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" There will only be peace when there’s acceptance of things being as perfect when they are in disarray as when they are exactly as one wants them; this sums up the path to liberation. "
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Life as it Is

There will only be peace when there’s acceptance of things being as perfect when they are in disarray as when they are exactly as one wants them; this sums up the path to liberation.

In order to experience liberation there has to be as much comfort in a diseased body and mind as there is in one that’s healthy. This actually goes for everything because it’s in wanting things a certain way and them not being accepted when they’re not, that causes one to have uneasiness. This is the epitome of the Conditioned Mind, it creates all the uneasiness in one’s life by making up the lie that things need to be different. By all means change what can be changed, but if it’s only an outer change, it still won’t bring the comfort that’s sought. This is where the value of going inward comes in. I write guidelines, but I don’t have answers for others, mostly because I don’t know really know what someone else has gone through. My writings are pointers, the most important thing to see is how life is always as it is and only wanting it different is where uneasiness arise from. Check this for yourself.

I find the good, the bad, and the ugly, all need to be accepted the same, this is a truth in my life so it’s why I share it. If one doesn’t see this, it doesn’t mean it’s not true, it just means you are not there yet. Even though everyone goes through life as it is, how it’s accepted is dependent on where one is in their life. There’s no right or wrong in how things are dealt with because it’s determined by one’s conditioning. I know people get frustrated because I don’t always give the answers that are wanted, but that’s because I can’t. One can only see what’s within them and it’s not always what someone wants to accept. Accepting life as it is goes a long way in becoming liberated from the bondage of self and this acceptance will take seeing a diseased mind and body just as perfect as a healthy one.

Surface Mind Activity

Beneath the surface mind activity there’s nothing but space. This is difficult to see because life isn’t about what you think it is. In fact life is everything you think it isn’t, but it’s not seen because of trying to figure it out on the surface.

Round and round it goes and where it stops nobody knows. This is a perfect example of the mind activity that’s in place for most people. One thought after another, no space, no quietness, just the noise of the world manifesting as thought. If you could just sit back in a space where the noise subsides, there’s a chance to truly see what Jesus and Buddha spoke of. If you think you have an idea of what life is about, I’m sorry to disappoint you, but that’s just noise. There are no answers to what life is about, but the more solid one makes they’re existence, the more one will think they have life figured out. I’m not saying I know what life is about, but I do know what it isn’t about and that it has nothing to do with what is seen on the surface. The more one is controlled by the surface senses, the less life is experienced. Below the mind activity of the senses is the only place where life is truly experienced. You can travel all around the world and make up the story of all the beauty around you, but it’s only a story conjured up to provide surface pleasure and store it as a pleasurable memory. Beneath the surface no story is needed, no pleasure is needed, in fact nothing is needed because this is where true life exist.

Think about it, your entire life is a story until one day you no longer exist in your current form. Every storied experience is taken with you as if they never occurred. They were thought to be needed so you could make sense of your life, but really they mean absolutely nothing because they are all only created from the mind activity of the surface senses. Buddha talked about of delusion, Jesus spoke of not being of this world, what do you think they were talking about? If you remain entrapped to the surface mind activity, you will remain in your suffering. Even those who think they understand this don’t because it’s not something to understand. Beneath the surface mind activity where there’s nothing but space, there’s the possibility of truly seeing what life is about. Why there’s difficulty in seeing this is because life isn’t about anything that you think it is. In fact it’s about everything you think it isn’t and this is because of the trying to figure it out on the surface.

Poems

Alone Time

Alone Time

 

Thoughts drip

Forming rivers

In my mind

Like window pane

Rain

 

Demons demand

My time

Lurking, waiting

To strike without

Warning

 

The past

Has passed

But not gone

Away

 

The future

Has them

They loom

Dark as plague

Threatening

 

Drip, drip

They seep

Into my mind

Meandering.

What if it doesn't matter.

Is anyone there?

Can someone please say something?

My goodness, I need help,

Come on, it was an explosion

I need to take her to the hospital

bleeding badly, the tissues in her body pulling out,

I can’t lose you baby, stay with me

Don’t let go,I’m right here as tears drop down my faces

Under the cold of the night

She is not breathing; she is going to die, no, no, no, no

Don’t do this; I beg you, don’t leave me

Took off my coat and laid it on the ground so as her head can rest on it

My shirt also to tie around her bruised and wounded segments to stop the bleeding

Whispering to her to keep her awake

Lest death gradually takes her away

Hang on my love, don’t let go

Noticed her breathing veered

Struggling to breathe, her heart is beating

Going into a shock I suppose, my goodness

Pressing her chest, wishing in fear her heart would kick off again

Come on, stay with me, come on!

Offering her the kiss of life, in exchange for air into her lungs

Wake up, wake up and wake up

Screaming so loud and doubt anyone could hear me

Kept pumping in air and pressing her chest

Just trying something and anything to see her eyes blink

Then she came up with deep breath and tears in her eyes

Leaving me a bit comforted, what happened? She slowly asked

Come on just relax the ambulance is on its way,

You will be fine, you will be fine

Hoping that was true, needed to stay positive

There she was, losing so much of blood

What’s happening, the ambulance is taking too long

Oh no, can’t watch her die

Had to do something, I carried her

Running as fast as I could,

Her hands floating with no life or even a grip

The wind blowing against my face, felt like flash point for a sec,

Holding her tight to myself, knowing she was all I had

Talking to her and myself at the same time,

was a coat of madness in disguise

Was ready to do all I could to see her live again

Was it my fault, why did I leave her wondering alone?

Should have been with her,

Thoughts going through my head,

Yet nothing compared to the excruitiating pain she is going through

So close baby, we are so close, here comes the ambulance

In its loud and annoying sounds, what took you so long?

They took her in and placed the oxygen mask on her nose

Made me sit with her, holding her hands

So cold! and tender,

I’m here babe, love you so much,

Got to the hospital, the nurse asking questions

What happened, an explosion

Shaking so hard and tears ripping off my eyes

As I narrated the scenario to her

“Into the ICU”, the head nurse, I assume said

“Will she be fine?”Screaming at the top of my voice

Here she dropped another bomb on me, “I don’t know”

She has lost a large sum of blood, and a deep wound along her heart region

I doubt she will make it, but we will try our best,

I need her back, she everything to me

My world, the nursed walked out as I kept singing out my emotions

She is my direction, my stability

Without her am dead, will be miserable

Come on, can anyone really, really help me now

This too heavy for me, slowly my voice was tired

began to fade away, as I had exhausted myself.

My eyes gradually closing, waiting for the doctor to come out

Praying hard trying to change fact of what I could clearly see,

Twenty minutes later, he came out with this look on his face

Not exactly confident but pity written all over it

Curiously I approached him, Doctor how is she doing?

Hmm! With a deep breath, he nodded his head

“Am sorry, we tried all we could”

What is that supposed to mean?

“she could not make it” but she was alive when I got her here,

Doctor what happened to my lover, my life

As I rushed into the ICU, seeing her laying on the bed

With her nice cute head bent to the her left — my right

Like the ocean, she flowed away from my arms,

Didn’t know what to feel and how to feel

Was left stranded but this time was sure she wasn’t coming back

Why did you choose to leave me, “I did all I could”

Babe can you hear me, have a change of mind please,

Ok, eeh, can we switch places

Would love that, lets switch places, wake up, my love

Wake up, it’s a crazy life without you,

An empty world without you,

One more chance, just this last one with you again

Won’t take it for granted, will be there for you

Right there with you, holding your hand as we walk down the street

I promise will be more of a relationship now

Just wake up, smile at me again just one last time,

But she was gone

She was my life, your life

My thoughts, your thoughts

My pain and yours

My instincts and yours

She was my mind, “ Our mind”.

An Explosion of life: and our mind the victims.

She was a slave to it, so had to pay with her life

So she died.

{Do not confirm to the pattern of the world but be transformed by the renewal of your mind. Romans 12:2}