builds without one ounce of doing. It does take some effort in the beginning to get it going, but not much more than a little nudge. It’s this way when one wakes up from the sleep of unconsciousness. There’s not much that needs to be done for one’s awakening to expand, as a matter of fact most people don’t wake up fully because of trying to hard. If you are awake the nudge has already occurred, so all effort is now futile. So many books, programs, videos, and whatnot and although they make one knowledgeable, none of it makes one anymore awake than the initial nudge.

This is one of the reasons I emphasis using the body as an anchor in the awakening process, because it doesn’t take effort, it only takes being with what is actually here, which is the present moment. All kinds of stories can be made up about what needs to be done, but it doesn’t expand the initial nudge one bit. Either you are awake in the quietness of the present moment or you are asleep in the noise of somewhere else, the initial nudge reveals this truth. And as with the ball, nothing else is needed than the initial nudge to get it rolling, and it will just keep on building momentum until something gets in the way to stop it.

On the Right Track

Many think they’re on a track that leads to where they want to go, but upon further investigation, if you’re always looking (reaching) for a different train, the fault lies in the chosen train not being on the right track.

A train uses tracks to get from one place to another. Let’s say you’re taking a train from New Jersey to New York, if you get on a train that is using tracks other than the ones that are leading to NY, you will not get to where you want to go. It’s not the trains fault, it can only go on the tracks that it’s placed on and it’s not the tracks fault because they can only take you in the direction that they’re designed to go. You cannot get to Maine on a train slated with tracks that go to Vermont. It’s imperative to get on a train that has its tracks going to where you want to go, this makes the most sense and is the most beneficial to you. But if this is compared to the path of most lives, why is it that so many get on a train that has tracks that lead to somewhere other than where one truly wants to go? If this wasn’t true one would never have a need to check to see if they were on the right train.

I have been to Grand Central Station in NY many times and it takes patience and understanding to get on the right train. If I just hop on a random train, I am leaving me getting to where I want to go to chance. If I’m lucky, I may get to my destination, but not without much wasted energy and fanfare. There are many books, seers, methods, and whatnot that can be described as the trains we get on (use), but the main thing to see is where their tracks lead. Many tracks don’t lead to what one is truly looking for. One gets on many so called wrong trains and they’re only wrong because of where their tracks lead, so if you want to get to where you truly want to be, don’t just get on any train, investigate and get on the train whose tracks lead you to the place where you are truly free and that is where you should want to be.

Pain and Fear

“I” likes to make mountains out of molehills through attachment and although pain and fear are things that may arises, they don’t have to be given the energy “I” wants to give them and the only reason “I” does this is so it exist.

Pain is nothing more than a message that arises to tell you something, it’s not something to fear, but it will be feared if it’s not understood and this is because of the conventional relation pain has to “I”. Pain itself has no fearing quality inherently, it’s just a word, but when “I” attaches to it, it’s given energy and thus it’s given life. This isn’t to say painful things will not occur in life without attachment, but only the relation to “I” causes issue because of the story ” I hurt” or “I fear” or whatever story one attaches to. Fear only exist as a story created by “I” and when one truly learns this, attachment is lessened and so is the associated pain and fear. Be with the pain, but but don’t the fear of it be in control.

When the mind settles, pain is seen as something that just arises. All pain whether physical or emotional is temporary, but the mind that fears it becomes entrapped to see it as lasting forever. When this occurs pain becomes one’s master puppeteer. Attachment to “I” may not seem to be the cause what is painful, but it cements it in place and gives it control, this is how “I” works. “I” makes mountains out of molehills through attachment and although the pain may be there, it doesn’t have to be given the energy that “I” wants to give it, and the only reason “I” does this is to exist. Without “I” there’s no one there to attach and without attachment there’s nothing to fear, but fear itself.

Present Moment Love

When the body is used as an anchor to remain present, you begin living your life in the only place it exist; where your feet are. In this space one finds true love, but this isn’t a story of love, it’s the love of the present moment where nothing else exist.

There is no reason whatsoever that a person has to suffer in any way today because there is enough info available to prevent it, but this is a truth that one must find for themselves. No book, video, guru, religion, self proclaimed enlightened teacher, program: 12 step or otherwise, or anything else can show you truth, they can only point the way and that’s it. I know today what I’ve always known and although I’ve been pointed in the same direction for years, it’s message did not click with me until I was ready to see it nine years ago. It may not always be understood why I do what I do or say what I say, but if you knew what I knew, you would do what I do.

I see much needless suffering in the world around me (and I say it’s needless) and that’s even with those who proclaim they’re awake. It doesn’t take much to know whether one is truly awake, all that needs to be seen is where one’s attachments are and suffering will not be far behind. If you want to stop suffering, stop using the mind and learn to use the body. The body is always in the present moment, it is why the breath is used in meditation, you can’t take a past or future breath, you can only breathe now. When the body is used as an anchor to remain present, the mind made suffering loses it control, and lo and behold you begin living your life in the only place it exist; where your feet are. In this space one finds true love, but this isn’t a story of love, it’s the love of the present moment where nothing else exist.

A Storied Version of Truth

In the present moment storied versions of truth cease to exist because there’s no need to create them and without a storied version of truth, there’s no deciphering what is actually true.

Your story isn’t necessarily true, it’s true in the sense that it’s your version of your story, but deciphering if the content of your story is true is difficult. This is so because you are the creator of your story and they’re believed wholeheartedly. This is what directs your energy and how one’s life is lived. The thing to also investigate is how many stories there are. There’s the parents story, the childhood one, the teen and young adult story. There’s the boy meets girl story, the get married story. The work story, family story, and on and on. There are so many stories and only one you, so which story are you? If you say all of them you should be able to sense why it’s so difficult to see the true version. There’s the true version in there somewhere, but that’s probably the only story not written yet. When that one is written all the others will fall away.

So how would a person know which one of their stories were true? My experience has been I know which one is true because there isn’t a need to create the others. You see, the true story arises, it’s not created, it basically is what’s there in the present moment. This is the value of using the body as an anchor for present moment living. The body doesn’t create stories, only the mind does, so when the body is used to be present no story is needed. This is beautiful in its simplicity. Grasp this and most stories will cease to exist because the need to create them won’t arise and without a storied version of truth there’s no deciphering what is actually true.

Understanding Your Own Mind

Being intelligent doesn’t make you wise. Wisdom is something that occurs naturally as one learns to understand their own mind. With this understanding, wisdom arises and goes beyond the intelligence of what one thinks.

Until you truly understand your own mind, not much will ever be different in your life. This won’t be because you don’t want it to be, it will be because in order for things to be different, it has to be understood why they are as they are. Waking up is not something that one makes happen, it’s something that occurs, and how you will know that it has occurred is by the awareness you have that your mind was based to self serve and now it’s based in stillness. Very simple to see this once it occurs, very difficult to see it if it doesn’t. The key to one’s continued expansion is to know the true nature of your own mind.

One day it was revealed to me that at the core of all my issues was my own mind and nothing was ever going to be different in my life if there wasn’t an understanding of this. I had to understand why I had to always be busy before I could be still; before stillness was experienced in my life I had to find out why there wasn’t any. Stillness doesn’t have to be attained for one to acquire it, all that’s needed is to be aware of why it’s not there. Once this occurs than a starting point can be established and the process of naturally expanding one’s mind begins, but for this to occur it needs to be understood.

When it’s said the world needs to different, it should be understood why it’s the way it is. If a problem arises find out why the problem arose in the first place and therein lies the answer. Things will always be the way that they are and the only way they’ll ever be different is when one understands why they are as they are. Once this is known than what needs to be different already is because of the understanding of one’s own mind.

Guided by Love

There’s no suffering in the space of love because true love has no attachment, so being aware of one’s “I” attachment and not holding onto it allows love to be the guiding force of one’s life.

The struggle one has with life is strictly mind based and it’s because there’s no structure to the mind. Life being mind based is equivalent to building a house on sand and we all know what happens when the first storm comes. Way to often mind based information is held onto which actually keeps one entrapped to the mind. I know how deeply engrained the conditioning is and I know sometimes I may come on strong, but it’s only because something is seen and it simply can’t be ignore it.

There are basically two primary forces that guide the direction of the mind. One is of suffering, the other is of non suffering and these forces manifest in many way. The core of suffering is attachment to “I” (selfishness), this force manifest as greed, envy, anger, pride, desire, doubt, restlessness, regret and so on. You can see how these will cause suffering, so if this is the direction of your mind, you will suffer. The other force is love, which manifest as kindness, generosity, compassion, empathy, understanding, stillness, and so on. I’m sure you can see how these will not cause suffering. Make no mistake though, one will still encounter the possibility of suffering even with the direction of love because of how engrained the conditioning is, but if attachment to “I” isn’t in place, the suffering force won’t be in place. That’s the key, being aware of one’s “I” attachment and not holding onto it, because without it the force that guides the direction of your life will be from love and there’s no suffering in this space because true love has no attachment.

A New Beginning-Happy 2017

Today there’s a change in the year, but this day is like every other day as each one should be treated as if it’s a new beginning. Life is precious and every moment alive is a gift, not because of what one has, but because one day life in this form will not be so.

Happy New Year to all my family and friends who supported me throughout the year and may 2017 be a reflection of the love that has been shown to me by others and the entire Universe. Whether people agree with me or not, I will stay the course for 2017 by continuing to send as much love into the world as possible and by doing my part in assisting others in the process of awakening so more souls turn to love in 2017. It will be in our unity of love that 2017 will be a prosperous year for our entire Universe.

Take control of life by learning to discipline an undisciplined mind and you won’t have to rely on wishing for 2017 to be a great year. It will be a great year if each day it’s decided that’s how it will be. If you want to rely on the chance of circumstances being a certain way to consider life as great that’s up to you, but life will always be what it is and what one does with it is the choice to be made, but choose wisely because this choice will determine your life. Happy 2017 and may your life be a blessing to all beings.

Contributing or Taking Energy

If you can truly get beyond the story of contributing to life and just be in the stillness of the moment, your contribution to life and humanity will be beyond anything you could make up as being needed.

The way I see things is much different than the most, but this doesn’t separate me, it just makes my view different. I don’t have a need to make up a story of needing to help others or do good deeds to be contributing to life and humanity. All I found that’s truly needed is to do is what’s in front of me, be present, and create an attached “I” story. The world can be saved, just don’t attach to it and therein lies the difference between what’s been revealed to me and others.

There’s nothing one can truly do to gain more self worth because that would mean things would have to be deemed as needing to be different in order for you to be complete, and this just isn’t so. If you aren’t complete as you are, you have to ask yourself why. Putting out completeness energy is all the contribution life and humanity needs. If something else is needed, your contribution to humanity basically becomes non existent, your energy is now taking. I know we all see things as the conditioning in place dictates, but the nonsense this energy generates puts one in the position to be controlled by taking energy not contributing. Even when it’s thought to be contributing energy, it takes a very settled mind to see if this is truly so.

This is not to say don’t help others or do loving things, just don’t attach to it, that’s what I’m talking about. I’m real clear the world is as it is and I’m not really sure if it’s suppose to be this way or not, but I do know in the space of stillness my life has transformed. If I died tomorrow the world will go on. I won’t leave a legacy behind as this or that, I did and do what the Universe revealed to me and that is that. In this space of that is that energy, is so much peace it’s impossible to explain and if you can truly get beyond the story of contributing to life and just be in the stillness of the moment, your contribution to life and humanity will be beyond anything you could make up as being needed.

A Sacred Temple

There’s no real good or bad in life, there’s only the story of good and bad. If you don’t think this is true, watch the story attached to what you like (labeled as good) and what you don’t like (labeled as bad).

Think about how special life truly is. If you don’t think you are a sacred temple, you have to ask yourself why not. We have become a society that thinks things are needed in order for life to be good, but it is such a fallacy. If you are alive today that’s the only thing that needs to be looked at. You have been given the temporary gift of life and it will last for as long as it last and not one moment more. What is done with that life is determined by the way it is looked at. The stories that are made up about this manifestation called life are mostly full of nonsense that are usually someone else’s idea of what life is suppose to be like. We poison our bodies and mind with so much useless nonsense that comes from others and we believe it. All the stories we create are used to make ourselves feel better. We give to charities, we hold events to help others, we volunteer to help the so called less unfortunate without seeing this is only a story to make ourselves feel better. We throw the word love around without truly understanding it and this is because we need to define it. Life doesn’t need to be defined to be good, there’s no true good or bad, there’s only the story of good and bad. If you don’t think this is true, watch the story attached to what you like (good) and what you don’t (bad); possibly this article applies.

We are a sacred temple because of the way we come into being without having any say in this whatsoever. The world has been around for billions of years and now is a time that conditions are conducive for you to exist, that’s basically life as it is, but feel free to add your story if that’s what you need. There’s no true need to attach a story to this, it’s just something that happened. To notice this is when existence will truly be seen as a gift, not for any other reason than this. The mind makes up so much nonsense and it blocks one from seeing the sacredness of your own existence and thus the sacredness of the existence of others. You can never do enough to understand this, as a matter of fact any doing blocks this from being seen. It’s one of the reasons the world is as it is because people think they have to do, but to see you as a sacred temple, you just have to be without adding a good or bad story.

Immersed in Self

If we seek what we think is needed to wake from our sleep, one will probably remain asleep. Our urging is from the Universe, but this will not be known if we are immersed in a self that thinks it knows what’s best.

We are a product of the Universe, we are not a product of ourselves. We did not call for our creation, nor do we call for the time when it will end. It’s our existence that’s a product of the Universe and the energy transformed to awaken is from the Universe. This is why we can not really do anything to transform ourselves. We can only do the necessary practice to allow our heart to open so the Universe can use us. Even this is not of our doing, the practice is from the urging of the Universe. We want to practice because the Universe is calling. The reason some practice and some don’t is because for some the noise in the head is to loud to hear the still small voice within. Even though it seems our urging is from the outside, it can only be heard from within.

Through our Conditioned Mind we become immersed in a very self-centered self, but understand this is also an urging from the Universe, it’s just not one that produces love. Energy always is, it’s just a matter of listening to the urging and hearing where it directs you. We seek because the Universe calls us, we see because the veil of a Conditioned Mind is removed and our energy is then guided by what we seek. Spirituality is not magical for a selected few who think they are special, it’s available to anyone who makes it a practice to listen to the outer urging from within. The Universe calls, but are you listening? And if you think you are listening, are you hearing the true message or are you making up your own message to fulfill your self-centered self. It takes much quietness to hear the Universe’s urging, the alternative is to listen and follow your own. Now isn’t that scary? Why may you ask, because most of our urgings are immersed in a self-centered self for our own benefit.

Pleasure Seeking Thirst

Although the pleasures of the world take on many forms, it’s the thirst of one’s heart that makes one seek them. This thirst can only be quenched in stillness, because when the mind is still, the heart has no thirst.

One aspect of our conditioning is how the mind is in a pleasure seeking mode most of the time. Even when we get down on ourselves, it’s a perverse form of pleasure. The mind wants to keep all the pleasure thoughts and discard the non pleasurable ones, it spends most of its time doing this. Whether it’s weaving in and out of traffic, only to catch a red light and have all the cars that you just passed pull up to the same light, or doing something and asking yourself why did you do it, the reason for the doing is strictly to seek some form of pleasure. That your own mind questions why you do whatever it is that you do, is how diabolical it is, but understand it’s only this way because of the way it has been conditioned.

 

The pleasure seeking mode is not one which is in our best interest, but the Conditioned Mind doesn’t really care about that. That it’s in control is all it cares about. It makes you think seeking pleasure is a necessity, but when the mind starts to settle and it loses its grip on you, you will see the fallacy of this. True pleasure is in stillness, not in things, but the pleasure of stillness is not the same pleasure that the world provides. The pleasure of the world is based in lies, the pleasure of stillness is based in truth. The parable in the bible speaks of quenching a thirst that only God (stillness) can satisfy. This thirst is the self seeking pleasure of the world, this is the thirst the world creates, but it cannot be quenched. It’s only in stillness that this thirst will be satisfied, not because it’s given something to quench it, but because in stillness a thirst never materializes so there is no thirst to quench.

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Unlabeled Possibilities

There are endless possibilities in life when there’s no past labels applied to what’s in front of you. The Universe provides possibilities with an open heart that’s not living in the past.

One’s openness is their greatest asset because without being open, nothing arises, or at least nothing that’s beneficial. An open heart leads to possibilities never experienced before, but when the heart is closed so are the doors to possibilities. Whatever arise in life is to be seen as it is with an openness only if it’s not labeled. In this way life can be experienced anew as the Universe opens up more and more possibilities. Even if it’s some past behavior, without the judgment of applying a label, it allows for the heart to remain open and the possibility to go beyond the past label to experience something new.

Newness doesn’t always have to be as an aha moment, it can be a simple act of not judging what’s in front of you and just experiencing that and moving on. Once its labeled, the heart closes and so do all the possibilities along with it. To experience all the possibilities that life offers is to not allow the past to be a part of what is being done right now. If it is, obviously it remains as something old not something new, but even though it may be from a past habitual mind pattern that’s in place, it’s only old because it’s labeled as such. Without this label the heart remains open and the possibilities that are provided by the Universe are endless.

Life Truly Lived

What occurs in the present moment can’t be changed, but it can be accepted so life is truly lived, and when life is truly lived, it’s because what’s there is accepted and nothing needs to be different.

To truly live life there has to acceptance of what is. What is is what’s happening right now and it’s the only place where life can truly be lived. If one doesn’t accept what’s here right now, life will be made into something difficult. Life can never be anything more than what it is right now, because right now is what’s here. Only the Conditioned Mind makes one think this isn’t so. Life is always what’s here because it’s happening now, you can wish for things to be different, but that’s how life is wished away. Accept what’s happening now, be with what’s in front of you, and truly live.

Our paths are laid before us to do the best we can with the tools we have. There needs to be a anchor so our path is clearly seen. It’s very easy to veer off the path if one isn’t vigilant. There are many diversions that will try to knock you off a path based in what is. It’s like life is an obstacle course and things are in place to divert you from being with what is, from the present, which is the Here and Now. There’s only the present moment and it’s always what’s in front of you. One of the main obstacles used as a diversion is wanting things different, your mind tells you if things were different, life would be better, but this is the great lie; the delusion of the Conditioned Mind.

Things are always the way they are because it’s what’s there, the acceptance of this is what makes you free. You cannot change the way things are right now, so life will only truly be lived when it’s accepted as it is. When what’s in front of you is accepted, there’s no struggle with wanting things different and it’s in this space that life will be truly lived.

Today's Gift

Today’s gift is simply to be alive and although the Conditioned Mind wants to make it about something more, there’s nothing that truly makes life better other than the simple fact that one day being alive will not be so.

Today if you are alive it’s simply because you’ve been given the gift of life. There’s nothing that was done for this gift, it wasn’t earned, it was freely given. Nothing is done to sustain it, but much is done to hamper its natural progression. A grateful heart aligns with this understanding and puts one in harmony with life. The things of the world will one day pass, but it’s the gratitude of one’s heart that last for all eternity.

Enjoy the splendor of this day, not because it’s Christmas, but because you are alive today to simply experience life. The true gift of Christmas or whatever holiday is being celebrated is in being alive today, for one day this will not be so. Obviously if this is being read, the day that it isn’t so is not today. So enjoy whatever this day has to offer in all its splendor, not because of the material possessions, but simply because you are alive. If being alive isn’t enough what do think is needed to make it so? Since today is the day that you’ve been given, make it the masterpiece you so deserve, and more importantly keep your inner light lit on this day and everyday hereafter to be a light to the world. Remember the greatest gift you will ever receive is the gift of today, and it’s simply because one day it will not be so. Enjoy your gift.

The Minds Expansion

The minds expansion is only limited by the view of life that one is locked into. When the mind opens anything is possible because the conditioned limits that are in place, simply fall away.

The tighter and constricted the mind is, the more problems it seems one has. If there isn’t free flowing energy, almost everything is a problem in some way. I’ve seen this in myself and in others and it’s all because of a narrow view (my way) caused by a tight and constricted mind. I put my way in parentheses because if that’s the only view that’s being allowed, you can see how narrow minded that makes you. A narrow mind leads to a narrow view and with a narrow view there’s no space for the current view to expand. This locks one into only seeing things one way, and one gets limited to that way. Imagine going through life like this, it would mean the only way you would be happy is if everything that happened was in line with your view, and we all know that’s not going to happen, not all the time anyway. So you better do whatever it takes to open your mind or you will pay dearly and so will those who are in contact with you.

Close your fist as tight as you can and notice how there’s no space, it’s like a tight and constricted mind, there’s no room for anything else. Keep it closed as tight as you can, now notice how it’s getting tired and you hand is starting to hurt, this is the energy you’re living with everyday, only it’s the mind that’s tight and constricted. It’s no wonder there’s no expansion, there’s barely enough space for ordinary living. Now open your hand and see how it instantly relieves the tightness and constriction. Open your mind in the same way and it will do the same thing. It’s Christmas, please give yourself the gift of an open mind and it will be the gift that keeps on giving because your view of life will keep on expanding. You deserve it, after all this is your life.

Ego Separation

Most people have no idea how much suffering the Conditioned Mind causes and until it’s fully realized, it’s better to be neutral. At least in seeing things from a neutral state, there’s no separation and one remains free.

Watch how the ego separates, as it always thinks in the context of you, me, them, they, those and of course “I”. It’s not limited to just these, but they are some of the main culprits in our separation from each other. The other day I posted an article and someone posted a response calling me a racists and a sexist, although I didn’t appreciate it much, there’s a fine line in being with what’s there or allowing there to be separation. There’s separation on one end which goes without saying, but by me being the one who knows better I have to do what’s necessary to stay connected, not for the other person, but for myself and humanity as a whole. That may sound grandiose, but it isn’t because as the energy you put out goes, so does the world around you go.

Me and others in the group went round and round with this person until it got to a point where she started to post lies so it was better to just block her energy. It’s wasn’t that women agitated me, it was more so just the energy that was being put out that I wanted to stop. Energy changes the world and it also keeps the world the same. The point of this article is to show how easy it is to attach to someone and cause separation and thus suffering. Maybe it’s not so easy to turn the other cheek, but by not attacking back you are the one who remains free; remember you can’t have a riot with one person. It’s always about the conditioning, never about the person. In this way of viewing things, the energy put out may not be totally loving, but at least it’s neutral until it becomes loving. Most have no idea the amount of suffering that Conditioned Mind causes and until it’s fully realized, its better to be neutral. At least in seeing things from a neutral state, there’s no separation and one remains free.

Needing a Quick Fix

There are many situations throughout the day which provide the triggers to reach for a quick fix, but if there’s awareness of this, those triggers will not produce the unloving results of needing a quick fix.

Noticing what’s reached for allows one to see what’s being used as a quick fix to fill whatever space is there that one thinks need filling. If the thought that a space needs filling wasn’t there, the need to reach for the quick fix remedy wouldn’t be there. There’s many quick fixes, but there’s only one space and it will either be filled or it will be allowed to be. This is the difference between being at peace or constantly reaching for something which reinforces the mind agitations that tells you a space is there that needs to be filled. This space is the same for everyone, but the things being used to fill it are different. This is an endless list and the focus has to be inward if it’s going to be seen what’s reached for. This space will never be revealed if one is blaming others for their mind agitations, because it arise from within you and it has nothing to do with anyone else. Such a hard thing to understand because of the conditioning in place, but if this isn’t seen, you’ll continue to blame others for your mind agitations and constantly need a quick fix.

It’s truly heartbreaking to see the quick fix conditioning in place and how it unconsciously causes suffering. This is one of the hardest things to see and it’s the reason the mind can’t fix itself, but one of the most important things to learn about this is how not to get pulled into someone else’s conditioning that produces a quick fix reaction from you. There are many situations throughout the day that will provide the triggers for this, but if 24/7 awareness is being developed, more and more those triggers will not produce quick fix reactions, which are unloving 99.99999% of the time. After all it’s only unloving reactions that cause suffering and it’s reaching for a quick fix that keeps one marred in Conditioned Mind Patterns that control you as if you were a puppet on a string.

Selfishness Reinforced

If we are to ever unite as a people, the selfish energy in place will have to fall away, if it doesn’t the energy that makes an adult a foot stomping baby will continue to be reinforced.

We are a divided society because we are selfish and we only want things as we think they should be, and when they’re not, look out. Just look at the recent USA election, the people who oppose the president elect are doing so out of selfishness because things didn’t go their way, so now the must stomp their feet and act the way a spoiled brat child would. This is separating energy and that’s the point people are missing; I would write this same article had the president elect been a woman if the same behavior was being exhibited. As long as we as a people act selfishly by succumbing to our selfish energy, it doesn’t matter what happens, it will never go the way that we want, so the selfish energy will always be in control. I see this in me and I don’t enjoy it very much when it arises because it causes suffering to me and all those around me. This selfishness rears its ugly head in circumstances that don’t go one’s way and the conditioning justifies it to cement this selfishness deeper inside.

Most people will justify their selfish behavior by lying to themselves that they’re only opposing something because it what’s best for everyone, but that’s one of the tools the conditioned selfishness uses. This article isn’t about the US election, it’s about the energy of selfishness making babies out of adults who stomp their feet and cause undue suffering to humanity. Here’s the kicker, the moment this isn’t agreed with, it causes separation between us and lo and behold one’s selfish behavior is reinforced and so the contribution to humanity suffers. The very thing that’s being opposed is the very thing that’s being reinforced in yourself. This is how energy works and if we’re to ever unite as a people, selfishness will have to fall away and if it doesn’t, the energy that makes an adult a foot stomping baby will continue to be reinforced.

The Jewel Within

A person doesn’t wake up because something from the outside shakes them, it occurs because the jewel within is discovered; everyone has this jewel in their possession.

When a person has a shift from within, they wake up from a state of being a sleep and unaware of what truth is. When this occurs the implications of what has happened aren’t truly realized. In my own case I knew something happened because my view of life changed, but I didn’t know what it meant. I did know for the first time in my life that I was going to be okay. I likened this awakening as though I was broke (which I was spiritually) but I had a jewel in my pocket that I wasn’t aware of. I didn’t wake up because something from the outside shook me, I woke up because I discovered the jewel within that I already possessed. I didn’t know the value of this at first, as a matter of fact I didn’t even know I had this jewel in my possession. Even when some do become slightly aware of it, it very easily could be mistaken for an ordinary rock, and for me it was for many many years. As I look back throughout my life, I had an inkling this jewel existed, but it was dismissed as just being a rock, and because of this I kept looking for what I already possessed.

Nothing is given to us from the outside that the inside doesn’t already have in its possession, but because of the conditioning in place, there’s no awareness of this. Obviously we’re not talking material possessions, I’m strictly talking about the jewel of love that we all possess. This is worth more than anything in the world and it also is the thing that’s most readily available to everyone, it’s just that the conditioning in place keeps one looking for their jewel out there when all along one already has it in their possession.

Nothing to Become

Needing to become something doesn’t enhance life because the becoming keeps the mind agitated. It may give an appearance of enhancement, but there’s no real benefit to one’s energy while trying to become.

The energy of always becoming doesn’t allow one to be present for what’s actually happening and it keeps the mind in a constant state of agitation. When I write about this type of energy it’s often misunderstood as I’m saying don’t do anything, but that’s not what I’m saying. Become whatever it is you think you need to become, just understand the intention and energy behind it so your becoming isn’t a hinderance to truly experiencing life fully. I watch this very carefully because attaching to this becoming energy keeps one a prisoner to it. A created purpose doesn’t enhance life and although it may seem that it does or that people are being helped, which they very well may be, there’s no true benefit to the one who’s energy is of a created purpose.

I only share this because it has been my direct experience. I know many people are helped by the sharing of my experiences, but it’s not a purpose of mine. What I do is more of a by product of where I’ve been led. It doesn’t mean I can’t put things out there that may help people, I just don’t have to make it into a burden by it becoming my purpose. Not needing to become anything other than what I am allows for the freedom of not creating a story of becoming. To me the most important thing in my life is to be in the moment that’s happening and not add anything to it. If it’s to share, I share. If it’s to sit in the body than that’s what’s done. In this place of not needing to become, I’ve experienced true freedom because it’s the only place where a purpose isn’t needed nor is there anything to become.

Being Isn't a Doing

The true essence of life can only be understood by being. Life is not a doing because it exist regardless of what you do. Defining a life through what you think you need to do is your doing, not life’s.

To be and to do are a part of life, but doing occurs from the essence of being. You can always be, but you don’t have to always do. Actually if you aren’t aware of being, whatever is done will be a distraction from the true essence of being. Our experiences are a result of what we do in life, but they don’t make life what it is because if they didn’t occur, life would still be. Doing creates stories. Being creates life.

Think about the most beautiful thing you have ever seen and experienced, now how much does it have to do with life right now? It is a fond memory, a story, but this exact moment would still be regardless of what was seen and experienced. At the time I’m sure the experience was breath taking (to the Conditioned Mind) but it really has nothing to do with right now. The story of it does because the conditioning makes it so, but that is your doing not life’s.

To be is life because to be is. It always is regardless of what you do. This is where many fall short of understanding the true essence of life because doing and not being is put first and is thought to be what’s needed to live life. But life will always be, until one day it won’t be. And all the doing in the world will not stop this from happening. So do whatever it is that you want to do, but understand it is in being where life arises from and when you’re just being, life is lived to the fullest because you don’t have to do. We cannot do the next right thing, we can only be the next right thing. This is why it’s said to “Just Be” not Just Do, because to be is the true essence of life. The simple saying “Just Be” can be used as a tool to stop the squirrel cage “doing” mind in its tracks. After all, we are called human beings and not human doings because it’s only in being that our life can be lived to its fullest intention not to do.

The Filter in Place

When one has a filter in place that sees things as they are without any association to I, it opens one up to a different way to view life which allows for experiences like never before.

The filter one has in place to view life determines what the eyes see and how it’s processed. The most common filter used processes things as objects and holds on to them in association with one’s created identity. What happens with this filter is it goes through the senses and everything is associated with one’s I as I becomes the base of the filter. With this association, a limit is created because a label is attached to what is seen; everything is processed as an object in some way. This is one of the reasons the ducks were never seen in the way I stated in yesterday’s article, because they were always labeled as ducks, but this didn’t happen the other day. There was no labeling the ducks as objects, thus there was no association to I, the usual limit wasn’t applied and lo and behold I had an experience like never before. This is what happens when the filter in place just sees things as they are without attachment and association to I.

Obviously this seeing things as they are will take some practice to filter things in this way, but the more it’s done, the more one will experience life like never before. It’s unfortunate, the sense, object, associated I filter is so limiting, but because it’s the usual way of the Conditioned Mind, most people are unaware of it. That is until now because my article is shining a light on this for all to see. This seeing things as they are filter is how I’m able to write an article everyday for the last three years. I’m not special in any way because of this, I’ve just been afforded the luxury of now having a filter in place that doesn’t limit my view of life. This is the filter that allows for experiences as never before and it’s now a filter available to all.

Open to Life's Lessons

Many things in life can be a teacher if one is open enough to allow it, but if there’s constant noise in the space between one’s ears, nothing will be seen as it truly is; Be Still.

Nature can teach you much if you’re not all caught up in what’s going on between your ears. Yesterday I passed a fairly large pond by my house and I was amazed to see about a hundred ducks sitting in the water. They were all perfectly still, their heads tucked away. There wasn’t one duck struggling with trying to be still, there was no teacher duck leading a guided meditation, no chants, or mantras being recited. No duck had on headphones listening to meditative music or positive affirmations, they were all just sitting there in the quietness of the moment. I actually pulled over to observe this further to allow my present moment awareness to be a part of theirs. I was experiencing the peace of their stillness and it was a serenity beyond words; the peace that passes all understanding as stated in the Bible is just that. It only happens when there’s stillness to allow it, this is what the tranquility of this blessed moment gave to me.

There was so much silence in this moment and I was engulfed in it. Nothing of the material world has ever blessed me like this, and I’ve had some beautiful things happen to me. I can see why this silence was being experienced, it’s because for the last few weeks I’ve been using the body more and more to be anchored in the present moment and this has allowed my mind to be much more settled. I’ve seen these ducks in winters past, but it never had the affect on me as it did yesterday. Many things in life can be our teachers if one is open enough to allow it, but if there’s constant noise in the space between one’s ears, nature or anything else for that matter will not be seen as it truly is and nor will the lesson that are being laid out before you; Be Still.

The Secret to Peace

The Conditioned Mind is very unstable and has nothing solid to base itself in, so there’s very little peace in a life that’s based in the mind because its energy constantly wants things different.

The me the secret to a peaceful life lies is not wanting things different. Discontentment is directly linked to wanting things different and this is true regardless of what it is. It may not be seen as exactly wanting something different, but when a label of like or disliked is applied, this is wanting things different. If someone says or writes something or if a circumstance arises and you apply don’t like to it, you just created a discontent within yourself. What was said, written, or what happened didn’t do it, the applied label did. It’s the same when you apply like to something, this is because you are allowing something from the outside to control your mind state. The mind is very wishy washy and has nothing solid to base itself in, so there’s never peace in a life that’s based in the mind because its energy constantly wants things different.

A wanting things different mind is very erratic, it’s energy is all over the place and it’s the reason there’s very little peace in the world. Always wanting things different keeps the individual energy from being of peace, which then emanates as the energy one puts out. Multiple this by the billions of people on the planet and thus you have the world as it is. The secret to a peaceful life lies in not wanting things different and this is the only way there will ever be peace in one’s life and the world. The instant something is wanted to be different, discontentment arises as the energy in place is being controlled by a mind that doesn’t understand the secret to a peaceful life lies in not wanting things different, and this is true regardless of what’s going on.

A Created Void

The Conditioned Mind creates a lie of a void, the heart understands this as emptiness, until this is realized, one will constantly need to reach for something to try and fill a void that doesn’t exist.

For many years I said I had this void in me that was created from a lack of love and that’s why I constantly reached for stuff to fill it, but I have since come to understand this differently. This void isn’t a void at all, it is an emptiness, this emptiness is the essence of life. It’s where life happens when one is busy making other plans. By not understanding this emptiness I spent most of my life trying to fill it with whatever I could get my hands on. This is an endless list as to what was used and each individual has to investigate for themselves what that is. It’s ironic though because now most of my life is life is spent in the emptiness that for so long I considered a void; this is the truth that has been revealed to me.

To fill this misunderstood void is the reason why anyone reaches for anything or wants life to be different. If this space was understood for what it truly is, humanity would be much different because contentment would be the way of the world. This void is a lie the Conditioned Mind invents and it keeps one constantly needing the present moment to be different so it keeps one reaching as the void seemingly remains in place. This will need to be understood if the reaching is to ever end. When it is, the void transforms to emptiness because the present moment doesn’t have to be any different, and when the present moment doesn’t have to be different, life reveals its true essence as emptiness, which doesn’t need to be filled with anything because it’s not a void.

Limited by Thoughts

When thoughts are used as the primary means to live by, there will be a very limited view provided by the minds content, but when the mind settles, a second view opens up which provides unlimited content.

Humans have wars against each other, we fight with each other and most of this happens because of the nonsense of our thinking. Because of this thinking, there’s very little unity with ourselves and with the world. Everyone thinks they’re right which arises from what is heard or what’s read somewhere, all this does is fill one’s head with noise. This noise is the only view of reality that one sees until the mind becomes quiet enough to allow a second (thoughtless) view of reality to be seen.

What happens when the mind settles is it allows for two views of reality to be seen, one is the reality of the made up stories of one’s conditioned thoughts, and the other is the reality of just doing whatever it is that’s in front of you because it’s what’s there. Both realities are from the same mind, but there will only be one until the mind settles. When this settling occurs and one sees the reality of a second view, the limitations provided by the world view of thought will fall away. It will be at this point that one will go beyond the limited view of the thought world to see the limitless view of just doing what’s in front of you, without the need to think about it.

The Essence of a Flower

Formed concepts keeps one in a conditioned prison, this blocks one from seeing that in the stillness of non labeling, there’s no lock on their prison cell and there’s a beauty to life that only non labeling will reveal.

The essence of nature can only been seen when it’s viewed from a non labeling perspective. Labeling a flower as such does nothing to enhance its beauty. It exist without the label, actually the label limits one from seeing its beauty because by labeling it it becomes conceptual and in one’s formed concepts are their limits. This is how it is with most things that exist naturally in life, the don’t need labels. In the case of a flower, it gets all it needs from the Universe, it doesn’t think about how it can enhance its own beauty, this is a natural process. It’s the same with humans, that is once the conceptual living begins to slow. No label enhances anything, they’re useful in categorizing things, but this doesn’t enhance whatever it is that’s being labeled.

This is why it’s said “In stillness all truth is revealed” because when the mind is free of conceptual labeling, there’s an underling understanding of things that’s very difficult to explain with words. It’s the reason I often write “it is seen as it is seen” in response to some people who post on my articles, because no matter how much I try to convince someone to see what I see, it’s almost impossible, almost. Because of the conditioning in place people have a hard time with someone possibly knowing more than them, so they close down and miss the true essence of what’s really happening. As with the flower, you will know truth when it is seen that something exist without needing to label it. Our formed concepts keep us in a conditioned prison, this blocks one from seeing that in the stillness of non labeling there’s no lock on their prison cell and there’s a beauty to life that only non labeling will reveal.

Life Doesn't Respect Want

Wants are conditioned driven, it matters little to life or the Universe whether they’re fulfilled or not. You can make up a story that it matters, but that’s your story not life’s.

You can want things a certain way, but to life this doesn’t really matter much. Life isn’t a respecter of wants, it will allow things for its betterment at times and if you are one of the instruments which are being used in this capacity, you are truly blessed because you are probably assisting others in a unique way. This doesn’t make you special, but it does allow you to be free of the self centered “I” that holds most of the world in captivity. Wants are conditioned driven, it matters little to life or the Universe whether they’re fulfilled or not. You can make up a story that it matters, but that’s your story not life’s. Fulfill every want in your life and at the end of it you will have exactly what you would’ve had had no want been fulfilled.

It always makes me chuckle when I’m watching a baseball game and a player hits a home run followed by pointing upward, as if something is watching and cares more about the person hitting the home run as opposed to the pitcher giving it up. What happens when the person strikes out, which is inevitable? I’m waiting for the day when a person who strikes out points downward. All these stories mean nothing to the Universe and also the prayers said, regardless if they seem to work out or not, are just stories. Who’s suppose to answer them anyway, God? Good luck with that. Things will always work out the way they work out until it’s realized the Universe (life) doesn’t really care if they do or don’t. Wants are only held onto because one thinks they’re needed, but because life isn’t a respecter of wants, suffering prevails because that’s what you, not life has in place.

The Elusive Present Moment

The body anchors one in the present moment, so when this alignment occurs there’s harmony, but if the body isn’t used as an anchor, the mind continues its grasp for objects and the present moment remains elusive.

Although life only happens in the present moment, the present moment is probably the most elusive place for one to not only remain in, but to get to. To me the reason for this elusiveness is because one tries to get there with the mind and most minds aren’t disciplined enough to get there, let alone stay there. Because of the way we have evolved as a species, most minds are in constant motion, trying to figure out how to make life more pleasurable, and although pleasure is attained at times, it never last for long. This is how the mind views the present moment also, it knows it’s where life happens intellectually and there’s much pleasure here, but it doesn’t fully grasp what this means so it never settles. It’s one of the reasons objects are used and until there’s a shift that allows one to see the present moment through the body, the present moment which allows peace remains elusive.

The body becomes the source of light for the awareness of the present moment when this shift happens. There’s nothing more to do with this shift except to practice becoming more aware of the source of light of the body. There are many objects that the mind uses to keep the present moment elusive, but the body regardless of the object the mind grasp for, is always present. When a thief cases out a place, he’s present, but he’s in the mind. The body anchors one in the present, so when this alignment occurs there’s harmony. This is as natural as life itself, but if the body isn’t used as a present moment anchor, the mind will continue its grasp for objects and the present moment will remain elusive.

The Constant Need to Add

The only thing that makes a person think something needs to be added to life to enhance it, is their own conditioning and until this is realized, this conditioning will keep one searching for something to add.

As this searching for something to add seems to be a continuous phenomenon for most, this means most are missing what life truly offers. If a person is alive, life will be experienced, but the question to ask yourself is this, is your life being fully lived or are you under the spell of your own Conditioned Mind that makes you think something needs to be added or even taken away for that matter? If this is the default setting of your mind, and unfortunately it is for most, so much of life will be missed because you will constantly need things to be different than what they are. This is a mind agitation that keeps the searching for something to add in place which doesn’t allow any contentment with what’s actually taking place.

Life is never personal, it just continues on regardless of what happens. Humanity has become our own worse enemy and mostly because of always needing to add to life instead being content with what’s there. Add whatever you think you need and except for a few brief moments, contentment will be fleeting at best. Sit and visualize having all the riches of the world and being the most intelligent person to have ever lived and see what this really changes in your life. It will only be a matter of time before you will need to add something because regardless of what one has or what’s going on, if there isn’t some level of contentment with the way things are, one will constantly need life to be different and the search for adding what one thinks will make it better will make discontentment and searching to add something the norm.

Selective Attention

Life is the way it is not because of what happens, but because of the label that’s applied which makes our attention selective and limited. If you can get beyond the label, you’ll understand just how limited it makes life.

What the eyes see and focus on is very limiting, this doesn’t mean what is seen isn’t there, it’s just seen in the limited way the Conditioned Mind makes it out to be. The process of seeing and labeling is what causes this. As soon as something is seen and the applied label is attached, therein lies our limit. From the applied names of people we know, to objects, feelings, and emotions, we have been conditioned to think these are all needed, especially as the label is associated with who we think we are. It also affects you when someone labels you and you attach to it. This is all because of how the eyes see and take in the projected image; it’s as if there’s a person up in your head that takes what the eyes see and selects the label and where the attention goes.

This also applies to sounds, sounds as are images are something that arise from the space of silence, the label doesn’t enhance life, it actually diminishes it because it fills up the space of silence with selective attention. In this selectiveness is our suffering because of the limit that’s applied, which closes the heart. This is how most people are conditioned, but if you can get beyond the label, you’ll understand just how limited your life is. I write a daily article, but there’s no label applied to it, it’s one of the reasons I’m able to write one everyday. The articles definitely exist, just not in the way they’re seen. Truth can only be experienced when one’s selective attention goes beyond the applied labeled and that will only happen when the person who is in your head is fired so what the eyes see and what the ears hear is not given a label.

Waking Up Now

Love is given a lot of lip service in our society, but not much heart service. You can’t pick and choose who to love, either you love all or you love none, there’s no such thing as only loving some.

Why most people have to hit a bottom before there is significant change in their life is because of the way our selfish nature has evolved. This seems to be a common denominator amongst us which doesn’t allow one’s heart to open to see their true nature of love. This isn’t the story of what one thinks love is, it’s unconditional love that arises from the depths of one’s heart. Most people don’t truly know what love is because it’s always centered around some attachment to a conditioned story, but true love needs no story. I know many who speak of love for their own children, but what about all those children who die everyday and aren’t even given a thought?

Unconditional love has no me, my, or I attached to it, as a matter of fact it has nothing attached to it and until this story stops, suffering continues as the default setting of one’s mind. Unfortunately love is given a lot of lip service in our society, but not much heart service. You can’t pick and choose who to love, either you love all or you love none, there’s no such thing as only loving some; matter of another fact is it’s impossible to truly love only some. A true transformation occurs when there’s no where else to turn, the danger in this is many transforms but not in this world. I don’t profess to understand how the Universe works, but I do know what happened to me and that’s what I share. And although I had to hit a bottom to wake up, it’s my passion to assist in the waking process of those who are tired of suffering and want to wake up now.

Mind Agitated Noise

The noise in the head won’t quiet on its own regardless of what one has a belief in. Beliefs hinder the quieting because they’re just a response to a mind agitation that blocks our inner presence.

If the noise in the head is in control and running the show, it doesn’t matter much what’s going on, it’s going to be difficult to be in a place of peace. It’s such a noisy world and what makes it so is most people are looking for an answer out there when the answer is within. So what the noise actually is and how it’s created is by not being aware that you already have your answers. With a mind that’s conditioned to want answers, you have to constantly look for them, hence the noise. This is how the agitation of a Conditioned Mind is formed and how it blocks awareness to our inner presence. It’s noise created because if you knew you had your answers, the need to look for them would be non existent and so would the noise.

When and if you come to the place where you understand this, the noise may not stop completely, but it will begin the process of at least quieting. It’s imperative to understand this if our inner presence is to be experienced in life. If you don’t understand this, the noise will never stop at least while you are alive, it’s why it’s imperative to understand this now. Why wait to be at peace later when you can be at peace right now. It’s not like the noise is needed to live life, its only there because you unconsciously put it there.

Everyone has the ability to consciously allow the removal of the noise in the head, if practiced properly. It’s just not something that’s going to happen on its owns, but isn’t it beautiful that your peace is in your hands and it’s totally up to each individual how much peace is brought into your life. A little practice equates to a little peace. So it’s up to each individual to do what’s necessary to stop the noise, as you practice the noise quiets and you’re left with an inner presence. If you are waiting for anything else, you will be waiting a very long time and it will probably not happen while you are alive.

An Adversary Within

The ego lives in the ignorance of the Conditioned Mind, but when there’s light shed on this, ignorance falls away and the ego no longer needs to defend itself because it no longer considers itself an adversary.

Understanding the different thoughts that arise and seeing why some are defended and some are just let go of, has immense value in learning to live life to the fullest. One will want to develop some sort of practice that’s going to assist in differentiating what thoughts are beneficial. The ego is “I” and when “I” feels threatened it will defend itself with whatever tools it has developed to do so. These tools aren’t only used to defend itself against others, they’re also used to defend itself against itself. They’re the only reason a person reaches for something and it’s strictly because they are defending themselves from a threat that comes from within. This “I” is the cause of every addiction and of all conflicts, without “I” one does still exist, it’s just not in the way the ego makes it seem.

When one can see the truth that “I” (ego) is their only adversary, when a threat presents itself, there will be no need to defend it because it will be seen one is only defending themselves from themselves.There’s no suppressing this, nor anything else that arises because suppressing or pushing away is an action that deepens it’s control. To me awareness of an “I” existence is the beginning of it relinquishing its grip. In acknowledging it’s there, control dissipates somewhat, this happens when the energy of attachment is taken away. Never deny what’s there, just be aware of it and watch it dissolve on its own. The ego lives in the ignorance of the Conditioned Mind, but when there’s light shed on this, ignorance falls away and the ego no longer needs to defend itself because it no longer considers itself an adversary.

Bodily Presence

Although the mind is usually everywhere but the present moment, the body is a great anchor to use in a sitting practice because there’s no way it can’t be in the present moment.

The importance of developing a sitting practice is in how this develops discipline which allows the mind to settle enough so one is in the present more often than not. The breath is used for this because it anchors you in the body which is always in the present. You never take a past or future breath, you can only take a breath in the present, this is why the breath is used. It’s the same reason chants are used, when Om is used, you don’t Om in the past or the future, you Om right now, when this is done it anchors you in the body which is always in the Now. The mind for most is constantly in the past or future, there are times when it’s present, but this is fleeting and mostly occurs because of happenstance. The body is a great anchor to use in a sitting practice because there’s no way it can’t be present. This doesn’t prevent anything from happening, but what it does do is it allows for one’s awareness to be with what’s happening instead of having resisting energy trying to use something to push it away. This resisting energy is at the core of how addictions manifest.

Besides a sitting practice, I often use the tool of simply looking down at my feet and since wherever my feet are there I am, it also anchors me in the present. This is also why one uses a mindfulness practice, such as walking meditation because as you are mindful of each step, you’re anchored in the body which as stated before, is always in the present moment. Life is magical in relation to the things that occur for one’s energy to be transformed to form, but there’s nothing magical in being present for what’s actually happening, as long as one is aware that it’s not happening to you, it’s just what’s happening, you just happen to be present to observe it.

A Worldly Draw

The ways to be drawn in by the world are endless, but understand the draw comes from your own mind and even though the world provides the triggers, you alone attach to them.

If you’re practicing to live a spiritual life, but you don’t know your own mind, it’s like going to the gym, but not making much of an effort to work out. Granted it’s better than doing nothing, but if you can’t distinguish between love and hate, what’s beneficial and what isn’t or notice your attachments, what good is it, the whole point of the practice is being missed. Because of the draw of the outside world, it’s very difficult to look inward. There are so many things in place that prevent looking inward from happening, but if it doesn’t happen, one remains in bondage to the worlds trappings. And that’s all they are because when there’s even the slightest of an opening to allow this to be seen, one’s expansion begins.

The draw of the world is very enticing, if it wasn’t the percentage of conscious and unconscious beings would be reversed, but it’s not this way because the draw is in control. This draw is only real to a degree, it’s there there’s no denying it, but why it’s in control is because there’s a fictitious belief that it’s needed. We alone are the creators of this and if one doesn’t become familiar with their own mind, the worlds draw will continue its control; there’s really no way around this.

The aversion one has to the worldly draw makes it so enticing and this is what keeps one in the prison of the Conditioned Mind. There are many ways to be enticed by the world, but there is only one way to be free. And as I stated earlier, read all your books, study until you know it all, meditate until you reach the state you think will bring you nirvana, but understand if you don’t know your own mind, it’s like going to the gym, but not making much of an effort to really work out.

Judging Separates

Seeing conditioned behavior for what it is doesn’t condone unloving behavior nor does it exalt loving behavior, it just allows one the understanding that a person can only act as the conditioning in place dictates.

It’s pivotal to one’s peace of mind to separate and not judge the conditioned behavior of not only individuals, but also of oneself. If one is to ever be at peace there can’t be judgement of how someone behaves, this instantly causes separation because it puts up a barrier between the one who’s judged and the one who is doing the judging. Judging emanates an energy that makes a me and a you, without this judging energy one is in unity with themselves and with others. I know this isn’t easy to accept, but from Adolf Hitler, Charles Manson, Dr Martin Luther King Jr, and the Dalai Lama just to name a few, they can only do what their conditioning tells them to do and although the consequences of their behavior is drastically different, judging any of them causes separation from oneself and thus from all humanity. Being non judgmental unites, judging separates.

Seeing the conditioning for what it is doesn’t condone unloving behavior nor does it exalt loving behavior, it just allows one the understanding that everyone does what they’re conditioned to do. In this understanding there is a peace that passes all understanding and it’s because there’s no judging energy to cause separation. There can’t be because in this space of not judging and just seeing the conditioning for what it is, it’s not being assigned to anyone in particular, it’s just being seen as the conditioning in place and regardless if there’s loving or unloving behavior, it’s just conditioning, nothing more, nothing less.

No Real Choice

Many believe they have choices, but the reality is, there is no choice because one can only do what their conditioned view dictates and good, bad, or indifferent it’s only done because it’s what’s in place.

There really aren’t choices in life, it may seem as though there are, but the conditioning that’s in place dictates what one’s actions will be. From murder to loving kindness and all the other actions in between, the conditioning controls the actions. It’s as if one is a puppet on a string with the Conditioned Mind being the master puppeteer. For forty nine years I was controlled by my Conditioned Mind without awareness there was another way to view life. Today with awareness of this, my view is different and although it seems I have choices, the shift that occurred in me resulted in a different view, so my actions are now different; it’s not a choice, a different view allows me to see things differently so I naturally act differently.

I will use alcohol as an example. For years alcohol was one of the conditioned tools I used as a coping mechanism to deal with life, there was no choice here. It’s not this way today, not because I choose not to use it, it’s not a choice because it’s no longer the conditioned view that’s in place. If it was in place, I would use it; this isn’t a choice, I will do whatever I’m conditioned to do. One can only do what they’re conditioned to do and the only way this will be different is if one’s view becomes different. This is the view of accepting life as it is and not wanting anything to be different, a choice implies wanting it different. Many believe they have choices, but this belief creates an inner conflict. The reality is, there is no choice because one can only do what the conditioned view dictates and good, bad, or indifferent it’s only done because it’s what’s in place.

Selfishly Self Concerned

When the selfish self is in charge, you may think you have real concerns, but the truth is the only thing there’s a concern for is the selfish self getting what it wants when it wants it.

There’s so much conflict in our world, and although it’s all pointed outward, the only time something causes a conflict is when one wants what is happening or has happened to not only be different, but to also want it to be in the way they think it should be. One cannot have a true conflict with anything but oneself, and this is regardless of what happens. On my flight home yesterday from Florida, I was just sitting in quiet on the plane when the thought arose, how would I react if this plane was going to crash? What benefit would yelling, screaming and fearing death have? Would it change what was happening? Here’s the kicker, the only reason this would be considered a problem is because I would want what was happening to be different and preferably the way I think it should be. I know this is pretty drastic, but isn’t this the way it is with everything in our life. Look no further than our recent presidential election, now a recount, really?

Someone made a remark to me that not being concerned about something means I don’t care, but the lack of concern is only for what the selfish self thinks and as stated before, this is where all conflict arises from. In the case with the plane, the cause of the conflict would be the selfish self dying, isn’t death going to happen anyway at some point, so the conflict is caused by not wanting it to happen now, but that will not stop it from occurring. The plane analogy can be substituted with anything, if one is honest with themselves this will be seen. When the truth of this is revealed, it can have a deep impact on letting go of the selfish self because it will be seen that it does nothing but cause conflict with yourself, and unfortunately because of ignorance, some will actually believe they need to be this way. Whether it’s facing death, needing election results to be different or just about anything else you can think of, when the selfish self is in charge, you may think you have real concerns, but the truth is the only thing there’s a concern for is the selfish self getting what it wants when it wants it.

A Traveling Mind

When you are mentally somewhere other than where your body is, most of your life will be missed. Until there’s a mind and feet connection, the haze of the Conditioned Mind will continue its onslaught of control.

I was vacationing in Ft Lauderdale, Florida with my wife for the last four days and now that it’s time to go home, is my head going to be where my feet are? To me this is a very important question to ask because the mind goes to places where only the mind can go. You can be sitting on a couch or taking a shower and your mind will be in every place except where your feet are. The mind is constantly going to a place that only exist in your head and although it may be a stored memory, it isn’t what’s occurring right now so one isn’t truly living their life. Yes there is the physical existence and everyone who is alive experiences this, but just physically existing without awareness means you have a traveling mind and are in the haze of your conditioning. Watch the traveling mind as it bounces from place to place except where you truly are; where your feet are.

The point of this is to show how you may always be physically where your feet are, but if you’re not aware of where the mind is, you will most likely be somewhere else. This isn’t a good or bad thing, but it doesn’t allow you to live life as it happens. When you’re mentally somewhere other than where your body is, most of your life will be missed. The breath is used to stop the traveling mind because it anchors you in the body and when this occurs, one is physically and mentally in harmony with life as it’s happening. In this place of harmony with the mind and feet connected, you’ll be more aware of what life is offering; the haze of your conditioning will fall away and probably for one of the few times in your life it will truly be lived.

Finding Your Beach
Look down at your feet, regardless of where they're planted this is your beach. If it isn't it's because the need to reach is in place and it's blocking you from finding the beach you're already on.

When all of a sudden you're not at peace, what is it that takes you from it? The Corona beer commercial that tells you to "find you beach" always reminds me if I'm not at peace it's because I left my beach. For years I was constantly searching for my beach and expect for brief moments, my beach eluded me for most of my life. Why this was so was because my beach was always contingent on something that was outside of myself and whatever its form, it was always a beach based in what I thought I needed to provide comfort. There's no need to list what these beaches are because there are so many, they are the things one reaches for. These beaches come in many many forms and unless one truly takes a step back to see this, the reaching will always be there, but finding your beach will never happen.

The lies of the Conditioned Mind will dictate what you will reach for as your beach and until the conditioning to reach is changed, one's beach will continue to be sought and never be found. The only way this will change is by going inward to discover why there's a need to reach and once this is revealed, therein lies your beach. Your beach isn't from the thought realm though, it comes from the still small voice within that tells you it doesn't matter where you are or what's happening, all you have to do is look down at your feet and regardless of where they're planted this is your beach. If you need another beach it's because the need to reach is still in place and it's blocking you from finding the beach that you're already on.
Perfection in Place
Until one embraces the energy of just being with what's occurring right now, one will continue to seek what is deemed perfect and miss out on the perfection already in place.

The perfect life is never perfect because it's the way one may want it, it's perfect when one can accept it in the way that it is. Everything that occurs in life is perfect because it's what's there and although it will be labeled pleasant or unpleasant, neither one of these labels ever changes what occurs. The Conditioned Mind constantly pushes away the unpleasant and constantly tries to pull in what it deems as pleasant, but what's not understood is that both the pushing and pulling is the same energy. It's like positive and negative energy, most people want to be in a positive state and on the surface these energies may seem like total opposites, but upon further investigation what's revealed is positive and negative are from the same energy as pushing and pulling. Granted on the surface these energies produce much different results, but therein lies the issue because most people are controlled by results (the pleasant ones) and they think they're needed so life can be the way that it's wanted. I'm also not one for positive affirmations because that also is the energy of wanting things different or pushing and pulling energy. So what does this leave you with? What it leaves is for one to be in the space of stillness with what's actually occurring without labeling it, this is where true peace abides.

This peace doesn't push or pull, there's no need to when there's peace. Pushing and pulling energy only arises when the mind is agitated and one doesn't realize this is occurring. This is why being with what occurs in the present moment is so valuable because there's no pushing or pulling energy. When one is present, one is free and at peace. The Conditioned Mind is a liar and makes you believe all kinds of nonsense which makes you succumb to the pushing (unpleasant) or pulling (pleasant) energy, and until one embraces the energy of just being with what's occurring right now, one will continue to seek what is deemed perfect and miss out on the perfection already in place.
Open Your Heart to Everyone
Opening your heart to everyone includes yourself, so love yourself exactly as you are and understand if you don't, it's only because of the conditioning that's in place.

Tis the season, Apple has a Christmas commercial out and at the end of it it says "Open your heart to everyone" I teared up. It's a decision one has to be conscious of if it's to be put into place. There's so much unloving energy around that if one isn't conscious of the energy to open your heart to everyone, the conditioning will sneak in and keep one's heart closed. Awareness is the key in allowing the heart to open to everyone. Mostly the unloving or closed energy in place is there without fully realizing it. One may have an inkling that it's there, but without having a good amount of discipline which allows the mind to settle, this energy will be in control, even if it's not wanted to be.

I know I do things that aren't necessarily conducive to what's best for me, but they're still done because of the conditioning in place. Granted since I've been sitting and developing discipline, many things don't control me any longer, and for the most I am aligned with behaviors that are not only for my betterment, but also for the betterment of humanity, but things still are done even though I know better. It's just a part of the conditioning in place so I don't fret over it. I've learned you can only do what you're conditioned to do, and this won't change until the conditioning changes. Opening your heart to everyone includes yourself, so love yourself exactly as you are and understand if you don't, it's only because of the conditioning that's in place.
The Circle of Love

To be inside the circle of love, the heart must be unlocked and although this may not change what’s around you, it does change one’s view from looking inward to “I” to looking outward from love.

I’m sure everyone has heard the expression “the circle of life” but here’s a little different spin on it as “the circle of love”. Think of it as though life is a circle, when you love you’re inside the circle and when you don’t it means you’re living mostly from “I” which automatically puts you outside the circle. Outside the circle was how the first forty nine years of my life were lived. Occasionally I was in the circle, but not very often and this was because my “I” conditioning kept my heart locked which didn’t allow me to enter the circle. It’s nearly impossible to enter the circle from “I” because “I” is the lock that keeps that heart closed. When you see this, it gives you something tangible to work with which allows the heart to be unlocked, and with an unlocked heart one can be inside the circle of love.

Life and love can be synonymous, but only when one is inside the circle of love and one can only be inside when the heart is unlocked and opened. The locks of the world that keeps one outside the circle are many, it’s as though one is on the outside of a house looking in through a window. Love unlocks the heart to see things that were previously unseen, and this is what opens one to see as if they were inside the house looking out. When one is on the inside looking out it’s because the heart is unlocked and with the heart unlocked, it may not change what’s around you, but it does change one’s view from looking inward to “I” to looking outward from love.

Grateful To Be Alive

Grateful to be alive, not only for today, but for each and everyday because life itself is our greatest gift.

Being grateful for life occurs naturally as does love when there’s an understanding of what’s needed to live from the heart. Although love is natural it’s not automatic, so cultivating love is when life results in gratitude.

Gratitude naturally arises from a loving heart. It isn’t produced by attaching to anything from the materiel realm. If gratitude was from the material realm it would coincide with one’s possessions and that would make a person of wealth more grateful than one who didn’t have many? The true measure of a wealthy life has nothing to do with possessions, true wealth arises from a loving heart, that’s what measures wealth. You can only be grateful when you are content with life as it is, not with the way you wish it was or how it’s wanted or expected.

Wanting is never from our true self, it’s from the small self that thinks what’s wanted is needed to be complete. The true self never needs because it’s complete as it is. Needing arises from “I” it creates lack which creates a made up need. When there’s completeness there no lack so there’s no need. This lack also creates wanting and is in direct relation to one’s so called problems in life.

Whenever you want, it means you think life needs to be in some other way, this creates suffering. Gratitude doesn’t mean everything will be as wanted, but life must be accepted as it is if one is to be at peace and invoke a grateful heart; investigate this for yourself. Gratitude will not shield you from problems, it will allow you to not create them. Be grateful for your given life and you will find your loving heart, and when life is lived from a loving heart there will be harmony with yourself and with all beings. When this occurs you can’t help but to have an attitude that’s full of gratitude for life as it is, not because of what you possess, but because of the natural love that arises from your heart.

Head or Heart Living

Head (intellect) living knows love only through a story, heart living knows love through the peace that passes all understanding. The head will never understand what the heart knows intuitively.

The contrast between head and heart living is simply because the head is from the intellect and the heart is from love. If you’re truly aware of this you will pick up on the difference from something as simple as a FB response from someone. The heart connects and the head separates and it’s because the heart only knows unconditional love and the head only knows how to put conditions on everything, hence this is where one’s struggles stem from. It doesn’t mean when you live from the heart you won’t be troubled by things, they just won’t have the same adhering effect that living from the head creates. I notice head living immediately from the way a person responds to one of my post, this isn’t to say my post can’t be debated, but since I write from my heart when someone responds from the head it’s immediately picked up on because it creates some conflict.

Head living knows love only through a story, heart living knows love through the peace that passes all understanding. There’s very little if any “I” attachment living from the heart, living from the head there’s nothing but “I” attachment. All conflict with oneself and others come from the head, it’s impossible to have conflict when living from the heart, you may not enjoy everything that happens living from the heart, but you will accept it because that’s how the heart works. The love of the heart is from the energy of the Universe, it connects one to all that is. We are the energy of all creation and cannot truly be separated from it, but it can seem like one is separated because that’s what the energy of “I” (the head) does. When a person states there’s a void in their life, it’s because the head is causing a story of separation from the heart, but since everyone who is alive has a heart there’s no true separation, there’s only the contrast between the head and heart because the intellect and not the heart is running the show.

Believe if You Must

Every belief is formed for one reason and that’s to make life seemingly better. If it was this easy one could just go around making up belief after belief whenever life wasn’t going the way one thought it should be.

What is a belief and why are they needed? There are very few hard line facts in a belief. So what makes a person think a belief is needed to make life better? The only reason beliefs are made up to begin with is because of the way our minds have been conditioned. They’re used to keep the mind in a state of agitation by making one believe things need to be different for life to be better. It’s what the ego uses to keep one in bondage to a self that doesn’t exist. This is why most wars are started, because of an ego that forms beliefs, and whatever the belief is in, whether it’s in a God that’s going to make things better, or a superior race or the annihilation of one that will make things better, or if it’s a belief that if I didn’t write my post on this site things would be better, it all stems from one’s own conditioning of believing if things were different, life would be better.

So, to believe or not to believe, that is the question. It really has nothing to do with the belief, but it does have everything to do with arranging life and thinking if things were different, it would be better. This is what needs to be discovered if the falseness of a belief is to be revealed. If attaching to a belief is found to make life better, by all means believe, but for me I would have to say life is better without forming beliefs, especially that they probably exist only in my mind. If beliefs are seen to be real and have some facts to back them up, believe them, attach to them, use them, but in truth don’t be surprised if when they are needed to fall back on to make life better, they don’t do what was believed they were going to do.

A Fictitious Self

We don’t give names to wild animals, they’re categorized by their form, but humans are given names for identification purposes and this is the beginning of one’s fictitious self as an individual.

There are so many stories that go into the making of who you think you are that your true self gets blocked and is seldom noticed. Think about it, from the time you’re a child you’ve been conditioned by parents, relatives, teachers, friends, religions, all media, and whatever is in your DNA. Can you truly say this isn’t so? So I ask where is the true you in this identity of self? Existence in this form begins as an egg inside a women labeled mother and with Universal conditions being right, this eggs energy is transformed into human form. This form is then named for identification purposes and the rest of one’s existence is spent shaping the identity of a fictitious self, there is a self that does exist, it’s just not in the way that it’s perceived. We don’t give names to wild animals, they’re categorized by their form, but humans are given names for identification purposes and this is the beginning of one’s fictitious self as an individual. We attach to the things we think will benefit this fictitious self identity and so much of this comes from someone else’s idea. Every book that’s read is someone else’s idea of how they think life should be and if we like what they have to say, it’s taken as gospel as we follow them and take what they say and apply it to make up our self.

So much nonsense goes into the making of fictitious self and it’s the reason why there are issues when one is self centered. If your focus is constantly on self and your self is a story of made up nonsense, how may I ask can there not be issues when your self is the focus? An apple tree can only produce apples, as the made up self can only produce self created nonsense. This is the self that’s mostly perceived by humanity, but there is another self that’s been with you your entire existence, there’s just not awareness of it because of the focus on the fictitious self. Some say the self doesn’t exist, but I say it does, it’s just doesn’t exist in the way that most people think it does.

Evaluating Yourself

Evaluating and learning from your practice allows for one who was once lost, to now be found and one who was blind, to now see, but only because of having a practice in place that allows this.

If there’s not some kind of an evaluation process in place for your practice, it will be difficult to proceed in a direction where there will be any expansion in your life. The first thing to evaluate is if you even have a practice in place that’s practical and beneficial. I don’t mean a practice of belonging to certain groups, although there’s nothing wrong with that, but if it’s in place to just keep you busy, it’s not really a beneficial practice. Although it is a practice, the evaluation of how it is working to quiet the mind or how it keeps the mind agitations in place is what one needs to be aware of to allow for the continuous expansion of life’s process. I’m sharing this because this is what has allowed me to be as I am today. There’s no magic to this, a beneficial practice has to be in place if one is to experience beneficial results, this is as simple as one plus one equals two.

Evaluate your behavior, reactions, attachments, annoyances, and whatnot and see what is the driving force behind them. This driving force is the block to expanding beyond the nonsense of the Conditioned Mind. Without a solid practice in place that allows this to be seen, you might as well not practice at all because it’s just a waste of time and energy. Either do it right (beneficial) or don’t do it at all. One can only be free by being free and only a practice that puts you in harmony with life allows harmony with life, makes sense right? I practiced wrongly for many years and it produced results that weren’t beneficial, but I’ve evaluated and learned from this and because of this evaluation, where I was once lost, I’m now found and where I was blind, I now see, but only because of having a practice in place that allows this.

Out With the Old

Although the old may be firmly in place and it may be true that you don’t know what you don’t know, if this isn’t investigated what you don’t know will be the only thing that you know.

When a snake sheds its skin it’s because the snake is growing. If the old skin doesn’t fall away, growth will not occur. It’s the same with us, just substitute the skin of the snake with our ideas. Life is a natural process of learning and growing, but the base of one’s growth is dependent on the what the new is that’s replacing the old. For years I drove an old car in constant need of repair just to keep it up and running, and isn’t this how many live their life, constantly making adjustments and repair just to keep it running; not many truly live. It wasn’t until I purchased a new car that it was realized just how broken down the old car was. This goes with the saying ” you don’t know what you don’t know.” This is also what happened to me when I finally let go of the old ideas I had in place, I started to realize just how out of sorts my old thinking was, I began the process of shredding my old skin per se.

Although learning is a natural process of life, learning to grow spiritually is not automatic. It does seem to take some effort even if it’s only the willingness to head in that direction. There are many intellects in the world who don’t have a clue as to what it means to live spiritually in the space of growth; they never seem to shed their skin. The mind loves the familiar and will always try to convince you it’s better to stay in that space then to go to the space of the unknown. So it may be true that you don’t know what you don’t know, but if this isn’t investigated, what you don’t know will be the only thing that you know. And because nothing new is being allowed in, the old skin will remain in place and new growth will not be allowed to occur.

Conditioned to Self Destruct

Looking at yourself takes more courage then most people will ever exhibit, but only because the conditioning in place doesn’t allow it, and until your life isn’t about you anymore, your conditioning prevails.

Everyday I’m more and more amazed at the things that people are ok holding onto with the emphasis totally on satisfying themselves. This is without much consideration for anyone else and it’s strictly from an “I gots to get mine” attitude. I know it’s because they know not what they do, but the suffering this causes and how it cements the conditioning in place can be truly disheartening. Notice I said can be disheartening because if one is truly awake, there’s the understanding that the way things are is the way things are and wanting them different also cements the conditioning in place. I’m writing about this because it’s heart breaking, when you have answers and not many are willing to hear, it’s like having a cure for cancer, but nobody will listen. Without going into specifics, the conditioned unconsciousness runs so deep that people will justify doing all kinds of self destructive behavior without blinking an eye; drugs, alcohol, gambling, porn, rioting, protesting, total defiance for any authority, murder, rape, assault, and robbery and this is only the tip of the Conditioned Mind iceberg. Here is why this is, at least from my experience, it’s much easier because of the way one is conditioned to justify self destructive behavior than to look at yourself. Truly looking at yourself takes more courage then most people will ever exhibit, not because they can’t, but because the conditioning in place doesn’t allow it.

I offer to talk to people to possibly assist them because of something they may be going through and all kinds of excuses are made not to connect. I get it, but it doesn’t make it any easier to watch people suffering when there’s a way out. So this means people would rather remain in their suffering then to go beyond it, that’s the part that’s heart breaking. I don’t say this because I’m a know it all, but I have been released from the grip of my Conditioned Mind to a degree and was provided answers to strictly share my experience with others. How do I know that I’ve truly broken free from the Conditioned Mind, because my life isn’t about me anymore.

Conditioned Mind Antics

Peace is the natural process of awareness because when one is aware of their Conditioned Mind antics, the antics lose their hold as the need to do falls away and one is naturally at peace.

If you have to be doing something, this is because of the subtleness of how the Conditioned Mind is in control without you even realizing it and until this is realized so you can apply the brakes and stop doing, the antics of your conditioning will remain in place. These antics of the Conditioned Mind will not be seen by a mind that’s attached to the antics. I woke up this morning and my postings for the day were done because I did it at night, so my mind began to look for something to do. This is the value of awareness because instead of blindly following the antics of doing, I was able to look down at my feet and say shhhhhh, which immediately stopped the antics energy of having to do something. You cannot put a price on this awareness because life is so much different then when it’s full of the antics of the Conditioned Mind.

Do this, do that, look over there, if only, I should, I wish, I want, I need, why did I do that, these are just some of the antics of the Conditioned Mind and they literally wreck havoc on life. Without awareness, this havoc is the controlling energy of life and unfortunately this is the energy of most lives. What makes this so damaging is because most people are oblivious that the antics exist so it’s one antic after another. When there’s awareness of the antics one can say stop, this immediately transforms one’s energy from needing to do something to peace. Peace is the natural process of awareness because when one is aware of their Conditioned Mind antics, they lose their hold as the need to do falls away and one is naturally at peace.

A Surface Stranger

What’s seen on the surface of life is all a facade and until it’s seen that below the surface is what truly matters, one will be living as though you were a stranger unto yourself.

It’s very easy to live a surface life and get caught up in what society presents as the best way to live, and although this may benefit society as a whole, one will need to sit and contemplate if surface living is truly beneficial to them. There are many traps provided by society to keep surface living in place, from politics, religion, social and the regular media, and so many others, these are used to keep one attached to form and blind to the impermanent nature of all things. Surface living makes everything seem as though it’s in solid form, but upon further investigation the fallacy of this may be seen. When you look in the mirror you see what’s on the surface, but what’s not seen is your blood pumping, breathing, the heart beating, and whatever else is going on beneath the surface of the image in the mirror. It’s easy to attach to form because it’s what’s on your he surface, but one must go beneath the surface to see the true nature of the emptiness of form. Only the Conditioned Mind makes everything solid, thus one’s view sees everything that’s upon the surface.

To get to a place where the emptiness of form can be understood, the mind will have to settle enough to allow this. This isn’t understood, nor is it a desired state that most people want to go to because to the Conditioned Mind it’s a scary place. Going beneath the distractions of the surface, one encounters their true self not the made up character who lives on the surface. When this happens one comes face to face with a stranger. The Conditioned Mind will try to keep you distracted from this by using what’s familiar, but you can get beyond the familiar with awareness. What’s on the surface is a facade and until it’s seen that below the surface is what truly matters, one will be living as though you were a stranger unto yourself.

False God Bondage

There are many “False Gods” out there that are used as idols that keeps one in bondage, and although it may appear that the “False Gods” create the bondage, the bondage is to I that attaches to the idol.

There are many traps that induce bondage in the world, the Bible uses the description of “False Gods” and there’s no difference if it’s an idol as stated in the Bible or simply attaching to a self image, to me the “False God” description is right on. Here’s where this gets tricky because anything that is made into a story and is attached to is a “False God” because it becomes a prison to the one who is attached to the story. Even God is made into an idol by most people and becomes a prison although most don’t see this. Just look at the different religions and how all the followers of a particular one think theirs is the right one. Many of these religions have beautiful teachings, but it’s in the way they’re attached to that actually takes away from them. This isn’t to say there isn’t value in them, but there’s never value in attaching to something because it enforces an I am right and you are wrong aura.

I found this “False God” attachment happening to me yesterday, someone didn’t agree with my article, so right away I felt I had to defend it, after all I wrote it so it has to be right, lol. I always have to look at myself so I can identify what form my “False God” is taking on. I’m not saying there is or isn’t a God, this is just to show how attachment to anything becomes bondage and blocks the heart from remaining open to allow everything its freedom. “False Gods” take over when they get control of I as I become one’s idol. I am right is an idol, as is anything one reaches for. The world presents many “False Gods” disguised as idols and until these “False Gods” are identified, the idol of I will remain and so will one’s bondage.

The Space of Truth

Truth isn’t a made up story, it’s not something that can be held onto, it’s only known when it’s realized there’s nothing to know and it’s in the not knowing that the truth will set you free.

To me it’s clear what truth is and here’s why: Nine years ago when I started to look into a different way to live my life, at the core of this looking was an urge to find peace. I didn’t know much about anything, but I did know I needed a different way to view life. I understood one thing, that my own mind was the cause as to why I wasn’t at peace, so I set out to find out why this was and if it was possible to be at peace. As this process of self inquiry proceeded, my view was slowly becoming different and as this happened my life become less and less about me. It didn’t become about anyone else, it just wasn’t all about fulfilling my wants and desires anymore; when this happens qualities associated with love naturally arise. This doesn’t mean everything goes the way that it’s wanted, but it’s does mean it doesn’t matter how it goes because if it’s not all about me then there’s no story of wanting and needing things a certain way and without a story one is at peace.

Truth is difficult to describe in words because it’s interpreted differently by everyone, but I have found truth in the space of what is; not what is itself, in the space of what is. What is is given many labels depending on what’s occurring at the time. It can horrible, beautiful, or neutral, the label doesn’t change what’s actually occurring, being in the space of what’s occurring changes it and that’s because without a label there’s only space. In this space there’s no story and without a story is when truth is revealed. It’s not a made up truth, it’s the truth of just being with what’s here right now and not needing to add a label or story to it. In this space is where one finds truth, but it has nothing to do with you or anyone else and this is when one will clearly see the truth that will set you free.

Changing Direction

Not many people will change something in their life unless they see a reason for it, but even if it’s seen, without some sort of understanding of the Conditioned Mind, it will be difficult to do the things that allow change to take place.

There has to be an understanding of what you’re trying to do so you can at least head in that direction. Without some sort of understanding of this, it will be difficult to do the things that will allow change in your life, if that is what you’re looking for. Not many people will change something in their life unless there’s a reason to change and for me the reason was because the tools I had in place weren’t allowing me to do the things that were beneficial to me or anyone else. So I reached a point in my life and not a favorable one, where I wasn’t doing things that were producing results conducive to love. Tools are developed over a course of one’s life and they may have worked for your entire life, but if for some reason life becomes more and more of a struggle and you want the struggle to cease, new tools will be needed.

Even though I didn’t realize it growing up, the tools I developed were leading me to my own destruction. A person has to see this to stop it from occurring. The tool of reaching for something is what was causing this destruction and it was because the tool of noticing the mind agitations was never developed. This is the only reason a person reaches for anything, the mind becomes agitated and the tool to reach is attached to. To change this, a new direction is needed so a new tool can be developed and I’ve found the tool of sitting to be helpful in the endeavor. Today I understand the Conditioned Mind enough that I do things that allows for the mind agitations to be noticed. By noticing I can use a developed tool that doesn’t attach to them and lo and behold with no need to reach, there in lies one’s peace.

A Gap of Paradise

Thousands of hours of time and money are spent on trying to fill a gap that doesn’t need filling. The nature of the gap is emptiness and it will always be there. It’s not your enemy; in its emptiness one is filled.

People spend thousands of dollars to go on vacation and at the time it seems to be a great idea, and in a way it is because when you are there everything seems like paradise, but the first thing to understand is wherever you go there you are which could be scary and second because of the Conditioned Mind, not only is the fantasy better than the reality, but before you know you are back home. This is not to say don’t go on vacation, but the stark reality is you can always be on vacation if your mind finds your place of peace. I’m talking from experience here because for forty nine years my life was exactly how I wanted it to be and yet I had to always reach for something to fill in a gap I didn’t understand. This gap equates to always needing to be on vacation (reaching for something), but I didn’t understand the part of wherever I went there I was. My own mind was an enemy not an ally and I had no idea this was occurring, so basically to my conditioned mind, I always needed to be planning a vacation because life was never good enough in the moment I was in; regardless of how it was there was always a gap.

Here’s the real irony in this, I was trying to fill a gap of emptiness that is still there today, but what I have come to understand is it doesn’t need filling, in its emptiness there’s fulfillment. And this is the issue with most people, they’re trying to fill a gap that doesn’t need filling because the nature of it is emptiness. That’s what a gap is, empty. So regardless of what’s used to fill it, it never gets filled, it can’t because it doesn’t need filling. Today I understand this gap is not my enemy nor does it need filling and although there are times when I do go on vacation, it’s not because I’m trying to escape to paradise, I’m in paradise everyday that I’m alive and it’s the gap of emptiness that provides this.

Hate Despises Itself

Hate will never be driven out by hate, so if it’s not observed that hate is in place, hate will remain and the energy that one despises in another will be the same energy that’s controlling their life.

Many things will cross your path throughout the day, some will be liked, some will not, and others you couldn’t care less about, but the key to the things that arise, is being aware of them and observing which ones grab you, which ones are pushed away, and which ones naturally come and go without attaching to them because there’s nothing there to adhere to. These observations become more and more important as one becomes more aware of them. Things occur all the time, but they’re not noticed, very few people are in touch with observing them which allows the things that occur to be in control. Many things occur in life that aren’t particularly cared for as demonstrated by the recent election, but all the energy that’s going in to not accepting the results and trying to change it with non loving actions, generates the same energy one is protesting against.

Unloving energy will never be changed with unloving energy, especially when the driving force behind it arises because one didn’t get their way. If this isn’t observed it will keep the unloving energy in place. Hate will never be driven out by hate, so if it’s not observed that hate is in place hate will remain and the very thing that one despises is the very thing that one becomes. This is the way it is when one is unconscious and allows things to affect you. There’s nothing wrong with being disappointed for a second, but after that it becomes attachment and suffering begins. And this suffering isn’t because things didn’t work out the way that is wanted, no the suffering arises because one has no clue the energy that’s despised in another is the same energy that’s controlling your life.

Conditioned Mind Insanity

Only the Conditioned Mind really cares about winning and losing and it’s because when it applies one of those labels, there’s attachment to the emotional energy of being happy or sad.

The insanity of the Conditioned Mind was in full swing on this day after the election of 2016 in the USA. The smugness of the winners, the bitterness of the losers and why this is insane is because it’s all created from within each individual and it keeps us divided. We think our division is with others, but it’s only with ourselves that we’re divided. In truth there is no such thing as a winner or loser, there’s only the applied label that makes this so. One person got more electoral votes than the other, so they got the position that is being vacated in January. The labels that one applies to the circumstances in all of life is what causes the insanity because it makes one attach to the situations, and since attachment is the root of all suffering, even if the one you labeled as your candidate was elected, you will still suffer. Suffering is the natural energy of attachment. Smugness is suffering as is bitterness.

This insanity goes on all the time not just at election time. The presidential election just makes one’s attachment deeper because the campaigning has been going on for a long period of time. This is why issues within families often arise because the attachment has been in place for a very long time. There’s very little attachment with a stranger so there’s very little issue with them and this is because there’s very little time spent with them. This awareness is a very valuable tool to use in understanding the insanity of the Conditioned Mind, without it one’s conditioning remains the main reason the day after the election people are still holding onto all their unloving energy. It doesn’t matter who won except to those who attach to the candidate of their choosing and it’s only the Conditioned Mind that really cares because it applies the label of winner or loser and it attaches to the emotional energy of being happy or sad.

Your Life is Yours

Your life is yours and as easy as it may be to follow someone else’s path, if they didn’t live the life that you’re leading, their tools just may not be the most beneficial for the way your life is.

There are many people that came before us who left directions to follow a path that they used to show how to bring peace into your life. An example can be when one is in the forest, it’s very easy to follow a path that’s been laid out before you, but to me there’s much more that can be learned by looking at things through your eyes and carving a path which is more beneficial for your life. Follow Jesus, Buddha, or some others, but the thing to ask yourself is did they live the kind of life that you live, if not although their teachings may have immense value, unless they can be applied to the life you live, their significance may not apply. This isn’t to down play anyone’s path, but I’m a parent, a husband, I have a career and haven’t been out sick for nine years. I also own a home which requires constant maintenance amongst all the other responsibilities that come along with this kind of life. I don’t know of many that came before me that led this kind of life, so although I studied many spiritual teachers (not followed), I’m carving my life with tools that apply to what’s being revealed to me, leaking roofs and all.

What happens when a person blindly follows someone is they remain blind to the experiences in their own life that truly allows one to learn and grow. It’s very nice to say I’ll just let it go, but unless this is truly understood, when the boiler stops working in the middle of the winter or the AC is blowing hot air when it’s 95 degrees outside, let’s see if who you are following went through that and how easy it is to let go, especially when your family is involved. Like I said this isn’t to down play anyone’s path or not to utilize the tools that others left behind, but carve a path that’s practical to YOUR life and since everyone’s life is different and a person can only share their tools as they apply to their life, stop following anyone and start using the tools that are practical and beneficial to your life.

To Desire is Human

Our walk of life is not one of a made up perfection where it has to be the way one thinks it should be, whatever arises has to be accepted exactly as it is with seeing the perfection in the desire of wanting things different.

Being human means having desires and unless this is accepted exactly as it is without one needing things to be a certain way so one can get a better seat in heaven or move up on the angelic chain of command, life will seem to always have some kind of struggle associated with it. One of the common traits I notice when I talk to people about the Conditioned Mind is not truly accepting themselves exactly as they are, with a self imposed label of imperfect being applied . There are so many conditioned desires engrained in each of us and if they’re not accepted as they arise, one will live a struggled existence, needing those desires to be different than what they are.

Accept yourself in each moment desires and all and just watch as they arise. This isn’t a right or wrong thing, it’s just part of being human and it has to be accepted if there’s to be peace in one’s life. Today being Election Day in the US means there is opinionated energy all around and it will cause much suffering as there will be a desire for what’s voted for to play out the way one wants it. This wanting usually manifest as individual energy, but today it will be both individual and collective energy and if the results aren’t accepted as they are, it’s because one’s opinionated desires are in control and wants different results. Anything that happens has to be accepted as it is if one is to be at peace. This is made difficult because things occur and because one is human, an attached label is applied to what arises as being unpleasant, this makes one want whatever arises to be different and as long as one’s energy doesn’t accept their humanness as it is, peace will never be had.

Addicted to Thinking

Notice how much you think the same thoughts over and over and you just may be able to settle in a place where your thinking isn’t in control and you may also realize thinking the same thoughts doesn’t really provide much of a benefit.

As long as you’re alive you will think, actually thinking occurs even if you aren’t alive it’s just not you doing it. So thinking isn’t really about what happens as much as it’s about how much one relates their thinking to what happens. This is where one’s conditioning steps in and determines the relation to what thoughts come next. Thinking can be based in love, or it can based in hate, but for most it teeters between the two. Very few go to the extreme of either one of these in their thinking, so the results for most are just constantly switching between the two. When one’s thinking does hit an extreme level, the results are contingent on how much one is conditioned to constantly think; this thinking is what manifest as the emotions that take you for a ride. If you have love as the main influence in your life, obviously you will think of love more than a person who had hate as their influence. This all arises from the individual so if you truly notice the base of your thinking, you may be able to alter your actions. Besides relying on divine intervention which will probably not occur, it will take practice to allow the mind to settle so the base of one’s thinking is noticed.

The true addictions in our society is to thinking and when I is the main subject, it makes one’s existence very irrational. Now multiply that by billions of people and hence you have the world we live in; billions of people constantly thinking about I strictly for their own personal gain. There’s no one to blame for this, it just arises from the thinking within each of us. From the serial killer to the person who does volunteer work, it’s the thinking mind that causes extreme emotional twist and everything else in between. So sit often with the intention of developing the ability to notice how much your thinking is stuck on I and you just may be able to settle in a place where the mind quiets and hopefully you’ll come to realize life isn’t really about I, you just think it is.

Let Your Love Shine Through

You may not be able to change the way things are right now, but you can live in a way that lets your love shine through by just being with the task at hand and doing what’s in front of you.

To love life, one must love the task at hand. The task at hand is what is happening right now. It’s the only place that life can truly be lived. It’s the only place that your love can shine through. If you don’t love the task at hand, how can your love shine through? Life can never be better then it is right now, because right now is the task at hand. Only the Conditioned Mind makes you think this isn’t so. Life is always lived with what here’s now because what’s here now is the task at hand. You can wish for things to be different, but it’s your life that is being wished away. So do what is in front of you now, and let your love shine through.

Our path is laid before us to do the best we can with the tools we have, but there needs to be a clear path to let our love shine through; it’s very easy to veer off the path if there isn’t vigilance. There are many diversions that will try and knock one off it. It’s like our life is an obstacle course and the obstacles are in place to divert us from the task at hand, from our present, which is the Here and Now. There is only one present, one task, and one life, but there are many many obstacles. One of the main obstacles is the conditioning of wanting things different. The mind tells you, if the task at hand was different than life would be better, but this is a lie. Things are always the best they can be right now, because the present is where life happens. So if you can’t change the way that things are right now, you can at least live in a way that lets your love shine through. So just do the task at hand because it’s life as it is right now and be with whatever it is that life gives you that lets your love shine through.

The Collective Conditioning

There’s so much collective conditioning in our society, it’s almost impossible to break free. This is why it’s so difficult to break an addiction because the thing addicted to is always focused on and not the collective conditioning of I.

The collective conditioning will pull you along as if you are a puppet on a string unless there is some awareness that this is happening. To me the only thing that allows this awareness to happen is one’s thoughts slowing down enough to where there’s a millisecond of space between them, if space is created the collective conditionings pull lessens. The only thing I’ve found that allows this space is discipline developed by sitting, it’s very important to understand this because people sit for hours with other intentions and the moment they’re finished, their thoughts take over again. An understanding of what is being done is beneficial because it allows for a clear path which keeps the mind open to learn. If everything stays in the head as intellect, it will be difficult to break free from the energy the collective conditioning emits. The larger the group of the collective conditioning, the harder it is to pull away.

One example of this is from the Bible, the masses grew and grew as the Pharisees publicly persecuted Jesus, and as more people were pulled into the collective conditioning, the energy to have him crucified grew. If you research some of the conquerors of the past, you will see how the collective conditioning works, as their reigns became deeper and they expanded their empires, the collective conditioning became deeper. There’s so much collective energy in our society it’s almost impossible to break free of it as it’s reinforced daily. It’s why addiction is so hard to break free of, not because of the thing addicted to, but because of the collective conditioning of I that keeps it in place, This even includes those trying to help in the addiction field because the addiction is to I and the focus is always on the thing one is addicted to. Until I is addressed and space between ones thoughts is created so I loses its hold, very few people will ever truly break free because the collective conditioning won’t allow space between one’s thought as the collective I remains in control.

A True Gauge

Because of the way one’s mind becomes conditioned, its normal state is mostly agitated. A true gauge of life is if you’re at peace right now with the world exactly as it is without having to save it.

Do what it is you think you need to do to get the desired results you think are needed, but see what’s guiding you to where that is. If one is to get a true gauge as to what’s really going on in their life, there will have to be a deep awareness of why one is heading in the direction they’re going. There are reasons why a person seems to constantly struggle with being at peace and as subtle as this can be, it’s not something most people consciously think about. Because of the way one’s mind becomes conditioned, its normal state is mostly agitated. From the time a person starts their day the agitations start. The alarm clocks rings and when the snooze button is hit or one says I have to get up now, although it’s not thought that you’re not at peace, the bottom line is you’re not.

Constantly having to do something is a mind agitation that keeps one from the awareness that its agitated. Save the world if that’s the direction you think you need to go in, just understand maybe the world doesn’t need you to save it. If you’re not truly at peace in the moment without having to do anything, that’s what needs to be looked at. Nothing else matters because regardless of what you’re doing, it will only be a made up story that keeps the mind in an agitated state. So many people are so busy trying to save the world that they don’t see the forest from the trees and until the beauty of the moment is seen and one can just be and not have to do something, peace will not be had because one will be too busy trying to save a world that just may not need saving. So to me a true gauge of life is if there is peace right now with the world exactly as it is without having to save it.

A View Related Life

Situations unfold in life and the view that’s in place is the way one will respond to those situations as they occur, as a matter of fact everything is related to one’s view and will be responded to accordingly.

For many many years my view of life was one of constant judgment, the moment a situation arose it was judged. The base of these judgements were from a place where there wasn’t much room for anything or anyone but myself. The thing about this view is I didn’t know it was in place nor did I know there was any other way but this way to relate to what arose in my life, and it was all because the view in place didn’t allow for an openness to see things differently. This is one of the main reasons there was very little change in my life, and it’s the reason why there’s very little true change in most lives. These views are developed over long periods of time and get so deeply engrained, that’s why it usually takes something catastrophic for a person to change. These views come with a set of tools and they’re used as one sees fit to get what they want, whether consciously or unconsciously.

The tools in place are also developed and are used according to how one relates them to the base of their life. If the base is selfish and immature so will the tools be, but this also applies where one’s base is of love, the tools used will be in relation to love.
Everyone’s behavior is related to the tools and base of their existence and what is extremely unfortunate is so many people lack the maturity to have a base of love, not because they can’t, but because it has never been developed. There’s so much nonsense that goes on between one’s ears and it’s because of never truly maturing. You don’t think this is so, just look at the pacifier you are using to bring comfort to your life. And although many have aged beyond sucking on pacifier, it’s still being used except it’s in a different form. Please understand there’s no judgement here, there’s only what is seen, and until one truly relates their behavior with the base of how life is viewed, a pacifier will continued to be reached for in whatever form is desired because it’s how one relates to the view that’s in place.

Remembering Pleasure

Understanding the phenomenon of remembering is very important in breaking the chains of bondage because it’s the attachment to I that makes one only remember what’s pleasurable.

The phenomenon of how we remember things and constantly bringing them into the present is simply that, a phenomenon. Although this happens without it being realized, when it is realized it changes the way one views existence. Remembering how things truly are gets distorted in a way because they are viewed through the conditioning that’s in place. This conditioning mostly manifest in constantly seeking pleasure. Think of this, when someone dies no one gets up and says the person was a SOB, what’s usually said, borders on making the individual a saint and that’s regardless even if when alive the person was a SOB. This is the phenomenon that’s in place and until it is realized, one’s life is spent constantly seeking to make up pleasurable memories. The mind doesn’t like unpleasant memories so it makes up one’s to remember things pleasurable, regardless if they really were or even happened or not. This is part of the survival instinct engrained in us. Even those who remember painful events, they’re still used to find something pleasurable, even if to just push them away, hence this is why one reaches outside themselves for comfort.

Nobody reaches for anything for any other reason but to provide themselves comfort, but in this comfort seeking is so much unconscious suffering. Comfort pleasure, pleasure comfort, these two go hand in hand and until this is understood they’ll continue to cause one to suffer unconsciously. Understanding the phenomenon of remembering is very important in breaking the chains of bondage because it’s the attachment to I that makes one only remember what’s pleasurable. Even to the points of its own destruction I seeks pleasure, just look in any rehab or detox, every drug or drink of alcohol taken had the lure of pleasure associated with it or it wouldn’t have be taken, by understand this isn’t limited to just those things substances, this goes for anything that’s reached for. The mind defaults to what’s familiar and it uses pleasure as it’s lure and until it’s realized and remembered that this happens, one will continue to remember everyone as being a saint, at least that’s what’s said when they die.

Simply Being a Light

Life is a learning experience and if you’re not learning it’s probably because you have your own agenda of what you think life is about. When you truly see the light, your own agenda is no more and simply falls away.

It’s very important to be a pillar of consistency so people know there’s a place they can go for what they’re looking for. I’ve been told by people they start their day reading my articles so it’s expected they will be there. I don’t mind that and because of what has been revealed to me I’m honored to be used as an instrument to spread seeds of love. Everyone needs a place where they know it’s safe from the unconsciousness of the world. It does matter where you go for your peace, if you go to a place that’s used as a distraction, it may feel like peace, but it isn’t. So if you get lost let’s say in a full day of watching football, the day will go by and this is because time waits for no one, but if you’re spending the same day in a state of mindfulness you will be a place that people can turn to as a place of refuge.

Fear not what others who are unconscious say, just stand your ground in what you know is truth and let no one take you from your peace. Be the light of love in a world that is mostly based in the ego, this allows others to be the light of love which is needed for any transformation to occur. The love that draws someone to you is the love that becomes a part of them. This life is a learning experience and if you’re not learning it’s probably because you have your own agenda of what you think life is about. When you truly see the light your own agenda is no more and falls away. This place with no agenda is a place of peace and when you remain there others will also go there as it’s the one place of refuge where one can truly be at peace by simply being a light.

Time and the Monkey Mind

Until the veil of ignorance is removed, the “monkey mind” will be in control. This isn’t in place as something that’s wrong, but it does block one’s true essence from arising and because of this one doesn’t truly live.

It’s often said one should practice being in the present moment, but in reality this is impossible because the present moment instantly becomes the past. Even before you can finish saying I’m in the present moment, it’s already in the past. Watching the unfolding of time as each moment occurs is key if one is to not get caught up in the “monkey mind” which is a mind that’s constantly in the past or future. This “monkey mind” is the state that most of humanity is stuck in. It’s the energy that most emit out, this is one reason it’s so difficult to go beyond it. People see things through this mind and because of ignorance are blocked from realizing this. Until this veil of ignorance is removed the “monkey mind” remains in control. The “monkey mind” isn’t in place as something that’s wrong, but it does deter one’s true essence from arising and thus it blocks one from reaching their full potential.

The unfolding of time is something one needs to become more aware of if the mind is to slow down. This slowing down can occur if there’s something in place to allow it, although this won’t just happen on its own, but there’s also nothing one can do to make it happen so it would seem as though one is stuck between a rock and a hard place. This is all part of the”monkey mind” it’s in place to make life chaotic just like a monkey, hence the name. One thing I’ve noticed that allows for the “monkey mind” to be tamed somewhat is to be aware of it in relation to time. Time is one of the “monkey mind” key elements so instead of using time in the conventional way, just watch how each moment unfolds. This unfolding is constant and when it’s seen the mind naturally slows, and this is because time is no longer being used as the key that lets the monkey out of its cage.

Turning Away From I

Needing to turn in to an object happens because it’s one’s I that makes this so. Only turning away from this clinging will result in freedom and this is because it’s the turning away that provides the letting go.

When one is caught turning into an object of desire and it takes hold of all your attention, the only way to break free of this is to have awareness you’re caught. Once this occurs turning away from the object is the only way the hold will be broken. The object doesn’t matter in the sense in can be anything from a thing, a place, people or even yourself, but what does matter is seeing whatever it is that’s making you turn into it. There are so many different objects used that one will have to decipher for themselves what holds them. The turning into is different only because of the object used, but the turning away is the same as long as there isn’t substitutions. Many people stop smoking only to use food and eventually go back to turning into using cigarettes. This is just one example, substitution is rampant in our society and this keeps one locked into turning in and remaining on the merry go round of using objects.

Turning away from whatever it is that grips you is where you will experience true freedom. Why this is difficult for most people to truly see is because I is not seen as the core of the turning and this is why substitutions are so prevalent. If the turning in results in using drugs or alcohol as its object, when a program is used to stop using them, unless one turns away from I drugs and alcohol will most likely be used again. Why this is so is because the program is used to turn in also and although one stops using drugs and alcohol, the program is used as substituting one object for another and doesn’t provide true freedom. Only turning away will result in freedom and that’s because it’s the turning away that provides it. This is why the object doesn’t matter, because it’s one’s I that makes one turn in and it’s only in turning away from I that one will be free.

A Conditioned Mind Notices

See how a mind agitation arises from your conditioning, it’s not there because you were born that way or that’s just the way you are, it’s there strictly because it’s the way you’ve been conditioned.

It’s very important to get in touch with the conditioning of why one does what they do, but to go beyond this conditioning to get to a deeper Universal Truth which leads to a greater understanding of humanity and the nature of all things, one’s mind must settle to the point where the conditioning is not just noticed, but it also loses its control. If this is just noticed, but still holds you in its grip, the mind will remain in a state of agitation constantly needing the present moment to be different. This is regardless of what’s happening because wanting the moment different doesn’t change what’s happening. See how this agitation arises strictly from one’s conditioning. It’s not there because that’s just the way you are or you were born that way, it’s there because it’s the way you’ve been conditioned.

To go beyond the conditioning that has so much control over you, there has to be a moment of space created that stops the incessant thoughts which keeps the mind spinning in circles. One thought then another and another and another, it doesn’t stop until there’s awareness this is happening. Sit with some method of meditation strictly for the purpose of developing discipline and watch this discipline settle the mind. This is how it happened for me, I sat and lo and behold my mind begin to settle and I started noticing the conditioning and just how much control it had over me. This is the core of what was revealed to me and it’s the core of my writings. The more space there is between one’s thoughts the more discipline there is to notice the conditioning and when it’s noticed, one can then do what’s necessary to go beyond it and watch its control fall away.

Are Our Conclusions Real?

The Conditioned Mind is a story making machine and all the stories eventually come to a conclusion. However most of these conclusions are unconsciously created to fit into a story of fulfilling some selfish desire.

The conclusions the mind conjures up need to be investigated so one can tell if they’re real or not and by real I mean beneficial to one’s life. So many people come to the conclusion about certain things without looking if those conclusions are producing results that are beneficial. Many conclusions are accepted that benefit only oneself and it doesn’t go much further than that. Even if you’re running around saving the world, the first thing is, who says the world needs saving and also is the running around helping others done more for your own well being. It’s very difficult to get in touch with real conclusions that arise from the space of stillness as opposed to the ones that are made up to satisfy some story.

Most of life’s conclusions are created to fit nicely into a story for one’s owns benefit. Very few people are truly selfless, not because that don’t want to be, but by not understanding the dynamics of the Conditioned Mind there’s no way one can be. Every story has a conclusion, it’s just part of the story, so there are two ways to see if your conclusions are real; the first would be to not create a story, this way a conclusion isn’t needed, and the second is to understand energy is not created or destroyed, it’s only transformed. Although this form that’s being occupied will one day come to the conclusion of not functioning in its current state anymore, its energy goes on and if you want to see if this conclusion is real, sit and be still and you will see no conclusion is real and neither is one’s story.

Primary Experiences

Every experience starts out as a primary one, that is until one needs to add a story to it because the ability not to isn’t in place. Until it is, one’s primary experience will always be secondary to their story.

Life will always be as it is, but how that’s experienced will be to the level of the experience remaining primary as opposed to needing to add to it. Adding to what arises is what most people do, anything that arises is primary, but usually one adds to it to create a life of how they think it should be. When what’s primary is liked and is pleasurable there will be much effort made to make it last for as long as possible, even if it’s not the healthiest choice. And if what’s primary is disliked and is deemed unpleasurable, there will be much more effort made to push it away, until something that’s thought to be more pleasurable comes along. Check this to see if this isn’t so in your life.

Everything that arises is always primary, it’s what’s there before it’s labeled and added to. The further away one gets from what’s primary the more a pattern is developed to not be with what’s primary. This is why it’s so hard to sit and be still because there aren’t many primary experiences that one can fall back on; they’re there, but they’re pushed away and replaced with a story. Everything is primary before it becomes a story, but unless the mind is settled a story will have to be added. The key to this is learning to see the primary arising and just being with it, this way nothing is added and whatever it is that arose will now become a primary experience, and when this occurs no story will need to be added.

Category of Emotions

Emotions arise when there’s attachment to something that triggers them. At the root of this is I and as long as I is in control, the roller coaster of emotions will continue to take you for a ride.

Emotions aren’t something that exist by themselves, they’re a movement or reaction to something that occurs. There are many different emotions that arises and they can be put into an associated category to best get a handle on them when they arise. Emotions arise when there’s an attachment to something that occurs, nothing inherently makes an emotion arise, there has to be a personal association with something. Emotions only arise as one assigns meaning to something. There isn’t much emotion when you hear of a stranger dying, but attach the word Mother, Father, sister, brother, and so on to it and just watch the emotional onslaught.

Emotions don’t exist until one attaches I to something, this is what gives the emotion life and allows it to arise. Example: grief is only a word until one attaches “I have loss” to it, then look out because depending on how deeply I is attached to the loss, determines the level of grief. Same thing with joy, something happens and now I attaches pleasure to it and there in lies the emotion of joy. Here are just some emotions that can be categorized, fear, anger, sadness, joy, disgust, trust, happiness, to name a few, watch for yourself when these arise and see where their root is from. With awareness of this you should be able to get a better grip on just how the Conditioned Mind keeps you under its control by weighing you down with deeply embedded emotions as an anchor.

Nothing is Unacceptable

Regardless of what happens in life, if it’s not accepted as it is it will cause suffering. Even if what’s occurring initially causes suffering, the suffering will deepen if it’s unaccepted.

Everything has its place in life regardless it’s considered right, wrong, liked or disliked and this is because it’s what’s there, so to say this shouldn’t be happening leads to suffering because the moment isn’t accepted as it is. But this isn’t to say everything that happens is suppose to happen, but what does happens is what’s there and there’s no changing it. The results of what happens can be changed, but not the initial results, that is unless one is coming from a different place than what was previously known. This may change the initial results, but they are still the results of what’s occurring now. So much energy is wasted on not accepting what has occurred, and why it’s wasted energy is because the unchangeable is trying to be changed.

When you get to a place where something labeled good, bad, or indifferent is accepted, in this place is one’s freedom. Nothing should be unaccepted, I know this is difficult to imagine and this isn’t to say not take action to change things, but what has occurred still has be accepted so the action to change purely comes from love and compassion and not from the ego. Even someone who is totally unconscious and causes much harm to others has to be accepted because it’s the conditioning in place that makes one do what they do; we are still accountable for our actions. This you do for yourself because to not accept is to suffer. Use this example; If you hit a slice in golf, disliking that you hit a slice doesn’t change that fact, accept it, learn from it, move on and just maybe your next tee shot won’t be a slice, but even if it is, accept it and move on. Nothing is unacceptable unless it’s made so by you.

Losing is Winning

Don’t allow anyone to take you from your place of peace. Let them think they’ve gotten the better of you and won, as egos go this satisfaction will be short lived before needing to win again, but a solid foundation of peace can last a lifetime.

We as humans are all created equal, it’s not that some have weaker minds than others, but some are more aware of themselves and this makes it seem that some have strengths that others don’t possess. The more unaware one is of themselves, the more one will be dragged around by the occurrences that happen in life. This awareness is what one awakens to, not so much the great secrets of the Universe, but more so what pulls one from their place of peace. I would say in my own case one area where I’ve become more aware is in not allowing other people’s actions to pull me from my place of peace. At times my initial reaction is to get annoyed, but it’s usually realized very quickly that most people know not what they do so to allow their actions to control me is on me. Because all humans come into the world basically the same (unconditioned) it’s the level of conditioning that makes one appear weak or strong, but one is just more aware of their conditioning than another person.

Let the other person think they’ve won, that they’ve gotten the better of you, except to the ego it means nothing; this is how unconscious energy is squashed. This doesn’t change the other person, but it does change you. It stops all the stories associated with the situation which festers as unconsciousness; I’m going to say this to them, or they are wrong, or don’t they know who I am, this is all the nonsense of the Conditioned Mind (ego) and it’s energy that nothing good comes from. So as I said, let the other person think they’ve won, but you will know in your heart who the true winner is because by remaining in your place of peace and not giving in to the Conditioned Mind nonsense, form is not in control. After all one can only be taken from their place of peace when it’s allowed and it only occurs when the ego is in control.

Stepping Outside the Norm

What is considered normal by society entraps most people to the idea of what others think normal is and unless this can be seen so one can go beyond it, there will be acceptance of someone else’s idea as the norm.

Stepping outside of what is considered the norm as far as thinking goes is a must if one is to go beyond the trap of the considered norm. You may ask why would a person want to go beyond what’s considered the norm and here’s why, the so called norm is based in form and to be attached to form causes suffering. It’s as simple as that, with the normal attachment to the senses (form), life will still occur, it just won’t be experienced as fully as it can be. There will still be experiences, how can there not be with one being alive, but they will be dictated by form and there’ll be much nonsense associated with them. The norm entraps one to what others think is considered normal and unless one can see this to go beyond it, there will be acceptance of someone else’s idea as your own. It’s an easy trap to get snared in because the bait is so enticing.

This plays right into the reward system that is considered the norm. Who does anything that doesn’t have the reward of pleasure associated with it? This can be applied to just about anybody and anything. When was the last time you purposely did something that you knew was going to be unpleasant with no reward attached to it. This is pivotal in understanding the process of the Conditioned Mind because until you can just be with whatever arises, without judging it or associating it with pleasure, the norm syndrome will be what dictates the life you’re living and it will probably be someone else’s idea of what is considered the norm.

Leave the Past in the Past

If you keep bringing the past into the present, the past will be where you live your life. Why this is unfortunate is because all of one’s emotional pain of the past will also be carried into the present.

The amount of times that one relives something that causes emotional pain is purely mind boggling because it’s one’s own mind that does this and it probably happens hundreds maybe even thousands of times throughout one’s life. This is why most people suffer endlessly because what happened in the past is constantly brought into the present and although the body is in the present moment, the mind is constantly somewhere else. This is the constant state that most people live their life from and if nothing is done to change this, it will continue until existence in this form ends. This isn’t a philosophy or theory, nor is it something I made up, you need only look at this for yourself to see this truth. But If you don’t look at it, you will more likely remain stuck in the maze of your thoughts without a way out.

As a species we seem to have lost our way and it’s because looking at ourselves is not something that many people are willing to do. It’s so much easier to point the finger at someone else, but unfortunately when you point your finger at someone there are three pointing back at you; check this to see its truth 👉🏼 You can ignore this and keep your head in the sand in the hopes everything will work out or you can take control of your life, at least to some extent and stop attaching to the thoughts that cause your own suffering. After all it’s the same thoughts that are constantly arising and if they’re not attached to, eventually they’ll stop and so will the repeated emotional suffering they cause.

Wanting's Lure

Don’t let the different consequences of wanting lull you into the sleep of unconsciousness because all wanting leads to bondage in one form or another regardless of what’s wanted.

If there is always something to want, it’s because you don’t think that you have and if you don’t think that you have, you will always think there is something to want. Wanting isn’t something that’s inherently bad, why one wants is where issues arise and this is only because where there is wanting, one thinks something is missing. What is wanted only matters to the degree in how the thing wanted effects your life. Wanting to drink alcohol and do drugs have consequences much different then wanting to go to a program to stop using those things, but the wanting’s core is the same and that’s what needs to be looked at. Don’t let the different consequences of wanting lull you into the sleep of unconsciousness because all wanting leads to bondage in one form or another and as stated this includes all wanting.

You might say that’s not true, that wanting to better yourself is a good thing, but that would mean you need things to be different to accept yourself. Accepting life exactly how it is is the only place one will experience the peace of not wanting things different. I’m not saying don’t better yourself, but if it’s at the expense of your peace of mind, what good is it. I often say go for the gold, just understand even if it’s attained you will find it’s not providing the benefits you thought it would; shortly afterwards another want will arise. Investigate this and see how wanting causes needing, needing causes bondage, and bondage causes suffering. Break free from wanting and inevitably you just may stop suffering.

The Source Energy of Creation

Separation from oneself occurs when the source energy of creation is made into a story because it then becomes my story and there’s no connection when one comes from a place to self serve.

The are so many names for the source energy of creation and to me what’s important is what’s produced by connecting with it. It’s not a concern of mine what it’s called because words diminish it and put it in a so called box. This source energy is what led me from my self destructive behavior and it continues to lead me even when my I takes hold of some self serving behavior. This is why we’re our own obstacle because it all has to do with the energy of our connection to the present moment and very few live there. The more when can be present and observe the stillness of the moment, the more chance there is to connect with the source energy of creation. This doesn’t take a belief in something to allow this to happen, it takes an awakened heart to see that a belief actually blocks the connection to the source energy of creation.

I’ve found it more beneficial not to limit myself with labeling things a certain way, it seems to allow the flow of energy to go in a certain direction, and although whatever the direction is I’m okay with it, connected to the source energy of creation is more of a benefit to all beings. There are many stories attached to about this and it blocks one from connecting to it. There’s only one source of the energy of creation and the proof is we are all created the same. There’s nothing to debate here because it’s the truth. The debate starts when the source energy of creation is made into a story because it then becomes my story and there’s no connection when one comes from a place to self serve.

The Blind Leading the Blind

There’s a pull that occurs in most lives that keeps broken tools in place without investigating them. The issue with this is these tools are passed on to others so the blind are leading the blind.

If there are just unconscious actions and reactions in one’s daily decision making process without investigation, there will be many decisions made without knowing if they are truly beneficial. When these tools are passed on to others it equates to the blind leading the blind; very few people truly understand the Conditioned Mind. Without the discipline that provides some stillness, life becomes an unquestioned pull to follow the way that’s in place. To the Conditioned Mind there’s no need for questions because it has all the answers. Saying I’m not there yet is just crazy and it’s a created block that hampers the ability to truly live. If you’re not there yet, wherever there is, what do you think it will take to get there? And that’s if you’re truly interested in finding out why you’re not there. What amazes me is how people settle for a place just because it’s comfortable and someone else says it works. Using the saying I’m not there yet is just a way the Conditioned Mind (ego) remains in control.

To me it’s just mind boggling how a person remains with what they have in place and not even take into consideration there might be another way to see things, and what’s mind boggling about this is how the pull is held onto and keeps one in a self created prison that causes suffering. Life doesn’t cause suffering, the Conditioned Mind does and unless one is willing to sit and allow the mind to settle, the pull of the conditioning will remain in place and one will continue to use broken tools that cause suffering, and here’s the real issue with this, these tools are passed on to others and it’s as though the blind are leading the blind.

Give or Get Intentions

One’s intentions will be from the base energy to give or to get and this makes the world the way it is. So if you want the world different, simply have the intention to give and watch it change.

One’s intentions are a determining factor in the energy that is put out to the world. There are intentions to get, expecting something in return for one’s doings and there are intentions to give, expecting nothing whatsoever in return regardless of how much one gives. These are obviously very different in their base energy, but to give intentions don’t necessarily result in seeing the fruits of one’s labors, at least not by some. The intentions behind my daily writings and writing my book are strictly from the love in my heart to possibly help someone not go through the suffering I did for forty nine years, but there are some who see my intentions as something different. When it comes to intentions”To thine own self be true” is so important because it really doesn’t matter how anyone sees what you do. The Universe knows your intentions and that’s all that matters.

The world cannot fairly be your judge nor can an individual. “May he who is without sin cast the first stone” who is so pure that they can judge another and if your intention is to judge that’s not from the intention to give, it’s strictly to get. There are so many selfish people in our world who have no intention to ever give and it keeps the world the way it is, but if you truly have a heart with the intentions to give, there’s no way you can judge another because there’s nothing that you’re looking for in return. So when all you do is have the intentions to give and act accordingly, it’s the energy that’s being put out into the world and I assure you it will make a difference.

Changing Your Inner State

When love is the energy of one’s inner state, it emanates transforming energy out into the world. Many will pickup on this energy and in the process they will transform. This all occurs because love is the base of what one thinks about.

Feelings and actions are a result of our inner state and our inner state is very important when it comes to our thinking. Our inner state determines so much of what goes on in our life because it results in our thinking's base. Thinking from an inner state to self serve produces much different feelings and actions than an inner state of quietness or if you like, love. Grasping becomes the main action when one’s inner state is to self serve. I need, whatever one’s thinking makes that need to be becomes the constant energy of the self serving inner state. I need energy is what keeps greed, hate, envy, lust, jealousy, anger and whatnot in place and although the needs manifest differently for everyone, the common denominator is I need energy, which makes one’s own thinking believe the present moment needs to be different. Grasping has to follow when this occurs because it’s the energy in place.

When the inner state is one of quietness which manifest as love, the thinking naturally falls in line with the complete opposite of being selfishly self serving. It’s as if there’s no thought of you and the feelings and actions are geared towards benefitting others. Not in a way to try and convert others to a concept or belief, but coming from a place of compassion, kindness, understanding, and love. This loving energy is one’s connection to life itself and it’s this inner state that emanates transforming energy out into the world. Many will pickup on this energy and in the process they will transform. This all occurs because when one’s inner state is based in love, love is the result of what one thinks about.

Distractions of What Isn't

What is needs no story because it’s what’s here, but if life is preferred to be a certain way, where you’ll be living is in the preferred prison of what isn’t and that’s even if life is exactly how I prefers it.

To awaken is simple, let go of the things in you (your story) that are blocking you from being with life as it is. Here is a conversation from a post I commented on the other day, the original post said: Got Stress: you are arguing with what is. My response was this: The mind that tells you to do something is the same mind that questions why it was done. This is the stress of one’s own conditioned mind and this self created stress will be the constant in one’s life until it’s learned to be still in the moment of what is. There is life as it is made out to be, there is life as it is wished to be, and then there is life as it actually is. In what place are you spending your life? Someone responded: I prefer to spend my life in what I am able to make it, through everyday actions, such as having clean teeth, because I made an effort to brush them. What is, is mostly what I make it to be… My response: What is is life as it occurs, making it as it is wanted is a story that life has to be a certain way for one to be happy. And as stated when I prefers I suffers when things aren’t as wanted. What is is being with the good, bad, and ugly that’s occurs in life and not needing it to be different.

I posted this just to show how the story of I (I prefer) is a distraction that keeps one locked into their distractions and although life may be as it is wanted, one still isn’t free. Freedom has nothing to do with life being a preferred way. You will spend your entire life trying to make it this preferred way (a story) and whether this is realized or not, a story is a distracted block to the innate goodness of what arises from the moment of what is. What is needs no story because it’s what’s here and if you’re living anywhere else or if life is preferred to be a certain way, where you’ll be living is in the preferred prison of what isn’t and that’s even if life is exactly how I prefers it, clean teeth and all.

Believing What You Think

Don’t believe anything you think. A thought is only a thought and it’s not necessarily true, but unless one’s mind is settled enough to see this, the thought controls what happens next.

Nothing is a problem unless it’s made into one. Think of this simple yet profound sentence. Nothing no matter what, is right or wrong, good or bad, or liked or disliked, unless it’s labeled as so. Our life is controlled by our thoughts and most thoughts are based in a faulty foundation. The fault lies in the way the mind is conditioned. Here’s some of the ways the mind becomes conditioned and if you get quiet enough you will see this for yourself. The car in front is going to slow. I have to go food shopping, I’m tired, my allergies are horrible, I’m bored, yada, yada, yada. Although all of these start out as a single thought that isn’t where the fault lies, what happens next is where the fault lies; we believe the thought. We actually think the car in fronting us is going to slow, or that going food shopping is a problem. We believe our thoughts to be true and then we act accordingly. If the thought wasn’t labeled to be true, we would be able to see what was really going on and that would be the car in front of us really isn’t going to slow, we are just being controlled by an undisciplined Conditioned Mind.

Learn to watch the nonsense that’s believed to be true, there’s so much of it, it’s hard to grasp. I mentioned one time to a person about the way we poison ourselves with tobacco products and his response was, he enjoyed them. That is insanity, to enjoy poisoning yourself, but that is the lie of a Conditioned Mind. People enjoy all sorts of things that are harmful to themselves, this also includes behaviors that harm others which are easily justified. All I’m saying is watch the thoughts as they arise and learn how so many of them are based in lies to keep you in captivity to your Conditioned Mind (ego). By no means should you take my word for it, the next time a thought pops into your head, take a moment before you label it and really take notice if what you are thinking is true or if it is just a lie of the Conditioned Mind.

A Connected Heart

There’s a oneness with life that comes from a deep place in the heart, but it’s not something that any human activity can make happen, it’s a connection to the heart that comes from the Universe.

In my experience the love of my heart cannot expand on its own, it needs assistance from the Universe. Deepening a connection with the Universe deepens the love in our heart and this is what connects us to each other. If this connection to each other were to happen, there would be no more greed, hate, or war and we will fall over each other in love; it’s in this love for each other that the beauty of life is truly experienced. A summer sunset, a cool autumn breeze, the smell of the ocean, loving oneself and others, a connection to all humanity, these are experiences from the depth of one’s heart.

I don’t profess to know what love is, but I do understand how a connection to the Universe deepens my love. When I experience this, it leaves me speechless and because of love I have been speechless many times in my life. I’m using the word love to describe this, but to feel this connection, words don’t truly explain it. To watch in awe as I’m speaking to someone and as I explain what I went through, I see a sparkle of oneness in their eyes; to me this is our hearts connecting. There’s a oneness with life that comes from the heart and it’s not something that any human activity can make happen. Although it’s instilled in every individual because the heart is at the core of our human manifestation, one’s conditioning blocks the awareness of this. The connection to the heart is what was awakened in me and it’s what connects us all, even if there isn’t awareness of it. It’s everyone’s birth right to experience love, but it will only occur when the mind is settled enough to see the love in one’s own heart.

Empty Dreams

If you truly want to follow your dreams look down at your feet. Unless the mind settles and there’s awareness of this, life will never be truly lived because one will be caught in the fantasy of needing a dream.

I know in society many attach to the saying “Follow your dreams” but if this is looked at closely, it may be seen how this holds you in captivity to the thinking that the dream is needed for happiness. The issue with this is when you are following the urge of a so called dream, the reality of what’s happening right now just passes you by. This doesn’t mean you can’t have your dreams and go after them, just realize this, a dream is nothing but a fantasy and even if it materializes exactly in the way that it’s wanted and becomes a reality, the thinking the dream will make you happy, not the dream itself is the fantasy. This falls in line with the grass is greener on the other side, until it’s realized that grass also has to be mowed.

How many people chose the spouse they have, their job, the house they live in, having children, or whatever else one thought was needed, only to turn around and complain about it. You chose it because you thought it was your dream and yet when it manifested as a reality, it wasn’t long before it wasn’t as fulfilling as you thought it was going to be, or you were okay with certain aspects of it, but there was something else needed to complain about. If you truly want to follow your dream look down at your feet and realize good, bad, or indifferent you are your dream. Unless the mind settles and one becomes aware of this, life will never be truly lived because one will be caught up in needing the fantasy of following a dream.

Choosing Presence

Existence is naturally spiritual so choosing Presence allows for one to come home and although the mind will often wander, having a Presence direction will keep one from remaining lost.

All of life is a spiritual path and this is so even though a person may not be aware of it. When one does become aware of this, it doesn’t mean life becomes all that much different, but what does become different is the view of life and this makes all the difference in the world. If your stuck in the trance of unconsciousness it’s very difficult to see from the perspective of Presence, and without developing this one remains in the trance of unconsciousness. This is the trance of the world (form) it’s also the trance of suffering. It manifest in many ways this trance, but its base is in the form the world presents. I’m this, I’m that, buy this, use that, attain this, go here, go there, win this, learn that, and on and on. It’s the way of the world which is form and it’s the way of suffering because you’re held captive to what the world makes you think you need.

The only way to break this is to constantly choose Presence when you notice you’re in the trance of form. Since our existence is naturally spiritual, choosing Presence allows you to come home and although the mind will wander more often than not, with a practice in place to choose Presence, when it does wander it gives you a direction instead of being lost grasping for something that the world of form makes you believe you need to be home. Home is where the heart is and in choosing Presence that’s where one will live more often than not, that is as long as Presence is chosen.

Perception or Peace

Life happens, but not truly in the way one thinks it does and only when the mind settles will it be seen it’s not that important because what truly matters is not to be right, but to be at peace.

The other day I was talking to my brother about something that occurred about thirty years ago, I remember it vividly one way and my brother remembers it another way. It’s pretty amazing how the same occurrence is remembered so differently, with both of us insisting it occurred the way each of us remembers it. There is neither a right or wrong here, although my brother insist he’s right, this is just the way perception works. It wasn’t a significant occurrence so there was no reason to discuss it further, but the point is we both see it as it’s remembered and there’s no telling what really happened. It’s always one’s perception of what occurs that makes something a perceived truth, but it’s only a truth to the one who perceives it that way. Truth of something is very difficult to decipher because of perception, to me the important thing is to defuse the ego in needing to be right by saying “how important is it” this takes the egos energy away.

I could have argued with my brother it was the way I remember it, and to me it still is, but regardless if it was the way I saw it or the way he saw it, it really means nothing in the grand scheme of things because it adds no value whatsoever to life. Perception is one thing, attaching to it and making it a part of the story of who you are is where it’s taken to another level. Perception is there, but attaching to the idea that things are as they’re perceived is where one’s delusions gets reinforced. It’s not that things don’t happen in life, it’s just that they’re not truly in the way one thinks they are and only when the mind settles will it be seen it’s not that important because what truly matters is not to be right, but to be at peace.

To Be is Enough

The usefulness to the Universe is a direct result of how much one is in touch with their heart and although many people will be touched when this occurs, some will not no matter how loving you are.

You cannot be all things to all people, but you can be all things to yourself. For some, their conditioning is so deeply entrenched they may never change. This doesn’t mean they can’t change, it’s just very unlikely it will happen. I try and share mostly from my experience, this way even if it’s not agreed with, which does happen, there’s not much to be taken seriously. Experience is never right or wrong, it’s just how one perceives what happens and there’s no way everyone is going to see it the same way, so one shouldn’t even be concerned with what anyone else thinks. It’s not that I don’t take what others say seriously and just discount it, it’s just shouldn’t be taken seriously because even what I say I don’t take seriously. Everything passes in life so to me the important thing is to come from a place of love so I can touch my heart and the heart of others, but not every heart because not everyone is on the same frequency.

Love yourself so you can love others and than let it flow where it’s needed. Life isn’t a self help program to better oneself, it’s a process to allow the mind to settle so one can be used for the betterment of the entire Universe, not by being all things to all people, but by opening a channel to your heart to allow the flow of love out. This isn’t about trying to be anything as much as it’s learning to just be. When you can just be without trying to be anything, there’s a connection to your heart and to the hearts of others that no doing can produce. It’s not that there’s anything wrong with doing, but you can never do enough to be, so just be and that will be enough.

Investigating What Is

Not investigating the way life is lived leaves it up to chance that it’s being lived in the most beneficial of ways. Our mind is our greatest asset, yet it’s also the greatest block to truly living life to the fullest.

It’s a lot easier to go with the flow of the conventional way of thinking than to go against the grain because anyone who doesn’t agree with the conventional way is considered strange. But I ask you, how much of this conventional way of thinking is actually yours? Before one develops the coping mechanisms that are now in place, how much investigation is truly put into seeing if these mechanisms are beneficial. Not many people invest money, get married, have children, by a house, take a job, or do anything before doing some investigation, but how much investigation do you give to your behavior? This is what truly needs to be investigated if you ever want to understand your life.

Life isn’t magical for some and not others, life is life, pure and simple and it will not be lived to the fullest without doing the things that allow this. We can either cooperate with life and make it more beneficial or we can be controlled by a mind that doesn’t want you to investigate why you do what you do. If you are content with being on an up and down emotional roller coaster so be it, but I haven’t met one single person who at some point in their life hasn’t reached outside themselves for contentment. This non contentment is an agitation of the mind that few truly understand, not because they can’t, but because this agitation is not given the time needed to investigate it and find real answers, not the make believe ones that you are probably living your life by right now.

Life is so practical when it’s understood. If you practice living in the moment that you’re in, you will live your life more and more in this place of truly existence. But if you’re not practicing this than you will live in the past or the future and you will never be present for your given life. The most important thing you can do is investigate this, don’t take my word on this, investigate it for yourself and see that although the body is always in the present moment, it’s where your mind is that determines your life, and you only have to be honest with yourself to see where that is.

The Unlimited Mind

The mind sees things through the vastness of itself which exposes the magnificence of life, the brain on a the other hand limits itself by thinking knowledge is wisdom; not that knowledge is a bad thing, but it doesn’t set you free.

The brain is not the mind, although at times it does seem like they’re the same, they are as different as oil and vinegar, but there is a relationship between the two just like oil and vinegar that works together when used in a certain way. Harmony results when this certain way is discovered, not in the way intellect understands it, but from the vastness of a mind that’s connected with all minds. The brain on the other hand seems to limit itself by making things up. The mind sees things through the vastness of itself and sees the beauty of life, the brain limits itself by thinking knowledge is wisdom. Not that knowledge is a bad thing, but knowing how a car is built and what it takes to drive one has nothing to do with actually driving it, all the knowledge about the car doesn’t assist one bit in learning how to drive it.

The brain for the most part leads one to bondage because of the way it attaches to thinking, which is humanity’s true addiction. With the mind, there’s nothing there to attach to so there’s no bondage; there can’t be if there’s nothing to grasp. The mind encompasses all that is, was, and will ever be. It can’t be defined, unlike the brain which wants to put everything in a box under the label of certain definitions. The brain needs things to be labeled, the mind needs no such labels and thus without a label, one experiences the peace that passes all understand. Look to see if this is true and if you can see the truth in this, you’ll be set free because it’s what’s truly there as opposed to what you think is there.

No Pushing Please

The tool of pushing away that’s developed to cope with life is why one’s life is seemingly full of problems, but whatever arises doesn’t cause the problems, it’s the pushing away that does.

Nothing needs to be dismissed for one to be free. Freedom can not be found by pushing anything away. Pushing something away would be likened to getting rid of something, but truly getting rid of something will only happen when it’s dealt with because if not it will never go away. When it’s dealt with it won’t have to be pushed away because it will naturally fall away. This is how one has to approach each moment if freedom is to be had. The way we develop tools to cope with things as they arise is why there’s problems, whatever it is that arises doesn’t truly cause the problem. Granted it may be something that really hurts and has no benefit whatsoever, like the death of a loved one, but if it’s not dealt with in a way that it’s not dismissed or a made up story is used, the energy of the situation will get stored and remain hidden until it’s time to rise up again. This is why the same thoughts are repeated over and over without really giving them much thought, they have to because of the trace energy in place.

Awareness that this is happening can allow you to be with what arises and not want it different. After all that’s the only reason a person pushes something away because it’s not wanted. But you see this pushing is the same energy as grasping it’s just being used differently. Pushing is attachment to not wanting it and grasping is attachment to wanting it, different action, but the same attachment. This is very subtle to see and it will only be noticed when one is with the moment as it arises and doesn’t want life to be different. So regardless if it’s labeled good or bad, it’s all the same attachment, and the only the thing the applied label does is determine if one reaches for something or pushes it away.

Conditioned Changes

Everyone has the choice whether to change or stay the same, but it’s only those who truly know it’s their conditioning that needs to be changed that have this choice.

This morning I took a shower and when I got out, the mirror was foggy from the steam, I took out the blow dryer and cleared up the mirror. What also became clear was my awareness of how everything that happens in life is a result of conditions being a certain way and the only way it will change is when the conditioning changes. This is a fact, it doesn’t take a belief for this to occur; get a pot of water to 212 degrees and it will boil. All things in life have certain operating properties and when conditions are in line with those properties, it’s natural course of action will take place. It’s what happens with every living thing that begins life, whether humans, animals, plants, clouds, stars and so on, nothing truly happens independently on its own, it’s all caused by something else.

In the case of behavior it’s the same way, no one acts a certain way just because, there is always the root cause behind every action and unless this root is exposed, nothing can change; it’s not that it won’t change, it can’t. This is why there’s suffering in the world, nothing inherently makes you suffer, only the mind does and only because of the way it’s conditioned. When something happens many times people see it differently so it affects them differently, but there are some things that are the same no matter what. If there’s no oxygen you die, if the heart stops, same result, this happens because conditions make it so. So everyone has the choice whether to change or stay the same, but only those who truly know it’s the conditioning that needs to be changed have this choice.

Inner Presence

If the noise in the head is the control point of one’s life, it won’t stop because there’s a belief in some unforeseen power. Beliefs hinder the mind’s settling because they create the blocks to one’s inner presence.

If one is making the noise in the head the control point of life, it doesn’t matter much what’s going on, it’s going to be difficult to be in a place of peace. It’s such a noisy world and what makes it so is most people are looking for an answer out there when the answer is within. So what the noise actually is and how it’s created is by one not being aware they already have their answers, but with a mind that’s conditioned to want answers, you have to constantly look for them, hence the noise. This is how the agitation of a Conditioned Mind is formed and how it blocks awareness to our inner presence. It’s the noise created, because if one knew they had the answers the need to look for them would be non existent and so would the noise.

When you come to the place where you understand this, the noise will lessen and one’s inner presence will be experienced. If this isn’t understood, the noise will never stop, this is why it’s so important to understand this now. Why wait to be at peace later when you can be at peace right now. It’s not like the noise is needed to live life, it’s only there because one is unconscious of it. Everyone has the ability to consciously allow for the removal of the noise in the head, if practiced properly. It’s just not something that’s going to happen on its owns, but isn’t it beautiful that peace is in your own hands and it’s totally up to each individual how much peace is brought into their life. A little practice equates to a little peace. This is a direct exertion of one’s free will. A belief in some unforeseen power won’t make this happen, it’s up to the individual to do what’s necessary to stop the noise. As one practices the nose subsides and what’s left is an inner presence. If you’re waiting for anything else, you’ll be waiting a very long time and it’ll probably not happen in this lifetime.

Contagious Energy

The energy that love emits has more of an impact than the energy of hate and although you may love, others around you may not, but their energy will at least be neutralized because that’s just the way love rolls.

All energy is contagious regardless of what its base is. You can’t have a riot with one person so the energy that’s given to that situation, if it’s not attached to by someone else, it will just dissipate and the riot will never occur. So it is also with love, when one’s energy comes from a place of love, it’s contagious also, but it’s more powerful than the energy of hate and because of loves lasting effects the consequences are much different. This is why it’s so important to be the instrument of love in a world where many are instruments to self serve. Loving energy is contagious and if one isn’t making up a story of a problem it’s impossible to have one, so when we’re together if I don’t have a story you won’t either and love will be the energy of that moment.

The energy that love emits is more reaching than the energy of hate and although you may love, others around you may not, but their energy will at least be neutralized because that’s how love works. You will defuse situations just by your energy being based in love, you don’t need to do anything. If someone gossips, don’t participate, when someone cuts you off on the road, just be with it and let it go. If a person tends to be angry don’t feed their anger. By doing this it doesn’t mean others will change, but at least for the moment, loves energy will be in control and the more this is done, the more contagious loves energy will become.

Three Ways to Let Go

If you don’t have the tools in place that allow you to truly let go, life will seem as though it’s personal and in the process you will remain attached to using the tools that cause you to suffer.

There are many ways to let go of something, here are three that I’ve found useful and although I is at the root of all attachment, we can use these three ways that may make letting go a little easier. Not labeling is one way to not attach and let go. The base of this way is understanding the impermanence of all things and how this applies regardless of what arises. Whatever arises won’t last including life itself, so when one sees this, it makes it easy to let go because there’s the understanding there’s nothing to truly hold onto.

Another way that one can practice letting go is by not wishing for things to be different, this is used to let go of control. This not wishing way can also be used to not attach to what arises and although the wording may be different, non attachment and letting go are essentially one in the same. If you don’t attach to something it never has you in its grip and if you let go of something it relinquishes its grip.

So now this leaves the third way and although it’s last it’s certainly not least. This one is the no self identity way which allows one to see the self that truly exists, not the one made up by the Conditioned Mind. To understand this one must see the emptiness in holding on their created identity. It’s not that the self doesn’t exist, it just doesn’t exist in the way that one’s conditioned to see it. This is the self that’s has existed throughout one’s life regardless of what happened.

Life doesn’t happen to you, it’s not personal it just happens, the false self is what makes it about you and until this seen, suffering will remain. You don’t have to use all three of these tools to let go, one will be enough, you don’t even have to use one if you choose not to, but understand if you don’t the tools in place that allow you to truly let go, you will make life personal and in the process you will keep using the tools that cause you to suffer.

Karmic Results

Life is simply a process and the results that manifest in one’s life are a direct result of the support given to their process. The seeds that you plant are the seeds that will grow, there’s no way around this.

What you cultivate is what will be the karmic results in your life. Cultivating tools of greed, hate, and delusion will produce those karmic results as will cultivating tools that result in kindness, compassion, and love. This is a Universal Law and although the results aren’t always seen by others or right away, eventually the individual will experience the karmic results of their actions. One cannot hate without hate being returned, as one cannot love without love being returned. Life is simply a process and the results that manifest in one’s life are a direct result of the support that is given to their process. It really can’t be any other way, the seeds that you plant are the seed that will grow, there’s no way around this.

For many years I cultivated self serving tools and my actions were strictly from that base, it’s no surprise when looking back at my life, all I see is chaos and confusion. How could it not be? Today it’s much different because the tools cultivated aren’t to self serve. I’m not a believer of “if you conceive it you can achieve it” my experience has been in stillness the Universe decides what will be done. There’s so much more peace in this for me, I already had life exactly how I wanted it and I was miserable. So for me the tools that result in peace are what I cultivate with the karmic results being of peace, and minus the story of needing anything else, peace is all I was looking for.

No True Struggle

The only time one struggles with life is when it’s made to be a struggle. This only occurs when the Conditioned Mind is in control. The mind will settle when the practice of letting go is developed.

Our struggles are neither with life nor with the people in it, so who does that leave one one with, but themselves; this is who the struggle is always with. I’m not saying that some of the things that happen are easy to accept, but the struggle is still within oneself. Sometimes it just doesn’t seem like life is fair, that it shouldn’t be so difficult, but again this struggle is only because of oneself, not because of life. The perceptions of how things are is what causes one to struggle, life is never the struggle, what goes on between one’s ears is where any so called struggles manifest. So there’s a need to allow the mind to be present so it can settle down and focus on what is actually occurring instead of creating a struggle.

It can seem at times as if there’s one thing after another, but there really isn’t, it’s just the Conditioned Mind making up a story. Each moment is independent of itself so it has nothing to do with any other moment unless it’s made so. When this is understood, tools can be developed so this happens less and less. Peace is directly linked to how much control your conditioning has over you, if there wasn’t conditioning you wouldn’t be controlled and there would be total peace. So for me this is my path and I must learn to stay on it and head in the direction of peace. It’s already there, but I need to learn not to allow my Conditioned Mind to block it from my view. The more my view is in the present moment, the more peace there is because the view to peace isn’t being blocked. So although at times it seems as if life is a struggle, the only reason this is so is because It’s allowed to be. It’s up to me to change the conditioning that blocks me from understanding I am already at peace and the key to this is to understand that life really isn’t the struggle that my Conditioned Mind makes it out to be.

A Quiet Mind Understanding

When a mind agitation arises, if it’s to be quieted the cause of why the agitation arose needs to be identified. A mind that’s agitated can’t do this, so it needs to settle if there’s to be quiet.

When it’s understood the so called problems in life are created by your own mind, it’ll also be understood the mind that creates these problems can’t solve them; simply put, a broken mind can’t fix itself. An example would be a person who uses food as a coping mechanism, at first it seems as though it provides the sought after relief, but as time goes by it affects life in a way that it no longer provides relief, it actually becomes the reason why relief is sought. This doesn’t stop the person from using food as a solution even though there are dire consequences; insanity at it’s finest. Food can be substituted with anything, what is used doesn’t really matter, how you get stuck in the agitations of the mind is the point of this.

It’s the Conditioned Mind that keeps a person stuck trying to use the same mind to create and solve problems. I did this for years and today it’s not this way. It’s not that I have a different mind, there’s a different base to process information, so in a sense it is different with the difference being, there’s a lot more quietness instead of the constant agitations. What quietness allows is being in the present moment, living and accepting what life gives me as opposed to being agitated about it. This is the way it has to be if there’s going to be peace in one’s life.

Life may seem to be the way one wants it at times, but it will never stay that way, so the key is to find peace when its not the way you think it should be; doing this without reaching for something for comfort is essential. Understanding that your own mind is creating this nonsense is the first step in establishing a true place of peace. When the origin of the mind agitations are known they can then be eliminated, it will take practice, but the choice is to remain in a mind made agitated state. So it’s vital to understand your own mind if there’s to ever be freedom from the tantalizing agitations. After all it’s not the great secrets of the Universe that are going to bring you peace, peace will only occur with the understanding of why you think in a way that doesn’t allow peace.

Comparative Thinking

The things occurring right now mean very little because nothing inherently causes suffering, but comparing them to a time when life was considered better than it is now is where all suffering arises from.

This article is to expand on yesterday’s post a little more deeply because this subject is so important in the understanding of one’s conditioning. Here’s why wanting things different causes suffering because the moment is being compared to a time when things were the way one thought they should them. The things occurring mean little because nothing inherently causes suffering, but comparing them to a time when life was considered better than it is now is where all suffering arises from. Here are some of the ways that comparative thinking patterns control life, at least for me. Driving home from work during the week there’s usually heavy traffic, I think of a time when there’s wasn’t any traffic and that’s how I want it when there’s traffic. When my wife is in a bad mood, I want her to be in some previous mood when she was more loving. How about when I order a dessert that brought me so much satisfaction last time I had it, I’m thinking of that time, but the dessert this time is just not the same. Here’s one I think everyone goes through, when someone dies I compare that to when they were alive and alive is how I want them.

So much comparing leads to so much suffering. These are but a few, finding you own comparative thinking patterns will take awareness they exist. If this isn’t seen they will remain in control and this control will go on all day; from the very moment one begins their day. The alarm clock goes off and most people instantly think of a time when they could remain a sleep and that’s only the beginning. Maybe it’s chilly in the room and one thinks of a time when the room was warm and that’s how they would prefer it. Please take this serious because this can change the way life is viewed, but that’s only if one thinks they need their view of life to be different, and that’s only if one is comparing their life now to a time when it was considered to be better.

Comparisons Separate

God can be likened to a made up story that arises because one compares life with and without this storied God and because of the way one is conditioned, it’s believed that life would be better with the made up story.

When I compare me to you it instantly separates us, and even when I compare me to me this causes the same separation. There is no you and me unless I compare us just as there isn’t an old me and a new me. Granted nine years ago my thinking shifted dramatically, but I was and will always be the same me. And this is how we are when there isn’t a comparison formed from the Conditioned Mind. Mostly everything that one’s does is a comparison, God is used in this way. God is but a story made up because one compares life with this storied God and without it and because of one’s conditioning one is made to believe by their own mind that life is be better with this story.

Instead of being with the suchness of your life, there’s’ always a comparison. Comparing the thinking of years ago to now, comparing ourselves to others, comparing situations of how it is and how it’s wanted, comparing the over weight me and skinnier me, comparing the younger me to the me of today, comparing the world way back when to the way it is now, comparing my beliefs to your beliefs, my God to your God, and so it goes on and on. You see, there’s truly nothing to compare to, but this comparing is so subtle that most people don’t even realize it’s being done. If some discipline isn’t developed so the mind settles to see the suchness of life, the story of comparisons will continue all the way up until the day when it’s time for one to go the next realm, only one will be comparing it to this realm.

Distracted From the Moment

Peace can only be had in the present moment and it will only occur when one isn’t being distracted and using things that keeps them from the awareness of the moment occurring right now.

The reason why it’s so difficult to stay in the present moment is because of all the distractions that we have been conditioned to use which are reinforced daily. Most are used mainly for the fulfillment of pleasure, but others are also used for a variety of reasons. What they all have in common is they’re used as a distraction to keep one from the awareness of the present moment. These distraction range from, food, social media, music, sex, the spiritual path, and many other things. There’s nothing inherently wrong with any of these, but when they’re used as a distraction from what’s occurring right now, they become a hinderance to living life in the most beneficial of ways. I know we all get caught up in many of these distractions, but regardless of what the distractions manifest as, its core and why it arises is the same; the mind has no idea how to just be.

These distractions become a hinderance to one’s well being because it keeps you locked into the distractions grip and if you’re not living in the moment, your living in the delusion of the past and future; it’s a delusion because it’s not what’s occurring right now. I lived this way for forty nine years and it’s no wonder there wasn’t much harmony in my life; I was constantly distracted looking for whatever it was I using to try and quiet this distraction. Peace can only be had in the present moment and it will only occur when one isn’t distracted from the moment occurring right now. Reach for and use anything you want, just understand there will always be a need for the next thing to reach for because that’s just the way our conditioned distractions work.

Exposing the Lie of I

Most people get sidetracked by the lie of I and this is why they don’t realize the prison cell they’re in isn’t locked. When the focus is on the thing that one adheres to, it keeps one in prison.

I is a liar. It makes you believe all kinds of things that just aren’t true. Case in point, are you the name that you were given? Let’s say your given name was different, is that who you would now be? If my name was John instead of Michael I would be a form with an identity of John instead of Michael and then my I would think of itself as John. This is just what I does, it lies, but the reality of any life is everything changes, there really isn’t anything to adhere to and anything that one does adhere to will cause suffering. This adherence to whatever it is one is stuck to becomes the prison with I as the prison guard.

To break free from this prison, one doesn’t need to let go of what they’re adhering to, one needs to only let go of I. You see, the prison cell is always open, the only thing keeping you in prison is the prison guard of I. Most people get sidetracked by the lie of I and this is why they don’t realize their prison cell isn’t locked. When the focus is on the thing that one adheres to, it keeps one in prison. Go beyond the thing being adhered to and see the true adherence is to I, when this is seen I can be let go of. This is when one will experience true freedom because it will be seen I is no longer guarding the prison cell and the door to the cell is open.

Who Struggles But I

Attachment to I makes life delusional and it’s at the core of why one struggles with life, but the struggle isn’t truly with life, it’s with I. There wouldn’t be a struggle if one didn’t attach to I and create a delusional identity.

Life is never the reason why we have struggles, it’s never personal, it just is, but it’s made personal when we attach to I. If there wasn’t this attachment to I, there would never be a struggle. It’s this way with all of life, at least this has been my experience. Life is always happening, but it’s the I attachment that makes it a struggle. The struggle is never because of what happens, it’s always because of I attaching to what happens. Look at this for yourself, can there be a struggle without I? When life is considered a struggle, who is struggling? It’s impossible to struggle without I, so if there isn’t an association with I and I isn’t attached to, what are you left with?

This isn’t as complicated as it my seem, it’s only the attachment to I that’s blocks one from their true self. It’s not that I doesn’t exist, it’s just not in the way it’s perceived. If you were punched by someone it’s felt, but the question is, who feels it? I do, but without I, no one is there to feel. So it’s the I identity that makes us attach to the struggles that cause of our inner turmoil. When the mind becomes still enough to see this, what happens is you stop attaching to I. The disassociation with I is at the core of one’s peace. As long as you are alive you exist, but you don’t have to associate your identity with I, this in turn alleviates the delusion of struggling. After all, who is it that struggles? I do, but without the association to I the struggle would not be. Become very quiet and this will be understood, by who, not I, but by the still small voice within that’s always there; it’s just not heard because of how I is attached to and used to define yourself.

Operating Principles

When one isn’t being controlled by things from the outside, therein lies your freedom, but it isn’t freedom because life is the way that it’s wanted, there’s freedom because you’re with life the way that it is.

The operating principles that control your life makes your life what it is. It doesn’t make life what it is because life just is it never changes, but it makes YOUR life what it is and until the operating principles in place put you in harmony with life, there won’t be any and hence your life will be the way that it is because it’s the way you are making it. It’s actually a beautiful thing when one becomes aware of this because it puts your life in your hands; there’s nothing more that a person could want. When one isn’t being controlled by things from the outside, therein lies your freedom, but it isn’t freedom because life is the way that it’s wanted, there’s freedom because you’re with life with the way that it is.

What happens with the mind that has operating principles not based in love is it gets hijacked by its own conditioning and then you are held hostage by your own mind. I know this sounds crazy, but this is exactly what’s happens and it’s all because of the operating principles based to self serve in one’s life. When the operating principles in place are controlled by a me, me, me mind crazy is the norm or so it seems, but it’s only because of the operating principle. When the operating principles change the craziness subsides. So when you sit and see what the base of your actions are, you just may be able to change them. It will take some time though because of the conditioning in place, but the alternative is to remain the way that you are; being controlled by operating principles that hold you hostage.

Operating Principles

When one isn’t being controlled by things from the outside, therein lies your freedom, but it isn’t freedom because life is the way that it’s wanted, there’s freedom because you’re with life the way that it is.

The operating principles that control your life makes your life what it is. It doesn’t make life what it is because life just is it never changes, but it makes YOUR life what it is and until the operating principles in place put you in harmony with life, there won’t be any and hence your life will be the way that it is because it’s the way you are making it. It’s actually a beautiful thing when one becomes aware of this because it puts your life in your hands; there’s nothing more that a person could want. When one isn’t being controlled by things from the outside, therein lies your freedom, but it isn’t freedom because life is the way that it’s wanted, there’s freedom because you’re with life with the way that it is.

What happens with the mind that has operating principles not based in love is it gets hijacked by its own conditioning and then you are held hostage by your own mind. I know this sounds crazy, but this is exactly what’s happens and it’s all because of the operating principles based to self serve in one’s life. When the operating principles in place are controlled by a me, me, me mind crazy is the norm or so it seems, but it’s only because of the operating principle. When the operating principles change the craziness subsides. So when you sit and see what the base of your actions are, you just may be able to change them. It will take some time though because of the conditioning in place, but the alternative is to remain the way that you are; being controlled by operating principles that hold you hostage.

Our Heart of Love

Our human form is the vessel used to experience life so we should never deny our humanness, but non attachment to it is the key if one is to truly experience living from our heart of love.

When life begins, there aren’t any blocks developed to our heart of love. Slowly though as we age we develop these blocks to our heart of love by forming an identity of a human self. This is our vessel to experience life so we should never deny our humanness, but non attachment to it is key to truly experiencing our heart of love. The more thought that’s applied to our humanness, the less in touch we are with our true essence of love. So what exactly are these blocks and where do they originate from? It would be easy to say “that’s just the way I am” but no one is just the way they are, we become what we are influenced and conditioned to become. It’s very nice to say things like our true essence is to love, but with all the tragic behavior that goes on, it’s really difficult to see our true essence as anything but insanity.

Everyone goes around forcing their will on whomever they come in contact with and they call it love, but a heart of love never forces anything, it doesn’t need to. The conditioning to the identity of self goes very deep and why this is so is because it’s the foundation of most existences. It’s why people reach outside themselves for fulfillment; all to satisfy one’s self. This is the only block one will encounter to their heart of love and until there’s awareness of this, one will never truly understand their heart of love. I’m not saying people don’t love, but there’s a lot of selfish attachment to the way most people love and until the mind settles so one lives from the heart, the conditioned mind will remain in control and living from a heart of love will be fleeting at best. So sit and be still and you just may see how it’s only in the moment that your heart of love can be.

The Quest to Become

So much of life is unconsciously spent trying to become something that we already are, but this isn’t seen because the need to become something is so strong that it blocks one from seeing I Am.

It’s funny because people think I have answers, I really don’t have answers, mine or anyone else’s, but I do know how to write an article that poses questions so one can find their own answers. That’s all one can do is point others to look within. My entire life was spent trying to become something, I’m not really sure what that was, but I spent an awful lot of time doing it. I was always on the go becoming, doing things along the way that solidified this becoming, but as I stated I don’t really know what that was. It took me fifty years to find out I Am already what I wanted to become. It was a shift that allowed me to stop trying to become something and just be. No more chasing or searching and all because I Am was realized; this is the place of true freedom, at least for me. So much time was unconsciously spent becoming what I already am, but it wasn’t seen because the need to become something was blocking it from being seen.

The perfect example of this is a dog chasing its tail. The dog chasing its tail doesn’t realize it’s his own tail that he’s chasing. I wonder what would happen if he caught it, lol. I’m sure it would hurt, but would it hurt as much as constantly chasing something you are never going to catch? Going round and round, but not really getting anywhere. If the dog did catch it’s own tail, it would probably hurt, but at least it would realize what it was doing and it would probably stop doing it. In a way this is what happens when one awakens, they stop trying to become so they stop chasing their own tail. With most people there’s some pain associated with this stopping, as it is with the dog catching it’s own tail, but this is what makes one realize it’s their own tail that’s being chased. When this realization occurs the becoming stops, what then arises is one’s I Am and it’s in the I Am that one realizes they are already all that they can and will ever become.

Stirring the Pond

Do whatever you think you need to do, but any doing is actually an undoing because it keeps the mind in a state of agitation, and as long as one is stirring up the pond by doing, the view will never be clear.

It may be better if you did less in your life if what you are doing is stirring the pond; it’s only when the mud at the bottom is settled that the water is clear. So it is with the mind, when it gets stirred up, it becomes cloudy and it’s very difficult to see clearly what’s really happening. This stirring can be identified as what you think you need to make you complete; you see, when the pond is settled the water (mind) is clear. When the mind becomes agitated it becomes murky and all kinds of stories are created about what’s needed to make you complete. Reading another book may be used, another 12 step meeting, another person to help, losing another pound, more money, and on an on. So many things are used to stir up the pond (mind) and the truth is none of them are truly needed because you are complete as you will ever be right now. In the clarity of a settled mind is our completeness.

Stories are created to stir up the so called pond and it’s because of the conditioning that’s in place. Clarity will never be as long as one thinks there is something needed to do that will make one complete. Doing only keeps the water (mind) from settling and the more one does the less clear things are. Do whatever you think you need to do, but understand there will never be clarity until there’s no need to do anything. Be the light, be the instrument to spread love, be whatever you want, but this doing is actually an undoing because it keeps the mind in a state of agitation, and as long as one is stirring up the pond by doing, the view will never be clear.

Unguarded Thinking

The base of the thinking that one attaches to can be cultivated to be of love. There’s not much one can do about the first thought that pops in, but with practice discipline can be developed to watch one’s unguarded thinking.

There are as many different views of life as there are people in the world and no one view is entirely right or wrong. We each have a unique way of perceiving and interpreting life and the base of what is perceived and interpreted is where our differences come from. This is where we create our delusional separation from each other and this is when conflicts ensue, but the conflict isn’t truly with others it’s with our own thinking. If we all viewed life the same, from the base of love, it would be the base of our existence and there would never a conflict with anyone including ourselves. Our true essence is Universally based in love, but then comes each individual’s perception and interpretation, this is where the break down occurs because the mind isn’t taught the discipline to watch our unguarded thinking as we are growing up. Our thinking usually runs amok trying to satisfy pleasures and desires that are created by an undisciplined mind. Our unguarded thinking is the greatest block to loving ourselves and all beings.

Our unguarded thinking is why we become are our own worse enemy. If all we had was thinking based in love, conflicts with ourselves would be non existent and if we have no conflict with ourselves we wouldn’t have any conflict with others. No one can harm you as much as you can harm yourself, but when the mind settles and get quiets one becomes aware of this. Once a person becomes aware of their unguarded thinking, they stop being their own worse enemy. They can then begin to think of loving themselves the way the Universe intended, and in the process love all beings.

United We Change

When we get in touch with our inner place of peace, it’s beautiful because there’s an understanding that the gift of love of our existence which we are freely given, is the gift of love that we give.

Although we are individuals, our journey is not one of individuality. It’s a journey where we are all affected by what an individual does and we all have our part that we’re accountable for. Who we’re accountable to is not only ourselves, but to the entire Universe. No one causes our suffering more than our own hands, or our own mind. We need to understand just what we mean to each other if we are ever going to get along. When we get in touch with our inner place of peace, it’s beautiful because the gift of love that we’re given becomes the gift of love that we give. This is the essence of each individual journey and when this is understood we will live in harmony more and more with each other and we will know in our heart that our survival as individuals depends on our unity. Until this happens many individuals will continue to think they’re on an individual journey and will make decisions based on fulfilling an individual agenda.

This is a heart breaking truth of existence. Who can claim they’re an individual who isn’t dependent on someone for something? From the food we eat, to the clothes that we where, to every object we touch, it comes into our possession by someone else placing it there. We are so dependent on each other in the material realm that we lose sight of the base of our true connection and that is through our manifestation of Universal Love. This is the energy from where all life is formed. Not one person comes into existence any different. This is Universal truth, not for some, but for all. How can one think because they have an abundance of possessions that it makes them more important than someone else. This is very very sad, because it separates people, it doesn’t unite, and it’s the true cause of society issues. No society can function properly without total unity and the real sadness in this is we all have a part in making it this way, consciously or unconsciously. We cannot blame the sad state of world on anyone but ourselves, because not too many of us can cast the first stone. United we must become if we want change and that change has to start with the individual. Point all the fingers you want, but it will only be in our love for others that we will love ourselves. It will only be in the love for ourselves that we will have unity with our fellows and it will only be in our unity with our fellows that our world will change.

The Phenomenon of the Moment

The phenomenon of each moment is unique unto itself, it just doesn’t seem this way because one doesn’t truly hear the sounds of the moment, they just hear the noise of what’s going on between their ears.

Just be aware of what arises from the silence and how it just as quickly returns to the silence. Don’t label it as anything, just watch it arise and dissipate. Don’t attach to it, just watch, a sound arises now it’s there and then it sinks into the incoming moment. The same thing with a sensation, watch it arise, be with it and watch how it returns from whence it came. Imagine you are on the beach, just sitting listening to the sound of a wave arising from the silence, breaking on the shore and then it’s gone, over and over. Occasionally the sound of a seagull will arise as will people passing by and talking. The lifeguards blowing their whistles, the sound arises and returns to the silence. A helicopter passes by, sound after sound arising and returning from whence it came. These sounds are stored in our subconscious and given labels, breaking wave, seagull, talking, helicopter, whistle and so on, but they all arise from the silence of the phenomenon known as the moment. They can only arise from here.

These are what becomes our memories, but the moment when something arises will never happen again. Because we label everything it seems as though history repeats itself, but it doesn’t really, it only seems that way because of the attachment and label given to something; once a moment passes it’s gone forever. Why our behaviors are repeated over and over is because of attachment, but the phenomenon of the moment is always unique unto itself, it just doesn’t seem this way because one doesn’t truly hear the sounds of the moment, they just hear the noise of what’s going on between their ears.

Divided We Fall

United we stand, divided we fall, and although in America we are called the United States if it’s not seen that we are all part of the same race, the human one, it will be divided we stand, divided we fall.

Until it is seen by ALL races that there is only one race, the human one, nothing will change. There is much wrong with the world and at the core is the lack of love and respect for each other, regardless of race or gender for that matter. This is a very deep issue in our society and until people look at each other through the eyes of love, the ego will continue to cause us to be separated by our differences. The nonsense of the Conditioned Mind goes far deeper than the surface stuff of not standing for the USA National Anthem. Stand, kneel, sit, lay down if you want, but this disrespect shown is for yourself. It’s called the UNITED States, but where’s the unity in any protest? The very act of protesting keeps the separation in place, it divides it doesn’t unite and because of this, humanity will remain as it is because of the lack of love at its core.

This isn’t isolated as just being an American issue, it’s a humanity issue. The ego separates, love unites and until we see each other through the eyes of love and see we are all a part of one race, the human one, regardless of the protests, things will remain as they are because we will continue to do things that separate, not unite. There are so many ways to do things quietly that provides unity, but the more one draws attention on themselves, the more one’s controlling energy is from the ego. Nothing is helped by protesting because it’s showboating from the ego and not from the energy of love. Only in quietness does love arise and until this is seen neither America nor the world will ever be united.

Surface Concepts

When one can only see and attach to what’s on the surface, therein lies the root to all suffering. It’s in letting go of surface concepts that one will see there are many parts to the whole, this reveals the emptiness of all things.

When we stay on the surface level of existence, life becomes conceptual and although we all experience life in the human form, it is why it’s seen differently by everyone, except by those who don’t see it through a concept, this state is of emptiness which needs no concept, yet existence still is. Everything is a constellation of parts that make up the whole, so nothing is truly what a concept makes it out to be because it’s only seen and categorized as the whole. When one looks at a tree and applies the concept “tree” the surface parts the trunk, limbs, branches, and leaves meld into one and the true nature of the tree is lost. If you can see this with the tree, you can see it with everything, including yourself. Without a concept of you where is the you and that’s just the surface you I’m asking about, most don’t even think about what parts of you are on the inside.

There is much freedom in seeing this because it allows for the emptiness of all things to be revealed. And when one sees there’s nothing to hold on to no matter what, one is free. You give something that keeps track of time a concept that it’s a watch, there are so many parts to it, but which part is truly the watch. Concepts will keep you marred in ignorance because they will block out seeing the true nature of emptiness in all things, you will only see the whole. When this happens one can only see and attach to what’s on the surface and therein lies the root to all suffering. It’s in letting go of surface concepts that one will see there are many parts to the whole which when seen reveals the emptiness of all things.

Addicted to Thinking

Notice how much you think about yourself and you just may be able to settle in a place where your emotions aren’t in control and hopefully you’ll come to realize life isn’t really about you, you just think it is.

As long as one is alive life happens, actually life happens even if one isn’t alive there just isn’t awareness of it. So life isn’t really about what happens as much as it’s about how much one relates their thinking about what happens. This is where one’s conditioning steps in and determines the relation to what happens next. It can be of love, it can be of hate, but for most it teeters between the two to a large degree. Very few go to the extreme of either one of these emotions so the results for most humans are balanced. When these emotions do hit an extreme level the results are very noticeable and this is all contingent how much one is conditioned to think about themselves, this thinking is what manifest as emotions. If you had love as the main influence in your life, obviously you will love more than a person who had hate as their influence. This all arises from inside the individual so if you truly notice the base of your actions you may be able to alter those actions, but besides relying on divine intervention which will probably not occur, it will take some practice to allow the mind to settle so this is noticed.

The true addictions in society is thinking and when you are the main subject of that thinking, it makes one’s existence very irrational. Now multiply that by billions of people and hence you have the world we live in; billions of people constantly thinking about themselves strictly for personal gain. There’s no one to blame for this because it arises from within each of us. From the mass murderer to the person who is a people pleaser, it’s the thinking mind that causes extreme emotions and everything else in between. So sit often with the intention of developing the ability to notice how much you think about yourself and you just may be able to settle in a place where your emotions aren’t in control and hopefully you’ll come to realize life isn’t really about you, you just think it is.

Embracing the Moment

There are choices in every moment that occur in life and it solely puts your life in your hands. It has nothing to do with your circumstances, but if you don’t have awareness of this, you will continue to push life away as situations arise.

Being all inclusive to what occurs in your life (embracing the moment) is living life as it unfolds without excluding any part of it. It’s easy to push away what’s not wanted, but to include everything even though it may not be beneficial or wanted is truly living. If something wants to be excluded find out what it is and why it’s being pushed away. Obviously on the surface it would look as though it’s just not liked, but if it’s what’s occurring, what good is it doing in pushing it away and not liking it. This becomes a defense mechanism that keeps one from truly enjoying life. If one only enjoys life when things happening are liked, there will be much suffering because of the nature of the fluctuations of things. If you go on a vacation to a beach resort and it’s cloudy and rainy and you expected it to be sunny, therein lies your suffering; if it’s sunny everything is great. This is but one example, I’m sure you can find your own that fits your current life.

In the situation described, why it causes suffering is because what’s there is being pushed away, maybe not even consciously, but it’s not wanted so it causes a mind state of agitation. The thing about this is it’s totally out of your control, there’s nothing you can do to change this situation as it is, meaning you can’t change the weather. Well you could do a Sun Dance, but I doubt that will work, so you will either be with life as it is or you will continue to push it away by wanting it different. These are our choices in every moment that occurs in life and it solely puts your life in your hands. It has nothing to do with anyone else or your circumstances, but if you don’t have awareness of this you will continue to push life away as unwanted situations arise, until one day there will be nothing to push away because life in this form will be no more.

The Operative Principle of Love

Making love the operative principle in your life is done by going back to the time when you were a child, thus returning to your natural state of love before becoming conditioned by the world.

One cannot truly love unless there’s awareness of love as the operative principle of the heart and love can’t be an operative principle of the heart unless one turns back the clock and goes back to a time and undoes the things that have been developed that doesn’t make this so. This isn’t to tell anyone how to live their life or what the purpose of it is, but I read something the other day that really hit me as being so far from the truth, at least to me, that I had to share on it. What someone said was “being loving is not natural for human beings and we have to work hard at it.”

Now this is someone’s experience and an experience isn’t right or wrong, but this hasn’t been my experience. My experience is that love has always been and will always be in my heart, it was just blocked out by the way my mind became conditioned. Here is an example of this, just substitute the Conditioned Mind with a polluted body of water. When you take a body of water that’s been polluted and you want to return it to its natural state, all that needs to be done is to remove the pollutants. If something is added to the water it becomes what it isn’t or never was, so one needs to only remove the pollutants to return it to its natural state. To me this is what was meant when it was written that Jesus said “Truly I tell you, unless you become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven” So unless love becomes the operative principle of the heart, heaven on earth or possibly when one passes on will never be experienced. How can it be with the way the mind has been conditioned to block out our true nature to love?

The practice of discipline and concentration is important because it allows the mind to settle so the mind pollutants are removed and our natural state of love becomes the operative principle of our heart. Love is already in our heart, but our polluted Conditioned Mind blocks far to many from seeing this. It does seem like it’s going to take hard work to return to our natural state, but only because its been a long time since we were little children. By practicing discipline and concentration all we are doing is removing our mind pollutants which allows the mind to settle so the principle of our natural state of love becomes operative. We aren’t becoming something that we aren’t, we are returning to our natural state of love and are allowing the love that is already in our heart to become the operative principle to live by.

Recognizing the Cause

Nothing is done or held onto without an underling cause and if that cause isn’t recognized, one will unconsciously succumb to it and it’s conditioning as if they were a dog on a leash.

When some feeling or emotion arises, something causes it, learn to see the cause of the emotion arising and the feelings that go along with the cause. Whatever arises has a cause, the reason for that cause and the sensation of it needs to be understood if one isn’t to be blindly drawn in and controlled by it. Nothing is held onto without an underling cause and if that cause isn’t recognized, one will unconsciously succumb to the cause as if they were a dog on a leash. Why people don’t see how this holds them in captivity is because many of the things that are being held onto are used to make one’s identity and also the holding is done because your conditioning tells you what you are holding onto is needed. When the cause of what arises is understood or at least noticed, there arises an awareness of what one thinks they need to hold onto. When this occurs there’s the possibility it will fall away and in the process your made up story falls away.

As stated before, why it’s so difficult to see this is because what’s being held onto is thought to be bringing you pleasure, and it probably is in some way, but it’s not true pleasure because no object has the capability of providing true pleasure; one is easily deluded by this. Whether it’s a partner, program, sports team, work, social status, self help, working out, yoga, or whatever is being held onto, if the cause of why one thinks they need something to feel good (pleasure) isn’t realized, the object becomes one’s prison cell and this is regardless of what’s used. So if the cause of why something arises and is held onto isn’t recognized, you might as well keep the dog collar on because when your conditioning says it’s time for a walk, you will have to go because of the conditioning in place.

Emotions of Me, Myself, and I

Separate I from your emotions and separate from the pull the emotions have over you. When this happens all you will be left with is peace because the emotions of your me, myself, and I mind isn’t in control.

Emotions aren’t right or wrong as much as they are signals to get in touch with what’s going on. At their core all emotions are based in a concept which strictly involves the me, myself, and I mind. I’m not suggesting that emotions are needed or aren’t needed, I’m just stating the experience I had with emotions is they were never much of a benefit to me or anyone around me and because of the me, myself, and I mind, they were in total control of my life. It will take much sitting and discipline to see the true nature of one’s emotions and the suffering they cause when they’re attached to. This isn’t to say today I’m emotionless, it just that they don’t have the control over me they once had.

Emotions will arise that’s a given, they’re a part of our human conditioning, but that’s not the issue, it’s how they’re allowed to control and dictate one’s state of being that the issue. Here’s an example of the emotion of anger; anger will arise and if it’s attached to, the results will cause some form of harm. So the key is to not ignore the anger, but to see how it arises from I (who’s angry?) and not attach to it. In this way the anger is there, but it’s not controlling. All emotions can be viewed in this manner because what they have in common is they all arise from I. Anger, fear, sadness, joy, disgust, love, and so on, look and see how without I although the emotions are there, they cannot control you. Separate I from the emotion and separate from the pull the emotions have over you and when this happens all you will be left with is peace and this is because the me, myself, and I mind isn’t in control.

Love Attracts Naturally

Like energy attracts and opposite energy repels naturally so if you have love in your heart, others will be drawn to you naturally because when one comes from a place of unconditional love, there’s no conflict within.

I’ve noticed in my journey when someone is in my life that it’s not exactly coming from a place of love, they are removed without me doing anything. Although it’s not for me to judge anyone to say they’re not coming from a place of love, I do understand the Conditioned Mind enough to understand what isn’t love. I truly would rather not be associated with anyone who acts in non loving ways, this energy isn’t a benefit to anyone, especially the one who is acting in such a way. People use God to justify acting in this way, even those who talk love with their lips, show non loving behavior in their actions. I ask how can a loving God be non loving? People quote the bible and think it’s love, I say what does your heart say, that’s where I look. Anyone can quote and twist scripture to fit into a conditioned view, but love has no view, it just loves. If you truly want to judge, start with your own heart and leave it at that. Unless one is raised to love, you will have your hands full investigating yourself, and judging anyone else is just wasting energy.

Please look at the log in your own eye and not the speck in someone else’s. It’s so easy to judge others, but I say hold fast to love if you truly want things to change in your life, but it won’t be others changing, it will be you. One can not be all things to all people, but one can love all people and that’s all that matters. Like energy attracts and opposite energy repels naturally so if you have love in your heart, others will naturally be drawn to you, not because of some belief or saying from the bible, but because when one comes from a place of unconditional love there’s never a conflict with oneself so there’s never a conflict with others.

The Worlds Energy

The world’s energy is from the thought realm which attaches one to the world. As long as one is controlled by the world, love can’t be the operative energy of life regardless of the beliefs or concepts being held onto.

The more this world and its ways are held onto, the less love there will be as the operative energy in one’s life. This is why we as a society are in our current state and until this is realized individually and as a whole, things will remain the same. I know this was factual in my own life, but that was until I learned why I acted in the ways that I did. I never understood resentment, greed, hate, jealousy, or the outright deluded view of life that I had. I couldn’t see the love that was in my heart because of all the conditioning that was in place. This blocked me from the magnificence that life had to offer and as long as the things of this world were held onto, this magnificence was never going to be seen.

The block to life’s magnificence is also a block to our own magnificence. Our magnificence doesn’t manifest as a story about certain beliefs and concepts, it arises from the silence within. It’s such a shame that this isn’t understood by the masses because life would be so much different, we would be falling over each other in love instead of harming each other in the name of religion or whatever else is believed to be right. There’s so much resentment and hate carried around and although it’s directed to the outside it arises from within so it’s one’s own energy. This energy causes much harm to others, but it causes the most damage to the one who it comes from. This is what’s missed and not understood. This energy is from the thought realm which attaches one to the world and as long as one is controlled by the world, love can’t be the operative energy of life regardless of the beliefs or concepts being held onto.

If You Think It So It Is

If you think it so it is and this is because the thought arises from the same energy that the action would be and this energy being based in self centeredness makes the thought and action one in the same.

There’s a verse in the bible that says something like “If you think it so it is” This isn’t an issue when the first thought comes in because there’s not much one can do about that, but it does become an issue when the thought is given energy for it to come alive and this is even if the thought is never acted on. This occurs because of one’s self centeredness and this is why it’s an issue, it blocks one from their own innate love. Here’s an example: It’s not wrong to look at a woman, or to find her attractive. It’s not wrong to think of a man as handsome, but if a married man or woman goes farther and starts fantasizing about kissing or having sex with someone other than his or her spouse, then he or she has taken the thought to the level where it now becomes one’s bondage and blocks out the love of from one’s own heart. This is when an issue would arise.

This issue doesn’t occur when the thought, emotion, or passion arises, but if those thoughts aren’t resisted then issue occurs because we give in to the emotion, thought, or passion by dwelling on it, and this is only the thought, not an action. If the action of the thought is acted on, the bondage goes to an entirely different level with much more dire consequences. But it all starts with a single thought and if the thought isn’t given energy, an action cannot occur. This is true with any thought, whether it’s anger, lust, greed, and so on, if there isn’t bondage to the self centered base, there wouldn’t be further attachment to the incoming thought and if you don’t think it, it cannot be so.

Conditioned Mind Activity

Peace is naturally within everyone, but because of the way a person is conditioned the mind is in a constant state of some activity and this is why one’s natural state of peace isn’t noticed.

Thinking is an activity of the mind and regardless of what the thoughts are, it takes one from the minds place of non activity and thus peace. There’s nothing that can be done to prevent this from happening, but one can become aware of it; the reason nothing can be done is because anything that’s done becomes a mind activity. Notice when the mind is in a state of peace and what takes you from this state. There are so many activities of the mind that takes away one’s peace that the list is endless, but it wouldn’t matter if there was only one activity on the list, as long as one is in unaware of the activity it will take you from your place of peace.

To notice this activity is a very simple practice, just watch the activity, nothing more. I’m sure you’ll be amazed at how much activity and how little non activity there is. Watch when an itch arises and how the mind activity now becomes to scratch the itch. Can you notice this and not scratch? This is something simple to start with and when you become aware of this you can watch other mind activities as they arise. The key is not to say to yourself “I’m not going to scratch” it’s to just be with the itch and watch it. Most times the itch will simply go away. This is how it is with most mind activities, but it will take some practice (just watching) for the awareness of this to take hold because of the conditioned thinking that’s in place. Just watch the conditioned mind activity, don’t do anything but watch it, thought in, thought out, thought in, thought out, and ever so slowly the activity will lessen and in the process there will be more peace (naturally). Simple yes, but don’t make it something that needs to be done or it will just become another conditioned mind activity.

Becoming the Dash

Making up a story about life has no benefit to it because regardless of what the story is, one day it will end and the only thing left will be the dash between the day life in this form began and the day it ends.

Everyone regardless of who you are will sooner or later have a born date and death date separated by a dash and that dash represents your life, regardless if it’s a week or a hundred years long. It doesn’t matter much whether you accomplish great things (to the ego it does) or if you live a quiet uneventful life, you will become the dash and be equal to all the other dashes that came before you.

The other day I attended the wake of my ninety eight year old uncle who passed away and although ninety eight seems as though it was a long life, for him it’s over and his life is now represented by a dash. My uncle was a good man and this isn’t to diminish anything he accomplished in his life, but what does any of it really matter. He is the same now as all those who came before, regardless of the life he lived, good, bad, or indifferent. The point of this is to show how no matter what, we will all become the dash one day. So what are you holding onto that you think is so important?

What story are you telling yourself? It doesn’t really matter because it will change many times throughout your lifetime and at the end the only thing with any significance is the stories that others have about you. And these only matter to a degree as they’ll only last until the last person who knows you also dies. This isn’t to say there’s no purpose to life, I just don’t know what it is. I don’t see how making up a story is beneficial because regardless of what story is held onto, sooner or later it will end and the story of becoming the dash is the only one that will remain and this is regardless of the way one’s life was lived. So remember live now and forever hold your peace or at least until it’s time to join all the other dashes that came before you.

Facing Yourself

The only obstacle one has to truly being free is themselves and until you face yourself, true freedom is something that will always be out there in the next book, program, good deed, relationship, pill, drink, self help method or whatever else is reached for.

Consider life as water and emotions as a flood, if you’re on low ground you will be overcome by the flood waters (emotions), but if you’re on high ground the same flood water will come, but the way it affects you will have a much different outcome. This is what happens when a person faces themselves, you are naturally put on higher ground which builds up a defense against your emotional flood water. Without facing yourself there will be no defense against the flood water because you will be stuck on lower ground and on lower ground when the flood water arises, some form of destruction will be the result and the severity of the flood (emotional attachment) determines the destruction.

The flood water only affects what’s on lower ground, and our lower nature manifest as emotional attachments. The destructiveness of this attachment is determined by what is reached for, drugs, alcohol, gambling, sex, food, and so on. Although not everything reached for is destructive, some have much more destructive potential than others. If one doesn’t face themselves there won’t be awareness of either the destructive or the subtle things reached for. To me, the key is facing yourself because it puts you on higher ground so when the flood water comes it has less affect on you. This is the value of facing and understanding yourself, it allows you to not be flooded emotionally by circumstances that occur. Although the flood water will arise, because you are on higher ground you aren’t affected like the person who’s stuck on lower ground and is reaching out there for a life preserver, in whatever form that may be.

To Cling is to Suffer

A mind that’s free of expectations is a mind that doesn’t cling and without the velcro effects of clinging it’s impossible to suffer. So the dilemma is to cling or not to cling and this makes one’s suffering a choice.

Let go and be free or hold on and suffer, that is our dilemma. Expect things a certain way and when they aren’t in that way, the next step in the process is the reaction to the different results of what’s expected. Peace or suffering, that’s always the choice. If we cling to results and they’re different than expected, it creates suffering and we are the one’s creating it because we are the one’s clinging to our expectations. Disappointment is only unpleasant because clinging to wanting things a certain way makes it so.

When we expect, we attach labels and when we attach labels, we cling. This is how our mind develops the velcro effect of clinging. Even if the expectations work out the way we think they should be, we’re still clinging, but we don’t notice it as a problem because it’s the way that we want it. So the velcro effect of our mind clings to everything that is labeled and since it labels everything, we cling to everything, but we mostly focus on and notice the things that don’t go our way.

The only way to be free of this velcro effect is to not label things. The labeling process of our mind produces clinging, the letting go process through non-judgement produces freedom. It’s a choice that needs to be cultivated so our moment to moment expectations don’t cause our own suffering. Life is one continuous expectation after another, but we have been conditioned to think it’s only the disappointments that effect our velcro mind. We are mostly unaware of this moment to moment labeling process that produces clinging. When the mind quiets enough to understand this, the labeling process will lessen, and so will our expectations. This results in a mind that’s free of expectations and the clinging effects it has on the velcro mind. Without the velcro effects it is impossible to suffer, so the dilemma is to cling or not to cling and this makes one’s suffering a choice.

Labeled Distractions

Regardless of what it is, once something is labeled it becomes a distraction to one’s mind state of peace. Without a label the mind remains open and more and more truth is revealed, truth that sets one free.

The other day when I woke up, it seemed I was in an annoyed mind state, I had a few things that had to be done as soon as I woke up, but this isn’t anything out of the ordinary. Being in this annoyed state made it seem as though everything was annoying me, but I’ve learned that this mind state is temporary and it arises as a distraction to my state of peace. I had to take a look to see why everything was annoying to me, some will say to just be with the annoyance and watch it dissipate, but to me I take it a step further because I can and I’ve learned that the annoyance will return stronger if the root of it isn’t exposed; knowing what the root of my annoyances are has been my saving grace. On this morning these annoyances had nothing to do with anything in particular, nothing was going on for me to be annoyed. I didn’t have time to sit because I had an appointment so I begin a mindfulness practice of watching how each annoyance that arose was directly linked to I. It arose, it was acknowledged that I was at the root and quietly I was saying “don’t attach” and boom just like the annoyances that arose were gone. This is the value of understanding your own mind.

You can just be with the annoyance and over time it may dissipate, but it will take longer and it will return because understanding why it arose won’t be known. This isn’t to say that just remaining with what arises doesn’t produce results, but to me if one knows why something arises there’s less chance of attaching to it and it returning. This is tried and true, but unless it’s seen it’s very unlikely it will be understood. At times what I write about is questioned because it’s not seen by someone, but something should never be discounted just because it hasn’t been experienced. Keeping an open mind is vital in the expansion of truth in one’s life. The moment something is dismissed without it being investigated, it becomes a limit. Near Death Experiences, reincarnation, states of extreme bliss, seeing or hearing Angels, to name a few, although I haven’t experienced these I refuse to discount them because I just don’t know. Regardless of what it is, once something is labeled it becomes a distraction to one’s mind state of peace, so without a label the mind remains open and more and more truth is revealed and truth is what sets one free.

Gossiping Energy

The small self (ego) gossips because there’s lack within, this creates the need to feel superior. So when a person gossips it’s only to subconsciously fill this lack and make themselves feel superior to the person being gossiped about.

The reason why gossiping is so damaging is because of the energy emitted when it’s being done. Gossiping energy arises from one’s own lack of self worth and it engulfs all the gossipers with this lack energy. It doesn’t affect the one who is being gossiped about because for the most part they’re probably unaware it’s being done. Gossiping is also very damaging because it involves multiple people, it’s like the energy of a riot, neither can occur with just one person. Once a person starts gossiping and another person unconsciously attaches to it, it will continue to grow depending on who’s in the room and how unconscious (lacking) they are. It will only be attached to by those who have lack because it’s done to fill the lacks void. Even if the gossiping about another person is warranted to a degree, who is perfect enough to cast the first stone? All humans are fallible and act selfishly at times and that’s mainly the energy of those who gossip.

The small self (ego) gossips because it needs to feel superior to others, so when I talk about you it’s only to subconsciously make myself feel more superior than you. After all gossip is never or hardly never about something good, it’s mostly about something negative. Gossiping is what happens when there’s idle time and not much is going on. It’s difficult not to be pulled into gossips energy because there’s not many people who don’t like to feel superior than another person. Gossip is shallow and unless there’s truly an understanding that you are complete just the way you are and there’s no need to talk about anyone else, one will continue to harm themselves by talking about others and keeping the selfish energy of gossiping in place.

Hate is a Story Love is Natural

Hate isn’t somethings that’s needed to live our life, that is unless it’s the story one wants to make up. When hate is let go of and it releases the grip it has over you, love naturally becomes what grips you.

Hate is created, love is natural, so anytime a thought of hate is allowed to fester and become an action, our ability to give and receive love is compromised. In a state of hate there’s no way one can give or receive love, which is our true nature, because our created hate of whatever it is we are hating is blocking it. When we let go of the thoughts of our created hate, our focus naturally returns to love and hate relinquishes its grip because we aren’t giving it anything to adhere to.

Hate is not natural, it’s created by our delusional identity to a fictitious self; a self that sees things through a pair of eyes that wants everything to fit nicely into a created world, hate arises when something threatens that world. One hates what makes them think they’re going to lose something that makes their world right. Beliefs are formed that reinforce this hate and are lived by. All hate is self created, it’s not natural. Make up the story that there’s justified hate that’s needed to live by, but like I said its created to fit nicely into a made up world. Hate is not a requirement needed to live your life, unless that’s the story you want to make up. When this is realized and you stop living life through the energy of hate and love naturally takes it place, it is then that love becomes the base of your life, not because it’s created, but because it’s natural.

The Space of Silence

In the space of silence, the Universe is one’s guide and will manifest in ways for the betterment of all beings. In this space one isn’t swayed by anything and can remain on the spiritual path regardless of what’s going on around you.

It seems that it’s so much easier to be spiritually connected when one thinks things are the way that they’re wanted, but what happens when it changes and things aren’t as wanted? One’s whole demeanor can change instantly from being at peace to discontentment just by a person saying a certain thing to you. And here is the craziness of this, what the person says only changes your demeanor because it’s something triggered inside you, the deliverer of the trigger doesn’t really matter. Nothing can control you unless it’s allowed and it will only be allowed because it’s not known that it’s happening. The conditioned triggers are deeply embedded in the subconscious mind and the more history one has with something the deeper it’s embedded. These triggers are manifested in many different ways, but what they have in common is they cause one to suffer unknowingly.

Let’s say you’re at home in a good space and your spouse comes home from work in a not so good space, as soon as they walk in the door the energy in the room changes. If there isn’t awareness of this, a trigger will be activated within you and this encounter will probably end up in an argument. But when there’s awareness of this, one can remain silent (which is golden) and just be with the moment as it is and not feed someone else’s energy. Not wanting the moment different is key here and allowing it to be as it is doesn’t activate a response triggered by someone else. To me when the moment doesn’t need to be in some other way, no triggers are activated and one is truly free. In this space of freedom, the Universe is one’s guide and will manifest responses for the betterment of all beings. In this way one isn’t swayed by anything and can remain on the spiritual path regardless of what’s going on around you.

The Keepers of Our Reality

There are choices to what one’s reality will be, but only if it’s seen there are choices. Therein lies the issue because options are needed for there to be a choice and not many truly see them.

We are the keepers of our reality. For each individual, reality becomes the energy that’s given to the moment that’s occurring and this energy determines what our reality will be. I’m not talking positive or negative energy here, what I’m talking about is not labeling the moment that’s here and being with it as it is. There are three conventional choices, good: I want it to remain this way forever, bad: I want it different than what it is, and indifferent: it has no bearing on my life whatsoever. Can you see how any one of this three produce attachment and thus suffering. The good and bad are fairly easy to see, but you may ask what about indifferent, how is that attachment? To me it’s attachment because even seeing the moment as it is and saying it doesn’t affect me gives energy to a story. Everything affects everything because it’s all energy so when one can be with the exact moment as it is and not label it as good, bad, or indifferent, than that will be the energy of one’s reality. If this isn’t seen, your reality will be chosen for you and unfortunately you will be the keeper of this reality.

There are choices to what one’s reality will be, but only if it’s seen there are choices. And therein lies the issue because options are needed for there to be choices. This is why not labeling the moment as anything has value because it doesn’t lock you into the label and it gives you options. It allows for you to be with what’s occurring as it is and this allows it to pass and see it for what it is. Nothing last forever unless that’s the label which one applies and so the reality that one keeps is that of their label. Or not and experience reality as never before because there will be choices that weren’t there previously. This reality occurs for no other reason than it’s the reality that you see and the one you are choosing to keep.

Higher or Lower Nature

Life consist of a lower and higher nature and the one that’s most prevalent in your life is dependent on how much the master puppeteer ( I ) is in control. The more I controls, the more one’s lower nature will dominate.

There are two natures that one can live by, a lower one or a higher one, I know this now, but it wasn’t something I was always aware of. Nine years ago this changed because I become tired of being controlled by my lower nature, which to me is to be controlled by the senses. This control keeps one in captivity to Conditioned Mind Patterns that lead one around as if they were a puppet on a string. The only way one’s higher nature will be present is when these strings are cut. It’s very unfortunate because this isn’t understood nor is the fact of who the puppeteer is, and this puppeteer controls just about every human life form to some degree. The puppeteer is I and until this is realized, the strings will never be cut and I will continue its onslaught of control.

To me this is why it matters little who becomes President of the US, both are puppets controlled by I. It’s just the way it is, but this isn’t isolated to only the US, look around and if the mind gets settled enough you will see this is the way of the world. It’s run by I, the people in their assigned roles are just puppets, and until more people wake up, the lower nature will continue its dominance. At the lower natures core behavior is greed, hate, and delusion, and at the higher nature is love, kindness, and compassion, both of these can be added to accordingly. You can see the differences in the two natures and how one’s life would manifest outward depending on which nature was lived by. This is a very practical way of looking at this so it should be easy to see which nature is dominating your life. If it isn’t your higher nature only you can change it by cutting the strings of I, that is if it’s known I is in control.

The Thought of You Isn't You

Thoughts manifest as whatever energy they’re given and self serving energy makes them delusional. This delusion blocks one’s natural inner resource of love from manifesting the truth that sets you free.

Nothing can truly deceive you unless it’s allowed and what allows it but the energy given to the thought of whatever it is that’s occurring. When you understand the true nature of any thought you will see they are only energy, not who you are. They have no control whatsoever over you unless it’s allowed, but understand it’s only allowed because it isn’t known how not to allow it. It’s simplistic yet very difficult for this to be understood. We’ve been programmed to believe we are our thoughts, but if you investigate this, you’ll see this delusional fallacy. Thoughts occur like passing clouds, our attachment to them is what gives them the energy needed to become a delusional story, an outright lie.

Look at why you think you’re your thoughts. Freedom from attaching to your thoughts is freedom from your I Self. When this occurs no thing can hold you back from reaching your true potential and understanding who you truly are. You can only love yourself when you know who you are and you can only know who you are when you realize you are not your thoughts. Even then you may not know who you are, but by knowing who you aren’t it creates enough space to at least allow for the letting go of the delusional belief of an I Self that the conditioned mind energy makes you think is truth. When this letting go occurs, it opens the heart to Universal Truth, a truth that can only be known by being still in the thoughtless realm of what is; it’s in knowing this truth that you will be set free.

Life's Meaning

The search for meaning to one’s life is what keeps meaning from being revealed because when searching it means the mind is busy. Only a settled mind reveals the true meaning of life.

One will never find the meaning to their life alone, it will only be through the love of others that it will be revealed. Part of the problem of the endless search for meaning to one’s life is it’s thought the answer is locked up in some safety deposit box inside you and it will be unlocked by reading another book, running around aimlessly trying to save the world, some self help method, or attending a program of some sort, but meaning will only be revealed when it’s not looked for, at least this has been my experience. The search itself is what keeps meaning from being revealed because when searching, it means the mind is busy. Only a settled mind reveals meaning, and it will be seen in the love that others have for you.

Imagine if there was no one who loved you, it would be the loneliest way one could ever exist, and without love there’s no true meaning to anything whatsoever. How could there be if one is alone? It’s not my responsibility to save the world and run around being so busy that I don’t have time for stillness. Stillness is vital because it’s in stillness that one is guided to connect with all beings. I spoke to someone on the phone yesterday for the first time and I never want to lose that connection with people because this type of connection is at such a deep level. In this connection is where loves energy intertwines and it’s in this energy that the meaning of life is revealed because in the energy of love, we are one.

Changing the Channel

The only way to change the channel of the mind is to have something in place that will allow it to be changed. This is where quietness comes in because without it, there won’t even be awareness you’re watching a rerun.

Watching TV is rare for me, but the other night I caught myself sitting in front of the boob tube, catching the last half hour of a program. When the program was over I began channel surfing, looking for something to watch, 20 seconds on one channel, 10 seconds on another 15 on another, than another and another, you get the picture, how quick to change the channel, without hesitation, but isn’t it amazing how we stay on one channel when it comes to the mind. We’re so reluctant to change the channel even though nothing is truly on. Actually what’s mostly on are reruns, yet we’ll watch the same channel (thought) over an over. It’s as if we’re stuck on one channel and don’t know how to go to a different one and in a sense we are.

Think of something you get fixated on and see how hard it is to change your mind when its got you in its grip. I would say unless there’s extreme awareness of this, changing your channel will be very difficult, not impossible, but difficult. The only way to change the channel of the mind is to have something in place that will allow it to be changed. This is where quietness comes in because without it, there won’t even be awareness you’re watching a rerun. It may be a rerun using some fictitious name, but it’s still a rerun. Watch the subtleness of this and in time you will see your mind for what it is and how it likes to default to familiar channels. The issue is you can get so comfortable watching the reruns that it’s not realized the channel needs to be changed, and this realization will only occur if you have a program in place that’s worth changing to.

Light is Love

The Conditioned Mind is grounded in darkness and the world is the way it is because not enough people see the light. The light is always there, it just needs to be noticed so one can turn towards it.

All light has transforming properties to it, that’s why when one sees the light, they’re transformed. Look at a plant, it begins as a seed, it has potential, but it’s still only a seed. You can put it in soil, water it and give it all the nutrients possible, but without a source of light (energy) the transformation from seed to plant will not occur. This transforming light is the source of most of life, there are exceptions to this rule as with deep sea creatures or those in caves, but for the most part it is light that transforms. Go into a dark room and turn on the light, there’s an instant transformation of the room. The walls come alive with color, the furniture and design of the room are also intensified. Without the light the room still exist, but its vibrance is hidden.

When one wakes up to experience this hidden vibrance, it’s the lights energy that transforms just as it is with a plant or a room. You can be in the dark your entire life, but once there’s light, the darkness is gone. It may return somewhat because of one’s conditioning, but it will never be as dark as it once was, it can’t because there will always be some light. This light is truth revealed, (one’s internal energy of love) and it’s impossible to consciously turn it off. As stated before it will turn off only because of one’s unconscious conditioning, but this light is always on beneath the conditioning because it’s the light (the source) of our existence and the true essence (love) of who we are. The Conditioned Mind is grounded in darkness and the world is the way it is because not enough people see the light, but the light is always there, it just needs to be noticed so one can turn towards it.

Believing Your Lies

There are many lies that are believed which keeps one entrapped to the lies and if these aren’t exposed at least to the point where it’s realized this is occurring, one’s life will mostly be lived as a lie.

Believing our lies is what gets a person in trouble. Thinking the grass is greener on the other side is one of these lies and until it’s seen this grass also has to be mowed, one will continues to believe this. If you think when a certain thing happens you will be set, you will be sadly mistaken even if this thing comes to pass. This is very subtle to see and as one clings to this mind set of needing life to be a certain way, the lies are reinforced. Case in point would be something as simple and seemingly innocent as playing the lottery. Here’s how this reinforcement works. There’s the lie of I that first makes one think if life is a certain way you will have it made; it’s the answer to your prayers. So you buy a lottery ticket just because the jackpot is a hundred million dollars. This seems innocent, but make no mistake, it is not. This is a reinforcement of I because you of I wanting things different and it keeps one in their self centered prison.

There’s nothing wrong with the tool of money in and of itself, but whatever the thing is that makes a person think life would be better if this or that happened, puts them in the chains of bondage to I. Granted a hundred million dollars would make one’s life different, but different doesn’t mean it will necessarily be better. The moment one thinks better, it means one wants the present moment different. There are many lies that are believed which keeps one entrapped to the lies and if these aren’t exposed, one’s life will mostly be lived as a lie. Money is only one, anything can be substituted for money. Don’t take my word on this, investigate this and see the lies you’re clinging to, or not and remain in bondage to the lies that you’re keeping in place as truth.

Truth Just Is

The main thing to understand about truth is this, you will know what you see is truth when there isn’t a story needed to define it nor is it the result of any doing on your part. Truth arises from stillness and just is.

The point of yesterday’s post “Stop Thinking” arose from my experience of searching for something for most of my life, but not really knowing what I was looking for. Today I understand what I was looking for as truth, but it’s not a made up truth that is mostly used by people to make themselves feel better, it’s a truth that arises only when the mind settles. This is difficult to explain because of the way one is conditioned to understand what truth is. Truth realistically can’t be defined. If you define it, it’s made up. Truth is truth as love is love and God is God, no definition truly defines any of these; they’re basically one in the same.

One does not find truth by a doing or making up a story of what it is. Truth is only revealed when the mind settles. In this settling what was previously hidden by Conditioned Mind distractions becomes known, but not known in the sense where it needs to be defined. I don’t know what happened to me nine years ago, but I know I begin noticing the lies that I lived by, and the more known these become, the more peace I experienced in my life, and as a result of this, the more peace there is in my life, the less stories (lies) have to be made up to live by. Although I never tell anyone how to live, I know the way I write touches on arrogance to some people because of my assuredness with what I write about. A person’s ego will not relinquish its control without a fight, so someone’s view of me really has nothing to do with me. When the ego deems something as a threat to its very existence, it acts accordingly. The main thing to understand is you will know truth when there isn’t a story needed to define it nor is it the result of any doing on your part, it just is.

Stop Thinking

There’s no path, program, or way that can enhance life because life doesn’t need enhancement, life is life. If life isn’t accepted exactly as it is, the I attaches it’s story to what it thinks will make it enhanced.

I was in a discussion with someone yesterday about whether or not belonging to a program is a choice. This is part of how someone responded in the discussion: “I choose to belong to a program like I choose to workout or kiss my wife or walk the dog … because all of these activities contribute to my life … and you telling me what is “truth” whether it’s seen or not, is just plain arsey” I, I, I. The word arsey had to be looked up, lol. I’ll touch on this as it has been revealed to me, but please before you respond, sit with it first. Because of my experience this is what’s seen and try to understand this point, the bondage to I is very subtle and whatever one attaches to that makes you think it will enhance your life, it’s only I that makes you believe this. I’m not going to mention specifics here because every path is only a pointer, but nothing, no program or person’s way should be attached to, they can be investigated to see the truth they reveal, but if it becomes “your so called way” it’s only your I that’s attached to it and it now becomes your prison (bondage).

There’s no path, program, or way that can enhance life because life doesn’t need enhancement, life is life. If life isn’t accepted exactly as it is, the I attaches it’s story to what it thinks will make it enhanced. Everything in life is a pointer to make you look within and as long as there’s one iota of I attachment, something will be reached for out there and one’s own magnificence will never manifest; it can’t because I is blocking it. Please see this and basically just stop thinking, period. Get very very still so there’s no I story. Thoughts come and go, live life as it is and don’t make it into something that it’s not because it doesn’t need to be any other way. Don’t make it someone else’s way, or a programs way, make it totally your way, but that will only happen when I doesn’t attach to any other way but what comes from within oneself.

A Noisy Mind is Unpredictable

One day St. Peter and God we’re discussing the current state of humanity and what to do about it. St. Peter suggested maybe another great flood was the way to go. God replied, we don’t have to do anything, they (humans) are destroying themselves.

Learning to sit to give one’s mind a lot chance to possibly settle and see things in a different light will probably be the most difficult thing one will ever do, that is if they even do it. The first step is to become aware that sitting is needed, this in itself is a huge break through in breaking free from Conditioned Mind Patterns that control just about every aspect of one’s life, mostly these patterns remain in place until the day one dies without any awareness whatsoever. Unconsciousness is the norm in our society and if you just look around without judging or labeling, you will notice this and if it really resonates with you, a commitment will probably be made instantly to start sitting.

A noisy mind is scary because it’s unpredictable, there’s no rhythm or reason behind the things that are done when one is unconscious. From the Roman Empire, all wars, murder, rape, abuse, slander, hate, greed and whatnot, these are all the result of a noisy mind. Look at yourself to notice your own noise and see if this isn’t so. The scary thing is nothing will change until something is put in place that will allow the mind to settle. We already have all the resources and money for poverty and starvation to end, yet it’s still a huge part of our world. Why is this so? We have two people running to be the leader of the USA, but it will not matter who wins because both are unconscious, so nothing will really change. Maybe this is the way it’s suppose to be, I’m not here to say it is or it isn’t, but when one wakes up from their unconscious sleep and the noisy mind settles, what is seen is the love in their own heart, but unfortunately this makes one aware of the lack of love in others due to still being a sleep. Maybe starting over isn’t such a bad idea.

Life Isn't About Anything

Although we all have different experiences that are conveyed with words to explain what happens throughout our life, life really isn’t about anything in particular expect the story that one makes it about.

When life is made into a story that it’s about something, regardless of what the about is, life is made into a burden of whatever one makes it about. And this is because the story of what one makes it about has to constantly be written, so in essence life becomes the story about what it’s made into instead of allowing it to be what it is. Living in this way is a burden because there’s no peace. How can there be if one’s story is constantly being written to keep up with what it’s all about. It can be about positive, negative, God, evil, Angels, demons, career, sports, sex, past, present, and future events, Trump, Hillary, spirituality, Jesus, Buddha, religion, or whatever story one what’s to make life about, but understand this is just you giving in to the distractions of a Conditioned Mind that doesn’t know how to just be. This mind state needs life to be about something because there isn’t the discipline to just be with life as it is, without making it into a story about something.

Although we all have different experiences that are conveyed with words to explain what happens throughout our life, life really isn’t about anything. Our experiences are shared and we should use them to learn from so we can be In touch with whatever is there in the moment, but that only happens when the mind is settled. It doesn’t happen through the distraction of making life about something. The more life is made into being about something, the more one needs for life to be about something and the less quietness one has in their life. It’s in the not needing a story of life being about something that the mind will settled and one will truly live. It’s only when life is made to be about something that there will be the need for life to be about something and it’s only when the mind is settled will one be able to stop the constant need for a story and just be.

Lead Us Not into Temptation

Temptation only arises because I wants to satisfy some pleasure it’s making you believe is needed, and it will win out every time until there’s awareness and discipline to stay out of the so called lions den.

The old saying if you don’t play with fire you can’t get burned is so true when it comes to being tempted. If you can stay out of the lions den you will remain safe. It’s so important to not put yourself in harms way when it comes to temptation, but it’s done because the way most minds are conditioned, there’s a lack of awareness and discipline to stand up against temptation for a long period of time. I see this in myself although very slowly my conditioning that attaches to I is losing its grip. There’s so much of our make up associated with temptation that one should sit with this to see how much control it really has over you. Why this is so is mainly because of the temporary pleasure that’s gotten from giving in to the temptation. Food, alcohol, drugs, sex (alone or with someone) gambling and so on, many things are used to satisfy the sense pleasure and if there isn’t awareness of this, it will be difficult not to get pulled around by the temptation.

For myself, I was controlled my entire life because of never having the awareness or discipline to stay out of the lions den per se, so in essence I was always in harms way. Of course satisfying I is at the root of this and whenever a temptation is given in to initially it feels good, but it only last until the mind that told you to give in to the temptation poses the question why did you do that. It has taken a few years to finally stop giving into temptation and it’s only because there’s the awareness of I wanting pleasure. Grab that cookie and see how long the satisfaction last, by the way sugar is as addictive as cocaine, maybe more so. The point of this isn’t to say the pleasures of life can’t be enjoyed, just watch who is attaching to them and why. See if you are putting yourself in harms way which reinforces I to remain in control. If this is done you just may be able to stay out of the lions den and lessen the control I has over you so you can truly live life happy, joyous, and free. Free from what? The alluring temptation of the control of I.

The Greatness of Others

Greatness is measured by how one helps others to see their own greatness. Even if you possess the whole world your own greatness won’t arise until you touch someone to see the greatness in themselves.

To me there’s only one reason for my existence and it’s why I post my writings, it’s to assist others in recognizing their own greatness. There’s nothing more to it, there’s no other reason to write except for this. If one isn’t assisting others in establishing their own greatness then you’ll be stuck in trying to help yourself establish your own greatness, and if you look around you will see there are plenty of people already doing this and the results is why the world is in the state that it’s in. It matters little what anyone achieves in life for themselves, but those who are truly great assist others to discover their own greatness. This is what all the great masters did and do, they assist others in reaching the potential of their own greatness, but assistance can’t be done if there’s one iota of selfishness involved. You can only give away what is within yourself.

A person may achieve great worldly success and there’s nothing wrong with this, but if others aren’t being reached out to so they can see their own greatness what good is it. You may have great wealth and notoriety, but if there isn’t at least one person who has seen their greatness because of being tied into what you do, life will remain only as a shadow of your own greatness. To me it seems as though life dictates if one lives in the shadow of greatness or if one discovers their own innate greatness, but either way it means nothing until there’s assistance in helping someone from there own shadow of greatness into the greatness of who they truly are. Sit and visualize this and it will come to pass and what will come to pass has nothing to do with your greatness, but it does have everything to do with the greatness of someone else.

Desires Energy

When one isn’t looking to derive pleasure from an arisen desire, the desire loses its control and without being controlled by desire, one is able to be with what’s actually in front of them.

There’s nothing inherently wrong with desire in the sense that it’s good or bad, but because of desires nature, the mind gets pulled into a view of whatever desire arises and one loses touch with what’s in front of you. Desire can be draining because of the energy it needs to remain active. It’s one of the reasons why after the desire runs its course, there’s some guilt and remorse that follows. Giving in to desire takes a lot of energy, its an energy of a lower nature and what I mean by this is it can’t sustain itself, it needs constant reinforcement because the self of desire is never fulfilled. Love on the other hand is just the opposite, it’s of a higher energy because it needs nothing to sustain itself. It’s neither draining nor does it need reinforcement because it arises from the stillness of the Universe just as everything does. Think about it, everything arises from the energy of stillness and hence that’s where it returns, except plastic, lol.

Fulfilling a desire that arises is very satisfying or it wouldn’t be so enticing, but because of the nature of desire the fulfillment doesn’t last and more energy needs to be spent when another desire arises. These desires usually occur one right after the other, some are more glaring than others and some are subtle, so it’s difficult to really notice all desires. The glaring ones seem to have more of an affect on one’s life than the subtle ones, but make no mistake, desires energy is all the same and it’s only there to satisfy I. I have found by not attaching to results it really helps in not being overcome by desire, as is the case with my writings. I write and that’s the end of it, it’s what’s in front of me so it’s what I do. When I’m not looking to derive pleasure from an arisen desire, the desire loses its control and without being controlled by desire, I’m able to actually be with what’s in front of me.

An Urge for Peace

The inner urge that keeps one searching for something (peace) arises from the thought realm of I and keeps the urge in place. Only when the mind settles and I is let go of will the urge subside and lo and behold therein lies one’s peace.

Many people are on a so called spiritual quest to find something and for me this something was an inner urging to be at peace. I say was because the urge is no longer there. For far to many years I didn’t truly understand this urge and so it was always there as was the searching to quiet it. This searching manifested in many different ways and none were beneficial in living my life in a loving manner. This is because of the way I was conditioned, to self seek (quiet the urge) which kept the urge in place. What a merry go round ride this produced, hence there wasn’t much peace in my life. This lasted for forty nine years and then one day through a tiny crack in my ego, there arose the possibility of a different view of life which was revealed to me and gave me some real answers as to the true nature of the urge.

Nine years ago it began as just a crack, but has been expanding ever since. For the most part the urge for peace is no longer there because it has been replaced with peace, but when the mind becomes agitated and the urge does return because of the Conditioned Mind Patterns that are in place, I’ve learned to see it from the I perspective that it arises from, and not attach to it. Only attachment to I keeps the urge in place so one has to search instead of there being peace. The search for peace will never result in peace because the search itself is what keeps one from experiencing peace. In this moment right now is where peace is so there’s no need to search for what already is. So it’s only when the mind settles and I is let go of that the urge will subside and lo and behold it is then that one will be at peace.

The inner urge that keeps one searching for something (peace) arises from the thought realm of I and keeps the urge in place. Only when the mind settles and I is let go of will the urge subside and lo and behold therein lies one’s peace.

Many people are on a so called spiritual quest to find something and for me this something was an inner urging to be at peace. I say was because the urge is no longer there. For far to many years I didn’t truly understand this urge and so it was always there as was the searching to quiet it. This searching manifested in many different ways and none were beneficial in living my life in a loving manner. This is because of the way I was conditioned, to self seek (quiet the urge) which kept the urge in place. What a merry go round ride this produced, hence there wasn’t much peace in my life. This lasted for forty nine years and then one day through a tiny crack in my ego, there arose the possibility of a different view of life which was revealed to me and gave me some real answers as to the true nature of the urge.

Nine years ago it began as just a crack, but has been expanding ever since. For the most part the urge for peace is no longer there because it has been replaced with peace, but when the mind becomes agitated and the urge does return because of the Conditioned Mind Patterns that are in place, I’ve learned to see it from the I perspective that it arises from, and not attach to it. Only attachment to I keeps the urge in place so one has to search instead of there being peace. The search for peace will never result in peace because the search itself is what keeps one from experiencing peace. In this moment right now is where peace is so there’s no need to search for what already is. So it’s only when the mind settles and I is let go of that the urge will subside and lo and behold it is then that one will be at peace.

Nothing Last Forever

Nothing last forever and as long as I isn’t in control there can be awareness that no matter what one thinks, the Universe is ultimately in control and regardless of what is deemed as so important, one day it will not be so.

Yesterday morning as I was posting the article I wrote on one of the many sites that asked me to post on it, I suddenly got a message from Facebook stating I was being restricted from posting anything for six hours because I posted my article to fast (???). Trying to contact someone from FB is impossible and although at first my I was annoyed, there was nothing that could be done except to wait the six hours. A few people contacted me to tell me the link to my article was down and all I could say was, yeah I know, this too shall pass.

My I wanted to attach to this and make it about something, but that’s just because that’s what I does. In being acutely aware this was happening, it afforded me the ability not to attach to I and thus there was freedom. I was perplexed and still am as to why FB would do this, but I knew it was temporary. I got in touch with some feelings that arose in me on how I think what I do is so important, but how it can be it changed as quickly as a snap of a finger. Although my intentions are genuine with the process that’s happening to me, it showed me how quickly it can change. I wants to make mountains out of molehill, but the truth of the matter is this, nothing last forever and as long as I isn’t in control there can be awareness that no matter what one thinks, the Universe is ultimately in control and regardless of what one deems as so important “this too shall pass” or as stated in my article from the other day about bubbles, this too shall pop.

The Great Illusionist

The Conditioned Mind is a great illusionist, and what it creates is the illusion that life is as it appears. One forms beliefs that reinforce these illusions, so much so that it keeps the heart closed and one constantly looking for the pot of gold at the end of a rainbow.

Life really isn’t as it appears. The Conditioned Mind constantly tries to create a world that makes one wonder if they're happy. This created noise is an illusion that blocks one from seeing their own innate goodness and all this occurs without permission. When there’s an understanding that we’re just a manifestation of Universal Energy and not much else really matters, we can become still enough to see our creation not as the Conditioned Mind makes it appear, but as it was meant to be, lived from out true intention to be an instrument of stillness. The only thing that keeps one in a state of unawareness of this stillness is the Conditioned Mind.

Stillness breeds truth, truth breeds freedom. freedom breeds clarity and clarity breeds stillness. One day you’re in this form and one day just like that, you’re not. The base of your life determines how you’re spending the time that you have in this form. If it’s to serve your I Self you will never come from a place of stillness and it will be very difficult to see truth and find inner peace. If it’s to be still with all you heart and soul, the mind will settle and it will allow inner peace to be revealed which allows unity with all beings. They may not be in unity with you and that’s because of their conditioning, but unity with oneself is what’s important and how you will know you’re in unity with yourself is by the unity you have with all beings. This is the unity that only comes from one’s own heart. Separation is an illusion that’s created by the great illusionist, the Conditioned Mind, unity is what occurs when the conditioning falls away and the mind is still.

You Don't Get Me High Anymore

When the mind settles it can be said to desire “You don’t get me high anymore” and that’s because the only reason something is reached for is to alter one’s mind state by getting high.

For most of my life I reached out for things because whatever I was reaching for, it was thought to be needed to get me high, and by high I mean it took me out of the present moment monotony that my mind was creating. This altered state was constantly chased after and an array of things were used to achieve it, from drugs, alcohol, gambling, sex, food, TV, power, and whatnot, feel free to add your own. There was the constant mind agitation to get high on something because I didn’t have the ability to be with myself without altering my mind state. This is the root as to why anyone reaches for anything and without this need to alter one’s mind state, there would not be a need to get high and reach out for anything.

The present moment monotony that’s created is there because it’s not known how to just be and not need the present moment different. There are so many things used to get high that go beyond some of the conventional things like drugs, alcohol and gambling. Here are a few of the more subtle things used, speeding up to beat the yellow traffic light, weaving in and out of traffic, rooting for your favorite sports team or country, talking about others, cheating on a spouse, surfing the net and on and on, all these are used to alter one’s mind state to stay out of the present moment. When this reaching stops its because the thing used doesn’t get you high any more and either something else will be used that does or one will learn it’s ok to be with yourself because it’s who you will be with for the rest of your life and there’s no reason to get high anymore.

A Decision Not to Judge

Judging energy keeps the energy of what was done in place. I’m not saying love people who cause harm, just don’t judge them. It’s in the space of non judgement that love naturally arises.

What if you decide that every person you meet is perfect just as they are and although their behavior may not be to your liking or even to the world’s liking, they in no way need to be any different? How much peace would there be in your life because of this decision? It’s not like if you don’t like the way someone behaves that they are going to change, so why waste the energy on trying to change that which will not be changed. And since you can’t change the person or the unloving behavior exhibited, accepting them as they are will most definitely change you; after all you are the only one you can change and that’s only if you’re aware there’s something that needs changing.

This simple way of viewing people will have a profound impact on your life because it takes away the unloving energy of judging. How this impacts you is it stops the downward spiral of the judging energy which affects everyone. This is true even if the person does the most horrific act imaginable, judging them does nothing to change what was done, but it does keep the energy of what was done active; it’s actually all the same unloving energy. This occurs because regardless of the harm done, judging would just keep the unloving energy of what was done in place. I’m not saying love people who cause harm, what I am saying is don’t judge them. It’s in the space of non judgement that love naturally arises and it’s because of the decision made that every person you meet is perfect just as they are, no matter how unloving their behavior may be.

Only I Needs Forgiveness

Forgiveness is used so one can be released from (let go of) the hurt that’s being held on to, but regardless of what’s done, the hurt only hurts the person holding on to it, not the person who did the hurt.

Here is what I see when it comes to forgiveness, I’m not immune or insensitive to the hurts people feel, which are real to those holding onto them, so they can’t just be ignored. Why one uses forgiveness is to be released from (let go of) the hurt that’s being held onto. Regardless of what is done the hurt only hurts the person holding on to it, not the person who did the hurt. The only way to get beyond the hurt is to let it go, but the thing done isn’t let go of, it’s the attachment to I that needs to be let go of; I is what’s holding on to whatever it is that was done. There’s no getting around some of the horrible (non loving) things people do that surely cause hurts, but if there’s no I attached to it, there’s no one actually being hurt. So because of this, the hurt only hurts until I is let go of. You can say at this point this is forgiveness, but what you’re actually doing is letting go of an I attachment. Are you not?

It’s called forgiveness because of the lack of understanding of what’s actually transpiring; letting go of I attachment is what’s occurring. Sit with this and you will see it for yourself. I don’t make this stuff up, it takes a very settled mind to see what’s really going on in life. The conventional way of looking at things is deeply engrained and I challenge anyone to discount any of my writings, not because I’m a know it all, but because they come from a place that’s beyond me.

Here’s a short personal example, someone did something to me when I was young that I carried around for forty plus years. When I learned that I was conditioned to act in the ways that I did I also learned so was everyone else (they know not what they do). Although everyone is accountable for their actions, this understanding freed me from the attachment my I was holding on to. I didn’t forgive the person, there was no need to. This is how it works for everything that happens, you can say this is BS, but understand that’s just your attachment to I saying that. I doesn’t want you to know the truth because it will set you free and what you will be free of is I.

The Forgiveness Story

Regardless of what’s done that makes one think forgiveness is needed, it’s in the past, so forgiveness is just a story that keeps one entrapped to past Conditioned Mind Patterns.

I know many look at forgiveness much differently than has been revealed to me, and you can defend what you’ve learned, but if you haven’t sat and investigated forgiveness for yourself, you are going by someone else’s idea of what forgiveness is. It has been revealed to me that forgiveness is a story that keeps one entrapped to past Conditioned Mind Patterns. Regardless of what is done that makes one think forgiveness is needed, it occurred in the past. I know many like to hold on to the belief that emotions have to be felt, but I say who says so, the experts? Good luck with following the so called experts when it comes to living your life, besides do you really want to live your life by someone else’s ideas?

Forgiveness viewed in the conventional way actually keeps one entrapped to a story, because if there’s an I who either needs forgiveness or has to forgive, there in lies the story of entrapment. Round and round this goes and all without ever investigating the origin of the forgiveness story. Ok, so something happened to you at one time, but now it’s today and you’re still carrying it around, and the reason is because you have an attachment to I that needs to constantly make up a story. I state something and a lot of times the response is, I see but, or I get it however. Either truth is seen or it isn’t. Stick with the lies of the story, but as long as a story is made up and held on to, one’s life is a delusional lie.

This isn’t to ignore what happens to you, but if it’s not happening right now and you are still carrying it, it’s a story. Is it not? Create any story you’d like, but please don’t pass it around as if there’s some enlightening attribute associated with forgiveness, one doesn’t get to do that until it’s investigated and seen for the truth that it is. So run around and think you are better than others by needing to forgive them, but all I’m saying is if one knows not what they do, what is there to forgive but a story being held onto from the past.

Present Moment Obstacles

The more a person can remain and live in the present moment, the less obstacles there are that don’t allow life to be lived to the fullest. So to me, the key to any life is to be present or forever want your peace.

Whatever takes you from the present moment is the biggest obstacle you will face in having a peaceful and full life. This obstacle comes in many many forms and this is part of why they’re so difficult to identify. For me it was my inner feelings of inadequacy that led me down the road of never being able to be present for what was actually happening. This led me to a need to constantly search for something to quiet this inner void.

The obstacles will differ for everyone and will manifest as fear, envy, jealousy, anger, greed, lust, inadequacy, and whatnot, but what they all have in common is they take you from the present moment. With all the available obstacles in place, it makes it hard to pinpoint exactly why one can’t remain in the present moment. To me exposing these obstacles is the direction of my practice; to identify how they take me from the present moment. Although the present moment isn’t a magical place, it is the place where life actually happens and I’ve found that at least in this place I’m not living through a story of what’s happening, I’m actually present for life as it is.

The obstacles are plentiful and through a practice that develops discipline and concentration they can be revealed and seen for the blocks that they are. It will take a very disciplined and concentrated mind for these obstacles to be identified, but as they are, their control will lose its grip which will allow one to be in the present moment more and more. And simply put, the more one is in the present moment, the less obstacles there are that don’t allow a person to truly live life to the fullest.

X Marks the Spot

Our completeness is a well hidden treasure and although X marks the spot, for one to be aware of their treasure, it has to be known the spot that X marks.

I often speak of a completeness within each individual that doesn’t require one bit of doing for it to be, but it’s not known by many, even though it’s always there. There are reason it’s not known, these are the obstacles that must be identified or our completeness will remain as a hidden treasure. Knowing of one’s completeness is just that, a treasure and just like in the days of the pirates, a map is needed to discover it because it’s so well hidden. So much of the human psychic has to be sifted through because of one’s conditioning to even begin finding this treasure. The most difficult thing to understand about this is one already possesses the treasure, but because of all the false maps that are out there, obstacles are created so our treasure remains hidden. Without the realization of this, it makes the search seem endless.

As with most treasure maps X usually marks the spot and it’s no different here. The X in this case is on the heart and when one can see this they know they possess the true map, not one of the fake ones. The difference with this treasure map is X is the entire map, the beginning and the end, this is because the start and finish are the same. Once it’s known where the treasure (completeness) is, the obstacles (fake maps) are no longer followed, this leaves but one map and it’s the one where X truly marks the spot, right on one’s heart.

Is Suffering Necessary?

If a sentence is started with the words “I believe” STOP because an I story is being reinforced and when this occurs the only thing that can come of out of it is suffering.

A very important question to ask yourself – Is suffering necessary? The answer to this question is simple, for those who are awake, suffering isn’t necessary and for this who are asleep, it is. There has been much discussion lately about emotions and feeling and the suffering that’s associated with them. What I’ve learned is it’s the attachment to I that’s at the core of the suffering. I’ve developed a simple way to assist me in identifying when attachment is rearing its ugly head, I simply ask myself “Is suffering necessary” for me I’ve learned any attachment blocks my freedom to be present for what’s actually occurring, not an I story of what’s occurring. Not understanding how I is the core of attachment is why emotions and feelings are so difficult to accept and the lack of understanding impermanence anchors it.

When I finally understood the relationship between impermanence and I, it allowed the control that emotions and feelings had over me to fall away; there’s no resistance of them, they just aren’t there. Here’s how this works; my mom is eighty four years old, obviously I love my mother, but I don’t attach to her current condition. It’s inevitable that one day her passing will occur, as will everyone’s. This understanding has already allowed me to accept her passing so whenever it does occur there will be no I attachment, so there will not be the need to grieve or suffer. Everything is impermanent in life and the moment this is accepted the I lets go of its control along with its attached suffering. Look I know this isn’t the conventional way to accept emotions and feelings, but it’s what has been revealed to me and I’ve learned through self investigation that to those who are awake, suffering isn’t necessary and to those who are asleep, it is. Attach to whatever is needed, just understand suffering is optional.

Knowing What's Right

Just because someone else may not think what you do is right, it doesn’t mean it isn’t so. Through self investigation what is right will be revealed, but only if the mind is settled enough to see.

What many people don’t seem to grasp is in the space of silence is where one encounters the true essence of life, this doesn’t mean feeling and emotions are ignored, it’s actually just the opposite, the space of silence is the only place where one can truly be with their feelings and emotions, but not in the way that most of us have been conditioned to believe. Most people are brought up to believe you have to feel or be emotional when certain things occur, but I ask you if it causes you to suffer, is it truly necessary? I am speaking strictly from my perspective and what I’ve learned is anything that causes me to suffer is not necessary. So for me when feelings or emotions begin to arise, I notice them for what they are and allow to them to keep going by not attaching to them.

I know many disagree with this and that is each individuals right, but anything that causes suffering I’ve learned not to attached to it. I don’t push feelings or emotions away, I just don’t attach to them or anything else for that matter that’s going to take me from my place of peace. I’m not to concerned what anyone else thinks of this because I have found my peace is my responsibility, regardless of what anyone else thinks. For to many years I wasn’t at peace because I listened to what everyone else thought was right, but today through the discipline of sitting, I’ve discovered a place within where true answers of non attachment have been revealed. This has allowed me to be at peace more often than not, and just because someone else may not think this is right, doesn’t mean it isn’t so.

Seeing Lifes Splendor

The splendor of life is seen in the splendor of what our view of the world is. The world is seen through our eyes and when the mind is settled, what is seen is the splendor of life.

The world’s splendor is seen only one takes the the time to see it. You don’t have to go to some wonder of the world to see it, how about your own back yard or just taking a walk in the park. But if the mind isn’t settled it won’t matter where you are, you will not the see the splendor that the moment has to offer.

So much of life is missed because of the noise in the head, take the time to smell the roses before the roses are gone. If you keep saying tomorrow, my heart goes out to you because literally tomorrow never comes. Regardless of what concept or belief you want to make up in your head, it’s always today. You may dream of tomorrow, but the dream can only happen today. You can hope or wish for tomorrow to be different than it is today, but at some point tomorrow melds into today. It’s always today and that’s where the mind needs to be if you want to be with the splendor of the Universe.

Take a step back before you miss one more second of your life. There are many many distractions, that’s why if the mind isn’t settled you’ll miss the splendor of life which is always right before your very eyes. It’s up to each individual to see the splendor that life has to offer, but if you’re to busy it’ll be over before you know it. You can accomplish many things in life, but that doesn’t necessarily equate to seeing the splendor of it. It may allow you to see how splendid you are, but it’s the Universe that gives a sense of awe, and it will only be seen by a mind that is ready to settle enough to see the splendor that life has to offer.

The Bubbles of Life

Each occurrence in life is as if it were a bubble, it arises from nothing and returns to nothing, but regardless of what occurs it will only last a certain amount of time as this too shall pop.

I can remember as a child being fascinated with blowing bubbles and even today if someone is blowing bubbles I will look at them. To me life is like a bubble, it begins its existence from nothing and through a process, a bubble is formed. It will last as long as conditions allow it to and then just like that it will pop. No bubble or life will last forever.

Each occurrence in life is as if it were a bubble and regardless of what occurs, it will only last a certain amount of time until it pops. This is one of the reasons a person always needs to look and reach for the next thing, whether it’s in the form of a book, promotion at work, lover, a degree, health remedy, some form of attire, food, drugs, alcohol, a bet, and so on, even when the thing is gotten (the bubble is made) it will soon pop. Everything reached for is as if it were a bubble and although one can be fascinated with them, they will not last, no matter how much one wants them to.

Just think about it, bubble after bubble (life occurrences) arise from nothing and pop as the return to nothing. This constantly occurs throughout one’s life until the last bubble pops which is life itself, but it’s no different than the other bubbles. It arose from nothing, manifested, and returns for whence it came. The key here is to truly understand the correlation between these two and to fascinated with each and every bubble (occurrence) knowing in one’s heart that although they’re all a part of the natural process of life, this too shall pop.

Creating Space

When space between our thoughts is created, one awakens to awareness, truth, and love. The more space that’s created, the more awareness, truth, and love there is, but there’s no magic here, just space.

Yesterday my article was about truth arising from the space within oneself. But how is this space created? A lot of times people repeat and post things that are profound, but few know their true meaning and how to actually implement them. It’s nice to say “Live in the Now” or “let go” but how does one go about doing this? Everything is learned in life so if one isn’t taught how to implement what they’re attempting to do, it probably won’t happen.

Here is one way to create space in your life so there’s the possibility for truth to arise. The first thing is to become aware of the constant chatter that goes on between your ears. If there isn’t awareness of this, it will be very difficult to create space. How one becomes aware of this is by looking inward and investigating what all the noise is about. Notice the stories that are being created and understand as long as they’re in place, space and truth will not be.

I had to start a practice of sitting and this is what allowed awareness as the constant chatter slowly subsided. This isn’t magic here, as the chatter subsided, space was created and truth began arising. This is the process that is still in place right now for me, but today the space created had expanded so there’s a lot less chatter between my ears and a lot more truth arising. If this space wasn’t created, I would be as I had always been and my book and all of the articles that I’ve written would not be. This is simple, when space is created what one awakens to is awareness, truth, and love and as there is more and more space created, there is more and more awareness, truth, and love, but like I said, there’s no magic here, just space.

The Space of Truth

The only way truth will be known is when there’s the space of needing nothing to prove, defend, or explain, and this is because truth doesn’t need a story. Why would it if its the truth?

Regardless of what happens in your life, at the end of it the most important thing is to know you lived in the space of truth and you have no regrets. To me this doesn’t mean accomplishing great things, but it does mean living from and understanding the spaciousness of unquestioned truth. Don’t allow anyone to deter you in what the Universe reveals to you as truth. Make sure it’s not something made up or something that someone else tells you or writes about, but that it’s the truth the comes from the space which needs no defending nor explaining. If someone has to prove their way is the right way, listen politely, investigate it, and I guarantee you will see the flaws in what they are saying. Truth doesn’t have to be pushed, proven, explained or defended, it’s truth, it’s self sustaining.

Deep within, from a place I know nothing about, things have been revealed to me that need no defending, explaining, or have to be proved or pushed on anyone. I share what I know, but I don’t know how I know it, all I know is that I do. Forget beliefs about something, forget all thoughts about what you think is truth because regardless of what the experts say, truth comes from the space that needs no explanation. There is no story when it comes to truth and there is no need to defend it. Why would something without question need defending? Say what you will, but if you think what you are saying is truth, but it doesn’t come from within yourself, it isn’t truth. You can’t learn truth from someone else, that would be like a dog chasing its tail. Truth doesn’t come from a book, it will only be revealed from the space within yourself when the mind settles. Many make up their truth because it’s all they know, but the only way truth will be known is when there’s the space of needing nothing to prove, defend, or explain, and this is because truth doesn’t need a story. Why would it if its the truth?

It Takes Work, But the Results Are Great

Because of the manifestation of our existence, we are always connected to the Divine source of the Universe, but unless there’s awareness of this there will be very little cooperation with the Divine.

Excerpt from “It’s Monday Only in Your Mind: You Are Not Your Thoughts – pages 138/139

This cooperation has nothing to do with the material plane. We can be greedy, yet still be rich. We can hate, yet still have people who love us. We can be miserable and still live to be a hundred. But there is one thing we will never have when life is lived from the plane of our I Self and that one thing is a connection to Divine Love. Not God’s love for us; that’s there regardless of what we do, but our love for God. Our love for God is what happens when our heart stays open.

The more the heart remains in its natural state of openness, the more love there will be for God and for life itself. Real joy of living is not based in anything outside us; it can only materialize when there is cooperation with life. This can only be done by continual learning what will keep our hearts opened so Universal Love can become our mind’s default setting. Universal Love conquers our negative Conditioned Mind Patterns, one day at a time.

What has happened to me is not something special. It is available to anyone who is inclined to believe there is more to life than what meets the eye. If you are willing to search within and learn how to identify and stop the noise in your head from constantly drawing from your Conditioned Mind Patterns, you will have a chance to be in cooperation with the Creative Intelligence of the Universe for a truly miraculous change to occur in your life. As the song Amazing Grace states: “I once was lost, but now I’m found; was blind, but now I see.”

Attaching Labels

Every label used to describe a path, limits that path to whatever label is being applied. Judgements, labels, concepts and beliefs, they are the limits to the awe inspiring love the Universe has to offer.

The Universe needs no permission to do what it does. It only responds to things out of necessity, but it does so unconditionally, without thought. It doesn’t label or form concepts, it’s existence as it is, with nothing added because it needs nothing, it’s self sustaining. It creates, it destroys, it neither loves nor hates in the sense of emotions, but its beauty is awe inspiring and arises from a love that can’t be described. It’s pure energy and it is from this energy that we are created.

This is existence in its purest state. The moment this is labeled it loses it sense of purity. Humans apply all kinds of labels to life, but life needs no labels. Label whatever it is you think is needed, but understand it’s derived from a concept made up by the thought I, not life. The more one’s I needs to label life the more conceptual it becomes and the more life’s true essence is missed. Even the label of no label is from a label of I.

The place of no labels, concepts, beliefs, and non emotional attachment is one’s true place of existence; it’s in this place in the midst of the Universe that our true essence is. It’s a place that is here, there, and everywhere, but not labeled as such. Stillness exist as life and if a label is needed apply it, just understand every label has a limit. Once something is labeled it creates blockage, so be in the unlimited space of what is and be with all the Universe has to offer. All the beauty of the Universe is within each and every person, it is where everyone arose from, but only the label applied by I limits the awareness of the Universe’s magnificence.

The Noise of Wanting

When something occurs, wanting it different won’t change it. Wanting is what causes the noise in the head and only when one doesn’t want to change the unchangeable will there be quiet.

It’s vital to understand what the noise in the head is if it’s ever going to quiet and stop its incessant control. It may never quiet completely and that’s ok because it’s not about quiet so much as it is learning to live with the noise. You may say, but I’m always talking about the mind settling and quietness and now I’m saying learn to live with the noise, and that’s exactly the point, in learning to live with the noise the mind becomes quiet or at least settled. So many people try to quiet the mind and don’t realize that’s noise in the head. One will never quiet the mind, it’s just about impossible, but things can be practiced that allows it to settle. The most important part of this to understand is every thought is noise, thoughts of love – noise, thoughts of hate – noise, positive thoughts – noise, negative thoughts – noise, everything is noise until the time comes that the noise becomes quiet, not because it goes away, but because one learns to live with it.

You see, not wanting things different is quiet, but most want things as they want them and therein lies the noise in the head. Once something occurs no amount of wanting it different will change it, so what can one do but establish a mindset that doesn’t want it different, or not and remain in the discontent of the noise in the head that wants to change the unchangeable. So learning to be with whatever it is that occurs is how the mind settles and until there’s awareness of this, the noise in the head will want things different as it remains in control.

The Process of a Life

Life is a process, but as with any process it can go in many different directions. What needs to be looked at is if the process in place is bringing maximum results, if it’s not it can be changed, but only by you.

Here is the process that I went through when I woke up from the sleep of unconsciousness. The first thing that had to happen was, I had to admit that something wasn’t quite right in my life. I had no idea what wasn’t right, but at least I knew something wasn’t right and that was enough to initiate the first step in my process of change. The second step was deciding to make a choice to change what wasn’t right. I ran my life my way twice and both times I ended up in rehab, so I knew I had to find another way and it couldn’t be my way. I made a decision to find out what wasn’t right in my life and begin exploring what this was. The third step was the beginning of developing a path of practice. I read a lot of book in a short period of time and I began to sit in quiet which allowed me to get answers, this led me to becoming aware of new possibilities. I began seeing things that were previously hidden from my view.

Step four in this process was developing and having a clear vision of where I was heading and making a commitment to a new way of living. I saw this as a must if there was to be change from my previous process and as I sat I was provided with a new and practical way to live and the most important part about this was it wasn’t me doing it, it was being revealed to me from my mind settling through the practice of sitting. Step five and the final step in the process is valuing, appreciating, and celebrating this new way of life that was revealed to me everyday. Enjoying it is something I’m learning how to do. It matters little what happens, what does matter is to enjoy this ride (process) because one day it will end. The most important thing to me is at the end of this ride, this process of life, I know I’ll be able to say “what a ride” and I’m blessed to have all of you along with me.

The Luck of the Draw

The luck of the draw makes one’s life mostly the way that it is and as one develops tools, they’re used accordingly. So who among us can truly judge who is right and who is wrong?

Everyone uses the tools they have in place to live their life and regardless of the results, it’s to the best of one’s ability. Although those tools may not be based in love and to many it may seem like a lot of people miss the so called mark, they’re doing the best they can with their developed tools. It’s not much different than someone who is supposedly on the right track. Both are using their developed tools so who can truly be a judge of which is right and which is wrong? To me, the one who is seemingly doing wrong is only doing what is known as is the one who is seemingly doing what is right.

We can’t expect people to be anything more than what they’re conditioned to be. Most of the time, the only difference in people is their environment and how they’re raised. It can be considered the luck of the draw, one example would be if your parents are from wealth than that will be your fate. If they’re from poverty, wealth will be very difficult to attain, that is unless you are born with some special talent which the world glorifies, then you will experience an entirely different luck of the draw. Mostly the life one is born into is just the circumstances of fate (the luck of the draw) so how can anyone be fairly judged?

The saying “don’t judge a book by its cover” has value because most things aren’t as they appear, and if you think they are, you miss the mark regardless of the particular path you’re on. When there isn’t judgment and one has the understanding that everyone is doing the best they can with the tools they have in place, then life will possibly be one of peace. This is because one will see that most people live their life the way that they do simply because of the luck of the draw.

Chasing Comfort

For most, comfort is something that’s constantly sought and it’s a direct link to what keeps the mind in a state of agitation. When things are accepted as they are, comfort is no longer a necessity.

We live in a comfort cultured society, when it’s cold we desire warmth and when it’s hot we desire to be cool. Chasing after this comfort is how many people spend their entire lives, and if it’s not learned to be with the discomforts of what happens and not constantly push them away, there will be very little peace in one’s life. We life mostly in a place where we’re afraid of this discomfort because it means facing ourselves. Although our true essence is the love of all creation, this isn’t seen because the Conditioned Mind doesn’t allow it to be so.

Once a practice is developed that allows some discipline to at least slow the mind down, it can seen how chasing after comfort occupies most of our waking hours; we’re in constant fix it mode trying to have things the way we think they need to in order to be at peace. But the problem with this is nothing stays the same so we have to constantly make adjustments. It’s truly exhausting to live in this way, but it’s the way most live. It doesn’t have to be this way, but the only way it won’t be is if one can be with what occurs and not want it any different than what it is. This doesn’t mean one can’t have comfort, just understand comfort isn’t what allows you to be at peace, only accepting things as they are will and that’s only because one sees the comfort in that.

Thought Created Reality

Until it’s understood that it’s the false sense of self that needs to attach to thoughts, thoughts will continue to have dominance over you because of the self absorbed energy they’re given.

When it comes to being free from the bondage of one’s thoughts, very few people truly let go of the thought of self so they remain entrapped to the self and thus entrapped to their thoughts. This is the reason why things are the way they are in the world, it has nothing to do with what’s occurring because our thoughts are responsible for what’s occurring. If the thought of hate didn’t exist, the actions that the thought of hate produces wouldn’t exist. What would happen then is life would naturally produce actions of kindness, compassion, love, and whatnot because that’s what’s arises when one isn’t constantly controlled by their self dominated thoughts.

I don’t believe this to be true, I know this is true from watching my thoughts and observing the nonsense they create. Life has nothing to do with one’s thoughts, but it has everything to do with one’s thoughts because they create one’s reality. The weather, driving in traffic, religion, politics, when someone close to you gets sick or dies, these are but a few of the things dominated by one’s self thoughts and although these things exist at the time they’re occurring, the thought about them is what controls how they affect you. Life just happens, but it’s the bondage to one’s thoughts that creates reality and it’s all because of the attachment to a false sense of self. Until this false sense of self is let go of, one will not be able to watch their thoughts and observe the results the false sense of self produces and so one’s reality will continue to be controlled by whatever their own thoughts create.

A Deluded Mind

A deluded mind doesn’t necessarily have to label things as right or wrong, what makes it deluded is it doesn’t see things as they are. Being awake allows one to see things as they are, minus the deluded story.

At one time the world was seen by most people as being flat, this was because of a belief that this was the way it was. Probably someone with authority said it was flat and nobody questioned this, that is until Galileo came along. He probably asked himself if the world being flat was true. Imagine what the people of that time were thinking and saying about him. How he came to his understanding of the world not being flat doesn’t really matter, that he wasn’t deluded about what others said is all that mattered because it led to truth.

The deluded mind doesn’t see things as they truly are, it makes up stories. The common link in all of these deluded stories is the I Self, one’s ego, and if there isn’t awareness of this, the stories will continue because they will be needed; that they are needed is the delusion of a deluded mind. The other day someone responded to a post of mine saying there are “absolutes” in life. The only absolute I see is one day this form will cease to exist in the way that it currently does. There’s no delusion about this nor is there a need to attach a story to this about going someplace else when this body dies. To me this is seeing things as they really are and without the deluded mind creating a story, one is free and can be with things as they are and not the delusional story of how life and even death is believed to be needed.

A Moment of Grace

God is just a word, what happens to a person when there’s a shift that changes one’s existence from self serving to love cannot truly be explained by words.

Below is an excerpt from “It’s Monday Only in Your Mind” pg. 82: A Moment of Grace

On a day which wasn’t much different from any other — I was driving pass a wedding and I had a moment of clarity: I asked myself, “If I continue on this road, how am I ever going to be there for my children? These are the most important years of their lives, and I need to be there for them.” I made a decision right then and there that I was going to get off this pain medication. I was going to do whatever it was I needed to do. Although I wasn’t aware of this at the time, my life as I knew it was about to change, forever.

This clarity came from my having a thought about someone other than me. It was probably twenty years since I’d truly thought of anyone else. As far back as I can recall my thoughts were always centered on me. This is our Conditioned Mind, our I Self at its best. Just this one thought of not thinking of me, saved my life.

Now some people may say God planted this thought in me, and that may be true, to an extent. As I understand it, love overcame my conditioning for one split second — the love of my children. Where it arose from I don’t really know, but it did. At the moment when those thoughts occurred, I was willing to do what was necessary to cooperate with life instead of fight it. All my life I was always in collision with my true self (with love). The self that was there when my existence started, before my ego, my I Self, took over. At my moment of clarity, my true self (love) arose to overcome my Conditioned Thinking. I am eternally grateful for this. It doesn’t benefit me or anyone else to attach a belief that something outside of me did this; all I know is because of what happened to me at that moment, my entire life changed forever. God is just a word. What happened to me in that moment, words cannot explain.

Wear the World Like a Loose Garment

Excerpt from It’s Monday Only in Your Mind: You Are Not Your Thoughts – pg. 109

Have you ever heard the phrase, “Wear the world like a loose garment.” If I want, I can be free and not be controlled by my Conditioned Mind Patterns, but I have to learn to let go of them and live life from a place of peace.

You may experience periods where there is a semblance of peace in life, but once certain conditions arise, BAM — you are drawn in and your peace is gone. Just like that. So where is this so-called control you think you have in your life? What happened to your peace? Did you decide it was time not to be at peace anymore? You were just at peace, and now you are not. Once the drama begins, the ego takes over, and the are up has to run its course until the ego has had its ll. If the conditioning has a lot of history attached to it, its ll can last a long time and end up anywhere.

Many people end up in jail, have car accidents, etc. whatever form the conditioning takes on produces so many problem. So many tragic things happen when this occurs, and it can all be avoided if you take the time and learn to “Wear the world like a loose garment”. Take the time to understand it is just a Conditioned Mind Pattern that was activated and all it did was run its course. You were just along for the ride.

A Single Thought Belief System

One’s entire life hinges on a single thought which makes life what it is. Learning to skillfully attach to the thoughts that are truly beneficial determines how one lives.

What a person is up against in life and why change is so difficult, even if truth is revealed to them and they’re trying to live by it, is because a deeply rooted belief system that’s almost impossible to break free from is in place. I say almost because even though this belief system is constantly reinforced and remains the default setting of one’s mind, if a person has a shift in their perspective, their created reality changes. But with it in place it’s why there are so many different beliefs in the world and why everyone thinks theirs is the right one; it’s so deeply engrained it is impossible to see beyond it until something removes the veil of delusion.

The thoughts that one attaches to that make up one’s belief system, are done so because it’s thought they’re beneficial, if not they wouldn’t be attached to. If these thoughts aren’t seen as erroneous they remain in place. The more one thinks their created belief system is the right one, the harder it is to see beyond it. Seeing the world through thought is delusional because everyone has different ones and that’s why everyone see things differently.

There’s only one truth and until this is seen, life remains delusional. To get to the point where it’s not delusional, one has to get beyond the thoughts that hold their belief system (conditioning) in place, regardless of what it is. It all begins as one single thought and then a person’s conditioning determines what happens next. Attachment to it or not is the difference in how one’s life is viewed and if there’s going to be unity or separation with life. The truth is one is never separated from life, but it feels this way when there’s a thought that makes one think they are. One’s entire life hinges on a single thought that makes life what it is, so skillfully choose which ones you attach to.

Unquestionable Truth

Truth sets you free, but if you hold onto someone else’s truth without investigating it for yourself, their delusion becomes yours. Through stillness truth arises, this doesn’t make one right, only free.

The other day I was having a discussion with someone on what has been revealed to me in the last nine years and I made the statement that we are all addicts and if investigated you will see the truth in this. She got very defensive and preceded to tell me I didn’t know what I was talking about and she studied psychology in college and I was wrong. I didn’t argue with her because it’s what I know and for me it needs no defending. She also stated that she knows how the mind works, but I found that knowing all about how the mind works from a book is totally different than knowing your own mind from sitting and self investigation. All books are written by someone and it’s only their interpretation of what they see, if you think what someone else wrote is truth without investigating it, someone else’s delusion becomes yours. Many will hold onto their delusions until death, with much suffering in between.

I share in my book my experience and what was revealed to me, I don’t profess that it’s truth, but before anyone discounts what I’ve written, I would ask if it was investigated or are they just stating someone else’s limited perspective that came from a book. Even though I may know what truth is, each individual has to investigate their own mind to see how truth arises from within themselves; not a made up truth or a book truth, but the deep unquestionable truth that comes only from the stillness within.

Only through stillness can the questionable be truly answered. The moment you think something is undeniably a certain way, you are in the throes of delusion. You may think I’m deluded in saying this and maybe I am, but I say to you, investigate it for yourself and see where the truth is. Once you see the truth, questioning is no longer needed. I didn’t question this women if what she was stating was right, not because I was right, but because truth was known. Only by knowing the truth will one be set free, but this doesn’t occur if one is holding onto someone else’s version of truth.

Ball and Chain Adjustments

If life has to be a certain way for it to be okay, it’s as if a ball and chain is being carried around because needing life a certain way creates the burden of having to make constant adjustments.

Nobody knows what this life has in store for them between the time they are born and when it ends. Today you can be going along with what’s considered the perfect life and in an instant that can change, and it will for someone. Some turn of events is occurring right now as I’m writing this that’s turning someone’s life upside down. Moments ago it may have been just the way that it was wanted, but now all that has changed. So what’s the point of this writing? It will hopefully allow you to take a moment to reflect on life needing to be a certain way for it to be considered okay and how when it changes there’s discontentment.

So much time is spent trying to maintain a certain existence and when the moment comes when it changes, will you be ready for it or will the change be resisted and hence will you allow the change to create a burden? Life is life, and without a moments notice it can change and even end, and this is occurring right now for someone. The question to ask yourself is what are you holding onto that you deem so important? If life ended right now, everything and I do mean everything you are holding on to will be let go of, like it or not. It all goes away, none of it matters whatsoever from concern for children, parents, the state of the world, your favorite team, jobs, and so on. So why is it being held on to? That’s the question to ask yourself if you are ever to be free, or not and remain attached to the ball and chain of needing life to be a certain way, creating the burden of having to make constant adjustments.

A Living Prayer

To be of self is to struggle with life, to be of love is to be free of the struggle. Because of our conditioning the struggle will only cease when we learn to use prayer to be the love that we are.

To me prayer is not something to be used to get me out of a jam or when I want a situation to be a certain way. What I have come to understand as prayer is something that can stop the incessant mind from trying to arrange every situation the way I think it should be. In order to do this and allow prayer to be a vital tool in my life, it needs to become the foundation for the way I live; in other words my life is to be a living prayer. A constant state of prayer is a constant state of knowing who I truly am and to know that my unloving self doesn’t have much power. Not only is it vital to understand this because of the energy of the universe that I am, but also because in this understanding there’s awareness of the love that I’m given which aligns me with who I truly am.

To practice being in a constant state of prayer isn’t related to anything that happens in my life. It’s to be in a constant state of having my heart opened no matter what happens. In this state I can than be with what is instead of constantly being controlled by a mind that wants everything to be to it’s liking. When this occurs I am in alignment with Universal Energy, my heart remains open, and I become the love that I am. In this state, life is lived the way it was intended, as a living prayer to benefit all beings.

Unity Inward/Unity Outward

Unity inward results in unity outward. A self serving mind separates one from themselves and all beings, it’s only when one understands separation is created by their own mind that it will cease to exist.

Unity with life is related to our ability to be in unity with ourselves. It’s imperative to understand that it’s not the great secrets of the Universe, but one’s own mind that needs to be understood. When the mind is in unity with itself, it’s in unity with all beings, it’s in this place that there’s no separation. The mind that creates unity is the same mind that creates separation and it’s one’s conditioning that determines the outcome of what the default setting of one’s mind is.

Separation is generated by the energy of a self serving mind and it doesn’t allow life to be conducive to unity, so if separation is being created, it’s impossible for one not to be separated; simple. The direction the mind goes is based on the energy it generates so to that extent will one be in unity; only unity inward can emanate unity outward.

Unity is simply the ability to love. This is the hearts true direction, hence it becomes the direction of our mind. When love is generated it produces much different results than when the energy generated is self serving. The results of love are in the form of being in unity with oneself and thus in unity with all beings. To love is the simplest form of life, it’s what puts us in unity with everything. Unity is directly related to our willingness to love, our separation is in our choice to self serve. It’s up to each individual which energy is generated and what the results of life will be. Simply love and there will be unity, or not and basically you will be an island. Don’t blame life for this because it’s one’s own mind that directs what’s chosen. Love is simple to understand, but its not easy to generate the energy needed that puts one in unity with all beings.

Beyond Sense Pleasure

When there’s not the constant pull for pleasure, the mind settles and the Universe works with whatever talent is in you for its betterment. Who knows, a book may even come out of it.

Deconstruct the links that cause you to suffer, they are greed, hate, and delusion and it’s because of their essence that one suffers. Addiction to sense pleasures is of a lower vibration. The core of this belief is that the more one satisfies their sense pleasures, the happier one will be. Satisfying these pleasures are not an issue until they produce craving, it is then that problems arise. Remove this mask and what you will be left with goes beyond anything you can imagine.

The bondage of wanting pleasure is not only sought by just about everyone, it has been in place for eons. Forget about getting beyond it, it’s no small feat just becoming aware of this, but when there is awareness of this and one does go beyond the pleasure seeking, the results are miraculous. There’s no telling what may arise and what one may experience when pleasure seeking takes a back seat. Ones’s creative energy will go in a direction not previously known and this is because the pleasure seeking that’s been in place has been blocking it from arising.

When there’s not the constant pull for pleasure, the mind settles and the Universe works with whatever talent is in you for its betterment. There may be a musician, a painter, a gardener or botanist, or even a writer inside you, who knows a book may even come out of it. I guarantee you this, whatever it is that’s comes from one’s creative energy it will be based in love because that’s just the way the Universe rolls.

Enticed to Cling

Although clinging is very subtle, eventually it leads to death and this is regardless of what is being held on to. Death is just quicker when certain things are clung to that speed up the process.

When one sees the gravitational pull between clinging and not clinging, this leads to the discovery of the lawful nature of our mind, bodies, and of the world. It opens one up to themselves to see exactly what clinging does and what happens when there is and when there isn’t clinging. These natural laws dictate one’s direction of energy and what is held onto. Clinging comes from deeply seated triggers and until one is aware of them they control the show. There are times there may be less of a response to them, but for the most part they’re in control.

Clinging is a lot like fishing, certain baits are used to lure in certain fish. There are times that no matter what, the fish won’t take the bait, but for the most part the bait is usually so enticing to the fish that it has to go for it. This is done unconsciously by the fish because taking the bait most times leads to its death. There is a fight that ensues once the fish is hooked and some do get away, but that’s not the norm. The sad thing is the fish will do this over and over again. Only until it knows the bait is attached to a hook will it be able to do things differently.

Sounds eerily similar to human clinging, which is also attached by a hook and until one is aware of this, the bait will be to enticing not to give in to it. Although there is a struggle that ensues and some people do get away, for the most part clinging leads to death and this is regardless of what is being held onto, it’s just more imminent when certain things are clung to. It’s not enough to not just take the bait, the key is to be aware the bait is attached to a hook because if there isn’t awareness of this, even if you get away this time, eventually you will not because the bait will be to enticing.

The Falling Away of Thought

Regardless of what’s going on around you, sit in the peace of the moment and watch how without attaching to anything all thoughts fall away. It’s in this falling away (non attachment) that one is free.

The other day I touched on sitting as though you were a container instead of establishing a point as a center because a centered point can cause separation in a way where there is and outside and an isolated inward point. Concentrating on a center of being as a container allows for more space so there’s more absorbing energy to allow the controlling thought to bounce around and eventually fall away. Space is needed for this and being a container provides it.

I’ve also recently starting sitting with what’s called the mountain meditation. Visualize being a mountain, although all kinds of things happen to the outside of mountain, even if the mountain is stripped bare, it still exist. Sitting with your legs as crossed as possible establishes a base, it’s very difficult to shake something with a solid foundation and this is a mountains strength. You are the mountain and no matter what happens out there, the mountain always exist; unshaken.

Another visualization I’ve been using is associated with the recently developed Four Principles, they’re on my website and FB site. A thought arises, now what? Watch it and how I wants to attach to it. Sit with the thought, watching that it’s going round and round in your head, understanding the conditioning and the I cause of it. Realizing this and watching the I attachment to a thought is happening allows for a practice to be put in place so the thought falls away. It’s like having an itch, there’s the understanding a condition is causing the itch, the itch is there, but don’t attach I to it. Realize only I itches, now just sit in the peace of the moment and watch how without scratching it, the itch falls away. It’s in this falling away (non attachment) that one is free.

Conditioned Behavior

Outside circumstances only affect a person to the degree of their unconsciousness and although a broken mind can’t fix itself, once it’s realized it’s broken it can now be healed.

It’s not what happens that causes one to suffer, it’s the inability to learn from it which causes one to repeat the same behavior over and over. Unfortunately when this is done, it creates suffering which is self inflicted. So subtle is this that only those with a settled mind will see it. I jokingly say I only made five mistakes my whole life, but I made them over and over again, seriously though I was stuck in behavior patterns for forty nine years that led to me to create my own suffering. Fortunately nine years ago this changed and although those patterns are still in place to a degree, their control has lessened and in the process so has the suffering.

The reason these behavior patterns were repeated was because of the attachment to I, this is what was revealed to me. If it wasn’t for them causing my suffering I would probably still be asleep and hence I would still be repeating the same behavior patterns. I cherish this awareness because I now use these behavior patterns for the opportunities they provide and the freedom that can be had when I is let go of.

This is so very subtle because of how engrained these patterns are and also how I is constantly reinforced to remain in control. I can’t stress it enough to sit so the mind settles because if you don’t, the core of all suffering will remain in place. Anxiety, stress, many ailments, fear, anger, feel free to add what has you in its grip, are all caused by the subtle patterns of I that are constantly reinforced. This is what keeps one destined to repeat non loving behavior patterns. All of this come from within oneself, it has nothing to do with outside circumstances and although a broken mind can’t fix itself, once it’s realized it’s broken it can now be healed.

High Energy Opens Doors

When it’s seen clearly how the Universe is in control and nothing has to be done but to keep aligning yourself with stillness or the greater good, doors will open that had been previously closed.

Everything happens in the time that it happens. I’m not big on “it’s suppose to happen” because some of the things that occur in life aren’t deserved. I’m not so sure about predestined occurrences as if there’s someone who designed a master plan for each individual’s life, but I do know as a fact when you align yourself with a certain energy (this energy can be labeled as love, but it doesn’t have to be) it seems to open doors that were previously closed. It’s not that these doors weren’t always there, but they weren’t seen because of the conditioning in place blocking their view.

This isn’t some spiritual magic I’m talking about here, this is just some basic practical application of using common sense. As I’ve stated before it was never my intention to write a book, let alone write an daily article everyday for the better part of three years, but lo and behold that’s exactly what happened. To me I wasn’t chosen and I definitely know there is no specialness in the sense of my existence, but what happened to this form named Michael was miraculous. A totally selfish self centered individual was transformed dramatically for the purpose of the betterment of humanity. This doesn’t mean everyone likes me or even agrees with me, but it is what happened to me.

My part in this came from a place of desperation where I probably had one foot in the grave and was existing with a very low energy level, this is the energy of selfishness. In this place of desperation I was emptied of all ego and was lifted up to a different level of energy. Unfortunately lol, since that time the ego has returned somewhat, but not with the control it once had over me. It actually has become an ally in the sense it’s how I keep learning. I know people write things like, there’s no self, or there’s no doer, but punch me or have a loved one die and see how this no self, or no doer works out.

Recently I’ve changed my direction somewhat in focusing on consciously putting more people around me with like energy and I can see things within myself starting to shift a little more away from selfishness. I only state this to show how one’s expansion will keep going as long as their energy remains aligned with the greater good or love if you prefer. You see, this life although manifested as a form named Michael, isn’t about me one bit. When it can be seen clearly how the Universe is in control, it will be understood there’s nothing that has to be done but to keep aligning yourself with stillness or the greater good. It’s stillness or the greater good that will take you to places you could have never gotten to selfishly and it’s this energy that opens doors that had been previously closed.

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Happy Without a Story

The only way one will ever be truly happy is without the story that something other than this moment will provide happiness. When this is understood so will true happiness be understood.

Everyone has a story, no one goes through life storyless, but the story really isn’t the issue, it’s how the story becomes one’s controlling energy that’s when issues arise. There other day I wrote the story of my mom not doing well, how that affects me is how I make it my story, but it isn’t my story, it’s just what’s happening. Since there are five siblings in my family, we all have a different version of the mom story, none are the right or wrong one, they’re just what each one of perceives.

Here’s why any story creates an issue, someone posted yesterday how happy they were that tomorrow they are going to start their vacation, so this has to mean right now they’re not happy. Although this seems innocent, it’s not because this simple statement blocks out truly living life and being happy with right now. This is the issue a story creates, it doesn’t allow you to be with the fullness of the life you’re actually living in this moment. It’s always when this or that happens I will be ……….. fill in your own story, but that story is your block to your freedom. So the only way one will ever be truly happy is without the story that something other than this moment will provide happiness and when this is understood so will true happiness be understood without a story.

Supported by Strong Roots

Standing firm and developing strong roots is essential in trying times as well as in good ones because the winds will come and blow you over without a strong root system.

The wind will never defeat a tree with a strong root system. Standing firm and developing strong roots is essential in trying times as well as in the seemingly good times because the winds will come regardless. How deep the roots are will determine how much damage can be incurred on the tree. Standing at the trunk of a tree and looking up when it’s windy it seems as though the tree will buckle over as the branches sway back and forth to their breaking point only to return to their strong point. This occurs not because the branches are strong, but because the trunk is firmly rooted, this provides the support needed in the midst of a storm.

Many things will test your resolve in life, but understand it’s not life doing it, it’s just the nature of how things are. The important thing is to have roots strong enough to bend but not break. Circumstances and other people’s belief will test how far you can go and without deep roots you will succumb to the pressure. It will be difficult not to be able to resist and it will be as though your branches have broken. A tree can only be as mighty and as resilient as its root system so make them as deep as possibly so when a test does come your way, you may bend, but you will have the support not to break.

Programmed to Suffer

The conventional way of the world is to cope with suffering by suffering. This is the programmed delusion in place that keeps one suffering by attaching to the belief that suffering must cause more suffering.

When one wakes up and sees the delusion of the attached programming that’s been put in place to cope with situations, it’s freeing, but only to the extent that the delusion is let go of. This basically means going against the conventional way that most people view life from and although waking up doesn’t make a person special, it does make one seem odd or peculiar because they aren’t in line with the way everyone else responds to life situations.

This writing stems from the fact that the woman, who has the label of my mother, is going through the stages of dementia. What has arisen in me is seeing how much suffering this situation is causing all those who are involved with it. Although the suffering is optional, it’s not seen in this way because of the conventional coping mechanisms caused by one attaching to the delusional programming the world has in place. This is delusional thinking even though it seems right. Understanding this has afforded me the awareness of not being pulled into the suffering, but it makes it look like a person doesn’t care about what’s happening. Compassion has arisen in me for all those involved with this situation because of how it’s causing so many to suffer, but this compassion isn’t seen by those who are suffering.

It’s only the delusional programming of attachment that causes one to suffer with any situation. The conventional way of the world is to cope with suffering by suffering. It’s believed suffering must cause more suffering and although the one who wakes up from the sleep of this programmed delusion may be looked upon by others as being peculiar or odd and not caring, the alternative is to attach to the conventional way of the programmed delusion that suffering has to cause more suffering. Insanity to say the least.

The Motion of the Moment

Once the mind settles it remains in motion with the moment, but it’s unmoving in the sense as though it’s a buoy in the ocean, it’s in constant motion but yet unmoving.

Gain and loss, slander and honor, praise and blame, pain and pleasure, in this world learning to not be controlled by these things determines how one lives. This things will fall away as quickly as they arise, by not attaching to them you’re not going to be pulled around, this is key if one is to be free from their grip. By clinging to these although initially they cause our bondage, they’re the gateway to one’s freedom if investigated why one clings to them. It’s in the understanding of not moving forward or backward nor standing still that the place of non attachment will be revealed. In the place of non attachment is where the mind settles being with the movement of the moment, and without labeling it as such, it remains in motion.

When one turns into these eight things as they arise you become a container to absorb them. I often talk of developing a center and although something like the breath can be used, let the body become the container because a thought of a center can cause separation as though there’s an inside and an outside. Once the mind settles it becomes as the buoy unmoving even though it’s constantly in motion. As the buoy is always in motion of being in the ocean, so are we in the constant motion of life, but one doesn’t have to pulled into the constant movement of the moment. In this way there’s no forced moving, there’s only moving that’s fluid and in unison with the moment. This is the place where one is truly free because there’s not even the attachment of non attachment, there’s just being with the motion of the moment as it occurs.

The Restful Lie

Truth makes a person look at themselves and all sorts of things arise when this happens. Because of this one’s mind becomes restless and a lie is created to avoid the truth.

It’s unfortunate, but most people live a life consumed by a lie more so than one of truth. They believe they’re living by truth, but upon further investigation this fallacy can be seen. On the outside the lie seems so much better and this is what keeps a person locked into it, but this is only because of one’s conditioning that makes it seem better. The truth makes one look at themselves and all sorts of things arise when this happens, so without this understanding the truth will be avoided as if it was a plague. Becoming aware of the lies so truth can be revealed is essential in understanding oneself. Sit with the assumption that you will sit in stillness and watch how little stillness there is. Just sit and be with whatever is there, that’s where stillness is. When the mind isn’t looking for anything but what’s there, it’s still.

Only the restlessness causes the mind to create a lie, only with being with the restlessness is the mind settled. This doesn’t mean one doesn’t make changes, but when changes aren’t necessary the mind is settled. This is why I don’t share about positive versus negative, because if it’s negative and you want something positive, it’s no different than if you are positive and you don’t want anything negative. A restless mind is a mind that needs things to be a certain way whether it’s positive or negative. This is the restless lie, the truth is, nothing needs to be different and one’s mind will settle when life is accepted as it is, positive, negative, or neutral.

Abundance

Abundance is a state of Being. You can have it all, but yet have nothing. You can have nothing, but yet have it all. Life revolves around the things that one clings to.

When your place of existence is based in love then you will love regardless of what happens or what you do. With the understanding that nothing you do will ever complete you, that completeness is already within, you will not have a need or lack for anything to different than what it is. When there’s no need or lack in one’s life, it’s than an abundant life. When love is at the base of your existence you will do all that you love and love all that you do. What more would you need?

This is our state of I AM. It’s the place when Universal conditions were right and our manifestation in this form began. It’s a place of non judgement, non bias, a place where there’s no prejudice, in this place there’s only love. This isn’t a place to get to because this is where we already are, there’s just so much noise going on between our ears that we don’t realize this place exist. When we learn to just be the noise stops, what is left is our I AM. Practice diligently so you can be in the only place that truly exist; most live in a delusional state of past and future. You don’t have to be any place except where you are, but it’s your own mind that keeps you from this place because of its conditioning. Recondition the morning mind to remain in the Present Moment (I Am) and you will never leave your place of peace. When you don’t want, you don’t need, when you don’t need you will be at Peace. In this state anything is possible because in this state you are in alignment with love and in harmony with your I Am and when you love nothing more is ever needed.

I Controlled

The more you try to control something the more that thing will control you. It’s not the thing itself that’s controlling, it’s the focus of I to control that causes one to be controlled.

Let’s take a look at this, what’s missed by most people is who is actually trying to control and why is control needed? We’ll use thoughts as an example. Thoughts are just energy, there’s no controlling aspect to them, they come in and the ones that aren’t attached to go out, but it’s the ones that are attached to that are given control and this occurs because they aren’t wanted. Automatically once a thought isn’t wanted it becomes controlling because the not wanting it is the focus of I trying to push it away. Once this occurs the unwanted thought is given energy and thus becomes controlling. This is because of the I energy giving the thought energy, it doesn’t matter one bit what the thought is, what does matter is that it’s seen how I blocks out the intuitiveness of an intuitive mind where one’s energy comes from a place of love instead of thought.

The mind will have to be very very settled to see this. Because of how we are conditioned, most people think it’s what they’re focusing on that’s controlling, but as stated before the thing itself is meaningless, it all arises from I and why it happens is because I wants the present moment different. I gives the thought energy and the control begins and this occurs regardless if the thought is negative or positive. Granted they will produce different results, but being controlled is being controlled regardless of what’s being used to allow it. So I is the real culprit of the need to control and why is because I wants you to believe right now needs to be different. Until this is understood one will not have much peace in their life because with I in control, it won’t be allowed.

You Reap What You Sow

At times it may seem as though love is absent in the world because love doesn’t always provide instantaneous results, but imagine if the world was truly loveless what it would really be like. Love your neighbor with all your heart and soul, just understand in spite of how loving you may be, your neighbor can only meet you as deeply as they have met themselves. You can be a saint and it won’t mean someone won’t have hate for you, just understand that’s only because of the hate they have for themselves. A person only emits what comes from inside themselves, a fig tree can only produce figs, and that’s only when it’s cultivated in the proper way so it produces them. Even though the nature of a fig tree is to produce figs, it’s doesn’t mean it automatically produces them. Lets go a little deeper with this, in the beginning there was a seed, the seed was planted and cultivated and because of proper conditions it grew, but it doesn't automatically have the ability to produce fruit, certain conditions and proper cultivation will have to be met. This is how people are, everyone human has the ability to love because its in our nature, but it will only occur if the proper conditions to produce love are cultivated. You will still be human because as with the fig tree that's your nature, but to produce fruit, certain conditions will have to be met. A person can only reap what is sown and when love is sown there's only one thing that can be reaped. Not many truly understand this, but its the way that it is. So please love your neighbor with all your heart and soul, just realize you may not be loved back because most likely the conditions to love arent in place because one knows not what they do.


Hearing This Moment

Without being present in this exact moment, hearing the sounds of the moment get blocked out. So if you’re not hearing the sounds of this moment then may I ask what are you listening to?

Most people hear what they want to hear and this is because very few know how to truly listen. Learning to listen affords one the opportunity to listen to learn. Truly listening is an art and if it’s not developed, one cannot be skilled at it. When in a conversation most people listen to about a quarter of the conversation and then they begin thinking about what their response is going to be, and you can’t listen if you’re doing this because the noise in the head is the same as if you were talking. Noise is noise whether it’s verbal or just going on in the head, either way it doesn’t allow one to listen so it doesn’t allow one to learn.

When and if listening is truly developed, you learn to hear the sounds of life as they’re actually occurring not as the made up noise in the head. When you truly know how to listen you will understand yourself and then you will be able to listen to learn. Most of life passes one by and it isn’t truly lived because of the inability to truly hear what’s going on. It’s not that one can’t hear what’s going on, but with all the noise going on in between one’s ears about this or that, hearing the sounds of the moment get blocked out.

It’s as simple as this, if you’re not hearing the sounds of the moment then may I ask what are you listening to? It’s only in the moment that life can be truly lived and it’s only in the moment that the sounds of life can be truly heard. So if listening skills aren’t developed to be able to hear the sounds of the moment, learning will be very difficult, and as unfortunate as this may be, if you’re not learning as you are alive in each moment, life and understand this is your life we are talking about, will just keep passing you by.

Are You Truly You

When one’s existence begins, it’s pure, innocent, and free of any conditioning. In this realm one is their true self. The rest of one’s life is spent attaching to the influences of others and so you are never truly you.

Sit with this above statement and see where is the true you, the self that was there in the beginning and the self that will be there when life in this form ends, nothing else truly ever was or will be. The true you is not your mother or father’s you. It’s not the neighborhood kids you or the you of your teachers. The true you isn’t some job that’s held, or an athlete or some other person looked at as a role model. It’s not something an author wrote in a book or something from TV, music, or anything else that had some influence on you. The true you can’t be influenced because it’s the essence of love and love is steadfast and stands alone. Love is unchanging, it never wavers, that is the true you, the way life in this form began.

This isn’t to say influences are bad or good, a person becomes a product of their environment, so if ISIS is your environment that’s what you become. The same is true for love, but most people teeter between the realm of love and hate. The point is where is the true you in all of this? Most people have some form of hate in them, but where does it come from? It something that has to be learned, it’s not something you’re born with. People don’t understand they’re really not themselves, they’re a culmination of many influences. Whatever they are, one is still not who they truly are until they become aware of all the nonsense that goes on between their ears and are able to go beyond their influences. In the bible it says “Become like little children” and this is because it’s the only place where you can truly be you.

Outwardly Distracted

Looking inward provides peace, looking outward provides distractions. When the outward distractions are no longer used to live life, there will be peace because peace is what’s chosen.

As life is lived things will happen, there are two ways to deal with everything that happens, you will either look outside yourself for a distraction so you won’t have to deal with what’s happening, or you will look inward to face what’s happening and learn from it. When things are used from the outside as a distraction not much can really be learned. What happens is a habitual behavior pattern of reaching outside oneself to deal with life is developed and one will use whatever is within reach; the object being used doesn’t matter. This reaching has to happen because using distractions is what’s in place, one can not look inward if it hasn’t been learned how to do this. So one will do what they have been trained to do, its not a right or wrong thing, its just what’s in place; a fruit tree can only produce its own fruit.

What if for some reason you get tired of using distractions and living this lie. Do you think the habitual behavior patterns with stop just because you want them to? Granted this is the first step in stopping the outward reaching for distractions, but it’s a far cry from changing your habitual behavior patterns. The Conditioned Mind doesn’t want you to change so it makes up the story that change is difficult and it’s a lot hard of work, and it seems as though it is to a mind that has been conditioned the think in this way. But understand, change is only as difficult as the resistance to it makes it. It can be as simple as one wants it to be, or it can be as difficult as one makes it.

The most important factor though will be in becoming aware of your own mind and how it’s the conditioning that leads you to do what you do. When this is realized the practice of changing the habitual behavior patterns can begin and one will notice a vast difference in the way life is lived. The reaching outward and needing distractions will slowly lessen and looking inward will slowly increase. When one looks inward truth is seen because the distractions aren’t blocking it from being seen. So life will be lived in one of two ways and when the inward way is consciously chosen, no longer will change be difficult because no longer will there be a distraction to the peace that you and everyone else have always been looking for. Inward is our true urging from the Universe.

A Storied Self

What happens when one lives without the concept of self is there’s freedom of just being with what is. No story is needed here because it’s realized there’s existence without one.

When one holds on to a concept of self or any concept for that matter it makes for an unstable existence because life is dynamic and changes in a split second, but concepts do not. This isn’t to say there isn’t a self that manifest as the existence that you are, but existence isn’t because of a made up concept. This is true for anything, all the labels, names, titles, and attachment are all concepts, remove any of these and the thing itself still exist, just not in the way that it’s seen. Look at this for yourself. What concepts do is separate one from truth, not a made up truth , but the truth of what’s there minus the concept.

What happens when one lives without the concept of self is there’s freedom of just being with what’s there. There’s no story of what’s there without a made up concept which allows for life to be viewed much differently. If my writings are agreed with, watch and see what’s being connected with. Is it something from the intuitiveness of the heart or is it strictly a concept being agreed with? It’s the same if the writing isn’t agreed with, watch and see if the disconnect is because what’s written isn’t in agreement with a certain concept one has of the way they think things should be.

I don’t disagree with anyone in the way they’re living their life because they’re living with the tools they have been conditioned to use, it’s what’s known. We are given many tools to live our life and most have a concept of a self attached to it and as stated before, it’s not that a self doesn’t exist, it’s just not in the way one’s concept of self is made out to be. So when and if this concept of self falls by the wayside, the only thing one will be left with is the peace of what is truly there, minus the story.

The Fire of Desire

One’s inner fire can become a towering inferno if it’s not known what causes it to ignite. This is the selfish fire of desire and its fuel will have to be removed to prevent one’s fire from igniting.

It can be said that “the world is on fire” and all one needs to do is turn on the news to see how true this is. The cause of why there’s a fire needs to be examined if one isn’t to succumb to the selfish flames of desire, although it’s not the world that needs to be examined, it’s one’s own driving energy that needs to be examined. What one’s energy is focused on is what ignites the fire, greed, hate, self satisfaction, envy, lust, and so on is the energy of a restless mind and this is what causes the inner fire. Some fires are raging and some are smoldering, but having awareness that they’re there is the key in not only extinguishing them, but removing the conditions that allows them to ignite to begin with.

This inner fire is mostly because the restless mind (selfish desire) is the norm and there’s nothing in place to prevent it from igniting. Any fire needs certain conditions to be met to ignite it and it’s the same way with a mind that’s on fire (restless). If these certain conditions aren’t met, the fire can’t ignite. Fire needs fuel (energy) so it’s important to be aware of when the fire starts to see if it’s going to be given more fuel to grow or if one has the necessary awareness to remove the conditions that are causing it. You can just extinguish it, but this may not prevent it from reigniting, it’s only when the fuel of selfish desires (the conditioning in place) are removed that it will be impossible for one’s fire to ever ignite.

A Father's Role

It is written that Jesus turned to the Father often, this provided support not to be overcome by the world. The Father is available in the same capacity today for all, not as a belief, but as support so life doesn’t become a burden.

As I look back at my father, he was considered the rock of our family. It was heart breaking that he died at such a young age of 62. Our family has grown so much since then and life has gone on without him, but although he is not here physically, the love that he gave our family is as present today as it always was. True love never dissipates, it sustains or grows, its nature doesn’t allow it to wane.

Today one of my roles on the stage of life is that of a father. And as my children are now twenty two and twenty, I gather I am looked upon as a rock, or maybe a pebble lol, but I am there for them in my role regardless. I look at my role the way the stories describes that Jesus looked to his father. Not his physical father, but his spiritual father who he turned to often. As the father was there for Jesus, the father is also there for me in the same capacity, as I am there for my children.

What is a father, but someone to be there for support. I turn to the father often for support so life isn’t made into a burden that is carried upon my shoulders alone. I needn’t do it alone unless doing it alone is what’s chosen. As a father it is my role to do the same for my children and be there for them.

At one time, Jesus said, “Abba, Father, why have you forsaken me, but thy will not my be done.” It’s not that a father provides one with all the answers or removes what is occurring, but as a father and by having a spiritual father I know my children or myself never have to take on life alone because the provided support is always there. Life only becomes a burden when there isn’t support, “No man’s an island.” For me this provides a calm amongst the storm that allows for the needed support not to be overcome by whatever my conditioned mind (ego) wants to set upon my shoulders and make it into a created burden, so if I look to the Father I will never have to carry any burden alone.

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The Getting Mind

The getting mind is a mind state that keeps one reaching for more of whatever it makes one think will bring satisfaction, and as long as more is needed one will never be at peace.

The getting mind is a lot like the what’s next mind, but it’s more focused on actual grasping instead of wanting or wishing for something. An example of these differences would go something like this, we’ll use dessert for the example. The what’s next mind is always looking at being satisfied with the anticipation of what’s coming next, so let’s say you’re out eating dinner in a restaurant, you’re finished eating and you know this place has a certain dessert that you just love. You’ve been anticipating this dessert since the moment it was decided you were going to this restaurant. This is purely derived from the pleasure that you think the dessert is going to be provide. The attachment is to the pleasure sought by I anticipating what’s next.

Now let’s take the getting mind, this mind state occurs once you’re finished with dinner and the dessert is ordered. Here it comes as it’s put down before, you gobble it up, enjoying every bite. The getting mind has convinced you getting this dessert will make you very happy, as a matter of fact you subconsciously think you need to have this to be satisfied. Lo and behold once the dessert is eaten true satisfaction isn’t attained, there may even be guilt associated with the dessert, telling yourself you shouldn’t have eaten it.

The getting mind is also controlled by I and makes one think certain things are needed for a satisfied life. Although these two mind states are very similar and closely related in their nature, the getting mind actually attains things as opposed to the what’s next mind which is based strictly in anticipation. As long as the getting mind is in place, it keeps one reaching for more of whatever it makes one think will bring satisfaction, and if more is always needed one will never be at peace.

The Endless Chase
The mind agitation that the next thing will make one complete is what keeps one in the constant mode of the chase; a chase that will either end because this is realized or because life in this forms ends. I will be complete when this happens next? The next fix, the next satisfaction, the next whatever is used as next. What's next goes on to infinity, it never ends until it's realized there is no end and one will always be chasing that which is already here. But who is the chaser and why all this chasing? Either there's completeness now with the way things are or there isn't. Chasing the next whatever it is that ones thinks will bring utopia never ends because there's nothing to truly attain that will end the chasing. The Conditioned Mind will tell you different and that's why there's chasing, but what one really needs to ask is, who is the one doing the chasing and why? The fictional character of this self that's been made up to think things need to be different for completeness is just that, fiction and this is who and why there's chasing. The self that makes up this nonsense that there's one who is incomplete is just a story of incompleteness and this is what keeps when chasing. The dream of attaining a certain status, the next promotion, the trophy partner, the next book, the next, the next, the next whatever keeps one in the constant mode of the chase, a chase that will either end because this is realized or because life in this forms ends. The chase will end one day, but in which way that will be is determined if one spends their entire life chasing that which is already here or stops the chasing because it's realizes there's nothing to chase because one is already complete.
The Beauty and Magnificence of Love
To know one's true self is to tap into the unlimited resource of love, but love can never truly be known from the thought realm. It's only from an inner silence that we can truly know the beauty and magnificence of love. When we truly know ourselves we will know what love is and when love is known our inner beauty and own magnificence is exposed. This is the love of all creation and the created cannot ever be separated from their creator, so we are as beautiful and magnificent as the entire Universe. Know this truth and know the vastness and unlimited beauty and love of the Universe. We are the only limit in knowing how beautiful love truly is and this is our limit to seeing our own beauty and magnificence. This is the eternal energy of which we were created, to know this is to know the love of all creation. If we are to ever experience our true inner beauty and our own magnificence, we will need to understand what our limits are and how they can be overcome. We will then be able to tap into the resource of our birthright of Universal love and not allow our limits to block us from the beauty and magnificence of our creator and thus the beauty and magnificence of ourSince elves. The beauty and magnificence of love is the beauty and magnificence of all creation, it's where we are from and who we truly are and when this is known so will our own inner beauty and magnificence be known.
Sometimes Things Just Happen

It’s a given sometimes things will happen in life that aren’t what one would choose if given the choice, but since most of the time there isn’t a choice in what happens, the question is how does it affect you?

Today was my sons twentieth birthday and we went to lunch as a family, on the way home I had to take the highway. On the road running parallel to the road I was traveling on, a truck hit a bump and dropped thousands of stone which started bouncing all over the highway. They were impossible to avoid and lo and behold one cracked my windshield. Immediately I started speeding up to catch this truck, but he was going around 80mph and with traffic the way it was it would have been to dangerous to pursue him to get his license plate. I was pretty angry when this first occurred even though I knew there was nothing I could do about it. I was stewing inside even with what I know.

Once I got home I made the necessary calls to get this repaired. It will cost about $350, this is under my deductible so I will have to pay for it out of my pocket. Okay so this is what happened, of course the I should have done this, or why did I do that mind started, and that’s ok because that’s what’s there, but how far do I want to take it? It already controlled me for much to long. The point is, my I didn’t like what happened and wanted it to not have happened, as if life would really be much different if this didn’t occur. So I then went to sit to look at why there was attachment to not wanting what occurred (wanting the past to be different) and what popped into my head was “this too shall pass” and lo and behold “pow” just like that, there was freedom from the bondage of my I, who only wants what has already occurred to have never happened in the first place. Insanity at its best.

There's no I in Love

An I perspective interrupts the natural flow of life because I judges. It does this because it’s the nature of I and it needs to satisfy itself, but in stillness there’s love because it’s already satisfied.

A mind that responds from an I perspective is selfish because it’s the nature of I, but a mind that responds from the intuitiveness of stillness is loving because it’s the nature of stillness. What happens when one comes from an I perspective is it interrupts the natural flow of life, this instantly breaks the harmony one has with life. I is the creator of I and all that arises from this creation is there to satisfy itself. It’s what I does, it’s not right or wrong, it’s just I doing what I does.

Whether it’s I am right and you’re wrong, or it’s some behavior that’s there to strictly satisfy some inner justified desire to fulfill itself, I is a flow stopper of life. It’s the nature of I to do this, it can’t help itself because of how selfish and self centered it is. When one begins a sentence with I they should stop because not much good can come from I. It’s just the way I is, there’s no harmony when it comes to I.

So in a world where I is exalted, how does one go beyond it to a place of stillness? From my experience this isn’t a doing because it would be I that’s doing, it’s a state of grace where one can just be. This is the natural flow of life where there’s a stillness that puts one in harmony with all that is. It’s the place where the so called imperfections of life are perfect because without I there’s isn’t judgement. Only I judges because it needs to satisfy itself and only stillness loves because it’s already satisfied.

Developing Discipline

When life is based on lies that are believed, it’s those beliefs that keeps one attached to the lies. If discipline isn’t developed to expose these lies, they will be the base of one’s existence.

I often share my experience on how I use sitting (meditation) as a way to develop discipline, but the questions I have are, why was being undisciplined so natural and how come being disciplined wasn’t? After sitting periodically for a few months my mind began to settle and I saw real results in how my view of life was becoming different and I understood I wasn’t the one doing it. To a degree I got why this was occurring and the reason it continues to occur today; discipline has been developed that wasn’t previously there. This is available to anyone who has a willingness to sit.

My life was based on lies that I believed, and those beliefs kept me attached to the lies. These were the tools that were developed to live my life, but there came a time when I knew I had to find a different set of tools, so my so called quest began. Everything I read pointed to the mind so I knew where my answers were, I just didn’t know how they were going to manifest. I did know I had to find some way to allow my self centered mind to settle or nothing was going to change.

I began sitting, and as my mind settled I was becoming more aware of the mind agitations that arose, which is what caused me to reach outside myself for satisfaction. Reaching for something was the means used to quiet these agitations. This is the value of discipline, develop none and one will have none when its needed, and the developed tools will remain in place along with being controlled by the mind agitations. This is what has been occurring in my life the last nine years; developed discipline means the mind agitations become less and less and as there are less of them, there is more discipline to not give in to them. I never had the discipline to not give in to the agitations so I just responded with the tools that were there, but today my tools are different so life has manifested differently. It’s by no means a doing on my part, but there is a willingness to develop the necessary discipline to allow this to take place, because without it the undisciplined mind remains in control.

Getting to One's Core

If one is to get to the core of who you truly are, it’s going to take some studying of the Conditioned Mind and the willingness to sit so the process of peeling away the so called onion of one’s conditioning begins.

Nothing will ever change as long as people continue to blame others and look outside themselves for their answers. If you can’t get beyond all the conditioning that’s in place, getting to the core of existence which requires nothing but being in its space, will be just about impossible; this is only because the Conditioned Mind doesn’t allow it. Using the well known onion analogy: every onion has a core, but unless the onion is peeled it’s core will never be exposed. It will always be there as its a natural part of every onion, but without actually peeling the onion the core will remain hidden. The natural process of an onion is to cover its core, this is also the way human nature has evolved and because of this very few people ever get to their core.

Underneath all the conditioning is the core of one’s existence, there’s no blame and there’s no looking for answers anywhere but within one’s core in this space. When one’s conditioning is peeled away one layer at a time, our core gets more exposed and one’s true nature takes hold, but if there isn’t awareness of this, nothing will ever change because it can’t. It’s like a force field is around the core and without awareness it seems as though it’s impenetrable. But take heed because it’s not impenetrable, it’s just going to take some studying of the Conditioned Mind and the willingness to begin the process of peeling away the so called onion of one’s conditioning, so one can get to the core of who you truly are.

Directed Energy

One’s directed energy determines how existence manifest. If it’s constantly directed towards self, one will be self-ish. If one possesses the whole world, but isn’t liberated from self, one remains in captivity.

For me the key to being liberated from the captivity of self, is turning my energy away from greed and lustful thoughts. When the mind gets stuck in these thoughts, to be liberated it needs to become unstuck. What makes it get stuck, directed energy mostly focused on satisfying self in some way. Pay attention to the sensations of the body, mind, and mental formations. This is a direct path to how one becomes liberated from suffering.

Liberation from suffering is not pain free, it’s learning to be with the pain that arises. You cannot hide from what’s happening, you can only divert your attention away from it. To no longer have your energy engaged in satisfying the self is where the path of liberation leads to. How this is done is by stopping the directed energy of self and directing it towards what will liberate you from it. The self is there and it has been given a name (Michael) it has so many other different labels attached to it, but it creates bondage because of the mere fact of the attachment it has to itself. Liberation is in understanding the lies of self, it isn’t in creating a concept or belief in something.

One can only be free when paying attention to what allows freedom, but it’s tricky because of the mastery of the self. Constant vigilance is needed for the liberation from self. You’re alive so you exist, but it will be your directed energy that determines the extent of the liberation one’s has from self and that will be the determining factor in how your existence manifest.

The Big Stage Lure

To be enticed by the lure of the big stage world is caused by one’s own discontented inner lack. Only love provides contentment and when this is realized, one will be on the biggest stage of all.

There’s the world of the so called big stage that mostly everyone wants to be a part of. The getting on television world, or being a star world, but although this world may provide glitz and glamour, that’s about the extent of the satisfaction it can supply. And if you think for a minute this is enough to make you happy, you will be stuck in the shallowness of this existence. Although you may be provided with the amenities that only money and fame can supply you with, you will always be looking for more because that’s the nature of the big stage world.

Contentment with the way things are is the only way one will see beyond the shallowness of the big stage lure. The moment you want things different in the world of more (the big stage) there’s discontentment. There may be much stuff, but stuff only means something to the one who’s caught in shallowness of the big stage lure. This doesn’t mean you can’t get on the big stage, just understand it doesn’t provide the contentment that’s one is constantly seeking because of an inner lack of love

Think of the best vacation you’ve ever been on or the largest amount of money you’ve ever received, except for the brief moment in which it was attained, how much contentment does it bring you now? One is enticed by the big stage lure because it seems as though it will fill one’s discontented lack, but only love can do this. So learn to love and it will be realized one is already on the biggest stage of all.

Cumulative Burdens

To truly live it has to be learned to not carry the burdens of past moments into the present ones, so our cumulative burdens would never materialize and we would be free to deal with what arises.

Most of the problems that occurred in my life were due to making things cumulative. I always carried one thing into the other. I never understood this until I was at work one day. I work twelve hour shifts and we were working a lot of overtime, this particular week I was on my fifth day in a row. I was talking to one of my shift mates when he asked me if I was tired because of this being my fifth day of work in a row. As I began to answer him, the thought that popped into my head was this “What does the previous four days have to do with today.” As I thought about this, I saw how so much of the burdens that I carried around for most of my life were strictly formed from not understanding how not to make the events of my life cumulative. It’s a skill that eluded me and made life more burdensome then was necessary.

Imagine a life, it can become a reality with practice, but imagine a life without the cumulative affect. It would be like water running off a ducks back. Things would never accumulate and become an issue. These accumulations are the very thing that makes life feel as if it were a burden. If it was learned to truly live in the moment and not carry the burdens of past moments into the present ones, our cumulative burdens would never materialize and we would be free to deal with what arises. So the key to a happy, joyous and free life isn’t that it is free of difficulties, it would be if we were not conditioned to make it so, but it’s understanding although our life is one continuous journey one past moment has nothing to do with the present one. Don’t carry around and accumulate the events of past moments so you aren’t weighed down by your self-created burdens.

Trying to Change the Unchangeable

When a person lives in the past, what they’re trying to do is change the unchangeable. The time spent doing this is not in one’s best interest and it’s one’s own mind that creates this nonsense.

For the one who doesn’t know their own mind, they know not what they do. It is imperative to know your own mind if you ever want to break free of its grasp, and don’t think for a minute that you aren’t in its grasp; just look how you always want something to be different that can’t really be changed. Every moment spent in the past is time wasted on trying to change the unchangeable. No one would purposely waste time in a life that is limited in the amount of time one is alive, but it is done all the time. So if this isn’t done on purpose, why does it occur?

All of life is precious, so it’s not that any moment of life is truly wasted, but the more time that’s spent trying to change the changeable, the less time one lives in the reality of what is. And it’s only in the way one’s own mind has been developed that makes one think that the unchangeable can be changed; look and see this for yourself. This is so subtle that the person who doesn’t know their own mind will not truly know what they do.

You have the capability to be mindful of every moment of everyday, but this
takes much discipline. Either one will control their mind or be controlled by it, but understand when you’re controlled by it, you don’t really know what you’re doing. Take heed is this, for the Conditioned Mind is subtle and if one doesn’t learn to stop trying to change the unchangeable, the moments spent doing this will continue to make one live a life that isn’t reaching its fullest potential because it’s being lived in moments that no longer exist.

Knowing Needs No Explaining

We are limited by our need for explanations, knowing something is different than needing an explanation because it allows one the awareness of exactly what one is up against (their own mind).

What’s happens in life is mostly unexplained, but that doesn’t stop one’s mind from making up something. I have found the unexplained is best left alone because it doesn’t really enhance life. As things occur, explanations of how they’re associated with one’s existence does assist to a degree, but only if they’re not allowed to control one’s life like a master puppeteer. We are limited by our need for explanations, but knowing something is different than needing an explanation because it allows the awareness of exactly what one is up against (their own mind). This awareness allows the mind to settle somewhat and lessen the need for explanations which aren’t truly needed anyway. An explanation of addiction doesn’t stop one from reaching for something, but knowing why one reaches may; as a matter of fact this is exactly what happened to me.

The Universe needs no explaining in its process, nor do the origin of our thoughts need to be explained, but knowing how thoughts are attached to and what behaviors manifest from their attachment is the difference between being at peace with life or struggling with it. Some will disagree with this and it’s their right, but For me by knowing my behavior was based to self serve, it gave me something tangible to use to see how much control my Conditioned Mind had over me. Past tense is used on purpose because its control is at a minimum today. An explanation of why this occurs doesn’t enhance the ability to be free from the bondage of the Conditioned Mind, but knowing my own mind certainly does. And through the discipline of sitting, the mind can settle enough to become aware that having an explanation of what happens in life will not enhance it in the way knowing your own mind will.

Settled Mind Peace

An unsettled mind causes the need to constantly rearrange life which blocks one from seeing life as it truly is. Only when life is accepted as it is will the rearranging cease as the mind settles.

Without a settled mind nothing in life is seen as it truly appears. This is the reason life is constantly being rearranged, to try and create a world the way one thinks it needs to be. This rearranging is from an agitated mind state that creates blocks to keep one from seeing life doesn’t really need rearranging. One’s creation occurs without permission as do so many other things in life, so when it’s understood that our manifestation is from the Universe and not much else really matters, one’s mind can settle enough to see life as it truly is and stop trying to constantly rearrange it to our liking.

One of the things an unsettled mind uses to constantly need to rearrange life is to make one believe there’s a need to reach for things outside oneself. It’s this need to reach that causes one to make up beliefs that are based in the delusion that life needs to be a certain way. One’s true intention is to be an instrument of peace, but because of the noise in the head this isn’t the direction that many are headed so there’s not much in the way of being in harmony with life. This reaching is the only thing that keeps one in a state of unawareness, and it’s one’s own mind that does this. A settled mind sees truth, which allows peace and clarity. Life ends where it begins and it begins where it ends and nothing is truly as it appears.

One day you’re alive in this form and one day just like that you’re not. If one is constantly rearranging their life, there isn’t time to live it, it’s like constantly rearranging the living room furniture, there’s never time to sit and enjoy the room. Each person has to answer to themselves about their choices, if the choices are to self serve the mind will never settle and it will be very difficult to get beyond the rearranging. If the choice is to be still there will be peace because one will understand life is perfect as it is and no rearranging is needed. When this is realized, there won’t be a need for life to be any different than what it is so the rearranging will cease and one will be able to sit and truly enjoy the living room.

The Trophy Within

A person’s greatest misgiving in life is when they think from the base of an I story. This blocks out one from seeing their own magnificence and consequently the love that is emanated to others.

Every year there are pilgrimages in places that many travel hundreds sometimes thousands of miles to get to, these places are considered sacred by so many people. Why I ask do people do this? To me, if I was on the exact spot of where it’s written Jesus was buried or the Buddha became enlightened, except for the story in my head or maybe a plague to show this, would it really be known that it was the exact spot and what does it really do being there? It’s not as though you will feel something, you may make up a story you feel something, but it’s probably not true. I’m not saying there may not be some form of trace energy in these spots, but the mind will have to be very still to possibly sense it and even then it will probably not be felt.

There is no outer place or trophy that’s going to allow one’s own magnificence to be seen. Billions of dollars won’t do this, material possessions won’t do it, nor will being anywhere except within. The search to look out there is the dangling carrot of society, it’s capitalism at its best. Go here, win this, attain that, and all will be well, but who alive doesn’t truly have what is needed to live? You wouldn’t be alive if you didn’t so anything else is just a story more is needed. Having things or going to places isn’t bad or good in and of itself, attaching to thinking these things are special is where the misgiving is, not in the sense of bad versus good, but only in the association the attachment has to the I story. A person’s greatest misgiving in life is when they think from the base of an I story. This blocks out one from seeing their own magnificence and consequently the love that is emanated to others. So go for the gold, win the trophy, stand on so called sacred ground, just understand attaching a story to any of these doesn’t really change much.

A Conceptual Reality Isn't Real

Almost all problems are created from concepts and ideals which make up a reality that isn’t real. Until this is realized, one will live a relative reality based on what they’re making up through their thoughts.

When you can be with whatever occurs in you life and the need to have it different falls aways, you are free to be with what’s real, but few do what’s necessary to allow the mind to settle enough to see this. Almost all problems are created from concepts and ideals from a reality that isn’t real. It’s all made up in the head and until this is truly realized one will live a relative reality based on what they’re making up through their thoughts. You’re not the person you think you are nor are you living the life you think you are living. The reality that’s made up makes you think you are, but it’s just not true. You may say this makes no sense, when I pinch me it hurts, but who is doing the pinching and who is the one hurting? There’s pinching and hurting with or without the attachment to I, just watch this without labeling it, pinching and hurting is occurring, but it happens even without labeling it as so. Can you see this?

This is so important to get in touch with if there is to ever be real freedom in one’s life, but the thing to understand is why one isn’t free. We hold onto made up concepts and ideals as it they were beneficial, but upon further investigation you’ll see the fact that any made up concept and ideals automatically take aways from life being beneficial because it’s based in something made up. Make life any reality you want it to be, but if its a thought based story it won’t be beneficial to anyone because it won’t be real. It will be real to you, but that’s only because you make it that way and when you make your reality based on concepts and ideals it automatically isn’t real.

Being Mindful of What's There

Being mindful of what’s there is different than being pulled around by it. In both instances what’s there exist, but only when there’s an association with who you are does what’s there control you.

When there is pain, can you be with it instead of making the pain who you are? Being mindful of the pain is different than being pulled around by it. In both instances the pain exist, but in the one where you are the pain, it controls you. In the other state where you are with the pain because it’s there, the controlling association of attaching to it isn’t there. An unsettled mind doesn’t allow one to be with the pain, one can only identity the pain as who they are. In this state of unsettledness, the mind always questions itself whether it should or shouldn’t.

Once you get caught in the web of the should and shouldn’t teetering, you might as well stay in bed because not much that’s beneficial to anyone is going to come out of this mind state. And the more unsettled the mind is, the more one wrestles with the shoulds and shouldn’ts. The mind has to be very settled to be with what’s occurring, as opposed to making it who you are. Take the example of hitting a golf ball, you’re holding the club and lining up the ball. You take a practice swing, take your stance and swing, and you hit a slice. If you make it that you hit the slice you will then say you shouldn’t have done that, but it doesn’t change the fact that you hit a slice. Or you may say I should have swung slower, but it still doesn’t change the slice.

The point of this article is to show the difference in being with something instead of associating it with who you are, even if you are the one having pain or hitting a golf ball. When something is associated with who you are there’s much suffering created, but when you can say okay a slice was hit or there’s pain, there’s no controlling energy and although the slice or pain exist, one remains free because there’s no association with who you are.

A Loving Process

What you do, say, think, and feel is a result of the way one processes life. You cannot process life from a self serving perspective and the resulted actions be based in love.

The process of life is independent of human action, it occurs regardless of what we do, but our individual process directly affects where our life’s base is derived from and the actions we produce. Life’s process is not our process, it goes on regardless if we are here or not, but our process is a part of life, there’s no separation, because our life is a result of life’s process. This needs to be understood if our energy is to truly be transformed to cultivate love. The only reason it isn’t understood is because we think our process is separate from life’s.

Sit with this and in quietness you will understand why you and your life are the way it is. Life doesn’t label you as anything, this is your process that does this. The label you attach, you make it who you are, life doesn’t do this, your conditioned process does this. But is isn’t who you really are, it just the way your process has molded and shaped you? The base of life’s process is love and love alone, life has no other agenda. The base of an individuals process is shaped and molded by their Conditioned Mind and there are many different agendas as a result of this conditioning. If there wasn’t any conditioning than our individual process would be in total alignment with life’s process and every one of our actions would be a result from the process of love. Unfortunately this is not the case, because we think our process is different than life’s process; we have different agendas than to just be an instrument of love. When we understand life’s process is also our process, love will be the base of our existence and with the result of love being the base of our process, this will result in love being at the core of our every action.

The Non Intention of I

Living from the intention of I causes one to be the dreamer of life, but without I there’s no attachment to being the dreamer because I disappears into the awareness of the dream itself.

Cultivating the non intention of I is where one will encounter a freedom never experienced before. But why does something done from the intention of I cause some much problems? The reason is because anything done from the intention of I causes one to engage in harmful behaviors that separates one from not only their own magnificence, but also the magnificence of life itself. The separation is what creates an individual self and doesn’t allow one to see there is only the whole.

To look at individuals as separate from the whole is an instant disconnect from life itself, only living through the intention of I makes this separation occur. One cannot see individuals as separate and there be any kind of harmony with life. There has to be a sense of inner unity for there to be a connection. This connection only has to be one way, it matters little what someone else’s intentions are.

Many will probably never break the spell of living from the intention of I, but this should never determine if there is a sense of unity from you. When one lives from the non intention of I what happens is this: one wakes up from thinking they are the dreamer of life and there’s an awareness of being the dream itself. When one is the dream instead of the dreamer, I disappears as there’s no separation, there’s only unity. Without living from the intention of I there’s no attachment to being the dreamer because I disappears into the awareness of the dream itself.

I Dominate Coping Mechanisms

Until one takes their head out of the sand and understands why there’s a need to have a coping mechanism in place, it will continue to have dominance over you and this is all because of the dominance of I.

When it comes to breaking free from the grip of drugs, alcohol, gambling, sex, and whatever else one uses to cope with life, very few people truly let go of I so they remain entrapped to the bondage of self; this is the real issue in our society, it really has nothing to do with what’s being used. Many remain abstinent for years, but only become entrapped to a program, one’s dependency is just switched from one thing to another. If a program is needed to live life, there’s something not right with the mental structure of the individual. Only those who are abstinent say the twelve step programs work, but ask the millions that get lost and die how they work.

I don’t believe what will work, and I know this sounds arrogant but it’s not, I know what will work to break this bondage to I. Not because I’m a know it all, but because it has been revealed to me through the Universe. Until people take their heads out of the sand, many will continue to remain in the grip of whatever it is they’re using to cope with life and because of this people are going to continue to die. Until it’s asked why there’s a need to have a coping mechanism, nothing will change and the drug epidemic facing the entire world along with the rest of its problems will remain intact.

It’s so very important to understand the coping mechanisms that are in place if the possibility of changing them is to occur. If you don’t know the only reason they’re in place is because of the attachment to I, they will continue their dominance over you. Anything used is only done so because it’s in place and until this attachment is let go of, many of society’s and our worlds problems will remain. This I dominance is at the core of any coping mechanism that makes one have a need to reach for something and until this is truly understood, the drug epidemic along with society’s and the worlds problem will remain in place, but only because one doesn’t ask why there’s a need to have a mechanism to cope with life to begin with.

Breaking Free by Asking Why

The roots of our struggles go very deep, they’re not just at the level of how we behave, they’re rooted in the structure of how we think. If one doesn’t ask why this is so, nothing will ever change.

Changing our metal structure is like turning a battle ship, the intention to turn happens right away, but the turn itself is gradual. It’s as though we know we need to start turning right away, but we don’t know why. Here’s what needs to be done if one is to get in touch with breaking free of this mental structure. It’s really not complicated, when something is done the question of why needs to be asked. No reason to go all the way back for a childhood reason of why, but why it’s being done right now is sufficient. Here’s an example: in 1935 a man named Bill had a drinking problem. He was sober for six months when he went on a business trip which didn’t turn out in his favor. The ensuing thought that came to him was to go get a drink, fear gripped him, but he was able to draw on the base of what he learned in the six months he was sober; to reach out to another person with a drinking problem. He did this and basically AA was started. This isn’t to say AA doesn’t do good things, it’s just to show how it could possibly be more effective in helping people.

I know this post will not sit well with some people, but that’s not really my concern. All that happened to this man Bill was a business deal went sour, nothing more. Why he wanted to drink was never asked and so a program was developed that could have been so much more effective if the question of why did he want to drink when all that happened was things didn’t go the way that he wanted. If he asked himself this question that situation would have probably turned out much differently.

If the need to reach for something happens because life throws you a curve ball and you don’t ask why am I reaching for something, you may use a distraction not to succumb to it, but you will never be free because you will never get in touch with why the reaching was needed in the first place. Why am I doing this or that is the most important question you can ask yourself when something is done that’s not in your best interest. If you don’t, you will just substitute one thing for another and in the process remain entrapped to what’s causing the need to reach. You may not like this post and you may even ignore it, but don’t be surprised when life throws the next curve ball and you find yourself reaching for something, you just won’t know why you’re doing so.

Guided Decisions

A mind that’s conditioned makes pre-determined conditioned decisions. It’s only through a view of love that true decisions are made; decisions guided by the Universe that come from the heart.

Decisions in life are mostly made based on how much a person’s Conditioned Mind controls them. One thinks they’re making decisions, but they’re only doing what they’ve been conditioned to do. This is the way a person who is conditioned has to be, there really isn’t a choice. They may think they’re making decisions based on thinking they have free will, but this is just part of the conditioning. Look at the nonsense that goes on between the ears, it’s truly mind boggling how the Conditioned Mind is controlling ever decision made.

If you don’t think this is so, try and sit still for a half hour is silence. If you can’t do it, don’t be discouraged, not many people can. If you can’t control your own mind when you’re consciously trying to do it, what makes you think you’re in control when you’re not trying? Why do you think it’s so hard to do? Because the unconscious mind has a worldly view with eyes based in worldly things.

An awakened mind is an awakened heart and with this comes the view of love. With this view no one controls you but the universe. Unconsciousness is everyone’s misgiving, with a view of love life is always exactly the way it’s suppose to be because it’s the way that it is and when it’s time for it to be different, it will be; understand though, even when it’s different, it’s still the way that it is.

No one controls what is, but one is controlled by their conditioning until the view of life is through the eyes of love. It’s only through the eyes of love that one can be free of the Conditioned Mind and thus have every decision made be guided by the Universe. If not, there really aren’t decisions being made because there is no choice but to be controlled by one’s conditioning. Break free of this conditioning by viewing life through the eyes of love, the eyes of the spirit, or the eyes of God if you’d like, or not and remain controlled as if you were a puppet on a string.

Settled Mind Trust

There’s existence through made up concepts and beliefs and there’s the bigger picture beyond these, where one is guided and free of all burdens because there’s a trust in the way things are.

When the mind is settled the reliance of existence becomes one of trust instead of reliance on one’s own limited concepts and beliefs. There’s a deep trust that abides in a settled mind and it’s in this settling that one sees the existence of life itself. So when one is in this settled mind state, the everlasting trust of the Universe is there to quiet the mind agitations which are the cause of all doubt and distrust.

A mind that’s settled allows for one to live from the Universal heart of love. This connects one with the goodness of life, one’s own internal goodness, and the goodness of all beings, the connection is already there, it’s just not known what it will take for one to be aware of it. The only reason there isn’t awareness is because there are conditioned mind agitations blocking the trust that arises from the quietness of our heart; theses blocks allow for all kinds of made up nonsense.

When it’s learned to discipline an undisciplined mind, our agitations slowly subside, what remains naturally is a deep unwavering trust of the Universe. This trust is what’s there beyond the noise of a Conditioned Mind, beyond one’s made up concepts and beliefs. When one is in this space there’s trust because with a settled mind it’s known who you truly are. So trust in the Universe with all your heart and soul and allow the mind to settle so you’re not relying on your own made up concepts and beliefs. When there is trust, life is lived in the most beneficial of ways; as the trusting beautiful being of love that you truly are.

A Distracted Existence

To truly experience freedom is to understand how distractions are created as a result of a Conditioned Mind. It’s these created distractions that block out one’s own peace of mind.

While on this journey of life, if we’re to continue the expansion of a deeper understanding of ourselves, the distractions that block out this understanding must be identified. One such distraction is the carrying of the past into the present, but not the past of years gone by, how about the recent past of a week, a day or even one minute. Think about this, have you ever said to yourself on a Friday that you are glad this week is over because it was the week from hell? Nothing went right and everyday seemed to be worse then the day before and now that it’s Friday, you can’t wait to go to the bar and just unwind by having a few drinks. How many times throughout your life has this scenario been played out in your head? But I ask you this, when it’s Friday and the work week is complete, what does any previous day of the week have to do with right now? If you weren’t conditioned to carry around the past, it wouldn’t exist.

You’re the only one that creates this distraction that doesn’t allow you the freedom of living in the present. The past only burdens a person if it’s chosen to accumulate. A previous day has nothing to do with what’s occurring in the present, this is a key distraction to understand if one is to continue the deeper expansion of oneself. All this nonsense in the head about the past week has no reality to it, it’s not to ignore that the week may have been difficult, but the more of a story is held onto about how difficult it was, the more of a burden it becomes. Then when you need something to use to unwind, whatever is chosen just further distracts you from the present. Whatever is chosen is only being used to cover up the burden of the past, which you’re carrying around.

The simple distraction of a past causes so many problems because it blocks out the ability to be with the reality of the present. The past isn’t real, it existed once, but it doesn’t exist now except in your Conditioned Mind, not even one minute ago has to be carried into the present unless you allow it to be so. Find one distraction that you use in your life that blocks you from the freedom of being present and learn to let it go. After all the only thing your distractions distract you from is the present and it’s only in the present that you’ll be free.

Touching a Soul Makes a Difference

Our greatest gift is when we touch another soul because this energy not only touches one soul it touches many souls and it’s this transforming energy that truly makes a difference.

What does it matter if you gain the whole world but in the process you lose yourself. What happens if this occurs is by losing yourself you lose your connection to others and without this connection, one’s connection to life is lost; you could be a billionaire, but you would still be lost. A person cannot truly live without a connection to others, they can only exist. There’s a touching of every soul when one is connected, this is the energy of unconditional love; to give freely with no attached expectations. There is no greater gift bestowed upon a person than touching another person’s soul and making a difference in their life; no material attainment can compare to this.

This doesn’t mean you will automatically be loved back, but if someone is truly touched by you to the core of their soul, their transformation has begun, there will be transforming energy emitted and one will never be as they previously were. Touching another’s soul and making a difference in their life is the greatest gift bestowed upon a person because it opens one’s hearts energy to a fulfillment that only come from the transformation and connection of another heart. This energy is not a doing of the human will trying to attain something, it’s a love that’s not truly understood, but it’s so freely given that it has to be shared. Loves energy transforms souls so when you give love and someone is touched, it makes their life different and their transforming energy of love is returned to you. This is why and how it’s becomes the one’s greatest gift because it not only touches one soul, but it touches many souls and this transforming energy truly makes a difference.

We Are the World

Love is the energy of the Universe and although there is hate, love will not be denied. Its expansion is inevitable because it’s what’s in everyone’s heart and as the heart opens, oneness becomes our heart.

Just as the body is many parts that make up the whole, so it is with humanity, as individuals we are many parts that make up the whole, what is done to one is done to all. We are a collective unit sharing one planet, nobody does anything without it affecting someone else. Hate and it affects everyone, but love and the energy generated is ten fold.

Compare some of the worlds most evil tyrants and the affect they had on the world as opposed to the ones who had nothing but love in their hearts. The comparison isn’t to single out individuals, but to put the emphasis on love versus hate. The hate is far reaching and it doesn’t stop because an individual is killed, but it does dissipate ever so slowly, but with love it’s different, love expands even if the source is killed. A perfect example of this is in what was written about Jesus’s love, it’s stronger today than the day he was supposedly existed. The energy of the love that was in his heart is what lives on, expands, and generates more love, this is the nature of love, to expand. Hate doesn’t do this, not that it doesn’t grow, but when it’s source is taken away the energy generated doesn’t expand, it wanes. People will hold on to its trace energy, but it becomes a pocket of hate that is isolated, as opposed to love which expands because it’s Universal.

Although it’s written Jesus’s made the ultimate sacrifice in spreading love, there are many others who have the same love in their hearts and are spreading it. Some got killed for spreading the love that was in their hearts and some dedicated their entire life spreading love. The Buddha, Martin Luther King Jr. Mother Teresa, Gandhi, to name a few, but there are so many people unnamed, people like you and me who spread the seeds of love as much as our heart is capable of. Love is the energy of the Universe and it will not be denied.

All we can do, is what our heart is capable of. We all possess a fully capable heart of love, but because of our Conditioned Mind we fall short of reaching our full capacity, but with practice our heart will keep expanding and we will be the spreaders of love like those that came before us. Because we are one unit on one planet, it isn’t our love that we are spreading, it’s the love that came before us, which is the love of the Universe that is in our heart. We are expanding on that love and no matter how much hate there was or is that came before us, it will never keep the energy of the love that’s in our hearts from expanding to eventually spread to our entire planet.

Two View Awareness

There are two views in life, the thought and thoughtless; these occur simultaneously. Through the thought view alone it’s as though one is asleep, but when one awakens these two views become one.

I have never experienced a sense of no self in my shift, but it became apparent to me that the cause of every issue I had definitely seemed to be due to a self centered, self serving (thought) view. The word seemed is used because although it wasn’t realized at the time, my life was the way it was because it was conditioned to be this way, and underneath this conditioning there was another view of life occurring at the same time as this one. This to me is duality, not in the sense of another dimension of life, but more so living unconsciously or consciously at the same time because these views exist simultaneously.

Unconscious is the way life is lived through the self centered, self serving conditioning, which is strictly a developed thought view, even though it’s developed unconsciously. Then there’s the other view simultaneously occurring where there aren’t any thoughts, there’s no self centered, self serving conditioning here because it isn’t contingent on thought, it’s where life truly happens as consciousness. When there’s awareness that both of these views occur at the same time, one is conscious, at least this is the shift that occurred to me and this shift isn’t contingent on any thought because it exist without thought.

It wasn’t that it became apparent that the self didn’t exist, but what did become apparent was that the thought view that was being held onto for an identity, was the cause of every issue I had in my life. Life through this awareness becomes much different because the view of living unconsciously through thought slowly gets replaced with a view where one lives consciously without thought. When this occurs, the self centered and self serving thought view falls away as it merges into a view of loving kindness.

Sressfully Stuck

If a person is stuck in a thought based world, most likely they’re being claimed by a stress based existence. This is a prison that one will only be released from by going beyond these stressful thoughts, into the realm of no mind.

It’s impossible to have stress in your life that isn’t created by your own mind. This doesn’t mean unpleasant things don’t occur, it just means that regardless of what happens it’s your mind that creates stress about it and it comes from within yourself. Lots of things happen throughout the day and each time there’s a choice to make it stressful or not. Everyone has the ability within to cease causing their own stress, it just takes a certain amount of discipline for this to occur. What discipline does is it slows down the thought process that runs continuously, this slowing down is the beginning of truth being revealed, without it the necessary quietness that allows less stress will not happen.

If there’s continuous thought and no quiet, then all there will be is thought and this will not allow the ability to watch the stress of the Conditioned Mind unfold. If this stress isn’t seen, one’s mind will never slow down and there won’t be any space created between your thoughts. Life will be thought based and the result of this will create stress. When life slows down one can see how it’s the Conditioned Mind that takes something that happens and puts it into the category of being stressful, when this is seen, one can break free of the hold the mind has over you and you will be able to see that you’re not the mind, you’re beyond the thought based stress.

Unless you allow your mind to control you, nothing is really stressful. It’s just something from within that makes stress seem real, but it isn’t, it’s from the delusional Conditioned Mind and this will need to be understood if you are to go beyond it and stop stress from being created. When this occurs and you have no created stress, the next step in the waking up process of going beyond thought will be realized.

Perfect in Love

Imperfections are a part of being human, only love is perfect. When we live from our hearts intention to love, we are aligned with the Universe and all that is done is perfect in love.

Regardless of the stories that we make up, most of what is done in life doesn’t really matter and when one dies, it goes to the grave with them. But there are things that will be left behind and their significance will be determined by the intention of love that comes from one’s heart. This isn’t something that can be turned on and off, true love is natural and always genuine, it comes from the heart and whenever something is done from this love it’s perfect because it changes people; maybe not all people, but that’s because of conditioning. If something is done from the out of love and someone has issue with it, the issue isn’t with what was done.

One day all of what one has done in this life will come to pass. Everything we leave behind matters little in what is said and done, but the things done from the hearts intention to love are left behind and although what one says and does may not always be agreed with, as long as what’s done is from an intention to love it will be perfect. To be imperfect is a part of being human, but love is Universal so when we live from the hearts intention to love, we are aligned with the Universe and all that is done is perfect in love and this is because when what is done is from the hearts intention to love, it touches others regardless if they agree with it or not.

Unity Within

Unity with oneself results in the ability to love, it’s a simple decision to be made. A self serving mind generates conflict within oneself, but love generates a mind that’s in unity with itself.

The simplicity of life is related to our ability to love which allows for unity with our own mind. That’s why its imperative to understand, not the great secrets of the Universe, but your own mind. When the mind is in unity with itself, it’s in unity with all that is, it’s as simple as that. It’s the same mind that creates conflict and unity so which of these we’re conditioned to manufacture determines the outcome of how we live life.

Conflict is generated by the energy of a self serving mind and doesn’t make life conducive to love, so if conflict is what’s being created, there won’t be much unity with oneself. What direction the mind goes in is the energy that it generates and to that extent will one be in unity with themselves; this is unity with our own mind and only unity can result in unity.

Unity is simply our ability to love, this is our hearts direction, hence it becomes the direction of our mind. When love is generated it produces much different results then when the energy generated is self serving. The results are in the form of being in unity with oneself and thus there’s unity with all beings. To love is the simplest form of life, it’s what puts us in unity with life itself. Our unity is in our ability to love, our conflict is in our choice to self serve and it’s up to each individual which energy is generated and what the results of life will be. Simply love and unity will be, or not and life will remain a struggle, but don’t blame life for this, it’s one’s own energy that directs what’s chosen. Love is simple to understand, but not easy to generate and when love is in unity with life one is in unity with love.

Self Created Turmoil

Nothing that happens in life creates inner turmoil unless one’s own mind allows it. This is the insanity of a Conditioned Mind, its self destructive solutions are all from within and they take away one’s own peace.

The bottom line for me is I’ve found a practical way to minimize the turmoil in my life that causes my own destructiveness, which by the way is my own mind creating the turmoil telling me it’s needed to cope with life; a life that was controlled by a conditioned destructive mind set. My own mind created all the turmoil that went on by choosing actions I thought I wanted to do, but my choices always caused turmoil; I developed a mind that told me to do things that were destructive to my own well being. From relationships, to drugs, alcohol, gambling, and a slew of other things, nothing was ever chosen that was beneficial to my well being, it always seemed to cause more harm than good. How this mind set developed I’m not sure, but I do know this, it can be described as pure insanity.

Nine years ago although it wasn’t a white light experience, an inner urging occurred that was tired of all the turmoil and destructive behavior. I wasn’t sure what was going to happen, but I did know I needed to find a way to bring peace into my life. I don’t label what happened, there isn’t a benefit in calling it something, a label needn’t be applied to what happened. All that was needed to know then and all that’s needed to know now is, my behavior which was once totally self destructive is no longer this way. This is why labels and what others do isn’t a concern of mine, because I know for years my own mind allowed these things to create turmoil within myself and because of the shift that has occurred, there’s an awareness that turmoil doesn’t have to be created anymore.

Regardless of what it’s called or what attached label is put on it, the bottom line is this, when I have an issue with something it’s my own self destructive mind that creates turmoil and this means I’m not a peace. And now because there is an awareness of this, if I don’t allow my mind to do this, turmoil isn’t created and I have found without it I’m at peace, so again the bottom line is not to create turmoil. All I ever wanted in my life was peace, but I didn’t know it was my own mind that was the cause of all the turmoil.

Be Your Own Influence

We’re all a product of our influences so who can truly state a belief, idea, concept, or view can truly be called their own? These are all derived from some outer influence so one mostly lives someone else’s life.

The view that one develops over the course of time makes life what it is, but this isn’t to say one’s view is right and another is wrong or that one is better than the other. I’m just stating a fact that we are mostly a product of our environment and what view we have in place is only there because of the influences in our life. Not one single moment that’s in the past can be changed so there’s no reason to ever give that view a second thought. Giving it a second thought is just a waste of our limited precious time, unfortunately that’s the view most people have. The past will always be the past and nothing will ever change it, but we don’t have to view life from there.

There comes a time in every life when you know the only place to find what you’ve been looking for is within yourself. When one awakens to this, what’s usually revealed is that what’s been sought has always been there. This is the inner view that needs to be cultivated if one is to ever be free of a view that was put in place by others. There are so many of these influences that mold and shape our entire existence and until one awakens to this fact, the view in place will be someone else’s. Truly look at this, mom, dad, brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles, teachers, friends, tv, radio, and so on, everyone of them had some influence on our current view, so which belief, idea, concept and view can you truly call your own? None, zero, zilch, unless it was developed in an isolated cave somewhere and even then some conditioning will creep in.

The only thing that makes me different than anyone else is I’m more aware of my conditioning then most. I’m not less conditioned, just more aware, but it’s in this awareness that I can see how the influences have controlled me. This is the importance of awareness, it allows one to break free of this conditioning. How one does this is by sitting and allowing a mind that’s settled to become one’s influence, this won’t happen overnight, but with perseverance, the influences in place will slowly lose the grip and the influences of the heart (love) will become the new conditioning. This just so happens to be who you truly are without the influences of anyone else, and this is the view where one can begin to truly live their own life.

Using the Past to Live Now

Everything is in constant motion so what occurs now also occurs in the same instant that it passes away and because of this, one is constantly drawing from the past which means that’s where one lives.

People may think they’re different from one another, but that’s only the story that’s made up between one’s ears. From the President to the homeless person living on the street, what are the differences except for the stories. There’s one thing that’s constant in every life and that’s time stands still for no one. Everything is in constant motion so what occurs now also occurs in the same instant that it passes away, so anything held onto is from the past. One’s entire life is derived from past energy patterns which are in constant motion, we relive things over and over. Faces change, circumstances change, but the energy patterns stay the same which makes one’s behavior and reactions arise from the past.

When it’s said that there’s dislike for someone, where does the dislike come from? Same thing in the other direction, when it’s said that one likes something, where does the like come from? How about when someone post an article on FB, whether it’s decided it’s liked or not has nothing to do with the words of the post it’s just a bunch of words, but whichever way one is swayed, like or dislike, both responses are from an energy pattern that’s activated from something in the past. How about when one is driving and there’s traffic, even though the traffic is occurring now, the reason the traffic is disliked is arising from the past.

Nothing outside is ever the cause of one’s reactions, it’s only a trigger and it’s always something from within the person themselves that’s the causes of a reaction. There really isn’t much awareness of this by many people so one is constantly using the past to live in the present. It’s no wonder there aren’t many who know what it is to be truly happy, joyous, and free, because if one is always using the past to live in the present, what occurs in the present will never be experienced as it truly is because one will be always living in the past.

A Delusional Identity

The more attachment there is to one’s I, the more this creates a delusional identity. When the delusion of I is exposed, it doesn’t lead one to seeing the truth of who you are, it exposes the lies of who you are not.

As I was sitting in meditation the other day, in the silence arose how it took nearly fifty years to form an attachment to a delusional self, along with all the tools I thought were needed to make me who I thought I was suppose to be. For the last nine years I have be undoing this attachment to this delusional self which was thought to be the most beneficial way to live. This delusional self began at the time of birth when my parents named me for the purpose of having a way to identify me. This name was then attached to and the delusion began by a self that wasn’t even formed yet, but it was slowly being developed into a delusional identity.

I had an inkling of this throughout periods of my life although it was strictly on an intellectual level, but on this day there was a shift and this inkling went from my head to my heart and the delusional lie of self was exposed for me. For most people this delusion will remain in place until the time of death and although for many death itself will be the time that this lie is exposed, they may never be aware of it. For those who do awaken to the fallacy of this delusional identity, there’s a freedom that occurs that can only be known in the space of non attachment to this made up delusional self.

One’s bondage is in the belief that you are what you think, freedom is in knowing you are not. The more the lie of this delusional identity is exposed, the more exposure there will be to the truth that this self doesn’t really exist. In this truth there’s a knowing, not of who you are, but of who you are not, and it’s in the awareness of this lie that sets one free because one is no longer locked in to the identity of a delusional self.

Be the Message

Start with one single act of kindness and let it sink deeply into your heart. As kindness slowly becomes engrained in the subconscious, you become the message of kindness for all the world to see.

Doing acts of kindness emits an energy of true love as long as it’s done unconditionally from the heart. If it comes from the Conditioned Mind so one can get a better seat in heaven or move up on the angelic chain of command, this will block the hearts energy of love. Doing acts of kindness is a start, but the heart will have to keep on expanding and remain open for kindness to become the minds default setting. If the heart remains open all the time, acts of kindness will happen all the time because kindness will be the only thing that’s in place. Start with one single act of kindness and let it sink deeply into your heart, in this process as kindness slowly becomes the default setting of your mind, you become that message.

One can only emit the energy that’s in place and this is the message that others will see; an open heart goes a long way in deciding what that message will be. The road to hell is paved with good intentions and good intention don’t provide actual kindness to be one’s message. For kindness to become one’s message that the world sees, it will have to be something that’s cultivated so it becomes instilled in our subconscious.

I can only act as it is seen and as it is seen is a result of years of subconscious conditioning. So to be a message of kindness, the conditioning that blocks it from always being one’s message has to be changed. Once it is and It all starts with consciously doing one single act of kindness, the heart opens and kindness becomes the minds default setting and that will be the message the world will see.

Conditioned Thought Process

Most thought processes become a self created prison because the thoughts are usually given so much unnecessary energy that they go beyond the point where they’re beneficial to anyone.

It’s very important to grasp exactly what the process of a thought is and how it arises from the Conditioned Mind if there’s to be any chance of not succumbing to its tantalizing grip. Here is a what occurs when a thought arises: let’s say it’s time to get in your car and go to work, you’re giving yourself plenty of time to get there and the weather is simple gorgeous, so now you begin the drive. As you’re waiting to pull onto the main road, a very large funereal procession is in progress, it has to be at least seventy five cars long; you are waiting patiently as you know you have plenty of time to get to your destination. So the funeral procession finally passes and you go, but now there’s traffic and it’s moving slowly; as you’re stuck in this traffic the cushion you gave yourself to get to work has dwindled, now your Conditioned Mind begins its nonsense.

It all starts by the traffic being a trigger that activates the conditioning in the form of a thought, this creates a mind agitation telling you there shouldn’t be any traffic. This is the first step in how a thought is given energy to grab hold. It has nothing to do with the fact that there’s traffic, but it has everything to do with the fact that’s there’s traffic, at least to the Conditioned Mind. Substitute the traffic with anything and see how what’s happening right now is wanted to be different and watch the nonsense begin. So now there’s traffic and you don’t want there to be any, that’s the conditioning arisen. Next in the thought process is the attachment to not wanting there to be traffic and the more attachment there is, the more agitated the mind becomes and the more nonsense is created.

At the core of all this is one’s I, without I none of this would transpire, it can’t because there’s nothing to attach to. But I is present in this situation so now one is attached and until this runs its course or the traffic subsides, one will remain in this thoughts grip. Even after the nonsense of the Conditioned Mind subsides, the trace energy will remain because although you aren’t late for work, you don’t have the luxury of the cushion you gave yourself so your thoughts are concerned with being late and this becomes your conditioned story. Until you finally get to work and tell someone this story, it will fester and you will keep telling yourself how you really hate traffic, but the reality of all this is, although traffic is what grabbed you, it wouldn’t matter what it was, you really just want life to be the way that you want it and when it isn’t, it opens the door for all kinds of conditioned nonsense to begin.

Awakening to One's Own Love

The world can only be experienced through one’s own love when one’s own love is in place, and if it’s not in place, it has to be found out why this isn’t so in order for it to be changed.

When one awakens it’s to the love in their own heart, this is the love of creation and as this is experienced, it becomes the love one experiences the world through. If everyone knew the own mind and how it’s only through the way one is conditioned that it doesn’t allow a person to experience their own magnificence, they would do what’s necessary to change this conditioning. This conditioning is no ones direct fault why it’s in place, but it doesn’t have to remain in place because it can be changed so one can experience the world from the love within their heart. But this can only occur by understanding yourself, knowing your own heart, and by doing what’s necessary to remove the blocks that don’t allow one to experience the world through love.

The world can be experienced through one’s own love when one’s own love is in place and if it’s not, it has to be found out why this isn’t so in order for it to be changed. Love is the power of the entire Universal and we are a direct result of its power. Every human starts out as the same form and then when conditions are right, the Universe transforms one form of energy into another. This has nothing to do with the individual human form, it has everything to do with the transformation of spiritual energy that allows one to experience their own love and thus experience the world through that love.

The Subtleness of I

The subtleness of I is what causes one to cling to things unknowingly. Watch your thoughts, see how most of them arise from I. Clinging can be changed, but I is so subtle that it will most likely continue its control.

I clings, without I there’s no clinging because there’s nothing to supply the source that the clinging needs. I is the base of clinging so when I is removed the source of the clinging is removed. There can’t be clinging without something for it to adhere to and that’s where I comes in. The thing about this is it’s so subtle that few recognize it and hence it continues to cause one to cling to it and to suffer. Watch your thoughts, see how most of them arise from I, if this can be seen, it can be changed, but it’s so subtle that I just continues its onslaught of control.

This needs to be investigated by learning why this I is developed in the first place causing one to cling. Most of one’s clinging is done because I wants the present moment to be different. I constantly searches for something pleasurable and it makes one believe pleasure is needed. I is formed from the way one is conditioned and there’s not to many people who don’t seek things they think will bring their I pleasure. The unfortunate thing about this is many of the things used only seem to bring pleasure, upon further review they really cause one to suffer, but this suffering is not in the pleasure sought, it arises from I and that causes the suffering. Not matter what happens in life, if it’s viewed from I it will in some capacity cause one to suffer. So subtle is this I, that without a practice in place to allow this to be seen, one will remind blind to the fact that I is in control and unfortunately because of this, one will never be free.

Clinging to Views

Clinging creates the story that one’s stories are needed, but no story is truly needed and as long as one doesn’t want this moment to be any different, clinging won’t be needed either.

Clinging to a view that one has is where clarity becomes distorted and bring open minded falls away. This is what blocks one’s true connection with life as it is seen through a made up view. Even the view of peace has to be let go of for there to be this connection, this also holds true for the view that there’s a connection. Also, a non clinging action would be just like holding on to truth, anything held onto is clinging. Truth doesn’t need a label to be truth, it would be as if someone placed a hot coal in your hand, no one needs to tell you it’s hot to know it’s hot, you would just naturally let it go because you know if you don’t there will be consequences. This is what happens when there’s clinging to views, it’s not the view that causes a distortion, it’s the clinging.

Just like with the hot coal, it can be next to you all day, but this doesn’t cause you any issue, now though if you pick it up and form a belief that you have to pick it up and then you cling to this belief, there will be issues and consequences for clinging to this belief. Also to drop the coal doesn’t require a belief or a philosophy, all one has to do is stop their clinging. Religion, spirituality, sorrow, arrogance, peace, drugs, alcohol, sex, self serving desires, food, gambling, money, social status, and so on, none of these cause a distorted view in and of themselves, but once there is clinging to them, issues arise as will unfavorable consequences.

Clinging is the main culprit when it comes to suffering and even if there are times when one experiences peace in their life, if there’s clinging to the feeling of peace, it will be short lived. So watch the mind and how it wants to cling, it will create a story that stories are needed, but upon further investigation it will be seen that no story is needed and as long as one doesn’t want this moment to be any different then what it is, clinging won’t be needed either.

The Four Principles of the Conditioned Mind

If there isn’t a process in place to understand why one thinks, says, and does what they do, what’s done will continue to randomly happen and life will be lived as if it’s a game of chance.

Here’s a brief summary of the Four Principles of the Conditioned Mind.

1. The Principle of a Conditioned Mind – Understanding.

This is a vital building block to the other principles because without understanding what one is truly up against, the Conditioned Mind will remain at the helm. This conditioning is so subtle, it remains hidden even if one’s life seems it’s outwardly perfect. The moment one thinks about something, it can be chalked up it’s from a Conditioned Mind Pattern. How do I know this you may ask, because you wouldn’t think it in the first place if the conditioning wasn’t already in place.

2. The Principle of what causes the Conditioning – Attachment

Once there’s an understanding of Principle One the next Principle addresses what embeds the Conditioned Mind Pattern into one’s subconscious. This occurs because of attachment which is to one’s I Self, as it’s described in my book. It’s this story of I that one has been creating their entire existence and it’s where all attachment arises from. Pure and simple if one didn’t create this I Self, there would be nobody to attach to a thought.

3. The Principle of Awareness of the Conditioning – Realizing

So now there’s a deeper understanding of why one thinks, says, and does what they do. What happens in Principle Three is there’s a realization of one’s behavior and it’s seen how so many times one has acted in ways that wasn’t beneficial to themselves or anyone else. In this realization there’s finally a choice, that for years wasn’t there. Life occurs, the conditioning arises, but now it’s understood so there’s no attachment to what arises. Although the mind will try, but it’s through this realization that allows one to see it’s your own mind that’s telling you to act in ways that isn’t beneficial to yourself or anyone else.

4. The Principle of Conditioned Mind Freedom – Practice

Principle Four is the glue that holds the process of these principles together. These Four Principles allow something tangible to be held onto so one sees how putting a practice in place allows the mind to settle. The more one practices, the more one’s mind settles and with a settled mind there’s much more awareness of the first three principles and with more awareness of the first three principles, the mind settles more. This goes round and round and as it does, these principle feed off each other as the mind naturally aligns with its true nature of stillness.

It’s written in the bible to “Be Still” it doesn’t say read another book, get a spouse, a degree, a better job, or so on, not that there’s anything wrong with any of theses, but it’s in the practice of sitting that one develops the discipline necessary for these principle to take hold. If and when the time comes for a deeper self investigation to expose the lies of the Conditioned Mind even further, the 12 Steps to Freedom would be the next step in the process of waking up and breaking the hold of one’s Conditioned Mind.

Mom's Love

A mother’s love is the glue of any family and it holds it together. This is the love of creation that’s formed in the womb for a child unborn and it’s the love that just may one day change the world.

This is an edited repeated post, but it so fitting for this day. As I was out to dinner one day, I had the pleasure of watching this large family gathering at the restaurant. There were six grand children seated at one end of the table as the parents of the grandchildren were in attendance, so there were many mothers and fathers in the gathering. There was an elderly women at the table who was the grandmother of the six children.

I observed much love at this gathering, it was also the birthday of the elderly woman. At the time she was celebrating her eighty-first year of life. I noticed she would often start crying during certain times of this gathering and I was close enough to her to know these were tears of joy. You could see the love in her heart for her family and the love that was at the entire table for her. It was an honor to not only observe this gathering, but to also be a part of it. This was my family and it was my mom who was not only celebrating Mother’s Day, but also her birthday.

As with most families, my family is far from perfect, but I can tell you this from my own observations, a mothers love is the glue of any family and for ours this is also true. Almost all of our immediate family was there, except for three grandchildren who could not attend. My dad died many years ago, as has my wife’s mother and father, but I can tell you this, their love was with us on this day and their love is present in our lives daily. You never lose the love that you have for a person or the love they have for you, it can only be passed on; this is how love rolls. I observed this on this day at our family gathering, as I had the privilege of being a part of such a joyous occasion. To watch my moms tears of joy brought tears of joy to my own heart, and I would have to say at least on this day, regardless of my families imperfections, it was perfect because this is the way love rolls.

Allowing Harmony

If things aren’t done that allows harmony with life, for it to change it’s imperative to know why this is so. Knowing one’s own mind will go a long way in allowing this change.

Just observe how the mind justifies all that it does. It has never been trained to be still so it creates most of our problems just so it has something to do. It says to do something and turns around and questions why it was done. It should be treated as a separate entity as if it’s one’s enemy, because upon further review it will be seen that it is, but it’s not the mind that’s truly the enemy, it’s ones conditioning, that’s the true enemy.

This isn’t the true nature of the mind, it’s only conditioned to be this way and it’s we ourselves consciously or unconsciously, who put these habitual mind patterns in place. So knowing one’s own mind is a way to undo what we ourselves have done. This knowing of one’s mind is not about the great secrets of the Universe of becoming known, it’s more so about getting an understanding of why the things that are done don’t put one in harmony with life. When this is known, why one responds to things a certain things will be known, after all if one doesn’t do the things in their life that allow harmony, it should at least be known why.

Struggling Butterfly
Although things happen that make life seem as though it's a constant struggle, many times it's because of the struggles that our view of life changes and we become free. I'm not really sure if struggling with life is a prerequisite for one to be free, but it certainly seems that way. Most people go through something that dramatically changes they're view of life before there's acceptance of a totally different view then the world presents. What I'm proposing through the message that's been revealed to me is a practical way to change one's view without something dramatic happening. Change the view or forever hold your peace, but understand without a changed view, peace will be something theres's very little of. This reminds me of a story I once read: One spring day a young boy who was about six years old, was in his back yard playing when he noticed there was something on the trees. He didn't really know what he was looking at, but he was mesmerized by it. What he was looking at on the trees with about ten cocoons. What caught his eye was one of them was moving and the butterfly inside, although he didn't know this, was at the stage where it was ready to break out of the cocoon; it was struggling mightily breaking out. Finally after about thirty minutes the butterfly was totally free from the confines of the cocoon and it slowly started to flap its wings as it fluttered away. This really intrigued the little boy. From the corner of his eye, he saw another cocoon starting to move and seeing how the first butterfly struggled so much with breaking free, he decided to help this butterfly. He got a stick and as the butterfly was struggling to break free, he used the stick to make a hole in the cocoon, unfortunately the butterfly fell to the ground and died. The little boy did this to the remaining cocoons, as they were each in this stage, but they all suffered the same result. Although he thought he was being helpful, the butterflies needed to go through their struggles so they could break free. I still don't know if struggling with life is a prerequisite to being free, but to me the moral of this story is, although the struggle with life may seem to be difficult, it also seems it's the struggle that provides one with the possibility of breaking free.
Centered Energy
There's always a center from where life is basically lived from and this center determines if the energy emitted to the world is truly from love or from the way one thinks the world should be. For years the center of my life was based in self serving energy, this didn't leave much room for anyone else to be served, so to say the least my life was always filled with drama and chaos. This is what a center based in self serving energy produces, it has to because that's the nature of self serving energy. No one is truly at fault for this center, it's basically in place because it's the way of the world. There are so many centers based in this self serving energy and it's the cause of every conflict that has ever occurred since the beginning of time. Ever so slowly centers of love are being established and it's the one's with this center that are making the worlds energy different. The only way things will become different in the world is, one center at a time that's based in love. A center based in love is one of quietness, it's not a made up center where one has to constantly defend that their center is the way. True love needs no defending because it's in unity with all of life regardless of what someone else's center is based in. If for some reason you're in conflict with someone, your center is not of love, it can't be, because that's not how love rolls; it never ever has conflict because it's energy doesn't allow it. One's conflicts with others are a good gauge to see if your center is truly based in love or self serving energy. If there is conflict, regardless of what the other person's center is, yours is not based in love. You may tell yourself it is, but how can it be if there's conflict? A conflict arises when someone isn't in line with the way you think things should be. Who the f__k are you to think you know how things should be, mind your own business, take care of your center, and make sure you allow everything and everyone to be as they are, because it is then and only then that the center of your life will be of love and the world will be different because of it.
The Illogical Ego
Anytime somethings done that's not beneficial to life, it's one's ego that makes this so. One can say "I shouldn't have done that" but how can you not do what your own mind tells you. I know it's not always easy to see life as a gift, but there are reasons for this, it's not to deny that sometimes unpleasant or horrific things happen, but who labels the thing unpleasant and who does the unpleasantness happen to? Although the human form does exist, it doesn't exist in the way that it appears, it's the egos logic that puts a label on things so it makes sense. The logic of the ego has to have an answer for everything and if it doesn't it will go searching until it either finds one or makes one up. Life isn't about having all the answers, or even needing all the answers, but the way our ego has been conditioned, that's exactly what we make it all about. Attaining, accomplishing, achieving, all to satisfy an ego that is never satisfied. No wonder why our world is the way that it is. Life is continuous, our ego has been conditioned to make up all kinds of nonsense to avoid seeing this. It uses time to make one believe life needs to be broken up in time slots, but what time is really needed for, is to keep track of things. The Here and Now is where life always occurs no matter what time it is or what's going on, but understand, as you're in one of these created time slots, waiting for this or that to occur so the logic of the ego can make it seem as though life is complete, it's passing you by. Life can never be any more complete then it is right now, except to an ego that has been conditioned to be everywhere except here, and although our ego has made us think we have developed a logical mind, there really isn't any logic to it; until this is understood the ego controls the show. Think of this, anytime you do something that isn't beneficial to you, your ego is making you do it, this is something that needs to be realized if one is to truly live life and not wait for it to be perfectly logical (only to the ego) to enjoy the temporary gift of life that we have been blessed with.
Momentum of the Mind

The constant barrage of thoughts that have been most minds conditioned default setting for years, will not stop just because one has decided it is now time to sit.

Here is why it’s so difficult to start the process of sitting (meditation). Take your age and see all the momentum that has built up over the years. There’s so much energy pushing and controlling with past thoughts, these are energy patterns and once they’re attached to, they keep the mind agitated which won’t allow one to sit still even for one moment. The constant barrage of thoughts that have been most minds conditioned default setting will not stop just because one has now decided it is time to sit. Good luck with that because the mind ain’t gonna settle. The issue at hand is everyone is addicted to thinking in some way, it just depends how much those thoughts are attached to and this is why we are all addicts and we use different things.

It’s no different than trying stop to a speeding train, or trying to check a swing in baseball, once the motion is in full swing, it’s impossible to stop it instantly, eventually it can be stopped, but not instantly. This is why sitting to learn discipline is a process because in the beginning the momentum of one’s conditioning is to strong that most people quit before anything is revealed; in a way they can’t be blamed. I say this because of one’s conditioning isn’t truly understood a person actually ends up fighting themselves unknowing and doesn’t have the awareness to see this is even happening. Going beyond the conditioned is impossible without awareness it exist, this unawareness is very said because one is never free. Look at this or not, your life is yours to live it as you choose, but with all the years of momentum built up, maybe you don’t really have a choice, just as the batter who tried to check his swing, but the umpire said, strike three.

The Lust of I

When the lust of I is in control our actions are selfish, when it’s not our actions are to please others. Just think how different our world would be if we all went around pleasing one another.

I was having a discussion with someone the other day and the topic of lust came up. One of the things discussed was lust manifesting in sexual behavior. Although lust is the core of acting on arisen desires, what most people don’t understand about it is acting on lustful desires is only arise to satisfy I. The nature of lust is selfish because when something is based to strictly satisfy self, it cuts off the flow of life. Unselfish loving energy is what keeps the flow of life active, without it life becomes like stagnant water. Nothing grows that promotes life when something is stagnate. Stagnant water promotes disease, decay, erosion, and so on, something that’s free flowing has the resources to promote an sustain life.

This is a key mistake in most relationships because a lot of the times the sex is based to strictly satisfy selfish lustful desires and if you’re not having sex to please your partner, then who is being please? This is the lust of I, but this isn’t only with sex, the lust of I manifest in so many ways, the lust for power, greed, hate, religion, social status, and the list goes on and on. Lust is very subtle, even when a person puts themselves down, the driven energy behind this is the lust for some made up perfection. There’s nothing wrong with wanting to have sex or wanting to better your situation in life, but at what cost does one pursue these desires? Please for the sake of yourself and humanity investigate this for yourself.

To me all lust starts out from the core of I, but it doesn’t have to be acted on from this core. Let’s say you’re passionate with your partner, obviously because it’s in our nature, one will become aroused, lust arises naturally, but where it goes from there is determined if one self seeks to fulfill their lustful desires or if one’s energy is directed to please their partner. It’s either or in most situations, so when the energy of the lust of I is in control, our actions are selfish, and when it’s not, our actions are to please others. Just think what a difference our world would be if we all went around pleasing one another.

Lightness of Heart

When the energy of an occurrence is stored instead of letting it go and allowing it to pass through, it accumulates and keeps one on a collision course with their own mind.

How does the heart become heavy? This occurs by the accumulation of what occurs in life and holding onto it as it forms one’s identity. When the energy of what happens is held onto, it gets stored for the next occurrence to build on and the next, and the next, and so on, you can see how this faulty foundation can cause immense problems. It’s never what occurs in life that’s a problem, it happens deal with it and then just like that it’s over and done with, but when it’s energy is stored instead of letting it go and allowing it to pass through, it keeps one on a collision course with its own mind.

As long as one is alive, life will always be life. People will be born, people will die, some will be of love and some will be of hate, the key is allowing life and all its doings to be as it is and not allow it to accumulate and carry around each and every occurrence upon one’s shoulders as if it just happened. When this letting go truly occurs, lightness of heart will not only be experienced, but it will become the way one always lives. No more stored energy means no more unnecessary baggage and without baggage, one is free because there’s nothing to carry around that blocks the path to one’s lightness of heart.

The Proper Remedy

It isn’t the seeking of spirituality that causes one to get lost in the noise of seeking, it’s the improper remedy being used that keeps one lost because it doesn’t match up with what’s being sought.

Unless one knows the exact nature of an illness there won’t be an awareness of what the proper remedy for it is. This is where most people fall short when it comes to seeking spirituality and thus they don’t really ever grasp what they’re truly seeking. If a person has the flu and they’re just taking cough medicine, this isn’t the proper remedy and it won’t result in what’s being sought, although this probably won’t directly make the situation worse, it won’t make it better. There are as many spiritual remedies available as there are reasons why one seeks them, but a reason isn’t what causes the seeking and unless the cause is known, the proper remedy won’t be known and the seeking will never end.

Here’s a story to illustrate this: One day a seeker of peace who practiced mediation for years, was in a group with fellow seekers. He was asked by the leader of the group, why do you spend so much time practicing meditation and seeking peace? The answer given by the seeker was this, so I can go deeper within, I have been exploring how to be at peace for many years, going inward, looking to discover deep meditative states which I have experienced. I have constantly sought this answer. Gently the leader of the group leaned over and whispered in the seekers ear “come out of there” this simple statement stopped the seeker in his tracks and for the first time since he began seeking, he experienced the great silence that had eluded him. The seeker realized that all the noise he tried to get away came from within himself and he was lost in it. After years of trying all the so called different remedies that were at his disposal, the statement “come out of there” finally revealed to him the proper remedy that was sought. So it isn’t the seeking itself that causes one to get lost in the noise of the seeking, it’s not having the proper remedy in place which doesn’t match up with what’s being sought that keeps one lost.

Unsqueezing of the Heart

The In experiencing the unsqueezing of the heart, we’re able to discover our own innate love as it shines through as the light of our own magnificence; this is a light for all the world to see.

The heart is the most power muscle in one’s body, it starts working as life begins in the womb and only stops for the most part one time. It’s the only muscle needed to sustain life and it’s the only muscle that can sustain life. So when it’s said that a person is living from the heart, what exactly is meant by this? Now granted, this is only my take on this, but what I have come to understand this as meaning is, instead of being lead around by the energy of one’s thoughts which squeezes the heart, when there’s something that occurs in a person’s life that shifts their perspective from the fallacy of living by thought alone, the shift is the unsqueezing of the heart that was previously slammed, bolted, nailed, and probably welded shut. This unsqueezing changes one’s energy from solely thought based, to heart based, which then gives one’s thoughts new energy. A heart of love can only love so one’s thoughts naturally fall in line with love when this shift occurs.

Certainly in the beginning of this shift, one’s energy will fluctuate, but when a true shift occurs one’s heart energy keeps expanding and more and more their life is transformed to loving energy. No matter what’s attained in life, it’s never truly lived until its lived from the energy of love. This isn’t a mind constructed love where a self serving energy is the base of one’s thoughts, this is an energy revealed only in stillness where one’s life becomes the love serving energy provided by the Universe. This love is within us all, it’s what we’re made of.

Because this love is within us all, it’s given to us by those around us and we also give it to others. This is how love works, it’s never selfish, it can’t be because that’s not its nature. In the love that we’re given we’re able to discover our love within as it shines through as the light of our own magnificence. Without the love from others, we would stay locked in to a made up lack of the Conditioned Mind which keeps one’s heart from being unsqueezed. When one experiences the unsqueezing of the heart, we’re able to discover our own innate light and this is the light for all the world to see.

The Human Condition

Our human condition is the vessel in which our existence manifest so it shouldn’t be denied or ignored, if it is there will be suffering because one isn’t embracing the true essence of what is.

The framework of a spiritual life is not to deny being human, it’s to embrace our humanness and see it for what it truly is so one can learn how not to cling to the things that cause suffering. Why do we cling to things that although they seem they’re beneficial to us, they’re the cause of our suffering? This all starts with our thinking and ends up as whatever one clings to. Think of a thought as a bird that lands on your head, there’s not much of a problem with this. Clinging would be likened to the bird building a nest on your head, now issues would start to arise. And if the bird completed its nest and started a family, it would be a major issue. This is what happens when there’s a thought and one clings to it, the thought itself isn’t an issue.

Thoughts aren’t right or wrong they’re just thoughts, but when you cling to them it reinforces the human condition and blocks out one from being in touch with their spiritual essence, therein lies the issue because when one is driven by their human side, it will only look for answers and satisfaction for human solutions, which aren’t beneficial to anyone. To err is human and one will err that’s a given, so if being human isn’t accepted for what it is there will be much suffering. What it really comes down to is although our essence is spiritual, our human condition is the vessel in which our existence manifest, so it shouldn’t be denied or ignored because if it is, there will be suffering because one isn’t embracing the true essence of what is.

Obsessive Chains

One will always do whatever it is that’s in place, until what’s in place is no longer there. The more one attaches to what’s in place, the more what’s in place becomes an obsession.

Watch the obsessions arise and how they grab hold of the mind. When this occurs it’s very difficult to stop, even if one is aware of the obsessive behavior, once one’s in its grip it usually has to run its course. Don’t be to discouraged with this because a person really isn’t at fault, one will always do what they have in place until what’s in place is no longer there. This is nearly impossible for people to grasp without some form of an established method that allows the mind to settle, even then it’s still difficult to grasp. I say don’t be discouraged because even if there’s some awareness that something sort of has you, until it truly arises and grabs hold, the magnitude of the obsession won’t truly be known.

Once whatever it is takes hold and runs its course, a serious reflection on how it grabbed you will have to be done to first see the affect it had on you and second can you or do you even want to, possibly stop this from grabbing you again. This is a very important reflection in one’s flight to freedom; if that’s what one wants. Without going into detail this exact thing recently happened to me with something a few weeks ago and the way it took control over me was like nothing I’ve experienced in a long long time.

Obsessive thoughts take away all logic and reasoning, it lays before one only one purpose and that’s to fulfill the obsession. The core of all obsessions are selfish and destructive and although all obsessions don’t physically kill they wreck havoc mentally and spiritually. Most times they run their course before one can truly see the affect they had. It is then and only if there’s an established discipline in place. that a lesson can be learned, if not the obsession will become dormant and lie in wait until the next set of circumstances activates it. If and this is a big if, if one doesn’t want this to happen again there will have to much more work towards what caused the obsession in the first place.

Life's Point of Contact

The mind that’s constantly agitated creates issues because it takes one from their point of contact with life. This doesn’t allow a person to truly experience life as it locks one into a made up story.

One’s point of contact with life is what occurs in each moment, but because of the way most minds are conditioned to view life, one’s point of contact is thought to be mostly in the past or further. There are times when the point of contact is in the moment, but mostly there’s unawareness of this and when there’s awareness, the only reason a point of contact exist is because one wants the moment to be different. Case in point, when a person is driving and they’re in a hurry, if they catch a red light, there’s point of contact awareness, but it’s not very beneficial in allowing one to be in the flow of life because the red light is thought to be a hinderance. It’s not a true hinderance though, it only exist because one wants all the red lights to be green.

Life situations are constantly arising and falling away, as these situations arise they’re instantly put into conditioned categories, this takes what arise from one’s awareness of a present point of contact and puts it in the mindset of past or future contact. Another example could be getting an unfavorable diagnosis from a doctor. The moment the report is verbally given is its point of contact, and without awareness of this, the mind starts looking for a category to put what arises in, which instantly takes one from life’s point of contact and puts them in the past or future contact.

This occurs thousands of times a day without one even realizing it’s occurring. So what can a person do to become more aware of this point of contact and remain in its moment? Sit as often as possible and develop the discipline that’s needed to observe the wandering mind and remain with the point of contact of what’s occurring in that moment regardless if it’s labeled good, bad, or indifferent. It’s in this moment that life can be truly lived.

Listening to a Flower Growing

When we are mindful of our own conditioning and we take care of the place where we contact the world, we offer the world protection, not by trying to change it, but by listening to a flower growing.

For the most part the glaring and destructive conditioned mind behavior that was in control for most of my life seems to be in a place of idling. I would never say the conditioning is gone because just by labeling it so would give it the needed energy to return. It’s very important to see what’s in place as being our point of contact with the world, but not make it into a story. Here’s an anonymous quote that illustrates this perfectly. “We live in a world torn between wanting to listen to the sound of a flower growing and wanting to ignore the sound of the sky falling, but sometimes just being sensitive enough to the first process, we acquire the energy necessary to prevent the second” end of quote. In stillness all truth arises.

Now here’s a story: A long time ago there was a king who went for long walks daily, he would walk the same route everyday for miles. One day unbeknownst to him at the time, he stepped on something and his foot become infected. When the infection cleared up, he ordered his servants to carpet the route he walked with leather. Overwhelmed with this order, one of the servant suggested he wrap his feet in leather instead of the entire route and hence shoes were invented. The point of today’s article is to show how one only needs to focus on being mindful of themselves, not focusing on saving or trying to change the world, the more mindful one is of their own behaviors and actions, the more things around them will change.

One will never prevent the sky from falling or have the entire world carpeted in love, but one can listen to their own heart, not be a part of the noise of what falls, and just take care of themselves instead of being overwhelmed trying to change everything and everyone else. When we are mindful of our own conditioning and we take care of the place where we contact the world, we offer the world protection, not by trying to change it or by ignoring that the sky is falling, but just by listening to a flower growing.

Our Innate Self

Accessibility to one’s innate self is always available, but it’ll only be seen through the understanding of not needing a path. When no path is needed, one sees their innate self has always been there.

A path to understanding what it takes to experience one’s innate self isn’t truly needed because one is already complete in their own magnificence, this just isn’t known. This is why it’s thought a path is needed, because of the lack of understanding that you are complete right now. There’s no place to get to or nothing to attain because it’s already had and one doesn’t have to get what they already have. This path of no path is one that doesn’t need labels, nor does it discriminate, it’s allows one to see through the labeling mind. This mind of non labeling reveals one’s own magnificence which manifests as love, compassion, kindness, and the like because without attaching to a path, one is allowed to be with what’s truly there, not the story (label) of what’s there.

This path of no path allows one to see life through eyes that are free, where one’s sees the innate perfection of how things are and how the world is. This is the perfection of what is without the discrimination that one’s own mind uses to causes suffering. Discrimination is a labeled judgement that’s not inherent, it’s a label that is attached to something that only exist in comparison to something else.

Who one innately is has nothing to do with the attached label of self. No path is needed to be with one’s innate self; a path actually causes one’s struggle because it makes one think they have to do something to be who they already are. You can only be who you innately are until you attach to a certain path, you then become who you aren’t. This is the struggle many go through as there’s a constant search for the right path, but the right path doesn’t exist. Only no path exist and when one awakens to see this, it reveals one’s own magnificence through the understanding that one’s innate self is always there, it just isn’t something that a path will reveal. 

Quiet Mind Creativity

Everyone has a creative side and regardless of the form that it manifest as, it arises from the quietness of a settled mind and is something to be enjoyed by everyone, as it is a gift from the Universe.

There’s a creative side within each and everyone of us, but most likely it has gone untouched because of all the noise that goes on between one’s ears and if the mind doesn’t settle, it will probably remain untouched for one’s entire life. Even if there are moments of creativity, unless there’s quietness at a deep level, it will only scratch the surface of what one’s creative energy can manifest. I am a living example of this.

It was never my intention to write a book or write daily articles on my experiences, but when I began this phase of my life nine years ago which included learning to meditate so my mind would settle, becoming a writer is what arose from the settling. It amazes me every time I see my name on my book that it was actually written by me. I know I was only the instrument used to write it, because it wasn’t even a thought of mine to write it. I never said to myself “I could write a book” or even wanted to, but the Universe had other plans for me to use my experience; I don’t take it for granted.

I’ve written over eleven hundred articles in roughly a three plus year period. People have asked me how do I write an article everyday, and I tell them I don’t, they arise from the quietness of a mind that’s settle. When the mind settles the normal noise of the world isn’t as prevalent so it allows one’s creativity to take hold. Something will be at the base of one’s life and that something will be either based in noise or quietness. All things are possible when the mind settles, but the most important part of this is to realize that regardless of the form the creativity takes on, it’s there to be enjoyed by everyone, as it is a gift from the Universe. 

Behind Closed Doors Integrity

Behind closed doors integrity means, what you do behind closed doors is the same as what you do when someone is watching, if this isn’t the level of one’s integrity, it’s because there’s a lack of self honesty.

One way to the purification of the mind and heart is to develop integrity. Here’s one definition of integrity “the quality of being honest” to me this is about self honesty because when I’m truly honest with me, there’s no way I can be dishonest with anyone else. I’ve learned a lot about self honesty in the last nine years and it’s something that eluded me for most of my life. Honesty isn’t about what I present to the world, it’s about what is done behind closed doors. The world is easily fooled because of the conditioning in place, but what does it matter if one gains the whole world, but loses themselves.

Integrity is a huge hurdle in breaking the chains of the Conditioned Mind, without it truth cannot be revealed. If I don’t know what blocks me from the purification of the mind and heart, the blocks remain, and without establishing what I call “behind closed doors integrity” one remains stuck in their old habits because there’s no room for anything new. Certain things trigger certain thoughts and if those thoughts are attached to, it’s usually because one’s integrity has been compromised. Although there’s no right or wrong in this, it does make someone do something behind closed doors that they wouldn’t necessarily do if someone was watching; as always investigate this for yourself.

Only to yourself is honesty necessary because it’s only yourself that will keep you from the purification of your mind and heart. This self honestly is tied in with loving yourself; when you’re honest with yourself, you’re truly loving yourself because you’re making room for the mind to expand, this allows for the integrity to do what you do behind closed doors just as you do in front of others. Difficult yes, but only because “behind closed doors integrity” isn’t the level of honesty that’s in place.

Mind and Heart Purity

The purity of the mind and heart is directly linked to how in touch one is to their inner child. The greatest beauty of life isn’t something seen outward, it’s the inward purity of the mind and heart.

We’ve all done things that we’re probably not proud of or wish we could go back and undo some of the them, but we can’t, so the question is, how do we live with the past without allowing it to control the present and future? Learning this is essential in returning to a mind and heart state of purity, not in the sense where one is rendered white as snow from past action, but more so to identify why we acted as we did and to let go of it so we can move forward and not repeat the same behavior again and again. The tearing down of one’s conditioned walls to return to a state of mind and heart purity is a slow process.

It’s written Jesus said, “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven” to me this means unless one’s mind and heart purity becomes the preferred principles in their life, heaven on earth will never be experienced. How can it be, with the way the mind has been conditioned to block out one’s natural state of purity. The practice of discipline and concentration allows the mind to settle so the pollutants are removed and the natural state of purity of one’s mind and heart becomes the preferred principles of how life is lived. Purity is already within, but the way the mind has been conditioned, which is what our pollutants manifest as, blocks many from seeing this.

It’s going to take some work to get back to our natural state of mind and heart purity because it’s probably been a very long time since we were in touch with the purity of our inner child. By practicing meditation, discipline and concentration are developed which removes the mind pollutants, this allows the mind to settle and return into its natural state of purity. We aren’t becoming something that we aren’t, we are returning to our natural state and are allowing the purity of mind and heart, that’s already in place, to become the preferred principles to live by. 

Comparative Thinking

When comparative thinking is one’s mind set, it doesn’t allow for the appreciation of the life one is given because one is always seeing someone else’s grass as being greener than theirs.

We are our own worse enemies when it comes to being kind to ourselves. Most of us develop comparative thinking when looking at ourselves and we mostly fall short of the comparison. Most people reading this are likely aware that I’ve written a book, now if I compare my book to a number one best seller and think it has to achieve the same status for it to be deemed successful, my comparative thinking will not allow me to enjoy the process of what’s actually occurring. Comparative thinking has so many short comings because regardless of what one compares themselves to, the moment that’s occurring is the way that it actually is.

One can always look at a glass as being half empty or half full, but the reality of this is there’s only liquid in the glass and the comparison of being half empty or half full doesn’t really change this fact. This is what comparative thinking blocks out, the ability to see what’s actually occurring. Let’s say you’re 5′ 3″ tall, some may say you’re short and you may say you’re short and you may wish you were taller, but you’re only short compared to someone who is taller and in the grand scheme of things it doesn’t really matter. So many people want things compared to how someone else has it, but this takes away from the true essence the life you’re given. Not wanting anything different is huge if one is to experience life to the fullest.

There are so many examples of how comparative thinking blocks our own innate goodness from arising, and if the mind isn’t somewhat settled, it will continue its rule to make one think their given life has to be different; it only has to be different if it’s compared to someone else’s. It can’t actually be different than what it is and even if it was different, it would still be what it is. The point is to be with life as it is for you and not compare it to anyone else’s because if we all threw our life into a pile and could choose a different one, most would pick their own life back, because the grass is never truly greener c